I'm talking to several women who openly admit they're in love with me, but the only reason I talk to them is because I want to feel something. I feel bad and I usually try to be honest with women about my circumstances and my innermost needs when it comes to relationships, but sometimes certain women are too sweet to pass up (virgins, model tier looks/bodies, really enjoyable personalities.)For example, I am speaking to a woman who is a 19 year old genuine traditional christian virgin who is absolutely dropdead gorgeous, and I have been forthright with her saying that I think it would be better if she dated a virgin because my ability to pair bond is beyond fucked. Yet she still insists on me and how she one day wants to marry me. I'm 25 years old, a broke ass wagie and still this absolute stunning GODDESS wants ME.I don't understand what drives them to be like this when I openly tell them I'm in a weird basically cuckqueen relationship and how my gf knows I fuck other people and give her absolutely no dick, but we just don't talk about it. She doesn't care because she just wants me to stay, when really a part of me wants her to be pissed and break up with me. I really don't feel like I deserve this level of female attention and it makes me feel guilty, but simultaneously I really enjoy the looks they give me or how they get bashful/flustered when I maintain eye contact with them and gently tease them playfully.I used to think women would be disgusted by this behavior so I started being honest about it, only to find that they pretend to brush it off but start pursuing me more aggressively afterwards. What am I to make of that? The same women who I will hear complaining about men being pigs, cheaters, gross etc - will make exceptions for me.I don't know what to feel about it anymore, so I've resigned to basically accept it even though my past self would be absolutely disgusted by my behaviors. Really, I just want to feel something, and they are willing to provide
