Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportevilll edition!!!! >:Dheya>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hellooHere's a bunch of helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
worked on the man a bit today :3
>>83611518more stuff :D
Posting in a devilish thread>>83611499hey cat! how's it going?>>83611518>>83611931lol nice
Hello friends. I decided to watch the Madoka movies over the last two days and cried like a bitch. They were very good. I didn't really understand Homura when I first watched it 6-ish years ago but now I realise she's literally me.I also got a note to pick up something from the post office tomorrow. There's no tracking information. It's either the thing from AliExpress (and they gave a fake tracking number on the website), a gift from my hime-sama, or a mystery third thing that I cannot think of. I'm kind of scared to pick it up, just in case it makes me cry a lot...I'd better head to bed soon.>>83611156>Hope you're at least getting some sleepUsually at least 4 hours. It could be worse.>being hurt by feelings you can't shake or being very apathetic to the idea of those types of feelings being realFor as much pain as I'm in, I'd rather have the first.>most likely the correct when you zoom up enough with mistakes madeMost couriers don't disclose their error rate, but I vaguely remember that it's in the sigle-digit percents. That seems way too high.>I've been on the fence about getting a gun. One of these days, just not exactly cheapI think if I lived in America I'd probably try to get one, unless I lived in a particularly crime-free area.
>>83610513>You're all very good to me.glad you see it that way.>Going through life I've not had too many which is probably why I'm so prone to it.i feel you. i've been alone with my thoughts of inadequacy for so long now that i can't really accept if someone tells me the opposite.>I'm grateful either way!that means a lot. (^-^)>>83611156>has to be from that one Harvard business program that people pay to say they went there but never actually studied there!seriously? higher education is a fucking scam...>nope strictly linear visual novel in that sense. But it's fine, i like them, just not very much in terms of replay ability.i suppose that's why they're called visual novels. i had fun with ai: somnium files, but i still struggle with the concept. i guess it's just another way to tell a story.>>83611255>what game was that??it was called project: re fantasy during development and that turned into metaphor: re fantazio. you can still find some of the old concept art online. i'm still so fucking pissed about the whole thing.>i wouldn't mind trying nier is school style....to each their own, i suppose. ^^>i could physically not stomach doing evil stuff in games. Even if it's a game. I could never play evil path in RPG's and just straight up could never really get into GTA period because I felt uncomfortable with the concept.i'm the same in that regard. the glorification of crime in gta never sat right with me and i usually play the good guy. the devs of dispatch also complained that most people chose to do that too and how disappointed they were. shows how out of touch with their audience video game devs are these days.>Would explain ths pissyness but who knowsi guess. that's why you should write characters you love to hate, not ones you actually hate. another good example is pacifica northwest from gravity falls. alex hirsch had a very hard time to understand why people wanted more of her in the show.
Hallo /cat/.>>83611499>How are you doing today?Pretty bad. I got work offers, but I've had a hard time communicating with employers to actually confirm an interview. Also theres a gash in my forearm down to the fat layer, a result of me slashing my arm open by accident on some ceramic.>Any plans for today?Lying around and doing nothing, the stitches in my arm make it annoying to workout and game. At best I'll get some reading done.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?December.>Why did you hurt yourself?Anxiety over passing college.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Not really, no. Once my arm heals and the employers email me back I'll have nothing to be down about.I'm gonna start namefagging cause imagelimits are annoying + I'm running out of pictures.>>83611931>>83611518I saw your updates on the room in the last thread, looks seriously awesome. Worth finally grabbing gmod to play. Which valve games have you played /cat/? I've finished hl/hl2/ and played l4d2.>>83612193Hallo officeanon >>83612217Hallo discanon>It could be worse.Still pretty bad. What's keeping you up, insomnia? I always go to bed around 11:30 but end up staying up till around 2AM anyway because of sleep problems.>a gift from my hime-samaWhat's a hime-sama?>if I lived in America I'd probably try to get oneYeah same. Not even only as a self defense thing, they just look cool. Revolvers especially, spaghetti westerns and metal gear solid couldn't make them any cooler.
My brother said the manga nose dives off a cliff and it's like he got bored>>83611499>evilll edition!!!! >:Ddelightfully devilish.hey catbro! what's up?>>83611518>>83611931very nice. love the little dance they do. ^^
another rebference >>83612379>Which valve games have you played /cat/? I've finishedI haven't played alien swarm, artifact, half life alyx, deadlock and dota
>>83612498hello everynyanDo you guys have something you'd like me too add to the map?
>>83611499you are all a bunch of retardss
>>83612495thanks btw I added the plank but it has gondola face
>>83612495dang. don't know what happened there. maybe i just dreamt i finished my reply to this post >>83611255. well, what i wanted to say was that it getting bored with a series can be very dangerous to your reputation. the guys that produces game of thrones also got bored, fucked up the ending and lost promised projects at disney as a result. when you get bored it's better to not bother at all instead of half-assing it.>>83612519good idea! :D
>>83610513>anon who saw me in the other thread Yo.>>83612361Hallo yuanon>the glorification of crime in gta never sat right with me and i usually play the good guyI think the appeal is less inflicting pain or being cruel, and more just the exhilaration of trying to get away with it when the punishment falls on you. Whenever I play new vegas I like doing a character where I'm hated by everyone, being on the run constantly with NCR and Legion death squads on your tail is fun and adds new ways to roleplay. Or in games like half life or Halo it's fun seeing your allies turn on you and the dialogue that comes with you being an asshole.>>83612498Girls last tour!!!! Also you've played basically all the good ones, interested in alyx but VR is a ways away for me.>>83612510An Arizona ginseng green tea can.
im back cutting againn
>>83612613fucking gross. should've known not to click on any pics in this thread buty brain goes click
>>83612629i know im fcking gross nd my body is a disgusting ugly mess and im making it worse until i have nothing
>>83612552hey toga! how have you been?>Whenever I play new vegas I like doing a character where I'm hated by everyonea challenge can be fun, but i always prefer to be more reasonable. guess i was evil in witcher 3, since i supported nilfgaard, but that's usually the extend of how far i'm willing to go in a narrative i'm invested in.>it's fun seeing your allies turn on you and the dialogue that comes with you being an assholeit's always nice to see the devs going out of their way and include these things instead of hitting you with a game over screen because you had fun wrong.also: got fire punch vol 1, but haven't read it yet. maybe over the weekend.>>83612613hey anon!>im back cutting againnwhy? did anything happen? either way, make sure to take care of those, ok?>>83612728>im making it worse until i have nothingsounds like you're in a very difficult spot right now. i won't argue against the way you see yourself, but i want to add that people don't see us we see ourselves. honestly, i don't really care about or judge other people's bodies as harshly as i judge my own.
today's been pretty goodI worked on a map and went on a walk in the snow because it snowed a lot today>>83612193thanks :>warsup?>>83612217Helloo>cried like a bitch.I think that's a good thing, they had an emotional impact on you and it'll probably make you like and remember it more >third thing that I cannot think ofanthrax :Djust jk>better head to bed soonsleep well when you go >>83612379ello a hard time communicating with employers to actuallyhmm not a good sign :/>gash in my forearm down to the fat layeraa D:sounds baadyou don't need stitches?>stitches in my arm make it annoyingyou got them that's good, the wound could probably heal without them but it would look pretty ugly>reading donewhatcha reading?>I'll have nothing to be down about.hopefully that's soon then \o/and that nothing new comes up>>83612495>the little dance they do. ^^it's even better when timed with the musik!>>83612534of course it's goodit was your idea after all>>83612552>Girls last tour!!!!:D>interested in alyx but VR is a ways away for me.sameI'm not sure I'll ever play it desu but it's okay >>83612217btw u asked yesterday if I am using Hammer and yep, I am>>83612613hey anonit look rough make sure to patch yourself up ok?what made you wanna do it?
>>83612217> Madoka moviesAs much I enjoyed the original anime when it came out, I never watched any of the movies shockingly. Been meaning to since brother keeps bringing them up too>I'm kind of scared to pick it upjust do what you've got to i suppose>at least 4 hoursI need a full 8 consistently night after night or my brain is operating at decreased capacity>I'd rather have the first.probably better person to be. I think about how my attitudes have changed towards things, and I'm not sure I'd of liked how they have if you told me this back then>That seems way too high.sure the number is probably in theory worse than their estimates just the number of packages that disappear and no one even reports. Most package thefts from drivers hinge on the hopes recipients are elderly people who don't even know how to track or check for packages > unless I lived in a particularly crime-free area.those areas you need to own a gun just to fit in!>>83612361>seriously?it's sounds absurd, but it's a real think a friend of mine went on a rant about. I don't think it's cheap, but it's mostly for MBA types who didn't have connections or grades to go to Harvard for real to get to have it somewhere on their linkedin or resume. People who don't do research will see it and eat it up still> why they're called visual novelsI mean there's more gameplay to danganronpa than some visual novels, just not very much and it's still main appeal just playing the story>ai: somnium filesthis is made by spike chunsoft too apparently but hadn't heard of this >project: re fantasydamn looked this all up and yeah... That's quite the change. > pissed about the whole thing.how I feel with the monstrosity that is VtM Bloodlines 2 so it happens> shows how out of touch with their audience i think GTA it's fine since it appeals to the lowest denominator of gamers, but anything past that people are going to think how think they would choose in that case, so it makes sense
>>83612379hey togatanon>I've had a hard time communicating with employers to actually confirm an interview. best of luck. It's annoying to deal with I know. Mentally and physically draining. Just hang in there and try your best>gash in my forearm down to the fat layer,that's awful. Hope it heals up quickly>cause imagelimits are annoying + I'm running out of pictures.yeah, pretty much why we all do this point>>83612534>don't know what happened thereit happens lol> be very dangerous to your reputation.would be interested to see what happens as that gets animated now>>83612613>>83612728take care anon. A lot of others told you what you should do. Hope things heal up and don't bother you bad.>>83612867> it snowed a lot todayoh wow cool. Here's it warm and rainy again lol Not complaining about the warm>warsup?not much. A little tired. Had to run to get stuff for the dog. Not enough time now to set aside for any games I feel like so might play some project diva since still trying to beat some songs on hard
>>83612552>Arizona ginseng green tea can.sure thing boss o7
>>83612867>today's been pretty goodI worked on a map and went on a walk in the snow because it snowed a lot todaylucky you! :D here it snowed a bit for the last couple of days, but not enough to make a fuzz about it. :<>it's even better when timed with the musik!what music? :0>it was your idea after alli just gave you a hint and you turned it into something great. :>>>83612910>it's a real think a friend of mine went on a rant about.i've heared about similar courses here. you basically pass automatically and it's more of a place to network. just have to be able to afford it.>People who don't do research will see it and eat it up stilli wonder if we'll ever be able to have an economy based entirely on facts at this point when so much of the education process is completely fabricated nonsense.>there's more gameplay to danganronpa than some visual novelsah, ok. wasn't sure about that. i think a also mix it up with the zero escape games. i watched some let's plays of those back in the day.>this is made by spike chunsoft too apparently but hadn't heard of thisi had a great time with the first one. check it out if you feel like it. bought the second one without hesitating and absolutely hated every minute i forced myself to play it. they changed the main characters and the way they treated the protagonist of the first game made me absolutely furious. should have done my research. :p>That's quite the change.one way to put it... i don't think i would have had such a negative reaction to it if they'd have communicated the change in art direction at some point during the 7 years i waited for this game. i didn't take it very well that they promised me one thing and then delivered the conplete opposite >I feel with the monstrosity that is VtM Bloodlines 2 so it happenswhatever happened to that? i remember liking the first one, but that also was a very long time ago...
>>83612910>i think GTA it's fine since it appeals to the lowest denominator of gamerssure. people enjoy the spectacle of it. that's fine. it's a very polished sandbox game that does a great job with their presentation. just not my cup of tea, so i avoid it.>anything past that people are going to think how think they would choose in that case, so it makes sensei think it depends a lot of how invested people are in the story and characters. more often than not it just feels out of character to chose the bad option or be evil in the context of the story or world.
>>83612969>would be interested to see what happens as that gets animated nowsometimes they can reign it in and change it a bit to make it less egregious for the show and sometimes they just let the trainwreck happen completely unfiltered. there's no brakes on the production train.
a new thread :Dhow are you all doing?>>83605555>yeah, but getting away from everything and to do nothing was pretty much the point.weellll i guess you achieved it!!>what kind of vacations do you like?idk i never thought a lot about different kinds, nor tried a lot of kindsi mostly just want to stay at home while doing things i like without getting annoyed>glad you made it through and hope it all went wellthanks but i dont think everything went exactly well xD>i'd ask why, but i won't pry.ehh a lot of things. though, the worst problem i had i wrote a lot about it in previous threads but basically i had to walk away from someone i loved.that's the thing without 7000 letters xDi still have the posts i wrote but it'll take time to read>i'm rooting for you, thoughthanks yuanon!!>will it be better from here on out?who knowsalmost everyday something bad happens, though good things happen aswell>what are you going to do now?hmm i had few hours to sleep but i stayed awake, eh>>83605904>mainly just relationship insecurities. idk if thinking about it makes it betterdid you have any new idea from thinking about it?if so, maybe it can help somehow, no?>>83605935hey officeanon!>what's got you down? more of the same from earlier?emotional baggage i suppose, i feel better now though>but you can't it drag you down.thanks officeanon :Dhow are you btw?>>83607690hey disanon>I can't really advisedon't worry about that>and that's better than nothing.yep
Your worst enemy is yourself.Nobody really gives a flying fuck about you so don't be to hard on yourself. Love yourself, treat yourself, self care.
>>83612969>Here's it warm and rainy again lol Not complaining about the warmI guess the cold went my way>little tired. weekends sooooon :>>Had to run to get stuff for the doghow's the dawg doin?>Not enough time now to set asidesorry to hear that>>83613154>last couple of days, but not enough to make a fuzzmaybe it'll snow again >what music? :0oh wait a min ill send something >just gave you a hintyep YOU did :>how was your day?>>83613367helloo>how are you all doing?I'm goodworked on a map and went on a walksoem map pics: >>83611518>>83611931>>83612498>>83612510
hands are numb, no more project diva. Cleared Senbonzakura and Disappearance of Hatsune Miku finally >>83613154>basically pass automatically and it's more of a place to network.My understanding is this is literally paying for a bs credential. At least what you're describing has networking involved. Paying for networking can at least sort of sound justified in practice>when so much of the education process is completely fabricated nonsense.as are a lot of industries in the economy itself, so probably not anytime soon>also mix it up with the zero escape gamespublished by same people, but quite different. I've had these recommended to me, but there quite a bit more serious and thoughtful. Less anime, whereas danganronpa being stupidly anime-esque is a good chunk of the point.>. check it out if you feel like it. will do if I have some time>i didn't take it very well that they promised me one thing and then delivered the conplete oppositwhy it's best not to get excited about games in development hell... Case and point below...>whatever happened to that?it came out and it was shit. Development hell, redesigned multiple times. Project lead changed, developer changed, entire type of game it was changed. It was barely and RPG in the end. First one was great, one of my favorite games. Janky mess when it came out I've heard and need tons of patchy, but it was fun and had meaningful decisions and mechanics. >>83613213> very polished sandbox gamewhich is strange since I like open world games, but these i just couldn't get into for reasons I mentioned>>83613310>less egregious for the show I feel like we're years past anime original endings for the most part. At least for mainstream stuff. For better and worse
>>83612844>hey toga! how have you been?Pretty meh. My stitch itches a ton and I've been lazing around all day. How about you?>usually the extent of how far i'm willing to go in a narrative i'm invested inFair enough.>always nice to see the devs going out of their way and include these thingsOne of the more off-putting versions of this I've seen was in Modern Warfare. There's a level where you need to clear a house of some suspect, and in one of the rooms you find a mom and their kid. Firing on them will cause the game to boot you out and chastise you for being a bastard. It's a little eerie almost.>also: got fire punch vol 1, but haven't read it yetIt's kino, let me know what you think later of it. Really wishing I get the box set but for some reason it's only in Italian... >>83612867>bad signDon't have any better options tbdesu>you don't need stitches?I got them at an urgent care center within an hour. I could have gotten them earlier, but I had to get a new health card before being given treatment. Blood gushing onto the floor while trying to sign forms for a new card looked grisly.>whatcha reading?The Myth of Sisyphus.>>83612969>Just hang in there and try your bestThanks, I will.>Hope it heals up quicklyI should be clear to take the stiches out 5 days from now, got cut 2 days ago.>>83613367Hallo rm>how are you all doing?Comme ci comme ca. I'm feeling fine but my arm and work are an annoyance.
>>83613367>how are you all doing?i'm ok. day was a bit rough, but now i'm just watching some stream before bed.>i guess you achieved it!!that's true. ^^ i did the thing and now i'm back to do the other thing.>i mostly just want to stay at home while doing things i like without getting annoyedsounds pretty good to me. probably what i'll be doing next time i get a week or two off.>thanks but i dont think everything went exactly well xDsorry to hear that. :<>basically i had to walk away from someone i loved.that's always a terrible feeling and there's never a good way to go about it. everyone ends up hurting.>i still have the posts i wrote but it'll take time to readyou can link them if you want.>almost everyday something bad happens, though good things happen aswellthat's true. it's ways a constant up and down. i hope things will be looking up for you now. it's about time.>hmm i had few hours to sleep but i stayed awake, ehsometimes the only way to fix your sleep.>>83613411good advice>>83613510>maybe it'll snow againthere's been warnings for the whole country, but i'm not sure it applies to my area... here it's just raining now.>oh wait a min ill send somethingthank you!>how was your day?not great. went to work as usual, but at somepoint my coworker noticed that her purse was gone and she started to panic that it got stolen (again), so we checked the video footage and it indeed was stolen. guy crawled behind the counter and snatched it. issue was that not only her wallet and keys was in there, but the keys to the store as well. needless to say she was quite stressed about the whole situation and i had to make up for her being distressed. just a lot going on today.
>>83613367hey rm, how's it going??>how are you all doing?>how are you btw?I'm all right. Work was tiring and busy, but got through. Almost weekend so looking ahead for plans then>emotional baggage i supposewe all have those moments. Nothing wrong with that, but glad it's gone now. Did you have class today?>>83613411pretty much. Lot of reasons people end up doing such things, but most boil down to this>>83613510>I guess the cold went my waySorry about that. We could go for a mild winter after how awful last year was this time>weekends sooooon should be warm, but unfortunately might be rainy. Will see how it goes>how's the dawg doin?easy going as ever. Thought haven't gotten to walk him in a bit since the weather and being busy. Feel bad about that, but doesn't seem to mind>sorry to hear thatit's okay. Had fun clearly some songs, though these games cramp my hand up
>>83613652>hands are numb, no more project diva.damn. you go hard. ^^>this is literally paying for a bs credential. At least what you're describing has networking involved.networking in the sense of meeting people at the place you get your bs credential from, so you know who's in the same financial social class as you>not anytime soonguess it all has to crash again before it can get better.>published by same peoplethat's how you do it. have something for everyone.>Less animeboo!>danganronpa being stupidly anime-esque is a good chunk of the point.at least they know their audience and cater to them.>why it's best not to get excited about games in development hell...yeah. point taken. aftet that and silksong i think i'm done waiting for games.>it came out and it was shit.that's a quote almost all games that come out can print on their box ^^>Development hell, redesigned multiple times. Project lead changed, developer changed, entire type of game it was changed. It was barely and RPG in the end.sounds familiar. dragon age comes to mind. that series got absolutely obliterated.>First one was great, one of my favorite gamesit had a lot of things going for it that games struggle to implement properly even today.>Janky mess when it cameyeah. on my playthrough i got a bug that stopped me from putting on any other outfit than the starting one. made it a bit harder than it needed to be.>it was fun and had meaningful decisions and mechanics.it was fun arguing with that stop sign.>these i just couldn't get into for reasons I mentioneddoesn't matter how good the game is when you get filtered. i always knew that the god of war games are good, but i never was able to get over my dislike of kratos as a character. sucks to be me.
>>83613652>I feel like we're years past anime original endings for the most part. At least for mainstream stuff. For better and worsethe summer hikaru died changed a lot when it came to the introduction of the characters. i suppose the author took some advice from her editors and the studio. i think it works better for the pacing show, but also changes the feel of it slightly. nothing as big as a completely different ending, but it stood out to me.>>83613775>My stitch itches a ton what happened?>and I've been lazing around all day.wish i could have done that instead of stupid work :/>How about you?the holidays were exhausting, but nice. now were just back to exhausting.>Fair enough.now that i think about it, i tried being a sith in kotor 2 and as far as i remember that went absolutely nowhere. like the story didn't have a conclusion at all if you do that. it just ends and that's it. maybe that had an impact on how i play games like that.>Firing on them will cause the game to boot you out and chastise you for being a bastard. It's a little eerie almost.strange. was that before or after the game where you shoot up an airport? either way, don't put options in your game and get pissy when people take them.>let me know what you think later of it.will do.>Really wishing I get the box set but for some reason it's only in Italian...mamma mia! :0 always annoying when there's stuff you'd really like to get but it's just not availabe to you. many such cases. :/need to head to bed. good night, everyone!
>>83614248>what happened?I cut my forearm open on some broken ceramic.>wish i could have done that instead of stupid workWish I was working.>always annoying when there's stuff you'd really like to get but it's just not availabe to youI would kill for some older band shirts...>was that before or after the game where you shoot up an airport?After I think.>don't put options in your game and get pissy when people take them.I think it's a cool decision actually, even if it's just to wag then finger at the player of being a psycho. Most games don't give you the option to fuck this up to begin with (for good reason).>good night, everyone!Nights.
travel update. i almost threw up in the uber to the airport which was not auspicious but then the plane and getting to the hotel were okay. today i saw my grandfather and his wife who hates me. and that's not anxiety talking the first thing she said to me was a passive aggressive comment about my hair. i spent all day tired/grumpy/hungry okay whatever that's life that's travel. but for dinner they got this stuff with really weird sauces i didn't like and my reaction was so bad that i think i might actually have arfid like some kind of eating disorder level problem. i felt scared like Scared and hypervigilant and spiraled about being a useless fucking child who can't eat normal people food. i kept it together so i wouldn't ruin the visit but was really miserable. ran back to the hotel room to doordash fucking mcdonalds chicky nuggies like the worthless immature piece of shit retard that i am. today feels like an r/kitchencels post.
>>83613510>worked on a map and went on a walka walk :Dhope you had fun>map picswaaiit so there is yuu chan's helmet and the cat from azumangaidk the things on tvand the tall cat is just a tall cat.. isn't it?anyways i really love the map!>>83613775hey toga>arm and work are an annoyancewhat's with your arm? is it cuz of cuts? >>83613788>day was a bit rough:[ work?>back to do the other thinghmm does it make you feel productive?>everyone ends up hurting sadly :/>you can link them if you wantit was on thread 664 which is gone and i can't find it on desu archive either >it's about timetrue, thanks yuanon!!>sometimes the only way to fix your sleepyup, a hard way >>83613874>how's it goingpretty much calm, gonna sleep very soon>but got throughglad to hear that>weekend so looking ahead for plansmhm do you have any plan now?>Nothing wrong with that, but glad it's gonethanks :D>Did you have class todayyesthis reminds me, i wanted to know how does the GPA system work in the states
Having a bit of a spiral and had the knife pointing in my arms but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't know how you guys do it, I'm a coward and the fear of the pain gets to me eventually.
hello everyone! i tried to post on new years. however, i was not able to complete a captcha on my phone. besides my critical lack of thinking and puzzle-solving skills, i've been okay. nothing too good, nothing too bad. i hope you all are a bit better.
>>83615467sorry anon. sauces are hard to learn when you're a picky eater. sounds like you're trying your best. just keep experimenting with different foods so you're prepared for whatever arrives in the future.>>83615810i think most of us that are habitual cutters don't feel pain or fear like you do. it's the end stage of severe deterioration of the mind. just be grateful for your human heart. if you want a thrill, go for a walk out on the winter night. it really helps clear your mind. my worst psychotic episodes are always in summer cause the winter chill helps so much with a healthy mind. if you don't hold onto your emotions, you start to lose them. you don't want to live without fear.
Somehow managed to sleep through all the construction noises so I'm feeling alright.I've got a bad feeling that she's in a psych ward or worse. I'm gonna psych myself up and pick up that mystery thing from the post office.>>83612361>glad you see it that way.If you were awful to me I'd have just left.>i can't really accept if someone tells me the oppositeSometimes they can be useful. I don't think I'd be where I am if I thought I was good enough.>>83612379>I've had a hard time communicating with employers to actually confirm an interviewGood luck. Getting your first job is stupidly difficult, especially now.Sorry about your arm too, that sounds awful.>What's keeping you up, insomnia?I think I'm just a night owl. That's not usually a problem but I get woken up pretty early now because the building across me is being demolished floor by floor.>What's a hime-sama?A princess.>metal gear solid couldn't make them any coolerYou're pretty good.>>83612510>Do you guys have something you'd like me too add to the map?Maybe an Evangelion thing.>>83612867I miss the snow. Apparently it's snowing back home and the dog ate some of it.>>83612910>I never watched any of the movies shockinglyThey're just the series edited down, except for the third one. They're all very good and it works surprisingly well pacing-wise.>I need a full 8 consistently night after night or my brain is operating at decreased capacityMe too. I have to take what I can get right now.>package thefts from driversI remember when I started university, the laptop I ordered was stolen twice by the driver. They just didn't deliver it and marked it as received. Amazon then ran out of stock and I had to get a different, worse laptop.
>>83613367>how are you all doing?Hello! I'm alright for now.>>83615467>my reaction was so bad that i think i might actually have arfid like some kind of eating disorder level problemI'm pretty sure I got diagnosed with ARFID. It's no fun and has ruined my life to an extent.I hope you don't have it too bad and can get it treated somewhat.>>83615810That's probably a good thing. I have a very low pain tolerance so I've never tried to cut myself.Are you feeling any better now?
a few years ago i started talking here and in another general in a board, things got messy, sometimes i wish i had chosen this place instead of the other one
>>83615810>don't know how you guys do itObligation.>>83616281>Good luckThanks.>Sorry about your arm too, that sounds awful.Partly why I'm still up, can't sleep with the itchy sensation.>I think I'm just a night owlFair enough.>A princessIt'd probably do you good not to call your ex that (if I'm guessing right, which I usually do). Feeling spiteful would be better than this honestly.>You're pretty good.Six bullets.
The package was just something I ordered that DHL foisted onto the postal service without tracking instead of delivering themselves. A lot of worrying for nothing...>>83616550Such is life. You're always welcome to post here though. >>83616619>can't sleep with the itchy sensation.I would probably lose my mind over that. Hopefully it heals up fast. >Feeling spiteful would be better than this honestlyProbably, but I don't have it in me. It's very difficult for me to feel negative emotions besides sadness. >Six bullets.It's a nice gun, I'll give you that. But the engravings give you no tactical advantage whatsoever, unless you were planning to auction it off as a collectors item.
>>83614150>damn. you go hardsome of the songs in that game you gotta how fast they are. >f meeting people at the place you get your bs credential fromis this not already what an MBA is anyway? i'd say so but that's all other thing>they know their audience and cater to themdanganronpa fans are the worst of the worst, but it is a series that lends itself to insanity with waifu/husbando shit on steroids and excessively cruel and twisted plots about murder after all> i'm done waiting for games.i wanted to say I still hold out hopes for when bethesda gets their shit together and makes next elder scrolls. Starfield was boring as hell, but feel gameplay was good for what it's worth, just the world was jarring. but that's about it>that series got absolutely obliterated. to be fair, it was downhill after the og. I liked 2 fine, but it was a step down and Inquisition was a pass for me>struggle to implement properly even today.I remember losing my shit when I realized the reason they have the elaborate sewer system under each map was because nosferatu had to play the game completely different from every other clan. Crazy how many paths for things were jammed in that game. > bug that stopped me from putting on any other outfit lol just meant had to be that much better at the game. Still not as bad as bugs in some games that got way more support than Bloodlines did> arguing with that stop sign.I never even knew about this! lol I never played Malkavian so back to my main point I guess
>>83614248>think it works better for the pacing showThat's the kind of change that's good. Can make changes without altering story often times should speed stuff up looking at you OPM> being a sith in kotor 2 I could not be darkside in either game. Felt too bad>the story didn't have a conclusionthat happens no matter which side you pick though proving the game was just very lackluster past a point>>83613775>It's a little eerie almost.For sure there to tempt you to do it just to say something about. More interesting than just making them be unkillable, but I still feel weird about the airport massacre thing back in mw2 despite being a game where whole point is killing people>The Myth of Sisyphus.how are you liking this? I look at the overview and it sounded interesting from the brief summary I saw>clear to take the stiches out 5 days from nowthat's good. Don't think I ever had an injury so bad thankfully>>83615467>that's travel. in a nutshell. I hate flying>actually have arfid like some kind of eating disorder level problemdo you run into this issue often? There's a big difference between disliking certain things vs having wider food issues. A lot of people, especially younger don't like "normal people food". Especially if it's unusual compared to what you normally eat. Don't be hard on yourself for it either way, only make things worse>>83615810honestly anon, it's better to be afraid of it than do it too easy. Once past the first few times, becomes much easier, which is usually not a good thing>>83615848happy new year lav! Glad to see you>>83616550It is relatively an easy going general here as far as generals go. Always welcome to come talk
morning morning everyone hope you all had nice sleeps
>>83615540>gonna sleep very soonas did I before I even responded. I'm so drained lately, out cold minute head touches the pillow> do you have any plan now?might be going to the casino. Sounds questionable, but I don't have a problem stopping that sort of thing. I just it fun and like the atmosphere>how does the GPA system work in the statesSure, so we have letter grades that correspond to % points. A >= 90, B >= 80, C >= 70, D >= 60, 60 > F. With GPA each also has a point value associated with it A = 4, B = 3, C = 2, D =1, F = 0. Max number of points is 4 per course. In simplest terms assuming everything is worth the same number of credits, you divide by courses your points to get GPA. 2 B's and 2 A's gives a 3.5 because (4+4+3+3) / 4 = 3.5. If you have different credits per course (like the B is in a 4 credit course but A is in a 2 credit course) you have to do a weighted GPA so you take into consideration different courses are worth more than others in the calc.>>83616281>Somehow managed to sleep through all the constructionimpressive, but not sure that's a good thing>got a bad feelinghonestly, I know you're looking out for signs on how things are, but I think is just a feeling. Imaging the worst when not in contact to try to find a reason to reach out. I think that happens in situations like this. Just try to not let it get too much ahold of you>except for the third onethink this was the one I was going to check out years back but never got to. Assuming it picks up where the series ended> have to take what I can get right now.i wish i could manage this but work quality is so bad when I don't have more>stolen twice by the driverThis is why I don't like ordering expensive stuff from amazon, but other sellers. If a courier service driver steals something, i've found stores using them will flip their shit at them and actually had a fedex driver drop off a stolen package in an unmarked car after I complained to an online store once. Fun times
>>83615810hey anon screw thisdon't call yourself a coward, you're not able to do it because that's the natural reaction from your brain, you ain't getting anything by cutting and not fixing anything.maybe you also need to vent out a little bit, or to blow off some steam maybe?
>>83617474Morning /cat/. I tried to take a nap earlier but it didn't go anywhere.Hope you're doing well.>>83617512>not sure that's a good thingIt's probably not. I need to start taking melatonin again and sleeping earlier...>Imaging the worst when not in contact to try to find a reason to reach outProbably. I emailed her again yesterday because I'm a dumbass... and also made a blogpost politely asking to call so we can figure out what's going on with us.I'm not very good at this.>think this was the one I was going to check out years back but never got to. I'd recommend giving them all a watch if you enjoyed the series. The third movie is very good. Worth watching just for the visuals.>Assuming it picks up where the series endedYeah. Plus there's a fourth movie coming out in a few months. That's pretty exciting.>actually had a fedex driver drop off a stolen package in an unmarked car after I complained to an online store onceWew. He must have had a pretty bad dressing down for that to have happened.
>>83618138I went to the mall but now that I'm here idk really what to do lol>earlier but it didn't go anywheremaybe for the better naps sometimes make one more tired instead of helping with that
cant really relate to this thread i suppose but it's nice to see a board full of (seemingly) normal people for once so i wanted to post. hope you all have good days n stuff, you're all goated.
>>83618449>now that I'm here idk really what to do lolThat's usually how I feel whenever I'm in one, unless I'm in there to buy something specific.There are huge malls here but almost none of the stores entice me in. I think I'm too autistic for this.>>836185144chan and /r9k/ especially gets a bad reputation but there are some very nice people on it.
I don't know where else to ask, how much paracetamol would I need to kill myself painlessly, just like fade to black kind of thing. Is 40 enough?
>>83618514hey anon you're still welcome if you wanna talk how's it going? what sort of stuff you can't relate to?>>83618795I just walked around, got some treats and got back >of the stores enticesame>I'm too autistic for thisme too hehe or insecure or greedy and don't want to give em my money>>83618950Hey anonI don't know desu but I'm not sure if you'll painlessly fade to black from an overdose Have you read some overdose survivors accounts? I've heard they can get pretty rough
>>83618950Not to encourage suicide, but killing yourself by overdose is really inneffective and almost always gets caught and sent to hospital and saved. Especially if you dont currently live alone it really is not a great plan and to be extremely harsh is a pathetic way to go if you have to drug yourselves to the heavens and have an extremely delayed death you dont want to die. You may want to stop living but their is a difference in the two.
>>83617474Have a good day cat, hope to ssee you in a bit>>83618138>sleeping earlierwhat I should try to do as well since I've been going to bed later and later, but waking up as early as ever>politely asking to call so we can figure out what's going on with us.do you mean this in terms of wanting to talk to her or holding onto hope of getting back together? Suppose it's a big difference in mindset depending on what you're thinking here.>I'd recommend giving them all a watch if you enjoyed the seriesbeen so long since I have so probably wouldn't hurt.>there's a fourth movie coming out in a few months.i know about this since my brother was talking about it back when he was trying back out of going to see csm withh me>for that to have happened.was one of the oddest things I've ever seen from a delivery and surprised it worked. Box was clearly re-taped as a beaten up sedan sped away from my house. Guess the contents weren't enough for him to throw away the job yet. Usually they'll just run if they're a temp worker and don't care holding it long term>>83618514perfectly welcome to chat here. A good portion of the thread doesn't really cut(either now or ever). It was the intended purpose originally, but sort of shifted from that even if it's a problem for a good number of people here>>83618950no amount of that is going to kill you painlessly anon. Honestly, taking pills like that is horrifically painful and most likely going to make you regret the decision fairly quickly. Organ failure, a chance you just fuck something up, and someone finds you and you end up in a worse place than when you started with permanent damage and in a state people are going to be monitoring you more.I imagine you don't want to be talked out of what you're thinking of, but if you're worried about pain should step back a bit. Wish you the best anon
>>83619245>>83619262>>83619305I was afraid of it being something like that. Truly the only thing stopping me is the fear of fucking it up and being worse off. Its not fair I wish I could just turn myself off in my sleep.
>>83618950I'd strongly advise against this. My ex attempted to OD twice while I knew her (and a few times before I knew her). She was unsuccessful every time, developed a permeant heart condition and has seizures now. When I called her in hospital there was so much regret in her voice. She just cried and said "I'm so sorry" over and over.Please don't do that to your body, anon.On a lighter note https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wxgHTI0N4FI>>83619245>got some treats and got backWhat kind of treats do you get? Sometimes I get a very overpriced grilled cheese from the Five Guys there.>greedy and don't want to give em my moneyIt's mostly that for me. I can usually get stuff online for less.>>83619305>I've been going to bed later and later, but waking up as early as everThese 4am bedtimes are doing me no good...>do you mean this in terms of wanting to talk to her or holding onto hope of getting back together?To be completely honest I do still wish we'd get back together, but I don't think talking would convince her unless she also wanted it. Either way I think we need to talk and establish boundaries and expectations of each other because that has to be much healthier than whatever we're doing now.>been so long since I have so probably wouldn't hurtMy memory is so bad that I'd forgotten most of it so the twists and reveals were fun.>Box was clearly re-taped as a beaten up sedan sped away from my house.Are you sure you didn't dream this?
4chan thinks this is spam grrrr>>83613652>hands are numbD;>>83613775>have any better options tbdesuhopefully it all pans out >>83613775>gushing onto the floor while trying to signwhaa? :0that'd sounds bad >Myth of Sisyphushow did you like it?>>83613788>video footage and it indeed was stolennooo poor gal :c>>83613874>Sorry about thatdw I don't mind cold>easy going as everglad hes okay :D>>83615467>really weird sauces i didn't like and my reaction was so baddon't feel bad I think they as long as you're getting all your healthy and get all your neutrinos then it's not important what food you eat someone people are just assholes about food, same with drinks I don't drink coffee at all and some people for some reason make it their mission to make me drink it or try to humiliate me if I don't budge>eating disorderit might be worth it to check it out but don't think it makes you immature or stupid >>83615540heya how are you today?>yuu chan's helmet and the cat from azumangayep :D>the things on tvit's a reference to this https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=J_DV9b0x7v4&list=RDJ_DV9b0x7v4&start_radio=1and the creature is Gondola>and the tall cat is just a tall catit's the longcat :3 >really love the map!thank u!>>83615810hello>couldn't bring myselfI think that's a good thing >cowardyou're not!
>>83615848Heyo it's very nice to see you again !!>i've been okaythat's good though hopefully it gets better for uI'm alright I failed uni but I don't really care, maybe I'll have ro get a job soon idknow I'm just chilling and working on a map, What kind of stuff has happened to you recently?>>83616550hey anon>messyhave they ruined some things permanently? hopefully not and you don't go to that bad place again >>83617133probably for the better at least it won't make you cry >>83619305heyo how r u today?>>83619375>wish I could just turn myself off in my sleep.sameI guess the closest thing to that is carbon monoxide poisoning in your sleep but those also often end in just getting brain damage becoming disabled >>83619526>What kind of treats do you get?some berry ice cream and later mcdonalds and a little juice drink>grilled cheese from the Five Guys there.sounds nice but we don't have those fastfood chains over here D:
>>83612552>Arizona ginseng green tea can.here the can though it's a bit low res and cartoonyhope you don't mind
>>83616281>Maybe an Evangelion thing.hm I'm not sure what sort of eva thing to add desuI'll think of something but do you have any ideas? >snowing back home and the dog ate some of it.silly guyhopefully he doesn't get sick
>>83619245sorry for latejust never had any like. really bad mental health issues, think my situation's mild for the overarching board topic.it's going good though! i have a couple job interviews here really soon.
>>83620062>sorry for late take your time ^^>bad mental health issuesthat's a good thing so don't be ashamed of it and don't worry you won't be insulted or kicked out for not being mentally ill enough lol>going good though! i have a couple job interviewswow :ohope they go wellare you excited about working in any of those places?
hey everyone, i got sick today so i rested for now, luckily the storm didn't affect here too bad but apparently further west and south it flooded and in france they have no power.
>>83619375i don't think you'd find a way to do things that there is no risk in regards to. I understand the feeling of being tired to the point of not wanting to live, but the fact you're afraid of the options suggests you should probably try to figure out how to make do best you can. Know that's not a great answer and not trying to lecture, but just say how it is.>>83619526>These 4am bedtimesas waking up then still is leaving me feeling quite tired and sluggish all day> I do still wish we'd get back togetherI figured as much. And yeah, ultimately it is both person's decision. If she's not open, not a lot you can do. I don't think it's the kind of thing people can or should be convinced of if they're not in for it.>establish boundaries and expectations this is I agree would be reasonable, especially since she is at least at times responding back to the point you can reasonably say there is something, in my opinion at least>Are you sure you didn't dream this?See weird stuff all the time here that makes you question is this real life. The inner city spills out every once in a while.>>83619577posting spam in your own thread, this really is evil edition> I don't mind coldthat makes one of us>hes okaymore than okay, he's become too spoiled>>83619609>how r u today?annoyed a bit with work, but I shall live.How are you?>>83620062It's never a contest with who has it worst, so no worries. No one minds whatever you want to post about.>couple job interviews here really soon.good luck! That alone justifies feeling stressed. I hate job searching more than even most people, and imagine most aren't fond of it
>>83620251hello o/really glad to hear you're okaywhat storm though? I actually haven't heard of any big ones approaching Do you have power?
>>83620212>are you excited about working in any of those places?yes yes. really excited to just get any sort of job lol, need money bad. there's some battery shop that im going to first, which id like most, the other place is some clothing store. either way win win though. pay seems solid, and they're both part time which is what i need most.
>>83620305>good luckappreciate it! it's just been so hard to get any sort of interview, so having two out of like... nowhere is crazy.
>>83620309hey cat!>really glad to hear you're okaythanks, we got spared the worst of it luckily, more or less fizzled out before it reached my region.>what storm though? goretti or something, hit the UK, netherlands, france and belgium I'm assuming. >Do you have power?yeah power didn't even go out here, in UK and france it did, but i'm assuming it's back for them.
>>83620251get well soon chev!> luckily the storm didn't affect here glad to hear. Some areas are just always prone to issues more than others. I'm kind of fortunate I live in one the few places in the US that never gets very severe weather. Very unfortunate to see still since some areas down south especially always have horrific flooding>>83620351Job searching has been rough for a lot of people. Even around holiday time, retail and warehouse positions seemed a lot less plentiful this year sadly.I'm employed now, but think I need to start looking soon since don't feel great about where I am now.
>>83615159>I cut my forearm open on some broken ceramic.ouch. how did that happen?>Wish I was working.the duality of man>I would kill for some older band shirts...what bands are you looking for?>After I thinksounds like they were still correcting course over the reaction they got from that whole thing, but as you said, a least they let you decide if you wanted to do it. if i remembere right, in spec ops: the line the game made you do shitty things and than complained that you did, even though there's no other way to progress. classy.>>83615540>:[ work?pretty much. coworker had her purse stolen (for the second time) and she was very upset about it, which is to be expected, but that meant i had to deal with the customers on my own for a while and we had to organize stuff like changing the locks for the store and talking to the police about it. today was way less stressful, though.>does it make you feel productive?maybe a bit, but i'd rather describe it as making me feel busy. when i'm there i don't really think about much else then the stuff i have to get done.>it was on thread 664 which is gone and i can't find it on desu archive eitheri see if i can find it somewhere. if not, it's also fine. i don't need to know every single detail. ^^>>83615848hey lavy! good to see you here! :D>i was not able to complete a captcha on my phone.i feel like they're a bit easier now, but still strange. hardest part for me was to figure out that i had to click "next" instead of "post"... >i've been okay. nothing too good, nothing too bad.glad you're doing somewhat well. what have you been up to?>i hope you all are a bit better.i'm not sure if i am, but maybe i will be. anyways, thanks a lot and same to you. :>
>>83616281>>83616281>If you were awful to me I'd have just leftgood way to go about it. no sense to stay around people who don't treat you right.>I don't think I'd be where I am if I thought I was good enough.not sure i'd like the person i could have been if i thought i was if that makes sense. suffering doesn't always build character, but it can help to be more sympathetic to the suffering of others.>>83616550wanna talk about what happened in that other thread?>>83617372>you gotta how fast they are.not sure if that's a game for me, then. ^^ i feel like i found myself on the slower side as of late.>i'd say so but that's all other thingno clue. i just like to complain and shake my fist at it all.>danganronpa fans are the worst of the worst, but it is a series that lends itself to insanityat least it wears it on it's sleeve. not like it's easy to predict which ips draw in a crowd like that. if i had to, stuff like sonic and mlp wouldn't have come to mind, but here we are.>I still hold out hopes for when bethesda gets their shit together and makes next elder scrolls.not exactly holding my breath for that one. i can't believe that they're still able to deliver anything comparable to skyrim in that regard. more than glad to choke on my words and have a good game instead, but it's hard to still give them the benefit of the doubt.>it was downhill after the og. I liked 2 fineyeah, the shift in art direction was a bit jarring, but gameplay and story were ok overall. inquisition was pure garbage and i didn't bother with anything after it.>nosferatu had to play the game completely different from every other clan. never thought about that before, but that's really something you just don't get anymore. maybe i should see if i can still get it somewhere.>just meant had to be that much better at the gameit was frustrating at times, but i managed eventually. more because of tenacity and stubornness than skill, though.
>>83617372so back to my main point I guessyeah. there's so many thing you miss out on if you only play a clan or two it's unreal, but the game also doesn't make you feel like you missed out at all. the worst game in that regard is the witcher 2. you miss half the game if you only do one playthrough.>>83617428>often times should speed stuff up looking at you OPMit's been a while that i watched that show. were there any pacing issues?>Felt too badi feel you, but it wasn't that bad, i think. not that i remember much about the game. it didn't leave that much of an impression on me than most people i feel, but i was never that much into star wars in the first place.>that happens no matter which side you pick though proving the game was just very lackluster past a pointah, i see. i always thought that i fuckef something up and got a shit ending or something like that. sadly something similar happened to mass effect as well.>>83619577>nooo poor gal :cespecially since it happened before already. :[>>83619672that poster made me laugh. well done. ^^>>83620251>i got sick today so i rested for nowget well, soon! i'm still waiting. feeling a bit strange that i haven't been really sick this winter. everyone around me was.
i have no electricity and the internet is very limited i might lose it at any second, hope i could finish and reply before that happens :Oit's hard to reply to everyone, i'll reply laterso how are you doing everyone?
>>83620305>this really is evil editionmuehehe >>:3>makes one of usdw summer will come soon>he's become too spoiledD: but he deserves it >annoyed a bit with workstupid work>How are you?today was a bit chaotic but it's okay>>83620337>excited to just get any sort of jobhave you had a job before?>some battery shopoh battery shopare you interested in that sort of stuff >pay seems solid,nice :>>>83621066waddup how are you?>since it happened before already. :[:< do you think they'll catch the guy?>poster made me laugh. well done. thanks ^o^
>>83620361>more or less fizzled out before it reached my region.phew>hit the UK, netherlands, franceowdo they get seasonal storms like this every year?>assuming it's back for them.hm yeah it probably is >>83621197Hellowhy no electricity D:hope you don't die of boredom over there>how are you doing everyone?I'm well I went to the mall and chilled there and later worked on the map a little bit
had another delusional breakdown last nightfrustrated with myself.
>>83621228>why no electricity i have no idea :<>hope you don't die of boredomthanks!>went to the mall and chilled theremhmmm my experience with a walk in a mall was nice, hope you had fun!>later worked on a map a little bitthe same one as yesterday??
i should buy a battery or anything that can save some power for the internet router
>>83620943>not sure if that's a game for meIf someone told me a year ago I'd be competently playing rhythm games, I'd look at them like they were crazy, but it happened anyway>i just like to complain and shake my fist at it all.they'll find a way to only hire their snobbish friends either way> but here we are.thank you for reminding me there are fandoms that disturb me even more lol>can't believe that they're still able to deliver anything comparable to skyrim in that regardHonestly, I think they did fine with Starfield if it wasn't for the fact the scale was too big and lended itself too the procedurally randomized shit and it was just a terrible idea for an IP. The gameplay and feel was typical Bethesda work, it was just too boring to actually care about>inquisition was pure garbageshame since the art, decisions, and tone felt more like Origins than 2 did.. But the game itself was so bad. Think I played to the mage/templar decision(which was cool and felt something again fitting withing Origins in terms of weight) but couldn't save a bad game>maybe i should see if i can still get it somewhere.should be on both steam and gog. Making me want to play more I think about it but I've got enough to play for now. Just nothing else like it
>>83621066>you miss half the game if you only do one playthrough.that's another game that I wanted to play, but just couldn't get around to. I think playing witcher 3 put me at a disadvantage even I usually get into older games easily>were there any pacing issues?They had season 3 just come out and literally nothing happened the first half and the second was fixated mostly on characters nobody cared about. 12 episode season that felt like nothing happened till the last episode. Apparently this is a big manga issue people say ruins it, but they did nothing to try to make it bearable even though there's more source material that they could of tried to speed up rather than adapt bad manga 1 to 1>, but it wasn't that bad, i thinknot at all, but I was very very young at the time lol > fuckef something up and got a shit ending or something like thatnah, game was just unfinished a time before they could just go back and patch the ending in later on.>>83621197oh no. I'd conserve your phone energy honestly. Doubt you'd need it and happy to have you hear, but power outages you have more important concerns than posting on 4chan>how are you doing everyone?finally the weekend so pretty good! Gonna be raiiny though which sucks>>83621204>summer will come soonI'm at a weird state of things kind of being okay, but not sure about a few months out, so i want it to warm, but also don't want time too pass too quickly>but he deserves ithonestly, I'm surprised. Bad dogs can be very annoying, so I never liked them much, but seeing him run excited to me when I come inside and get home has changed my opinion a bit>today was a bit chaotic oh how so?>>83621229you doing okay now anon?I take it something happened to push you to that. Can talk here if you want
>>83620449>Some areas are just always prone to issues more than others. yeah, i suppose i'm lucky that the area i live isn't that prone to flooding or other things, there was very very minor damage but that was about it. that being said even here it flooded a few years ago, so I don't think we can consider any place truly out of reach.>>83621066>everyone around me was.same here, guess i'm just the last one on the list. it's not that bad tho, i got kinda caught in the storm last night so it's no suprise, i expected worse.>>83621228>do they get seasonal storms like this every year?got no idea, it just happens sporadically i guess. we usually never get storms here.>hm yeah it probably is i can't imagine a power outage on that scale (apparently like 300k+ had no power) isn't a priority for them to fix, so
>>83621197take as much time with the replies as you need. make sure everything else is in order first and stay safe!>how are you doing everyone?i'm ok, but don't know how to spend the evening. might just go to bed soon. :/>>83621204>waddup how are you?not much, but i'm fine. just a little bored and don't know what to do tonight. any ideas? and what are you up to this weekend?>do you think they'll catch the guy?no. we have camera footage, but it's just some older guy, probably from the netherlands. we're so close to the border that it's easy to just hop over, steal something and head back. at least that would make the most sense to me.>>83621229hey anon! what happened?>>83621317some kind of power bank maybe?
hi guysjust got back from job interviewsgotta wait to hear back now. unemployed era over maybe
>>83621351>I'd look at them like they were crazy, but it happened anywayyou never know what you stumble into and what sticks. glad you found something that helps you vent a little.>they'll find a way to only hire their snobbish friends either waynepotism... finds a way.>thank you for reminding me there are fandoms that disturb me even more lolat least with stuff like danganronpa you expect it, but the older the ip and the younger people get into it, the weirder it can get. not that there's anything particularly wrong with it in my perspective, it's just not something i'm drawn to at all.>it was just a terrible idea for an IP.all said and done, this might be the biggest issue. when you say fallout or elder scrolls, at least that conjures an image in my head, but when it comes to starfield my mind is just empty. and there's nothing that compels me to change that. i was never that much into bethesda as a publisher, though. that might explain it.>The gameplay and feel was typical Bethesda work, it was just too boring to actually care aboutyeah. if you've seen one it's just more of the same. without interesting quests, stories and characters there's not much to care about.>But the game itself was so badit's been so long i can't even put a finger on why it was. just that it felt like a single player mmo. the world was just so big and empty.>the mage/templar decision(which was cool and felt something again fitting withing Origins in terms of weight)i can't say i remember that, either. what was it about again? whatever it was, templar all the way. i don't agree with the idea that people with tremendous powers like that should ever go unchecked what bothered me the most was that i never got to see the black city. all that talk about it and then... nothing. the game just ends.>I've got enough to play for now. Just nothing else like ittrue, true. i just got a bunch of games i should actually play. ^^'
>>83621401>I think playing witcher 3 put me at a disadvantage even I usually get into older games easilyit's still worth it, i'd say. you just need to know you have to do both sides to get the full picture. linking back to the "devs not understanding their audience"-point. i just couldn't get myself to side with the scoia'tel after my experiences with them in the first game, so i never did, completely missing out. i think the devs recognized that was a mistake and didn't do anything like that again.>They had season 3 just come outah. haven't watched that. not sure if i will, since i'm not subscribed to crunchyroll anymore.>there's more source material that they could of tried to speed up rather than adapt bad manga 1 to 1hm. odd they still went with the faithful adaptation if it's that bad. it's weird that there's always a caveat when you want to recommend a series these days. watch until epsiode/season xyz, skip this and that. don't bother after that point. can't things just be good for once?>but I was very very young at the time loli suppose i was in my too-cool-for-school-phase at that time. if i ever had anything like that at all. :p>before they could just go back and patch the ending in later on.things that are shit on release today might not be shit years after it came out. man. what a time to be alive.>>83621408>i'm just the last one on the list.can't escape it forever.>it's not that bad tho, i got kinda caught in the storm last night so it's no suprise, i expected worse.guess your immune system is working overtime now. just relax, get comfy and take it easy. are you watching anything?>>83621518nice. :> how did it go?
>>83621732>what sticksthis precisely. I thought I'd get annoyed moving up in difficult, but not at all. Actually got pretty decent, but man it does make my thumbs sore. Can only manage a few in a row on hardest difficulties>it's just not something i'm drawn to at all.suppose i wouldn't talk all about if not for the fact the pony people can be very in your face about it. But then again, I liked Umamusume, which makes me uncomfortably closer to them than I was previously in a way D:>when it comes to starfield my mind is just empty.precisely. TES lore is so built out that it's impossible not have an interesting world to explore with their typical formula. Same with Fallout and the combination of real world landmark, zany 50s meets nuclear wasteland aesthetic. They want really hard on making a realistic sci fi universe, and I don't think that works well for them. Just too boring >without interesting questswhich I saw they still tried to produce the way they did in the past. Why I saw I have hope they're not that bad as a developer, since I think if Starfield wasn't so boring the work they did would bad been fine, just working with the subset of what they could do was lackluster>felt like a single player mmo. that's it to a T. Less dialogue with side characters, less cities, more empty barren maps.
>>83621732>>83621857> what was it about again?basically decide the fate of either one. Templars get completely wrecked if you don't happen or mage rebellion ends up getting turned into demons, impacts enemies encountered after. I just saw because Dragon Age 2 had zero decisions quite like this.>don't agree with the idea that people with tremendous powers like that should ever go uncheckedas they show repeatedly that mages turn out to be assholes who screw up time after time constantly in the series.> never got to see the black city. would have at least justify those damn fade sections. Apparently 2 was the only game that didn't have the fade, so actually bumps it up more than I gave it credit for> scoia'tel after my experiences with them in the first gamesee that's the thing with starting at 3 and having no background before, had no idea who the hell any of those people were.>not sure if i willnothing of value lost. Saitama wasn't even in most of the damn episodes. It's one thing to not have him win in one episode, dude didn't even show up> too-cool-for-school-phaseReminds me, I do remember now there was one game I wasn't afraid to be evil in!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FDUIkc4ADI>what a time to be alive.In some ways it's good, but man did it open pandora's box for another issue>>83621408true. Best to at least know how to handle things no matter where you live. Unless you live in a house below sea level near water, biggest danger from flooding can be averted by not going out. Big chunks of deaths are people trying to drive through water>>83621518Hope they don't keep you waiting long
electricity is back woohoo>>83617512>out cold minute head touches the pillowhmm are you feeling better now?>Sounds questionablehmmm idk about that, i don't know how accepted it is outside my region>so you take into consideration different courses are worth more than others in the calc.that's really interestingi also heard that the curriculum in the US is very good, heard that students just need to be self-disciplined or something, and like it's not very difficult for students to get the grades they want if they know how to studywhat do you think about that?my curriculum is a complete disaster at some points, what are the bad points in the curriculum of the states?>>83618514>normal peoplei agree, it's not always easy to find a place like this>>83621518>unemployed era over maybethat's nice to hear. what job is it btw? if you don't mind talking about it>>83618950>>83619375i don't know what you're going through, anon, but i know that suicide isn't the solution for it. you can talk here if you want, i hope you get better very soon.>>83620791>but that meant i had to deal with the customers on my ownso is it not prohibited for her to stop working for a while? can she use her missing purse as an excuse?>today was way less stressful, thoughvery nice!>but i'd rather describe it as making me feel busy.i think that's the point sometimes too, it's pretty much important. having nothing to do for a while is not good>i don't need to know every single detail.yep :D>>83621401>but power outages you have more important concerns than posting on 4chanlmao that's true but i had the same feelings i get sometimes, felt like i wanna talk>finally the weekend yooo finally>Gonna be raiiny though which sucksisn't that nice though? honestly i prefer winter, maybe that's why i think it's nice>>83621453>make sure everything else is in order first and stay safe!thanks yuanon!!>>83621453>some kind of power bank maybe?yeah kinda
>>83621229hey anondon't be mad at yourself sometimes you can't help it and just let it all out>>83621256>have no idea :<oh no hope it gets fixed soonis your whole neighborhood like that?>experience with a walk in a mall was nice, you went to the mall today too??>same one as yesterday??yep :Dbtw idk if I asked you but would you like me to add something to the map?like a reference to something you like?>>83621317I wonder if there is something like that >>83621401>want it to warm, but also don't want time too pass too quicklyI know how it issimilar with me and the uni situation because for now no one knows I failed yet>come inside and get home has changed my opinion a bitcutethough I agree that dogs neet training and be well behaved >how so?it's a bit embarassing and maybe I'll tell you tomorrow but besides that it was also my brothers birthday and also I just took a nap accidentally :0>>83621408>just happens sporadicallyhm I guess it could become a thing in the future >isn't a priority for them to fix, soyep and possibly the power didn't just cut out but was deliberately turned off to protect critical infrastructure? idk>>83621453>tonight. any ideas?a suprise napwhich just happened to me >and what are you up to this weekend?nothing really but I have an idea, though, do you have any weekend plans?> to just hop over, steal something and head backow :c maybe you should have some lockers to keep you stuff protected >>83621518>back from job interviewgood job \o/and best of luck with the jobs was it stressful?>>83622566>electricity is backwoooo :D
itt giant wall of one anon talking to themselves and one person who actually cuts themselves
>>83621857went great actually! everyone seemed nice, seemed to like me>>83622566was this battery shop and a clothing store (ross), battery place seemed cool but they said my availability was tight. hope we work something out cause it seems super interesting.
>>83622623>hey anon>don't be mad at yourself>sometimes you can't help it and just let it all outthanks. trying my best to keep a lid on all the time. if i really lost it in front of others they think less of me forever
>>83622386>I thought I'd get annoyed moving up in difficult, but not at all.signs of a well designed game when the difficulty and your skill increase at a similar pace.>but man it does make my thumbs sore. Can only manage a few in a row on hardest difficultiesthe price of greatness. happened to me as well with some games, but i can't remember which ones. probably souls, but that was mostly because i played these games for days>i wouldn't talk all about if not for the fact the pony people can be very in your face about itwell, they're passionate and want to share what they like. can be a bit much at times, though.>which makes me uncomfortably closer to them than I was previously in a way D:one of us! one of us!>They want really hard on making a realistic sci fi universe, and I don't think that works well for them. Just too boringyou'd think something inspired by series like babylon 5, star trek or battlestar galactica and the like would have been a better fit for them. mass effect used the formula quite well and it worked like a charm.>I have hope they're not that bad as a developeri didn't think that bioware could crash and burn the way it did either. not what i'm hoping for to happen to bethesda weeeell, maybe a little bit..., but they need to deliver something really good for a change.>if Starfield wasn't so boring the work they did would bad been fineshows how bad being boring really is.
>>83622566>electricity is back woohooglad it wasn't a long wait> are you feeling better now?yeah, but long day with work. More and more problems that just drag on lately. Not bad to be useful though> i don't know how accepted it is outside my regionI think it's dubiously accepted many places. US has had a lot of back and forth on it, but a lot of places it's legal. Has the ability to destroy lives sadly, I just like the games, so treating it like I would an arcade where you can potentially walk away with money is fine attitude to have for me.> like it's not very difficult for students the experience of most people. Even being very good at studying isn't that critical, it's much less challenging than many other countries.>what are the bad points in the curriculum of the states?I have a hard time, since I didn't go to public school like most kids growing up, but Catholic schools. So my education was much different than what most students went through.I'd probably say American students tend to do worse on math and science than a lot of foreign students. It balances out a bit since I think writing and critical thinking skills can be emphasized more than some places. I say can since I know my school had it and it's a hallmark of western education, but modern education system isn't too good with it, but suppose no one really wants everyone thinking critically>isn't that nice though?ehh just don't feel like driving in it. Fine when I'm at home, not when trying to go out>>83622623>similar with meguess we should both just try to make the most of things. Nothing is ever perfect, but doesn't mean can be relatively happy with how things are> neet training and be well behavedsaw someone say best the other day, i'd rather have a bad cat than a bad dog, but I think a very good dog who's well trained is something else. And he's pretty good(still love cats too though)
>>83622623>maybe I'll tell you tomorrowno need if aren't up to it. Might as well just let it be forgotten this point> I just took a nap accidentallyhappens to the best of us. Occasionally in public places
>>83622386>Less dialogue with side characters, less cities, more empty barren maps.yeah, i have that memory of running around some plains to explore and there was wasn't anything to do or find. that feeling just stuck with me. and that they cut the sex scene with the dwarf scout they had as a romance option because they weren't able to not make the scene with her look like you're sleeping with a minor, so they just gave up and cut it. cowards.>>83622415>Templars get completely wrecked if you don't happen or mage rebellion ends up getting turned into demonsstill doesn't ring a bell, but i'm sure it happened.>they show repeatedly that mages turn out to be assholes who screw up time after time constantly in the seriesyeah, they might be doomsday-level threats that could easily be manipulated and possesed by demons, but the templars are meanies sometimes...>those damn fade sections.i don't mind the concept, but the execution was handled... poorly.>had no idea who the hell any of those people were.i'm not even sure that just playing the games would get you there. sure, you'd know a lot more about his group of friends and certain other player, but for the bigger picture you'd need to read the books, too. also a universe where the only good wizard is one with a blade at their throat at all times. my main reason for siding with nilfgaard, actually. emhyr is the only one who gets that. bless him. i hate wizards...>It's one thing to not have him win in one episode, dude didn't even show upcan't punch your way out of bad pacing, so why bother.>there was one game I wasn't afraid to be evil in!you sick bastard! D:>man did it open pandora's box for another issueeternal early access games come to mind.
>>83622566>electricity is back woohoolet's gooo! :D>so is it not prohibited for her to stop working for a while? can she use her missing purse as an excuse?well, she had to call our boss so he could check the security footage and after he did she needed to call her bank to cancel her bank card, call her husband that they need to change locks on their apartment again. stuff like that. she just needed a bit of time to process it, before she could deal with customers again. i mean, what's our boss gonna do? she's doing a lot of his work for him and a wrong word in that situation and she'll just quit on the spot.>having nothing to do for a while is not goodyeah. i was a neet for a long time and this is better, but only by a small amount.>>83622623>a suprise nap which just happened to mescandalous! :0 gonna steal that idea! :D>I have an idea, though, do you have any weekend plans?not really. having to work cancelled that. :/ i'll see how i feel when i come home later. what's your plan?>maybe you should have some lockers to keep you stuff protectedwe have a safe, so i guess she'll just keep everything in there from now on. sucks it has to be this way, but you just can't trust people. especially the elderly.>>83622645that does sound promising. hope you get good news soon. gonna head to bed. good night!
another day passes.. i have a lot of games i wanna play when time comes (idk when exactly)>>83622623>is your whole neighborhood like that?i think it was>you went to the mall today too?no but i did like 10 months ago xD>yepany new pictures??>like a reference to something you like?hmmmmm.. i don't really know D:maybe i'm a bit slow right nowgotta sleep i guess>>83623012>Not bad to be useful thoughuseful? how so?>so treating it like I would an arcade where you can potentially walk away with money is fine attitude to have for mei don't know what type of games are thereare there any games that has gambling and stuff? cuz i heard that gambling is legal in some statesanyways i get your point>it's much less challenging than many other countries.that's cool to be honest>So my education was much differentohwhat's taught in catholic schools?>but suppose no one really wants everyone thinking criticallythat's a point too lmaoi don't know how are things there but i noticed here that you can easily find good students that aren't really something interesting when it's not about studying or normal interests like footballwhat i'm trying to say is, and maybe i'm wrong cuz i didn't have enough social connection with them anyways, that not all of them think "critically" (that's not necessarily a problem i'm just talking about critical thinking) and that's not their fault, it's just that the curriculum isn't the best for building a critical mind. and obviously there are critical students too, i'm just talking about some of them. students here are like trying to survive, not having a good grade can directly affect your life, and to get a good grade you should torture yourself, the smallest mistakes can decide how much you will pay for university, can decide where will the university be, and at the end it can hurt you mentally so easily.>ehh just don't feel like driving in itoh is it dangerous? that would make sense
>>83623193>and a wrong word in that situation and she'll just quit on the spot.well that's a thingi guess that place really has problems, doesn't seem the best environment.. is it good?>i was a neet for a long time and this is betterouch i can tell that it's really better>but only by a small amount.a small amount is still an amount :D
>>83619609I don't really trust people anymore and I don't really think I will engage in relationships again, it got to the extent i was sexually assaulted.>>83620943Fell for someone that knew just what they were doing, just for when pressed i got discarded, a lot of further mess
Nighty night bump
I got very little sleep again. This sucks. Maybe I should buy some earplugs...Sorry if I miss anyone, I'm a bit frazzled.>>83619609>we don't have those fastfood chains over here D:Probably a good thing. It's very overpriced, even if it is nice. >>83619852>do you have any ideas? Maybe a little Penpen plush. >>83620305>If she's not open, not a lot you can do>you can reasonably say there is somethingYeah. I've had really mixed messages from her so it's been very hard to figure out how she feels. I think she still loves me but feels like she can't or shouldn't for some reason. Maybe I'm just delusional. It would be so much easier if she said awful things about me...>See weird stuff all the time here that makes you question is this real life.Any particularly amusing stories? >>83620943>not sure i'd like the person i could have been if i thought i was if that makes senseI think I get what you mean, and I'd probably say the same if I thought about it.>it can help to be more sympathetic to the suffering of othersA rare skill to have, I find.>>83623790>Fell for someone that knew just what they were doing, just for when pressed i got discarded, a lot of further messVery sorry to hear that happened. You're in good company, at least.
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>>83615540>what's with your arm? is it cuz of cuts?Because of a cut yes, but on accident. I got cut on broken ceramics.>>83617133>Hopefully it heals up fast.I should have the stiches out by Tuesday.>Probably, but I don't have it in me.Might have to be with the type of stuff you consume. I used to be the same, but then I started consuming more media that(at risk of sounding like some influencer) boosted my attitude. I traded the eva for samuari champloo and the depressive music for rap and hardcore.>Nice gun.12 bullets. *meows*>>83617428>I still feel weird about the airport massacre thing back in mw2 despite being a game where whole point is killing peopleGoes to show how effective it was. Having the player do something that evil and not have it come off as tryhard edgy is pretty impressive as well.>how are you liking this?I got sidetracked and read bl instead.>Don't think I ever had an injury so bad thankfullyI dunno, I think it'd be a memorable experience to break a bone at least. Wouldn't mind it until I'm too old to recover fully.>>83619577>that'd sounds badDubs. It didn't hurt it was more just funny and a little annoying getting blood everywhere.>How'd you like it?Got sidetracked and didn't read it.>>83619672>here the canAweosme!!! Also I like the cartoony look, having a photorealistic can in that room would just be weird. Picrel is the can in my room, saving it to drink for when I finally get a job. Bitches come and go but you know I stay.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrQWhFysPKY>>83620305One of her best shots, I like all of them with her malice emphasized.>>83620251Hallo che>>83620791>ouch. how did that happen?My forearm grazed it when I went to sit down. The fixture was broken for months, so it's kinda my own fault...>what bands are you looking for?Amebix, gerogerigegege, and the jimi hendrix experience namely. I was gonna get a jimi hendrix shirt years ago but my mom blocked me on grounds of it being idolatry.
>>83625327I forgot the name this is me obviously
hello morning bump
>>83623002>that was mostly because i played these games for dayswhere as I can achieve the same result in hours with these> they're passionate and want to share what they likecan't blame anyone for that, just wish some were a bit better at reading when people are quite comfortable with something >one of us!slippery slope. >would have been a better fit for themI respect their decision for what they wanted to do, since they really wanted story about humans in space and stuck to their guns with that, I just think it doesn't work for very exciting world building, which their formula really requires to be successful since finding new stuff is half the enjoyment of a bestheda game> bioware could crash and burnI think they had a progressive slope though. Dragon Age 2 was the beginning, Mass Effect 3 had a lot of bad parts to it, Inquisition had redeeming aspects but was not good, and everything after was utter shit. I still see Bethesda as making decent games, just bad decisions that I think being in the right IP itself could hopefully carry. I'll say, I'm one of the people who didn't like Skyrim as much despite enjoying it quite a bit. We shall see when Todd gets it together and gets it out finally>shows how bad being boring really isthere was a very involved side quest line involving uniting bickering farmsteads on distant cluster of planets to fight off space pirates together that captures this well. It was a varied and decent idea for random side content, but still came off as so boring since everything is fighting space pirates. I want the Oblivion quest with the ogre stealing muffins or town that got turned invisible by an angry mage>>83623182>they cut the sex scene with the dwarf scoudon't remember this but honestly I can't remember many characters from the game at all>they just gave up and cut it.want to avoid another Fox news level controversary like OG Mass Effect had
>>83623182>the templars are meanies sometimesfavorite part was dragon age 2 they try to depict templars being harsh, then mages do exactly what the templars were accusing them of whole time even if you take their side>bigger picture you'd need to read the booksfigure as much. Lots of lore that I could tell their were references didn't quite get even by the end>main reason for siding with nilfgaardwas the least bad of the options if I remember correctly, which is how you decide everything in the Witcher. >i hate wizardshonestly, kind of feel this way in any type of fantasy universe. Never gravitate towards magic users>>83623559>have a lot of gameswhat comes to mind?>useful? how so?i mean doing work with perceived importance. Less likely to be find your way out if people in charge think you're doing work it would be hard to find others to do>are there any games that has gambling and stuff?yeah I mean all gambling. Card games, roulette, slots, etc. I like card games like poker and such. Gambling is legal in quite a few states actually. It used to be more rare, but attitudes have changed drastically, especially since it makes a lot of money for states that have it>what's taught in catholic schools?I'm pretty sure it's similarish, only we had religion classes as well, so maybe less elective choices. I just don't know how different it was since it was what was normal for me and I know for sure there are differences, just not sure how many>curriculum isn't the best for building a criticalpart of the problem is education is emphasized on developing skills to be a "good member of society" which translates to good worker. We don't like deep philosophy or logic, since those things can make you a bad worker who asks questions that shouldn't be asked or sees through propaganda. Usually that kind of thinking should be for the elites, which is why more expensive schools will focus more on classical education which can develop those thought patterns
>>83623559>, not having a good grade can directly affect your lifeexactly. No time to think when you need to get a job. No time to worry about other things when you have debts to pay, and so on and so on.>oh is it dangerous?I try not to drive long distance in bad weather on highways since it's fast and people are assholes on the road>>83624197>Maybe I should buy some earplugsi cannot sleep without them even without noise. Think I've grown too accustom to the sensation of having them>it's been very hard to figure out how she feels.I might have said it before, but this is the problem with people who have what she has. I don't think she's bad for acting like this, I think it just might be confusing for her as well how she means to act. It is the case with a lot of mental health issues. I think best you can do is try to understand that and be patient to degree you can, expecting as little as possible in the meantime for your own sanity>Any particularly amusing storiesI'd say a lot borders on disturbing more than amusing since it's rough here. I saw a guy ride a hover board out of the housing projects into traffic like it was a perfectly acceptable thing to do the other day lol Sure that's highly illegal, but no cop wants to deal with that
>>83625327>Goes to show how effective it was.if i remember correctly, the interesting thing is I don't even think you need to fire a single shot that entire section. So goes even deeper than that with setting up to do something evil, but not even needing to, it's on you with nothing said either wayHave to play that section after coming from playing matchmaking. Listen to screeching 10 year olds talk about people's moms is enough to enrage you to hate humanity> read bl instead.hm what's that?>memorable experience to break a bone at least. Wouldn't mind it until I'm too old to recover fullynever had that either and I heard people say the same. Honestly, think you're right, but I'm at the point it would be quite a pain to experience>I like all of them with her malice emphasized.Agreed. Manga did this so much better compared to the anime direction too. Her laughing out of control is one my other favorites that's just so creepy and eerie considering the very controlled aloof smiles shown all the time prior. >>83625966morning cat, have a good day. Gonna go work out now
She made another blogpost and I think that'll calm my brain down for a while. My best understanding is that she still cares, but needs to be alone. So I'll try my best not to bother her.I feel like I can finally work again. My mind is no longer burdened. Healthy or not I'm just glad to have some relief.>>83625327>I should have the stiches out by Tuesday.That's not too bad. I guess just hang in there until then.>Might have to be with the type of stuff you consumeProbably. But to be honest I mostly just watch old Simpsons and Seinfeld episodes, so maybe I've just turned myself into George Costanza.>>83626277>Think I've grown too accustom to the sensation of having themMakes sense if it's part of your routine.>I think best you can do is try to understand that and be patient to degree you can, expecting as little as possible in the meantime for your own sanityThat's more or less how I've tried to approach it, even if my brain is hellbent on not doing that... I figure she's going through hell as well so I can't really be that angry with her.>I saw a guy ride a hover board out of the housing projects into traffic like it was a perfectly acceptable thing to doKind of based desu.
morning folks how are we doing
>>83626461> that'll calm my brain down for a while. that's good. Glad to hear. Hope you actually do get some relief that last and isn't just a thing for a day or so>sense if it's part of your routine.and I have a very hard time adjusting things even slightly>she's going through hell as well so I can't really be that angry with her.part of caring about someone for real is understanding their specific situation, even when it's not in your interest to do so. A lot of people don't like making sacrifices or compromising, but that's really what relationships should be like to an extent>Kind of basedI'm not one for breaking laws casually, but it's funny when they do it so flagrantly. I see zero benefit to even doing this since it's not exactly the most effective means of transportation lol>>83626466hey argh (best name in thread)>how are we doingI'm working out (doing pull day) as my day starts off. Have to see what I do after. Was gonna go to a casino later on, but it's far and I don't feel like driving in bad weather, so may opt for doing something closerhow are you?
>>83626308heyomy water flosser broke today so I'll have to go return it and hopefully it's under warranty Have a good workout, and no accidents!>>83626461hello >feel like I can finally work agathat's great !>>83626466HeyaI'm okay though my water flosser broke so I'll have to go return it and get a new one
>>83626466I'm alright. I might try to have an early night today.What about you?>>83626527>Hope you actually do get some relief that last and isn't just a thing for a day or soMe too. Unless she posts something worrying I think I'll be alright for a while.>A lot of people don't like making sacrifices or compromising, but that's really what relationships should be like to an extentI don't think either of us asked for much from each other, and we did a lot to make each other feel loved, but I did worry about her a lot and I wonder if I was too needy or overbearing for her when she was feeling especially down.At her lowest I'd usually just ask for a short message if I'd not heard from her all day, but I don't think that was unreasonable.>I see zero benefit to even doing this since it's not exactly the most effective means of transportation lolThe benefit is that you noticed and remembered this moment.>>83626688>that's great !Can, not will - apparently.Tomorrow will be my day for sure!
>>83626308>hm what's that?Boys love.>Listen to screeching 10 year olds talk about people's moms is enough to enrage you to hate humanityMissed out in on this tbdesu. By the time I got online playing games with voice chat, people actually talking during games got really rare.>never had that either and I heard people say the sameI had a dream earlier which was this desire taken to the extreme. The short of it was me and 7 other people kept getting decapitated (and re-capitated) dozens of times by some magic axe murderer. Once the ordeal is over and we stop getting our heads cut off, I'm chastised for finding it "fun" (for the novelty of never having my head cut off before).>I'm at the point it would be quite a pain to experienceFair enough.>Gonna go work out nowWhatchu hitting?>>83626461>I'll try my best not to bother herStop putting yourself below... is it bothering when she emails you? If not why would it be true in the other direction?>mostly just watch old Simpsons and Seinfeld episodesI've never seen a full episode of either.>>83626466Ass I got 5ish hours of sleep tops and my stiches itch wbu
>>83626527>>83626898im pretty good. gonna play rimworld all day.>>83626688>water flosserwuh oh. hope you can get a new one soon!
>>83626936>If not why would it be true in the other direction?The difference is I want her to email me, but I've just learned that she doesn't want to talk to anyone right now. Even if she was a stranger I'd try to respect that.>I've never seen a full episode of eitherYou're making me feel very old...
and I thought today would be chill :x>>83626898>not will - apparently.noo D;but you're still feeling better?>>83626936heya what's up?>>83626942>hope you can get a new one soondw I went to the store and got the sucker replaced
>>83627441>The difference is I want her to email me, but I've just learned that she doesn't want to talk to anyone right now.I still don't really understand desu, but if you're alright with that arrangement I guess it's fine.>You're making me feel very old...I'm the youngest in the general by my estimate so it's more on me. I only watched cable in elementary, middle school on it was all streamed anime/movies and YouTube.>>83627607>heya what's up?Sup cat, nothing much. I had a big breakfast of 2 eggs and maple syrup baked beans (look it up). Also took off all my bandages to air out the wound. >and I thought today would be chill :xWhathappen?
>>83627782>had a big breakfast of 2 eggs and maple syrup baked beanswow it does sound bigare you going to get a big dinner too?>air out the wound.how's it looking? how big is it btw?>Whathappen?my water flosser broke so I had to go return it and also also my hat ripped so I had to sew it, not that many things to deal with but they took a while
>>83627936>are you going to get a big dinner too?Probably not, theres no point to that many calories if I'm not working out actively.>how's it looking?Sealed up 85% of the way. There's a little red exposed but the skin is covering the rest of the wound.>how big is it btw?Sized about the head of my thumb. Like the top of the thumb down to the first crease.>also my hat ripped so I had to sew it, not that many things to deal withSewings pretty useful, didn't know you could do that. On hats, I've got this really cool one thats been around the globe. It came from Japan, was brought from there to Norway by my brothers friend, and then to me in Canada. One of a kind too, reverse searches bring up nothing even though it's all written in English. Would be wearing it all the time, but I need to change my hair style to look good with hats.
Ate too much. Once again I learn that lifting and rhythm games aren't meant to go hand in hand. I'm up to 4 Miku's now.>>83626688>my water flossercould never stand to use one of these. Know it's easier than flossing, but i kinda dislike the sensation>it's under warrantysaw later on you got it replaced. glad you did. Always a pain. > and no accidents!no accidents, but man I'm sore>>83626898>Unless she posts something worrying I think I'll be alright for a while.it's okay to check if she does, but do try to remember it's a recurring thing so don't lose sleep if she swings back again> if I was too needy or overbearing for her when she was feeling especially down.hard thing to determine that comes to individual. Some people want exactly that, while others feel suffocated.> I don't think that was unreasonable.i don't think is, not if you're in a relationship, but always exceptions how people are doing I think. > remembered this moment.fair. Though I do question when people are doing something to stand out vs are actually nuts. A fair bit of that too which is why I'd hate to be the cop having to stop someone like that
>>83626936>Missed out in on thisit was before community standards were a thing that could get you banned from games, so you'd hear the most vulgar, racist, and inappropriate things you've ever heard from someone who hadn't hit puberty yet playing search and destroy in mw2. Not saying I liked it, but it was definitely an experience>novelty of never having my head cut off beforeinteresting. There are quite a few people who irl would say better to experience than not to the literal extreme. Sure if it was possible to survive such things irl many do it. Hell, I suppose there's plenty of people who do actually want to experience things still even knowing they won't survive, so case in point>Whatchu hitting?was my pull day which always leaves my arms feeling like jello and locking up afterwards. Keeping my house so cold sucks since i feel like it limits my performance since muscles aren't as relaxed>>83626942I used to play a ton of rimworld years ago. Hated how long it took to load with mods but had to have them. Have fun>>83627441it's okay, i'm still even older
>>83628046>Probably notwhat are you going to eat for dinner then?also I should try baked beans some day, I feel like I'd like them>>83628046>Sealed up 85% of the waythat's good at least it'll leave a smaller mark>Sealed up 85% of the way.I was worried it was way bigger and more noticable >didn't know you could do thatit's actually easy what hard is making it look nice >got this really cool onewhat does it look like?>change my hair style to look good with hatsyou're planning to do that any time soon?what sorta hairstyle
>>83623567>i guess that place really has problems, doesn't seem the best environment.. is it good?not really. it's work, but not really worth all the shit we get. it's what you get for working a minimum wage job.>it's really betterpros and cons. the more money you have, the less time you got. at least until you hit a certain threshold.>a small amount is still an amount :Dwe take what we can get. ^^>>83623790sorry you had to make that experience. fair that you don't care for relationships anymore. sadly that's something that can happen to you everywhere and with everyone. :/>>83624197>Maybe I should buy some earplugs...good idea.>I think I get what you meanjust would have been nice to learn those lesson without completely falling apart. ^^'>A rare skill to have, I find.even amongst those that get mistreated. it's just easier to kick down to feel better about yourself.>>83625327>it's kinda my own fault...sometimes you just can't be arsed for whatever reason and that isn't necessarily your fault. sucks it happened, though.>Amebix, gerogerigegege, and the jimi hendrix experience namelyi'll look them up to confirm those are actual bandnames later. >my mom blocked me on grounds of it being idolatry.well, yeah. that's kind of the point. i just wished people wound mind their own business in that regard. no reason to push your arbitrary rules on others.>>83625333>is me obviously:0
>>83628311testing something eoe
>>83626128>I can achieve the same result in hours with thesei can learn a thing or two from your efficiency.>just wish some were a bit better at reading when people are quite comfortable with somethingi have a friend like that. he just doesn't have a filter for what's appropriate to bring up in certain social situations sometimes and it can get really frustrating.>slippery slopeyeah. i went down one myself. can be a fun ride.>they really wanted story about humans in space and stuck to their gunsthat's fine, but hard sci-fi doesn't really lend itself to situations that make for riveting gameplay. at least in a bethesda-style rpg. and yeah. they'd have to do a whole lot of work to get me interested to play in a world like that. they didn't achieve that, but to be fair, no dev really has warmed me up to the idea. closest i ever got was trying out eve online, but i didn't get that game at all.>everything after was utter shitman, anthem was an absolute riot. had a good laugh at that game. the devs only found out what game they were making when they saw the trailer for it at the game awards or whatever show they presented it at with everybody else. how do you end up like that?also:https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=0xUAZ77VcC0&pp=ygUZZHJhZ29uIGFnZSB2ZWlsZ3VhcmQgZWZhcA%3D%3D>just bad decisions that I think being in the right IP itself could hopefully carry.hm. i get what you mean, but i've seen so many devs and publishers go down that road already. guess i'm just too jaded in that regard. the only thing worse than to crash an burn would be that the ips get hollowed out in the pursuit of profit until there's nothing left but a shambling husk. if it's dead and buried at least you don't have to look at it anymore.>I'm one of the people who didn't like Skyrimthe longer you play it, the more you realize how little impact on the world anything you do really has. even when you finish the main quest everyone just goes: oh yeah. that happened...
>>83626128>everything is fighting space pirates.i see what you mean. you can only fight absolute nobodies for so long until you start asking questions. maybe you'd need some sort of cold war situation between different factions going on to have your actions mean something in the grand scheme of things.>I want the Oblivion quest with the ogre stealing muffins or town that got turned invisible by an angry magestop making demands and enjoy fightinh your space pirates. >:[>don't remember this but honestly I can't remember many characters from the game at allshe was just a side character they made romanceable for whatever reason, but she really struck a chord with me. easily the best part of the game, so i wondered why it just faded to black and resumed the game instead of having a scene and i looked it up and was unimpressed by their reasoning.>want to avoid another Fox news level controversary like OG Mass Effect hadwhat happened there? i only remember the emergency patch that added a gay love interest for male shepard. suddenly the guy walks up to you, goes on this whole spiel about feeling like there's something between you and him and all while he's talking i'm just thinking: "who the hell are you?" turns out he's the guy flying the shuttle.>>83626191>then mages do exactly what the templars were accusing them of whole time even if you take their sidehttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-k3TbZ3_q-Y&pp=ygUZYnV0IGkgZGlkIGJsb29keSB0ZWxsIHlvdQ%3D%3D>Lots of lore that I could tell their were references didn't quite get even by the endi don't think even i did and i played all of the games and read all of the books. way too much time in between.
>>83626191>was the least bad of the options if I remember correctly, which is how you decide everything in the Witcher.pretty much, but i'd argue it's the best ending. if you help emhyr against his enemies he doesn't even feel the need to marry ciri, cause there's noone left to dispute his rule and all he wanted from that marriage was to legitimize himself, so she just becomes heir to the throne, while geralt can just go and do witcher things, which is all i ever wanted from the witcher games, but nooo...>kind of feel this way in any type of fantasy universe. Never gravitate towards magic usersme neither. i'm a simple guy. give me a sword and a dodgeroll and i'm as happy as can be.
>>83626936>Boys lovewhat did you read? always looking for suggestions.>>83628645was it successful?
>>83628149>I'm up to 4 Miku's now\o/>kinda dislike the sensationthat's okay I actually try to use both this and normal flossing >glad you did. Always a pain.yep but at least it went smoothly >but man I'm soreyure working too hard!>>83628311yo yo yohow's was your day today?
>>83626191>in charge think you're doing work it would be hard to find others to doaight i see>especially since it makes a lot of money for states that have itdoesn't that sound dangerous tho?>for the eliteswhich is disgusting don't you think? but what can i say? how can one find a country that respects a mind>and people are assholes on the roadyeah indeed dangerous. take care mate>>83628311>what you get for working a minimum wage job.oh i see how it is>at least until you hit a certain threshold.hmm where do you think you are right now?>we take what we can get.yep!
>>83629237Hellooo how are you today??
>>83629128hi catbro! (^-^)>how's was your day today?ait went alright. work kept me busy and had to stay a bit longer to get everything done. didn't want to leave everything for my coworker like my boss does. :p how are you?>>83629237hey rem! what's up?>where do you think you are right now?i don't know. not even on the board? i'll work til the day i die.
>>83628662>learn a thing or two from your efficiency.hands are sore from games, arms are sore from weight lifting, can't do anything right about now>it can get really frustrating.agreed, but i try to be polite about it all the same since people like that already get enough shit from people. Downside is opening up to more unwanted information of course> that make for riveting gameplay. at least in a bethesda-style rpg.yeah, i think full on shooter and ship fighting could be a better fit for that. Bethesda has had serviceable at best writing usually as well>eve onlinenot the kind of game I'd really be interested in either despite liking ship parts of starfield, don't want space ships to be the whole game>anthem missed this one. I was already done with bioware after andromeda.>also:dragon age suicide squad edition didn't even look good in the teaser trailers>guess i'm just too jaded in that regard.I want to believe as long as Todd is still there, it will be fine. But Bethesda also wasn't owned by Microsoft last time they released a ES game.. so who can guess>how little impact on the world anything you do really has.this is, to be fair, every single bethesda game, so kind of par for the course. For me, they put too much emphasis on the randomly generated quests, removing classes and attributes was a huge step down as far as it being RPG goes (even though elder scrolls you always become OP by the end anyway if you want), and many cities being copy paste compared to oblivion
>>83629335>>83629335>work kept me busy and had to stay a bit longer to get everything doneI think next time you should not agree to work more >:c but it's up to u after all>like my boss does. :p>>:l>how are you?today was a bit busy, my water flosser broke so I had to go return it and also also my hat ripped so I had to sew it up
>>83628671> between different factions see they sort of had this a bit, but all cliche, not interesting enough, or developed well enough for it to be compelling. >enjoy fightinh your space piratescould have at least made them wear different colors> side character they made romanceable for whatever reason,come to think, I don't think I really cared about any romance options in in Dragon Age. Pretty disappointing. >what happened there?back when OG Mass Effect came out, someone at Fox heard there was porn in a video game and made a big fuss. Funnily enough, the person who ran the whole bit never even saw the supposed video game porn, but heard someone describe it to them. Was one of the big anti video game pushes of the late 2000s here where they were worried about the children again>he's the guy flying the shuttle.I was very confused with all the random love interests in Mass Effect 3 trying to get with Shepard with near zero interaction>>83628682> but i'd argue it's the best ending.not steep competition between choices. Though I appreciated Radovid being completely nuts and screaming to send all the men after one mage and unhinged meltdown. > sword and a dodgerollsame, only I prefer shields>>83629128>I actually try to use bothprobably is much better. Know regular is enough, but i had issues with staining they suggested i use the water one but just couldn't do it> working too hard!it's a good thing in this case, just makes it hard to do much else
>>83629237>doesn't that sound dangerous tho?it's dangerous for individuals who can't quit, which I suppose can lead to very bad repercussions if a lot of people are in turn addicted. I feel like a lot would probably make these poor decision either way or go somewhere they can. Really benefit at state level is raising a lot of money off it. I've heard some poorer states have made huge improvements to education thanks to casino revenue. Not sure what truth there is to it exactly, but I've heard some skeptics convinced > how can one find a country that respects a mindby nature, most countries and governments want people to be educated highly to the degree they can help the economy, but not in the kind of way that makes them question national agenda.>take care matewill do. I know people drive insane, so try to avoid going too far
u~mm you anons seem niceCan I post here?
>>83629819>much better.yep but I'm not very consistent I very often forget to wash my teeth in the mornings>water one but just couldn't do itinterestingwhat bothers you about it?>good thing in this casereally?>>83629873oh course you can post here anon ^^and you are very nice for asking
>>83629912>and you are very nice for askingIt's just I've been looking at this thread for quite some time and wanted to participate, I'm not a cutter though but I'm really interested in what you all talk about and doI guess I'll start with this>How are you doing today?I'm very tired I studied the whole day and I hated every second of it and now I'm here sitting on my laptop switching tabs like I always do>Any plans for today?No I never had plans to come up with lol>When was the last time you hurt yourself?hmm I never did that and will probably never willFunny thing I had a disagreement with my aunt and got really angry and left the house kept walking for hours outside at night and find this train rail wayI walked on those train rail ways and kept walking but no train came and I fell down fuck me >Is there anything bothering you right now?Oh well I don't want to study and I hate studying and everything is so grim and badfood tastes bad, water tastes bad, weather is bad everything is so cringe and bad I hate it I'm very sorry if that was a lot
hello guys i passed out today because i went outside, do not touch grass ig
>>83629912> I very often forget to wash myopes. It's okay. Okay to miss the morning, just never forget the night>what bothers you about it?teeth sensitivity. I had very bad teeth for a time and think it's affected some things. the sensation of water no matter temp can just be irritating>really?yeahh it's a sign of progress as far as muscle building goes. Hit things harder than before today>>83629873hi anon>>83630025> I'm not a cutter thoughit's fine. Not everyone here is and some did it in the past, but not really anymore. Lot of people come here do, some are just in bad places overall but don't cut, and some just want to talk>very tired I studied the whole daywhatcha have to study?>I walked on those train rail ways and kept walking but no train that sounds pretty serious honestly.. that bad of a disagreement?>everything is so grim and badi hear you. Hard not to look around and feel kinda bad. You have anything you enjoy doing to take you mind off things? Anything to help mood a little>>83630039hey chev> i passed out today because i went outsidewait what happened?? You okay?>do not touch grass I swear that's not a normal occurrence for that!
>>83630107>wait what happened?? You okay?okay long story short me and a friend went to bike to a restaurant cus we were hungry. I was fine when I left home, but when I arrived at the place I just became ultra dizzy and couldn't see anything, so I told my friend to call my mom to pick me up, and soon after that I passed out. >I swear that's not a normal occurrence for that!I don't believe u, I'm gonna stay home for the next 78 lunar cycles :P
Had a nap, dreamed about Soul Calibur smash bros fusion and left for dead 2. Also cats and bunkbeds.>>83628160>Not saying I liked it, but it was definitely an experienceI think I'd prefer it to the dead mics everyone has now. If it was too annoying theres always the option to mute people.>There are quite a few people who irl would say better to experience than not to the literal extremeMe thats me>was my pull day which always leaves my arms feeling like jello and locking up afterwardsWhich feels great. I'm split between pull or legs being my favorite day, never cared much for push. T-Bar rows and lat raises are fun but so deadlifts and squats are also.>Keeping my house so cold sucks since i feel like it limits my performanceWouldn't doing warmups or layering up counteract this?>>83628168>what are you going to eat for dinner then?Pasta probably.>also I should try baked beans some day, I feel like I'd like themSeems at home with other polish food. I ragged on brits for it before but it's quite filling, it's just the sodium content you got to look out for. Having regular beans gets around this.>worried it was way bigger and more noticableNo it's still pretty noticeable, but I haven't been going out so it doesn't matter.>what does it look like?I'll post a pic next time I reply to (you).>you're planning to do that any time soon?Depending on how well my hair grows out.>what sorta hairstyleUndecided.>>83628311>isn't necessarily your faultDubs. Also no it literally is, left that stick on the sidewalk and tripped myself coming back.>yeah. that's kind of the pointIt is what it is I can buy that on my own now.>:0Why Yua of do it yourself to avatarfag as? Is it cause you liked them in the show, they're like you, both even?>Boys loveLithchi Hikari club is better and you should read it instead. Boy meets maria was mid. Also I don't have recs as I don't read much.>>83629128Picrel>>83630039Hallo che
>>83629705>can't do anything right about nowpain is just weakness leaving the body! (*^*)9>i try to be polite about it all the same since people like that already get enough shit from people.you're right and that's how i try to go about as as well, but i've been dealing with that for 22 years now, so please understand...>i think full on shooter and ship fighting could be a better fit for that.this or something like arc raiders did. seems to work out for them. even mass effect removed rpg elements from 1 to 2.>Bethesda has had serviceable at best writing usually as wellthe games tend to be more than the sum of their parts, but they've been banking on that for quite some time now.>don't want space ships to be the whole gamei think there's also a shooter in that universe, at least there was supposed to be one. no clue if that ever happened. over all it was way too complex for me. >I was already done with bioware after andromeda.i just remember these games by the memes and controversies they sparked. had a lot of fun without spending a single buck. ^^>didn't even look good in the teaser trailersit really didn't. and it actually broke most of the guys in the video i send you. they're no stranger to bad video games, but they all quit except one. just couldn't take it.>as long as Todd is still therethat's what i don't really get. he's by far not even close to the biggest pieces of shit the industry has to offer, but he still comes across as a bullshitter to me. 16x the details and what not.>Microsoftyeah. being owned by them doesn't seem to do anything positive for a studio or publisher.>too much emphasis on the randomly generated questsyou're right. forgot about all those draugr caves. fromsoft did something similar in elden ring. i wish those mini-dungeons would just vanish and never come back.
>>83629297>Helloooheyy cat> how are you todayi'm okay hbu?? how was your day?>>83629335>what's up?chilling before sleeping rn, what about you?>i'll work til the day i die.come on! maybe some day you can reach what you want :D>>83629866> to casino revenuepersonally i wouldn't like seeing casinos decide this to a state if i were a ruler> so try to avoid going too farsilly people idk how do they find dangerous driving fun without being scared>>83630181hey what's wrong?? what happened?did you meet a doctor?
>>83630107>it's fine. Not everyone here is and some did it in the past, but not really anymore. Lot of people come here do, some are just in bad places overall but don't cut, and some just want to talkThats cool>whatcha have to study?2 hours math tutor, 2 hours english tutor, 2 hours spanish tutormostly on different teachers not on school of course it's kinda of a outside thing you pay them money they teach you in a group of people so you get ready for exams and stuff>that sounds pretty serious honestly.. that bad of a disagreement?it was a dumb disagreement she was telling me to study but I didn't want to I got really angry and left>You have anything you enjoy doing to take you mind off things? Not really nothing just music and /r9k/ even though it's mostly porn which I don't like and try avoid but it's the only decent place
>>83630025>wanted to participatewe it's nice to have you here then >I'm not a cutter thoughthat's okay I know it's a "cutters general" but it's not really a problem especially if you're nice>studied the whole daywhat are you studying for?>laptop switching tabsare you watching or reading anything interesting?>never had plans to come up maybe your definition of a plan is not broad enough For example for me, waking up, getting a meal and maybe playing a video game mod is enough to count as plans, and incidentally those are my plans for tomorrow >disagreement with my aunt must've been a rough disagreement huh?>walked on those train rail ways and kept walking but no train came and I fell downglad nothing terrible happened, why did you feel down?>don't want to study and I hate studyingsame>everything is so cringe and bad I hate itsorry to hear that anonsounds like you might have some mental condition >if that was a lotdon't you worry :>>>83630039everyone who touched grass died X_X >>83630107>Okay to miss the morning, just never forget the nightI feel like that too but I'd be better to at least just brush in the morning but I just hate how paste changes how things taste so many I'll just water floss multiple times a day and brush in the evening? that should be enough >sensation of waterI see the personally I don't mind itlike I said I dislike paste way more>sign of progressthat's true but maybe you're string enough >>83630246wow sounds like a productive nap :3>regular beansI think first I'd like to try the ones in a can win tomato sauce I think?>pretty noticeableI'm sure it'll be for a while back at least it'll hopefully leave a flat scar >I'll post a pic next timeokay ^^ >Undecidedall good >picrelsure thing boss, you've got it boss o7>>83630274>okay hbu??I'm okay my water flosser broke so I had to go return it and also also my hat ripped so I had to sew it upwhat kinds of things did u do today?
>>83629705>removing classes and attributes was a huge step down as far as it being RPG goesi don't remember how that was handled in oblivion compared to skyrim. can you remind me?>many cities being copy paste compared to oblivionalso a good point.>>83629710>it's up to u after allmy boss is away next week anyway, so not doing it would just have left more work for my coworker. it was easy enough to deal with for me after closing shop for the day. just took some time. still gonna complain about it. :p>my water flosser brokeman. been a while since i've seen one of those. how did you get it in the first place?>my hat ripped so I had to sew it updid it come out well?>>83629819>all cliche, not interesting enough, or developed well enough for it to be compelling.maybe they wanted to much and should have made the game smaller in scale? grasping at straws here...>could have at least made them wear different colorsfor how long was that game in development again?>Pretty disappointing.zevran was alright in the first game, but not everyone for everyone, of course. and i don't remember if i romanced anyone in the second, which isn't a good sign. overall i'd say i agree. not a lot of options>Was one of the big anti video game pushes of the late 2000s here where they were worried about the children againi see. more of an american thing, i suppose. ^^ here it's always just video games making kids violent. wasn't there also something similar about gta at some point? something about a mod?>with all the random love interests in Mass Effect 3 trying to get with Shepard with near zero interactionprobably wanted to pander to as many people as they could to appease them. not that it ever works.>Radovid being completely nuts and screaming to send all the men after one mage and unhinged meltdown.can't say i don't relate. they kinda had the whole witch hunt coming.>only I prefer shieldsthey're alright as long as they boost my stamina regeneration
it's finally the weekend, which should be celebratory but today while i was going to a archery tournament, the most embarrassing thing happened on the bus, and i honestly just want to quit now, cause it was genuinely that bad. i relapsed as well, just terrible start to the weekend... but i did get a pb of 265 so, can't be to mad ig
>>83630025welcome to the thread, anon! >>83630039hi chev! sounds intense. make sure to get as much rest as you need! :<>>83630246>Soul Caliburstill mad about 6. >:[>left that stick on the sidewalk and tripped myself coming backalright. i'll concede that, in fact, it might have been your fault. it's all i can do, though. won't blame you for it.>I can buy that on my own now.at least as long as it's available. don't get scalped, though!>Why Yua of do it yourself to avatarfag as?not much to it. i watched the show when i started posting and catbro and juuzoanon said i should get a name or post something to identify myself. i like stupid, low-effort puns, so yuanon was a good fit. i had way more pics befor my last phone died on me as well. need to comb through the archives to get them back at some point.>Is it cause you liked them in the show, they're like you, both evenmore of the first than the latter. just a cute show with nice characters.>Lithchi Hikari club is better and you should read it instead. Boy meets maria was midthanks. i'll give those a go. actually, what got me back into reading manga was one room angel. just struck a chord with me back then.>>83630466hi gator! so nice to see you again! :D>the most embarrassing thing happened on the bus, and i honestly just want to quit now, cause it was genuinely that bad.damn. D: i want to ask what happened, but you don't have to tell if it was that bad.>i relapsed as well, just terrible start to the weekendsorry to hear it, but don't beat yourself up about it too much. it happens.>but i did get a pb of 265 so, can't be to mad igwell done, dude! getting better and better!
>>83630363>my water flosser brokeow> had to go return itwhat? return it? isn't it yours?>my hat ripped so I had to sew it upow 2seems like you had adventures today>what kinds of things did u do today?not much, just watching things almost all the timei was the opposite of productive
need to find warhammer motivation asap. got so much shit now but haven't done anything with it. >>83630246heya togata, not sure if i've ever talked with you before but hey! what are ya up to?>>83630274>what happened?no clue, i hope it's nothing serious. I think I'm too young for a heart attack tho>did you meet a doctor?not yet, if i'm too worried about it i'll go see one asap.>>83630363I mean almost ehe, wasn't grass but snow here tho. that might've explained it a bit.>>83630640>make sure to get as much rest as you need! :<thanks man, i'm gonna try
>>83630363>we it's nice to have you here thenthank you>what are you studying for?I'm gonna graduate high school so I have to get a good grade>maybe your definition of a plan is not broad enoughyou are probably right>For example for me, waking up, getting a meal and maybe playing a video game mod is enough to count as plans, and incidentally those are my plans for tomorrowI thought plans are suppose to be productive no?>must've been a rough disagreement huh?not really it's me being a cunt i hate myself for doing that>glad nothing terrible happened, why did you feel down?Man I hope a train actually came but no trains sadlyI fell down cause it was night it's very dark and rocks everywhere on those rails so I end up falling down I kept walking afterwards like a retard for a few more hours and end up coming homemy family was worried and my sisters were crying and shit >sounds like you might have some mental conditionWhat no I'm normal I'm good i'm glad I have no mental conditions>welcome to the thread, anon!thank you a bunch anon
damn it it's pretty late right now I hope I could talk to you anons tomorrow Good night everybody
>>83630181>I just became ultra dizzy and couldn't see anythingany idea what happened? Doesn't sound good... Even if you were tired, seems a bit extreme unless you were very exhausted and weren't eating for a while> gonna stay home for the next 78 lunar cyclesas long as your comfy there lol>>83630246> dead mics everyone has now. i haven't played online games in forever, but that is kinda depressing.. Was actually possible to find people who would repeatedly play with and friend back then just from regular matchmaking. Was nice>Which feels great. all nice till you bend you arm weird while driving to scratch your nose for a sec and starts doing that while you're in heavy traffic>never cared much for push.in agreement. It's probably my heaviest day since I also throw shoulders in then as well, but I don't enjoy any of the workouts as much as other days and the only I kinda dread when it comes a little.>Wouldn't doing warmupsprobably what I should do. I don't like layering while working out since feels constricting and I have home gym so.. I try to do is run a space heater in my workout room, and sit there and stretch a bit before. Issue is days I workout during lunch break and feel super pressed for time I don't get as much time as I wish I had>>83630274> seeing casinos decide this to a state if i were a rulercasinos probably give a bit of money to coax politicians to supporting it, but they make so much money even being taxed a bit, the money probably does some good and people would go elsewhere otherwise>dangerous driving funmore so everyone is always in a rush to get nowhere fast
>>83630791>I'm gonna graduate high schoolYou have to be 18 to use this website
>>83630310>2 hoursthat's a lot of two hours windows D: No wonder you're tired of studying. Hope it at least does some good, but that sucks sorry>it's kinda of a outside thing you pay them money i kinda get it. Heard a lot of people doing those to get ahead a little more some places>didn't want to I got really angry and leftprobably not a good idea to go to train tracks. Those are very dangerous, especially alone>Not reallyanything you want to try but don't? Get some people don't have a lot of interests but good to explore>/r9k/ even though it's mostly pornunfortunately, it gets replies>>83630363> I'll just water floss multiple times a day and brush in the evening?ah yeah sorry! I misunderstood. Brushing at night alone is enough. That's the big thing> I dislike paste way morelike brushing teeth with paste?>maybe you're string enoughmaybe. Not sure there's really and end goal to lifting weights after all>>83630466hey gator! Sorry to hear you're feeling bad. Just remember, even if something embarrassing happened for real, people forget things quick and it seems worse in our heads than to others. So don't feel too bad. Take care and nice job with the tournament!>>83630256>weakness leaving the body!If I have nonstop jello arms, than I'm weaker than before I worked out. Apparently weightlifting makes you weaker than doing nothing> dealing with that for 22 years nowthat is quite long time and commendable to hold out so much>even mass effect removed rpg elements from 1 to 2.keeping with what I said about magic, I always just played strayed up soldier in Mass Effect, so feel like I never really got much out leveling anything else in 1 or the later games.
>>83630274sorry, didn't get any (you)s, so i missed your post.>chilling before sleeping rn, what about you?same. just listening to some stream while posting.>come on! maybe some day you can reach what you want :Dwould need to figure out what i want first, then. ^^' that pretty much always been my biggest problem. no drive, no goals.>>83630762>need to find warhammer motivation asapsame. maybe tomorrow...>thanks man, i'm gonna tryme, too. time so sleep soon.>>83630830good night, sleep tight!>>83631010>Apparently weightlifting makes you weaker than doing nothingthe paradox of strength training. you're technically stronger, but you never feel like you are.>that is quite long time and commendable to hold out so muchthanks. it's quid pro quo, though. i'm dealing with his bullshit, he's dealing with mine.>I always just played strayed up soldier in Mass Effecti think i played that psyker class. not sure what those were called. can't go wrong with a good gun, though.>so feel like I never really got much out leveling anything else in 1 or the later gamesi think it improved you ability to hit the enemies in 1, but that's about it? it was pretty light on the rpg-elements to begin with.
sleep timegn>>83630423>easy enough to dealif u say so>how did you get it in the first place?I bought it in a store that sells various electric appliances :D >did it come out well?yepthe cap is black so if you use black thread it'll look good as new >>83630466Hello>honestly just want to quit now, cause it was genuinely that badwhat happened??and I think you shouldn't quit, I feel you'll regret it>>83630758>isn't it yours?oh I bought it from a store so I returned it there and got my moneys backand I bought a new one>like you had adventures todayyep ^^ I hope no adventures happen tomorrow though >just watching things almost all the timewhatcha watching?? glad you can relax a little :D>the opposite of productivethat's okay :>>>83630762>snow here tho.here it's snowy tooit was -10 today so pretty cold >>83630830goodnight!see ya >>83630791>thank younp>plans are suppose to be productiveidk if so, rules are ment to be broken >:3 >hate myself for doing thatbut don't be too hard on yourself just try to learn form it>few more hours and end up coming homeit's good you have>glad I have no mental conditionsso why does everything suck anon? even water>thank you a bunchyou are welcome :D>>83631010>brushing teeth with paste?toothpaste not really the sensation of it but the taste because it lingers for hours afterwards
>>83630256>had a lot of fun without spending a single buckI think I got andromeda for like 10 bucks at one point and even that was way more money than that disaster deserved. Had all the big empty maps like DA Inquistion, even less interesting characters than a Bioware game, and added one new alien race despite being in a different galaxy in a Mass Effect game lol They did hardly anything interesting despite having the potential to do literally everything>it really didn't. and it actually broke most of the guys in the video I literally heard you couldn't even be mean to your party members. Gone are the days of being able to straight up kill your party member when you got into shit with>across as a bullshitter to meThat's part of the funhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2YHQEZc100Still would trust him more than other game lead> being owned by them doesn't seem to do anything positive for a studio or publisher.but this is a grave concern and could trump all>draugr caves die hard ES fans were mad Bethesda include Dwemer ruins in Skyrim, but man there would be no variety with dungeons if they didn't>those mini-dungeonsis this similar to the chalice dungeons in bloodborne?>>83630423>can you remind me?you pick starting class with specialization of skills and attributes that factor to base starting stats in addition to race, whereas Skyim you start blank slate with no inherent disposition to anything particular except by token of race. You ever start with a few spells if a magic proficiency of the class is high enough. Raising skills increases multipliers to an attribute when you level up, and attributes played a role in everything from base stats, to movement speed, to how people liked you. Skyrim took those away simplifying gameplay a bit since some people hated having to plan character efficiently so it made it easier to not fuck up>also a good point.4 of the hold capitals in skyrim were literally villages of shacks but had jarls
>>83630423>game smaller in scale? I'd say so. Would of probably helped a lot to focus more on being polished> game in development again?way too long now that I look it up. I more mad than ever that game was shit>nd i don't remember if i romanced anyone in the secondI remember 2 I chose the Tali clone elf mage who was too stupid and awkward, but not completely unlikable> similar about gta at some point? something about a mod?ah yes, I think was Hot Coffee or something like that. We get outrage over violence, outrage over sex, outrage over "why don't the kids go outside" so they'll always have an issue>can't say i don't relateI'd need to replay but can't find a clip but vaguely remember a part of the game where he says something like "send the men" and they ask how many and he just goes unhinged and screams "ALL OF THEM" and it was the unintentionally amusing moments of the playthrough for me. I'm pretty sure this happened, I swear>they're alright as long as they boost my stamina regenerationgoing back to Oblivion, that game did shields right since you felt the weight off it with the controls when someone hit the shield. Was pretty cool.
>>83630466heya gator, nice to see you here again. sorry i have been shit with keeping in contact.>was going to a archery tournamentdid the tournament itself go good atleast? i've been getting into archery again myself.>embarrassing thing happened on the buswanna talk about it?>>83630830hope you have a good sleep, we'll see you another time maybe?>>83630838>any idea what happened? probably something to do with the weather, low oxygen maybe? i felt totally okay when i left home.>as long as your comfy there loli'll make it work :>>>83631118>maybe tomorrow...i hope so.
>>83630640haii yuanon !>so nice to see you again! :Dalways nice being here :)>but you don't have to tell if it was that bad.sadly it really was that bad...>it happensi know just sucks >getting better and better!yea, much better then 249 my last pb>>83630762>need to find warhammer motivation asapmotivation is the hardest thing to find even if you know you'll enjoy it just so easy to put it off>>83631010hey officeanon>seems worse in our heads than to others.the problem is it's really bad, if anyone noticed im dead, it's really bad>Take care and nice job with the tournament!thank you so much, and take care too ^^>>83631125sleep well cat>what happened??it's wayy to embarrassing to say>think you shouldn't quit, I feel you'll regret iti know i would, just i already feel like a outsider there, i just know I'll be much more of a outsider now>>83631457heya Chevalier>nice to see you here again.nice to be here>sorry i have been shit with keeping in contact.don't be sorry im horrible at it to>tournament itself go good atleast?yea but the whole time just felt awful mentally >i've been getting into archery again myself.oh that's sick ! it is super fun !!>wanna talk about it?nope lol
>>83631125>>83631141>>83631457>>83631514gonna sleep now. i'll reply tomorrow. good night!
probably sleep soon too, last set of replies to a few...>>83631457> low oxygen maybe?hmm unless you're at a higher than normal altitude or there's like fire nearby, don't think that would be much a risk. Glad you're okay, but make sure it's not something that needs to be looked at>i'll make it workI too can stay busy inside better than most people, but also have my limits>>83631514> if anyone noticed im dead, it's really badso there's a chance no one noticed? I'd say you have even less to worry about. No one said anything at the time, sure it won't come up later. Just relax for now. If you don't know it's a problem, no sense in worrying too much. >and take care toothank you! I need to try to get more sleep, but that's my biggest worry now
im going to bed, gn
>>83630363>wow sounds like a productive nap :3Was. Dreams were comfy instead of being absurd and evil like they usually are.>I think first I'd like to try the ones in a can win tomato sauce I think?Yeah thats the default, I usually go for heinz british style beans.>sure thing boss, you've got it boss o7I wish manuls were able to be domesticated, my favorite small cat. Them and carcals are awesome.>>83630640>still mad about 6. >:[I've never played actually, only heard them sampled in music,>don't get scalped, though!It was some bluenotes shirt actually, nothing special. Canadian jeans specialty store basically.>more of the first than the latter. just a cute show with nice characters.Makes sense makes sense>what got me back into reading manga was one room angel. just struck a chord with me back then.Does it still now? I find I'll re-listen to older music I liked and find it too boring or cringe, haven't experienced this with anything else. Also I'll read one room angel, art looks cute.>>83630762>heya togata, not sure if i've ever talked with you before butYou have, we've talked in this thread before about metal music and sci-fi. I just swapped avatarfagging for namefagging since it's more convenient and lets me post more stuff.>hey! what are ya up to?I was playing DOOM2k16 and I'm on the last level now. Was on ultra violence, should have played on nightmare since the lategame gets way too easy for my liking later on.>>83630838>Was actually possible to find people who would repeatedly play with and friend back then just from regular matchmakingI think the advent of discord and restrictions on voice communication is what killed making friends in games online. I haven't made a friend through videogames since early 2021.>bend you arm weird while driving to scratch your noseDid this happen to you....
>>83611499how did you guys stop cutting ive been cleaning sincr the new year but i cant keep my mind off of it
I think I ended up sleeping for about 12 hours last night. Mostly sleeping for 90 minute intervals between taking melatonin.Had a dream featuring the girls from Yuruyuri so that was pretty fun.>>83627607>but you're still feeling better?Yeah. Today will be the day I get work done!>>83627782>I still don't really understand desuSometimes people just want to withdraw, I guess. I don't want to make things difficult for her.>so it's more on meYou should give the oldies a try sometime.>>83628149>do try to remember it's a recurring thing so don't lose sleep if she swings back againThat's true. She seems to have a steady job again, and no longer lives with her mother, so that'll probably help.She knows she's welcome to talk whenever, so I just have to wait until she does, I guess. She also knows she's welcome to visit if she wants a free holiday...>I do question when people are doing something to stand out vs are actually nutsCould always be a little of column A and a little of column B.>>83628311>just would have been nice to learn those lesson without completely falling apartIt's the only way to really learn, I think. Gotta burn your hand on stove once to know how bad it really is.>it's just easier to kick down to feel better about yourself"I suffered so you should too" is a really bad ethos and it worries me that it's so common.>>83630025I don't cut either so you're in good company. The thread welcomes basically anyone with open arms from what I've seen.Hopefully stuff picks up for you sooner than later.>>83630039That sucks. I hope you're feeling better now.>>83630466At least you got a new PB. That's pretty good!
mornin mornin >>83633570>dream featuring the girls from Yuruyurithat's cool!what happened in it?>Today will be the day I get work done!best of luck \o/>>83633083hey anonI feel the best thing to do it making it inconvenient for you to cut, like being outside in public or when it's summer and you're wearing shorts sleeves Also don't expect to never cut again, you'll relapse form time to time and that's okay It's better to cut multiple times a year than a month or a week, just try to make the period of time between relapses often Btw why do you want to hurt yourself? is it just a habbit or is something bothering you?>>83632613>manuls were able to be domesticated, my favorite small cat.they're cute but it's probably for the better they're not domesticated Also domestication changes how animals look though I'm not sure how much of it applies to cats
>>83634644>what happened in it?Akari caught fire and I had to pull up the windows sound mixer to unmute the world so she knew what was going on. I had to partially remove her clothes to access it.It was an odd dream.>best of luck \o/Thank you I need it.
>>83631118>never feel like you are.as long as I'm still making gains I guess it's fine for me.>i'm dealing with his bullshit, he's dealing with mine.least it's not one sides. My experience has been the people I've known who complain the most, would immediately complain about me venting for the first time in 10 years and make it out to be like I'm exploiting them because I felt bad. Why I have less patience than in the past.>can't go wrong with a good gun, though.assault rifle go bang bang. My Shepard solved problems the direct way>can't go wrong with a good gun, though.less so than any bioware game prior. I remember Origins came out around time ME2 and had more RPG mechanics than OG Mass Effect>>83631125>because it lingers for hoursmaybe there's a different tooth paste you can use? Or is it all?>>83632613>advent of discord I too this day don't really get discord. Didn't know how prevalent the usage was. I don't really like it but had to use it occasionally for other things, but never enough to get comfortable. >Did this happen to youi worded this wrong I think in hindsight but I was tired yesterday lol I guess I mean was bending you arm any position that flexes the muscle. I had a sudden itch one moment, did that and caused the muscle tensing sensation post workout and made my arm kinda hurt a moment. You forget it's a problem till it happens >>83633083like cat said, if it's an addiction, have to make it harder to do it. Or address the reason why you think you're cutting
>>83633570>Mostly sleeping for 90 minute intervals between taking melatonin.do you feel rested at least? That doesn't sound ideal... But maybe if you dreamed it means you at least hit some deep sleep> a dream featuring the girls from Yuruyuri so that was pretty fun.nice. Only dream with fictional characters I remember well was I was robbing a bank with Monika from Doki Doki Literature Club for some reason... I could see it...> so that'll probably help.also a good sign of progress maybe? It's hard for a lot of people with erratic behavioral issues to hold steady work, so the fact she got something is better> little of column A and a little of column B.suppose there's behaviors that seem crazy to some, but are just very overly aggressive. Rougher areas here, it's genuinely better to be aggressive and crazy than be timid and like someone who would cry if they get punched.
>>83634644and morning cat, have a nice day!
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>>83635338>do you feel rested at least?More or less. I'd rather have a straight 8 hours but I think that's something I have to let my body make a habit of first.>maybe if you dreamed it means you at least hit some deep sleepI'm pretty sure I dreamed every time. They tend to be really vivid when that happens.>I was robbing a bank with Monika from Doki Doki Literature ClubI've never played it but I feel like I should at some point. I feel like fictional characters happens not too infrequently for me.>so the fact she got something is betterI feel bad because she loved her last job and she was good at it, but they couldn't afford to keep her on. That and the stress of having to move back home was enough to cut me off as a fucked up way of coping. Doesn't make any sense to me, but such is the BPD mind.>it's genuinely better to be aggressive and crazy than be timid and like someone who would cry if they get punchedI think that's the case in most places. I'm glad I live where I do because I'd be a very easy mark in most places.>>83635813Nice Asuka Gondola!
>>83611499>>How are you doing today?Idk>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I failed my interview. I guess I didn't dress well enough. Or I should've scheduled another interview for second change. I'm not sure.>good newsAn old friend reached out last night. I'm meeting her today.
>>83631514>sleep well catthank you>wayy to embarrassing to sayokay I'm not gonna push them though i am a little curious >I'll be much more of a outsider nowmaybe not >>83631547hope you slept well>>83635184>akari caught fire and I had to pull up the windows sound mixer to unmute the worllol sounds funny >Thank you I need it.at your service o7>>83635319>different tooth paste you can use?I don't know maybe there are some tastes onses >>83635343thanks it's going tp be a chill one how are you today?>>83635875thanks :>>>83635921>failed my interview. Isorry to hear thatwas it important to u?>old friend reached out last night. I'm meeting her today.sounds nice tell us how it goes when you're backWhy did she reach out?
>>83630961>You have to be 18 to use this websiteYes I'm 18>but don't be too hard on yourselfjust try to learn form itOf course I do learn from it but I cringe so hard and just generally hate it wish I could punish myself for the bad things I do >so why does everything suck anon? even waterI seriously don't know everything taste badI just came home I'm bit tired we got no school tomorrow so that's cool
>>83635813looking good>>83635875>More or lessall that really matters either way if your body is able to recover what i needs to>I'm pretty sure I dreamed every time.I rarely dream at all unless I have something going on. Taking melatonin or benadryl always results in very vivid dreams though. Guess it's just how it works after all.>never played it but I feel like I should at some point.It's not much of a time investment at all, but also probably not something to go out of the way for unless you know nothing about it already, which is sort of hard how much it comes up. Was the first visual novel for a lot of people, so gets a boost from that I do like Monika a lot however>but they couldn't afford to keep her on. honestly, a lot of her behavior makes sense with that in mind. That kind of thing can make people with no issues spiral out of control, can't imagine what she must of felt. >I'd be a very easy mark in most places.reminds me when I was walking late at night in the cold with a skii mask on (it was really cold). Was on guard be wary of people walking around since wasn't many, only to realize I was the guy people were moving away from to avoid. Suppose I 100% looked I was up to something questionable>>83635921hey cynic>I failed my interviewsorry to hear. Did you get feedback that was it?>An old friend reached out last night.that's good at least. have a good time>>83636141> some tastes onsesor some less overpowering>how are you today?i'm okay. mostly doing a bunch of cleaning. Putting away Christmas stuff. Have way more room in the house nowhow are you?
>>83636418> wish I could punish myself for the bad things I doI hear you, but this is a pretty dangerous attitude to have. Right now it doesn't too severe, but very easy to get carried away and get to the point you feel you deserve to suffer, which is not good. Probably should try to channel this into something healthier>don't know everything taste badisn't anything you like? you ever tell anyone else this, doesn't sound like how it should be> just came homewhere you head out to?
>>83636630>but this is a pretty dangerous attitude to have.I deserve to be in dangerous situation cause I'm a bad person you know what I mean I asked my teacher about it he said it is indeed not a good attitude think this way cause it will only lead to chaos>Right now it doesn't too severe, but very easy to get carried awayReally? I didn't know I don't know if it just me or everyone else is like this everybody just lives without a care in the world without taking a look at their actions and what their doing you know>get to the point you feel you deserve to suffer, But I'm already wants to suffer and figure out a way to die I actually find the ideal method for killing myself I just need to know when the train comes just like renata kambolina, been reading this book called the complete manual of suicide really nice book>Probably should try to channel this into something healthierLike what or do what exactly>isn't anything you like?Hahaaha my friends always told me that I hate everything and get really angry about it but yes I do like some food but it just tastes really bad and I just regret eating it >you ever tell anyone else thisNobody just randos on 4chan and people I added from here on discord I always joke about killing myself but it's for fun >doesn't sound like how it should beHow it is suppose to be then?>where you head out to?I'm home I don't have a phone and hate using phones i'm just on my desktop pc
>>83636758Oh I forget to add>you ever tell anyone else thisTalking to strangers online is so much better and easy to approach or generally talk about anything without being judged or get in trouble I'm not doing any sus though in the internet my identity is hidden even though some people can still tell who iam through the way I text and my images here in 4chan but it doesn't matter I may shared way too much info but I feel safe here and in the internet
>>83636418>just came home I'm bit tired we got no school tomorrow so that's coolthat's good news glad you can rest a bit more so how are you going to spend the rest of your day? >>83636584thanks>some less overpoweringyep>Putting away Christmas stuff a sensible thing to doI still have aome halloween crap standing around hehe>more room in the house nowwhat are you going to do with the extra space?>how are you?pretty goodjust relaxing and might play a half life mod maybe watch a movie and eat popcorn idk depends if I find something nice to watch
>>83636758> I'm a bad person why do you say this? No offense meant, but you're still quite young to the point you have little control over your life by the sound of it yet.>without taking a look at their actions and what their doing you knowit is in fact what a lot of people do, I agree. A lot of people are excessively cruel and never think about it all, they just do things because it's easier.> wants to suffer and figure out a way to diejust because you think you're bad or more to it? Sounds like you have friends at least... >Like what or do what exactlylike, if you think you're a bad person and deserve to be hurt, try to be better in regards to what you're unhappy about. If you're aware something you're doing isn't ideal, you can change that usually. >How it is suppose to be then?hmm i'd say water should have a neutral taste, and shouldn't how everything tastes. Was it always like this or do you think you started feeling this way after some time?>I'm homeah but you said "just got home" I thought you went somewhere before and was asking how that was.>>83636848I understand. It's not pleasant to open up to people. Just concern is if there' a legitimate health concern you're going through, we can kind of voice concern, but do little other than that. Just don't want you to ignore if there's something serious.
Unrelated, yesterday made this Finnish salmon soup recipehttps://food52.com/recipes/73800-lohikeitto-finnish-salmon-soupQuite good even though I don't often eat salmon. First time I ever used leeks in cooking.>>83636892>I still have aome halloween crap standing around it's funny because the christmas people take stuff down fast, but there are still people with some Halloween decorations up. Guess any time of year can be spooky if you want it to be>what are you going to do with the extra space?probably have it empty for now. Doesn't need to be filled. Easy to vacuum this way>just relaxing and might play a half life modabout the same for me, but for me playing old Morrowind with mods again after caving due the conversation I was having yuanon about TES games
>>83636892>so how are you going to spend the rest of your day?Browsing 4chan I guess I'm talking to somebody right now on discord>>83636911>why do you say this?cause Iam I'm horrible I did horrible stuff before I can't live with it. it's painful to live with bad things you did >A lot of people are excessively cruel and never think about it all, they just do things because it's easier.I know right it makes me sad but I can't think like that cause there is some good in this world stillbut I can't think that way at the same time cause all my life is full of negativity at some point I started to get scared when something good happen to me or a have a nice day I feel something is wrong and not right and I feel like every other day will be shit and terrible shit will happen and it does happen>just because you think you're bad or more to it?yes>Sounds like you have friends at least... they are weird and I'm just done with hanging out with them all they do is talk about money and complain about future and shit like that and they only doomscroll through instagram which drives me crazy it's full of slop and cringe brainrot content and they always keep sending me that shit or just videos of dumb rich folks who flex all day>try to be better in regards to what you're unhappyHmm that's actually a really good advice I will take into granted thank you so muchbut I'm literally unhappy about everything I want to change it I'm totally lost and confused you know>If you're aware something you're doing isn't idealTrue but I'm actually annoyed by all the stuff I did in the past and stuff that happens recently that turns into past you knowIt's hard to make a change you know everything you say is true I know you are probably annoyed by me being like this I'm very sorry but I'm trying but shit is weird >water should have a neutral tasteI wanna throw up the second I drink it and have actually noticed that I don't drink water like at all only whenIget really really thirsty
>>83636911>I understand. It's not pleasant to open up to people.So what should I do then?I just want some random people to talk to me about anything other than my friends, I really like the idea of talking to people across the world and just see how they sound, what they do, what do they feel, what do they think and just learn about them you know I didn't get to go outside of my country and It's been years since I left my city I want some change>Just concern is if there' a legitimate health concern you're going throughI don't know I don't think I'm suicidal or depressed or anything I'm probably in a good condition mentally >we can kind of voice concern, but do little other than thatOh I get it wait so you anons are already recovered from the whole cutting and you just here to chill or what exactly? and you're right voicing concern is only thing you probably can do other than not much >Just don't want you to ignore if there's something serious.I'm not ignoring anythingalso it can't really be helped either way cause what I'm i suppose to do ask help from parents? that's impossible
>>83637137> I did horrible stuff before I can't live with it.don't want to bring up bad memories, but anything you can talk about here? If not too much. Sometimes things seem way worse to us than they do others> all my life is full of negativityI get it. I know personally I'm torn between wanting to see the best in things, but also realize this can be overly optimistic. There's a lot of bad things and putting too much trust in people being good can lead to getting taken advantage of since a lot of people are assholes. I'd say the proper attitude to accept the good and don't worry, but be prepared for the bad. How I try to live and think it helps prevent constant worrying>all they do is talk about money and complain about futuresort of understandable, but yes. It is hard to talk to people sometimes when everything so superficial. If they're otherwise nice, I'd go easy on them at least. Better to have boring dependable friends, than interesting ones who act shitty.>unhappy about everything I want to change it I'm totally lost and confused you knowI'd say start on one thing and focus on that, forget the rest. Once you make something you didn't like better off, can move on. Making little progress in at least something is key. Makes it easier to change more things as you feel you accomplished even something>It's hard to make a change you know everything you say is true I know you are probably annoyedno worries, I'm not. I used to be very hesitant to try to do things in the past myself as well and felt scared by it. But I think if you can get started on something it gets a little easier as you get more confidence
>>83637183>I want some changenothing wrong with doing what you described. Meeting new people and maybe trying new things is probably what should focus on right now if you're not sure what else to do. Big part of figuring things out in life, especially if you feel unsure what you want to do.>I don't know I don't think I'm suicidal or depressed or anything I'm probably in a good condition mentallythat's good. Just make sure you drink enough even if you don't like it. Getting enough water is one of the single best things you can do for your health. > you anons are already recovered from the whole cutting and you just here to chill or what exactly?It varies quite a bit. Some still do it and still struggle, some did it in the past but are either stopped/mostly stopped, and others hadn't done it at all and either need help with something else but like trying to help others out. I had a period in the past I did to a degree and struggled with a lot of negative/suicidal thoughts, but mostly in the past, though still have things weighing me down, but not as serious.>I'm not ignoring anythingthat's fine then. Just cautioning if there is an issue at any point not to
>>83637396>but anything you can talk about here?nah I really can't share it here sorry>I know personally I'm torn between wanting to see the best in things, but also realize this can be overly optimistic. There's a lot of bad things and putting too much trust in people being good can lead to getting taken advantage of since a lot of people are assholes. I'd say the proper attitude to accept the good and don't worry, but be prepared for the badYOU ARE SO ME I LOVE YOU YOU ARE LITERALLY ME for real for real >How I try to live and think it helps prevent constant worryingWe should as humans never think about evil out there cause if we do we lost the bet you know we have always to think about the little good out there>but yes. It is hard to talk to people sometimes when everything so superficialit's not even superficial they just gossip, they don't have fun or play games, they shit talk everybody and make fun of me for no reason I got fed up of it and just left the server I don't know why I'm calling those cock suckers my friends they are not and never were it's only one but that one got encouraged to make fun of me because of them and always stand with them not me which I always say and tell him the right things but nobody listens to me >Making little progress in at least something is key. Makes it easier to change more things as you feel you accomplished even somethingI'm trying to study but I'm sucking so bad at it right now I don't even know how to start or what I should do I look at the text book and see my horrible hand writing and throw the textbook so hard out of rage and get really annoyed and I just stop doing it and whenever I study It gets more annoying cause most of the stuff I'm learning is complete bullshit and it's waste my time I'm so so sorry for late reply I was thinking of something to write
>>83636961mm salmonalso sorry for disappearing, played some peak with yuanon and meowster >people take stuff down fastooh really? I think here people take their time>Doesn't need to be filled. Easy to vacuum this waytrue >Morrowind with mods again sounds nice!what mods do u have?>>83637137>4chan I guess I'm talking to somebody right now on discordhope you're having fun :>and btw what tired you out today, what did you do before coming home?>sending me that shit or just videos of dumb rich folks who flex all dayreminds me of my old friend who'd complain that his newest iphone is shit become the girl he is interesting in has a slightly better one and so he now has to buy another one so that he could date her Crazy
>>83637445>It varies quite a bit. Some still do it and still struggle, some did it in the past but are either stopped/mostly stopped, and others hadn't done it at all and either need help with something else but like trying to help others out. I had a period in the past I did to a degree and struggled with a lot of negative/suicidal thoughts, but mostly in the past, though still have things weighing me down, but not as serious.I hate wrist cutting so much, it makes me so sad There is this chick on my class who showed me her scars I want to help her but I really don't know and I'm too anxious to talk to her about it I've seen plenty of videos of girls doing this self harm garbage it fucking hurts I still don't get it why they do that>that's fine then. Just cautioning if there is an issue at any point not toThank you so much for caring anon
>>83633570>You should give the oldies a try sometime.I've never liked TV series thst much desu, haven't made it halfway through a single one save for cartoons when I was younger. I do watch/read older movies and manga.>>83634644>they're cute but it's probably for the better they're not domesticatedProbably.>Also domestication changes how animals look though I'm not sure how much of it applies to catsFrom what I saw they have shorter limbs and ears, but otherwise look the same.>>83633083I have no reason to at the moment + it's inconvenient.>>83635319>Didn't know how prevalent the usage was. I don't really like it but had to use it occasionally for other thingsIf you luck out with good friends in a private server it's super comfy, otherwise it's basically worthless. 1v1 messaging with people added randomly off games/4chan feels too forced vs group chats where everyone is shooting the shit.>>83636418>Yes I'm 18Still, you'd be better off not browsing here. Lurking r9k in high school didn't do me any favors. Also you should tag (>>12345678) all the posts you're replying to so people see they see what you.>>83636584>MonikaI was thinking last night about the similarities between her and makima actually. Weird...>>83636892>might play a half life modReminds me, I was playing hl1 the other day with a friend and we got owned by the level design. During the part where you reach the surface for the first time and see HECU soldiers climbing out of helicopters, there's a drainage pipe. When we got down there we spent ages looking for the exit but found none.>>83636758>But I'm already wants to suffer and figure out a way to dieIt'd do you good to write this down on a journal. For me at least, seeing it on paper lets me read what I think from outside myself. So instead of seeing it as "I want to die and this is how I feel", I saw it as "wow this person says they wanna die why are they feeling this". Opens you up your thinking and keeps you levelheaded.
>>83638051>and btw what tired you out today, what did you do before coming home?nothing just school i did nothing I just studied and came home nothing much>reminds me of my old friend who'd complain that his newest iphone is shit become the girl he is interesting in has a slightly better one and so he now has to buy another one so that he could date her Wtf that's cringepeople who use phones are dumb phones are straight up tracking devices and very addictive
>>83638090>Still, you'd be better off not browsing here. Lurking r9k in high school didn't do me any favorsI don't know I like it here>Also you should tag (>>12345678) all the posts you're replying to so people see they see what you.Ahh I don't understand what do you mean>It'd do you good to write this down on a journalI tried doing that it feels cringe, I did try to do it, it is weird feels like a girl thingy to do>For me at least, seeing it on paper lets me read what I think from outside myselfI'll still think the same thing still cause it 's me who wrote it and it makes me feel more pathetic no?>"wow this person says they wanna die why are they feeling this". Opens you up your thinking and keeps you levelheaded.well in my mind it's like thisThis bitch is a pathetic cunt and he should die and I feel bad so I indeed feel a pathetic and want to die
hey everyone, was kinda busy sleeping today ahah. my girlfriend was kinda pissing me off last night and today but it's fine now, nothing major anyways.>>83632613>swapped avatarfagging for namefagging oh yeah, it's kinda hard for me to seperate all the anons after a while.>was playing DOOM2k16 one franchise i never experienced, hope you're having fun tho. I might check out a doom game someday.>>83631840>make sure it's not something that needs to be looked atI'm feeling a lot better today, but i'll take it easy on the physical activity for now. >but also have my limitsyeah i was kinda half joking with that response anyways, I do hope i can atleast do the stuff I want this week.
>>83638020> I really can't shareno problem. Don't want you to post stuff you shouldn't>never think about evil outI think actually it's better to acknowledge it if you can. Try not to get overwhelmed by despairing over it, but most damage comes because people are afraid of looking at the bad when they should.>they shit talk everybody and make fun of me for no reasonI suppose a little teasing is normal, but it's that bad then i agree.. That doesn't sound like good friends to have and shouldn't stick to people who are openly cruel to you.> don't even know how to start I think for starters, don't get too worked up if it's not going great. Everyone starts off rough with anything they're studying>and it's waste my timeis there anything you think you'd rather being doing? Might be good to look at other things if studying only isn't doing you any good. Figuring out what things you like doing can be something to work on too>>83638061>still don't get it why they do thatlots of reasons people start. Sometimes seeing someone else they care about doing, sometimes depression, sometimes self hatred and feeling the desire to hurt themself, and sometimes hoping people will notice. It is a difficult thing to talk about for sure. I think in the case you mention keeping contact and talking time to time to check in
>>83638051>mm salmonit was good. Broth was nice and rich> played some peak with yuanon and meowsterhope you all had fun>ooh really? i think because they put it up so early, it's quick to come down. Hard to be festive come mid january when it's freezing cold with nothing to look forward to>what mods do u have?I have quite a lot of mods it's insane, but I'm playing one of the province mods. People love Morrowind era TES lore since it was still weird and interesting, so there are mods in Morrowind to recreate other provinces from later games in Morrowind. None completed, but I'm exploring the released parts of Cyrodil(setting from Oblivion) with my character. Quite fun just walk around exploring. https://www.nexusmods.com/morrowind/mods/44922Project for making Skyrim(in Morrowind era lore) as well>>83638090> otherwise it's basically worthless.I had to use it to ask questions in some tech servers before and hate it because minute you post something, you get five spam accounts try to add you to try scam you>messaging with people added randomly off games/4chan other than that, I message some of the others from this thread time to time, but that's about it. > similarities between her and makima actuallythey do have quite a few. I'd even go down to level of justification, since if Monika's love wasn't directed at the player she would definitely be considered just as evil, but because that she gets a pass.... shoot, even looks and facial expressions. I have my nendoroids of both sitting on my desk together lol>>83638295>might check out a doom game someday.quite good if you like shooters. played 2016 and eternal and both amazing games> take it easy on the physical activity for now.that's good. Just pay attention if you start feeling similar to before>yeah i was kinda half jokinglol no, I figured that much, but there are a lot of people who greatly prefer staying in to going out. I fluctuate a fair bit between the two
>>83638224>I don't know I like it hereWith the porn spam and the bait and the politics and everything else? This is probably one of the worst boards, better off on a hobby one like /fit/.>Ahh I don't understand what do you meanLike, click the post number of each post you intend to reply to so it links to that post and tells them (you) saw it.>it is weird feels like a girl thingy to doNever heard that before, must just be a thing wherever you're from. If you do care about that still, your favorite artist/writer/figure probably has an autobiography (which is basically a journal). It's no big deal.>I'll still think the same thing no?Maybe, maybe not. You haven't tried so who knows?>in my mind it's like this bitch is a pathetic cunt and he should dieYeah I know that, the point is when you read it written down somewhere, you're able to read it as someone else's words and judge the feelings more objectively.>>83638295>I might check out a doom game someday.It's less than 2 minutes to have DOOM + DOOM 2 running on any device, really should. All you need is the WAD file (the entire game as one file) and a launcher (UZDoom for example).They hold up excellently.>>83638958>played 2016 and eternalPlay the OGs OG>I fluctuate a fair bit between the twoIf it was up to me I'd be outside all the time, theres just jack to do around here.>just as evilI think Monikas worse, honestly. You can explain away Makima's (they're names are pretty similar too...) behavior a bit by saying they are just in her nature as a devil + she viewed them as just in her mind. With Monika it's purely selfish, erasing reality and killing your classmates just to get with you. I think she even admits her wrong in the end, where with Makima she truly believed her cause.
>>83639097I keep forgetting my name this is me
>>83638958>played 2016 and eternal and both amazing gamesi probably have those in my playstation library somewhere. i'll play them.>Just pay attention if you start feeling similar to beforewill do>I fluctuate a fair bit between the twofor me it's just about keeping myself busy, wherever there's shit to do i'll be. just lately that has been more indoors, but idk what to do>picrelhaven't seen ddlc mentioned in years lol.>>83639097>They hold up excellently.gotcha, i'll check it out someday. check this out lol : https://youtu.be/VOOUe97eANo?si=uKtlLZzeTuzBsH5v
didn't realize just how bad i relapsed i don't know how schools gonna go now.>>83631547hope you slept well >>83631840>so there's a chance no one noticed? technically but it was pretty bloody obvious >need to try to get more sleephope you got that sleep>>83633570>sleeping for about 12 hours last night.my body forces my up after hours lol>At least you got a new PB. That's pretty good!yea i am proud of that>>83635921>failed my interview.at least you tried, and did it, more then most can do>>83636141>though i am a little curiousunderstandable, just yeah.>maybe notwe'll see :]
>>83638090>they have shorter limbs and ears,though you know some dumbass would make their skulls to be completely flattened unhealthily like they do with dogsHello btw how was your day?>>83638106>just schoolyou had school today? is it monday were you live? here it sunday so no school >Wtf that's cringewell that's why I'm not really friends with them anymore >>83638295Heya>girlfriend was kindawhy?>fine now, nothing major anyways.phew>>83638958>hope you all had funyep it was nice would you like to play too one day btw?>nothing to look forward tothere's easter :D>provinces from later gameswow that sounds coollike a while new game in a way>>83639218Helloo how's it going?>i relapsed:< well it happens from time to time so don't feel too bad about it it'll get better >we'll see :]best of luck!!
>>83638625>I think actually it's better to acknowledge it if you can. Try not to get overwhelmed by despairing over it, but most damage comes because people are afraid of looking at the bad when they should.exactly that's what I'm trying to do>I suppose a little teasing is normal,it's not even teasing it's straight up disrespect to a point where I almost get into a physical fight with one of them when one of my friends was visiting >That doesn't sound like good friends to have and shouldn't stick to people who are openly cruel to you.True I had a great online friend but he was at some point really toxic and disrespectful and I blocked him I took me a while to do that but I managed to I still miss him so much>is there anything you think you'd rather being doing?I don't want to do anything at this point I just want peace of mind and that's really it >I think for starters, don't get too worked up if it's not going great.I hate it when it doesn't work perfectly you know it's just me>Might be good to look at other things if studying only isn't doing you any goodnot much I can do i really don't know what I should do>Figuring out what things you like doing can be something to work on tooExactly>Sometimes seeing someone else they care about doing, sometimes depression, sometimes self hatred and feeling the desire to hurt themself, I think this girl just has it all at this point>>83639097>With the porn spam and the bait and the politics and everything else? without the porn of course and all the other stuff>better off on a hobby one like /fit/.I want an off topic kinda of place I don't feel like I belong to /fit/ or any other board maybe /int/ other than that no>Like, click the post number of each post you intend to reply to so it links to that post and tells them (you) saw it.oh yeah my bad>If you do care about that still, your favoriteactually I was just thinking what if I just record myself saying shit but still feels weird
>>83639097>You haven't tried so who knows?I did > you're able to read it as someone else's words and judge the feelings more objectively.I said it's still sound the same >>83639330>you had school today? is it monday were you live? here it sunday so no school it is monday yeah>well that's why I'm not really friends with them anymore that's good, people should be friends with people he would actually help them out and be good not the other way around cut all toxic relationships and shit
>>83639330>some dumbass would make their skulls to be completely flattened unhealthily like they do with dogsTrue, evil stuff honestly there ought to be laws against that.>Hello btw how was your day?Pretty good. Made lunch for my family and did some cleanup. Also played through your map in tf2, was fun looking at everything and finding all the secrets. Picrel. How about you /cat/?>>83639406>it's not even teasing it's straight up disrespect to a point where I almost get into a physical fightYou know at that point you're just better off alone. I was in the exact same spot my last year of high school, just walked away from the group and never hung around again. Nothing is gonna hurt you more than forcing yourself to be around people you hate. After graduation I unadded them on everything as well, and lost nothing from it. Better off alone...>actually I was just thinking what if I just record myself saying shit but still feels weirdI have dozens of voice recordings on my phone. I find it less useful for introspection, but it's good to keep a log of your thinking regardless.
i almost relapsed literally salivated over the blades craving painmanaged to get away but was so strung out i vomitedi dont want to go to the mental hospital againi dont
>>83639760>After graduation I unadded them on everything as well, and lost nothing from it. Better off alone...I did just that I only have one contact with one of them right now and it's much better without meYes lonely but so much better it's not chaotic and it's very nice>I have dozens of voice recordings on my phone. I find it less useful for introspection, but it's good to keep a log of your thinking regardless.I actually still thinking about it, it does feel nice logging everything you've done or heard it's like a save file for a game or something I will maybe listen to you guys and give it a try even though I did before and didn't work but I will try again It's not like I got anything to lose>>83639824>i dont want to go to the mental hospital againOh dear what happened?I feel so retarded me here bitching while others are actually suffering way worst than me I'm such a miserable pathetic bitch I should fucking die>>83639824I hope you get better your situation seem sad and way worst than mineGod bless you all
>>83639464>monday yeahI see ao how did school go? got any tests planned?I go to uni.. uh well used to.. it's a whole thing >cut all toxic relationships and shittrue>>83639760>ought to be laws against thattrue though I think laws won't change much what should change is pretty should be societal stigma again owning dogs like that, so that it's seen as uncool and an asshole thing to do>through your map in tf2,thank youu :Dthought in tf2 playerscale is a bit funky and you can't press E to turn on the monitor D;Btw have u found The jar?>How about you /cat/?chilled, uploaded the map and I played peak with yuanon and meowster >>83639824sending hugs anon stay strongg!!!did something bad happen to you today that you almost relapsed?or maybe you'd prefer to talk about something nice?>>83639906>should fucking dieno you shouldn't!
>>83639218hey gator, hope you're alright now. did you atleast take care of yourself afterwards?>>83639330>why?just too much teasing ig, wasn't that funhow are you doing cat?>>83639824hey anon, hope you're okay now. mental hospital isn't a fun place, try to stay out. if you need to talk we're here.
>>83639906>God bless you allBlessings of god be upon you>I feel so retarded me here bitching while others are actually suffering way worst than me I'm such a miserable pathetic bitch I should fucking dieDon't. You're kind and sensitive. >>83639930>did something bad happen to you today that you almost relapsed?Nothing >or maybe you'd prefer to talk about something nice?Yes. Sorry. Shouldn't talk about it. >>83639949>mental hospital isn't a fun place, try to stay out.Doing my best. Thanks. Control.
>>83639930>no you shouldn't!You know I want to kill myself so I could meet god cause I love him but at the same time he will hate me for doing that act so he will put me in hellI really want to know if god hates me or not
>>83639949>>83639949>wasn't that funhm i see >how are you doing cat?pretty good I unloaded a map >>83635813and played peak with yuanon and meowster>>83639982>Nothinghm I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing glad nothing bad happen but sorry you feel like this Do you often get urges like that?>Sorry. Shouldn't talk about it.oh don't you worry, you have nothing to feel sorry about I just wanted to let you know what I you'd rather not focus on the negative things we don't have to but if you want to and also vent about it then you're free to do so :>
>>83639097>This is probably one of the worst boardsit is truly amazing there are actually at least a few boards I consider much worse than r9k>Play the OGs OGI think I did play the very first many years back, but was so long back I don't remember well. Add it to the list I guess> I'd be outside all the timeI suppose me having my house probably makes it nicer. When I live with family definitely didn't like being home>Monikas worseinteresting since think you're first I've seen say this, but I think I'd agree more with that than saying Makima is worse. Even her killing and using people, her status put her so much above everyone else it would be unthinkable not to see those beneath her as animals, whereas Monika is killing those who were supposedly her friends and were shown to have the same potential for intelligence that she had when Sayori becomes aware in the ending.>>83639173>i'll play them.one of the few games I'd have no problem recommending to almost anyone> just about keeping myself busywise idea. Being too idle is rarely good>haven't seen ddlc mentioned in years i'm just a big fan of Monika and I need to bring her up once in a while ocassionally getting me yelled atalso i don't know why there's so much yuri bait of these two>>83639218>i don't know how schools gonna go now.just try to take it easy. Hopefully will make it easier since you'll be so busy won't be able to do it>pretty bloody obviousfor you, but not necessarily others. Just relax for now. Tomorrow will come and can see how things are hopefully>>83639330>would you like to play too one day btw?sure! Can try some time. Not sure how the bandwidth will be with me being here, but can try sometime>there's easter still a ways away. Need to survive the worst of winter first!>like a while new game in a wayit is amazing. I think modders for the 3 major landmass mods have add more than triple the base game content by now
Imma go sleep nowgn anons
>>83639982>Doing my bestas am I haha, keep at it!.>>83640046>pretty good glad to hear>played peak with yuanon and meowsterooo hope you had fun!!!>>83640076>Being too idle is rarely goodi got to pick up some shit anyways, so i hope it'll be fine.>big fan of Monika and I need to bring her up once in a while fair enough haha, i don't think i ever kept up with after i played the first game. i actually fucked up the file deletion part and bricked my copy, but i thought i had beat the game cus it wouldn't boot up anymore lmfao. never ended up finishing it cus of that.>>83640133goodnight dude.
>>83639406> straight up disrespect to a point where I almost get into a physical fight with one of themi think others have said it now, but get away from them. This isn't good and you shouldn't stay in that type of friendship. People disrespecting you aren't your friends and if you're already feeling bad it can make you feel that much worse.>I managed to I still miss him so muchI've been cut off from people I miss too, but sometimes for the best. You can miss a person even if being away from them is right. Doesn't mean past is worth less than it was.>I don't want to do anything i think even trying to find a hobby, read something, play a new game, etc etc. Possibilities are endless. Finding something to do other than just 4chan. Give you something else to talk about with others and maybe make better friends as wellyou mentioned before wish you want to outside your country didn't you and saw you mention /int/? You have an interest in traveling or at least other cultures?>I think this girl just has it all at this pointcould be. Often times a lot of people have many things pushing them to the decisions they make>>83639824glad you could resist for now anon. At this point, I'd try to put as much distance between yourself and anything you can hurt yourself with. Like don't let yourself near knives, even if you have to go somewhere else to avoid them or get rid of any too dangerous. wish you the best.
>>83640046>Do you often get urges like that?Yes. Im in a nightmare. I wrote a lot and then said some embarrassing things sso I deleted. Dont have a grip on reality is all.
>>83640021don't kyssending you a hug too>>83640133sleep well
>>83640142>as am I haha, keep at it!.Are you being good?
getting sleepy goodnight >>83640197>Im in a nightmarethat sucks do you think it'll get better?>then said some embarrassing things sso I deleted.maybe you should get something like a diary for these things
>>83640311>do you think it'll get betterNo.>maybe you should get something like a diary for these thingsSpeak no evil do no evil
>>83639330>Helloo how's it going?it's going okayy, very tired all day. how about you?>happens from time to time so don't feel too bad about itI'll try not too yea>best of luck!!thank you !>>83639949>did you atleast take care of yourself afterwards?put water on the things, not much else tho, had to clean my room tho>>83640076>Hopefully will make it easier since you'll be so busy won't be able to do ityeah hopefully, i usually am extremely exhausted by the time im home>Tomorrow will come and can see how things are hopefullyI'll probably actually see on Tuesday cause that's when practice is...
>>83640133gn anon>>83640142>i got to pick up some shit anyways,i wish i could be a little idle. Today was uncharacteristically slow, but I know next week is gonna a pain how busy I'll be>i don't think i ever kept up with after it's only the one game and it's not really long. Not much to keep up with. People mod and do all that stuff, but it's done and that's it. >fucked up the file deletion part and bricked my copymade the mistake of trying to delete Monika. Leaving her be is the good ending>never ended up finishing it cus of that.not like there was a lot after, you were essentially there>>83640311gn cat>>83640704> exhausted by the time im homesay that's a good thing even under normal circumstances. >I'll probably actually see on Tuesdayin that case, just take it easy till then if you can. Worrying too much won't help it and you might be surprised things aren't as bad as you worried
>>83639930>though in tf2 playerscale is a bit funky and you can't press E to turn on the monitor D; Btw have u found The jar?Picrel.>what should change is pretty should be societal stigmaLaws are culture and vice versa. If unhealthy animal breeding was geneal knowledge then I'm sure it'd be banned. Nobody would want to see dogs hurt like that outside the people breeding them to begin with.>uploaded map and played peakComfy.>>83640076>few boards I consider much worse than r9kI can't imagine any. Maybe /b/ or /pol/ but thats it really. The rest are fine by me.>Played the very firstHe hasn't used the DOOM2 supershotgun... I haven't seen a better one since.>SpoilerExaaaaactly>>83639906>I will try again It's not like I got anything to loseHave fun with it. Doesn't have to be anything with emotion really, most of my voice recordings are just logging my day.>Yes lonely but so much better it's not chaotic and it's very niceGood good>>83640866>People mod and do all that stuff, but it's done and that's itSeems like a strange choice of game to mod given the non-existent gameplay.
>>83631125>I bought it in a store that sells various electric appliances :Dthat... makes sense. i just thought they were mostly gone. i remember them being a thing when i was a kid.>the cap is black so if you use black thread it'll look good as newor you use a wild color to make it unique. :>>>83631141>even that was way more money than that disaster deserved.sorry you had to go through that experience. especially with that game.>added one new alien race despite being in a different galaxygotta have the stuff everyone remembers! not sure why they didn't just go to anothet solar system. was there a reason why it had to be a new galaxy besides bigger is better?>Gone are the days of being able to straight up kill your party member when you got into shit withi'd never do that anyway, but i get what you mean. none of your decisions mean anything anymore.>That's part of the funif you say so. i get a bit pissy when i feel like i'm getting lied to. ^^'>Still would trust him more than other game leaddon't let him sell you any bridges, though.>this is a grave concernnot sure why it happens, but it's a patter for sure.>die hard ES fans were mad Bethesda include Dwemer ruinswhy?>there would be no variety with dungeons if they didn'tcould just cut most of them and replace them with fun quests instead>similar to the chalice dungeons in bloodbornenot as bad, since they aren't randomly generated, but pretty much. same small dungeons over and over again with slight variations.>you pick starting class with specialization of skills and attributes that factor to base starting stats in addition to raceah, yes. the spiffing brit mad some fun builds around those. ^^
>>83631141>literally villages of shacks but had jarlsprobably quite realistic actually>>83631205way too long now that I look it up. I more mad than ever that game was shitsorry for reminding you D:>I remember 2 I chose the Tali clone elf magei looked them up and still don't remember...>they'll always have an issuegotta get into the news as a politician somehow>I'm pretty sure this happened, I swearyeah, there was something like that. might have fucked him over, but that doesn't mean i didn't get where he was coming from.>Was pretty cool.pretty cool game over all. i even turned into a vampire for a while and stalked the night dressed in nothing but a black hooded robe in search for victims. the i cured myself when i saw that sweet crusader armor. >>83631514hope you at least had a nice weekend. >>83632613>I've never played actually2 was great, got worse and worse, then 6 tried to be 2 and fucked that up. that's about it.>I've never played actuallywhat music?>nothing special.only thing that matters is that you like it.>Does it still now?hm. i think i'm a bit more averse to some of the themes in there now than i was back then, but other than that i'd say it still does. i've read more cringey things since then.>I find I'll re-listen to older music I liked and find it too boring or cringei still mostly listen to the music i heard 20 years ago, so i guess i don't have that, but i'm not into angry music anymore, if that makes sense. guess i'm a bit chiller now.>Also I'll read one room angel, art looks cuteyay! hope you enjoy! :>>>83633570>Gotta burn your hand on stove once to know how bad it really is.true. put my hand on a red glowing stove as a kid and did not do that again.>it worries me that it's so common.gotta be the change we want to see in the world.>>83635319>Why I have less patience than in the pastsome people can't stand if things aren't always about themself. you're right to not take that bullshit anymore.
gonna head to bed now, just didn't want to not reply even though i said i would. good night!
bumps the word (birds the word)
>>83641126>what music?When I hear it again I'll tell you, somewhere in my files.>hm. i think i'm a bit more averse to some of the themes in there now than i was back then, but other than that i'd say it still does.Fair enough. I made it to the end of chapter 3 yesterday so I've been enjoying it. The translated dialogue sounds really natural, and I enjoy the dynamic between the angel and kouki. The best part is that they aren't laying down the bl elements heavy (at least early on) which bad works tend to do.>I'm not into angry music anymore, if that makes sense. guess i'm a bit chiller now.I used to only listen to one or the other, but now that I'm stable I listen to both a lot.
>>83628311>>83624197>sorry you had to make that experience. fair that you don't care for relationships anymorehow can i undo this, should i even try? As hollow as i feel it at least feels safe, of course the bastard i mentioned is still annoying me, but i don't believe him anymore
>>83611499>How are you doing today?fine, kinda hungry>Any plans for today?college and gym>When was the last time you hurt yourself?almost 2 years ago>Why did you hurt yourself?a myriad of reasons>Is there anything bothering you right now?not at all just bored
Kind of had that disjointed sleep again, but at least I woke up and went to bed at more normal times.Almost every second I'm awake in bed is spent thinking of her though ;_;I had a dream with the Nichijou girls in it, so I guess that makes up for it.>>83635921Interviews were always the hardest part for me. I have a good resume but always come off as some kind of giga-autist.>>83636584>all that really matters either way if your body is able to recover what i needs toI guess. I heard that 8 hours straight is what you need though.>It's not much of a time investment at all, but also probably not something to go out of the way for unless you know nothing about it alreadyI know it's supposed to be subversive or something. Maybe I'll give a look at some point.>That kind of thing can make people with no issues spiral out of control, can't imagine what she must of felt.It would have really tripped me up as well so it's hard to be that mad, even if she didn't have BPD. Between another suicide attempt and throwing me away, I guess it was preferable. I think we still miss each other a lot but her condition is making it impossible for her to admit that and try to reconcile.>Suppose I 100% looked I was up to something questionableUnless you're skiing or going to rob a bank you don't have much reason to wear one.>>83638090>I've never liked TV series thst much desuDifferent strokes for different folks, I suppose.>>83639218>my body forces my up after hours lolWhat does your sleep schedule look like?>>83639824I hope you're doing okay, anon. Good job on not relapsing.I've never been in a mental hospital but it sounds miserable.>>83641126>gotta be the change we want to see in the world.Very true. I just hope others think that way as well, otherwise nothing will change.>>83642595I'm probably not the best person to ask, since I'm still obsessing over the girl who left me 10 weeks later.
>>83642671I cant say im still not thinking about him, its so hard
>>83642861Especially if you end up trauma bonded like I'm pretty sure I am, it's incredibly difficult to move on.I'm sorry you're going through it but I think the only thing that's going to help is time.
>>83634644its just a bad habit i cant seem to cut out hahahh get it like cut out like cutting yayyayay ive bren doing it since i was 12 i 19 now and quit constantly like twice for a couple months but it always comess back but nowadays its more intense
>>83640935>PicrelEllis and Rochelle didn't make it RIP>Maybe /b/ or /pol/ the exact 2 I meant. It's been said many times, but r9k would probably be better as a blue board, especially there's already 1 no topic red board>He hasn't used the DOOM2 supershotgunolder doom games were a little before my time and I was mostly on xbox when I was a kid, so just never got to it, but I'm playing older stuff more recent years so might get to it sooner than later>strange choice of game to modmostly people modding their fanfic alternatives to the main story from what I understand. Still quite popular as far as visual novels go>>83641119>gotta have the stuff everyone remembers!kinda boring to go to a new galaxy to find almost nothing. It's like the same issue as with starfield, crappy world building because nothing is new or interesting> it had to be a new galaxy storywise, i think they wanted to try to explore a new galaxy and have the species from milky way be able to survive in case life got wiped out in the Milky Way. It sucks because it was mostly council races, so we didn't even get to see Quarians or Shepard's favorites, the Batarians>i'd never do that anywaynor do I, but it is pretty cool to have the option to really screw stuff up so badly your party will rather attack you than keep going.> i get a bit pissy i was kinda annoyed about the exaggeration about Skyrim having an economy that responds to player actions. That wasn't exaggeration, that was straight up bullshit lolStill not as bad as Peter Molyneux back with Fable
>>83641119>whyThis is a rant about TES lore but....Bethesda has a bad tendency of retconning lore for convenience or design reasons. Dwemer is TES weren't supposed to be in Skyrim at all, but a different type of elves. They probably decided the Dwemer style offered more variety than Skyrim's native elf population from established lore and allowed them to shoehorn in steampunk elements. I personally would have been fine if they kept the ruins on the east side of the map at Morrowind border(which was where they were native) but making two distinct elven ruin tile sets obviously is a bit much>replace them with fun quests insteadto this day, I don't know why they went from having 2 or 3 non-faction side quests per town that were good, to having everyone have "grab x from y ruin" instead.> they aren't randomly generatedthought they were but i didn't play enough i guess>some fun builds around those.I'm mad skyrim add new RP options like being able to chop wood and actually mine, but took away attributes and classes and the entire persuasion/dispostion system>>83641126>probably quite realistic actuallyirl, yes, but with tes it's more not wanting to building more tilesets for a city that's an ancient capital in lore>still don't rememberwasn't very memorable other than remember her ruining speech checks >sweet crusader armor.favorite in the game. Have to do all the evil deeds like dark brotherhood and thieves guild first>>83641138never need to feel pressures to reply
>>83642671> awake in bed is spent thinking of her though hard not have the mind wander like that. I hate when I have bad sleep nights since thoughts get unpleasant and makes it harder to sleep>dream with the Nichijou girlsreally do seem to manage this quite a lot lo> heard that 8 hours straightI think it's completing enough sleep cycles and hitting complete REM sleep, or what I heard. I think 8 hours is a sure way to reach that, but might be leeway for interruption if you still get the same completed cycles>making it impossible for her to admit that and try to reconcile.maybe things will improve when if she's working again now and gets back into more normal routine>don't have much reason to wear one.Shoot, when it's sub zero and windy here and you need to walk long distance outside, I think it's insane to leave exposed skin. Quick way to get frostbite otherwise, so I'd rather look suspicious than have that.
Morning everybody I just woke up shit I woke up very late it's 1pm right now bruh
>>83612613I cant cut this deep. I use a utility blade and one take from a razor but I can't get this deep. What do you use?
>>83644103Hey anon wtfdon't do it, it's gross and it hurts wristcutting as good for nothing except a mere taste of suicide, rather than suicide for real, it's dumb
>>83643976morning anon!I have work today, so probably be less active but hope you have a good day
>>83644150I don't want to cut in my wrists, I just want to cut deeper.I don't think it's gross. I sushi don't want suicide. I just want to cut deeper. Is that really that hard to understand?
>>83644232No sushi sorry I am phone posting in bedI think blades from a razer will be too thin but they're sharp. They don't go this deep though because they're flimsy.The utility knife was too dull but it's sturdier.Please I need to know how to do this. I need to give myself scars that are thicker. It is very specific for me. I deserve to suffer more.
>>83644232anon wtf What's the point of doing that it's only gonna hurt you I have a book about it but I'm not showing that get help>I don't think it's gross I want to suffer too but don't do it > Is that really that hard to understand?it's weird > I just want to cut deeperdon't do that>Please I need to know how to do this. I need to give myself scars that are thicker. It is very specific for me. I deserve to suffer more.????
mornin fellas what are you planning for today?>>83644240Hey anon o/>deserve to suffer more.why do you think like that?I doubt you actually deserve it
Can i just get the information I requesting? I don't want to talk about why I want to do this and you would not understand anyway. I just need to do it and need to have thicker scars.
>>83644386Your smug ass anime bitch avatar flagging pictures isn't helping at all.I don't want to kill myself, I just want to hurt and I don't want to bother explaining it to some random dude on r9k who uses judgemental anime girl images and avatarfags on a Mongolian basket weaving hobbies forum. You said you had a book but won't share it with me. Instead you'd rather post your waifus glaring. I am simply asking for information, not judgement.
>>83644503Sorry anon but I'm too worried about you Just make sure to have some steri strips and bandages in case of an emergency
>>83644583I said before that I hate seeing people doing the whole self harming shit it hurts me to see people doing it it's just a horrible act, why don't you just talk about it instead of doing it more or something What's on your mind?I know you don't want to explain to rando like me about but I'm just worried you knowI can you give you the book if you want but I don't think it will help it just defies the purpose of the this thread? no Also I'm one who should suffer no you but me
>>83636141>was it important to u?yeah, it ok though. I got some more interviews lined up.>Why did she reach out?I think she just wants to spend more time with friends.>sounds nice tell us how it goes when you're backit went well. We just walked around with her cusions. >>83636584hi office anon>Did you get feedback that was it?not really. I think it's that I wasn't the best dressed.>>83639218hi gator>at least you tried, and did it, more then most can doI could've done better though. I know I didn't use everything avilable to me.>>83642671hi dis>Kind of had that disjointed sleep againhope you slept better today.>always come off as some kind of giga-autist.yeah, I might have sperged out just seeming out matched.
>>83644220Thank you so muchI'm free all today so it's nice
Things were going well today but then I had another breakdown. I don't really know how much longer I can keep this up for. Surely there will be a resolution soon...I've calmed down now and I'm making pasta.>>83643896>thoughts get unpleasant and makes it harder to sleepWhy did we evolve to do this? Consciousness was a mistake, I think.>really do seem to manage this quite a lot loIt's happening a lot more often than I'm used to. A lot of my dreams are taking place in the same general area as well, I'm not sure what's going on there.>I think it's completing enough sleep cycles and hitting complete REM sleepThat makes sense. I feel like I've not had any in a while. Hopefully I will soon because my brain needs a rest.>maybe things will improve when if she's working again now and gets back into more normal routineThat's the hope. I'm sure she must miss me. Surely she can't keep it up for another three months...>Quick way to get frostbite otherwiseSpoken like a true felon.>>83643976If it's any consolation you're doing no worse than me in that regard.>>83644705>hope you slept better today.That is how I slept today. Hopefully tonight will be better.> yeah, I might have sperged out just seeming out matched.Oh well, there's always next interview. Eventually you'll come across as normal (enough).
good morning, currently supposed to be at lunch lol>>83640866>Worrying too much won't help it and you might be surprised things aren't as bad as you worriedyeah idk, just scared as heck rn. how are you btw?>>83642671>disjointed sleep againi hate everything about sleeping it's just the worst. >What does your sleep schedule look like?sleep at like 11 pm wake up at 5 to 6 am due to school >>83644705>know I didn't use everything avilable to me.well even if that's true, that's something you learned
