Insomnimaxxed sort of day.
>wake up in the middle of the night>very strong wind blowing into my room>feel too sleepy to see>eventually the window pries open and a bunch of sheep flock to it>trying to jump in>I don't wanna>one of them still makes it>chase it around and throw it out>a smol bear tries to mix in with the sheep>push against its snout>it's so wet and squishy>so annoyingGib trepanation.
>>82670591Friendly "going for a walk in town after work" morning. Please don't bully sheep, they're nice even if a bit stupid.
Boyfailure kind of morning. These hands can grip no utensil. Sigh.>>82670881What is baka gonna do out and about during boomer hours?>they're niceThey're ominous. Speaking of which, today's fortune is ''A secret admired will soon send you a sign of affection.'' Gosh, kys.
>>82670941I grabbed some water and smokes after my last night at work. Tonight was fun for a change.... How come you find sheep ominous but I assume you're fine with the bear?
Gib soursop.>>82670992Ah, you're some kind of a night shift baka. What's a fun?>you're fine with the bear?Why would a bear think it fine to hide among sheep? Exactly. Been dreaming of strong winds recently. It's supposed to mean big changes according to astrologie girlie lore. Does baka dream different being a nightwalker baka?
Water as a countable noun is WILD to me.
>>82671044Fun is "drinking beer and talking about metal music for hours with a colleague that visited me".Do you expect changes to happen, Eri? To answer your question: nightbaka dreams of things that worry them when they can get good sleep. Mostly people, and their dreams are often bittersweet.... The bear wouldn't try hiding among sheep if they were that ominous, wouldn't it?
The sun is attaccing my already poor eyes.>>82671094Post metal music. They finally invented punk rock in my country last year, so I've been into that, but metal good too.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtTUrQpMa0o>Mostly people, and their dreams are often bittersweet.Ohh. What worries you? Also, I really like this. I say I only have nightmares, but they're rarely nightmares. More like bittersweet, or moreso bitter. Are you afraid of mistakes, not living up to something?Sheep arer ominous because bad things try to impersonate them. An evil might even guide the mindless sheeps to their desired target. If a whole flock of butterflies suddenly landed on you, would not that be sus?>Do you expect changes to happen, Eri?Always, so it dilutes expectations.
Maybe it's just a metaphor for hating women or something.
>>82671133https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouVedNg-6WQThat's something we listened to tonight, I didn't even know that band before. I like the song you posted. I used to be into punk rock a long time ago. >Ohh. What worries you? Also, I really like this. I say I only have nightmares, but they're rarely nightmares. More like bittersweet, or moreso bitter. Are you afraid of mistakes, not living up to something?I hate to admit it but yeah, I'm afraid of letting people down because of me being a baka and not living up to their expectations. What are your nightmares like?>Sheep arer ominous because bad things try to impersonate them. An evil might even guide the mindless sheeps to their desired target. If a whole flock of butterflies suddenly landed on you, would not that be sus?True, true, bad things do try to hide among sheep, but I find sheep themselves fine. I admire how chill they are. .... If a bunch of butterflies landed on me I'd just enjoy the moment. No thoughts. Just enjoy the moment, nothing else.>Always, so it dilutes expectations.What changes are you expecting?
>>82671173Slow burn Anglo metal. Nice nice. Do you like it because of the lyrics. If yes, on a scale from 1-10, how cringe is KMFDM?What are people expecting of you according to your baka mind?>What are your nightmares like?I often attempt to harm innocent people against my will for some reason. Accidentally or intentionally killing pets, animals, often thinking they're posessed by some trick spirits, someone I know and so on. Tried burying my granny in one recently.>I'd just enjoy the momentBut like a lot of them licking your salts. Might start wonderign why you're so tasty to them.>What changes are you expecting?I don't know. I'm just over here watering some grass and cucumbers while mom is away studying how to dupe the dupes better in Oslo. You must be expecting something too?
>>82668057>>82668738Damn, imagine not functionalmaxxing after the first few sips. Skill issue.
>>82671262>Slow burn Anglo metal. Nice nice. Do you like it because of the lyrics. If yes, on a scale from 1-10, how cringe is KMFDM?I do like the lyrics, yeah. I never heard KMFDM, I'll listen to them if you have any particular song you want to recommend me.>What are people expecting of you according to your baka mind?To act like a responsible adult instead of an autistic kid that hesitates out of insecurity or inexperience, and then makes a mess.>I often attempt to harm innocent people against my will for some reason. Accidentally or intentionally killing pets, animals, often thinking they're posessed by some trick spirits, someone I know and so on. Tried burying my granny in one recently.Have you ever wondered what those nightmares mean, or why you have them? I also have nightmares sometimes. They almost always have me on the run.>But like a lot of them licking your salts. Might start wonderign why you're so tasty to them.In the moment I would think "they can taste me as much as they want as long as they don't tickle me". I'd properly think about why I am tasty after having enjoyed the moment with the butterflies.>I don't know. I'm just over here watering some grass and cucumbers while mom is away studying how to dupe the dupes better in Oslo. You must be expecting something too?Watering the grass is comfy. What's duping the dupes? As for what I'm expecting: the chance to make someone happy for once in my life. If it presents itself I'll take it. If it goes how I want I want it to I'll take it as... an event worthy of being celebrated. Because I made them smile.
>>82671341Their best songs are pretty much the most popular ones. Whatever you find first in the search results. I wonder if it's cringier for a native Anglo. Trying to make caring about things edgy doesn't seem to work as well for some bands. I'm not sure. There's some thin line where punk doesn't rock.>and then makes a mess.But do you? Make a mess out of autism or out of hesitation. Feels like the latter is actually more often the case than not. Great thing about autism is the ability to ruin things, but try again anyway.>or why you have them?Uhm, it's not that deep, bro.https://www.youtube.com/shorts/a7azVVLiwqYLidurally me, but insert Superman as a cute girl coming to save me.Who is baka running from aside from a vague sense of dread? I used to have dreams more like that, but more like hiding because running is futile and hiding is also ultimately futile, I guess hope is cliche.>I'd properly think about why I am tasty afterThey had buttefly rabies. They love you because their brains are melting and they're desperate and thirsty.>Watering the grass is comfy.It is when you have that thing that rotates and does the *chk chk chk* sound.>What's duping the dupes?The banking system.Are you also a love virgin? What would you consider a chance ''presenting itself?'' How much are you willing to make it happen?
>white kvass>made in Ukraine>for export to USA and Israel>expiredWishing I was smart enough for the political commentary here.
>>82671407>Their best songs are pretty much the most popular ones. Whatever you find first in the search results. I wonder if it's cringier for a native Anglo. Trying to make caring about things edgy doesn't seem to work as well for some bands. [...]I'l give a listen to some of their stuff then. And I'm not an anglo. I lived there for a while, nothing more.>But do you? Make a mess out of autism or out of hesitation. Feels like the latter is actually more often the case than not. Great thing about autism is the ability to ruin things, but try again anyway.Yeah I do, or better, used to make huge messed. I mellowed tf out as time went by. Still, I'd rather get it right the first time... instead of fumbling and having to solve the trouble I created myself. Maybe some people find that funny, idk.>Who is baka running from aside from a vague sense of dread? I used to have dreams more like that, but more like hiding because running is futile and hiding is also ultimately futile, I guess hope is cliche.In most of my dreams I'm not running from anybody in particular, or better, nobody that I can identify, and now that I think about I wonder why that is, I never thought about that until now. My most recurring dream is going for a drive while driving like a madman, but I don't consider that as a nightmare.>They had buttefly rabies. They love you because their brains are melting and they're desperate and thirstyOkay but who am I to deny the butterflies' desire? What if I enjoy making them happy?>It is when you have that thing that rotates and does the *chk chk chk* sound.I get its appeal but I'm more of a hose person to be desu. >The banking system.I'd like working there one day and I'm planning a thing or two about it.>Are you also a love virgin? What would you consider a chance ''presenting itself?'' How much are you willing to make it happen?Yes, I am. The chance is something I can't describe, I just have to "feel" it. I'll make it happen.
Holy shidd they used to fearmonger scam calls back home, but here it's like 1000 times worse with the spam. Once or twice a year vs like every other day kind of bad. They even make fun of it in their commercials like it's a normal thing. It's even funnier because a phone number has to be registered under one's real name, cause I guess that's what Marx would've wanted, but am sure this just makes it so much easier to prowl for victims.>>82671543Oh. I shall not slur again. Them Anglos got you buying watah doe.Is baka mellow because he makes fewer mistakes or does baka make fewer mistakes because he's mellower...Not even a vague sense of who it might be? I like aliums to fight the trope there would even be anything remotely notable about the human spirit to save yourself. Minus them blasting you at relativistic speeds cause still got to keep some horror and sport.>Okay but who am I to deny the butterflies desire? What if I enjoy making them happy?Baka doesn't have the Discord brainrot... True true. You mainly interact with real people?>hoseThey're nice but, the chk chk thing is imperative for that Americana suburb larping.>I'd like working there one day and I'm planning a thing or two about it.Lekhayem, baka. Tiem for GOLDEN kiwi.>GYAT4
>>82671618I listened to a couple of KMFDM songs. It's not particularly cringe to be desu.>Is baka mellow because he makes fewer mistakes or does baka make fewer mistakes because he's mellower...Baka makes fewer mistakes because he's mellower.>Not even a vague sense of who it might be? I like aliums to fight the trope there would even be anything remotely notable about the human spirit to save yourself. Minus them blasting you at relativistic speeds cause still got to keep some horror and sport.Absolutely no clue. It may be a manifestation of my fears, possibly fear of change, becoming who I can be if I can be disciplined for once in my life, that kind of stuff.>Baka doesn't have the Discord brainrot... True true. You mainly interact with real people?Yup. I'd like to talk to you on discord too if you happen to have it.>They're nice but, the chk chk thing is imperative for that Americana suburb larping.I never associated the chk chk thing with the states>Lekhayem, baka. Tiem for GOLDEN kiwi.Enjoy it.Eri looks cute with messy hair...
>>82671666 (another ominous sigh)>It's not particularly cringe to be desu.>Baka makes fewer mistakes because he's mellower.Baka has a level of freedom many of us may onyl dream of already...>if you happen to have it.I only exist in a temporal state here.>I never associated the chk chk thing with the statesWatering the lawn is very California. Especially if there's a golden retriever to try to play with it.>Eri looks cute with messy hair...Baka is a witch racist...
>>82671718>Baka has a level of freedom many of us may onyl dream of already...Baka learns from his mistakes... Or tries to.>Watering the lawn is very California. Especially if there's a golden retriever to try to play with it.That's a cozy mental picture. Add a table, some lawnchairs and cold drinks. Maybe a radio. Now it's cozier.>Baka is a witch racist...Baka likes witches and has no problems with saying it. Who's the other witch, what's her name?
Ridimng the Hebrew bus for more sips... Think I got enough.>Baka learns from his mistakes...Gib recent mistake, so I can learn from baka's mistakes too.>Now it's cozier.Rolling coal down the road on the 20 mile ride to Walmart...>Who's the other witch, what's her name?That's Eraina. No relation.
>>82671847>Gib recent mistake, so I can learn from baka's mistakes too.Baka made wrong assumptions not based on facts, the offending kind of accusations. Baka made amends for it. Baka doesn't know what the person Baka wronged thinks as Baka is not a telepath.Baka has argument with someone, that someone is really angry at Baka. Baka make amends. That someone comes to terms with Baka and now considers Baka as a friend.>Rolling coal down the road on the 20 mile ride to Walmart...Touching grass in a forest while smoking grass.>That's Eraina. No relationAre Erin and Eraina good friends?
>>82671872Is the lesson that it's okej to offend normos if you think you got a good case?>Are Erin and Eraina good friends?Only witches know.
>>82671938>Is the lesson that it's okej to offend normos if you think you got a good case?Not at all. The first lesson is not to make assumptions unless Baka wants to offend people and make them dislike Baka. In other words making assumptions that are not based in reality is harmful if Baka wants to be in good terms with them. The second lesson is Baka should have not gone against that person because Baka was in the wrong, but that person likes Baka better because Baka took responsibility for Baka's mistakes. Baka learned that lesson after lots of struggle.Baka also learned that Baka should not make the people Baka is fond of unhappy.>Only witches know.Mh. Baka thinks Erin and Elaina look cute together.
Got groomed into buying as pink safety light. Gonna glow pink in the night now.>>82671969Won't baka feel like betraying his 'tism values etched in stone if that's the takeaway? Either or ''I need to be better at making judgements'' or ''Soem battles are not worth fighting.''
>>82671999>Won't baka feel like betraying his 'tism values etched in stone if that's the takeaway?Baka doesn't care about breaking 'tism values. Baka wants the people that interact with Baka feel warmth and wear a smile on their faces after they interact with Baka.>Either or ''I need to be better at making judgements'' or ''Soem battles are not worth fighting.''The first is more like "Baka should not negatively judge people Baka is fond of and give them the benefit of doubt", the second is "Baka should not step on the shoes of the wrong people, but Baka managed to turn it into something good thanks to taking responsibility for his mistake". Which is basic diplomacy, now that I think about it....is Eri okay? Baka can't tell what Eri's expression is conveying...
>>82672041What would baka be willing to do to be liked? Can't overdo. Normos are good at sniffing out the bear among sheeps, me thinks.
>>82672176>What would baka be willing to do to be liked? For somebody that Baka loves, Baka would do things Baka normally wouldn't do, like travelling just to be with Baka's crush, even if it's just for a mere week. That's on top of everything Baka normally does to get along with people.For other people, Baka usually just shuts the heck up and listens and that's enough in most cases. Baka talks about his personal interests, Baka is a good conversation partner, or at least that's what people say about Baka. In the very rare occurrence people are being shitheads Baka responds appropriately.>Can't overdo.Yes and no. Again it depends.>Normos are good at sniffing out the bear among sheeps, me thinksDespite being an autist, Baka knows psychology better than the average normo. Baka can read people like a book from their body language. Most normos don't know how to do that.
>>82672242A high level autis... Reminds me of someone long gone. Did baka sort of learn to sort of ''delay gratification'' from social interactions? In a way, how do you gauge if an interaction is even worth continuing? Or do you find majority of them enjoyable enough to bother?
>>82672289>A high level autis... Reminds me of someone long gone. Baka could well be that someone. Especially if that someone used to really piss you off and hurt you.>Did baka sort of learn to sort of ''delay gratification'' from social interactions? Yeah, from social interaction in an imageboard that is not 4chan.>In a way, how do you gauge if an interaction is even worth continuing? Baka asks themselves questions like "am I being manipulated or do they want to get something from me I'm not willing to give" "is the person I'm talking to interesting or pleasurable to talk with". Things like that.>Or do you find majority of them enjoyable enough to botherNo. I'm a misandrist. I have my reasons for disliking most people. I need social interaction in order to properly function, but I'd rather be alone than being around people I dislike.
Sigh. You can put a new hat on a witch, but some people just don't like witches and for those who do, any hat will do. Time for something stronger then.
>>82672727Has Baka ever mentioned to Eri Baka likes her? Asking for Bak- sorry I meant to say "asking for a friend".
Purging the gut biome again until I roll a good batch that cure the baka disease.
>>82672975Funny how you went from telling me I'm so sweet you want to feed me curds to calling me a disease.
>>82673024Idk wtf you're schizoig about. Either way. You should not be proud of online trickery, friend. It's a mere waste outlet. Now go purify the mutt water or else they'll all get autism.
Holy heck. This is hard on my low neuron density brainu. I remember once saying I drank 60% vodka and some Balkan niqqa was like, ''Oh, yeah? That is babby numbers, we were drinking 80% rakija at 12yo.'' Yeh, damn I can tell whenever I see your Balkanniqqers on the news.
>>82673048I'm not schizoing... You said that to me in one of your threads about a week ago. Doesn't matter. I'll let you be in peace.
>>82673063Kurisu-chans be like a week later: ''Ha ha, I didn't AKSHULLY let you be in peace, that obscure poster you forgot about, well, indeed it was moi, indeed my superior autistic masking has proven its supeiority once againe, cope & sneed.''
I rember once I went to my mom to ask what a Norgayan word meant and she was immediatelly like ''Are you drunk?'' damn like is it that umpossible for your son to genuinely want to learn from you????
Beets help cope with sneed.
I'm not who you think I am. I don't know you IRL. ...Sadly. So long. Sorry for being a bad influence.
Gib me my thoughts back sigh.
Wishing I was mute and broke all my fingers again. Sigh.
What inspires you to speak so much?
>>82675902That's the nicest thing anyone has said to me in a while. Being a yapper is my life goal. Too bad I was born a grey NPC.
>>82675941You like Eri enough to avatarfag her, so surely have at least some color to you. Cheer up! Or else...
>>82676143It don't add depth of flavor. It's just fast food of posting. I'll drink myself to death now.
Helping a girl with low self-esteem feel just a little better about herself is a good cope with the meaninglessness of life all along. I see it now.
Me in Wokeland: ''Grr... I hate internet people so much...''Me in Dreamland: ''Murder your family.''Funny divide. All just because Dreamland removes one's ability to comprehend the written word unironically.
>>82677095Your post was funny, but made no sense I must say.
>>82677154One cannot process text or technology in dreams, so even if you're terminally online, you'll still default to the real life in there. At least my imagination of online people is too NPC to replace the few memories of real people I have, so the basis of my sadistic nightmares is still just a few core memories of whatever wintry landscape I was inhabiting at the time. I don't want to tell because some bakas I gave too much info to for being cute girls might find my old haus, but it had this feature where the sun would play tricks on my mind, I would put all my plushies there which I had a lot of. I think it makes some or made some in the past some of the dreams warmer than they would have otherwise been. Even my nightmares are always in Summer. I guess finding winter as overly gloomy is cliche and boring.
paizuri with eri
>>82677203>some bakas I gave too much info to for being cute girlsRookie mistake... I don't think you can call that a feature of the house though, maybe you should call the sun the baka here. It sounds like the solution is to simply sleep with your plushies more and dream of them. But that depends on the kind of plushie you have...
>>82677296Baka, we were just out of the communism back then. All I knew was duck plushie and dog plushie and bear plushie etc, none of those degenerate double innuendos Anglos have ruined my mind with now.No no, the sun is cool. It makes my dreams look likehttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Central_Russian_Upland#/media/File:%D0%91%D0%B0%D0%BB%D0%BA%D0%B0_%D0%9A%D0%B0%D0%BC%D0%B5%D0%BD%D0%BD%D1%8B%D0%B9_%D0%BB%D0%BE%D0%B3.jpgeven when it's just ghosts of my mom's cousin trying to lure me into an abandoned replica of my haus in the middle of a wheat field.>Rookie mistake...Meh. Sure. I don't think she'll ever want to hurt me to that extent even if I mostly suck. Live and let live. Past, nice or rude, is past. Bleh.
>>82670591kissing foid feet while she passed out on the couch
>>82677341What the heck anon, how old are you? Why are you here? I'm sure the replica of your haus is nice, the wheat field sure sounds like it.
>>82677401Huh? I'm a 28yo boomer with aching bones. I once slipped on ice pretty hard and it didn't heal for months.
Damn was coofin in pain for like half year. Felt like my 100yo great granny when she slipped on ice once, but continued to live out of sheer spite for my granny.
Anybody else here in their 50s and just chilling?
>>82677436You honestly made it sound like you were over 30 or something with that talk of teddy bears and ducks. Do you not have a single anime plushie? You're missing out! They're lovely to sleep with.>>82677526What are you even doing on this website at that age..
>>82677539Sorry, I meant to make a post but forgot I was lurking this thread.
