My parents keep shutting me down whenever I try to speak about things that interest me such as philosophy or my thoughts on society. They either find my thoughts too extreme and thus try to shut me down by asking what bearing an issue has on my life or call me hateful. Other times they find some of my thoughts too abstract and either pretend to listen or just mock them as weird and use the excuse that they are tied and this and that and when I try to speak they do not care or listen. When I am angry they get vicious with me and then when I try to act laid back and peaceful they mock that too. When I discuss things I hate they find it evil. And when I discuss things I love they find it weird. For example my dad hated when I complain about black people and he says he rather hear me discuss things I like like attractive boys but when I do that he mocks me under the guise of teasing but it is nonstop, my ingest in poetry he pretend to care about but rally just mocks. My interest in fine art he mocks while meanwhile he loves nigger music from his youth. They want to cultivate me into this being that is neither angry or happy in a grand way and rather be someone that just accepts mediocrity like they do. That watches movies and just is friends with everyone and talks about boring things like celebrities or hobbyist guitar playing or some trite and never anything actually important. I can not fucking stand them I am finally realizing they are just stupider than me. The other day me and my dad met a friend of ours who also has a son my age and his son was talking about his lame guitar playing while I talked about the metaphysical and my father tried to reprimand me for it.
My father threatens to kick me out when I try to fight back against him shutting me down. He is an utter oaf and my mother is a fool who goes along and controls him. I do not have many friends because all of mine went insane and the rest of people my age in town are just brainwashed into acting like blacks with their music and speech. It is honestly isolating and I grow tired of it all.
They might be trying to teach you a lesson
>>80082595They are not teaching me anything other than that they are as dull as everyone else. I know how to lie to go about life in this place but I do not need to lie in my own home. They betray their own in demanding so.
>>80082529>>80082532A man in jail for a minor crime is seeking to sincerely turn his life around. In the cafeteria, this man talks to someone whom he learns was a convicted murderer, but has become devout and tried to make best of what's left of his life. The convicted man says, "Murder is wrong my friend," but no matter how many times the man who was convicted for the minor crime inquires the murderer for advice on how to live a good life outside the jail for which he will soon leave, the murderer has nothing to give him. The murderer says things that are true, and tries to live true, but despite this, he cannot give what is true for another because this is beyond the scope of his reality. So too, is the scope of most people's own reality narrowed into themselves and their immediate family.The lesson I'm trying to say is that, older generations had life, money, and relationships come so easy, with such little friction, they didn't need to think about why. Just how. They don't live in your reality, because they don't see what's coming. They don't know about banking. They don't know about demographics. They don't know about how you'll never see one cent of social security. So, like the repented murderer, they know what's good and true for them, but not you. Family is family, but true family is not of the blood.People are complex, many adults are psychological children who love to mock and burn like demons, many adults are angels, who will do anything to uplift and unconditionally love you. The unfortunate reality is, the market is a place of service, but also a place where truth doesn't always win at first. Like people had to be educated on the importance of computers, you're educating people on the importance of philosophy, but your target market isn't ready for it, and probably never will be. So move on and let lions lie, but find elsewhere to express yourself. Your generating unnecessary skirmishes in relationships that should serve you, not divide you.
>>80082674Wow thank you. Everything you said I firmly agree with and shall try to apply.Say have we spoken before? You seem familiar.
>>80082532>brainwashed into acting like blacks with their music and speechYou're living in the same world as me.
>>80082529>Line breaksEver heard of them nigger? It makes reading your blogpost more bearable
>>80082779Damn. What is it like may I ask?>>80082811If I put line breaks I will get retards calling me Reddit. If I do not I get people complaining about it. I wrote that while at the gym while high as fuck and was not thinking about formatting it as a fucking paper for fucking monsters university or whatever the fuck is your standard of be.
>>80082820Well, what I can tell you from reading half your shit is, as a fellow borderline-autist with high interest in philosophy and other abstract bullshit, is that you're not likely at all to connect intellectually with anyone, ever. And no, much less with women. I've met exactly two people in my life that I can genuinely say I don't consider complete retards, and one of them was an incel I couldn't really be friends with because I actually use my dick every once in a while. The other guy is probably the smartest person I will meet for a long while, but except him, I can barely share my true interests with any other person because I will get the same reactions as you: they nod as if they understand shit even if they don't, or flat out look at me weird. And that's normal, because normies are retards. I go out a lot, and talk with a lot of new people frequently, and guess what, I do that while drunk as fuck because I cannot bear to fake interest in their shit any other way. But that has gotten me pussy, which was my objective in the first place, so there's that. In conclusion, accept your interest are not interesting to almost no one, and learn to fake or cope however you can if you want to connect with someone with a normal brain. P.S. don't use alcohol; my liver is fucked and probably won't live to be very old.
>>80083015Autism is not real. Some people I can be friendly with and not talk about deep things but I like them. But people on the same level are rare. Intelligence would be the wrong word because there are often intelligent people who do not get those things as sometimes there are fools who do. It is some other hidden quality that allows me to connect with people who I considered friends something that is within one's own nature. I have no in person friends now however.I think incel is a term made by the Jews. Most women due to their nature have easily fallen prey to propaganda. Whether or not one is about them is not a good metric of character. And women are often dull in their ways and unnecessary additions to life that complicate stern thinking. If need have a child than find one but if not no great loss. The cultural distorters put sexual actions at the height of their inverted society. The reality is that when our bodies die sex is rendered useless to us. Like a creature that once needed water but now knows land. But what do know I primarily like men. Though most of them are dull or lack fire.Most of them are niggerified.I am sick of the dull people. The ones who only wish to talk about weather and pop stars. I am not the most learned or clever man but I know things and I consider things others do not. But then they insult me for it. It grows so trying and I yearn to return to the state of chaos sometimes.I am frequently high these days in THC. It makes my thinking more odd but more free and I can function in it. Shrooms give me an edge though. However high potent THC is my primary very. Makes the good sweet and the evil fun. I love evil.I have accepted I shall only ever have a few close confidants but I have none now. I need to learn how to be fake with the normal people.
>>80082529You're parents sound like typical normies, you sound like a coping low IQ autistic cerebral narcissist who's never read a book in their entire life.
>>80083282I have been reading 3 actually433
>>80083282>notice typo immediately after postingevery single time
