I feel inhuman, like an alien that crash landed on this godforsaken rock with no way back homeI hate human societyIts all just about taking advantage of each otherI don't want to be a part of societySince the age of 5 my life has been on autopilot I don't participate in the world, I'm just a background characterBut I don't know how else to liveI have no attachment to people other than my family and single friendI just feel like something other than humanThe more I tried to socialize and fit in the more awkward things getI relate more to animals than to humansI live in fear of humans and how easily they can hurt my family and IAnyone can break into my mother's house and kill herI hate being away from her, I want to keep her safe from the outside worldAll I want to is stay in bed for the rest of my life, I dred the I open my eyes each time I wake up
>>80081359>All I want to is stay in bed for the rest of my lifesame, do you need company? im kinda lonely in the hospital rn
Well, at least you have family and friends.
>>80081371oh shit what are you in the hospital for?Yea, I could use company
>>80081425im just staying with my mom, there is an old lady in the other bed that wont stfu but besides of that all is goodwhen was the last time you spent all day in bed? its pretty nice to just sleep and dream a lot
>>80081359Are you like a cute alien or one of those ugly gray libertarian fuckers
>>80081560>libertarianwhats so wrong with libertarians?
>>80081573Nothing anon but they are so different from everyone else politically that they feel alien. They also are more likely to use logic to come to their political conclusions which makes them seem more robotic. We are also usually either furries or into trannies.
>>80081541>im just staying with my momI hope your mom recovers quickly >when was the last time you spent all day in bed? Today, actuallyI'm dealing with a sinus infection rn>Its pretty nice to just sleep and dream a lotIndeed
>>80081359>Its all just about taking advantage of each otherSome economists say it's "a trade of unequal goods of comparable value"; i.e. sometimes you get something in exchange for less value than what it's worth, sometimes it's the other way around. What matters in this plutarchy is making sure you can give more of what's of little value to you to people who actually want it. For example, renting your 12th property doesn't require as much effort as what the wageslave will have to do to pay you rent.
>>80081560What makes greys libertarian?
>>80081666My previous post explained this. Are you an alien autist or something? If not what archetype of autisit are you?
>>80081653>I hope your mom recovers quicklythanks, she is terminal tho but thats alright we already accepted that fate, im about to go back home>Today, actually>I'm dealing with a sinus infection rnah that sucks, i hate being sick so much is unreal i hope you recover soon... although being able to sleep all day and not feel guilty about it is niceso you think you are too weird? you seem fine so far, do you want to tell us more about it op?
>>80081643Yeah ig thats a good description, a lot of libertarians are pretty... autisticsome are way too robotic, like this old fucker that wanted an hyper because it will transition the system to a libertarian one faster. models are nice but the goal is to make everyone live with as much wealth as possible, and the ways we go about doing that are important
>>80081744>she is terminal thoI'm very sorry to hear thatMay she find peace>do you want to tell us more about it op?Anything specific you'd like to know?
>>80081875>Anything specific you'd like to know?well there is a lot to unpack about your op>I don't participate in the world, I'm just a background characterare you a neet? or do you work?>The more I tried to socialize and fit in the more awkward things getwhat gets awkward? the conversations? or you think like you are masking?i never understood wanting to fit in with people you simply dont enjoy, so im curious if you tried that and why (im guessing loneliness)i can ask more things later, i hate using 4chan on my phone ugh
>>80081918>are you a neet? or do you work?I'm on disability >what gets awkward? the conversations? or you think like you are masking?Conversations, I try to make small talk but it never gets anywhere>i never understood wanting to fit in with people you simply dont enjoyYea but sometimes you need to make connections as a part of survival>i can ask more things later, i hate using 4chan on my phone ughunderstandable, cheers
>>80081975>I'm on disabilityi see, whats your condition? aside of autism. fyi im not american im guessing you are tho>Conversations, I try to make small talk but it never gets anywherei suck at small talk too, and lets face it only psychopaths like small talk. how did you make one friend tho?>Yea but sometimes you need to make connections as a part of survivalany examples? i dont feel particularly related to that statement, but then again i dont have a normal work nor i go to college. i only go outside for groceries and in rare situations like this one
>>80082123>your condition? aside of autismBPD and OCDEverything has been professionally diagnosed >im not american im guessing you are thoCorrect>how did you make one friend tho?we live in the same group home>any examples? Honestly none come to mindMy father was pretty important in the local community so I guess I kinda developed the idea I need to make connections and know peopleHe was a lot better at all that than I could ever dream of
>>80081359>be autist guy>met autist girl>thought we got along great>fucking wild actually enjoying the company of somebody for once>suddenly ghosted>back to being like OP
>>80081359Join any intelligence agency
>>80081359Bibbit, me a frog.Me no think society ever been good. Me see in history book many thing. Me watch the normie act angry all the time. Me see me and how me treated by those who love me. Me see you, and wonder, do you see how I see...Me cannot tell..Me wonder if you are even real...
>>80082247>BPD and OCDah thats not good anon, sorry to hear thatwhich meds do you take?>we live in the same group homewhat the hell is a group home, like co-housing?>He was a lot better at all that than I could ever dream ofso basically you have a complex, pretty common.i do think you need connections in life, but not particularly for work. the more people you know the better you can know yourself, and i mean actually know not just like hang out once or twice and thats it, i mean true friendships, like the one i guess you haveand thats also a human desire, heck, its an human need. you seem to not have been meeting it and maybe thats why you think you are broken and cant socialize. you surely can, you are doing it right now.>I live in fear of humans and how easily they can hurt my family and Ihave you ever thought about hurting someone else tho?just remember that we have internet because 99% of the population dont just go around killing eachother. without cooperation we would have never gotten this far, thats also part of the human nature and thats why we want to be a part of a community, socialize... thats why 4chan exists too
>>80082348such many casesits a fucking cycle, 6 to 12 months from now you are experiencing this again, just more carefully
>>80082630>which meds do you take?Seroquel and lithium>like co-housing?not quiteIts basically a single building shared by multiple people who rely on staff to help them through the day>so basically you have a complexMore than likely>have you ever thought about hurting someone else tho?EverydayIts not something I would carry out but rather power fantasy day dreams against the people I feel like are out to harm me or my family
>>80082708>Its basically a single building shared by multiple people who rely on staff to help them through the daysounds like a homeless shelter or a hospital, is it comfy? is the staff good? are you still there?>Seroquel and lithiumso that means you are controlled? do you remember your last episode? recently i started interacting with someone that was schizoaffective (i know its not the same) and it really opened my eyes to what true horrors you guys can face while on an episode, or how mania actually looks. the schizos in my family are just the paranoid type>but rather power fantasy day dreams against the people I feel like are out to harm me or my familylike who? also its pretty nobel that you care about your family like that...although the question was more asking like, would you randomly hurt someone? there are people like thaaaat but they have no empathy at all, i think thats the only requisite
>>80082742>is it comfy?Some of the other residents can be annoying but otherwise its not badis the staff good? Yepare you still there?Yep>do you remember your last episode?April of 2024, I almost gave myself alcohol poisoning after a bad depression episode>like who? Terrorists, criminals, tyrants etc>would you randomly hurt someone?Absolutely NOTIf I lay a finger on anyone it'll be in self-defense I'm prolly gonna check out, I'm getting pretty tired
>>80082914>I'm prolly gonna check out, I'm getting pretty tiredwell thanks for sharing tripfag, hope your next episode is really mild so you dont suffer unnecessarilybest of luck!ps. terrorist wont bother you dw
