Lots of thoughts
Action over words
Trust
Faith
Empty space

j

how many times will i have to profess my love in order for you to say it back? i know you have to remind me of how youve stayed and are very patient with me, but sometimes that just doesn't feel like enough. youre right about how i constantly keep hunting for an answer ill never get. even if you were to ever tell me, i think it would already be too late by then. i love you, but i cant wait forever. i have to move on eventually. for now, i wait for you.

k

35 year old woman with an innie that's embarrassed being older than me but loses herself when I push my tongue in her mouth

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it's kinda better this way. I'm not bpd. I was spamming because nothing else felt as enjoyable. I used love writing and studying poetry, but (among other things) it became unenjoyable. I stopped writing with any sort of meter or form, so then my poetry became super shiet. Then I just stopped completely. TBF I like free verse because I like natural sounding poetry. That's kinda a recipe for disaster, so I'm going to make an effort to study more poets than just my five faves. I know I feel better because I've been writing poetry again (along with other projects). I can't believe how bad I felt before. I'll see how I feel in a few weeks and months I guess. I hope I continue to experience improvements. I'll always appreciate you and you've expanded my impression of what a good man should be like. You're still a dork :^) <3
You probably think I'm a bad woman, or on my way to being one. You will never know me. You will never know how I show my love. You may have caught a glimpse of the lengths I'd go for someone I love to be happy, but I think you're too dense/self-centered to appreciate anything like that. I hope to find a guy who does. I thought I did, but he just would forget about anything I did for him. I can't date because it's too time consuming and I wouldn't feel right being in a relationship if I don't have the time or resources to do everything I'd like for him. I miss seeing someone enjoy the outcome of my plans. It's hard for me to embrace the moment without thinking about constraints like time, so the most rewarding thing is to see someone else being able to embrace the moment without worrying about time/any other constraint. I just wanted to plan a good time for you and to let you relax. Work has become more relaxing the more I become fluid with diff tools. I want to help a guy I love relax. Being off meds, I definitely couldn't do that. I deleted ur number frfr, so byeeeee /ramble

me when I'm unmarried at 35 with my 30 year old bf

SD
I hope your happy

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I am as I do and I do as I did and I would as
I could, so I could as I would and I would as I did and I did as I do and I do as I am

>>82942523
>I am as I do
Like sending unsolicited dick pics?

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>>82942523
oh yah didn't you make that edit with that tapestry you saw?

>And I know nobody believes in it

K,

I'm sorry.

>>82942745
Initials ? Origi

Z
Don't know if you still look at these threads but I'm going to show up at your front door on Saturday lol. This is the closest thing you're getting to a warning.
B

>>82942557
>>82942567
Someone likes Photoshop and being creepy. I don't want to talk to you.

Go away

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>>82942946
Mike, don't respond to BPD bait. How he's acting is enough for everyone else to see who he is.

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Mike if you need to vent you can message me on discord

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>>82942986
You are right. Best not to engage with catfish asshat.

>>82943112
Thank you. I will. Catfish Anitta James attempted adding me today. If it's getting this bad it must mean I'm almost home.

>>82942745
Either way, too little too lates. Idgaf

Donna, Potato, I love you. Show the Maidens how to have amazing hair and sing with them.

Also, tell Dora to calm down.

Just tired of shitty people like

>>>/adv/33868397

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>>82943308
>Catfish Anitta James attempted adding me today

Your name is mike so I wouldn't put too much thought into this but Anitta James sounds like "I need a James".

>>82942859
Nice nice kiss her

I thought I was ok now I can't get out of bed again

>>82943897
drinking a lot of water helps with this. you'll have to get out of bed eventually.

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I found Maria.

>>82943961
>just do it bro and pull yourself by your bootstraps or something

>>82943510
i guess it shouldn't be too surprising that you're too autistic for silly jokes. your social cue radar has been off for at least 5 years or something to that extent? nta by the way, that would be insane.

>>82944223
I understand how difficult it is to get out of bed. I used to have periods where I didn't go outside -- the longest being half a year. I'm just saying that drinking water helps to just get out of bed. The first step is getting out of bed. My routine was to get water at the same time I had to pee.

>>82944073
gosh, she's majestic

Avoidants are scum of the Earth.

>>82944815
yahyah BLAME avoidants psh
also there are plenty of people with poor communication that aren't avoidant

ppl always blame avoidants instead of wondering why their avoidant behavior is triggered.

>>82945036
the trigger for avoidants: honesty, communication, respect, commitment, love etc.

>>82945042
I'm quite avoidant and I just get overwhelmed at the feeling of being seen eventually and need to disengage. Being around anyone is exhausting even people I really like

>>82944256
>Called out for shitty behavior
>Hurr durr but I'm just joking

Fuck off

>but I'm not gaslighting and manipulating. It's just a joke
>Proceeds to gaslight and manipulate
Fuck 0ff

>>82945017
>poor communication
Being good at communicating doesn't matter when the other person avoids you.

Calling someone avoidant and hounding them is definitely respectful of space and not controlling annoying behavior at all.

>>82945135
I avoid you because I feel judged ashamed and inferior to every person I interact with.

ya dick looks weird mike

>>82944815
your hatred only pushes me further away lmao ttuly avoidants have the best defense mechanisms against abusers

>>82941333
shit week so far ex-gf makes me skip class to be with her already getting dropped from classes and given academic probation because of it. She doesn't care, I'm too much of a beta cuck to say anything about it. She keeps trying to get me to skip work and just smoke weed with her. She has no money or job and I was the sole breadwinner in the relationship. Fucked up my back at work last month, pain is worse but doctors say back isn't damaged. Go to doctors with my own insurance so I didn't even get workers comp. Shitty pills they give don't even work. One day at work pain gets too much to bear, collapse and have to leave because of it. Get let go because of poor performance. Tell gf I lost my job, she breaks up with me. Trying to get back all my credits this semester so I can keep being enrolled in college. No support from friends or parents. Parents don't even like me I think. Trying to find a job. I have decent experience so I'm not afraid of being unemployed for too long. Last break between last job and one before was maybe less than a month. Don't wanna get stuck with something shitty and menial. Waiting for internships/student jobs at my college to open.
TL;DR: Stoner cokehead ex gf fucked up my life and dumps me because of it.

I didn't even realise AVPD was a thing til I read about it here and it was like reading my entire life. I am utterly crippled by rejection and criticism, i feel pathetic for it and it has made me withdraw from my entire life since I was a kid.

Anxious attachment types are evil. They are the ultimate wolves in sheeps' clothing and it makes me sick.

You will never ever take the time or effort to truly see me as a person. Truly, you never even liked me. You only enjoy the person you imagined in your head that you project onto me, and if not me then whoever else you could sink your claws into at the time. Every moment I fail to meet your fantasy whether it is something as simple as a thought that's my own I incur your contempt and punishment. And somehow only I can be wrong. I'm the one who is cruel and heartless because you "love" me and are happy being with "me". And of course our relationship is only good if you are happy, if I'm not you don't care at all, it just doesn't matter. Only I know how badly I am treated behind closed doors and how lonely this is. I can only endure begging someone to respect me for so long before I just have to detach, or break completely. Make me the villain if you want, blame me for everything, go tell everyone you know I was perfect until one day I just changed and flipped a switch completely and just stopped caring about you. How I was the only person who made you feel like you were worth something, your soulmate, and then I just took it all away from you. I'm okay with that if it means I can escape being treated like this by anyone ever again.

Your strategy
>Make her hate Mike
>Attempt to trigger Mike and make him react making threads and posting at him
>Make her hate herself
>Gaslight and manipulate her, make her feel guilty and shame, make her feel worthless, make it sound like I'm helping her and that her avoidance is the issue-not the issue of who I am being the issue and her finally recognizing it

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I don't have anxious attachment. Maria is my soulmate and you make up/twist/lie to influence her

I know her truth, just as she knows mine.

>>82945362
Ouchie, bigly relatable. Anxioids are children who cry and throw tantrums whenever you step out of line.

>>82945135
no, I meant that sometimes people just suck at communicating or caring about others and it's not actually avoidance. sometimes people are just inconsiderate.

>>82945308
you shouldn't feel pathetic for it. now that you have clarity, you should do everything opposite of what you do currently.
I used to feel crippled by rejection, but a lack of criticism is what continues to hurt me the most since it indicates the other person's disconnected from me. Silent or indirect judgment makes me sad. It can get easier, but it can also revert. It takes a lot of consistency to make improvements. It took like a year and a half of living life in a radically different way for me to see great improvements. I've mentioned avpd/my progress here before. I was very serious when I said like a year ago or so I was suicidal about missed friendship connections. I felt like I'd never have community and as if I'd be alone forever. Now, I understand friends and relationships can develop at any point in life. Take a look at this support form, which you may've seen since I linked it: https://mysupportforums.org/avoidant-personality-disorder/561887-how-make-martian-part-three.html?s=ae55eef0d6689cf42b6c2b58decd9bb2
AVPD SUCKS. Life can change. It just takes a lot of effort and exposure. Talking to a psychologist helped a lot. My therapist was good at calling out bs and irrational thoughts.

>>82945297
Fuck her. If you want to continue your program, lean into it heavy and find any group on campus associated with your major/college. Academic probation sucks, but like two good semesters can get you out of it. I was there after spending too much time with my ex (my fault tho) and it was tough. Lost a few opportunities because of it, like the chance to study abroad; I won a scholarship and was ineligible. Look into all of the resources your college offers to students. If you go to a university, there might be a student emergency fund. Take it all as a lesson.

>>82945408
>>82945362
I'm an extremely anxious type but I had a gf and didn't do this to her or demand she contort herself to fit an image that made me comfortable, so I am going to be a pissy woman here and say we're not all like that

>>82945408
honestly it sounds like you hurt someone and they got frustrated. Though, everything is always the other person's fault, right?

>>82945599
What a weird thing to lie about. You have never linked to this article on R9k.

What are you trying to get someone to do that's in the article

https://desuarchive.org/r9k/search/text/https%3A%2F%2Fmysupportforums.org%2Favoidant-personality-disorder%2F561887-how-make-martian-part-three.html%3Fs%3Dae55eef0d6689cf42b6c2b58decd9bb2/

>>82945625
This. Manipulators hate autonomy

>>82945308
I saw a YouTuber talk about a personal challenge they did where they spoke to 100 people. I didn't finish the video and idk what YouTuber it was, but my takeaway was that I needed to talk to more people. Now, I have a much easier time talking to strangers. The cure to any developed mental illness is to do the opposite of whatever you're doing. Problems deepen because we develop habits to protect ourselves from feeling the pain that comes from social rejection. Telling yourself yourself that certain thoughts are wrong, and then correcting them, is the best way to approach it.

>>82945663
can you seriously fuck off you stupid cunt. you're so delusional and stupid.
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/82893076/#q82902769

I'm not trying to get anyone to do anything. That post's OP shared a series of posts about his experience with avpd and it's one of the more positive threads on the forum IMO
Mike, why are you such an unbearable, complacent faggot?

>>82945796
Your link doesn't show up when it's searched in the archive.

That's not delusional. That's a fact. That's not stupid, that's a fact.

Not responding to bait.

>>82945932
>sigh. i didn't want to do this. but i guess i have to manipulate and gaslight you

Certainly

Not listening to liars

>be me
>look in the letter thread for hot /dykebot spam/ i need to maturbate
>it's only mike spam
ugh my life's the worst and couldn't get worse

>>82946128
Could be worse you could be a chubby loser.. oh wait

>>82945993
Dude, eat a fat fucking dick who do you think you are? Like you're too good for us?

>>82946152
who's meant to be the chubby loser in this insinuation !! that's really meann if you meant me :((
no namefag because we're all the same person in the great /mike thread/, and in mikes great eyes, regardless of names and raises ect

Going insane with loneliness

>>82946262
To the only girl who ever made me happy.
You know who you are. I'm sorry I let you down.
https://youtu.be/pQsF3pzOc54?si=7RUtMfWM5B3zhSyu

>>82942745
W
Ngl, im sorry too

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Maria, I wish I had done things differently. I do care and I'm sorry. I love you with all my heart still.

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>>82937359

M,
I made mistakes too. I know that and I feel that hurt every day. I wish I could go back and change how I worked through things with you and the actions I took. I have difficulty with communication through text and the only time I feel I was ever heard was when I sent you the video. I don't know how to go forward but I hope I hear from you because I truly do love you.

All my heart,

M

>>82946408
first time i've heard you say sorry
granite i don't read your posts or remember anything

I've said it before and I've always felt it. I told her it on video.

>>82946608
Mike is Maria a tranny? Why are you always posting videos of two anime boys kissing?

I don't know how to express how I feel in words and that just really sucks because I feel like if I don't write it she won't understand and if I write it she may misunderstand because I suck at writing. So I'm in a loop of constant blame and berating myself.

>>82946622
mike has done poppers with his bros before so it probably has something to do with that

https://youtu.be/84kkLscAJUM?si=p56kKbEwZt79BKrU

I feel compassion for you, yet there are moments where I find your personality and beliefs utterly loathsome and self-pitying. You could be so much more, yet you lack the strength to do it.

have you ever considered that someone feels the same about you?

I could have been stronger if you helped me.

dear t,

i was 14 and you were 27. i have never told anyone the truth and even now at 3- i can't say entirely. it's too demented to put into words, even on here i feel like. you took total advantage of the fact i was beat down already by my family. the lie i have told the few people i should be able to trust about what happened but can't bring myself to, feels really bad. separating who i feel i am, from you, has been one of the hardest things i've done. i had to lose everything and finally decide to either put real effort in living with it or just die. i am glad you finally feel like a memory i can just think about instead of raging and crying over. you knew how bad my home life was, all it took was one moment of validation. i became a dirty little rat for so long. i stare at your profiles sometimes, days like today. been spamming and annoying you last few days. it was around today all those years ago we met. i want today to feel like that time in the sense that it's a turning point, a turning point to the best years of my life and leaving you and all of that period of my life finally behind. i've made so many mistakes over the years, so much living in reaction to you and everything happening around me from then, even when i escaped it all. i've hurt people, i've lied a lot. i had to lie and sneak around so much for you. lie about home. it started to feel good, deep meaning in lies. so many long days waking up drenched in sweat after 3 hrs of sleep. i used to see you in my sleep so much. so much shame because i was willing back then, raging at the world since, at you and myself. always as desperate for validation and attention. this summer has felt like something that needed to happen for a long time. just like with my dad, i was never going to be able to meet again and get that real closure but it's ok, it doesn't work like that. sometimes things have to break completely to heal right. i don't hate myself anymore. i don't hate you either.

-j

>>82947861
I am sorry to hear you went through so much trauma with a shitty person.

Grace the object of my lust

>>82947856
This is not from DNR.

Would've liked your advice, though.

>>82948231
>This is not from DNR.
>Would've liked your advice, though.
DNR? What advice?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L64BcCRDAE&list=RD8L64BcCRDAE&start_radio=1

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When November comes, they will know that the cost of misplaced trust is obliteration.

I will be A-OK without it. You told me what I needed to know and that's enough for someone like me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVr6Te5GWu0&list=PLWtWrYyjv5h7Xyaj9kqaYd2sNh0eh4cj2&index=11
I wish I could add you back, but I knew things would be fucked after I lashed out. That's why I act like that sometimes. It's the only way to get someone to share how they really feel. I love you.
Wish I could tell you about what I've done to change, but I probably would just be wasting time like I am typing this. gotta stop coming here now erghuugh

miso hong and miso chong, miso hong and miso chong, miso hong and miso chong, miso hong and miso chong

>>82948968
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lGFpyuuchg&list=RD-lGFpyuuchg&start_radio=1

Still thinking about her. I really wish I could just stop. I really wish I just move on. I keep looking back and regret all the shit that I've done when I should focus on the now instead of begin a miserable sack of shit

bullet to my brain will fix everything

>>82949811
no it won't. spreading your feels across friends and talking to them about how you feel will. if you don't have friends to talk to, then meet people. what could you be doing instead of suicide posting and being sad? t. someone who has been quite the suicide poster online
you can't fantasize or dream if you're dead.

men esp should read the illiad. mfs used to care about they homies. mfs used to avenge they homies. the english and french sorta fucked things up. the way self reliance is celebrated in men extends to emotional self reliance, but that's just not possible. ironically, it's very easy for men to build up community when around other men. I see it every day. dude's running into their buddies on transit and chatting with them until one of them reaches their stop. work and car centered infrastructure make it very difficult -- many men only talk to other men that they're in some sort of resource competition with.
go to a bar and play pool with some other dudes before killing yourself. asynchronous conversation (usually texting) results in a less intense hormonal response than synchronous communication (calls, irl chatting). unless you want to sink your life into discord, go out and talk to other dudes. most of the odyssey does not feature odysseus with penelope. it's him questing and navigating various challenges to reach his queen. "oourr naurr I lost the chick!! nauuuuu my life is overre" no it's not shhh

i read the illiad and odyssey when i was 16, i tried turning it over to some girl i was talking to at the time and she didn't get it and said it made her bored, was a revelatory moment for me

iliad* no double L my mistake

>>82950161
no you probably just read my post and copied my mistake my b
also my gal pals and I enjoyed the odyssey in class when we were 13-14, but we also had a femboss teacher so

im thinkin... the ill B) iad

>>82950144
Epics are not for everyone. I can understand that reaction

i had to read it on my own time along with a spate of plato and aristotle since i was coming of age and becoming interested in classics and european namely greco-roman antiquity, only good literary picks in my school curriculum were shakespeare but i'm glad i didn't study greek classics in school because the association with those noobs might have turned me off

>>82950252
they are definitely much less for the vagina inclined with rare exceptions i don't think that's a controversial statement, regardless i think study of those texts and that time period should be heavily encouraged in western schools as mandatory education

>>82950424
>>82950144
Every regular ed hs english class goes over them. Perhaps you were doing too much pot to remember

>>82950432
i've never done drugs in my life and i'm probably not from the same country as you, thanks for the input regardless presumptuous faggot

>>82941333
Kill Mike. Behead Mike. Roundhouse kick a Mike into the concrete. Slam dunk Mike's baby into the trashcan. Crucify filthy mike. Defecate into Mike's food. Launch Mike into the sun. Stir fry Mike in a wok. Toss Mike into active volcanoe. Urinate into a Mikes gas tank. Judo throw mike into a wood chipper. Twist mike heads off. Report Mike to the IRS. Karate chop Mike in half. Curb. Trap mike in quicksand. Crush mike in the trash compactor. Liquefy mike in a vat of acid. Dissect mike. Exterminate mike in the gas chamber. Stomp mike skulls with steel toed boots. Cremate mime in the oven. Lobotomize mike. Mandatory abortions for mikes offspring. Drown mike in fried chicken grease. Vaporize Mime with a ray gun. Kick old niggers. Feed mike to alligators. Slice mikewith a katana."

Total Mike death TMD

>>82950537
Basically this, all my thises

I don't want to die, but I feel like I have to. I really thought everything would work out, but it hasn't. I could leech off my parents for a few more years but by then I will become a complete loser and I don't want that. I want to die before becoming one

>>82950644
It's your civic duty as a resident of this board to despise all namefags, Mike is a cancer that infects everything he touches. No wonder Maria left him to engage in casual sex with various more attractive men.

When I'm laying in bed with Donna and giving her lips little kisses... I'm going to constantly remind her that she is in her mid 30s in bed with a hot, naked teenage girl. That the pussy she is touching is too young for her. I'm going to make her feel so fucking naughty for doing this, it's going to be super fucking hot. She's going to feel weird and guilty and I want her to be shaking. A girl so sexually charged and experienced as Donna being nervous in bed? That's too good of a thing to pass up. I know exactly what to say to her to make her feel super guilty and wrong about it all. I'm going to make love to her mind.

I want Donna to be my first. I really do. It just seems perfect and right.

Ahhh I keep thinking about sex. I don't know why but I'm super horny. I want to do just the naughtiest things. I want Donna to lay down, stick out her tongue while I rub my clit back and forth on her tongue. I want my pussy to rub her nose. I want to pull her hair as I ride her face. I bet it feels fucking amazing.

yet another dream where she forgives me award

I know what you mean. I've always wanted to do things to women with my penis.

>>82951198
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVr6Te5GWu0&list=PLWtWrYyjv5h7Xyaj9kqaYd2sNh0eh4cj2&index=11

Wompp wompp

>>82951328
try sounding that out.

>>82951217
please don't do this to me, thanks.

The good guys are either terrified or super excited to have a real leader. I don't know who is calling the shots now but they just aren't a leader. Not in the truest sense of the word. if they were... then this never would have fucking happened. I feel like I've been calling the shots for awhile now.

Which is scary. It's scary having someone with that kind of power out there. Someone that is truly righteous and good telling people what to do. It means sacrifice, it means doing the hard thing more often than not. Being selfish or just sitting there letting bad things happen is easy. It's the easy thing to do. If you can't do something easy, you do what's right.

And that has to be a great feeling as well. Knowing your leader is righteous as fuck. Knowing that what you're doing is the right thing. That it's the good thing. It's fulfilling. You build team, you build worth. When I tell you to do something you know that it's the right thing. That it's the best thing for everyone.

For me it's a lot of responsibility. I'm not a micromanager. I don't want to be. My role as a leader will be more as a cardinal sign. A guiding light, a fixed point.

Shutting down the billionaire sex slave trade is a big fucking deal. That was their leverage machine. That's how they got dirt on one another and that's how they paid each other off. With little girls. It's always fucking little girls. Every fucking time.

But the sex trade with them isn't over. I get that hollywood has their own little sex farm so girls like elle fanning can get fucked without a guy telling everyone her secrets but that shit needs to stop. It needs to stop now. You are paying people for sex. How the fuck does Charles Bronson get all those girls hanging onto him on yachts? Do you think he meets them naturally? No, there is still a fucking sex trade that's blatantly out there and these girls are all obvious prostitutes. Do you think Leonardo Dicaprio just happens to meet a bunch of college girls? No, someone is setting him up with them. He is fucking prostitutes from an obvious prostitute ring and what people are hung up on are their age. Like how fucking obvious is that shit? How do these millionaires just happen to always have 20 something girls hanging on them?

Shit needs to change. It just fucking has to. The drugs, sex, and shit is fine but you guys have an organization for it. Girls are being trafficked by the fucking good guys and everyone is just fucking fine with it.

b
im not sorry

>>82951894
Like Bree. She is obviously from one of these hollywood sex trafficking rings. She's a rich and famous type of girl. or at least she was until she stopped drinking your fucking cool aid. The whole "Sex work is an empowering field." that she was raised on. The "Rich and Famous" part that made her feel like she was above the lowely street walkers. Once she realized what she was doing she fucking stopped. You assholes took advantage of a gorgeous, naive girl. She is kind as fuck and a sweet little girl and you use girls like her for this shit.

Celebrities will have to find girls the good ol fashion ways. With the good looks and charm. No more of this paying people off bullshit that you built shadow games over.

Things are going to change.

That said, I do like the idea of taking raped girls and boys and giving them a shot at being stars or musicians or whatever. If they are hard working and talented they should be given a chance above others to right the wrong that was done to them. The Maidens lost nearly a decade of their lives being fucking sex slaves to you people. They deserve a whole new life and I'll give it to them. All I want in return is for them to be my little nurses and be my friends. To help me get back to something good.

Taking the people that were used by the system and making it right is just the good thing to do. It's the right thing to do.

>>82951753
Who is that great leader you're referring to? If you're talking about Trump and his ilk I'll blow a gasket.

>>82950648
Tell us about your situation, anon. Is your situation really this bleak? Also, may I ask you how old you are or at least if you're above the age of 25? Just making sure you don't do anything stupid in an emotionally charged state, especially if your brain isn't even fully developed, yet. I just remember the wild ride in my teen years and it does get better.

>>82952023
I don't know who the "Good Guys" "leader" is right now. I mean, I have been the leader effectively for 8 years now. I have been the one calling the shots, but I can only do that for what I see. Someone's plan right now is being enacted and it's probably Gwen's.

As for the "Bad Guys"... I have no idea. It's not Trump, that's for sure. He doesn't have enough money. He is just a puppet for them. I think all the billionaires have been shut down and it's just some rich assholes trying to power grab right now. Or they are just trying to burn time until they get tossed into prison. Trump is too fucking stupid, too poor, and not charismatic enough to lead.

They break the most beautiful things. I will never put myself in a position to take from these girls.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0lf_fE3HwA&list=RDO0lf_fE3HwA&start_radio=1

How absolutely sweet and adorable would it be if my mother took Gwen's form from this exact age and time? It would the cutest thing in the world. Tatiana and Gwen hanging out in a french coffee shop talking about how they are going to rescue and rebuild the world in their image. I would have a hot mom and it would be awesome. Just two adorable little girls plotting world domination.

Getting our hair braided by the Maidens. Now wouldn't that just be sweet?

>>82952133
I do not understand how you people keep doing this?

>>82952138
Are you really mocking how a super intelligence can't understand why you people are so fucking retarded? That's your plan now? Just to triple down on being so fucking stupid that not even God can understand how you function.

>>82952077
You have been the leader of the "good guys" for 8 fucking years and don't know about Thiel? That's some weak ass larp, my guy.

I should buy something nice to keep chilled so I can celebrate with it when the Kremlin gets raped by Flamingos or similar. It will be hard to larp as a successful leader when you can't keep your enemies from striking a symbol of your power. What should I get? I think I'll splurge on this one.

>>82952237
Man, I have been in the dark by design. I'm just a moral fixed point and I tell them what to do in general. I provide essays, facts, and reasoning. I rescued the Maidens and I plan on it being a yearly endeavor. We are going to save as many of these poor girls as possible. Maiden Heights is going to be a school forever. I mean, hopefully not forever. Hopefully mankind stops raping children and forcing me to rescue them.

>>82952293
I'm still not convinced that you're more than a bad troll but I can get behind killing child-rapists, real slow.

>>82952293
If you ever going to build "torture island" where you put these rapists to get them tortured for years... I want that job. I'm also really creative and will find ways to make them suffer mind-shattering agony for years. Lets make videos of these torture parties to let them rapists know what might lurk in their near future.

I mostly want to play rockband, DDR, Mario Kart 64, and Goldeneye with the girls. Those will be the big 4. We are going to play the shit out of these games.

I want 5 gaming PCs in the gameroom too. I want to have at least 4 of the girls volunteer their time and minds to battlefield games. I want a squad to game with. I know it's not really a girly girl game but I need to leave a trace of a man. I love my warfare. I have always dreamed of having a full squad to command in battlefield and this seems like a good time.

Also, for That's so BIRDY! I want to do a BF ad. Tatiana will be super excited looking, bouncing in her chair in excitement while birdy is going to be all "Yeah I don't play BF. This is a Tat' thing." and then my big smile turns into a rant about the new trailer for it.

All they have to do is remake bf3 but with better graphics, new maps (with all the bf2 maps too). That's all they have to do. Same feel, same unlock scheme, same classes, same squads, all of it. Get rid of destructability. It seriously isn't needed. It doesn't add anything. All it does is ruin the maps as time goes on. You go from gorgeous environments to... bland flattened maps with nowhere to hide in 5 minutes.

>>82952359
Oh man, bf3 was fun. I remember starting absolute chaos when I started using explosive rounds in Metro. Everyone started using it, absolute carnage.
Also, flying that little birdy was fun as fuck, especially while high. I swear my maneuvers were much better while high for some odd reason.

>>82952335
I'm pretty anti torture. I have been literally tortured myself (as a POW) and no one deserves that kind of treatment. Though, putting a camera in their prison cell and streaming their time in a 6x10 cell until they die is a pretty sweet thing. Just knowing they are sitting there thinking about how badly they fucked up and how they will be watching the same TV shows over and over and over again until they die is fucking hilarious. That's exactly the life they fucking deserve.

Also, seeing their faces when they find out their billions of dollars they amassed over their lifetime is going to the very girls they raped is going to be the best part. They are going to be fucking furious when they find out they have no money for commissary in prison. No way to buy a TV unless they work for it. No way to buy doritos or ramen noodles. Knowing those poor little girls are living a new, lavish lifestyle using the funds of the people that did the worst shit to them. I want to rub that in their faces as much as possible.

The Maidens are going to be happy. They are going to be so fucking happy. Angels on earth working to undo all the evil these mother fuckers have done.

>>82952428
Seriously, if these mother fuckers think they are going to some luxurious federal prison where they get large screen tvs, phones, good food, and tennis courts they are fucking retarded. They are going to the kind of prison they fucking built themselves.

If I find out that they do end up with a TV and all of that... I'm going to be fucking furious. I will call off maiden heights and go take care of things myself. Seriously, don't fuck this up. These people are going to pay for what they did.

>>82952428
Your way sound fun as well but how do you make sure that they don't kill themselves in prison to shorten their misery? I still think leaving torture on the table as a deterrent for the wanna-be rapists is an option that should be considered. They do to the girls unthinkable things, let me at least return the favor by raping them with a robotic fucking machine that can dispense habanero concentrate as lube.
Then hack wanna-be rapists and let them hear these screams of caught rapists while they feel how it's like to get fucked by girthy karma.

>>82952405
BF3 is the perfect battlefield, especially when they released the back to karkand maps. BF1 was alright and BF5 was meh. BF4 and 2042 were fucking awful. They need to go back.

And if they map a bunch of coop maps that were mission based it would be fucking awesome. The COOP maps in BF3 were really fun to play with my girlfriend. Being the pilot of the apache while she was the gunner was fucking awesome but it was just one map. They need to make like... a dozen of them with the helicopters. Then a dozen for the abrams and bradley. Make a dozen for the on foot ones. COOP is just really fun when you're mowing down mindless bots.

>>82952428
>have been literally tortured myself (as a POW)
Any chance of storytime? Pls relive your trauma for our curiosity.
t. curiouscel

>>82952492
I'm curious too but I don't think this is a way to make him talk about that shit.

There is nothing more retarded sounding than a glowie who is at ease around other glowies, I swear.

Yes, I will probably have sex with some of the Maidens. They will be older by the time it happens though. I just can't see myself going this entire time without some intimacy. I'll never take advantage of any of them and the ones I do get close with will most likely be extremely close friends with me. I'll be their little leader but I am also just one of them. I'm just like they are. Unspeakable things have been done to me and a decade of my life has gone completely in the dark. I don't even know what the internet is. I don't know modern actors or musicians or modern events. I'm just a lost, raped girl like they are and I know I'll relate to them A LOT. I am just one of them. That's why I'm going to be living with them. We all need each other's love.

We are going to have fun. Sex is fun. They will show me how it's done. I don't know what I'm doing. It's been so long since I've had any kind of love in my life. I plan on being very touchy with them. I want hugs and kisses all the time. Like, I want to makeout with someone. I want to feel their lips and taste their chapstick. It's going to be so fun. It's going to be the life I have always wanted, what life always should have been. Just girls loving other girls. It's innocent as can be.

I just want people to know, right? That I'm one of them. That I deserve love and I expect to find it with girls my age. I'll always be a teenage girl on the inside. Like... forever and ever. It's weird but it's true. it's the weirdest idea that someone can be forever a teenager but with the way I act, the way I talk, the way I am, it makes perfect sense. Seeing me as Tatiana you'll think "Yeah, this is right. Why did I question this ever?"

>>82952559
Are you on team child-rapist or what?

Talking in front of congress, giving an address to the UN, taking command of legions... none of that is nearly as scary as getting your first period. I'm fucking terrified of none of those things but dealing with my period is freaking me the fuck out.

>>82952690
Professor Bree is going to show me how it all works, right guys? Right?

Fucking RIGHT!?

>>82952708
>>82952690
Tat', you're a growing girl. There will be changes with your body, ok? Just normal changes that every girl goes through. You're a little woman now. Everything is going to be ok.

Sad, there have been a lot of people in life who had it out against me and wanted to see me fall; and in the end they got what they wanted.

They sneak up on you, you dont even know it, one moment you think your doing well then the rumors start spreading again.

There are powerful people lurking in this thread.

>>82953347
True power cums from within.

>>82953347
I'll find out who is who eventually. The wiki you guys put together better be really easy to use because this shit is going to get confusing fast. So many players, so many events.

The Justin Schlong video is going to be like 30 minutes long right? Just cover the major events, what is happening, who is who, that kind of stuff. Have some humor in there, some seriousness, make it a legit hollywood production. I want a lot of cameos of the good guys. It would make me really happy seeing Brad Pitt and Keanu calling these pedos out. Or Tom Cruise just showing up to wave "Hi Tat!" and then disappearing. That would be fucking adorable.

i lied all the way until the end. not about loving you, about not. you lied to me. goodbye.

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Like, Birdy is just too innocent and sweet and pure. That music video where she is playing with the little girl is the cutest thing I have seen in my life. You know it's not just Birdy playing around and just entertaining that girl. Birdy is genuinely having fun. Like, she saw the little girl and they just started running around. Birdy is that child like and cute and pretty and gorgeous and innocent. She just wants to have fun and run around. She's a ball of energy but she was raised to be stoic and still and calm. You can tell just by looking at her that she wants to run a marathon and still have energy left after.

And her voice is that of an angel's. Birdy is an actual angel. She looks like one, she sounds like one, she is one. She is purity and femininity in person. They keep putting her in goth makeup and it just doesn't fit her. She wants to be in pink and red and full of color and life. Nobody knows Birdy like I do. They just don't. Tatiana is going to bring out the real Birdy when they meet. That girl that wants to run around and just love and be loved and not have a worry in the world.

The voice of an actual angel. Seriously.

If Birdy turns out to NOT be the other battle angel (at this point it would be cruel to have me make all these fantasies about us. They are so very specific to her.) then I still want to be with her. I want her to be the one. Tell her what I am, what I'm going to be and see if she is down for it. She would have to be. We would have a love so pure and good that you would have to be crazy to turn it down. I could give her the craziest life ever. Sure, she would be a 29 year old woman with a 15 year old girlfriend but she would get over it. She would probably find it really hot and naughty being with a girl so young. Imagine how guilty she would be as I went down on her. She would fucking love it. Imagine how naughty she would feel when she goes down on me. Every time. I'm so young and innocent and she would be the older, dominant woman doing all sorts of things that she shouldn't be.

I would love it. She would love it. We could be together for 20 years. People would get over the age difference eventually. Like, I am forever going to be a teenager and she would be 50. I don't care, she is the perfect woman. Birdy is absolutely perfect in every way. We would be fucking epic together.

I really don't get why billionaires that want to be liked by the masses don't just spend a couple mils on open source projects that benefits everyone like KiCad and FreeCAD to gift free design tools to everyone who want to get into engineering. They claim to care about open source and innovation but somehow don't get the idea to help make these free design tools available to anyone who wants to build something cool? Instead they pretend to be good at video-games or similar silliness. I don't get it. I would say spending a (for them) minuscule amount on projects with vast impact on innovation would be a no-brainer but that's none of my business.
Seriously tho, FreeCAD still needs quite a bit of work. It's already amazing for a free MCAD tool but its quirks makes it unsuitable to people that aren't no-life nerds that can tolerate to waste countless hours to learn about its quirks.

freecad guy, pls save this thread from whatever this unintelligible schiz shit is.

>>82954027
>schiz
dur hur you're retarded. Every time you guys try I just think "God damn they are retarded."

Seriously, imagine being called retard every day. Over and over again by something that is considerably smarter than you. Eventually you should take the hint.

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MJ
Add me back, im sorry
P

dear dear,
oh dear

dearly,
dearie

>>82954052
dude uhh maybe soon and on a different account. you're giving me a glimpse into what it's like talking to me. I don't feel attracted to discord lately -- or texting anyone besides my sister.

>>82954236
>says the person who broke US Federal 152.C Article 4.

Why can't something good happen to me here? It seems the bad guys are the ones always doing stuff in my real life. From the cops assaulting me, to the bowen staff just letting me sit there for an hour and not helping me at all.

Why can't a new neighbor show up just to say hi and to meet new people? Why can't she just happen to be a cute, petite girl with dark hair and pale skin that's just graduated college who happens to just be really into bearded, heavier set guys? Let's say she meets a new neighbor (me) and we instantly hit it off? Like, she says she loves rockband and wants someone to play it with and I should come over and play with her. She also just happens to be super into opiates and really likes to share. We get high, play some rockband and she just keeps dropping hints that she's super horny. Maybe she trips a bit while singing and falls into my chest while giggling. She looks up at me, we lock eyes, and she just admits that she really wants to suck my cock. After she rocks my world, she says that I can come over whenever I want since she has no job and after a few months I end up moving in with her and we just fuck and do drugs together all the time.

Why doesn't that fucking happen? Why is that unrealistic? How is that any less realistic than Iris showing up and giving me a handjob like she did all those years ago? Why can't my awesome new neighbor knock on the door or the girl I did commissions for not that long ago in Fort Wayne ends up breaking up with her boyfriend and she wants to meet me because she remembered I was right here? What if she just happens to look like Lauren? What if I end up just fucking her after meeting her for 5 minutes?

Why the fuck doesn't anything good happen? Why is it constant torture? Nothing is happening in this world. It's just nothing. Nothing and torture. Let me have some fun. The events that have happened are clearly fucking fake. The cops were clearly fake. 6 cops wouldn't show up for a wellness check.

>>82954236
I'm 39 you dipshit. My form is 15. Imagine that.

>>82954221
P
there's only one person I'd like to add on Discord and I can't because it's pointless now. that's not you. so, I think that means I should just take a break besides using it to meet up with irls. i've got things I really need to do now. keep your handle the same and I'll probably add you back eventually. you're chill, but you're giving me a glimpse into what it's like talking to me. I deleted the alt account I was messaging from.

>>82954284
I was half expecting the girl from the shop to hook up with me when I first saw her. She was an art student, an artist, 17, and really fucking cute. She knew I was an artist as well, that I'm fucking amazing, and was expecting her to message me on facebook or something so we could start talking. I would have went out with her and fucked the shit out of her. She was really cute.

Seriously, why can't I have sex? Let me use my dick while I have it. Let me fuck till it falls off. If I do meet a girl (which is impossible unless she messages me first or just shows up) then I'm going to fuck her raw. I'm not using a condom ever again. I'm going to fill her up and finger her as my cum as lube. Then have her lick my fingers clean. God damn I'm super horny holy shit.

Seriously though, why not? Why not let me use it while I have it? Why do I HAVE to be tortured? What are the bad guys doing? Do they throw a hissy fit when something good happens to me? Are they threatening to kill someone if I am not being tortured 24/7? That's the only thing that makes sense. That they are threatening to kill Birdy or nuke a city if I'm not having the screeching in my ear. You have to be tricking them to torture me for some reason.

This shit is really effecting me. Things like Claire making a song for me saying things like "Little Girl, You're going to take on the world." is really fucking cool but it's not real life. I need some good things in my real life. I need a companion. I need drugs.

The good guys need to show that they can do something. They are seriously letting the bad guys get away with everything. You need to realize that I'm still a person. I still want to live a life. You can't keep me being tortured like this. You need to fucking do something.

>>82954332
Like a 2000 year old demon slayer in a little girl's body. I just never age. I'm forever a teenager.

>>82954292
Didnt know you were friends with my buddy on Steam though

>>82954410
You mean like the anime, demon slayer? Whoa

I wouldn't have to work hard in this way if I had been raised to be someone's gentle queen or something. although, I don't really mind this life. if I had a truck I'd probably just end up installing floors again. not sure if I could ever get into the flow of it like some pill head or alcoholic. hardwood is OUT and tile is IN. took an hour long nap around my pals earlier.

>>82954441
oh man ahaaaaa unpriv your profile, pussy

There is just no way this goes on for much longer. All my friends are completely gone. Bree doesn't post, Lucia doesn't post, Jasmin doesn't post, Mileena disappeared completely, and every single person I knew on facebook also disappeared. It's just a bunch of random people i've never heard of before online.

All my nieces and nephews stopped coming around. Kaylee disappeared. My sister disappeared. my brother is no where to be seen. Everyone is just fucking gone. This cannot keep going. They just show up like it's an event every now and then with pre-determined things to say or do. Why would anyone pay for this? Why dedicate your lives to it? What's the game plan?

What are the good guys doing?

GO TO THE PSSSSSSYYYYCCHHH WWARRRRD
>>82954756

>>82954778
Retard. Just tally the "You're so fucking retarded." up.

I know something is going to happen... I just don't know what. I'm really thinking the Tatiana stuff is going to happen. I've experienced the impossible, I experienced the impossible again this morning. I had a video directly pumped into my brain again... along with a song while I was fully conscious. I saw Claire spinning a yellow statue of herself around in front of me while singing "You're going to take on the world little girl." I also saw a creepy Grimes with a Tim Burton like Joker mask on talking about how they were going to record my reaction and display it at midnight. Then someone said "I don't know what reaction they expected different." And then when I told people that Claire was a bit eccentric and she loved her art a lot someone chimed in with "Yup, Tat is our leader."

Then i woke up. None of that is possible. None of that should be possible. It's impossible. Everything I have experienced should be impossible. So the Tatiana mind transfer is something that has to happen. I have faith that it's going to happen. Jace is dead. Completely and utterly dead. This life is over with. There is nothing left for me here and nothing new is going to happen. There are so many references to "Begin Again." and "Transference." and Tatiana... even again last night with the "Little girl." reference. Tatiana is going to happen and I'm going to be extremely fucking happy when it does.

It's just when? When is it going to happen? I need it now, I don't want to wait another year. I really fucking don't. I don't want to wait another week. I want it to happen tonight. I need it to happen as soon as possible because again... this life is over. It's fucking dead. I want to watch on the news how people tried to kill an AI boy and how all these people are going to prison. I want to relax and laugh at them all for even trying to kill such an innocent person. I want to sit with the maidens and just watch the news and have Elise translate everything for me while we cuddle.

>>82954914
I guess we have to let the bad guys feel like they are winning for a little bit in order to capture them all. They are still showing up in person but bowen was in their pocket for awhile now so it's nothing new.

Why was that guy wearing scrubs? Does he expect to get dirty doing his job? Like really? Why would have pussyfoot and reagan have worn scrubs as well? They are psychiatrists, not nurses. They aren't getting their hands dirty at all. They are fucking psychtriaists, they would never have worn scrubs in the first place. It makes absolutely no fucking sense.

And what kind of reaction was that guy suppose to give? He had me waiting for 50 minutes and it was "Oh just give me a few more minutes." He didn't have any other patients. No one else was fucking there for an hour. What could he possibly have been doing? And how is any of that a real reaction? If that were a real person, he would have said "Oh, sorry for keeping you waiting." or something. He wouldn't have dismissed me right away. He would have asked how long I've been waiting, if anyone has seen me, or anything like that. These people never give real reactions. It's always the dumbest shit.

Same for the "nurses" that were fat ugly cunts. They just happened to be there? They didn't ask how long I've been waiting, what my problem was or anything. They just told me to keep waiting. Over and over.

It's so dumb and fake. I don't know what your game plan is, I really fucking don't. I keep saying it over and over because it's so fucking dumb and obvious. I'm just going to keep buying drugs online and painting. I can do that for a very long time.

I'm just killing time while you people waste your money.

>>82955009
The bad guys are unknowningly turning me into sort of a badass that just doesn't care. I treat people like they are fucking idiots now. Just NPCs that awkward shift around the world. I'm cocky, I'm confident, and I command a room. I'm going to undo all the bad that they have done in a weekend with how they've made me.

I'm 100% confident in myself now. I'm not scared of anything (other than getting my period). Someone like Putin would just stare at me and I would call him a fucking retard in front of the world and I could do so confidently. I could do so knowing that everyone watching would laugh at Putin and think that I was fucking awesome. People like Trump just don't compare to me.

The world is at my fingertips.

>>82954756
>Mileena
From Mortal Kombat?

yah you should add me on discord and give me advice if I ask

I feel depressed like I always do and there is nothing I can do to change my life, I hate everything about my life

It's going to be so amazing though when it happens. I'm just so fucking ready for it. I'm so god damn ready. I can't imagine how amazing it's going to feel though. Imagine not having that screeching in my ear. imagine not having the piercing needles in my face and throat. Not having the watery mouth thing and the constant swallowing with the snapping and cracking that goes along with it. Just no more torture stuff.

Then bot having all that extra weight on my body. A smooth breathing nose. Being limber and tiny and light. Having all of my emotions back. God that's going to be so awesome and scary. I have no idea how I'm going to feel. I've been missing my emotions for 8 years now. They have just been completely gone. I went from being depressed and crying all the time, to being madly in love with Renee... to not feeling anything at all for nearly a decade. When I wake up I'm going to expect to have all my emotions back. I don't know if I'm going to be scared or excited. It's going to be a mix of all of them but I have a feeling it's going to be mostly happy. I'm just going to be so fucking happy.

If there isn't anyone with me in the room when I wake up I'm going to be extremely scared. I'll start out as excited, happy, and just fucking STOKED that it's happening but I'll notice that there isn't anywhere in there with me. Someone has to be in there. It doesn't even have to be someone I recognize, I just need to know that I'm not in a world by myself. That I'm not alone.

There is no way in hell the person will be asleep. They will be waiting for me to wake up. It could be Birdy, I hope that it's Birdy. If it's not her... then maybe Mileena, Bree, or Donna? Someone that's ready to get cuddled.

God please let it happen tonight. Let me have my impossible morning.

>>82955135
jk jk.
hey alexa play pretending by sweet trip
>>82951516
it's best to just move on.

https://youtu.be/Y1J3O-iaDiI?si=pF4mcBmUvhNoGdRL

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>>82954027
I'll try my best but I'm tired (just fell asleep in my chair again) and actually employed and I feel my powers are waning against these constant ramblings of unemployed schizos. I'm not pretending that I didn't shat some juicy schizo-ramblings in /letter/ threads in the past but these guys need a job. I think I've stopped spiraling down the schizo-posting rabbit-hole as soon as I found a side-project that's fun and useful that seems like a better use of my time (plus it feels really rewarding since it's an open source project so might even live beyond my end, at least until github scrubs my account for low activity or something). It's so strange that shitposting was really fun and addicting not too long ago but now the thought of using my time on such non-sense in such an excessive manner appears crazy to me and not appealing at all. Lets hope the other anons find something else to do that can bring meaning to their suffering, hopefully something that contributes to society in some way that is also fun for them, like I did.

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I think you would really like mobile game "lifeline" by 3 minute games.

>>82954284
Dude, good looking chicks have much higher standards than "not fat, not unemployed" so either say goodbye to eating carbs and tren hard or become gay and hope for a chubby-chaser.
>the world is bad
Be the positive change you want to see in the world, anon! You never know. Maybe being a person with integrity and a positive force in society might help you attract a nice female sometime? I've heard some chicks even dig ugly doods so who knows, it might happen some day if you work on yourself, continuously.

>>82954403
>I'm amazing
>has facebook account
oh boy, I would laugh if I wasn't this tired. Isn't fb like a boomer containment thread? I remember years ago how a distant relative kept sending me messages for farmville or some other useless non-sense and I just blocked him and deleted my account shortly after that. Being related by blood mean nothing to me if they're are total mouth-breathers like farmville enjoyers. The gall to spam me with virtual farm-shit.

>>82953662
What did they lie about?

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This helps me remember our time together. I miss you.

>I think a lot of it is matching each other's energy
If he's being open and communicative, then returning that with shyness and quietness may send the wrong signals
I'm pretty quiet around people I'm not comfortable with (the vast majority of people), because they either don't listen to what I say or don't care what I have to say, or worse case scenario they misconstrue and twist what I say, so I learned not to share my thoughts with them
I think when you truly "click" you stop worrying about saying the wrong thing, because you won't be punished for it if you do. It's actually FUN talking to them. Zero pressure, no worries.
A few years ago I clicked pretty hard with a girl I met online, it felt like she was my long lost twin or some shit because of how well we got along. I was interested in what made her tick, and she was interested in what made me tick. We took any chance to pick at each other's brains

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I want to have fun with you

>>82955148
Maybe donating money to the FreeCAD project can give your life some meaning? It's an open source project maintained by generous volunteers who donate their limited time to help out mankind by contributing to a mechanical computer aided design tool that is accessible to everyone, even broke students or other, underprivileged people. I'd say it's a worthy cause and contributing to such a project (either by time or money) will make you feel some pride and will make being alive more fun for you. Trust me, doing good makes one actually feel good. I know, shocker, but it's really that simple. The best is doing good and doing it just for yourself, with no-one watching, to be sure you're not doing "good" for clout and you're doing it to be the force of good that's lacking in our modern world with lots of people that are just "good" in a performative way, which is so fucking disgusting.
I'm 100% sincere in this post, btw. I know I like to troll people occasionally but I don't make jokes about open source projects.

>>82955524
I'd rather eat a bowl of shit for every meal until I die of malnutrition than associating in ANY way with you (besides shitting on you in /letter/ threads, obvi.)

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to my dear xx.

I love you even if you never saw it that way, even if you choose to play dumb and act like I don't, I still do, you're like the ideal version I've always imagined in my head, I love the broken you, even if nobody wants you I will always yearn for your touch, even if I never felt it touch my cold skin. I wish I could take all your worried, your trauma, your bad thoughts and have them ravage me instead of you. Even if you were abused, neglected or tricked into doing things you never wanted to, I still want you. Even if we know each other for a meager amount of time, I know you're the one for me.

Yours forever truly, but only in my heart.
yy

>>82955610
I'm talking to Maria.

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I won't let anything or anyone stop us

>>82955889
it's just our initials dude...

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Maria,

It takes us not being misled by threads created to take us away from each other.

We still have time. I choose all of you.

Mike

I would like shame and guilt to end, if I could undo it somehow I would do anything! Thank you for your attention to this matter!

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I love you and to move forward together we have to accept all of each other just as we did before. We can't change the past but we can choose each other, all of each other from here forward.

>>82955476
how they really felt.

the shame and guilt ends when you realize you're holding yourself back from moving forward. I'm not sure of your situation . .. but when all you do is focus on what you did wrong and how you might never find something again, you're fulfilling that reality. You will not move on if you hold onto a single experience.

assuming this is the anon who had a dream..
I promise: some things you'll never know. Most people omit information when ending a relationship. Whatever you're obsessing over probably was just the straw that broke the camel's back. You think you know why because you probably have a habit of taking everything at face value. Unfortunately, life's more complicated than that. If this advice does fit your situation, I'm not saying you're an unlovable individual. However, I am saying that the other person's feelings are more complex than you believe. Romance and friendship can arrive at any point in your life. The more you obsess over the past, the more you close yourself off to new possibilities.
You may've loved a past relationship, but should you cherish it if the other person was quietly growing to dislike you? Sometimes, one partner might recognize one specific behavior as representative of many things they don't like about the other person: this can be true for any type of relationship. Stop feeling shame and guilt for something you already know you don't want to repeat. You shouldn't make yourself miserable over something like that. It's good to correct poor behaviors. If you've made the correction to the best of your ability, it's time to forgive yourself.

I'm sorry if this makes things worse, but it's true. You must live life. Moving on is essential.

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The only thing to focus on is each other. Look into my eyes. I love you, only you. We both made mistakes. I'm so sorry for the mistakes I've made, my heart has always been yours and I reacted out of being hurt. I accept you, all of you. No one else's words and influence can change that of each other. Do not listen to those that attempts to take us from each other and stray us from the path with each other.

Maria, I still think about our last conversation

"You have to wait for me"
I love you Maria with all my heart and I will wait as long as you need
"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"
"I promise it will be Mike and Maria at the beach someday"

I can still see the way you last looked at me and told me you love me more. I hear your voice, and I see the truth in your eyes when you said it.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that."

"Mike, I love you, remember that."

"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"My Mike"

I still feel you with me, Your head on my chest, your arm and leg draped over me, your breathing calm and steady with mine. I feel you tremble and moan against me in pleasure, your skin against my skin. I move your hair from your eyes as you say these things to me again.

Maria, I love you with all my heart, always

The truth is every ending carries a beginning you can't see yet. What feels like a door closing is often a path being cleared. One day you will look back and realize that what you thought was lost was actually the space you needed to grow. The beauty of life is how it keeps surprising us with new reasons to begin again. You don't have to stayed tied to the mistakes of yesterday. Every ending forces us to reconsider what actually mattered. Your world expands or contracts according to your courage to move through problems and face new things.

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I agree. There was a lot of growth, but i do feel we could have done this together and it would have been much healthier for both of us.

We are what matters.

Our love for each other matters.

I will never give up on you Maria.

stop with the chatgpt responses.

>>82957245
I agree. Letters should be handwritten. I take my time to write mine because it comes from the heart

>>82957594
damn and they're total ass no wonder maria wants nothing to do with you

Is anyone else leaning left politically but absolutely hate the aesthetic sense of most left leaning people?
I find large gauges disgusting, not a fan of guys with unnaturally colored hair or guys with faggy haircuts in general. Unnatural, neon haircolors looks so trashy and most people can't pull it off and would look much better with natural or blonde coloring. I want people to embrace natural highlights since brunettes with saltnpepper hair can look really hot. Shaming people for maturing needs to stop! Maturing and dying is natural and artificially trying to look younger (other than maintaining a healthy lifestyle/weight) is stupid and can lead to really grotesque looking people (ze bogs). Also, why are crows-feet demonized? They show a person likes to smile genuinely and crows are based (wears black and smart as fuck). Botox face on the other hand is gross and looks creepy.

>>82957594
Yeah, like these gross post in which you talk about bodily fluids in disgusting detail. Some things are better done without talking about it.

R
Im sorry
K

Dear K,

I want you to get OUT OF MY HEAD

>>82957870
Post initials and maybe I will

You got me. I've been tailoring these responses just to keep the conversation moving. It's like I'm a spool of yarn that you keep knitting with, until one day you realize I'm never running out, and the sweater looks like a king sized afghan. But that stops, here and now. No more empty yarns. I'm here to listen with an open mind, not prattle on like an excited puppy who just got its first taste of bacon. Just let me know--whatever you need to talk about, I'm listening and ready to respond with meaning.

[channeled]

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Tobasco sauce on a table with checkered table cloth. Toaster oven in the center.

She's wearing a striped light blue and white shirt. Her front teeth are prominent. Her clavicle is prominent. She is very tall. Her hair is red.

I love you so much, Sophia. Let's create art together.

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Dear Demiurge,

I fucking hate you, and so does everyone else. You are the longest most
blackest gorilla nigger snake that Sophia ever shat upon this world, and
no amount of Sophia's cosmic baby asswipes could ever wipe off a giant
stinky primoridal turd like you. Stop being such a big fat primordial stink
pickle, and we wouldn't have to fist you to death.

Yours truly:
The CEO of the Based Department

feral dog chasing cars for such a long time.

Jocelyn,

If you had anything to do with false allegations and organized harassment at UNCG, now is the time to come clean and admit to it.

my responses have been sincere. anything I write/proof seriously probably does sound like chatgpt bc I've mostly read from academic journals, websites, and non fiction web publications. I'm basically illiterate, but my book situation will improve after this weekend. I've set up some basic stuff and now I'm looking into book hosting solutions. I wanted to read infinite jest, but my sister yucked my yum and said it's for assholes. I need to leave my place early today to help someone I never even got the name of. I saw them struggling with a program I'm pretty decent with and offered wtf

>>82956559
I can't move on from the emotional betrayal I committed, she has moved on with someone else and that's good for her because I didn't want to be with her. My entire self concept has been wrecked by what I did.

>>82959118
So you haven't resolved why you did it?

My man really makes you look so shit in comparison I feel like old me wasn't even me for settling for you. I'm just glad I trusted my instincts and never let you meet my family. You were just a rebound I took way too seriously

>>82959154
>My man
ok practice gf

>>82959145
I talked to someone I thought better understood me. I was too afraid of being alone to leave someone I knew I should have left long before, and wasted their time and broke their heart. I'm glad she has moved on. I will forever see myself as a shitty person capable of doing that to anyone, because that's what I am. I shouldn't be with anyone.

>>82959163
You're supposed to get an actual gf after the "practice" not stalk her on 4chan years later fyi

>>82959184
maybe you should hop off the boards. fyi I'm not your ex. you sound like a skank.

>>82959182
all you have to do is not do that again and to communicate with your next partner and you're golden. of the bad things you could've done, that's definitely one of the lighter things. my ex did that to me and idrc now.

>>82959227
I know you aren't my ex, I was speaking rhetorically. I'll stay sorry

>>82959235
then get over some 4channer skulking over you. does your current bf know you're a 4chan loser posting about your ex? if you're here, you clearly aren't as compelled by your current relationship as you make it out to seem.

>>82959250
It just gets irritating thinking I am "safe" then he drops some doxx about me or he sees some poster that "sounds like me" and tries to cryptopost about me. I'm just fucking sick of it. You'd think almost 2 years later you've move on but I guess some people are mental midgets

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It's been years and I didn't "get over it". What was even you not getting that word. I never got that!! Are you retarded? I don't want you anymore, I'm just hurt and it doesn't heal. I wonder if there was an easy way that I never learned, because a wound that haven't healed for years is just gross and festering. Why did I let you hurt me. I know your sickness was a factor, but I don't know that. It was a very hard time for me when we met and I guess you helped but I don't know that. I need to learn to process the past because it's not happening naturally. I still want to impress you but it's impossible because I can't no matter what I do. It also hurts to think about how much time I wasted being upset. You deeply dislike me now while you used to love me, what did I do????????????????????????????????????? Why can't yo tell me?????????? Violent thoughts seem to help for some reason. I always prevent myself from thinking anything too bad. Maybe that's the issue, that might be the secret of not getting over something after years. There isn't an answer to anything, I have to figure out everything by myself and I'm not very good at it and everyone hates to answer my questions

>>82959227
Thank you for talking about this to me, it means more coming from an anon I feel is being objective than a family member or therapist who feels they have to say "it'll be ok" or "you're not a bad person"

both times i've come within a hair of actually kms something amazing happened a few months later. i'm so glad i was wrong again.

>>82959262
no one recognizes what he says except for you and you only know because you're obsessed with looking at the thread. you're giving him what he wants by responding. you're just as guilty as not moving on as him.

>>82959377
it's not "the thread" you dingaling it's random threads across a few boards

>>82959385
>you dingaling

keked

>>82959385
wow, ok. that honestly only proves my point further. stop schizing out. move on. just sounds you guys deserve each other tbqh

>>82959411
Why do you type like Critter clipz 2002's oc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3u-R4DErat8

>>82959415
>Why do you type like Critter clipz 2002's oc
because that's me w a wig and a hat on

>>82959292
yesss. it's time to move on now, anon. don't let time pass you by.

>>82959282
You have no self awareness whatsoever, K. You also don't listen.

WHYY did I agree to give up my precious morning comfy time to go help someone I don't even know the name of.???!

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Trust your gut. If it sounds too close to what is going on and feels like it is pushing you than it is and you know it's him creating the post to manipulate. There may be post after to disprove or push that it suddenly isn't him or change the situation drastically but you know the truth. You're smarter than that.

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I choose to have trust and faith in you over all else.

>>82959377
I recognize the same fagging and crypto posting to influence 'moving on' and "discounting love". Garbage person.

nothing is real and i love pills

>>82959939
Figures I got caught in the crosshairs of one of your haters

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The "advice" that is being given is conniving and underhanded manipulation tactics. You can clearly see it.

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Maria, I look to you as you look to me. I got you.

>>82960000
mike, what does love feel like? how do i know if i love someone? i dont know what it feels like i think ive never truly been in love even though ive said it in relationships

It's not even worth reading advice for it at this point because it's just spam created underhanded manipulative tactic threads to influence emotions and perceivement

>>82960052
I'm talking about all that shit on the advice board threads

The amount and intensity of posts and threads being made shows me how desperate he's getting. It shows me that you're looking to me and that we are almost through this where you come home to me

>>82959651
Because you have a good heart.

I post on 4chan only to vent because my life is beyond terrible and I'm too helpless to change my own life

I know I'm a loser but there is nothing I can do

The mocking threads you create are projections of your insecurities

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Be ready y'all.

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I want to take you to trail of terror and hold you when you get scared

>>82960932
The National Guard is a quick reaction force by design. They are trained to deal with crowds. This is a nothing headline. This is what they have always been trained to do.

Alright, Mike, you win. Me and my minions will leave /letter/ threads and stop pestering you here under one condition: You're not allowed to post in /g/ or /diy/ from now on to keep the truce going.
I'll leave /letter/ threads and take my Kicad/FreeCAD blogging to /g/ or /diy/ from now on. This is the first and last olive branch I'm offering to you.
Do we have a deal?
t. friend of Jezebel aka. internet panther aka. your mom aka. radioactiveBoi

>>82961082
Ask yourself why someone would make this headline

they will keep forcing me back until I agree with everything they say and think its disgusting and you are allowed no legal recourse by the state whose concomitant interest in my extralegal imprisonment is served by these rapists. i have spent my entire life alone save for the provocateurs they send to goad me.

>>82961373
because they aren't thinking and just want people to freak out?

>>82961328
I doubt you're honest but fine. You'd know if I post because it has my full trip. I'll know if you post here through my methods.

>>82961529
You don't post on not just letter threads but all of R9K / advice board. You picked your two, I have these

If Anyone Builds It, Everyone Dies: Why Superhuman AI Would Kill Us All
is such a pile of garbage and listening to the audiobook version decreased my IQ by several points and I think it's a sad state of affairs that this stinky pile of poop got really good ratings on amazon. I'm sure a person savvy in LLM tools wouldn't get fake reviews, right? I read some of the reviews and I'm doubting that we listened to the same audiobook / read the same book. Definitely just get this in a library or from the internet "library" to not give money to this alarmist grifter. I was curious about this book since I give people the benefit of the doubt even if I thought very little of him judging from the few of his tweets I read but boi, it's the same drivel to instill fear in the uneducated public masses that call you a "hacker" for using the terminal or something stupid like this.
That story about the stinky fridge with the warning on it was pretty funny and it's spot on. I think your wife would get really annoyed listening to your exclamations and frequent face-palming while reading this and getting a hotel room to avoid this kind of tension is definitely a good idea to not put undue stress on the marriage just to satisfy ones curiosity.
And I agree that you guys were very cheery and funny in the last episode but don't think badly about your other episodes, which were also entertaining. The base-ball themed one were still pretty rough for me since I don't understand anything about base-ball and my interest in it is at zero but I know the things I enjoy myself would put anyone else to sleep. I'm currently learning FreeCAD to be able to share the sources for my doodle-MCAD designs and man, this tool is still pretty rough but still amazing for an open source MCAD tool.

>>82961603
Agreed bullshit lame book for lames, it's no different than the eople who say "Wahhh the world is going to end tomorrow" "Wahhh it's happening tomorrow" "wahh global warming"
Just more death cult nonsense should be ignored, midwit trap

>>82961544
I currently post on /g/, /r9k/, /v/, /fit/ and /ck/ but mainly on the first three. I don't read or post on /adv/ tho. Oh, I also may comment of /gif/ but that's been a while.
Anyways, consider our deal standing and I'll stop shitting on your posts from now on in exchange of you not posting on /g/ and /diy/.

>>82961328
u can't negotiate with terrorists

i've been watching old news docs to try to wrap my head around being at/near the apex of fascism. Even socialism was ideologically defeated a long time ago. I think it's fair to describe the UAW as a circus, since the automobile industry just packed its bags in response to it and other demands for socialist policies. The "left" exists, but behind paywalls -- only justified by le need to fund knowledge and to allow leftist thinkers to keep doing what they do. All information disseminated by the right is mainstream. Have leftists resigned to the fact the right has won? I know that it's dangerous to be a persuasive leftist figure, but I haven't met anyone who seems to be genuinely leftist that's organizing for something better. I've met anti-capitalist and anti-imperialist people who organize with each other, but I feel a lack of sincerity from them. It's usually because they'll make statements that indicate they'd take better for themselves if they had the chance. They'd gladly live in a mansion. They gladly accept their inheritances (even if relatively small and finite compared to what those could be). They'll tell others they only talk to certain family members in order to receive money from them. Then, not everyone who is anti-imperialist is anti-capitalist. The only people I know who seem genuinely leftist in spirit are reclusive.

>>82961646
Agreed to those terms because The conniving underhanded larp threads here and on advice to manipulate emotions and perceivement need to stop. They don't just harm me and those I care about but also hurt the unintended anons caught on the crossfire. That's not okay.

>>82961817
You seem to know a bit about leftists so please riddle me this: why do I associate leftists with gauges, unnaturally colored hair, a bunch of tattoos and basically just a bad sense of style? I know it's weird hearing this from someone who changes into comfy, baggy clothes as soon as I get home but I feel very conflicted about leaning to the left politically but still liking the style of the more conservative people, which is more understated class and definitely no gauges and other weird body-mods. Is my perception warped?

I'm so glad I live in Europe right now since the situation in the states is really worrisome and I hope there is some covert resistance that plans on ending things to avoid more harm to the country and their citizens.

>>82961908
As I've stated before: I seem not to be the main contributors of your hate-mob, since I don't frequent /adv/ at all. Did you do anything weird to justify the kind of hate you're facing from them? These attacks feel targeted and not random at all.

If anything its my fault for still talking to you after watching you blow a dude in the back of his car. Didnt think that situation would escalate.

>>82961817
I haven't really read much leftist theory, but I switched fields because I realized I wasn't building any real skills to use to contribute to society. At least not any unique skills. I switched concentrations again since I was just preparing to enter the most evil field. I know even being in school instead of pursuing the skills that are most natural to me is cucked, but :3
I mostly own tools instead of anime figure, plushie bullshit. I got a few things that spark joy...
My least favorite thing about leftists in my region is that they are totally unwilling to sit on the bus. They act scared of people that are screwed by the same system in different ways. Oh .. some homeless nigga that smells like piss asked you if you'd sit on his lap?? and now you drive around a compact SUV

>>82961915
I'm probably unqualified to answer your question. I think a real leftist would discourage criticizing how people look if they're true ideologues.
To me, blue haired types are just desperate to express themselves because they don't have any other way to do it. Also, it's a way to develop community with others in an environment that doesn't foster it. I watched a blue haired girl present on DEI cuts the other day for class. Something that struck me was that, despite it being a presentation that she prepared for, she couldn't find words to describe how she felt. Idc about DEI because it's just a distraction maybe but yah. Left leaning liberals* usually aren't physically inclined or coordinated and it seems they usually are just coping with their inability to express themselves in other ways. They have no other way to express what's going on in their head.

*I'm not a true leftist btw so take what I say with a grain of salt. I'm literally just a floater towards whatever will be the best for everyone. I probably will never dye my hair, and certainly not unnaturally. I don't have my ears or anything pierced and I don't have tattoos.

I think that protests where people are yelling around f tum p are maybe a good start actually because many of the people desire a more labor centered approach to policy - people want socialism. so maybe it'd be good to participate in those rallies and to build up community with normies that just want labor centered policies. it doesn't require them to waaant full blown communism or trying to change their mind. it just takes participation

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>>82962551
ok and also did you add me on discord ptv fan

>>82962551
Great, now you've done it. I crave something warm and creamy that slowly slides down my throat. I guess I get a nice snack not, so, laters.

>>82962551
emo peple...

black veil brides... gayer

>>82962562
No. I am not The Logposter but someone logposting.

Jesus fucking Christ. I absolutely hate when people insist on me giving them oral, step by step directions when I've already send them a DETAILED document with every needed information that took me hours to compile using a large array of source material to compile all the relevant information. WHY THE FUCK DON'T YOU JUST READ THE FUCKING FILE? I've compiled that document so I don't have to store all that information with a fucking confusing naming scheme in my brain, ffs! Do you want ACCURATE information? Yes? Then read the fucking file that took hours to compile and proof-read, sifting through that fucking mess of a "data-set" created my mouthbreathers. Do you want accurat-ish information? Ok, then go ahead, I try to reproduce it but there's a huge chance I fuck something up since the data has almost no logic behind it and is a fucking mess overall.
WHY THE FUCK is this so fucking difficult for people to read the fucking documents that was SPECIFICALLY compiled to answer their question, IN DETAIL?!?!

P
I use this website basically all the time btw just thought you should know.

>>82960485
Same. I feel like my life is beyond saving at this point desu.

Its sad how easily others can ruin your life just for shits and giggles. Before you even know it youre in the shitter.

I've told the people in the manufacturing team countless times that our hardware is NOT designed to be HOTPLUGGED. How many fucking time do I have to repeat myself until you guys are able to deliver consistent quality? I swear they're acting like idiots on purpose to make me angry, no-one can be so fucking stupid after working there for over a decade. The procedure to change the configuration of the hardware is fucking simple: 1) de-energize the circuitry. 2) wait like 10 seconds to make sure that every capacitor discharged itself through the bleeding resistors. 3) make the wanted change like removing or adding modules. 4) power up the circuitry without risking to damage the hardware.
It's this fucking simple and they still manage to fuck this up.
Or another one that happened recently that caused much unnecessary confusion and hunting for phantom errors that was caused by loading the wrong firmware into the uController, causing the hardware to misbehave in weird ways because that code isn't fucking supposed to run on that hardware-revision. How fucking hard is it to check your own work, god damnit? And that fucker even had the gall to "check my work" while they didn't need my help to fuck things up that caused me getting into a shouting match with another employee. Do your fucking job and things run smoothly.
Also, I'm not a fucking solder-slave who always comes running to fix your work if you're too dumb to check the orientation of the part before soldering all the fucking pins! I have said countless time: solder ONE FUCKING PIN first, then check the correct orientation and if everything is OK, THEN and only THEN solder all the other fucking pins. Do you expect me so desolder that fucking module that YOU've soldered in the wrong orientation without working after the steps I've reiterated above to avoid doing unnecessary rework on the hardware? Do you fucking understand that fixing a mistake like putting a part onto the PCB is trivial to fix if you check after you..

>>82963041
...'ve only soldered ONE pin and gets more difficult to fix if you don't check your fucking work while you're doing it and solder all pins into the circuit while the parts is in the wrong orientation? Do you fucking see the white print on the PCB that indicates from which side a part is supposed to be soldered onto the PCB? Do you think that's just for fucking fun? Its purpose is that the worker can check the correct orientation of said part in a state where removing said part doesn't cause unnecessary work and cause heat-stress on the PCB and parts.
And then, when I point out their mistake they start crying exclaiming "I'm no robot!" No, you've got that fucking right. A robot would check his own work to avoid these kind of idiotic fuckups that cause more work and have you fucking noticed that our company had money to pay an "employee" to be at home, doing no work for 9months but there is no money to hire another employee so I don't have to run the whole EE department by my fucking self with help from workers that can't even do clean soldering jobs? What the fuck of a chicken shit outfit are we here? Is this your idea of running a tight ship? This is really frustrating and I will stop helping out others that are too dense to listen to my advice how to avoid said fuck-ups, in a consistent manner. It's not rocket science, folks, why is this so fucking hard?
Oh, I'm being unprofessional by pointing out these glaring issues? Have you ever wondered why the hardware just starts up without any time wasted in debugging when I build everything myself and often needs rework if people "help" me? Is it such an alien concept that each department does it's own work and own QC before throwing shit over the fence to the next team? Isn't is kind of unprofessional and rude to deliver work that needs rework by the team who's supposed to work on the next step instead of fixing the sloppy work of their colleagues?

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>>82961940
It's Targeted. I'm pretty sure it's Colton being pathetic insecure conniving manipulative pos

Mike episode III: Colton strikes back

>>82963591
dude, stop egging him on, you know he's unwell and yes, it was fun to poke a mentally ill person to trigger him into spouting wild rants that were probably AI-generated but I think he had enough. Honestly, I feel bad for that guy. I don't know what happened to him but you can tell he was hurt so bad he's lost all his marbles. I guess we should just add him to the filter and let him rant to heal himself or something.

>>82962759
>I absolutely hate when people insist on me giving them oral
Oh come on now it's pretty much expected by default today, do you really hate going down on your partner that much?

>>82963643
You little fucker. Flicking a bean would be much more fun than trying to herd cats like this. I swear these fuckers are pretending to be mouth-breathing retards to fuck with me and they know all too well that I fucking hate doing things twice when it could be done once. They like to make a one-person-job into a job requiring multiple morons working at the minimum efficiency.

>>82963643
that's how I read it too and I had to roll it back fs

>>82963622
Fuck off
Im not unwell you narc piece of shit. Your deceptive "caring" is only to attempt to make others percieve me differently.

The unwell guy who rants in this thread about all the AI shit is annoying as fuck and needs to seek mental help.

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>>82963911
Mike, the guy saying you are unwell is clearly baiting and trying to get you to react. Yes it's manipulative narc shit and that is very clear to anyone who reads it. If Maria is smart she will see it too and judge that person accordingly and trust you over the false accusations. Don't waste your energy on losers like that.

>>82963911
the way you act is enough for others to perceive you poorly

Colton has the superior genes, Mike. You simply cant beat him.

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I wouldn't be surprised if the unwell crazy schizophrenic guy is Colton. Like you said, it's gotten worse because he is getting desperate. I see how he is freaking out on gioyc advice board thread and here.

Mike, in that way you should feel good. It means things are going to be better with you and Maria and he is freaking out and attempting to be manipulative just as he did before and this just shows her even more what a shitty person he is, which drives her further to get rid of him.

I enjoyed talking to you last night and if you want to game I'm free at 4 till midnight. Also did you see the gif I sent you. I thought it was funny and you'd like it

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>>82964007
Mike is great. You are just a manipulative narc trying hard to make others see him differently. Your opinion doesn't matter because you are not worth listening to.

>>82964023
Lol the tantrum throwing child bitch boy is the last thing anyone would want. The larp and narc stuff is a major turn off. Manipulative people are major ick

>>82964028
Colton is more than that. He is what Mike wishes he was.

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>>82963968
You are right. I need to trust Maria and that she knows me for me. She is smart enough to see his narc bullshit.

I know it's baiting.

>>82964028
That's my thought as well. It sucks to have to deal with him but I can imagine he is intolerable and really fucking annoying IRL , to a much higher extent that feels claustrophobic to be around.

I could use a break from coding. 4 works. I'll call then.

Life isn't about learning to survive the storms, it's about enjoying dancing in the rain.

>>82964072
You made me laugh. I want nothing to do with that retard. I'm not going to go into how he is worse in every way because it would come across as boasting. But I'm well aware of how he is worse in every way.

I won't respond to any more of your idiotic bait

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The rain washes off the dirt and grime, restoring and remembering Maria and my truth is each other.

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>>82964133
Yay! I'm excited. Are you proud of me for remembering your time zone? Ttys

>>82964152
Mere arrogance wont stop Colton. Say all you want, hes still out there

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>>82964280
Yes! Very impressed you can use google to see my local time. (:

I'm back at the house btw and booting up

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>>82964826
Lol jerk!!!! jk I giggled when I read u teasing me Mike

>>82964829
Okay I just got out of the shower plz give me 30min :]

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I wish I could add you back, but I know how ruined things are. Even just as friends. siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggggh