>Be me 13, 2009>Life is great and nothing is bothering me>Go to school and come back to play some Halo: Reach or Assassin's Creed >Lived in an apartment complex >Our neighbors were a big family of 9 members >Sometimes I'd go out and look at people and enjoy the fresh air on the balcony >Our neighbor's eldest son was always there in their balcony and looked very preoccupied and tried smoking most of the time as well, watching the world going by with such a blank stare. >Always fighting with his parents, and used to hide his pack of cigarettes on our apartment number lightbox.>One night in the summer I asked him why he is hiding it there and if he is ok>He looked at me and smiled then said "One day you will understand">He shot himself 6 months after that, in their balcony, he was 20Now I understand, I'm staring at the world as it goes by, passing me as if I'm a rock, unmovable. Depressed and even my parents don't want to listen to what troubles their only son, I'm tired guys, nothing Is right. How come nothing I try actually works? How come my own parents don't want to help? They just pretend I'm ok, when I've literally held a knife to my throat today. Will they understand before it's too late and or will I end up shooting myself? Crazy how this world is basically made of lies, if you are genuinely good things will not be good at all for you. Meanwhile awful people get everything they want. Sick sick world. I'm just like him now. RIP Adam.
I understand....And the worst is yet to come...
I actually encourage you to kill yourself, I'm about to do the same. 41 here, life won't get better.
no country for young men
You will not give upGiving up is for faggots.Suicide is for faggots.Real men drink the pain and suffering and use it as fuel.DRINK THE PAIN, PRACTICE ALCHEMY, TURN SHIT INTO GOLD, TURN BLOOD INTO GAINSRESIST THE DYING OF THE SUN
>>80090824Easier said then done fag. But very wholesome.
>>80090428>Will they understand before it's too late and or will I end up shooting myself?They can't mind read anon, you need to tell them what is wrong with you and that you need help.
Such is life for adults if you're not born rich or wealthy. Life sucks it truly does. Adam was right. Shit sucks. It's just one GIANT FUCKING COPE.
>>80090853This is what i managed in 1 month of dieting and training, i literally went from an obese fuck to an actually normal person, i lost like 10kgIn the future i will be like Yukio Mishima, i will form a militia and i will save all the young depressed men on this world, we will be invincible, don't give up.We are all gonna make it unironicallyhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_Kh7cTdoGaQ&list=RDMMRmLtvSVEBWI&index=7
>>80090906Fuck i forgot the picture
>>80090917No way you were "obese"
>>80090957My belly was unironically fucking gigantic and my face was big like the moon from so many years of sitting at my computer.I am doing pushups and sit ups every single day.I am eating only once a day some meat and some salad.My bicep went from total FLOPPY NOTHING to actually really big and strong.TRAIN, SUFFER, CHANNEL THE HATE, CHANNEL THE PAIN, STRUGGLE AGAINST THE FABRIC OF THE UNIVERSE, FIGHT FATE, FIGHT GOD, FIGHT DESTINY REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>80090993Very impressive if true, FOR THE EMPEROR! FOR THE GREATER GOOD!
>>80090428how did the family react after his suicide?
