I'm a failed female. Is there anything more pathetic than someone who was born on easy mode and manages to screw it up because of her inept social skills? I thought I would get better as time went on, but I'm getting worse everyday. I feel a constant state of emptiness. I want to just harm myself because the makes me happy.
>>80073298How are you fucking everything up so bad? Harming does feel nice though, also on easy mode and I made a shitshow out of everything.
>>80073298>Is there anything more pathetic than someone who was born on easy mode and manages to screw it up because of her inept social skills?You dont need to pander to the incel rhetoric anon. Lifes hard for everyone, dont beat yourself up
>>80073298>I'm a failed female. Is there anything more pathetic than someone who was born on easy mode and manages to screw it up because of her inept social skills?Do you really think that females have it that easy?
>>80073298Just pick up some form of martial art and get jacked
>>80073303I have no friends in real life. Everyone send to think I'm a weirdo. The only company I get is from here, twitter, and my two online friends. I don't think they like me either. I feel like they only really to me because they feel bad.How is it like for you? >>80073309I guess so, but it's much easier for me. But I still manage to be so pathetic. >>80073311Other girls manage to make friends so easily. I envy them. They seem so happy being around people. >>80073312Which?
>>80073298have you tried jumping in front of a semi
>>80073328I haven't, but I've thought of jumping off a bridge.
>>80073298heres a motha frickin virture mwah.to me, 'not having friends' just means, the vile mean world, didnt want someone who seemed genuine..
>>80073298>I thought I would get better as time went on, but I'm getting worse everyday. I feel a constant state of emptiness. I want to just harm myself because the makes me happy.Sorry to hear that you're suffering I for one can't bear being with my thoughts for longer than 15 minutesMaybe try listening to music or farming attention here? Cutting will only make you feel worse long term but I'm sure you know that already...
>>80073325Why don't you think they like you? Does having them in your life not help you?
>>80073325Other girls probably find it easier because they're not doubting themselves as much as you and have less inhibitions. Nothing ventured nothing gained type beat. Why do you feel like you're regressing or your two online friends don't like you either? >How is it like for you? Same as you, completely alone when I shouldn't be. Genetically fine but no friends just self harm and spiral
>>80073298I'm not here to rub it in, some people are simply not built to live in this world. Today's society is unnatural, fast, you get ripped away from the people you grow up with(your tribe). Not everyone can deal with that.
>>80073343That's a good way to look at it, I suppose. But they seem so happy whenever they hang around with each other. It seems like there's a lot I am missing out. >>80073348Yeah. My mind wants to torture me it seems. I usually listen to music non-stop. It feels satisfying to watch it get bloody. I think I deserve the pain for being so pathetic. >>80073352Supposedly I come of as very autistic. I don't usually talk to people unless they talk to me. I give very short responses and I'm very awkward and struggle with eye contact. I don't know what they talk about either. It seems to foreign to me that they can talk about anything.
>>80073325>Which?Depends on what kinda places are nearby you.
>>80073334Nah too basic been done before
>>80073373Hm you're not giving short responses here, but maybe it's different here. I think you should try and talk to your friends more the way you do here. I am sure that they like you more than you think.
it is okay, I would head pat you to make you feel better
having friends is magical being loved is special
>>80073373Nothing pathetic about struggling to fit in with the wider world and how emotionally dead everyone is. I don't know how neurotypicals go about it.
>>80073356I used to be much happier. My mom and I weren't talking for a two weeks so it made me very paranoid and it got worse from there. I want to just hide from the rest of the world. It's the online way that I feel safe. I feel that they don't like me because I see nothing interesting in myself. I just feel like I'm existing for the sake of it. I'm too much of a coward to actually kill myself. >>80073358I feel disconnected from my family too... >>80073376Okay, thank you! I might look onto it. I'm usually a more artistic person. I might learn to crochet to not become more insane.>>80073390I mean with people irl. I guess you're right, but I find it so hard to believe people. They could spend their time talking to other people that aren't a mess and will make them happy.>>80073391Thank you
>>80073425If you see nothing interesting in yourself then try ask your closer friend what they like about you and what your good points are. Its fine to ask friends for some validation. Online is good short term but dont put all your eggs in one basket either there. >They could spend their time talking to other people that aren't a mess and will make them happy.Nta but people talk to others for lots of reasons we are all different and sometimes unhappy people can be fun to talk to and cheer up
>>80073298don't whore yourself to 4chan incels (like someone else said, don't pander to incel rhetoric), 4chan moids are the worst people on the earth. we both know being a female is the opposite of easy mode. stop caring about what men think. and as for platonic friendships, screw them. find something else fulfilling. personally, I like accruing knowledge, I wanna be a supergenius before I die :3
>>80073425>crochetThat works too. Crochet is bad ass.
>>80073325>Other girls manage to make friends so easily. I envy them. They seem so happy being around people.Well idk if it makes you feel better but it's not just you, I was so anxious and clingy in school that I would follow people around and take on all their hobbies, interests, taste in music etc and pretend to know what they were talking about just to fit in. Every single time I found a few friend group. Only thing I ever wanted was to be normal and "fit in" but ironically I failed. To this day I've never had original taste in anything.>>80073334>I haven't, but I've thought of jumping off a bridge.Another jumper? Most other people say that jumping is scary to me but it's always been my prefered way out hypothetically.>>80073373>Yeah. My mind wants to torture me it seems. I usually listen to music non-stop. It feels satisfying to watch it get bloody. I think I deserve the pain for being so pathetic.I think the part of you that thinks you need punishment should fuck off. It's tough having a voice in your head that hates you 24/7 and never ever shuts up, it almost feels like another entity to me but then I realize it's just me...But seriously you deserve better than getting nagged at 24/7... I have hope one day you will escape this mental prison, you and me both
>>80073407It does seem magical. It would be nice to have someone you can spend your time with just chatting. I imagine myself going to a cafe with friends and eating yummy parfaits together. >>80073412They don't seem real. Their social life is so natural, it is really enviable. Having people they can trust and rely on seem so natural.
>>80073390I second this. being transparent might lose you friends, but it also can gain you lifelong friends that you can tell anything. trust me, as a loser, it works to be blunt.
>>80073445Random question but are you half korean
>>80073456Do you have friends you can be yourself around anon? If so how did you meet them?
>>80073462Yeah...how did you know? Have I really posted enough to make a digital footprint here?
>>80073437>OP humbles herself before posting>is welcomed with open arms with loving advice from "evil" incelsHmmm
>>80073445>To this day I've never had original taste in anything.We are a collection of the 5 people closest to us. Nobody is unique. Every story is derivative of The Epic of Gilgamesh. Who you are is how you mix that cocktail.
>>80073447perhaps the most magical thing of all would be to live your dreams and dreaming isnt a crime, live for those dreams cutting is moe and you are a gem
>>80073471Lol sorry if it was creepy, we just talked before in a thread and I remembered that about you. I hope you're doing well anon. You always seem like a nice person.
>>80073447You can still have people to trust and rely on when you're like the rest of us outcasts here. It's harder and you have to make a leap of faith to trust someone. But you can still trust, and it's rewarding when you do.
Just be my wife. We'll make bunch of kids and so you won't be alone anymore, even when I'm at work, and bond will be much stronger than with mere friends.
>>80073488Go back to bed and start the day over anon I am begging you. That was so lame and cheesy.
>>80073477can you stop being retarded
>>80073500That's very rude of you, anon. Be better!
>>80073488fuck off nigga she wants to be my wife rather then yours, she can be friends with lots of our children.
>>80073469I saw a girl (recovering from a pooner phase just like me) with postal plushies in a clear backpack and she also wore kmfdm shirts. I gained the courage to talk to her and it was a bit easy since she was more of a loser than me. I just complimented her and started doing autistic shit around her that she found funny and giving her trinkets - and a few days later, we're laughing at shittly drawn loud house hentai on the school computer. she is ma bestie
>>80073436I could do that. I really struggle with trying to find something to talk to with people. I don't have a life outside of online. I have no awareness or understanding of what people find interesting. It's my fault though, I never bothered to look. I was too absorbed in other things. >>80073437They can be genuine sometimes. I mostly have self esteem issues. I hate how I look and I guess that translates to other things. It just feels so lonely at times. And that's really cool. I want to make clothing in the future. It seems so fun. All the cute clothes are so expensive.>>80073445>Every single time I found a few friend group. Only thing I ever wanted was to be normal and "fit in" but ironically I failed. To this day I've never had original taste in anything.I hung around with a group of people when I was younger. It was mainly three girls that were friends. I felt like an outsider. Now, I just hang out in a corner where no one sees me. And jumping off seems like it would be fairly instantaneous. I hope that you get better too. It just feels like your mind wants to torture you and make you suffer. It's really horrible.>>80073456You're right. It seems like it would feel terrible to be faking a personality constantly to be liked.>>80073462I'm not.
>>80073513I'm happy for you, but you have no idea how much jealousy I feel over you. Maybe I should wear more merch when I go outside and hope that some fellow freak approaches me over it. Well I hope you two can help each other and good job on recovering poonerism
>>80073373>they seem so happyliars do be lyin nonstop, some are genuine, but they wont realize they are hanging with assholes, til way down the line
>>80073504I think im giving you good advice when I tell you to stop being retarded. first of all, shes downplaying herself by saying shes living life on easy mode - shes clearly been brainwashed by 4chan rhetoric. second of all, some of the people in the replies are probably women like me. thirdly, people are giving her good advice, but people are also telling her to be their wife so they can breed her - as well as telling her to jump in front of a semi. not nice!
>>80073523thank you- I've grown my hair out all the way and I love being a girl and wearing cute clothes, I've been missing out. but anyways, YES. advertise your interests if you're too shy to approach people - and then people will eventually approach YOU
>>80073517Talk to people and keep asking them questions. Ask them what they find interesting. Talk about what you find interesting. There's infinite things to talk about. The more you do it the better you get at it. What are you interested in and what do you spend your time in? Think about what you'd want people to ask you. Then flip those questions on others.>And jumping off seems like it would be fairly instantaneous. You regret every moment your feet leave the ground, everyone who has jumped and lived has said the same
>>80073482I see so many cute stuff in anime. I want to live it out. I want to make desserts for my future friends. It would make me really happy if I could make another person happy with what I made. I ordered some razor blades so I can properly cut, I'm just waiting on them.>>80073487You're right. I can only really go here to vent. This place has so many understanding people. >>80073525They did seem like they were in a lot of drama.
>>80073536That's nice anon, I am sure you are a cute and pretty gril. I will try and take your words of advice. I feel like people never approach me though I'll hope.
>>80073555://3 heheee u too anon chan good luck
>>80073553you are the cutest girl in the world to eat your desserts would be a treat.. to see your cuts would be a sight.. and to be your friend.. oh my fauci
>>80073547I'll keep that in mind, thank you so much.Failing to commit suicide is a big deterrent. It seems like it would make my life even worse.
>>80073553>in a lot of dramatry not to fall for the drama trap, drama can drive you kookoo, i know from experience. youre doing fine anon, no need to worry to much!
>>80073553What kind of desserts are you making this answer determines if I will be your friend
>>80073437>4chan moids are the worst people on the earth.I may have been on this site for almost a decade and a half but Im actually very pleasant in person and handsome to boot.
need failed female gf and I need her now
>>80073437>worst people on the earth.surely this is hyperbole of a youngen?
>>80073587Can confirm. This aon personally saved me from a house fire and on that same day he even saved 20 puppies.
>>80073485I didn't find it creepy at all! It sounds pathetic but it feels kind of nice being recognized on an anonymous site...I guess it's a small site after all>>80073517>I could do that. I really struggle with trying to find something to talk to with people. I don't have a life outside of online. I have no awareness or understanding of what people find interesting. It's my fault though, I never bothered to look. I was too absorbed in other things. Maybe your problem is that you just overthink things? I also talk with people both IRL and online and assume they are creeped by me or mad by something I said but I find out later that they either didn't care at all or found it funny. It doesn't really go away though...I guess when normies talk they don't worry about these things at all...One of the reasons I cling to 4chan is because I could never take compliments seriously, every compliment I receive feels like something just being nice and doesn't really change my perception of myself at all, someone this site feels real even though it's probably as far from resl as it gets.
>>80073570Thank you, I've always enjoyed baking. It's really calming. I can only baby cut for now, I want to do styro.>>80073581Thank you very much. I watch a lot of lolcow content to stay grounded, I guess. People are messing up their lives worse than I do, I'm just very thankful. >>80073583Asian Cream Cake, Parfaits, Cookies, and Baklava. I love cooking too. I haven't been baking recently. I might end up eating too much sweets.
>>80073619Okay those sweets sound good. Let's be friends. I'll be over tomorrow to eat them.>I watch a lot of lolcow content to stay grounded, I guess.It also changes how you view people. You need to touch grass and interact with peers more. Are you at least working or studying? Being a NEET makes socializing hell
>>80073614Facts>>80073619Also please dont cut yourself, thats not healthy.
>>80073619>lolcowcutie, i dont even know what lolcow is, hahahah
>>80073572Fucking up suicide makes life hell. Off to grippy sock jail you go and you have a permanent record. Good luck making friends, you can do it. It's not easy and it won't ever be, but it's worth having people you can trust and depend on.
>>80073617I'm often very paranoid. I think about what someone says to me, especially if it's negative, for hours. It just stays in my mind. It makes me so anxious and I get so afraid if they're mad at me. They seem to be really good at telling if people are serious or not. They're very socialized. I feel the same. Compliments don't change my perception of myself either. It's really hard to tell, I see girls being fake and giving compliments and it makes it even harder. This site feels genuine because people aren't obligated to put up a persona.
>>800735264chan is unfortunately a male space. When you play it safe, it lubricates interaction. If you did the same you would probably receive a lot more positivity. But you can't so you lash out, bordering on psychosis, when userbase inevitably treats you like shit.
>>80073627I'm doing both. It's good because I could buy stuff I want. I recently bought matcha protein powder. I can't wait for it to arrive because it's supposedly like the actual thing. >>80073632It's starting to feel like an addiction honestly...>>80073643It really does seem nice. I want to improve my self esteem before I try making friends. I don't want to be a burden. Thank you so much.
>>80073660You shouldnt do painful stuff to yourself. Trying new, healthy hobbies is good though. I recently took up gardening in my little slice of patio space I have available, very rewarding to cultivate new life.
>>80073570weird, strange, rope
>>80073619I really like cooking too and I guess its my only current hobby although idk if you can call it that since its just feeding yourself. I really want to learn other dishes besides just western slop and Korean food though...I also used to spend alot of time following lolcows on various forums but I stopped since it's probably not good for my psyche to derive dopamine from watching others struggle and flounder >>80073437Unfortunately this anon is correct. There might be moments of serenity and an illusion of company here but underneath it's all really rotten :(I've spent so long in the shadow world that sometimes the shadows feel more real than the light that casts them...but make no mistakes, this is the shadow world. No friends here...just frens
>>80073696That seems really fun! What are you planting? >>80073734Korean food is so good. I'm craving Galbi Jim now. Also, I want to experience Afternoon Tea. It just looks so yummy. A lot of us here suffer, so we understand what someone here would feel..I'm going to head to bed soon. I've been struggling to sleep a lot lately.
>>80073777Goodnight anon ^^Hope you dream of parfaits and sheep or whatnotI hope you feel better soon and don't cut yourself :/
>>80073777Oh lots of things, mostly exotic looking. Like purple and yellow tomatoes, potatoes, jalapenos, yellow raspberries, pink blueberries, pineberries, dragonfruit, etc. its a little pricey at first but probably pays for itself in the long run. Also saw pic related by my new flowers the other day, little things like that make life a little more worth living I think. Might not be a social hobby but everyone needs a little alone time outside, helps ground you pun intended.
