I used to be a 7/10. But then I got crippled and couldn't lose the face fat due to low-end optimized skull, and lost gains due to constantly having to remain seated (despite lifting and working out regularly). It is an unfathomable nightmare once you get blackpilled. Unfathomable. Worst of all, my family, and the normies around me are too stupid to understand or empathize since they obviously dont know what its like. I'm forcing myself to live against my will so that I don't go to hell, which is the divine punishment for suicide. I'm not bitter or resentful but I am completely twisted into a form of living cope. Forcing yourself to live and be productive when you are the exact opposite of what you want to look like turns you into a twisted pseudo-sociopath full of misery and delusional rage at God/natural circumstance. I honestly want to kill myself but cant, it is such an painful out-of-body experience of a life to live. I don't wish my life on my worst enemy (jk I actually do). But seriously, jesus christ. How did it get so bad?
>>80082943you seriously can't do anything about it?
>>80082973No. >captcha captcha
