Starting to get demoralized againThe veil of superiority and a possible bright future fading againStarted feeling bad this new year, had a low schooling gradeOnce again reminded I'm not a high achiever or will amount to anything spectacular schooling wiseI wont achieve anything within this system, I have to break the mold and make moneyit's genuinely over for me
>>80077189get back up, ALWAYS GET BACK UP, ALWAYS GET THE FUCK BACK UP OP. your mind and its thoughts do not wield you, you are the one who wields your mind
>>80077189just donmrt get demorallzied then
>>80077209>your mind and its thoughts do not wield you, you are the one who wields your mintrue, I've successfully gaslit myself but when you are faced with reality time and time again, only a truly insane individual can keep gaslighting yourself for things to changeyou just live in the reality until something changes that has not changedso in short I am living in delusion that I will be betternot much else to do but yeah>>80077210easy to say but I will need mind altering feel good drugs an dopamine and serotonin flow to keep my mind off thateasier said than done when it goes in wavesbipolarmaxxing
>>80077230>I am living in delusion that I will be betterthe 'MUH GET BETTA ALWAYS' meme is fatalistic. you have needs, facilitate securing those needs, and i mean food water shelter, not all the other bs. find a thing you can do that you dont hate as your everyday work, and find a thing you can do that you enjoy doing. these last two can sway, but its best to stick at one kind of jobthe life of a king/politician is not a aspirational life, they truly live in hell, being rich is hell
>>80077272>find a thing you can do that you dont hate as your everyday workI am trying towards that, but if I fail I might not even achieve that due to being so bad at life and society that I will fall short and underachieve even on my own abilities, as I have so far, but working on improving>being rich is helldon't need to get rich just like 3m and neet and stop caring about society, long term goal
>>80077316>even achieve that due to being so bad at life and society that I will fall short and underachieve even on my own abilities, as I have so far, but working on improvingok, anon, this is your brain yappin at you, distracting you, from the idea and fact that, getting to it, working, completely nullifies all of this self doubt talk, it is realistic and completely possible to find your limits and then cruise just a step below your limits, ez lyfe>3mnah i mean having money even like this, everyone in your life will try to steal it from you, and some will try to murder you for it, "why arent you giving people jobs monster" etc
>>80077376>ok, anon, this is your brain yappin at you, distracting you, from the idea and fact that, getting to it, working, completely nullifies all of this self doubt talk, it is realistic and completely possible to find your limits and then cruise just a step below your limits, ez lyfeso what you mean is that working towards things I would cease to doubt myself?if this was true I would not have constant self doubt when doing it right now getting towards my goals (education, working towards jobs, career), possible failure is just looming and what if I never achieve things, opportunitites closing etc, everything like this is just a constant thought, I can't relax and enjoy the process because there is no processnot how my mind works, jsut constant self doubt and depressio and axiety>nah i mean having money even like thismore than this?thats barely antythingpeople buy houses more than this regularaly, but i just wanna cruise and chill
>>80077460broski your brain is yappin again. take a deep breath, and try to relax.blue collar job, learn it well, dont buy stupid shit.in 6 years i went from 30k a year to 80k a year (in two years time, even buying thousands in tools and some toys, i have 10k in the bank), normies havent GOT A CLUE HOW TO NOT BE POORwork heard, learn as much as you can, as soon as that company has given you everything you can learn, and they dont increase you pay by 10-20%, find another place that will
>>80077492>blue collar jobalready chose against this, plus I'm old now I can't do this and too tiredI'm more of an IT cuck or something else>normies havent GOT A CLUE HOW TO NOT BE POORit's very simple indeed, I thought life would be easy but now I'm having my doubts again (getting crushed by school)realize that I'm not fit for schoolmaxxing, realize I'm probably genuinely too retarded do something hard, not that I want to or care about most these thingsI just want some moneyI have bad characteristics too, since I'm lazy and comfortable and do everything against my self to achieve something goodonly getting motivated by actual pain and uncomofortablenessbut anywya I have done some things to improve but still need more, not sure I will ever live up to my own idea of my own potentialI feel like im cognitively handicapped too and performing below my limit constantly, or maybe I just have higher belief in myself but Im genuinely more retarded than I think of myselfregardless, id rather kms than accept peoples idea of me being retarded and should settleid rather live in constant agony of not achieving my goals and gaslighting myself than bending the knee and accepting my own retardedness (if htat so happen to be hte case)anyway..
