school really cripples your self esteem as a kid if you're even somewhat different. I have a lot of unresolved feelings of anger, betrayal and hurt from 5 and 6th grade especially. Directed to my peers, teachers and others who have treated me unfairly and left me to rot. Those people live their own lives and I am nonexistent to them so exerting energy to hold grudges just depletes me and is useless. But I cant help it my inner child is extremely hurt.I recently discovered an old SD card with videos of me when I was 10. I had a passion for being in front of a camera and while I cringed a little the most prominent emotion was melancholy and sadness. I wanted to cry for that kid because he's done nothing wrong and embodied so much joy. It also made me depressed because with maturing and aging comes the notion of gaining "wisdom" and "knowledge" but I feel like as kids we are the wisest. Not a bother for social conventions, yearning for love yet not shying back from being yourself. Just being "cringe" in public and expressing yourself. Every human should live until age 9 or 10 and then just die. Developing any further and becoming corrupted by this world in the name of "advancement" or an arbitrary destiny is the greatest tragedy. I love you kid me, you deserve peace and belonging.
>>80075338>Every human should live until age 9 or 10 and then just die. Developing any further and becoming corrupted by this world in the name of "advancement" or an arbitrary destiny is the greatest tragedy.The disconnect between society and human nature scares me. Everyone is on countless meds and when kids start revolting against the system... they want to take away the tools they use. Early retirement and homeschooling my kids is the goal.
The only thing l learned in school was to become bitter and getting my confidence ground to dust. It honestly would have been better if l had just stopped going alltogether, l would still have the equivalent of garbage grades but without becoming an emotional cripple
>>80075338I'm sorry that happened to you anon. It's a sensitive formative age. A school is really just a small pond and if it wasn't your place to fit in, it's not your fault.
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