I won, motherfuckers>Christian nationalist parents>ADHD, fat, ugly, depressed>Daily severe abuse at home>Told by many teachers throughout highschool that I was a disappointment>Absolutely ignored by women because I was so spastic and also Jesus freak brainwashed>Older sibling gets really sick>I get put on the retard graduation plan where I only have to take two classes. I'm on so much antipsychotics medicine everything is constantly foggy.>Don't actually need the meds, misdiagnosed and Dr apologized later; I just hadn't slept more than three hours a night in four years by end of highschool>Graduation ceremony plays a video of each of my peers' plans, huge audience claps and cheers. >Heart breaking silence when my video plays about doing some humanitarian work>I don't blame them, I was 280 lbs, neckbeard, lethargic, and disruptive in classes>Parents skipped my graduation to host a BBQ, told me I'd be homeless immediately after graduating I locked in. I got some sleep. Joined a humanitarian org. Flew overseas, helped people, unbrainwahsed myself, rode a motorcycle, met a beautiful eastern girl and married her, helped a ton of people and simultaneously graduated with distinction from American university.It was all rage. All my fuel was rage. My motivation for helping refugees? Rage. Pure rage. Society took me and considered me disposable, trash. And I did and achieved more than any of those worthless alcoholics ever could have dreamed of doing. Seriously, I keep hearing stories of those peers crashing out and killing themselves or going on meth rampages.White America is such a fucking joke.
Same, I had sex with your mom and your wife in a threesome. I'm down with all the races.
>>80069266Honestly fuck my mom but please stay away from my wife
>>80069281what happened to your older sibling? it sounds like you abandoned them with your parents in search of personal pleasure through personal goals which are still definitionally 100% self-interest hedonism because they were YOUR goals.
>>80069241It sounds like everyone was very accommodating of you and the difficulties you caused them. Good on you for turning yourself around but your rage should have been gratitude for all the chances and grace everyone showed you by not beating you black and blue for how obnoxious you were.
Fueled by rage you helped bad people, enemies who wish to harm us. Being a shitty antisocial fuckup is not an achievement. Those alcoholics you complain about at least have the moral high ground compared to you. You are not a good person. Doing bad things is wrong.
>>80069338>usYou're not my kind, retard. You can barely read. You are dirt on the sole of my shoe.
>>80069338People who do meth or drink alcohol are subhumans.
>>80069302He was a golden child eagle scout who got schitzoprenia when he turned 18/19 and came home from his scholarship opportunities Bro I basically got beat every day by both of them. My mom's favorite game was waking me up with ice water at 5am. They were sick people. My sister told me she has been in therapy for past 8 years just from WATCHING how they treated ME. They mostly left her alone.>Abandoned themDawg I tried to kill myself, relaxants and sleep pills, and I would have succeeded eventually if I didn't flee. I think me dying would have been more damaging to them.
>>80069444put that context in next time, retard. your OP post objectively shows you as a gloating villain.
>>80069337I kinda feel like if kids as young as 10 are trying/succeeding to kill themselves routinely (the new England town I come from has a problem with this)...Maybe the issue was bigger than me acting out a little bit.A lot of graduates from my HS go to huge schools, ivy league etc, afterward but burn out within the year and come back to live in basement, or community college. Something's fucked up about that academic environment.
>>80069491Couldn't care less about what you think. I said he was sick, and I said my parents were abusive, and I said the teachers called me a disappointment...Connect the dots is literally an activity for downies and four year olds, sorry I believed in you
>>80069516>Couldn't care less about what you think.lmao dont talk like a cringing scared faggot you whiny little tudwhore be a man and own your fuck ups. dumbass feminnine brained insect bacteria
>>80069241you're a nobody, stop having a fit.dunning kruger retarded fatass.
>>80069241Adhd here. Grew up as a laughed at and ignored fat kid in a restrictive household where I had to follow my parent's manic schedule to the letter even during the weekend. Please help me channel my rage. It used to be constant, painful and powerful, but after suppressing it for so long it can barely move me. I think it caused irreparable damage to my psyche and my ability to function. I came very close to acking back last november. I need to break free or I will die.
>>80069566Someone's pissy
>>80069574I am all of those things and I still came out on top; that was the point of my post, good eye.
>>80069241>American universitymeme university. should've gone to Georgetown.
>>80069352I am literally superior to you by any and every metric in existence, practical and or theoretical.>>80069365People who do meth or drink alcohol are better than refugees and evil people like op.
>>80069302YOUNGER SIBLING CANNOT ABANDON OLDER SIBLINGS U FUCKING RETARD
>>80069594Real talk; some of that rage stems from daily feelings of betrayal from your parents and your community. You wake up hopeful that it will be different, forgiving their past mistakes, and then get slapped into the ground. Again and again, hundreds of times. It's not fair, and nobody cares that you aren't being malignantly lazy. You are trying 5x harder than anyone else, and getting punished for it.So if, or once you are, financially independent and living somewhere else:You should probably see a shrink. What has been helpful for me is, everytime I get a flashback to some horrible memory, I just concentrate on these words "love isn't supposed to hurt."Obviously people who love each other have arguments and make up, etc, but that isn't the kind of hurt I mean. I mean the kind of hurt where every time you picture them, you feel anger and confusion and despair and insecurity. I think those reactive feelings come from the repeated betrayals being nested between rose-tinted memories like buying you ice cream, and then bringing you home and screaming at you. Shit was fucked.Anyway. Just remember those words. "Love isn't supposed to hurt." It should help free you from feeling expected to care about them, or redeem that relationship. That's why child abuse is so bad; kids are biologically programmed to depend emotionally on parents, and thus endlessly forgive, so when parents take advantage of that nature... For short term stress relief.... Fuck them to hell.
>>80069720Dawg Assad was bombing these people, some christian and some Zoroastrian, and they just wanted foodTf are you on about? If I'm evil then Jesus was a right cunt
>>80069241I mean that was actually kind of a wholesome story up until that last line. Where did that come from? I mean nothing about your story reminds me of White people in America except for the idea of people sending their kids to a public school and putting them on drugs when they dont need them, though thats more of a multiracial issue than anything I guess.
>>80069751I'm so fucking angry man.
>>80069671That's your whore wife sucking and fucking your schizophrenic brother as she orgasms to your parents beating you.
>>80069803I just really hate white people from new EnglandThey're so competitive and honestly money obsessed. It's like they have no warmth or humanity. And that's just the rich ones. The poor ones are downright malicious.I've been travelling a long time and honestly, I hate interacting with whites because they are so arrogant but also boring. And zero social life initiative, especially in dating. I'm white, by the way.
>>80069872I feel that.When I bought my Suzuki bike I would just drive as fast as it would go, around midnight, between the refugee camp and my apartment up the highway, and I would just scream and scream into my helmet. Super cathartic.
>>80069241This reminds me of when I was drinking everyday, was fat and so out of shape from not moving and having a horrible diet of frozen meals and eating whatever (I just didn't care)One day after reading a post of a women I just started going out for walks (that's how she lost weight) and got in shape.I did 5 km the first day, then I started doing it almost everyday, day after dayI managed to lose weight and quit drinking, I look better now, I don't drink (still smoke but I'm trying to quit)But it was the anger and self disapointment in myself pushing me, just like OP
>>80069241good job anon, now you will breed and pass this shit onto your kids
>>80069241Based ragemasterI was the same kind of kid that wasn't supposed to "make it". Well I'm the one with advanced degrees from real universities and making progress in a white collar career while all the faggots I went to school with are some combination of poor, homeless, dead, addicted to drugs, and in prison.
ive volunteered to walk rescue dogs and while its nice and rewarding its still like, not as valuing as you think it is. if you werent there everything would r un and operate well without you,
yes, you won
>>80069241opeveryone demoralizing you is a filthy kike who wants you to be unhappyfeel your joy, your success, and revel in it.
>>80070215We don't plan on having kids. This is a big reason. I don't want to watch my wife suffer the way I saw my mom suffer over my brother. She hated me and loved him, but still.
>>80070472The humanitarian group I joined was bringing material aid and medicine to 200 refugee families. In summers we were stretched thin. It was often just the director and me and he had a permanent leg injury, and these aid bags weighed 50lbs each. So I made a difference.
>>80070574Thank you king, it has been a journey.
>>80070967I'll behaving kids with your turdwhore wife shooting a load into her filipino butthole.
>>80071199I didn't know my wife was filipino
>>80069241doing it out of rage was unhealthy, you didnt really do it to help anyone it seems, you did it so you could feel good about yourself and 'dunk on the haters', but these haters (your peers) still live rent free in your head apparently, you'd think doing all this would have made you forget about them but instead you're lasered in on them.i think you'll forever be stuck trying to prove to everyone that you're worth something, kind of sadsaying you're not having kids is kind of a tell that she'll leave you too, eastern women are family centric, even if she says she wants it she'll probably change her mindplus you spent all the time and you're not even rich... lol
>>80072118Even if everything you said was true, and it ain't, it's still better than the alternative which was blowing my brains out before I made it to 20. A win's a win.
