>Was a normal child until 12>Started feeling depressed>Lost all my friends because I was a bummer to be around>Have never had a friend sinceAny other failed normies like this?
>>80070868Something inside me just kind of snapped around 14 and I've just never had proper emotions since. Since then I've just become increasingly angry and violent until I calmed down around 30.
>>80070868That's just the standard depression experience bro.It doesn't get better.
Imagine not being born a complete social failure kek couldn't be me
>>80070894Did you completely calm down or only partially>>80071032I think most depressed people still have friends. I'm completely friendless. If I had something I wanted to share with someone, or tell someone, all I would have is my teddy bear (I have also developmentally regressed slightly from the loneliness overtime I think).
>>80071219>I think most depressed people still have friends. I'm completely friendless. If I had something I wanted to share with someone, or tell someone, all I would have is my teddy bear (I have also developmentally regressed slightly from the loneliness overtime I think).Well, clearly you also have us.I'm in the exact same situation.So is everyone else here.What are you expecting from a place such as this?
Imagine falling in love with your depression. Genuinely sit down and reflect on that statement. So many robots in love with depression for no reason.
>>80070868For me it feels like it started with puberty. And not just mine. I was a late bloomer so I saw everyone else get taller, deeper voices, or just more we'll adjusted before I even had a chance
>>80071266It's soothing, after long enough alone you become your own best companion
>>80070868I became retarded around 13-16.5 after that I started getting my shit back on track but I used to be a giga nerd, into physics and math. I programmed a lot and made my own game engines, video games, software, etc. I was intellectual chad with a lot of friends but I kind of snapped and barley graduated high school. I realized I was headed towards a corporate approved normie life and I realized how stupid everyone is. That it's not worth impressing people anymore and I stopped wanting to be normal and perusing things. Nowadays I work in the medical field and I'm constantly stressed about getting fired because I hate people and am rude to people and I don't take my job seriously.
>>80071252I don't really expect anything. I'm just screaming into the digital void. It's all I can do at this point. It gives me some catharsis to write my feelings down and sometimes an iota of happiness when I get a whisper back.>>80071284That's sad. I wasn't a late bloomer but an early stopper. Normal sized at 14 and tiny by 16.
>>80071219Only partially. I've still got a lot of unresolved ugliness inside me.
Pretty similar here.>Normal child but already signs>Can only talk to people a year younger or way older>Start getting depressive symptoms for some reason at 14>Not fake emo depressed>Had one friend who I could almost never seeAnd the rest is fairly predictable. I know how to fit in with normies irl now but there's not much point as it's mostly with distant extended family. >>80071252nta, this is what I think pretty much. Even when I find that it's hard to get in with this board, there's still some level of comfort.
>>80070868yeah i was very popular but extremely shy as a 9 year old but things kept happening to me. trauma after trauma. i went from "shy but trying" to mute. puberty didnt hit until i was 16 and when it did hit, it made me uglier with a weirder voice. when i speak now at 25, my words are slurred, my thoughts are slow, and sometimes i don't respond at all. shit existence but i'm trying
