Leaving my moms place after years of leaching off her love as an adult male.I have almost no savings, no friends, no skills, no desires. But I have a remote job which allows me a degree of freedom which I haven't even used. I want to leave behind all of the distractions, all of the noise, the algorithms, the targeted content, people telling me what I should want, everything that stops me from living intentionally. I don't care if that means living in my car and sleeping in strange places, relying on the gym for hygiene, the library and coffee shops for work/study.I have a sleeping bag, my laptop, an e-reader, my phone, and a backpack.Everything I intend to bring outside of those items should fit inside the backpack. I made a half-hearted attempt to commit suicide a month ago. If I died, that was fine, I'm dead anyway. If I didn't, then I would change everything. Now is the time to change everything. Get rid of the old stories, the old people, the old objects. I want to be true to myself... as nebulous as the "self" is
>>80077628walk the earth, meet people... get into adventures. Like Caine from "Kung Fu."be free
>>80077628Someone tell me "don't do it, faggot", tell me how retarded I am, how this will all fail and I'll never find anything living like this. Tell me I'm a cringey faggot who couldn't even kill himself properly, tell me to ER before I pack my bag tonight
>>80077673why didn't you kill yourself? if you didn't succeed it's understood that you changed your mind before going through with it. mind sharing it with us?
>>80077628If you have a remote job and therefore money coming in there's no problem with your plan. You're probably just scared because you never moved out before but it's really not a big deal. Start by driving somewhere with nice scenery.
>>80077981I still make chump change from my job, gas is a concern, so I'll need to live off only the bare necessities.
>>80078012Well don't expect some magical experience then but it will still probably be good life experience for you to try it. I think everybody should move out in their 20s and move to different places just for the life experience I got my first apartment at 20 and moved 3000 miles to the west coast at 25. It's important to understand how the world really is and how society operates. Guys often romanticize everything beyond their reach a lot. It'll ground you and help you not exaggerate or be afraid of everything.
>>80078044I don't expect anything good besides more clarity of goals, challenges, and growing self-sufficiency .
>>80078057You'll be fine then. Authenticity is the only way to salvation.
