I wish I were more competent and mentally faster. I've always had this problem. I thought it would get better when I got older but no, it stayed the same. I worked some menial jobs and was never given more responsibilities while newer people understood how things worked much faster and rose up the ranks. This also negatively impacted my social development as I only understood how things worked more or less as I got into my late teens and early twenties. It takes me forever to learn things and it doesn't matter how much I practice as I just reach a pathetic plateau. I'd get extremely frustrated in the past but I've just grown more and more apathetic and numb. I fear for my future as I don't know how I'll survive when I move out from my parents' house. I'd give up my right leg for 5 extra IQ points. End of blog.
>>80081923you can be slower in areas generally deemed more useful while still being an intelligent introspective person. Don't feel down on yourself because society is built for a specific skillset. Doesn't make you any less capable, just means you don't fit the mold society praises. Definitely sucks but you should go on knowing you are a cool ass person and being less quick in some areas doesn't mean shit when it comes to truly experiencing life and truly being a genuine introspective and authentic person. As long as you are a kind person to others you are better off than most in this shithole planet.
>>80081923Same here. Slow in the head
>>80081974>you can be slower in areas generally deemed more useful while still being an intelligent introspective person. Don't feel down on yourself because society is built for a specific skillset. Doesn't make you any less capable, just means you don't fit the mold society praises.The mold that society praises exists precisely because it is useful for humans to survive. If you don't fit into that mold, that means you have diminished abilities as a human to navigate the world. Just as a bird who doesn't learn to fly eventually starve and dies, a person who can't adapt will have an extremely hard life ahead of them. It is necessary for life.>Definitely sucks but you should go on knowing you are a cool ass person and being less quick in some areas doesn't mean shit when it comes to truly experiencing life and truly being a genuine introspective and authentic person. As long as you are a kind person to others you are better off than most in this shithole planet.cont.
>>80081974I have found that people don't really care about genuine niceness or compassion. They only give assistance as long as it benefits them either one on one or in a team. It is competence that is valued because at the end of the day that is what gets food on the table. People in 3000 B.C. didn't care about "niceness," they care about who can give them things. Being scum can be overlooked; incompetence is an unforgivable sin. I've observed that people absolutely love to scapegoat unskilled, clumsy, slow people. They're like sharks in the water waiting for the first drop of blood to flow, smell a small mistake and attack them. I joined a new job a couple of months ago and there's this person that isn't as fast as the others and some of my coworkers/a manager LOVE to talk behind their back. I've only been managing so far because I try to act polite to other people but I know they'll jump on me as soon as I start working on more important work. I absolutely cannot adapt to new situations/problems that fast, I need to have all actions "preinstalled." I have some equipment at work that I need to know how to operate, and I think I'll just read the instruction manual during my spare time because I don't want to become the next scapegoat. I try not to talk bad about others because I know that I can find myself in the very same situation. I used to be genuine and caring towards people but my life experience has slowly sucked that out of me and I'm only nice out of self interest. Thanks for reading my blog. >>80082370It's a curse that I wish I didn't have and wouldn't want for anyone.
>>80082396>I wouldn't want for anyoneYou're nicer than me because I would 1000% wish it on people who gave me a hard time for it. Think of the lolz
>>80081923>I wish I were more competent and mentally faster.caffeine + l theanine in day timemagnesium at night timehalf of your problem is you arent sleeping well (need more mag [95% of the planet needs more, you are NOT getting enough]) and the other half is you need to unironically lock the fuck in. ltheanine and 200mg caffeine will laser focus you. better sleep will fix your mental fatigue which is half the problem.
