i want to kill myself everyday so badly and it never goes away and nobody will ever care or even believe me and nothing matters because i will always feel like shit constantly for the rest of my life i should kill myself
>>80070402What do you want to kill yourself over originally
>>80070410because everyday i wake upwhy do other people like things and like life its not fair wtf
>>80070503People like things because it makes them happy whether its stupid or engaging or not. Why does nothing make you happy anymore
>>80070535idunothe only thing that ever made me feel things was other peoplebut all people hate me
>>80070583Why do you feel like other people all hate you?
>>80070598they all like every person that isnt me and dont like methe only time anynyan liked me was just to pretend to so they could betray me for fun
>>80070627The horrible actions of some people doesn't mean everyone hates you. Liking someone isn't so easy to do either, not everyone is liked. How were you betrayed?
>>80070402I hope you are able to figure out what's going on, so you can have a peaceful and joyful life Op... I want you to know it's possible, even from the lowest lows, life can be joyous
>>80070762they ghost mei wish i had an irl friend so itd be impossible for them to ghost me, but i hate real life
>>80070850Even people you know IRL can ghost you anon. But having friends in real life can do a lot for your overall mental health. Are you not able to find hobby groups locally?
>>80070857dont have hobbylive in middle of nowhere with no car
>>80070870Anon, here isn't a great place to find friends. Many of us are beyond broken. Cant have anyone in our lives without it going catastrophic. And we've intentionally isolated ourselves.I'm sorry for whoever ghosted you like that. It does suck and is not fair..
>>80070870How middle of nowhere is nowhere, like what's your towns population? Are you able to work towards having a car? The thing about hobbies is you can always jump into new ones.
>>80070942iduno how to get a job that isnt mcdonalds im not allowed to be a millionaire that can afford a cariduno how to like things and do things
>>80071086Anywhere is a step to somewhere, even McDs. Stash away money, get a cheap car, and then you can get better jobs, explore moving to a different city or state, and go from there. It sounds like you have major depression on top though. What was the last time you were happy, when was it?
>>80070402try going to church anon, its all i gothttps://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directories/parishes/
>>80070402there is no need to kys as we are already dead; understand that life is suffering, you are not different; most suffering is from realizing that expectations were much greater than what is achiavable
>>80071118cant, too weak to have a car or walk for 5 hours>>80071112i dont want to go through all the excruciating effort of trying to spend more of my time wageslaving because money wont ever bring me anything because i dont want anything so i will continue flipping burger until im strong enough to kms
>>80070402This is something that I already asked you but I forgot: are you a woman, OP?
>>80070402I feel the same. I wish I could just lay in bed, doing nothing, until I starve to death. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to get out of bed.
>>80071188nice dubsi cant be a woman, all women live in paradise and are elated 24/7
>>80071175Are you wageslaving currently in any way? Have you not been able to enjoy anything like games, anime, movies, books, music, at all?>>80071214Why do you feel women live in paradise?
>>80071214Good. I was thinking about a certain time (last year) where I was sure that you were a foid and I would get angry by seeing you complaining about your life, kek.
>>80071382How can you remember a person with so little information over so long ago wtf
>>80071357if ur women u can just not have sex and then say "hello male human being i will give u children and married u" and then u can just laze around and eat grapes all while he provides everything for youand you get to bake muffins all daybasically all i'[ve done in my adult life is 8$/hr food service jobs for 7 years iduno how to enjoy things, the best i can get is escapism like sh1t light novels
>>80071398Because he posts the novel of the girl who likes books (Maine, I think) and I liked the anime (while OP hated it). Also, he posted almost every day for a certain time.
>>80071412What would make you actually smile and laugh? Hard question I know, I've been in your shoes. What would make life actually make you want to get out of bed? Is it more money, is it a woman in your life, is it a group of friends? Women live their own hells with their own issues, it's not as easy as you say.
>>80071457It's as easy as he says. Since the start you will have a better feedback which will help with social skills which will help with network which will help you to get a job. In the job, being a woman will help a lot too, since people will treat your better (and in other areas of your life too). There are other things but I'm lazy to point out everything.
>>80071457im messed up, the only thing that ever made me feel anything is when i felt like i was actually wanted and cared about, but the only times that happened was with e-relationships with homos on the internet so i crave it and want to have an fp again but its both not possible and gay
>>80071521Why not have e-relationships with girls then if you don't want to be gay..?
>>80071527i dont see women has human because they are unable to thinkthey are unable to converse
>>80071560Myne would look at you disgusted rn
>>80071560Why do you think women can't think or converse? Some of the more engaging conversations I've had have been with women. >>80071500I've known plenty who'd disagree.
>>80071575i would not give her the ick i'm just like lutz>>80071581all women stupid though, i dont understnyandim retard and im more smarter than them
>>80071636What have your interactions with women been like to make you so callous?
>>80071581Most people would disagree. No one wants to accept that they have done well in life because of genetic determinism.
>>80071655ive never interacted with women personally but ive just never seen a single one capable of thoughtthey are motherboards with RAM that can obtain information and they all have good GPUs but none of them have a CPU
>>80071760You should try interact with women sometime, then.
