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Do the math.

Do the math dance.

Are deep web market pharma drugs from Indian vendors actually legit? Stuff like dutasteride or finasteride.

>>80076847
Just order them off clearnet are you retarded

>>80076857
I fail to see how a random clearnet site is any more reptuable than a verified deep web market

>>80076511
I just took an oxy for the first time and it was bliss
It felt like all my health issues, mental or physical got removed.
I hate knowing I'll come off of this and have to be sober and therefore feel like and be in terrible health again.

Can somebody please teach me about LSD listings? What does "5X -- 100X" mean? I already know what ug is.

>>80077028
never heard of X'es in acid listings
You sure that's not just the amount of blotters?

>>80076938

I just received some morphine pills, and they seem to be coming up, it's been a while since I had a proper opioid experience

It's only thursday and I've already done diazepam, clonazepam,pregabalin and methylphenidate this week. Thoughts?

>>80077155
Does five 250ug blotters for 30 USD sound about right?

>>80077202
What is Clonazepam like?

>>80077220
I'm not american so I wouldn't know how american currency and pricing works.

>>80077247
Seems very similar to diazepam to me. They all seem very similar. I only wish I had xanax because it doesn't last very long

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It's so wonderful to be alive when opioids are flowing through your veins

>>80077220
Seems a bit pricey. Professor for example offers 5 blotters for 22 euros
https://professor.nl/product/1cp-lsd-100-mcg-blotters/

>>80077294
This, nothing hurts, nothing concerns you, you're just peacefully nodding.

>>80077220
that sounds right for the amount of tabs. but you can't trust the dose.

>girl i'm seeing broke things off
>dont really care
heroin got your back lol.

>>80077862
if if in this scenario you took meth instead of heroin what would happen

I can't believe I wrote off stims and was a bartard for years. I feel like the king of the world.

>>80076511
I did some really stupid shit while blackout drunk the other night...

>>80078086
>I feel like the king of the world
so you're back to the stims? Vyvanse I'm guessing?

I took 300mg of tilidine and felt nothing but a little warmth. how fucked is my tolerance?
also, does permanent opioid tolerance exist?

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After watching cannabis and adderall explode into multi-billion dollar businesses. I wonder what other illegal things will soon explode into big business?

>>80078537
I sure hope prostitution.

I think the whole alcohol withdrawal causes seizures thing is a meme by alcoholics that don't want to quit. I was downing entire bottles of Bacardi and fireball everyday then stopped and I'm completely fine. I just have nightmares

>>80078551

That is a really good guess. I didn't even think of that one.

Having friends that care about you is better than opioids but opioids are easier to get your hands on
anyways oxycodone is my best friend.

I thought I could maintain my tramadol dose. I only lasted a few weeks before by the evenings I'd be irritable, or even runny nose. I'd even get angry. Then I just justify it like what's the point of living when I feel like this? So I took more. Now I'm up to 300mg a day. In the past I ALWAYS capped it at 400mg. But I know the withdrawals will be brutal. Opiates always seem like the solution and they are for several months, until they genuinely make things worse you don't even get high and now you desperately need expensive pills just to not feel violently ill.

>>80079057
Do you ever experience opiate rage?

>>80078994
yep.
same.
couldn't deal with rehab and AA because of how many of those faggots had everything like friends, gfs and jobs on a silver platter and used it all away. all they had to do was not be drunken pieces of shits. me i was alone long before i first started using.
one counselor in rehab kept treating me like i was one of those young fuckboys who ruin their life to show how baller they are and asked why i was lying(???) about not having people that cared. went silent and left me alone after i showed her my phone, literally nobody had called me in the three weeks i had been there.

After about 2 hours, I felt relaxed and a bit calmer. It's different from Vicodin in that this isn't a sort of heady, thinking drug. Its more of a fuzzy-wuzzy drug. Just sort of rounds all the edges away from the sharp demands of a day. About 1am came the horniness. It wasn't so much as 'I need to be penetrated' horniness, but more of an 'all over awareness of my sexual being' feeling. It's about 2:40am now (6.5 hours since I took the clonazepam) and the fuzziness has increased and the horniness has increased as well. I have some dry mouth and some dry eyes, but other than that, not a single side effect. I have been able to moderately continue to type without too much problems. I have lost track of some thoughts halfway through them.
Hot

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>be European
>legit oxy 80 and morphine 200 are 6-10 euro per pill
>legit h is still available but better test it though
>fentanyl and nitazenes are rare and mostly sold as what they are
>Tramadol and methadone are being made in clandestine labs as a safer alternative (5 euro per gram of tram)
>eurospeed and cathinones are so cheap I don't even bother counting. Like 1 euro per 30mg of pure amph sulphate
>you can get meth if you want but it isn't used to cut anything else
>MDMA is maybe 5 euro per pill
>in my country edibles are legal and sold online without even age verification, also you can get weed prescription by just saying you have anxiety and meds didn't work
>easy to get prescription for benzos, pregabalin and MPH
>Codeine and dxm are OTC here
>RC scene is still kicking but keeps low profile
>legal mushroom growkits and cannabis seeds
>Schengen zone allows fast and safe international shipping
>precursor chemicals are only loosely regulated
>paraphernalia are fully legal
>you can get all that shit delivered to automated parcel lockers with fully fake info and a safe email
>production of drugs in general is tends to be local, decentralized and competitive, we don't have some militarized turboviolent cartels holding monopoly
>no drug testing at workplaces, universities and schools
>chill justice system and law enforcement in general, you just don't go to jail for possesion for personal use. Even if you get locked up dealing or something the sentences are short and it isn't nearly as bad as in Murica where you have to join a gang and fight in race wars. Cops aren't doing some glowie shit to catch some weed growers either

Eurochads we just know how to live. I am listening to Ode to Joy right now

>>80079179
Where are your parents and siblings if you don't mind me asking?

>>80079301
Only thing that isn't true is the prison sentences but aside from that it's great, especially parcel lockers holy shit it's perfection.
yet another reason why I'm glad not to be an americuck

>>80076511
based bolton poster

https://youtube.com/shorts/SRSFYCEebGg

is 90mg a lot of oxy? the only time ive ever got truly high off oxy was when i took 90mg and everyone seems to think thats too much
for reference ive gotten fuck up on 40 mg morphine and 200mg tramodol before

i wish opiates and alcohol were as good a combo as opis and benzos, the alcohol totally masks the opiate feeling ime and they just conspire to make me nauseated

>>80078409
Nah methylphenidate analogs and cathinones.

>>80079301
Legit H is around on DNMs in America still.
>>RC scene is still kicking but keeps low profile
If you know the feds know there is no low profile.
Everything else fair enough.

>>80079840
Yeah 20-30 is a good dose for no tolerance. 50 mg had me nodding for hours low tolerance.

Wow tramadol does suck as a high, way too stimulating. I just wanna chill out and relax, and 50mg is unironically better for that.

>>80080111
I never had trams but I was dependent on O-DSMT for a little while and the stimulation and functionality was part of the appeal, could drive on it and never worry, guess the more sedative opioids are generally more euphoric though.

>>80080128
O-DSMT is a different beast, people like it better. Tramadol is really "dirty," it works on all kinds of receptors; if you're ODing on trams, you're having a seizure before you need to be Narcan'd. O-DSMT is much more smooth and I think has less receptor action and more opiate action, giving a perfect balance. Also I can't drink pink lemonade on tramadol because of the grapefruit juice.

God I don't even wanna talk about it anymore, it just makes me sad that the RC scene is dead. There was stuff there that was way better than the "real thing."

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>>80078537
>illegal

Sus

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https://on.soundcloud.com/tGQTBrvYTtAMjoCw7

>>80079071
Yes so I also took up smoking which helps it

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>>80080047

The way it works is that there are EU countries with no "blanket ban" and they still have actually legal RCs, they may get banned eventually but before that you are safe. Stores based there also ship to countries where certain thing is illegal, with stealth, crypto payment and allowing VPNs. Combined with lax customs and parcel lockers it can be about as safe as buying from darknet, but instead of hiding behind TOR you hide behind a national border. It's also done with substances that aren't some not-banned-yet analogs but fully legal stuff like kratom, some cannabis products, psilocybin truffles.

I personally don't use them but many people do because of low prices and higher quality

>>80080489
But they won't ship to the US, so I'm still fucked.

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planning on a decently heavy trip with shrooms on friday and was debating whether or not to use my self-prescribed once-every-few-months dose of dxm alongside it. also been really paranoid about it too so ive thought of dropping dxm entirely. what do you all think?

>>80080637
i think that that is probably a really bad idea and that you have an unreasonably high likelihood of going into psychosis.

i've started suffering from depersonalisation everytime I smoke heavy dosages of weed and I'm honestly beginning to enjoy it
the first time was terrifying and it took ages to go away, but nowadays it's only scary during the onset, and then... *snap* ooohhh I guess I'm disassociating again... uhh who am I again?

I've even started pretending I'm characters from books that I admire while in this state, it's extremely immersive as long as I keep calm (which is easy with some meditation and awareness of what's happening), i hope this doesn't fuck up my brain lmao

>>80078495
I took 400mg tramadol and felt nothing. My opioid tolerance is fucked too. I don't think there is a permanent opioid tolerance, but when you're clean and use again it will take far less to get addicted than before. Kind of like kindling.
>>80080111
you have to take a pretty heavy dose to get the sedation in my experience, at low doses the snri effect just stimulates you. kind of like oxy
>>80080637
i doubt it'd be that bad, the dxm would probably help suppress any anxiety from it i'm sure. but i've never tried shrooms, so I wouldn't know

>>80081803
Psychonaut says opposite, plus my experience.

>>80081840
to what? i quoted 3 people

Going to get sloppy tonight night. Got some molly, an edible (250mg) and some valium. What's a good order to do them in? Was thinking 120mg ecstasy, 50mg edible and redose 3-4 hours later. Valium for when I want to get cosy.

Not going out. Gonna chill solo. No tolerance for any, except a small weed tolerance

>>80082039
take the edible then take the molly maybe an hour later? that would be what I'd do.

>>80082039
you pretty much have the right order, but you should redose about 90 minutes into it, if you redose too late you'll just be stimulated and not much else

>>80082057
Yeah, probably a good idea. Gives me a chance to gauge my tolerance for edibles after a few years without the molly throwing this off.

>>80082078
I guess I'm more worried about my edible tolerance. Don't want to do too much too quick. I'm a fairly big guy (for you) so I'll see how I feel. Thanks

>>80082104
yeah 50 mg is a lot for an edible, you might want to split it in half just to see, good luck

Stim headache :(

>>80080543

You aren't missing out on much, they don't really sell anything cool that you wouldn't be able to get on DNMs with shipping to murica

>>80082404
DNMs suck to work with though.

>>80081876
On the tramadol dosage. Smaller should be more sedating.

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>>80082435
psychonautwiki agrees with me, not sure why you said the opposite?

>>80082568
Oh then I fucking read it wrong then. Still I had a really uncomfortable experience doing 150mg with weed and drinking something with grapefruit juice in it. I just wanted something like an opiate high.

>>80082666
it was probably the grapefruit juice, that fucks up the enzymes that metabolise tramadol. so you may have ended up getting more than 150, you know what i mean ? but to be fair 150 isn't too high of a dose, but you have to be careful because if you get too high you'll just end up puking

>>80082744
I guess I could do 250 but I wonder how that would be. Hopefully not dangerous either in terms of seizures or serotonin syndrome or opiate high.

>>80082759
nah thats not dangerous, i've done up to 400mg at one time, it's only when you go above 400mg the seizure risk is introduced. if you're opiate naive you might get some nausea but you won't die or anything. serotonin syndrome won't happen either unless you combine it with another serotonigic drug

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today's breakfast. gonna get faded all day smoking this shitty skunk bcs I'm a broken neet stuck in the late 2000s stuck playing GTA SA and burnout 3 as if nothing has changed in the last 20 yrs. maybe some ketanime later. fuck life is so hard. take care of urself anons <3
https://youtu.be/ZKZD4htkYkA?si=9jnAsdh37OkFzglP

>>80082797
Is weed serotonigic enough?

been using xans to stop panic attacks and kill trips but now im actually getting worried that i might go full bartard
problem is my life is so fucked i can haardly be assed to care

>>80082941
This but I've been playing Fallout 3 and Tropico 4 on my 360
What's Rivotril? I've heard of Dihydrocodeine

>>80083517
>What's Rivotril
kpins

>>80082744
I drink grapefruit juice with tramadol(150+100 redosed) all the time and I'm pretty sure they're just inhibit the enzyme that metabolizes active metabolite of tramadol into inactive ones so you get longer lasting opiate effects.
If anything they reduce possible anxiety for me but I got lot of anxiety the first few time I used it.

what part of oxycodone makes your shit smell so rancid?

how painful is boofing vodka? im a poorfag and wanna make the most of what i have

>>80084174
ok it didnt burn at all surprisingly
boofed 30mL, i usually get comfortably drunk at ~180mL orally so lets see how this goes

>>80084316
anon, am I understanding that you boofed 10ml shy of a shot of vodka? This is an easy way to die, the alcohol is absorbed directly so there's no self regulating dosing process. It's the equivalent of IV and you can OD the same.

Off too much cathinones too late at night ahhhhhh.

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Just spent 4 hours in the studio, made a fuckload of art. Getting high and unwinding while I wait to pick things up from the kiln in the morning. Chase your dreams faggots

Alright. I'll bite.
For more educated ents than me, how likely am I to make a working Cart/Dab pen using hashish and a nic vape?

Yes, it's dumb. Yes, I still want to do this for some reason.
My main concerns are whether the temperatures reached by a normal Nic vape (disposable) would be enough to do anything with hash. Maybe if decarbed first?
I wonder if somehow lowering the resistance in the pod would work.

Also: Clogging issues. Hash is dense as fuck.
Maybe if turned into hash oil? I'd be worried about the mass loss then.
Or one could just take hash and mix it with propylene glycol.
I'm asking you guys, I hope you're more educated than me.

Personal experience in this would be great. Another point for this experiment is cutting costs as much as fucking possible. We're trying to make this ghetto as FUCK.

What to do and how to tell of my address got burned? Didn't get a love letter,didn't get my shit

>>80076857
what sites? I've managed to get testosterone online but never anything else.

>>80084363
>easy way to die
lolwut, i didnt even boof a shot
it gets risky when you do a lot more than that
barely felt tipsy though i did have to spend quite a bit of time in the bathroom lmao

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my codeine toleracne is fucked, what other opiates are similar but not as addictive as oxy or percs n shit. I'm in uk btw

is a threshold to acid i'm not getting
i feel physically very weird but i'm not tripping

>>80084776
dihydrocodeine, odsmt, tapentadol

>>80084974
meant to specify, my dhc tolerance is fucked. thx

i bought some coke last year and its almost a year old or at least from when i got it. so my question is how long does coke last?

>>80082057
>>80082078
Appreciate the advice boys, feeling good :)

>>80085033
it doesnt go bad unless you left it somewhere wet

FUCK THESE FUCKING CAPTCHAS THE AMOUNT OF TIMES i WANNA POST WHEN IM FUCKED BUT I LEGIT CANT SEE SHIT. THE FUCKING DNMS CAPTCHAS ARE EASIER THAN THIS BS

>>80085079
good to know. i still haven't tested it yet.

>>80085089
skill issue tbqhf i used to struggle but now i get them instantly

>>80083515
>my life is so fucked
whats wrong anon?

>>80085123
I just dont believe anyone can do that shit on a higher dose than 300ug of cid

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if ive taken 12mg kpins and 210mg codeine how much acid would I need to take to still trip?

I'm drinking coffee, therefore I belong in this thread.

>>80077220
i paid $225 for 100 tabs of 250ug but what they sent felt more like 100 desu

>>80085655
sry brother been there many times. could be worse. nice dubs tho :3

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>>80085455
how much acid to trip? Are you blacked out right now? 12mg kpins seems like a lot, especially with codeine

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>>80076511
>you may upon taking this drug experience ailments to your:
>blood
>heart and vessels
>liver
>kidneys
>psychosis / central nervous system
>epilepsy
>vomiting
>has a strong metallic numbing chemical taste
>it is proven to be neurotoxic
>may experience a slight euphoria and wavy visuals

who the fuck buys this shit? people even leave a ton of good reviews, it's not even cheap like 1/2 the price of lsd. reading the articles and watching videos about it was horrifying
>I thought I was taking lsd, it was fun for a bit but then I checked up on my brother and he was unconscious foaming at the mouth and my heart dropped. he died then

>>80085753
I have a stupid tolerance im a benzo addict. I'm high but stil compltely lucid. dont feel the codeine that much either. did a lot of valium last night too which would have had an effect. just wondering is it even worse having a 100ug tab. Id keep munching these shrooms but just rememberd how expensive they are and its a waste if im on this much benzos.

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>>80085905
dropped a 200. will report what happens. already taken 2g of tidal wave.

Im so cold Im so cold fuck
I also have a cold,

>>80082039
take the edible and the valium and throw them in the thrash, Now take the molly and eat it.

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I thought weed was supposed to be atleast slighly psychadelic
I only feel happy and nauseous

Does weed always make you nauseaus?

>>80085447
it's hard as fuck on ketamine

>>80085892
I didn't know that they still sold this shit anywhere. I haven't really heard of it since like 2017

>>80085892
I don't know why anyone would intentionally do that shit, it seems like you only hear about people taking it thinking it's LSD and having an awful time/dying, but I'd be interested to hear a trip report about it from someone who did it intentionally at a known dosage

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>want to eat now
>but if I eat now it'll ruin my high later
Fuck... I don't know what to do...

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>>80076511
>DXM brain zaps
aaaaaaAAUUGGHH

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If I told my normie friends about the drugs I take they would call me a druggie, but if I told my druggie friends about the drugs I take they would call me a normie.

Where do you hang out?

...In my room? where else

>>80083911
>I'm pretty sure they're just inhibit the enzyme that metabolizes active metabolite of tramadol into inactive ones
I thought that since GFJ only inhibits P450 in the gastrointestinal tract, it only reduces the first pass effect. also, tramadol is kind of a prodrug, with one of its metabolites (O-desmetramadol) having an multiple times higher analgesic potency. that's the facts, I don't know whether that makes tramadol + GFJ more or less potent, as it may inhibit the metabolization of odsmt

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>>80087415
How depressive for a druggie.

i fell for the acid meme
it's just another high that lasts 12 hours nothing more

what's the best drug to go to a nightclub by myself and enjoy the night?

>>80082942
no
>>80087903
mdma

>>80087903
or pregabalin

>>80087903
alcohol, gabapentin, ecstasy

>>80087911
>>80087985
>>80088117
sadly I don't have any mdma, only shrooms
but I might get some pregabalin, thanks

im stujck

>>80086793
It shouldn't so if you are nauseous after it you should probably not buy from that person again.

>>80087106
I took it about 4 times. It's pretty good. It's like LSD but more stimulating, less introspective and less overwhelming. LsD seems far more theraupitc to me, where's 25-i was basically just for fun. I also have fat less anxiety on 25 whereas lsd I can sort of be overwhelmed, out of it, panicked etc, like I'm losing contact with the world, my ego etc. But 25i I always got the sense that I was "i", just under the influence of a fun drug. It's pretty fun I remember being in my city listening to buskers, hallucinating, etc. I always took 40mg of propranolol before taking it, and never more than 1 tab. I actually preferred the effects to LSD, if it didn't have cardiovascular effects. It's more fun, more carefree, less intense and introspective.

These people who die just do ZERO research, don't test their drugs and then just eat like a 10 strip thinking it's lsd. Which in itself is retarded. I swear most druggie deaths are just retards wiping themselves out. I've been a long term opiate addict and never even overdosed. Like how do you even die

Is dxm third plat worth experiencing?

>>80088631
Never done DXM in my life but fuck yes you should, you know you wanna!

>>80088706
I thought about how nauseous it would make it and decided it's not worth it.

where can i find speed or ecstasy in scotland, pls help

>>80088725
nausea is the jew of drug use I swear, 2cb and ketamine are substances that I would've absolutely loved if not for the fact you need a puke bucket for it.
anyone knows how to deal with it perchance?

>>80088726
dnms my friend

>>80088827
i feel that way about 2cb, but I've never been nauseous off ketamine. A friend of mine k-holed and thought he was a rock and puked all over himself.

>>80088438
wow
>>80088706
depends on the kind of person you are, imo its way cooler and more fun than 1 or 2, a truly novel experience

>Go to buddies house to smoke
>He hands me a bong which was black because it hasn't been cleaned in however long

It's not that hard to clean a fucking bong Jesus.

I think there's something wrong with me. DXM makes me horny but weed doesn't. Also, I can still cum while on dxm.

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>>80085998
trip was about 25% of what it could have been but thats to be expected considiering how much klonopin Id taken

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>>80087634
Then you havent taken enough and have no idea what you are doing.
What you think about is what matters.
If you think about bad stuff, it is not good.

You gotta build a tower of good energy.
It is culminative and can be knocked over.

At a certain height the tower like busts through dimensions and grows unique verities of dimensions/energies unlike any other.

A spoonful of cinnamon isnt good without a fuckton of other ingredients

can i mix ibuprofen and pcp?

>>80088603
I thought weed makes everyones head spinny?

>>80090826
unironically depends on the strain and your biology
maybe try something else?

>>80086773
lol
try something with higher THC, I consistently get CEVs and crazy dissociative experiences from weed
also try a higher dose too, smoking out of a bong is way more potent than a joint
Finally, if you do other psychedelics then cannabis becomes more psychedelic, I have no idea why it's something I've noticed.

10 mg clonazepam wonder what will happen

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Yankees get to have
drugs

>>80091713
they get to or they have to?
does the privilege expire?

haha hi giys how muc h is like 6 600mg thc thca thcp gummies taken over 72 hours. is it true that's 33x stronger than regular. whoops. i thought it was like delta 8 LMAO no wonder it triggered full psychosis

now 14.5 mg clonazepam wonder what will happen
>>80092008
thats strong as fuck lol

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>>80091986
They get.


Does not expire for the true people of the world.
City nations that empower pagans more will get lower prices and better drugs.

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https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=W6FSAP5Gcvs

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=n11j73OYqOY

https://on.soundcloud.com/yJRDnQrL9oeQyH8C6

>>80092133
that first track is awesome dude, reminds me of house

>>80085127
everythings just fucked man
i barely passed hs because of severe anxiety that would cause me to cough and vomit
thought it would get better in uni but i was kicked out on my first year because i became a shutin
now im living in my parents basement and have nothing to do but drugs vidya and pretending that things are gonna get better

>>80077028
The level of homeopathic dilution. In the decimal dilution scale (notated as "X" or "D") the preparation is diluted by a factor of 10 at each stage.

whats up cucks. drinking portuguese beer, doing coke and smoking hash. feels OK. could be better

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>>80092455
>feels OK. could be better
drugs are making the grief-sponging easier. cant imagine the depression if i was sober desu

400mg tramadol, 14 mg clonazepam. fuck it, we'll do it live!

>started regularly smoking weed in college
>graduate, find myself as a neet with no driver's license in a rural area without public transport (I could hypothetically make my life better by years of min-wage work, but I'm lazy and don't)
>go back to smoking daily instead of escaping neetdom
>eventually smoke so much that, combined with sleep deprivation and my already unwell mental state, I enter a manic psychosis
>pure bliss, I think I'm talking to God, the experience convinces me to get sober and join a church
>in this manic fervor, I make poorly-thought-out commitments to become a minister (after all, I thought I was talking to God)
>eventually, I come down from the mania and i realize the commitments weren't in the right state of mind
>at this point, I've already announced my plans to my family and friends, know I'll be even more of a laughingstock if i go back to being a stoner after my whole "spiritual transformation and calling"
>horrified at the fragility of my mind, can't trust many of my thoughts anymore
>go back to smoking weed
>the weed doesn't hit the same anymore after that mental break, I mostly just dissociate
>back to a stoner neet, this time without feeling quite as high and almost broke
>parents disappointed in me
>friends largely leave me
>now thinking of smoking through enough all-nighters that I go manic again, hoping that I can sever my connection to reality once and for all if I do it long enough
>feels like it's either that or an-heroing
>either way, just want to leave my sober mind forever
Anybody else know a similar feel? I know I'm fucked, but I'm still about to smoke another bowl

>>80092891
This sounds like bipolar. Probably need to see a doc. There are other ways out than suicide.

>someone on Facebook selling diaz cheap as fuck
>buy 200mg, the dealer is a literal HON tranny LOL
>just drive round the corner take a photo make an ad for another drug app
>sell half of what I brought for 10 dollars less
>gave to go meet some sketchy guy near a dog park
>got my shiv in my pocket, but it goes well
>get home, pleased with myself. Cost me 10 dollars and a fuckaround 120mg of diazepam (highly sought in my country, normally goes for $1 a MG)
>back home took 20mg and 250mg of tramadol and 500mg of gabapentin and 120mg if codeine
>cooked a nice meal drank some grapefruit juice ready to comfy and SMUG with my entrepreneur behaviour

Drug dealing is always so scary to me. I hardly do it but it's always worth it. It's basically easy money or easy free drugs if you do good trades. But there's a big risk. I tried to look for a BLAMMER but in my country they are HIGHLY restricted and illegal and a handgun will cost you 10k plus and even a piece of shit .22 rifle will run you several thousand dollars. So I just keep my SHIV on me. A homemade one I ground down a screwdriver to a razor sharp point and covered the handle in grip tape. So if anyone fucks with me I'll stab their jugular 15 times and watch them bleed out like a stuck fucking pig LOL.

>>80092891
Bro I mean this seriously having seen friends go through something similar - you need to never smoke weed again. Like ever. It's poison for brains like yours.