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helpful links c:

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a frst aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> dbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://www.pdfdrive.com/the-dialectical-behavior-therapy-skills-workbook

Please don't post any drastic images and it you have to, spoiler them

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>>80085889
more helpful things

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bump bump, it's a bump, over

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Hey y'all, hope your all doing well.

I woke up early today, still kinda sleepy. I did hurt myself last night but eh. May fall asleep sometime today idk.

>>80086373
That's a adorable cat!

>>80085881
Hey cat how are you?
>might study a little today
I hope it goes well if you do.

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>>80086389
Hey ali c:
>hope your all doing well
Thank you
I'm well though I had to write a little email to deal with uni stuff
I hope you're well too ^^
>woke up early today, still kinda sleepy.
maybe a shower could wake you up?
> I did hurt myself last night but eh.
dang, did you patch yourself up?

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>>80080305
great to hear that you had a good session. tell us how it goes if you feel like it. :>

>>80080635
>I cant tell the difference between not being able to connect and not wanting to connect
a lot of it is the latter, i think. the older you get it just gets more and more exhausting to form a connection without some former common ground.

>this general has given me more support than anyone ever has :p
i know what you mean. everyone here has been a great help to me as well.

>chinese new year is more or less always a hot weather associated celebration for us so its not too bad ^^'
probably not. we just don't have anything like it. at least that i'm aware of. maybe i'm just not invited...

>banks are really finnicky about time too
yeah. i only have a small branch in my town and they have really bad opening hours. -_-

>a new dish for me to learn :0
the recipe is really good, but it can be a bit tricky to get a hold of the required chilis.

>>80080707
i also drink way too much tea... ^^'

>>80081100
>I haven't even meet anyone whom I would want to date so I haven't yet got to that point if I'm honest.
that's fair. i haven't felt anything like that for a long time, either. i was infatuated here and their, but nothing that withstood a reality check.

>no can't do with my mental state
i was there as well. in the end it was pure luck that someone i know offered me the job i have rn. it's not great, but better than nothing, i guess. at least for now.

>with exception of boobs that can be visible and make me be hate crimed to death
you could bind them if you think it'd be much of an issue, but i'm not even sure it would be. most people are way too preoccupied with themselves to care much about someone else. there's always the option to start working out/reduce your body far percentage. that would make them less pronounced, i think.

>im probably just bitching too much
you do you. just want you to know that you have the option. (^-^)

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>>80082175
>sorry i wasn't there when you were up.
all good. i'm not that good at holding a conversation when i'm tired and annoyed at work anyways. ^^

>>80085881
hey catbro! thanks for the new thread! :D how are you doing? studies going well?

>>80086389
heyo gator! sorry it was that bad for you last night. :< what are you up to? and why are you up this early? ^^

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>>80086544
Heya :D
reqdy for the weekend?
>how are you doing? studies going well?
I'm well, my day was mostly fine other than having to write a little email which didn't take long but it tired me out
And the studies aren't going anywhere at least yet but maybe soon I'll start studying

>>80085881
Keep doing it you fucking losers.

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>>80086590
>reqdy for the weekend?
kinda. i'm ok, but stayed at work a bit longer today, so i'm a bit tired. again. seems going to work and getting tired is related somehow. need to investigate. surpisingly nice week of hobby related reveals, though, so that lifted my spirits a bit. :] tomorrow will be work out plus hanging out with friends. the usual. what about you?

>other than having to write a little email which didn't take long but it tired me out
yeah. contacting someone can be way more exhausting than it has any right to be. :/ but you did it, so good job! :D

>And the studies aren't going anywhere at least yet but maybe soon I'll start studying
you just tackle them at your own pace. it has worked out so far, so i'm sure it'll work out this time as well. still: good luck.

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>>80086682
>styed at work a bit longer today,
had to go there earlier and stay longer >:c
you be get loads of cash for that
>work and getting tired is related somehow
hmm interesting observation
I conclud work is a health hazard and should be banned
>week of hobby related reveals
oo like what?
at least that's good :>
>tomorrow will be work out plus hanging out with friends.
okay but remember to get some good sleep tonight
>what about you
no plans other than studying a bit and continuing writing that paper
>but you did it, so good job! :D
thank you ^^
I get tired easily form uni related shenanigans
>you just tackle them at your own pace.
yupp ^^
maybe today I'll just prepared the stuff I'll have to study and memorize

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>>80086474
>Hey ali c:
Hey cat :p
>I'm well though I had to write a little email to deal with uni stuff
Oh writing a email seems like a annoying thing to have to do.
>maybe a shower could wake you up?
Good idea, I'll take a quick shower now.
>dang, did you patch yourself up?
Yes I did.

>>80086544
>heyo gator!
Heya yuanon!
>sorry it was that bad for you last night. :<
It's alright.
>what are you up to?
Nothing rn just watching random vids. What about you?
>and why are you up this early? ^^
Idk I was more sleepy then normal last night.

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>>80086739
>seems like a annoying thing to have to do.
it's not that bad but uni stuff tires me a lot
Like the simplest thing drains me but it's okay because I can chill now
I think I'll take a shower too
>I'll take a quick shower now
have a nice shower ^^
>Yes I did.
good job
do you think it'll heal quickly?
oh and how's that arm thing that was a little infected?

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>>80086722
>you be get loads of cash for that
would be nice, wouldn't it. ^^'

>work is a health hazard and should be banned
but fun things can make you tired as well and then we's need to ban those, too! :0

>what?
onepagerules revealed they'll launch a crowdfunding campaign for their first physical boxset for their game grimdark future. really looking forward to that. and then games workshop revealed a lot of miniatures for their game systems and i actually liked what they showes for a change, so that was nice.

>remember to get some good sleep tonight
i'll try. shouldn't be an issue tonight, but you never know.

>I get tired easily form uni related shenanigans
i get why. dealing with frustrating nonsense tires me out, too.

>I'll just prepared the stuff I'll have to study and memorize
good plan. then tomorrow your brain already knows what it has to deal with and can prepare itself. good thinking.

>>80086739
>just watching random vids. What about you?
just ate some lunch leftovers and now i'm watching a random stream twitch suggested to me, since my usual guys aren't streaming. watching anything interesting?

>I was more sleepy then normal last night.
strange. i felt similar the whole week. just went to bed an hour earlier than usual for some reason.

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>>80086942
>it's not that bad but uni stuff tires me a lot
That does suck a lot, it does seem pretty tiring.
>Like the simplest thing drains me
Oh that sounds really bad then, and you must have to do uni stuff a lot :/.
>but it's okay because I can chill now
That is very nice you get to now.
>I think I'll take a shower too
I hope you enjoy it.
>have a nice shower ^^
Thanks, it did wake me up well :)
>do you think it'll heal quickly?
Probably not, but I hope so.
>arm thing that was a little infected?
I think it's good now, I kinda just looks like any other wound.

>>80087090
>just ate some lunch leftovers
I hope it was tasty. What were the leftovers?
>random stream twitch suggested to me
Okay, those can definitely be very hit or miss sometimes.
>watching anything interesting?
Eh not really, just stuff to get through the day.
>just went to bed an hour earlier than usual for some reason.
Okay, going to bed a hour early can be good sometimes, better than a hour late a suppose.

>>80087354
>What were the leftovers?
pork and mushrooms stew with potato dumplings and apple sauce.

>those can definitely be very hit or miss sometimes.
yeah. i've watched the guy a few times before, but he actually talks like he's a voice actor dubbing a show and that sounds so strange to me that i usually just watch something else. not much else on at the moment, but good enough for some background noise.

>just stuff to get through the day.
hope you find something entertaining as well.

>better than a hour late a suppose.
true, but it can still throw you off a bit. i often wake up way earlier than i usually would. around 4:00 or 5:00 am.

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>>80087090
>would be nice, wouldn't it. ^^'
it would
>fun things can make you tired as well
yeah but work isn't fun so it's just tiredness for no reason
>onepagerules revealed..
oo that's cool
hopefully those things actually happen in the future
>shouldn't be an issue tonight
hopefully
>dealing with frustrating nonsense
yup
evern thinking about it is tiring
>good plan.
thanks
but now I'm in my bed watching stuff chilling

>>80087354
>That does suck a lot
ye :<
>you must have to do uni stuff a lot :/.
nope, I don't have to do it much, I think I just don't like it but I have to foecy myself to do it
>nice you get to now.
ye :D
>hope you enjoy it.
it was nice
>did wake me up well :)
that's very good :>
Time for breakfast now?
>think it's good now
phew
I'm very glad it's good, I was a little worried

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>>80087539
>pork and mushrooms stew with potato dumplings
Okay that sounds pretty nice, and interesting. I don't think I've ever had potato dumplings, sounds good tho.
>apple sauce.
Mmm.
>actually talks like he's a voice actor dubbing a show
Okay that sounds cool as a novelty at least.
>but good enough for some background noise.
That's all you need sometimes, just background noice to fill the void of silence.
>around 4:00 or 5:00 am.
Oh that is a extremely early time to wake up.

>>80087912
>nope, I don't have to do it much
Oh okay that's good then at least, less is better.
>think I just don't like it but I have to foecy myself to do it
That sucks your forced to do it then, I hope it's not too draining for you then.
>it was nice
That's great.
>Time for breakfast now?
Yup! I'll probably get some cereal. Have you had breakfast?
>I'm very glad it's good, I was a little worried
That's very kind of you :). I'm fine though, thankfully no infection.

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>>80087912
>work isn't fun so it's just tiredness for no reason
true. ain't no rest for the wicked, though.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qLP9FaocIUk&pp=ygUcYWluJ3Qgbm8gcmVzdCBmb3IgdGhlIHdpY2tlZA%3D%3D

>hopefully those things actually happen in the future
i think i'll back that crowdfunding campaign, so i'm doing my part. (*^*)9

>evern thinking about it is tiring
you're right. let's stop for now. now's time to chill. man, i feel like it's 11:00 pm already... ^^'

>now I'm in my bed watching stuff chilling
tell me if you find something cool. haven't found anything interesting yet. :/

>>80087994
>I don't think I've ever had potato dumplings, sounds good tho.
pretty common side dish in germany, especially with any kind of stew. they can be a bit tricky to get right, though.

>sounds cool as a novelty at least.
it's a bit grating at first, but you get used to it.

>to fill the void of silence.
especially when i'm as tired as i am and don't want to engage with anything anymore.

>that is a extremely early time to wake up.
at least for guys like us it is. ^^'

>>80087994
>less is better.
I think so too
>hope it's not too draining for you then.
well regardless if it is ot not I have no chiice anyway :/
but ty
>Yup! I'll probably get some cereal.
man I think I'll eat some cerial too :D
>Have you had breakfast?
yup many hours ago right now it's 9pm here
>That's very kind of you :)
you're welcome :D

>>80088076
>no rest for the wicked
D;
>i'll back that crowdfunding campaign
:0
the extra work money has a use already
>feel like it's 11:00 pm already... ^^'
you feeling sleepy?
I'm similar actually I looked over at the clock expecting it to be late
I think it's a good thing since usually time runs away from me
>tell me if you find something cool
I found this
https://youtu.be/pv6V1yHvJyo?si=0N0zPIpn7BssUsz-

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>>80088076
>pretty common side dish in germany
Okay that's pretty cool then.
>they can be a bit tricky to get right
They do sound like they'd be tricky.
>it's a bit grating at first, but you get used to it.
Oh that sucks it's the bad to listen to at first.
>especially when i'm as tired as i am
That's fair it is quite late for you, I'm a bit tired myself.
>don't want to engage with anything anymore.
Makes sense, sometimes engaging is just not fun sometimes.
>at least for guys like us it is. ^^'
True hehe.

>>80088397
>well regardless if it is ot not I have no chiice anyway :/
That really sucks you don't. You should always have a choice at least.
>I think I'll eat some cerial too :D
Very nice! It is great :p
>yup many hours ago right now it's 9pm here
Okay that's good. And oh it's getting semi late for you.

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>>80088547
>That really sucks you don't
yeah :c
but there's nothing I can do
but anyway how's your day so far do you have any plans?
>Very nice!
just ate it :3
>And oh it's getting semi late for you.
yes though luckily I don't have to wake up early tomorrow so I can go sleep late

>>80088397
>the extra work money has a use already
i guess so. ^^

>you feeling sleepy?
yeah. i'm done for the day.

>it's a good thing since usually time runs away from me
enjoy your extra long and extra comfy evening, then. :> for me it's usually just that i used up all my willpower and from that point on i'm just waiting for bedtime. sometimes time runs, sometimes it crawls. not sure what causes what.

>I found this
looks interesting. i'll check it out later.

>>80088547
>They do sound like they'd be tricky.
yeah. if you don't add enough starch you'll end up with potato soup... :[

>bad to listen to at first.
it's ok after some time and now i'm watching something else anyway.

>>80088547
>I'm a bit tired myself.
you got up quite early, after all. ^^ maybe have a nap later?

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>>80088664
>but there's nothing I can do
That's really unfortunate then.
>but anyway how's your day so far
Boring, uneventful.
>do you have any plans?
Nope...
>just ate it :3
That's Soo amazing :p
>luckily I don't have to wake up early tomorrow so I can go sleep late
That is very good then, you can just relax and don't have to worry.

>>80088688
>don't add enough starch you'll end up with potato soup... :[
Oh, that would be a bad accident to make then. Unless you want potato soup.
>now i'm watching something else anyway.
Okay, that's smart then, I hope it's more entertaining.

>>80088704
>you got up quite early, after all. ^^
Yeah I did, at least early for me.
>maybe have a nap later?
I probably will take a quick one later yeah.

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>>80088688
>i'm done for the day.
well maybe it's time to go sleep :3
>for me it's usually just that i used up all my willpower
funny enough that makes the time to faster for me
>i'll check it out later.
okay ^^

>>80088880
>Boring, uneventful
you wanna do something today?
>Nope...
that's okay
but I think you do have plans but maybe you but maybe don't think of them as plans? like I think eating dinner or talking to friends or playing on the puter is plans too
>can just relax and don't have to worry.
yes :>
though not for long because I'll have exams soon
oh btw is there snow over there still?

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>>80088880
>Unless you want potato soup.
never made it before. at least willingly. ^^ maybe i should try one day.

>I hope it's more entertaining.
at this point i'm just hopping channels. streamer is doing a dark souls trilogy no death run. i'll just watch that until it's time for bed.

>I probably will take a quick one later
hope it'll be a good one. :>

>>80088954
>maybe it's time to go sleep :3
maybe not quite time for bed, but it's time to call it a day. (~.~)

>that makes the time to faster for me
you definitely need to save some, then! :0

i'll just be face down lying on the couch now. good night/day, everyone. see you tomorrow!

>>80089095
goodnight yuanon ! c:

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>>80088954
>you wanna do something today?
Yeah, anything is better then nothing.
>but maybe don't think of them as plans?
Well I'll probably eat dinner sometime later, probably sleep later. Most of my friends are probably gonna be busy all day.
>I'll have exams soon
Oh that's not good at all.
>btw is there snow over there still?
Oh, no sadly it all melted :/, did you get any Snow?

>>80089095
>never made it before. at least willingly.
That fair, probably wouldn't taste too good anyways.
>maybe i should try one day.
Yeah maybe, it might be delicious who knows hehe.
>i'll just watch that until it's time for bed.
Okay that's very nice and smart :). Have a chill night.
>hope it'll be a good one. :>
Thanks :D
>good night/day, everyone.
Goodnight!

>>80089212
>anything is better then nothing.
hmm I wonder what could you do ...
>eat dinner
watcha gonna eat?
amI had mushroom soup
>sleep later
you didn't get much sleep last night?
>friends are probably gonna be busy all day.
why?you know what they're doing?
>not good at all.
but I'll survive, probably :<
>no sadly it all melted :/
maybe it'll come back?
>did you get any Snow?
yes we still have snow though it's melting and everything is wet now

hey has chroma been here recently? wondering how he's doing if any of you would know

>>80089588
no haven't seen him :<
last time he was here he was talking about having some super stressful exam
Hopefully hes well

>>80089402
>hmm I wonder what could you do ...
I'll find something ^^.
>watcha gonna eat?
It's gonna be pork.
>amI had mushroom soup
Okay that's sounds interesting. I'm not a big fan of mushrooms but mushroom soup is good.
>you didn't get much sleep last night?
Not really, no.
>why?you know what they're doing?
They just all have work, or there studying for stuff.
>but I'll survive, probably :<
Okay, good luck with it when you do it.
>maybe it'll come back?
Maybe, but it's kinda just getting warmer over here.
>yes we still have snow though it's melting and everything is wet now
Okay that's cool it's still there, shame it's melting and making everything wet :/.

>>80089801
>I'll find something ^^
oky ^^
oh btw idk if you know by I finished earthbound
>pork
nice
>not a big fan of mushrooms but mushroom soup is good.
oh I remember you told me about this
>Not really, no.
why? couldn't fall asleep?
>They just all have work
oh :c
that sucks
>just getting warmer over here
I wonder if spring will come earlier
>shame it's melting and making everything wet :/.
yep but maybe it'll get colder again

hey guys not doing very well so i wasn't active. anyways hi been playing more medieval but irl stuff sucks super bad i overdosed yesterday and now i feel like i will go into cardiac arrest anytime

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>>80090064
heyo :D
>not doing very well
sorry to hear that :<
>overdosed
aa maybe you should go to a hospital!
did that happen accidentally?

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>>80090093
hey cat i did go to the hospital when it happened but they js kinda told me to stop being a whiny bitch and sent me home so i suppose it'll be fine. hope you're doing well though fren, i missed u

Gonna nap probably.

>>80090045
>oh btw idk if you know by I finished earthbound
Oh okay that's so cool! I hope you had fun with it :)
>why? couldn't fall asleep?
Yay exactly, happens a lot to me.
>that sucks
Yeah, sadly how life is I guess
>wonder if spring will come earlier
Maybe, could be pretty nice if it does.
>yep but maybe it'll get colder again
Okay that could freeze the snow which would be better I guess.

>>80090064
Hey overdosing sounds very bad.
>playing more medieval
Those kinda games are very fun.

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Yoo, what's goo everyone? Just got back from work and i'm making myself some food at the moment :)

>>80086389
Hey there White gator :>

>I did hurt myself last night
Hope you took care of that wound. Is everything alright?

>>80086493
>i'm not that good at holding a conversation when i'm tired

can relate lol. i hope you got some good night sleep :)

>annoyed at work anyways. ^^
What's up with work?

>>80085881
hey there cat :) How are you doing today? hope uni isn't too annoying.

>>80090141
>they js kinda told me to stop being a whiny bitch
thay sound very annoying
>suppose it'll be fine
probably ^^
>hope you're doing well though fren,
I'm okay but exams are coming up D:

>>80090270
have a nice nap
>hope you had fun with it :)
yup it was nice though not super great
probably because I've played games inspired by it before so it's not new to me
>happens a lot to me.
ow :<
>could be pretty nice if it does.
I think so too

>>80090413
Hey t
I had a chill day today
>back from work and i'm making myself some food
heck yeah
enjoy your chill time
watcha eating?
>hope uni isn't too annoying.
it's manageable but exams are coming up soon D:

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>How are you doing today?
Fine. Took a walk and bought an expensive McDonald's meal. I will now proceed to starve for a few days (jk... unless?)
>Any plans for today?
Thinking of watching either Cure (1997), Pi (1998), Evangelion 1.0 Rebuild or Shin Godzilla. Which one should I pick?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Last week. Didn't go too deep and they're healing alright.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
As punishment for being (insert self-deprecating comments here) last year. Also obsessive/compulsive thoughts about it.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I wish I had the courage to reach out to people. For the first time in my life a girl showed interest on me and I'm sitting here, nervous like a coward doing nothing about it.
Also the internet has been quite mean to me lately, even though I always post anonymously people always insult me for no reason at all. I've lurked these threads for a while and although I only posted on the last one I feel you're quite welcoming. I'm not sure if I'll become a regular, though.
Also not being able to post Japanese on /r9k/ has been really bothering me. I know it's a little thing but I've been quite hyped about learning Japanese this year and I really want to talk in Japanese... maybe I should get italki, but I don't like personal accounts.

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>>80086493
Oh sorry, I skimmed the thread and didn't see your reply. Thanks for the replies in the last thread too, by the way.
She asked first about my mother assaulting me, so I told her about her and my father's history of doing that.
Then we talked about the sodium nitrite (I've just realized maybe I shouldn't have mentioned it here but there's nothing I can do about it now, sorry), what it is, what it does, etc.
Then about the metamizole. How I felt ingesting it (nothing at all), if I regretted it (not really).
After that she told me to reach out to her if I ever feel like doing anything, and said it's OK to vent to her, too.
That was about it, I was also worried she would have to break confidentiality but it's not the case for that at all.

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>>80090463
>I had a chill day today
hopefully too to chilly of a day :)

>watcha eating?
Just made some white rice and grilled a chicken breast in the air fryer. i seasoned the chicken with some pesto so it turned out super good.

>exams are coming up soon D:
Oh now, that must been stressful :( But i know you'll mange through them. Did you prepare for the exams?

>>80090547
>expensive McDonald's meal. I will now proceed to starve for a few days (jk... unless?)
McDonald's is really good, but it can be expensive, hope it really doesn't make you starve yourself.

>Thinking of watching either Cure (1997), Pi (1998), Evangelion 1.0 Rebuild
I'm a big fan of the Evangelion series the movies are also good (except for the first one) so if you already watched the series and want more, watch the moive :)

>they're healing alright.
Glad to hear that, make sure to keep taking care of the wound :)

>Also obsessive/compulsive thoughts about it.
That sounds hard to go through, fighting the thoughts to hurt yourself can be hard, especially when you think of the act as a punishment. Though remember that you don't deserve or need to hurt yourself over anything, try to be nicer towards yourself, one week of being clean is still impressive though!

>I'm sitting here, nervous like a coward doing nothing about it.
you just mentioned that it was your first time so it's natural that you'll be nervous, you don't have to do everything perfectly with her, just don't push her away and if she really likes you things will flow on their own, just take it easy :)

>Also the internet has been quite mean to me lately,
the internet is not a nice place, a lot of people here just suck, it's a shame but don't take their words seriously, some people are just bitter.

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>>80090547
>I've lurked these threads for a while and although I only posted on the last one I feel you're quite welcoming. I'm not sure if I'll become a regular, though.
you are always welcomed here, you don't have to post here daily, take me for an example, i disappear for months all the time, but every time i come back i always find cat and yuanon (and the rest of this nice little community) to welcome me back :)

>not being able to post Japanese on /r9k/ has been really bothering me. I know it's a little thing but I've been quite hyped about learning Japanese this year and I really want to talk in Japanese
It truly sucks that you can communicate in Japanese here, but either way i don't think that this place is the best for exercising Japanese. maybe you can try other platforms for that purpose?

>>80089095
Also gn yuanon! hope you sleep well :)

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>>80090547
>I've lurked these threads for a while and although I only posted on the last one I feel you're quite welcoming.
this thread in my opinion is like a real diamond in the rough for this place. not a full on misery circle jerk, yet also not toxic or harsh. i really cherish this one.
> I'm not sure if I'll become a regular, though.
up to you, i decided to become chev after talking on here a bit, before that i was js another random anon like everyone else. it's a very nice community in my opinion. also cool to see another fan of this game hahahhaa, really hit close to home for me but not in a very good way, more of a reality check kinda way

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>>80090815
>hope it really doesn't make you starve yourself.
Nah, I'll be fine... It's just that I keep myself from eating sometimes too. I was actually not eating anything for two days before today but decides to break that in style since everything went smoothly.

>I'm a big fan of the Evangelion series the movies are also good (except for the first one)
Thanks for the rec, I watched it just now. Very similar to the series in plot so far from what I recall...?

>Glad to hear that, make sure to keep taking care of the wound :)
I will, everything is fine for now.

>That sounds hard to go through, fighting the thoughts to hurt yourself can be hard, especially when you think of the act as a punishment. Though remember that you don't deserve or need to hurt yourself over anything, try to be nicer towards yourself, one week of being clean is still impressive though!
Yeah, I'm very harsh on myself... it's even hard to explain how much. One little misstep is enough to send me to dark places, and they happen all the time in uni. Just the thought of failing at something sucks my energy. So obviously, the breaks are my favorite time of the year.

>you just mentioned that it was your first time so it's natural that you'll be nervous, you don't have to do everything perfectly with her, just don't push her away and if she really likes you things will flow on their own, just take it easy :)
I'm deathly afraid of fucking things up and she ending up hating me... that's true for everybody, actually, even here I feel just a little nervous of "fucking things up"... but it's also something I'm talking with my therapist about, I guess I just need some time to adjust.
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>>80090815
>the internet is not a nice place, a lot of people here just suck, it's a shame but don't take their words seriously, some people are just bitter.
Indeed. Maybe I'm more fragile now but it didn't feel like this some years before, though...

>you are always welcomed here, you don't have to post here daily, take me for an example, i disappear for months all the time
Glad to hear that, I'm not that social even online so I hope you all don't mind me either posting too much or too little.

>maybe you can try other platforms for that purpose?
Yeah, so far I've been using /djt/ but I'd like something more specialized... I was just rambling anyways.

>>80091068
>this thread in my opinion is like a real diamond in the rough for this place.
I really miss old /r9k/. It was, at least for me, what you described. I hope I can get some of that back here.

>up to you, i decided to become chev after talking on here a bit, before that i was js another random anon like everyone else. it's a very nice community in my opinion. also cool to see another fan of this game hahahhaa, really hit close to home for me but not in a very good way, more of a reality check kinda way
I'm very all or nothing, I could either end up posting all the time or very sporadically, we'll see. I hope you don't mind if I steal Ame from you for a while, haha. I've known about the game since it launched but only played it last year because I know it'd affect me, and I was right. But I think it did so in a good way. Made me want to improve.
By the way, I've been translating the book the writer of NGO wrote, wanna see? I posted it on a couple threads but nobody even replied :/ (I understand if you don't wanna, I just want some feedback on my writing style is all. I probably can't even post the whole thing because of copyright anyways)

>>80091068
>not toxic or harsh
As a monster, I try to herd the other monsters away... I hope I do a good job..

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Nice nap, sleep now tho.

>>80090413
>Yoo, what's goo everyone?
Not to much with me.
>and i'm making myself some food at the moment :)
Ooo very nice, I hope whatever it was, it was very tasty!
>Hey there White gator :>
Heya T :D
>Hope you took care of that wound.
I did, thanks.
> everything alright?
Not really, but there never really is. Lol

>>80090463
>have a nice nap
Thanks it was nice.
>probably because I've played games inspired by it before so it's not new to me
Okay that would definitely make sense.

>>80090547
>Took a walk
Walks are nice, they can just feel nice for our soul too.
>nervous like a coward doing nothing about it.
Nerves can be really challenging, it's a normal thing to be nervous. Don't beat yourself up over it, it's normal.
>people always insult me for no reason at all.
Some people really are just so mean, I get it can be very hard to just ignore, kinda just sucks.
>I'm not sure if I'll become a regular, though.
Totally okay, no one ever has to be.
>quite hyped about learning Japanese
That is really cool and sweet, sucks r9k doesn't allow it :/.

I tried eating a waffle and I want to die

It wasn't even that "caloric", just plain belgian waffle with peanut butter

I don't feel comfortable in my skin

>>80092239
goodnight gator, sleep well :>