Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportChristmas is next week :DDhello >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hellooHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Early merry Christmas /cat/. What's up? Any Christmas plans?>>83406170>How are you doing today?Under the weather still, I woke up recently. Just alright.>Any plans for today?Calling my prof about not being able to see my final form his course, worried he didn't submit my marks.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I need to start job searching again now that I've graduated, and it's a major pain. This is coupled with searching for electrician apprenticeships at the same time, bit of a slog.
Hello friends. >How are you doing today?Absolutely horrendous. Cried a lot.>Any plans for today?I need to ask for an extension on my probation otherwise I might drop out and get deported, so I need to badger my supervisor about that. I also have to wake up in ~5 hours to proctor an exam. I'm not worried about lack of sleep because I've slept all day and am wide awake at 2am.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Same as usual, it's just hitting even harder now for some reason.>>83406224Good luck with finding a job. The market is brutal at the moment.
>>83406326This is me. I just realised I forgot my name.
>>83406224heloo>What's up? Any Christmas plans?not mant plas desu, just chilling maybe I'll watch some christmas movies ^^wbu?>Under the weather stillsorry to hear that>worried he didn't submit my marksthat'd be wo annoying why does these professors keep messing up>need to start job searching againsounds like a mess :<>>83406326Heya>Cried a lot.dang :/hope you can spend your evening doing something relaxing >otherwise I might drop out and get deportedthat's awful :<hope it doesn't happen >an exambest of luck >just hitting even harder now for some reason.probably because you have a lot to deal with
>>83406475>hope you can spend your evening doing something relaxingI managed to calm down a little and now I'm watching some comfy YouTube videos.>hope it doesn't happenEven if I don't get an extension I should still be able to manage it if I get locked in.>best of luckI don't have to sit it, just make sure no one's cheating for a couple of hours.>probably because you have a lot to deal withIt could be, but I think my brain just wants to hurt itself right now.
Through another day. Will reply to last thread in a moment.>>83406224hey togatanon! good to see you! hope you feel better soon though>Any Christmas plans?will just be visiting my family who are local, not much else. What about you? >worried he didn't submit my marks.I remember I once had issue where a professor did, but the financial records office messed things up somewhere. Just keep pestering if you gotta, should get it sorted out>and it's a major pain.it's a major pain for experienced people most fields too, at least in the US right now. Imagine things there are same (or little worse) so just hang in there. Kind of a numbers gain>>83406326hi discanon!>Cried a lot.hang in there man. Know there's not much we can do for you, but time will do it eventually. Getting out of your system is better than fighting it i feel>need to badger my supervisor about that.best of luck D: That sounds... very concerning. I'm sure they don't want that, so just do what you have to>proctor an examdoes not sound pleasant but then again maybe it's better than here.>>83406475hey cat! how's your day going?
>>83400938>an interest in local affairs either.there's some people really into this kind of thing. I don't get it, but again it's just different than what i'm used to>>83401222nice trips>i can't get a good grip onI have a lot of stuff in my basement or attic level and it's a pain because my house tons of steep stairs. Carrying stuff that can't be broken down more (table tops, etc) is a nightmare after already being hard to get in the door because I also have stairs to get in the house>there's no winning here.suppose those most jobs :/ any upside has a more unpleasant downside>not every good character has to be.agreed. I think the "sympathetic villain" trope has been done to death for many years where they wanted all of them to have some sad backstory. Doesn't need to be the case. Sometimes just understanding the rational or reasonings that are understandable, but still fucked up by normal standards is compelling anything>guys you love to hate.and comically evil for the sake of being evil is very satisfying when done right even when you hate the character of course> complete asspullhard to have natural relationships develop when the characters don't even interact lol>each of them could have carried more than just one chapter easily.how I felt book 1. Like you said, I expected far more from Amon, way more, and didn't see a way to conclude the plot so quick... Then they did and that was that. By that point onward you kind had to lower your expectations for everything that came next.>they did have to change studios between seasonsThis can always ruin stuff if they're trying to keep thing relatively contained between switches. Utterly stupid way to handle it that lessened the quality of the series significantly
>>83401425> remember getting made fun of for being a weeb My family was the worst with it. My dad especially. But made me scared to out myself as being a weeb among other people.>now it's normal? i heard this is the case, but not sure. >much more than the average American I've met.it's very difficult for a lot to get into it. The distance between other countries for us is much greater than say people in Europe or Asia. Kind of mystifies it a bit as well. I like domestic travel as well which is quite nice, but really doesn't give the same excitement>probably be out sometime in 2028.yep.. Figured have a lot of waiting to do for many of them lol>Agnes Digital. She feels like a love letter to fans like me.ah yes! I've heard of this! lol she was one of the banners I tried to pull for but Cygames hates me so alas I somehow pulled Swimsuit Special Week instead (I already have Special Week and didn't need this alt skin lol)>I wouldn't have thought so.it's funny because I tried playing rhythm games at the arcade and got into, then listened to songs from it. Ended up talking to Cat briefly about Miku(He's a fan too) and then kinda got engrossed a bit.> send some recommendations please do! Would appreciate it!>Sounds ultra-cheesy like that but you get the pointI hear you and that's a good thing. I'd say I sort of did the same, and it's been a really long time since i actually just enjoyed stuff like i am, so it's pretty good honestly.
>>83406633>managed to calm down a little and now I'm watching some comfyI'm very glad then ^^what are you watching?anything worth sharing?>should still be able to manage it if I get locked in.that's good, but still I have you get it>just make sure no one's cheatinand if they do hopefully you won't notice hehe >:3>think my brain just wants to hurt itself right now.might be>>83406735Hello>how's your day going?just a relaxing ol day decided to watch he muppets christmas movie wbu?
>>83406735>but time will do it eventually. Here's hoping.>Getting out of your system is better than fighting it i feelI feel better now I've had a good cry. I just needed a release.> I'm sure they don't want that, so just do what you have toYeah, I'm not too worried. I'm not sure I'll need the extension, but it'll be good to have some wiggle room.>does not sound pleasant but then again maybe it's better than here.It's mostly just waiting around. Past the 30 minute mark no one really cares if you're looking at your phone instead of the students.>>83407258>what are you watching?>anything worth sharing?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPitD1eYLiMhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmyBSrQodnII'd say these are worth a watch.>and if they do hopefully you won't notice hehe >:3I've not spotted anyone yet. But that's probably just me not looking hard enough.
Hey everyone. Ended up going for that run in the early morning. I think I'll need to wake up earlier because too many people were outside.Other than that, I was feeling awful. Don't really want to talk about it at this point but I saw something external that made me feel really bad. I scribbled in my diary and cried for a bit which helped. Luckily, didn't end up sh-ing despite ideations getting really high. After watching some Opera O clips and replaying a bit of her career, I feel a bit more calm now.>>83406224Ganbatte togatanon! Now that you have a degree, hopefully it'll be easier. I was surprised that I got calls from real recruiters after getting my degree.>>83407004>My family was the worst with itI get it >normalYeah, it kind of is, which is weird. I've seen people go out with anime shirts, have extended family talk about anime without any shame, and such. It's really weird because I was made fun of for being a yuri/yaoi fan but now it's so normalized? like, I have normal people talking about an obscure yuri manga I read when I was 14?>travelInteresting. I live in the states now and do domestic travel occasionally. I do understand why some Americans never leave the country because each state does have a different flavor. >DigitalYes. She's a freak obsessed with Opera O just like me.>gachaAhh. I'm so sorry. I must've stolen her from you because I got two copies of her in one ten pull... Granted, I didn't get Halloween Rice after 100 pulls so maybe it balances out. Can't go below 30k because I must guarantee getting ope-chan's NY alt!>>83407258>muppets christmaspeak comfort movie.>>83406326Hang in there, discanon!
>>83401611>I throw around the names of a few youtubers who have similar sense of humor to me and see if they know them.that's a good idea. gets the point across quickly. if they know the streamer, that is. so many of those around now.>:( why do you say that?it's just how it turns out. i just don't enjoy what most people do. not as a kid, not as a teen and not as an adult. people always want certain reactions out of me, then get mad when they don't get it. and whatever actually like is usually taken away from me, twisted, given to someone else and then used against me. i've retreated as much as possible and still it keeps happening.>Didn't really have a direct goal in mind there.don't always have to have a goal as long as you have a good time.>I won't keep beating this dead horse unless you want to.it's ok. it's more about my physical flaws, shortcomings and medical issues than any goal i have for myself. i've talked about it before, but i'd rather not repeat myself rn. hope that's ok.>>83406170hey catbro! :> what's up?>Christmas is next week :DDreally looking forward to it. and my break.>>83406224>Under the weather still, I woke up recently. Just alright.seems to be quite the bug you caught there. friend of mine has been out of comission for a few weeks now. hope you get well soon>>83406326hey dinon!>Absolutely horrendous. Cried a lot.how are you feeling now?>I'm not worried about lack of sleepstill rough. hope today goes well for you.>>83406871hey officeanon!>there's some people really into this kind of thing.usually the ones that have a lot of troube minding their own damn business. and weirdly never people who actually have a clue what they're doing.>I don't get it, but again it's just different than what i'm used toi suppose someone has to do it and since i don't care i can't reall complain about it.
>>83407482>Hang in there, discanon!You too, operanon. Seems like we're both going through the wringer.>>83407633Hello yuanon.>how are you feeling now?A little better now. Just a little down, not the intense anguish I was feeling earlier.>still rough. hope today goes well for you.Thanks. It's a 3.5 hour exam. God help me.
>>83407633>just don't enjoy what most people doI see. I actually really connect with what you said.>i'd rather not repeat myself rntotally understandable. Thanks for telling me about it anyway.>>83407004>recommendationsSure. Here's some songs I like. I denoted really depressing stuff with an asterisk just as a warning in case you don't feel like being negative. Let me know which suit your taste and I can send more if you want:- *Self Harm Colorless: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89hparQWqYQ- At God's Mercy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2GJcYBoVyg- Shoujo Rei: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JW3N-HvU0MA- Non Breath Oblige: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lw7pcm1W5tw- MKDR: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8pGRdRhjX3o- Unknown Mother Goose: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr5Csep6yFM- Charles: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ut64ptd0bYkNo pressure to check out any or all btw!
>>83407258>just a relaxing ol daynice, glad to hear it. > muppets christmasthis kinda creeped me out seeing it on as a kid. Muppets just have that affect on me lol>wbu?kinda busy and stressful. Things are going to really slow down by Thursday thought I feel, so just another day of this at most. Maybe even tomorrow will be better.>>83407316>I just needed a release.i hear you on that. Even if it takes a while to get over, letting that tire you out does you some good I feel. Normal either way>not sure I'll need the extensionin that case should probably rush to get done but hope you get the extra time either way> no one really cares if you're looking at your phone instead of the students.My worry would be dealing with kids cheating. I remember seeing people cheat the most creative and occasionally bold ways when i was in school.>>83407482hey operanon!>I'll need to wake up earlier because too many people were outsideis it very crowded where you live? >seen people go out with anime shirtsthese people are brave. Though I one time wore one, but it was just to see the Reze movie a few months back so I could annoy my brother who went with lol> was feeling awfulsorry you're going through that. Even if you can't talk about it, am sure it'll pass with time. Just hang in there. Glad you know how to cheer yourself up if even a little.>extended family talk about animewas the greatest irony ever when my sisters started watching some animes my brother introduced them to, but i got laughed at over it as a kid. > have a different flavor.by the same token, I think people who say there's no need to go abroad are missing out. I think there's a lot of difference between states (I've been to all but 12 states now) but also a lot of sameness, especially at the regional level, but even national, that going somewhere abroad is totally different>I got two copies of hersome people have all the luck D: lol>after 100 pulls not there though and tragic...
>>83406871>my house tons of steep stairs.that's the worst. had to get a slatted frame for my bed into my bedroom and nearly wasn't able to get it up the stairs. shortly i got it in there i realized that i'd rather have something like a futon. what was the worst thing you ever had to get into your home?>any upside has a more unpleasant downsideusually how it goes, but sometimes that downside hits somebody else and you're non the wiser. >"sympathetic villain" trope has been done to death for many years where they wanted all of them to have some sad backstory.i think it's ok for evil characters to have some sort of traumatic history that put them on the path their own, but it's easy to overdo it and desensitize the audience to this sort character. at some point you've seen and heard it all and just don't care anymore.>just understanding the rational or reasonings that are understandable, but still fucked up by normal standards is compelling anythingtrue. you can't always feel for the evil character, but you can always be entertained by they actions. it's nice to see someone do the things you'd sometimes also would like to do if you weren't so goddamn reasonable.>comically evil for the sake of being evil is very satisfying when done right even when you hate the character of coursepic related is one of my favorite moments in comic books.>hard to have natural relationships develop when the characters don't even interact lolbasically the relationship-version of p'li's death. comepletely out of nowhere and for some reason i have the suspicion that they just didn't have the balls to show that relation devolop. or it really was just and asspull because they wrote themself into a corner with their weird love-quadrangle and had no clue how to get out of it. maybe relationships isn't something that you should focus on that much in your action-oriented young adult tv-show in the first place. just drop some hint and leave the rest to the shippers.
>>83407316>these are worth a watchthnaks ^^>not spotted anyone yetif it turns out somebody cheated could you get in trouble?>>83407482Hello ^^>up going for that run good job!!>need to wake up earlier because too many people were outside.at least you know for the future or maybe you should pick some spot without people >external that made me feel really bad.sorry to hear that :<hopefully it doesn't happen again >feel a bit more calm now.phew >peak comfort movie.it's actually my first time watching it >>83407633eyoo>what's up?in da blanket having a good tiemwbu?>looking forward to it. and my break.yay :3and how long is your break going to be? I think I asked about it a while ago but I forgot >>83407786>glad to hear it.hope you get some of those too>kinda creeped me outI get itit's strange to see stuff that wasn't animated on a computer or on paper >kinda busy and stressful:<makes me have very violent thoughs about your boss
>>83406871>By that point onward you kind had to lower your expectations for everything that came next.it's the wasted potential that stings so much and still leaves me bitter about it all these years later. i had lot of fun watching in disbelief as that trainwreck unfolded back in the day. it could have been a great successor to an already great show and it just wasn't. bummer.i also just realized that we might get some words of wisdom from korra when the new avatar hits the avatar state or something like that. man, that'd be worth to see the new show for alone. ^^>Utterly stupid way to handle it that lessened the quality of the series significantlythat it did. sad it was just too much for studio mir to handle. the contrast between mir and pierrot was so stark that it took my out of the experience and i had to checl what was up with the animation i also heard that the female staff at mir really disliked korra because of her personality. off to a great start... >>83407482hi operanon! o/>>83407482>Ended up going for that run in the early morning.good job! :D>I think I'll need to wake up earlier because too many people were outside.does that bother you?>I was feeling awful. Don't really want to talk about itthat's ok. i won't pry. just want to say you did well today despite it all.>>83407714>Just a little down, not the intense anguish I was feeling earlier.well, that's better. :>>It's a 3.5 hour exam. God help medamn. can you at least slack off a little or do you have to be alert at all times?>>83407744>I actually really connect with what you said.sorry that you do. i don't wish that on anyone. can i ask why you do?>Thanks for telling me about it anyway.sure thing. i'm sure i'll be willing to talk about it a bit more when things are less stressful and i'm in a more stable mental state.
>>83407786>My worry would be dealing with kids cheating.they're just doing what they're incentivized to do. when given the goal to reach as high of a score for a certain task, even ai starts to break the rules it is given for it. the problem isn't the kids. the issue is that the system we created incentivizes behavior we don't wan't. deviant behavior is not an individual flaw, it's a systemic one. rant over.>>83408042>in da blanket having a good tiemwbu?that's what i like to hear. i'm just at my desk, writing replies and listening to some rants about video games, ai and whatnot. the usual. blanket is involved as well.>and how long is your break going to be? I think I asked about it a while ago but I forgotit's 2 weeks. 20th to 4th.
I'll probably head to bed gn^^>>83408150>rants about video games, ai and whatnotlots to rant about then>the usual. blanket is involved as well.very good :3>20th to 4th.nice hope you have a lovely time friend
>>83408469>I'll probably head to bed gn^^good night, sleep tight!>lots to rant about theni break it up with some random clips from idocracy. i'll watch that movie again when i'm away.>very good :3the best (~.~)>hope you have a lovely time friendthank you. just have to make it to friday.
>>83407786>in that case should probably rush to get done but hope you get the extra time either wayYeah, that's the plan. I'm going to ask my supervisor in a couple of hours. >I remember seeing people cheat the most creative and occasionally bold ways when i was in school.It's pretty tricky to cheat in these since they use exam software that completely locks their laptops up. I guess they could have someone else sit the exam...>>83408042>if it turns out somebody cheated could you get in trouble?I don't think I would. I hope. >>83408045>can you at least slack off a little or do you have to be alert at all times?Depends on who's in the room with me. Generally I can get away with using my phone every so often between moments where students might need help.
>>83408890>I can get away with using my phone every so often between moments where students might need help.that's good. at least you can give your brain a break here and there.just checked the vids you posted. i saw the redlettermedia one today as well. started to watch their vids again after a long break and it's good to hear them rant again. i'd say i'm definitely in the i'm-done-watching crowd when there isn't an option to filter out ai-generated content on youtube at some point. turning of your feed helps, but as soon as you're searching for something you can't avoid it. that said, i'd rather watch the disney-ai movies they threw together as a gag than any actual disney movie, which says a lot about the state of the movie industry.gotta head to bed now. good night!
I should get to bed soon but I am again feeling very garbage for a different reason (family related). Tomorrow's a new day and I expect things to be better then. During difficult times, I try to wonder what Opera O would say to someone like me.I ended up doing a lot of course work today which was great so that's good, I suppose.>>83408042>good jobthanks cat! I'm going to try again tomorrow! >spot without peopleI usually just go for a run in the complex of my apartment compound. It's not that big so I guess the solution is to just wake up earlier unfortunately. That's fine though.>sorry to hear thatyour empathy is appreciated>>83408469>gngoodnight cat! Well, actually, good morning when you read this!>>83408045>you did well todayThanks yuanon. That put a smile on my face.>does that bother you?It doesn't bother me but I'd just rather a quiet morning run. I feel like that ambience would be good.>>83408045>can i ask why you do?Mostly the part about opening up to people and having that be weaponized against you. I don't mean to redirect pity to myself but I get it.>when things are less stressfulThat break can't come soon enough!>>83408890Honestly not sure how long you have left in the day but good luck for the rest of it! Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better now.>ask my supervisorGreat. I hope all goes well and they're able to sort it out soon.>someone else sit the examIt's actually for this reason my university required people to present a real id in addition to their student id lmao.
>>83407786>is it very crowded where you live?Well, I'm staying with family for Christmas and it's only crowded here in the morning. Not too bad. I used to live near a highway and that was the worst. >>83407786>Just hang in thereThank you. : )>annoy my brotherHaha. That's great. I do have a couple weeb shirts but they're usually fairly classy, basically anything Uniqlo sells.>the greatest irony everDamn. Sorry to hear that but I get it.>luckIt wasn't my luck at least. I got my gacha lucky friend to pull for me. I know that's not how it works but shhh.Also, Hello Polaris (new song) came out and it has this scene which made me happy.
>>83409060>at least you can give your brain a break here and there.To be honest I've mostly been on my phone. Why, I'm on it right now.>it's good to hear them rant again.I really enjoy these types of videos they make. And wheel of the worst/black spine stuff with esoteric tapes. >i'd say i'm definitely in the i'm-done-watching crowd when there isn't an option to filter out ai-generated content on youtube at some pointI think I'd probably just stick to my subscription feed at that point. For some reason I've not been recommended too much AI stuff yet.Have a good snooze.>>83409108>not sure how long you have left in the day but good luck for the rest of it!Neither am I, honestly but I'll probably take a nap when I get back home in ~2 hours. >I hope all goes well and they're able to sort it out soon.Thank you, me too. >my university required people to present a real id in addition to their student id lmao.The pictures are so small and faded that sometimes they look like a completely different race... I'm pretty sure it's actually them but I'm not holding them up to check. Have a good snooze as well.
Does anyone have any advice on helping someone you know stop self harming? Found out my friend's little sister is cutting herself and hes asking everyone he knows
>>83410693OP posted some useful links, why don't you check them out?
>>83407744>linksthanks! Listening to them right now while working in fact! let me give you opinions later.>>83407633>minding their own damn businessah well, the small towns I don't blame them since that's like 90% the appeal of living those places. >>83407832>that's the worst.on the plus side, strong deterrent for package thefts and even trying to break in I feel>what was the worst thing you ever had to get into your home?a very old style desk. Like almost antique but not quite that old. Thing is sturdy as can be, but it was a pain to get up and in because the huge solid wood frame>downside hits somebody else and you're non the wiser.at least in my work, the unfortunate reality is worrying too much about this sort of thing does one no good > it's easy to overdo itmore so what I mean. They love overdoing it, especially with prequels where they attach shit to characters with no evidence of anything redeeming before for some reason. I think if anything it can really cheapen things and is based on the whole "surprising twist no one some coming" nonsense that never seems to be well written>favorite moments in comic books.>c-cure the autismwhat the hell is even going on here lol>didn't have the balls to show that relation devolop.that makes a lot of sense in that context. Just drop it at the end without warning when the series is already over at that point. >words of wisdom from korrahelp whoever is the next avatar after she cut off all the old ones off. Can't imagine having only her to rely on for advice is going to be an ideal setup. >disliked korrareal recipe for success when the studio doesn't like the main character lol
>>83408042>it's strange to see stuff that wasn't animated on a computer or on paperyeah! though muppets are still better than claymation. ahhh the claymation christmas classics are always one of the more disturbing things you see a lot of this time of year >about your bossboss is fine. Honestly, no issues with anyone around me. It's just big business you're biggest problem is what's being passed down from people who see you as nothing but a name on an excel sheet. Constantly seeing who shifts up and down in the rankings>>83408890>I'm going to ask my supervisor in a couple of hours.best of luck once again!>locks their laptops upI've heard this becoming more of a thing now. I don't remember it when I was in class, which made it funny when there were exams on the computer since people would be sending emails, looking things up, basically doing everything. >could have someone else sit the examcan never underestimate what they'll do. Though suppose at that point, would be out of your control. Kids here are very confrontational I feel so it'd be a pain to have to do anything honestly.>>83408150>it's a systemic one. rant over.that is fair to an extent, but also the shameless of kids I'd be worried about getting into a fight or dealing with some aggressive kid. The knee jerk reaction of so many is to complain and try to get people fired because they don't like their grade. American college kids who went right to uni are usually stuck up assholes by a large margin. See some get borderline aggressive to the degree they can. Remember a timid professor I had who couldn't control things and I literally had to intervene and tell someone to shut the fuck up and sit down once. Great thing about these kids is they're so fragile to having mean things said about them, they run away the minute someone calls out their bullshit. Man I still managed to snap a little back then, if I was back in school now I wouldn't last a semester.
>>83409108>family relatedoften the hardest issues to deal with. Sorry and hope you feel better by time you gget up>>83409195>I'm staying with family for Christmas They live far from where you usually stay?>near a highwaynever fun :< I don't even like staying at hotels near them for short stays> Uniqlo sells.I do like Uniqlo, but never bought weeb stuff from them, just regular clothes. Pretty much my go to this point for anything not for work.>I know that's not how it works but shhh.it is 100% how it works. You either have it or you're the guy who saves for a banner for over a year and still don't pull sucessfully :<>Hello Polarischecked out now. Much different than most songs that have been put out(at least ones I've heard at this point). Quite nice and calm
I had a sleep once I got back. I'm doing alright but things are looking very bleak on ojou-sama's end. I'm worried about her safety and I feel partially responsible for what she's going through now.>>83411818>best of luck once again!He wants to meet/call before doing that, which is fair enough. I'm a little nervous about that but hopefully he'll be sympathetic to my plight.>which made it funny when there were exams on the computer since people would be sending emails, looking things up, basically doing everything.Honestly at this point, I think you just need to have an open-book policy. The toothpaste is out of the tube and it's not going back in.>Kids here are very confrontational I feel so it'd be a pain to have to do anything honestly.I could probably kick up a fuss here but it's probably not worth it.
>>83406170I really REALLY REALLY wanna cut deeper but I want my family to think I'm getting better. being festive really does the trick, I feel like shit but I hung up a few lights so clearly nothing's wrong :D
>>83412615> partially responsiblesaid it before probably, but not your fault. I think you've tried, but if she has issues already, it's not much you can ultimately do.> I'm a little nervous just consider what you'll say ahead of time. Kind of thing you want to make sure you have your reasoning straight.>open-book policyalways see this as sensible, but so much of what gets graded on is repetitive memorization and requires structuring exams in a way that test knowledge more deeply. Which I know is hard to pull off and harder to grade. Most college professors just want to get back to research and don't honestly care is what my experience was.>I could probably kick up a fuss each year that passes I become find it easier to lose cool with dealing with people. I was a teaching assistant in the past but could not imagine having to deal with being one today
>>83406170>>How are you doing today?a lot better now that I learnt I passed my written exam!>>Any plans for today?Catching my brother's two cats. we got one so far
It's pretty late again but I'm not very sleepy. I'm not too sure what to do.>>83413576>aid it before probably, but not your fault. I think you've tried, but if she has issues already, it's not much you can ultimately do.That's true. I guess I'm just worried I triggered it this time.>Kind of thing you want to make sure you have your reasoning straight.I suppose it depends how sympathetic he'll be to the mess I found myself in. Worst case scenario the shrink I saw would probably write me a note saying how much it affected me.>but so much of what gets graded on is repetitive memorization and requires structuring exams in a way that test knowledge more deeplyIf I had it my way, assessments would just be essays. The problem is those are very easy to cheat on, especially now.>could not imagine having to deal with being one todayStudents are more entitled too. It sucks.>>83413762>Catching my brother's two cats
>>83412943Missed this before, sorry anon. Hope you're doing all right > but I want my family to think I'm getting better.guessing you want to be better too, but things not going as expected I'm assuming.>being festive really does the trickUnfortunately people don't look very deep, so probably don't need to worry too much about what they think. What's got you down anyway?>>83413762hey cynic! like the holiday opossum!>I passed my written exam!congrats! All done for holidays now?>we got one so farcat wrangling is always fun. Though cats I lived with would always be scared of getting scratched horribly>>83414283> not too sure what to do.not much you can but try to relax. Bright screens might be making it worse though, so might need a break from posting>worried I triggered it this time.the problem is it's impossible to know sometimes what will affect people not doing great already. What's harmless to one person, can be to another. Not anyone's fault really, especially you didn't know and tried your best>Worst case scenario probably always best to at least be prepared for the worst rather than get caught off guard>very easy to cheat on, especially now.I brother was a TA for a writing intensive class and complained he ran into multiple instances where "Regenerate Response" was literally pasted at the bottom of the essay. The particular stupid cheaters still find ways to out themselves.>dwarf fortresshalf considered trying this back when I was having a lot of fun playing RimWorld but never gave it a go. Felt like the time investment to get comfortable would be a bit much without some good down time.
`/\__/\`(=^.^=) Hey guys `('') ('')__/ Sorry for not posting today but I'm bit busyanyways, hope you all are doing wellI been trying to make a map today but I can't come up with any cool ideas :/
>>83415507hey thereall good. hope you're doing all right with whatever you've got going on> can't come up with any cool ideasdo something holiday related? Or just snowy looking
>>83415856>you're doing all right with whatever you've got going onyep dw ^^rn I'm just in bed chilling and watching bull crap >something holiday related? doesn't have to bebut I just lack inspiration, maybe if you had som interesting pictures you could share
hey everyone, finally picked up my stuff. haven't had the time or energy to assemble it. i might play tw warhammer 3 again soon cus i wanna play as the druchii but apparently the game has gone to shit lately.
gonna give myself carpel tunnel syndrome if I keep this up >>83416332> and watching bull craphope you have a nice evening>>83416525have fun chevbit of a slow day today with everyone busy but good to see you. >haven't had the time or energyme in regards to most things now
Morning everyone.>>83414791>Not anyone's fault really, especially you didn't know and tried your bestI suppose that's true. I'll try my best not to worry too much.To be honest, this last week has done a lot to push me towards moving on from her. Seeing her act like this is upsetting, but knowing that she's just been watching after something awful happened to me last week without offering an iota of support really, really hurts.>probably always best to at least be prepared for the worst rather than get caught off guardThat's true.>The particular stupid cheaters still find ways to out themselves.The upside is that LLMs just make stuff up in my field so it's really easy to spot when people use them.>Felt like the time investment to get comfortable would be a bit much without some good down time.It's a pretty steep learning curve but it's a lot easier to get your head around now with the graphical release. I still don't really know how to play it though. Same with Space Station 13.
I am paranoid of everyoneI strongly feel like someone is plotting to hurt or rob meIt's getting outta controlI've been hospitalized three times since October and I'm likely to go again after ChristmasI never feel safe, I fear for the safety of my familyI hate humanity for being such violent retardsI want to cut myself really bad but my mom locked away all the knives
>>83417710That sounds awful. Please try to stay safe anon.Are you on any antipsychotics?
>>83418513>Are you on any antipsychotics?Multiple
>>83418560I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not really sure what to suggest besides asking about getting your dosages changed if that's an option.For now just try your best to stay safe until the urges die down.
