>finally push myself to apply for a bunch of jobs, after slacking off for a month or two>Get call from idk who, scared to answer phone, check voicemail, it was employer offering interview>Oh shit, maybe this time it will work>Scared to call back though, bad at phone calls, will psych myself up and do it later >Oh shit, I never got around to doing that, let over a day pass>Finally push myself to call back a few days to a week later>"Oh? Sorry anon, we figured you'd have called back within a day or two if you were interested, so we've already moved forward with the hiring process with a different candidate">Same thing occurs with a few more calls I get from a few more employers >Manage to actually pick up the phone for one or call back one on time and get an interview, and fuck it up hard due to being mentally slow, stuttering and saying "um" and other vocal filler a lot >Lose hope, get emotionally crushed, stop applying for jobs for another month due to it>And then repeat the cycleI'm just never going to get more than my current minimum wage jobs lol. This education was a waste because despite the supposed shortage for my attempted career, they both care a lot about going through the proper motions for the application process, and also care about someone being "up to date" in their education, so in another six months to a year, if I don't get a full-time "real" job in the field, my education will be meaningless or outright a further sign that I shouldn't be hired Kinda want to kill myself lol
>>80078435If you struggle that much just to pick up the fucking phone I can't imagine you could actually do a "real" job anyways. Go see a psychiatrist or something. How do you fags put yourselves all the way through college and you can't even go through the motions of the hiring process. Makes no sense to me. What are you so nervous about? Did your parents beat you as a child for speaking up or something?
>>80078516First of all fuck youAlso I already work a job where I do most of the stuff I'd be doing with the "real" job anyway, and part of my college experience included multiple internships doing the job itself where I did fine. It's the hiring process that gives me so much anxiety, not the job itself. The hiring process these days for so many jobs involved jumping through so many bullshit hoops that aren't very relevant for determining if someone is for for the job And I used to see mental health professionals but they just suggested drugs and the drugs fucked me up worse than I already was, so I don't do that anymore
>>80078435I have the same issue anon. best way to deal with it is to have a fuck it whatever happens happens mindset. pretend you are talking to npcs and try to get the best speech result for the intended reward. you will hopefully have an easier time.
>>80078435I start a new job next week my niggas, real high pay for low effort
>>80079976what jerb?
>>80078435At least you are getting calls, fuck you.
