One day you'll work up the nerve to kill yourself and no one will have to deal with your bullshit anymore including you.

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>>80086252
That day would hab come sooner if dumb ass lil bro didn't went psychotic, now im becoming essential for the family business and I dont wanna leave mom being in big trouble
My dubai cousin also needs me to figure out how to set foot here but he has his companies in dubai going well already so he could just hire a assistent over here
At least the upcoming cash flow for myself is gonna keep me distracted, monays make me habby for some moments desu
still bleh

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>made it to step 333 of 1700 something
>trips!
>run out of fuel to continue my lighthouse
>maybe I should try to sleep already or something
>I rly need to figure out with parents when I can travel
>need to recharge my energy if they want me to be as promising as during my time at amazon for being in charge of the family business
>dad wants it to be in september
>but only cause he has his own vacation in mind and no trouble closing the business in that month
>I dont want it to be after sommer at least
>april could still work if psychotic lil bro plays a long
>he wont start school again til august
>I would still have time to do the construction schoolings & take over
>but only if he still moves his ass enough til august
>him going to school will be its own drama but thats his problem by then
>teachers will notice his psychosis
>he will most likely smoke weede during recess
>they will notice that too and can kick him out
>I should perhaps start planning for a month in japan to have something to look forward too desu

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>parents are planning their own vacation in april
>I get to plan my own
>trying to find a good flight is pain
>mom recommends a japan tour by a iranian travel agency that has a good reputation in teheran
>I cant just travel to tehran without the stemp to exclude me from the military service
>plus a exstra flight to iran will make it even more pricy
>its also just a 10 days tour while I want to stay for a month
>mom is gonna call them to see if I can join them somehow from over here
>I would also stay longer on my own after the tour
>this organisation is gibing me a headache and im on the edge of its all hopeless mode

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>I actually found a good flight
>the most tricky part is planning my stay in japan
>its not amsterdam or dubai where I know how to navigate n what to see cause I was there too many times
>to be desu dont feel like looking further into it for today
>cant book the flight yet cause still have to be sure about a few things about the family business
>that could take a few weeks oof
>so its not even certain that it can happen if things go south
>parents want mcdonalds for together tonight
>hungry
>I better get them to go soon
>have to wake up at aroubd 5am for the family business
>its past 8pm fuck

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>I change the plans of mcdonalds to burgerking
>the only personal goals I hab befor I travel again are
>reaching lvl60 in wow classic fresh
>(my paladin is lvl45 and very close to 46)
>finish my damn lighthouse
>https://files.catbox.moe/rh5n6q.jpg
>welp spring travel may not even happen so I have plenty of months if not a year for everything
>I guess thats enough time desu
>welp lvl60 should be reached at least befor The Burning Crusade fresh is out
>thats habbeing in like december or a bit earlier

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>mom is like
>cut your hair short and I will pay for youe plane ticket
>REEEEEEEE
>spending time with psychotic lil bro motivated me to go through with my japan travel asap
>I will cry about my stocks
>but I need a time out
>and can buy some later again desu

>>80086234
At least there's some cash flow on the horizon to keep things interesting, right? Hang in there, champ.

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>discuss things with dad again
>tells me my vacation plans in spring would be actually too devastating for the business
>they closed down construction since december and he would need to continue it with me through spring
>befor that lil bros psychosis slowed down work by a lot so financally we are not in the strongest form we could be usually
>I should at least wait til late summer according to dad
>muh cherry blossoms
>to be desu what is rather more important is that I get some time to recover from all the happenings at home to be in a better form again
>I guess it cant be helped and I have to pull through somehow
>better stfu n get ready to sleep soon
>hab to be somewhere at 6am
>less than 7h sleep at this point reee
>I hope I can fall asleep at all oof
>>80088754
what I rather need is to regain mental health points,
im still damaged by my fav cats sudden death and the psychosis of lil bro is taking its own heavy toll
He will be punished without me doing anything if he doesnt realises his wrong doings n seek help,
too bad I wont be there in his class when he is gonna call himself in all seriousness half human n half god infront of everyone
anyhoo I need to be in good form to figure out organisation matters n everything else to manage it,
Parents believe strongly im going to do it better than him, I believe that myself too but trying to sort out his mess til its my own system is going to be such a headache
Im also going to be highly paranoid about safety & errors that could costs so kinda lots of stress for myself
bleh thanks I need to calm down, stfu n get ready2sleep

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>doesnt help that psychotic lil bro wants to quit the company & complete the transfer earlier
>so he can "study" and prepare for school
>he is just gonna smoke weede and play LoL while watching math videos that he only understands via his delusions
>at least a potential meltdown at school could get him locked up
>welp at least at home he starts being disrepectful & insult anyone even mom if you try to disagree
>street fren who talked with him said that has explosive potential in the outside world
>cause he cant imagine other people to be like us and just nod along n play nice
>if he can play nice there his weed during recess is gonna end his school time
>I kindly warned him already to not smoke that shit befor or during school time
>but he said god is going to protect him
>at best the devil is going to protect him to make the final of this arc as bad as possible
>damn it I cant seem to fap cause stressed
>ofc im going to wake up with a boner but have no time for it
>ALLAH
>REEEEE
>I need a second cig befor I get ready2sleep

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>what im going to hate the most is that the company loans will be on me
>one of my life policy is:
>Never owe the banks any money.
>at least its not much left like 15k
>I could cover over half of it with my portfolio
>but im just going to work it off damn it
>one of the few based things about islam is that interest on loans are haram
>interest on loans are literally a massive sin
>but im pretty sure none of the proclaimed islamic countries follow that rule ayy
>meanwhile Iran has declared cats as pets to be haram
>they pulled that one out of their ass
>these people need to burn
>cats are the only animals allowed in mosques
>cats are not allowed to be scared out of mosques or any buildings they enter
>they have to leave by their own desire
>by true islamic law
>cause mohammed was a big cat person
>need to stfu n try to sleeep
>just 5h n half til my alarm goes off
>in bed with my blahaj
>please let me fall asleep
>Goodnight desu

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>wake up from my sleep
>pee
>check the time
>still have over 3h left
>YESH
>I wanna sleep more
>back to it now