I'm losing my mind, ask me why."*Sigh*...Why?"Well, I think it's because the world is so so so wrong. Everything about it. You have to REALLY force yourself to just not be part of the world, to be outside of it. And really some people can do that because of the things they have like a wife or whatever I don't know. But I need to live in the wilderness."Yes yes yes, so you say, then go to the wilderness and let us be rid of you, you dumpish unneighbourly woman, away with such fantastical fools and a good riddance."I can not go yet, I need winter to end, it's too much that builds up. Everything and everyone is crazy. And I can only laugh. I try to feed myself everything to cure it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDKstUSkePM but it's difficult. I'm going to puke from this world. Everyone at work is so awful and the thing is I expect them to be. Just like everyone online, awful, terrible, but of course they are, because they're living on this planet, what else would they be, they'd be mad to not be so bitter and mean as they are. He who cares for the things of this world. One day a week there's peace in the world, outside of that is a giant burning dumpster fire, and even that is destroyed because of the job schedule.What shall we say then? Escape the world as much as possible until the weather turns and I can go back to the wilderness and this time not return. How anyone can be comfortable in this society is beyond me, though I have explained why they are.
Good. You deserve every aweful thing that ever happens to you. You are a horrible person for what youve done to others. I will always see you burning in hell and every horrible thing in this life is now targeting you to ruin every moment you piece of shit. You will never get better and now your physical form will reflect the horrid rot you harbored upon others and caused all paint hurt and suffering. You are recieving it all back 1000000000x fold.
>>80081943Hmm, very interesting. Well I hope you do well.
You know I can think of a happy thing, when I get back home I have some food that I like, in fact I bought these cheezy flavoured kraft dinner boxes. At work I was told kraft dinner goes in the "side dish section not the meal replacement section, it's a side dish." It's a meal replacement for me.I find the problem with stupid jobs for idiots-- And by the way, what's that all about? Nice job society, here I am a highly intelligent Aspie and you don't use my super brain for anything useful? Your loss. You need to be a midwit to get anywhere, not super stupid that you can handle a repetitive braindead job, but also stupid enough that you can handle college and university without wanting to bash your head through a wall. My goodness that was horrible, so boring, so lame, and so obviously just a way to scam you while learning nothing you either don't already know or can't learn on your own but then they force you to take courses about-- whatever, the point is, I forgot what I was going to say, let me talk about the problem with social internet then, here's the problem with social internet, lot of great people up there, love the internet people, but why are we subsidizing them 200 million, we don't need their milk, go a lot of milk.I have a 9 hour long video to focus me while at home. I've gotten that issue, maybe it's to due with Rena or is that just a coincidence, either way it's not the first time I've suffered from this and it'll go away eventually. Actually the pastor was telling me about how he actually has used prayer beads before to focus his mind, evil attacks at night. I use the BCP and I have a schedul--... wait, oh my. I think I realised something quite drastic. I wonder if my schedule is such a good thing, I always say to myself that if I don't have a schedule I will never be competent or anything but I've followed my hard schedule since late December every day successfully, maybe it's causing the menhera.
