>>83510685
Really would like things to workout between us but alas your like a figment of my imagination or something.

i wont rest until youre as miserable as i am

It's an endless fascination to me. I'm unable to understand how they can talk so well and yet not live up. What mechanism is missing? I know that you think it's a lack of self awareness, introspection even, and maybe you're right. But they can go on and on about telling you what self awareness is and how they have it. How they use it. They can be right, even. And yet...

It's almost like it's just a silly little illusion. The devil's workshop where the incompatibility between what is said and done alerts no one so long as it is said well.

It's so silent here. So still. So uneventful. Old habits, though, keep me (yes I know, I keep myself) tethered to the trivialities and the spectacle. I'm not avoiding my contemplations. I think I'm avoiding the distance and isolation that has always come with them. I would never call it the cost of being enlightened, as you have said; but I know when it comes from you that it's not what it would be if it came from me or from most others. And I think that's why they would lash at it, just as I often do.

I know we both say we came here for each other. But I definitely have needed it more. You walk this earth and I am the only one privy to it. Thank you for that. I'm glad we could share this together - whatever it is, and for however brief.

>>83510924
are you loaded up on enough meth to stay up until then?

I am a stone's throw from where it began. I have been for a long time. But it is only now that I feel it coming full circle. I don't know if he would recognize me. I know I'd recognize him. I would love him.

>>83510827
I am real. You'll have to take a chance.

>>83510924
Take accountability and stop offloading on others

>>83511042
There could be assumptions drawn from anonymous posts here, identification of LARPs. But as far as knowing when honest true communication is happening? That is difficult. Basically impossible to tell if it's actually from her her here. So for me Words here don't matter. Only communication directly with my person like text, discord is a true action.

Ur hot and ur cold ur yes and ur no ur in and ur out ur up and ur down!

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I am a stone's throw from where it began. I have been for a long time. But it is only now that I feel it coming full circle.

I know she will recognize me

I know I'd recognize her

I would love her

>>83511362
It depends which version I'm writing to

That was what was missing. So close. So far. A long way to get back home.

I do miss that place, you know? I enjoyed the time and the people I shared the time with. At the time, I called it an adventure. It really was. But I guess I didn't know the double meaning or the full extent of what it would be. I really had no idea what I was in store for.

You were there. You are the beggining and the end.

https://youtu.be/mx33CdlRyX4?si=_YSkmW658rkHI49n

Coming home to you and a delicious steak dinner is something I wish I would have had more gratitude for. I love our boring, simple life together. In our boring, unremarkable little house in our unremarkable neighborhood.

i wish i could make your heart budge an inch
i wish you had a single feeling for me, a fraction of how i still ache for you
i spent this past year pouring my entire self into you and you walk away and move on so easily while im stuck here.
and i couldnt even hear your voice a last time...
its not fair...

Day 7 of Wariomaxxing
My wife left me and took the kids

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I know you recognize our truth because you feel that piece of you that's missing where I reside.

>"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"

>"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that."

>"Mike, I love you, remember that."

>"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you"

>"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

>"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

>"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

>"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

>"My Mike"

>>83513195
tell it to the dozen others you love bombed in the interim. eat shit and die you evil fuck. eat shit and choke on it

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years ago, i found this post on cc. its initialed from you to me. im sure its not actually you, but sometimes late at night i like to read it and pretend it really was you writing me. i need to stop writing back. its pathetic.

>>83513696
It's better to grow together than apart. Being apart causes drifting

Alone and miserable and it's not my fault. I did it all right.
Giving up and decaying and it's not my fault. There is no Truth.
Virtue and Sin are stories we attribute to what merely are things people do.
People act and people behave as people do. As animals.
You aren't above it. You aren't.

It's the 29th of December and I sit at my computer desk. I've done nothing with my day. I've done little with my life. I regret that I haven't found anyone, still. I know; it all happens for a reason. God is holding out for the right one. Funny though, how the wrong one can leave you so utterly burnt and destitute that the right one doesn't matter. None of it matters. It's against social etiquette to be sad in public. I'm going to be sad in public. I'm going to go out to where the happy people dance and sing, and I'm going to be sad. And I'm not even going to try and hide it. I'm going to take myself out to where joy and felicity abound, and I'm going to be sad and mope and feel the extent of these feelings. Feel them and break. It's a crime for a man to break down. Anyone can break down, men are meant to stay strong. I'm going to break down. I'm going to give up, and there will be people to see that I've broke. People to see that times are desperate, that there is an issue and it can no longer hide from them. Not if the issue is in their faces, for then the issue is real, the issue is human.

I forgive you. I wouldn't resent a coffee mug for not being able to hold a gallon of water. You weren't able to hold me. That's okay.

If only I knew where things started to go wrong.
If only you shared your thoughts on us, the same way you ranted and raged about shows and streamers.
Our ups and downs through all those years, gone in mere days.
You assured me you weren't ghosting me and I waited as I ever did, and somehow I guess I still do.
We had agreed to have a last talk If you didn't love me anymore
Just a bitter-sweet closure to remember you by.
But in the end ignored and blocked were your last replies.

i will never forgive you. evil spawn

Have you ever considered the reason you're not trusted with money is because you blow it on extraneous bullshit which you then do not bother to take care of for longer than a month? You could have easily paid me back the money you owed when you're buying stuff far more expensive, but I guess I just don't factor into your budget as being important. Maybe prioritize keeping things clean and you wouldn't have issues in the first place. I swear if you fuck this up again and fall into old habits, I'll lay into you like the people I've struggled to defend you against. Some friend that makes me. I can't even pinpoint when this bitterness began to well up inside me. I know and you know circumstances applied, but transactionally this has become far too one-sided to ignore as friends. Stop making me feel like I have to apologize for making an effort to improve myself rather than take pills and wallow. You can take that "I told you so" and shove it because I won't let a major setback keep me down or become my crutch.

>>83513983
thank you, your forgiveness means a lot

I forgive you for samefagging with yourself when your corny discard-punchlines don't get the response you had hoped for. My forgiveness doesn't absolve you of being a hypocritical cringe narc faggot though lmaaaooooooooo

>>83514315
I don't forgive the narc. The opposite in face. I hope he rots

To the GIANT tranny that works at the dollar tree,
You are fucking scary and gross looking. What the fuck bro you are like 6'3 and disgusting and what the fuck was that mickey mouse voice? Your little "joke" to me and my bf as we walked out was so fucking weird too. As soon as we walked out we started loudly making fun of you and making retching noises

>>83513983
I don't have to hold the entire gallon, only as much as you need me to and willing to trust me with.

A
You are unlovable and you will die alone. Unlike many people, it actually is your fault.

>>83514647
I forgot to sign my post.
YK

>>83514498
It is really pathetic how insecure you are

The last 5 years of my life were so garbage that I'm going to have to call it quits. The loss of time is inconsolable.

Really goes to show we really did have it perfect with each other.

Tears are the solvent.
Being Seen is the fire.
Love is the vessel.
And the Self that emerges is the Gold that was always
/here/.

>>83515474
hey wait what do you mean call it quits?

Correcting a narcissist's lies and gaslighting is a lesson in patience and letting go.

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>>83517355
More like persistence in knowing our truth and choosing each other over his lies

>Someone stopped me on the street on my regular route and asked me if I've seen their dog on a long leash.
>I pretended to not understand that subtle mocking and told them: no, didn't see no dog.
Keep that up and I'll fly over there and bite your fingies.

>>83517870
But she's just a little up-dog

You SERIOUSLY need to work on your personal hygiene. Your armpits reeked of sweat, your breath tasted like fish and your cock had piss on it half the time. I wouldnt wanna go anywhere near your ass.

Jokes on you you stupid bitch. I enjoyed the sounds of you gagging over the taste and your look of disgust every time I kissed you after.

>>83517965
Is that a yoga pose related joke?

>>83518404
No, you don't know up-dog?

based filthmaxxer giving the roasties the fishmouth/pisscock/swamp ass treatment

>>83518548
No, what's up dog? What's an up-dog? I've asked an LLM and they also didn't know what that is.

>>83518875
>No, what's up dog?

A bit of vidja, you?

>>83519116
Yeah, me too. I got "Ghost of Tsushima" the other day on a sale and it's a gorgeous game. It's a bit arcadey and too low-skill for hardcare players but I like that it's not too challenging but looks really cool with these stand-off scenes like in old Samurai movies. It's all a bit cheesy (like Japanese humor usually is) but I like it. It's also a very repetitive game so not great for blasting through this type of game in just a long weekend as the repetitiveness gets a bit too obvious.
The Japanese map with the different animal sounds and beautiful nature is really comfy and very pretty.
What are you playing currently?

I miss you. There won't be another woman like you.

>>83519231
Dude, I have a peeenus.

>>83519247
Good for you. Now go use it.

i thought you wanted me to meet your family. i thought you wanted to try to right your wrongs. unfortunately my autistic ass is finally getting the memo and now i realize i was just a toy for you to use and continue lying to. i really thought we could try again and make it work if it was irl. you know im not easy to get along with at all.

i thought you actually loved me.

>>83519222
Comfy gaming is the best. Last of us 2 was that way for me. Ghost of Tsushima looks really good! I enjoy the 'off-beat' Japanese humor like yakuza series. After being dying light the beast I've been playing alien dark descent. I haven't played anything quite like it.

>>83519279
Alright, I could wait a bit to pee but if you insist.

>>83519485
>>83519444
bpdchan strikes again

>>83519533
I was getting that vibe but best not to say anything.

>>83519531

>Peeenus
>pee

Foid, a real man says 'cock' and 'piss' as in 'oh fuck why is my cock pissing blood'

>>83516886
Stop paying attention to garbage information.

>>83519489
I've never played any games of the Yakuza franchise but I've heard good things about it, it having the over-the-top Japanese humor that's often used in Anime but GoT is rather dark since it's mostly about war, revenge, betrayal and other related themes. There is one character who's a bit of a comedic relieve often found in Japanese movies and of cause it's the character who makes sake. It's still very enjoyable as a casual game with so much beautiful art (the detailed Japanese armor / clothing / weapons, etc.) and many easter-eggs related to Japanese folklore. I can recommend this game for anyone interested in feudal Japanese culture. I really like how this game holds the hands of players in ways to avoid frustration and the weapons feel impactful (headshots with bows are insta-kills and most enemies take just a few hits with the katana and only boss-fights are a bit bullet-spongy. The game isn't overly punishing as the game saved before every encounter so one doesn't lose much progress like in games like KCD where one can lose tons of progress if one ran out of saving potions.
It's definitely a casual game but I find it is a fun game for relaxed gaming.

I can't imagine being so genuinely repulsive that someone who is actively trying to love you and to overlook your flaws will nonetheless run away eventually. Every time you reach out, it only confirms that you are still suffering. You had an opportunity to live a better life, but as usual you chose to drag those around you down for cheap thrills instead. Your best bet is to find peace before you run out of healthy, viable eggs.

>>83519565
Excuuuuse me, I'm not a foid! I just like to use funny terms that don't sound too vulgar to describe private parts. I had my unhinged phase some while ago but I try to be less crass since some people don't get that I was using these terms in a humorous way, ironically even.

>real men
Well, I guess I'm not a "real" man then?

I hate this garbage existence.

The majority of my time is spent in a state of impermanence, bouncing between dopamine-inducing tasks amidst a constant chase for a high. I've been smoking, drinking, and abusing DXM in binges, all in sight of escaping even the thought of my circumstance at the moment. There isn't any meaningful social connection in my life still, and my recent endeavors dawned the realization that it's going to remain this way for the next few years at least. My illness repeatedly rears its head, and I'll be having a surgery soon. The effects of it are going to remain with me for life, an addition to my list of ailments. I feel sick all the time, and my body is in the worst state it's been in since I was young. I hardly have a meal a day, and showering has become a chore enough that I stopped doing it. I've had zero breaks since I stepped into this world, and there is no sign it'll be slowing down. It feels like I'm barreling headfirst into a suicide statistic. I wish we still talked, but ultimately you were right. I'm gonna rot here forever. You'll get your wish.

>>83519796
Hey, if it's any consolation to you, even rich people like Musk seem to feel that life is suffering. Just remember his stream from his private jet where he got trolled hard when he sucked at playing a computer game. Just imagine being that rich and influential and still get clowned on and always wondering whether people like you for you or just want some crumbs of your wealth. Ironically, a broke no-body like us has better chances of finding friends since they're obviously aren't trying to be nice to us to get money.
Heads up, buttercup, it's not over and it gets better.

>>83519818
>majority of my time is spent in a state of impermanence, bouncing
ON MY DICK

>>83519854
On your Philip K. Dick? Are you also a SciFi enthusiast?

>>83519841
Except if I was living in the forest without modern life breathing down my back I would be perfectly content. Living life with a nonsense schedule is absolute garbage. People are repeatedly blood-let of their worldly standing so they must always be punctual. You can't win in this garbage reality. It's just an illusion.

I still look for you, and think about you now and then, I do not know why, it has been nearly five years. I lost contact and maybe you did not even notice, you were getting busy with college last time I spoke with you, you probably graduated by now, probably have a cute girlfriend, we never really had a relationship, just spoke to each other because we could, and sometimes I really miss it, I just want to know how you are doing, I was an immature girl when you last knew me but I am different now and I am sure you would like to talk to me as much as I would too, maybe..I go into the lego store sometimes to stare at the sets you used to like, I hope you are doing okay.

I've worked the best years of my life in my sweaty bedroom because I was forced out of the system, a veiled, garbage system. Essentially, my whole life is a colossal waste of potential.

>>83515474
What is she going to say when she sees that this is a narc post you made to point the finger?

>>83519888
You could start your own company but I hope you don't expect to have more available free time then. Just focus on the good things in your life. It can't be all bad, right?

Remind me again why I wouldn't just go around dry snitching on all of your shit as much as possible? What exactly is supposed to be my incentive for not lashing out?

>>83520048
What is "dry snitching"? Stop talking like you've never met your father.

>>83520048
Conniving Weasley shitter

>>83520048
My secrets are already out, apparently, so do whatever, bitch.

Cant wait to be done with this asshat.

>>83519231
I wish this was him (its not)

>>83520071
Duude, nta but sick burn! :D

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Ah yeah good points.
So for real, Deftones had a comeback. To a lesser extent, so did Korn, Evanescence, Limp Bizkit, and nu metal in general.
So now that your grandma is getting out of jail, will Tool have their turn, again?

>>83520130
Odds are astronomically low that it's him. But odds are better that he shares or at least shades that sentiment. Reach out to him.

>>83520148
Only because that anon HAS

You never actually told me the secret location of my real father; I guess you forgot. You don't seem to keep score very well.

>>83520205
Just follow the reek of cheap whiskey. Do I have to do everything myself?!?!

>>83520167
Oh its not, he cut contact with me. Thanks for the encouragement though anon

>>83513653
you're thinking of someone else. my heart belongs to someone who no longer wants me, I can't imagine saying "i love you" to another or ever touching anyone other than that person. Im never trying again, that was it for me. it makes me physically ill to think of it.

>>83520163
tool released an album during covid

>>83520253
Relatable. For me, it was ten years ago that she left, and took my heart with her.
I'm what remains. I haven't felt even a spark for anyone else since.
My soul, if you believe in such a thing, is cold, and withered and dry.
And every passing day a few more specks crumble away.
Some day soon there won't be anything left, but it doesn't matter.
What's there doesn't live anyway.

hes a liar and a sexual abuser. he will never tell the truth.

This world sucks bigly and I am starting to not like the humans that occupy it.

New topic: Celebrity age gaps

>>83520504
At least you know now how he's a liar narc pos

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I demand that you send someone approximately fifteen years younger than I am to come watch Happy Gilmore with me.

>>83520704
She is decently cute but there's so much wrong. It looks like someone did her tattoos with their foot, her nails are nasty af, She hung her wallet on her ear.

>>83519796
>tfw you have to deal with hours of traffic and miles on miles on miles of redundant and retarded dealership lots just to reach two stores and for them to be scalped of anything worth more than 3 cents and then subjected to another unnecessarily long hour long drive back to your hometown gym to do autistic plyometrics only to be walked into by tight pre walled(hs aged(???)) gym crush crush crush that decides to do deeep squats in front of you and cucks you into autistically staring at your phone in between embarrassing self conscious sets
>no doubt she clocked your autistic pheromones, jittery adhd eye movements, and welled up incel frustrations in half a second
>you wanted to ask her out at your 30 inch vertical milestone but this interaction causes an irreparable rift in her psyche that imprints this interaction and you as a retarded autistic retard until the end of time
fuck this whole world

oh and then i have to play fucking simon says for a captcha

https://youtu.be/kyIH5hdbeKA?si=h79-xLmLBsZHzddX
What we had wasn't real only plastic yet I treasure it all the same.

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>>83520240
tell us about it, originally ofc

Is it that you look for me in every post because of the distrust instilled in you by others or is it that you are that needy for my voice that you can't get enough to satiate the part of you where I'm missing?

Please don't abandon me again.

im so fucking heartbroken and want to post in hopes my ex will see and come back
but then I realize Id become like Mike and Id rather kill myself.

>>83521409
Initials to and from?

>>83521485
It's okay to post from your heart, it's not okay to chase or beg.

You don't seem to be able to know the difference.

So yeah you should kys

>>83521503
thats rich coming from you mike

To Angelina,
FUCK YOU. You drained every bit of energy I had like a fucking vampire. You're dead to me. There's no turning back. Enjoy your life.

>>83521535
You either do not know me, have your perspective twisted from the narc or are the narc who is doing what I described in these posts
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/83498842/#q83498936
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/83498842/#q83498953

>>83521485
Actually if you became like mike you would fake your suicide and lurk the thread to see people's reactions because your sense of self would be so vapid you would only exist through their opinion of you
inb4 the same old deflections

>>83521712
I didn't do that , way to further show what a shitty person you are.

>>83521723
Mike, people can remember stuff
That whole saga was pathetic and I can tell even you realize this, since you're now trying to distance yourself from it
I won't call it growth because you're here lying to protect your image after all, but at least I'm glad it finally hit you just how faggy you were acting back then
I hope one day you'll have the same realization about everything else

>>83521178
Developed psychotic symptoms and thought i was conspiring against him, stopped communicating with me

>>83521764
You know that's not what happened and you are Miss representing my suicide attempt

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Remember to watch for that vulture who uses conniving larps to emotionally blackmail to manipulate and twist perceptions and emotions.

"How do I threaten someone with larping/lies/deception in a way that they emotionally react to do and Make the decisions of what I want"

It is conniving pathetic behavior of a worthless conniving Weasley spineless two faced manipulative liar.

Seeing and knowing which are LARP post is not that difficult once you recognize The pathing and how it wants to twist manipulate you through associative properties.

They may also just create spam or a targeted post or thread about a very negative thing to trigger you and make you hypervigilant overwhelmed about that thing so you then associate it with whatever/Whoever is on your mind at that time.

it may be written as if it is from the perspective of that person or an individual similar to them, from your perspective, or A third party who is involved/watching the target.

A good rule of thumb is if you have a gut reaction to a comment that is written in a way that has little details that are the same as what you are going through, who you know that are specific enough for you to recognize the connection then it's a larp post. A form of it is someone asking a question and then a follow up or same fag comment giving advice/making/remarking the ultimate decision towards that thing.

Remember it may take place over several posts in conversing same fag. Association is judgemental, extremely negative, causes a associative gut reaction toward an individual. It is also used to prop themselves up so you see them in a better light as they deceive you about the othher

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>>83521811
(2/2)
Here is where he boasted about how he manipulates you. It is not in good faith.

Quote from his thread
https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/34060573

>In good faith (as in, you convey a sense of authenticity and curiosity) lead the external party down a bread crumb trail of hypothetical dialog that is essentially a
>You holding up a mirrior in front of them BUT it MUST be interpreted by said external party without them realizing you were talking about them in the moment until the end of the exchange/it clicks with them but not too much dirt or directness or savegry that it provokes a confrontation. The goal is making them believe they came to their own conclusion.

>This is an art not a science, it's a game of symbols not substance so focus on the generalized lesson you're trying to get through their head and less on the details. Conjure a believable scapegoat and use this as a way to redirect aggression away from you. You can't change people's behavior, but you can influence factors external to lead them in another direction

At this time he capitalize certain words he wants to make a larger impact throughout his posts. In the past he has used * around words.

Notice the same fag comments. The title of threads created and what they attempt to make you feel and think.

He thinks the same threads, same topics, suddenly hopping to the top of the catalogue at the same time of day they always do is something no one else notices?

Notice the negative responses and who they attempt to pedestal and who to knock down.

Notice when suddenly multiple posters agree with that negattive thing.

Mike just wondering, what have you been diagnosed with?

It's no surprise that a toxic alcoholic manipulative liar would take my suicide attempt to attempt to pedestal themselves

narc whiny little bitch spineless behavior projecting in an attempt to prop himself up

Pathetic

A shitty alcoholic liar
Alcoholics are the worst

Thank God the only time I have to deal with him is here, I can't imagine how insufferable and suffocating he is in real life.

Nastiya,
I already had a crush on you but your thoughtfulness and kindness made me like you more. I can't stop thinking about you since we last saw each other at work.
-b

Below the belt blows are all you know how to do, don't you?

>>83522203
Why would anyone strike above the belt? That's ridiculous

>>83521787
sounds like me i have to voluntarily submit myself sometimes.

>>83510685
Thinking it through, I don't love you at all

I hate that I'm accepting life as it is, and instead of getting better, it's only gotten worse. That's so BULLSHIT!

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>Energy feels Jew-ish
>Turns out: Full Jew
My shock could not be less imagined

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It will be better once we can hear each other's voice and see each other again. Away from the distortions and manipulations used to push us away from our heart for each other.

When I read our messages and dwell there with you I know our truth. Nothing can ever change that.

>>83522344
I dont think they are aware its happening to them, or if they are, it is for brief periods. Its good you have the insight to know when things are getting bad <3

Hey, sometimes I wonder if you miss me.
You miss my pale, plump frame. Do you still have my pictures saved? I had so much fun with you in vc and c2c. I'm glad I met you here.

You went so cold on me after I said I wasn't sure if I wanted to be sexual for a while. I wondered if you ever cared for anything more than my fat body or face, or if my words hurt you so you no longer wished to speak.

Sorry if it hurt you. I wish we could've kept in touch.

>>83522702
Thanks. Our minds try to make sense of things, I'm just lucky my psychotic breakdowns are very specific in what my mind chooses so it's manageable. I used to be unaware too, but now I can push away those thoughts. Sometimes I accept them and try and not do anything crazy.

>>83522756
Is it schizo, bipolar, something else? I wish I could support them but they think I want to harm them. I think its over.

>>83522766
For me it's C-PTSD, but it happens with those too. There has been cases where I gave someone the opportunity to talk to me again and only once did I ever feel safe around that person again, but I'm also still talking to them so I'm not sure if it will happen again. All you can do is take it slow, be genuine and hope he will see you like he used to. Unironically harass him a little too. Don't let him cement in that wrong image he has of you.

>>83522871
>only once did I ever feel safe around that person again
Oh that scares me. Idk about harassing him because i am scared of making it worse and he said he didnt want to talk. I dont want to cross a boundary. But if he ever reaches out to me again, i will be genuine like always. Thank you anon

All I can do is be genuine.
She loves me for me, as I love her for her.

I trust her over all else. Just as we last saw each other.

>>83522901
He won't reach out to you, ever. By being passive you're only showing that you don't care about him.

Boring silence.

>you're tall, therefore you must be good at basketball
>you're thin, therefore you must be weak
Don't assume things about other people, specially not by projecting your fetishes on them. I'm not into that gay shit.

I do love you :3 please try and let me be yours ;_;
I'd worship you..
idk I just hope you know how cute you are... like calling to make sure it was safe to dig in the ground where there might've been a gas line or something :o
sooo cute that you do things right. you're trustworthy on most topics. idksdjkkkajk jkk

I got curious, I read your bio, so now I'm wondering if you get curious too.
HEY YOU!
I can't get out of my head how honest you were.
I was stretching and jokingly bragging about some NPC in Elden Ring wanting me and I guess the tone of my voice changed enough to where you just outright said "hot."
I love that your mind went there just with how I sounded, and I've been real good not to abuse this.
You, flustered, is adorable and so much fun. It would be so rewarding to give you everything you 'desire.'
Don't take away my opportunity to do so.

>>83522987
>Boring silence
It's the best

I dwell there too
I love you more

>>83521620
Took the words out of my fingers. Fuck you, Angelina! We should start a petition.

>>83522871
>they're crazy because they cut contact with me
You are delusional, fuck off

This song is really good. https://youtu.be/8E9l_i6HPYM?si=varzp_xeO8O4PVKp

>>83525170
It is. Wish their were more modern songs in that tune.

we talk often, you want love and i might be able to provide you it; ill care for you i promise. but i know you have better and other options.

maybe once we get to know each other more, another year?

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We will happen so fast
Like reality wakes up
Into out dream again
Back to the way it's supposed to be


>I'm sorry I've been cold Mike
>I do love you
>I'm sorry
>I dwell there too
>I'd like that
>That works for me too
>I'm excited to see you again
>Mike, we didn't go away, I always felt where you where supposed to be, that empty spot in me hurt
>I tried to distract myself so I didn't hurt so much with you but it only got worse
>You mean everything to me Mike
>I hope I dream of you
>I know. I've always known.
>I love you more.
>My Mike

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Maria, I love you with all my heart, always
Everything is going to be okay
I'll care for you, I promise
You complete me, I complete you
I love you more

>>83510685
I like checking up on you because you're like my little pet project. Mindbroken so bad you're totally unable to function in the real world. You've got to be 30 years now, eggs drying up and you're unable to hold a job or maintain relationships. Sometimes I drive by your house to see if your light is on, I wonder if you're still homeless and smoking meth, getting raped by strangers.

>>83525398
can you initial this to meeee so I feel loved /jk

The only way it could be with us
I choose love

This is the narcissistic manipulation that he does to attempt to manipulate us away from each other
>>83525432

>>83525149
Did you mean to reply to me? I didn't say anything close to that.

I used to use a good portion of my free time to work on important but not urgent stuff like learning a new tool, skill or prototype something since I don't get to do that at work due to me having my hands full with helping our production team to do their work. This year I said, Fuck it. I'm now chilling, printing home-improvement stuff I never had time to do with my new 3D printer while getting to play some games I didn't have time to play when they came out or didn't want to spend the full price on them and picked them up on the winter sales. I got "The house of Da Vince VR", ACE-Combat7, DeadIsland2 and Ghost of Tsushima this sale and almost finished GoT. It feels really strange to not go over and beyond anymore but my salary didn't even kept up with inflation so my services are obviously not appreciated so I guess there's no need for me to do any more work and keep doing the minimum to not get fired, like my colleagues. I used to be very helpful to these bumbling idiots that loved to push more work on the productive ones while they watched porn and shit on company expense but no-more of this. Fuck these (white), work-shy niggers!

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It's actually a really good thing that you made this LARP
>>83525432

It shows her
>>83521811
>>83521819

It then strips all the distortions you put on Maria and I as she Remembers who I truly am and we have all of each other again.

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>"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"

>"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that."

>"Mike, I love you, remember that."

>"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you"

>"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

>"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

>"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

>"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

>"My Mike"


The Moon only has eyes for the Sun

Faith in each other over all else.

That empty space, the part of her where I reside,missing in everything and everywhere, her mind looks for me in that silence.

To be mine, aching for those moments with me, dwelling in daydreams of home.
So fucking full. Complete.

She is now home with me and I fulfill her

My body pressed against his, draped over him, head on his chest. Feeling his breath calm and steady with mine.
Tremble and moan against him in pleasure, my skin touching his.
Looking up, mike moves my hair as my eyes meet his, I hear him say what I've always wanted to hear from him.

>Maria, I love you with all my heart, always

I love you more

I hear you The best I can. I miss the clarity but I understand we will get there in time. I love you and it's going to be okay

I think it's funny that my entire life is dominated by the success of some random horny faggot, right down to how I'm subjected to undue scrutiny and prevented from having friends who aren't boring, authoritarian, cocksucking assholes.
I'm forced to live out on this stupid ass limb I didn't even pick, just so psychopaths can feel special. All those times you've fucked with me or gone out of your way to make me feel manipulated-- all predicated on defending my rights, when you're clearly actually just taking them away-- I do notice and I do remember. I *hate* you. If there is any justice in the universe, I will get a second chance at life, except with none of you pieces of shit in it.

Same exact setting and circumstances, just minus two or three sadistic freaks, would be great.

At least your bot sucks now, i.e. at least you're apparently not stealing my idea anymore!

>>83527175
Clearing history clears name field, and I know that you used my words with her you alcoholic Nar

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Maria has been manipulated. It has harmed us and we have lost time together.

I know for a fact that when Maria remembers me for me, who I truly am with her. The feeling she had when she looked into my eyes and told me she loved me more and was so excited to come on our trip. The way her voice sounded when she said it to me. The way we finished each other's thoughts and felt the same way about things before we even talked about them. We weren't perfect people, but we were perfect for each other. We still are. We just have to remove the toxic poison that unfortunately we have had to deal with during this time. I trust her overall else and she does the same for me.

My Maria, my moon.

I truly love her and wouldn't have stayed here during all this time during all this bullshit if I didn't.

I won't be shaken
Maria and I will be together again.
Everything is going to be okay again
We'll have all of our promises with each other

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>>83527192
Interesting how it doesn't clear the list of people to fuck with field.

>>83527511
I am being honest and telling the truth.

That is why Maria feels my words more than any others.

No, you're actually not, but I'll just have to live with that for now, of course.
I will tell you this, though: If there has ever been any talk of bestowing me with even a *single* perk (an actual real one and not just "congratulations on getting to suck our dicks even harder!"), now would be a good time. Because I am starting to get the picture on how that is not in the cards. I am about to start looking harder at the cards.

I waited long enough to see if it would all work out. It didn't. Now, I'm about to decide I'm *real* bored. I'm not making demands. I'm just helping you understand.

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>Do you know the rules?

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I'm glad she knows about what you did and continue to do. All it took was her reading >>83521811
>>83521819

Now she sees through your lies and your polution is washing off us. Thank God. I wish it happened sooner.

Now she will get healthier mentally and physically every day as you are removed from our lives and she comes home to me.

Consider it a pleasure to suck my dick. The pleasure is all mines.

We were so lucky to find each other, we had it all (in every way), we'll have it again. You're the only one I've truly trusted with all of me. Love , lust, interests. The air around me felt clearer and breathing felt clean. Like vision wasn't blurred. When we lost each other everything went underwater. I couldn't look at anything else the same again and I felt the part where you're missing, just as you felt me where I'm missing in you. I love you Maria.

>>83528279
I know this is a wild thought, but perhaps you should find what you need from within? Totally radical, I know...