>youngest, autistic black sheep, always been the emotional punching bag and the "nigger" of the family>mental health suffered badly bc of it>dissociated from all my family for a few months in an attempt to heal my mental health>i finally heal my mental health>start talking to them again in an attempt to reconnect>dad off the bat tells me im annoying him and being a bother bc i tried to contact him>mother tries to gaslight me into suicide and drops me off on the side of the road after offering to give me a ride somewhere>older brother ghosts me because my mental health improved too much to let him bring me down or control me>tfw i realize my entire family is made up of horrible peoplehas anyone else here had similar experiences? Whats happened, was that i cut them out for a few months to heal my mental health, and once i went back to try to mend things with them, they went full mask-off as bullies and haters and got rid of meIs this something that actually happens in other families or is this an outlier situation?
>>80072166Relatively normal. They are intimidated by your latent power level
>>80072180even family really shouldnt be assumed to be trustworthy either then, is what ive realized. i really didnt want to have to accept such a thing, so ive made a lot of efforts to put it off. ppl always say shit like "family will always be there" but thats bs, even they are purely self serving and see everything transactionally
>>80072166Yeah mine were bad like that too op I'm sorry. It sucks because your subconscious still wants relationships with them. This is because children are biologically programmed to forgive everything because they emotionally depend on their parents. Which is why child abuse is so insidious.Something that helps my rage and sadness, is saying out loud "love is not supposed to hurt" whenever I have a CPTSD flashback to family trauma or anything.Every time I think of them, I feel confusion and insecurity and pain. That isn't what love is supposed to feel like. And if it isn't love, it isn't worth it. It helps liberate me to move on and forget that trash.
>>80072209I feel the same way about my family, but there are good people out there. And can you really blame people for being self serving? You can't save a drowning person if you can't swim, if you catch my drift.
ive just realized, what a nice alternative to therapy that the internet is. I can rant about my personal problems and get near useless input from a stranger for free here, instead of paying a jew for it, or bothering the ppl i care about about it. What a delightful thing
>>80072265>ppl always say shit like "family will always be there" but thats bswell yeah but ig you are told that you are held in higher esteem by parents, or by family in general, or valued more, but thats not always the case and in ways its a nasty lie. bc a lot of parents have children for completely selfish reasons. i get it tho, they have lots of problems tooyeah i feel you tho ive met a lot of good ppl in the world that made me realize that i just had bad models to look to. thanks though
>>80072166>mother tries to gaslight me into suicide and drops me off on the side of the road after offering to give me a ride somewherethis is clinically insane behavior and they don't deserve to be near you ever againcompletely DEFOO and never speak to them gainif they ever die throw a party for yourself
>>80072337I gotchu. Yeah I never looked up to either of my parents, let alone any of my family members. I always kinda thought they were fucking retards, and never took anything they said personally/listened to any of their destructive "advice."
>>80072413>Yeah I never looked up to either of my parents, let alone any of my family membersyea same i gaslit myself a few times though into thinking they must know better
