Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportHalloween time :Ohey>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?>How are you spending this halloween?
hiiiHere's a bunch of helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
hi cat>>82971184spokey
>>82971184HAPPY halloween you bastards. Dont care for this gen but if your here tonight instead of partying your a real robot and thats all that matters isnt it.
hey everyone, happy halloween! I don't celebrate it but to those who do i hope you're having fun. I did get my hair cut quite a bit shorter today, like 20cm.
My beautiful princess broke up with me out of nowhere...Take care, /cut/. I was very grateful to post with you a few times.
>>82971356hello ^^happy haloweenhow's it going today?>>82971366Hey anon >partyinglolyeah never been invited anywhere Happy Halloween to you too!how are you spending it?I'll probably watch a couple of horror movies>>82971385Heyaahappy halloween>hope you're having funthanks I'll watch some spooky stuff >today, like 20cm.that's a lot of hair :oare you happy about it?>>82971395hello anonthanks :> but you take care too because your message sounds a little concerning I'm guessing you're very not okay? :<
>>82971511>I'm guessing you're very not okay? :<I could be a lot worse. It doesn't hurt anywhere as much as the first time, even though I think it might be over forever. But it still hurts.
>>82971511>how's it going today?pretty bad. I got another rejected part timer application. So I'm just relying on the fire department taking me.I'm just distracting myself with zero dawn >good thingsI saw chainsaw man. It was a great romantic comedy. But the theater manager stopped me from smuggling in a katana.
It is spooky day. I'm spending it dealing with the scariest thing of all. The corporate working world. Looking forward to tomorrow though. Should be a nice fun day. Need to do some more shopping at the mall, especially nearing holiday season. Now I know the arcade they have there, might go back to play games since it was genuinely a lot of fun last weekend>>82971184happy spooky day cat!>>82971511>I'll probably watch a couple of horror movieswhat movies? D:>>82971356hey cynic!>spokeyI think yours wins the award for being actually creepiest pic posted D:>>82971366happy Halloween anon! Don't think I've ever been to a Halloween party at all come to think of it.>>82971385hi chev how's it going? Hope better than last time I saw you here>I don't celebratei never really did either. Now I'm too old either way.> like 20cm.reminds me when I used to have shoulder length hair, then got it cut down real short like a business cut suddenly. Fun times>>82971395been there anon. Know it doesn't help, but wishing you the best. Take it easy. Try to do other things you can this evening to not think so much.
>>82971768and that was me>>82971766hey officeanon! how are you?>The corporate working world.i guess that's indeed scary.. wish you good luck mate!>Now I know the arcade they have therethe miku dancing game?
>>82971757>I saw chainsaw man.as someone who likes chainsaw man a bit, it was actually much better than I went into thinking since I tend to dislike them making these as movies> stopped me from smuggling in a katana.killjoys. Wouldn't let me bring in my actual chainsaws either
hello!! how's everyone doing?how are you cat? how was your day?>>82971184why doesn't hooni know ghosts aren't real>How are you doing today?better than yesterday, studying went well!!didn't finish studying yet but like the studying session was nice>Any plans for today?chilling and studying lightly until it's sleeping time :)what about you??>>82965268 >my internet is very slow todayis it still slow?> another problem to deal withoh, what is it? sorry for mentioning it now tho, you can ignore it if you don't wanna talk about it now>that's sounds like something from a fairytalebut can be possible!>>82971366>your a real robot and thats all that matters isnt it.i wanna say that's me but i never had a party on halloween so nothing is different, not really related to me being a robot tho>>82971385hey chev!!how was your day?>I did get my hair cut quite a bit shorter today, like 20cm.nice! how long were you planning to cut tho?>>82971395sorry to hear you're not doing well..well, maybe that's the best time to try to recover, maybe recover slowly if you want, anon?
>>82971796hey rm! how's it going?>wish you good luck mate!thanks! I need it. I don't want anything to do with it, but I want to pay bills and be able to eat, so have to put up with it for now>the miku dancing game?was there, but lots of other stuff. Lots of rhythm and other things. Also not very crowded when I was in, so can actually enjoy it all.
>>82971870>pay bills and be able to eat, so have to put up with it for nowyup that's how it is, nothing to do about it, good luck!!>Also not very crowded when I was in, so can actually enjoy it all.guess tomorrow's gonna be full of events? have fun!
>>82971766>but wishing you the bestThank you anon. I appreciate it.I guess I shouldn't be too sad since being alone was the default for basically my whole life. I will miss saying good night to someone, though.>Try to do other things you can this evening to not think so much.I ended up chatting with another anon for a few hours about our gf with BPD troubles. I feel like it helped a lot.>>82971816>maybe that's the best time to try to recoverHow does one recover from a BPD discard?
Started cutting again. Since I covered my left arm with a big tattoo to hide the scars, I went for my right arm. And my right arm is a mess.My forearm is almost entirely covered with cuts, all of it. The inside part and the outside part.Apparently I have BPD, or so it said my current psychiatrist. It'd explain a lot of things so I think he might be right. But it makes me angry that I spent 5 years with it undetected and I had to suffer a hell of a fucking lot, almost killing myself a few times.I'll end this post with a big fuck you to all of my colleagues at uni. Every single one of my cuts were made with those cunts in mind.
>>82971637>could be a lot worsthat's something good thenwill you be able to recover from it then?>though I think it might be over forever. sorry to hear that, unfortunately it is the fate of many people >But it still hurts.hang in there anon maybe you will feel better with time>>82971757>another rejecteddang>distracting myself with zero dawnhow do you like it?>stopped me from smuggling in a katana.how could he D:does he know it is absolutely necessary glad you liked the movie btw I may watch it too >>82971766Heloo>corporate working world.nooo ;_;>Looking forward to tomorrow though. Should be a nice funat least that's nice hopefully tomorrow cmes quickly for you is your today almost over?>happy spooky day cat!thank you you have a spooky one too but in a run way>what movies? D:not sure yet but I'm looking for something to watch now maybe I'll watch Scream now>>82971816heyooo>how was your day?pretty goodI was on a bike ride and saw some cool bridges, lakes, a kitty and a bunch of big rabbits >doesn't hooni know ghosts aren't realone of them appears to be not so not real D:>studying went well!!yayy :Dhope it continues to go well and then you take some time to relax >what about you??I'll watch some spookey moviees :oNow I'll watch Scream and after that idk maybe hereditary, apparently it's pretty good >still slow?better today ^^>what is it?I meant to say luckily it didn't become another problem >can be possible!it would've happened if I was a puppy unfortunately no puppies spotted
>>82972019>How does one recover from a BPD discard?healing from that kind of emotional rollercoaster isn't easy, but you will feel okay again, wish you all good luck anon. you can talk here whenever you want>>82972098>I was on a bike ride and saw some cool bridges, lakes, a kitty and a bunch of big rabbitsso nice!!! (puppy missing but it's okay)glad you had fun!>one of them appears to be not so not realoh.. i just noticed that>hope it continues to go well and then you take some time to relaxthanks!>Now I'll watch Scream and after that idk maybe hereditary, apparently it's pretty goodwoah, enjoy!!>better todayglad to hear that :D>I meant to say luckily it didn't become another problemoh phew, that's relieving
>>82972098>will you be able to recover from it then?I'm sure I will with time. The first time she broke up with me I was basically bedridden for three days and barely ate that week, but I've been able to feed myself today, which is a good sign.>unfortunately it is the fate of many peopleYeah. I suppose I'm destined to be a wizard now... Oh well.>maybe you will feel better with timeI'm sure I will, but I'm impatient.>>82972240>healing from that kind of emotional rollercoaster isn't easy, but you will feel okay again, wish you all good luck anon.Thank you. Would you happen to have any advice for it?>you can talk here whenever you wantI may continue to, but I feel I may be out of place here. I appreciate the offer though.
>>82971766hi officeanon>The corporate working world.Oh spooky. I don't think my old office would ever let me return to a halloween party. Last year i was in a dress and I got pretty crazy.>>82971804>since I tend to dislike them making these as moviesIt was basically self contained just enough to work plot wise. I have no idea how people who know nothing would think of this.>>82972098>Zero Dawn>how do you like it?It's an okay story. I'm starting to wonder if my life would be easier with a gaming computer instead of running on igpu. But I also don't game that much so I can't justify the price.>I may watch it too You should. The last act is one big fight scene with a pile of kinling and a giant baby. They made every use of the budget here.
>>82971816>chilling and studying lightly know it's important, but don't overdo it. Hope you get some relaxation in this weekend>>82971895>nothing to do about ityou either make money from someone who hates you but knows how to make it or have to figure out how to make it on your own>gonna be full of events?yup, just hope it stays to the planned ones and nothing unplanned>>82972019>alone was the default for basically my whole lifenah, it's understandable. If anything, I'd say it probably makes it worse since so much in addition to that after the fact. Know it might not be what you want to hear, but the fact you were with her for a bit, means you can find someone else eventually. Maybe not this moment, but shouldn't have to feel like this forever>I feel like it helped a lot.venting to strangers on the internet is always therapeutic >>82972047hey Saka! Been forever again! Good to see you again>Started cutting again not the best, but do try to take care.>5 years with it undetected and I had to suffer a hell of a fucking lotyeah. That is one part of that type of things that's always a bit upsetting. But important thing is if it's known and you're talking to someone, it's more of a step in the right direction than not knowing>>82972098>cmes quickly for youhopefully not too quickly because trying not to crash too early>is your today almost over?basically is now. Just chilling and whatever else for the evening. Turning all the lights off so no one comes to my house lol> in a run waytis the silliest of characters though>maybe I'll watch Scream nownever saw this just remember every single kid wearing that mask at halloween when growing up lol
>>82972596>ever let me return to a halloween party.I've never worked in an office that had a halloween party. Think I just end up in the most soulless industries that people who've given up on life and joy flock to> Last year i was in a dress and I got pretty crazy.lol>self contained just enough to work plot wise.agreed. Arc it covered really suited itself well to this type of thing as opposed to probably any other arc past or coming. Between this, Demon Slayer, and JJK, felt this got the most of being a movie. >no idea how people who know nothing would think of this.Fairly certain at least in the west, people aren't going to go to an anime movie they don't know about, so hard to say.
>>82972240>puppy missing but it's okayyep :/ but it's okay maybe I'll find one some other day>glad you had fun!thamk youAnd i might go on another one next week>just noticed thatspOOOooOoKy do you believe in ghosts ?>woah, enjoy!!tyI'm having fun ^^are you going to watch and scary stuff?>>82972308>The first time she broke up withdamn, don't even return to her agai, anon, okey?>basically bedriddenthat sounds very rough >which is a good signyep that's goodwhat have you been eating? maybe you should get something special to make urself feel better >destined to be a wizard now... Oh well.how old are you? maybe life will surprise you but maybe not, if it makes you feel any better I'll probably be a wizard too >but I'm impatientsadly being impatient probably won't help >>82972596>would be easier with a gaming computewith what kind of difficulties do you have to deal now that a new pc would help with?>and a giant babya giant babay :odang I have to watch it now >>82972677>because trying not to crash too earlydo you have plans for today?>Just chilling and whatever elsethat's great :D>silliest of characters thoughoh I meant fun instead of run lolwhat do u mean?>never saw thisit's fun do u want a link?>>82972047haya o/it's nice to see you>And my right arm is a messI guess you'll have to get a tattoo on that one too>me angry that I spent 5 years with it undetectedbetter later than never I guess hope the diagnosis clears some things up and make life easier >post with a big fuck you to all of my colleagues at uni.yea fuck them!!
still very sick, still went to school though >>82966448archery is very fun!! doubt the guy who broke his arm is couldn't say if it was the person i know >>82971184hey cat happy Halloween !!!>>82971385happy Halloween and that is a big change hope you like it>>82971766hey office ^^ hope you had/have a great Halloween >>82972047hey saka been a while.hopefully knowing that helps you feel better and everything and people are always just the worst
>>82971511heya cat!>thanks I'll watch some spooky stuff sounds like a good plan. i might do that too, although i've been struggling to find anything appealing horror related recently.>are you happy about it?it looks good enough, it's about shoulder length now. mainly i just wanted to start over growing my hair. it'll grow alot faster anyways if i cut it regularly>>82971766heya officanon>how's it going? i'm doing alright ig, still in the cyberpunk phase lol and it's not showing any signs of slowing down.>reminds me when I used to have shoulder length hairI'm at shoulder length after i cut it, it was around to the lower back/sides before.>>82971816yo rem>how was your day?it was fine how about urs?>how long were you planning to cut tho?lowk just woke up wednesday really fucking pissed off at it so i decided to plan an appointment then for today.>>82972915hey gator>is a big change hope you like iteh i'll grow it back out again so i'm not planning to keep it at this length
>>82972817>do you have plans for today?eh not really. Maybe have a beer or two, post here for a bit, and play persona if I'm not out cold after all that.> I meant fun instead of runah i forgot you don't anything about csm and thought the run meant something else lol>do u want a link?sure why not. Add to my list for the night if I don't crash out>>82972915hey gator! happy halloween! Hope you feel better though! Been a while since I saw you so good to see you back>archery is very fun!!and glad you're trying new things like that. Pretty cool. Hope you're having fun>>82972954>still in the cyberpunk phase I take it you finished edgerunners then? Game is pretty long, tons of content, so easy to get lost in. Core mechanics were enjoyable for me that I could do all the side stuff too pretty easily without getting bored> it was around to the lower back/sides before.oh wow D: that is quite long you had it. I went to catholic school growing up with the strict hair policies, so i didn't grow it out except for a little bit after I went to uni
>>82972308>Would you happen to have any advice for it?It depends on the thing you're suffering from, right anon? Since like BPD doesn't affect on 1 thing only.But I'll give one thing I know you might be suffering from, it's that being aware of your suffering is already a big step into getting better, it might actually help with getting some peace even if things were chaotic inside.take care anon!>but I feel I may be out of place herewhy?>>82972677>know it's important, but don't overdo it.thanks, you're right. don't worry i won't overdo it>or have to figure out how to make it on your ownthis is more exciting unless when it becomes real or when the job is tiring overall. even the easy ones might be so hard to achieve at the beginning>and nothing unplannedseems like unplanned things are interesting too xD>>82972817>but it's okay maybe I'll find one some other dayyep>And i might go on another one next weekrainy days i supposebut i prefer it to the summer to be honest>do you believe in ghosts ?no but if i saw one i might run just like hoonior i might face it, who knows>I'm having funnice to hear that!>scary stuffhmmm, i think i won't i'm getting sleepy i think i'll do few things then sleep >>82972954>it was fine how about urs?glad to hear that! mine was okay>appointment then for today.mhm i see mate, hope you like it!
>>82973009>you finished edgerunners then? yep, became the 2nd show i ever rated 10 on MAL, since there's nothing I wanted different. It felt so tragically magic.>Game is pretty longyep, i've got around 25hrs in so far and still have only done a fraction of what the game has to offer. the main bottleneck for me rn is getting money in large quantities>that is quite long you had it. probably part of being a metalhead, not sure if i can still consider myself one ehehe. i do wanna change my style up a bit more but i'm kinda scared of ending up looking feminine or androgynous (that one is less bad desu).>>82973151>mhm i see mate, hope you like it!it turned out pretty damn good, i was almost gonna go for the keanu haircut but i opted for a bit longer
>>82973171>keanu haircut but i opted for a bit longeryoo this one is already cool dude, i can only imagine how cooler it is if it was longer, that's really good for real
>>82972915heyait's lovely to see ya :]>still very sick,oh no ;<that's the worst I guess the cool weather is all that great How's your halloween going??>happy Halloween !!!happy to you too!!>>82972954>sounds like a good plan.I watched Scream it a good one to just put on maybe you should watch that>looks good enoughthat's great I usually leave the hairdresser with regret lol>>82973009>beer or two, post here for a bit, and play persona comfy night ^^>forgot you don't anything about csmyeah but I guess I could pretend to know it pretty well >sure why noterehttps://ww4.fmovies.co/film/scream-4845/>>82973151>yephope I get to pet itbtw do u have any pets, you have a cat right?>rainy days i supposeyuppat least it's not super cold yet>prefer it to the summer to be honestat least the night are always comfy now>nosamebut I'd like to see one though I'd probably assume it's a hallucination, I get those sometimes but they're small, have I ever told you about it?>might face it, who knowsoo ur brave >think i won'tthat's fine have a nice night!
>>82972915Hey Gator, ive been worried about you. Hope youre okay now
going to sleep goodnight friends!!!have spooky nightmares this night>:3
i completely passed out, hate falling asleep mid day>>82972954>not planning to keep it at this lengthfair always becomes a hassle trying to keep it at a certain length >>82973009>Been a while since I saw you so good to see you backthanks and good to see you too>glad you're trying new things like thatyea it's really fun trying new stuff still always the feeling in the back of my mind i started to late>>82973533>lovely to see ya :]you too :)>guess the cool weather is all that greatyea it's very cool like 5 cool lol>How's your halloween going??was good, saw a lot of cool costumes at school my friend dressed up as this clown i think it was called like art or aro or something was cool. how about you?>>82973817goodnight
>>82971184Hello /cut/.It's a spooky windy night where I am. Quite fitting. I hope you are all doing good! If you're sad I hope you feel better!>how doin?I'm doing alright. Made a stinky mistake this morning but I'll recover.>plans?Did some application nonsense. I intend to watch a Gmod marathon for the holiday. I am getting Chinese food.>when cut selfDon't worry about that :3c shh!>what bothering?Recovery from the aforementioned mistake and application work. I'm not really feeling bad.I am doing okie dokie.>>82973817Goodnight!>>82972915Good to see you White Gator!
It really worried me when you left like that. I thought somrthing bad happened. If I did something to hurt you im man enough to admit to it and work on it.
This will be my last post of the night. Goodnight everyone. I'm back to groundhogs and stop waifuposting >>82973151>don't worry i won't overdo itand even if you do, just make sure to get rest after>this is more exciting unless when it becomes real or when the job is tiring overallproblem with making money yourself is what can you do that makes enough money to live off yourself? Like I could try making something, but even if I'm skilled it's hard to make a living off of it (and I'm not skilled at all with anything crafty). So rather than deal with this, we go to businesses run by psychopaths and sell our souls since it's too hard to get by otherwise.>unplanned things are interesting toounplanned for me usually means bad, but fair enough. Can always have a good surprise even if unlikely >>82973171>2nd show i ever rated 10 on MALwhat was the other 10? I tend to be pretty easy to please, but don't think i gave many either >It felt so tragically magic.yeah for real. I feel like the space between Maine's death up until it heats to finale kinda lulls a bit though to me. But end hits hard and had satisfying and obviously upsetting moments.>still have only done a fraction of what the game has to offer.it's a big game and side stuff is really quite enjoyable. Only thing I did not care for the nomad missions much, but it might just be I hated sections that pulled you away from the city proper>but i'm kinda scared of ending up looking feminine or androgynousthink that's hard to accidentally do, so as long as you're not deliberately doing something that could come across that way think you're fine! >>82973817gn cat! Hope you had a nice spooky day>>82974151>it's really fun trying new stuff what life is all about in the end. Happy to hear you're taking that up>started to latenah, better than never to find something you love doing. Like when I bought skateboard last year which is still the most ridiculous thing I've ever done lol
>>82974348will reply to you as well since missed it before I posted. happy Halloween! It's very very windy here as well and it's blowing the leaves all over. Very nice atmosphere.> mistake this morning but I'll recover.sorry to hear that, but sounds you're doing pretty good overall. Keep your head up about it.> I intend to watch a Gmod marathon for the holiday.that's nice. It's been a while, but used to watched gmod videos agesssss ago > I am getting Chinese food.chinese chinese food or fake chinese food like General Tso's chicken? Either way nice choice lol
>>82971184in op pic here's actually scared of the girl not the ghosts just a fun fact
>>82972677>the fact you were with her for a bit, means you can find someone else eventually. Maybe not this moment, but shouldn't have to feel like this foreverI appreciate your optimism, but I think there's probably a reason why I've had only one gf in 27 years, and she was cluster B. It's not exactly a ringing endorsement of me...>venting to strangers on the internet is always therapeutic It is. I'll try to talk to him again since he seemed to find it helpful as well.>>82972817>don't even return to her agai, anon, okey?I'll try not to but I'm a big enough idiot to welcome her back with open arms as if nothing happened. Assuming she even wants me in her life again. That's a pretty big assumption.>what have you been eating?The same crap diet I usually eat. I got a bunch of chicken nuggets last night. >how old are you?27.
