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helloo
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

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>normal edition
Was out of pics to use so this is good

>>83654120
Hey cat, how's it going?

>>83650503
> Still I'm not sure how helpful that is in caveman times.
think cavemen would worried about other things, not necessarily relationship problems just because how different things were then. Fear and worries would be reserved probably through actual life threatening issues, whereas modern mans anxieties are mostly harmless in comparison (relatively speaking to actually dying)
>but I'm not really thinking about my old life while I'm awake.
doesn't need to be the case. Something in your subconscious might be going back, who knows. I had a dream with my family in it even I haven't spoken to anyone in 2 weeks or had a stray thought
>I do just feel very sleepy when I wake up now.
not getting enough for a long time will also do it, no trick will help get around just being sleep deprived
>warm up sooner than later.
starting a new job is itself very time consuming and stressful as well even if a good thing, so need to factor that in for a bit was my point

>>83650581
>Probably was actually fun posting here back then.
Honestly was a bit more depressing and felt more serious. Maybe I'm just older so I gloss over stuff now, but the big "incel shootings" including the one guy who actually posted on r9k before he did his were around then and people seemed more unhinged whereas now I don't get the same feeling
>so past that I got no plans.
gives you 12 years to figure out too though at least.
> between a groundhog and makima to me
i was posting groundhogs for years, but got carried away post padoru season
If anything I want to be pictured as Yoko Taro, but I'm not posting him non-stop as that would get old

>>83654297
hey hey
I played counterstrike 1.6 and had fun :D
now I think ill play some hl
How are yoy?

>>83654479
>I played counterstrike 1.6 and had fun
nice. never played strike before. Though I didn't do much pc gaming with multiplayer I suppose. Hope you're having fun
>How are yoy?
i'm not bad. Almost done with work, but breaking. Feels like a long day, but not as stressed as yesterday so all good

Hello friends. Making a quick post before bed.
I felt pretty good today until I didn't. Same stuff as always. With the added guilt of failing to prevent a friend's suicide and knowing two more might be coming.
Also there's a noise that I thought was tinnitus but it's coming from outside. I wonder what it is.

>>83650581
>I laughed
Tricked into laughing at a Seinfeld joke...
>Getting stiched up felt like someone was controlling my arm like a marionette
That sounds really trippy.

>>83654297
>Fear and worries would be reserved probably through actual life threatening issues
Yeah but how much can you do about the sabre tooth you saw the other day when you can't see anything?
>Something in your subconscious might be going back
Probably. I wonder what. Could be anything with how long I lived there.
>no trick will help get around just being sleep deprived
Darn...
>starting a new job is itself very time consuming and stressful as well
I think she might have had it for longer than I realised. At least a six weeks. That's still pretty recent, I guess.

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>>83654120
>How are you doing today?
CAAAAAAAAAAAAT
Nothing much I studied like usual and kept thinking about killing myself every second of it hehe someone just joined my dc server I'm very happy I got 3 people now who talk to me
>Any plans for today?
Nothing just listening to music and switch tabs like I always do maybe watch this anime I recently downloaded someone recommended to me I hope I'll be able to finish it I'll force myself to do it name of it Haibane Renmei
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
I never did that I hope I will never will it's disgusting I do hate myself so much and want to suffer but not this way I'd rather end it instead of the cutting bullshit hehe
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
yeah mostly studying cause my parents depend on me and I just struggle and can't do it and I don't even want to it's meaningless and I hate it

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>>83654850
gn and sleep well. hopefully better than before, though know you've got a lot weighing you down
>added guilt
sorry to read that. But it's not really the kind of thing you can prevent once someone has made up their mind. Know that doesn't help much, but I don't think there's really anything you could do in the end with things like this
>how much can you do
i feel like most human fear responses are primed for flight, which is why even in bad situations that aren't dangerous we often describe ourselves as being backed into a corner. If you don't feel safe somewhere, you shouldn't be in that spot no matter what, though again what is our modern conception of safe? That's the difference
>Could be anything
i hear you. It is rather weird. I'll have dreams with no connection to anything I'd even thought about for years, then feel suddenly like something matters as a result
>That's still pretty recent, I guess.
yeah I'd say. Depending on the job could be months before feeling comfortable there


>>83655067
hey anon, hope you're having a good day
>maybe watch this anime I recently downloaded
what anime?
>don't even want to it's meaningless and I hate it
it's not completely meaningless, but depends what you do when you're done where you are

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>>83655503
>hey anon, hope you're having a good day
Thank you officenono
>what anime?
it's Haibane Renmei it looks like it's about angels and stuff I love characters who look like angels and have cute halo above their head
>it's not completely meaningless
It is anon I swear if it wasn't I would have probably did study
it's just stupid, I study and work my ass off just for someone else to just cheat or get a job so easily cause of family connections it's a waste education system here is garbage
>but depends what you do when you're done where you are
There is literally no good field of study it's just literature stuff cause of my high school branch I can't choose any of scientific shit so I'm cooked either ways

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>>83654120
>>How are you doing today?
A lot better now. I got a parking pass refunded. I got an old friend to offer more chances to hangout. I got an easy class to finish my degree. I got an email back about another city accepting my application. I had a successful job interview.
A lot picked up today
>>Any plans for today?
Just playing subnotica and watching severance.
And making a separate windows boot drive for my test. The security code keeps stopping me.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I ate a lot today for some reason. I really wish I could stop.
>>83654297
hi officeanon
>Was out of pics to use so this is good
I think it's a normal pic
>>83654479
hi cat
>I played counterstrike 1.6 and had fun :D
Alright! shoot em all. or scratch them.
>>83654850
hi dis
>With the added guilt of failing to prevent a friend's suicide
You didn't kill them. it's not your fault.

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>>83654120
hey catbro! how are you?

>>83654297
hi officeanon! what are you up to?

>If anything I want to be pictured as Yoko Taro, but I'm not posting him non-stop as that would get old
he's a fun guy and very relatable

>>83654850
hey dinon!

>Making a quick post before bed
good night!

>With the added guilt of failing to prevent a friend's suicide and knowing two more might be coming.
that must way heavy on you. can you tell anyone about those friends of yours?

>I wonder what it is.
maybe they installed one of those devices that only younger people can hear to prevent them from loitering in certain areas?

>>83655067
hello anon!

>>83655715
hi cynic! good to see you!

>I got a parking pass refunded
why?

>I got an old friend to offer more chances to hangout.
that's nice. how did you guys reconnect?

>I got an easy class to finish my degree. I got an email back about another city accepting my application. I had a successful job interview.
looking good for you! :D hope it all works out. what's your new job?

>Just playing subnotica and watching severance.
a well deserved break.

>I ate a lot today for some reason. I really wish I could stop
me too. :/ at least you're having a lot going on, so your brain needs that energy.

hey everyone, hope your days were good. today fucking sucked for me personally, so i might vent a bit too much here.

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>>83654779
>I didn't do much pc gaming with multiplayer I suppose.
what game's were you planning back then?
>Hope you're having fun
thank you I am
>Almost done with work
best if luck o7

>>83654850
Hello
>post before bed.
sleep well!
>felt pretty good today until I didn't
ar least your days are getting a little good
but I hope the part that makes them bad goes away
>was tinnitus but it's coming from outside.
hm I know some car's alarms make noises like that and they annoy me a lot

>>83654850
Heyhey :D
>studied like usual and kept thinking about killing myself
that's usually a side effects of studying :<
>very happy I got 3 people now who talk to me
yay glad to hear about that good news
>Nothing just listening to music
what are you listening to?
>force myself to do it name of it Haibane Renmei
that's right \o/
hope you have fun
>yeah mostly studying
when are you going to get some longer break from studying?

>>83655503
cute miku

>>83655715
Hey
>refunded. I got an old friend to offer more...
that's a lot of nice things!
glad to hear about that
>playing subnotica and watching severanc
have fun
>! shoot em all. or scratch them
Mo-Mo-Mo-Monster kill

>>83655793
Hello
I played some cs1.6 and hl so overall a good day wbu?

>>83655839
Eya
what happened?

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>>83654120
Hallo /cat/. What's up?
>>How are you doing today?
Pretty meh. Woke up too late to go the the care center, so I'll have to take my stiches out the next day.
>>Any plans for today?
Actually getting started on reading (for real this time)
>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
December.
>>Why did you hurt yourself?
Anxiety of possibly failing college.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Not really, no.
>>83654297
Hallo officeanon
>Yoko Taro
Cool mask.
>12 years to figure out too though at least.
Yeah true. The only thing I could imagine is starting a family in future, but thats a shaky prospect for a lot of reasons outside my control.
>Honestly was a bit more depressing and felt more serious.
I'd attribute it to the board blowing up in other online spaces and attracting people to here. I think I started lurking around lockdown.
>>83654479
>I played counterstrike 1.6 and had fun :D
It's aweosme, I love the non-english servers where music gets blasted. Played on those a couple times with friends.
>>83654850
Hallo discanon
>added guilt of failing to prevent a friend's suicide and knowing two more might be coming.
Yeah but what could you have even done? By the time you've set your mind to do it most people aren't turning back. Words only go so far, can't pull them to safety.
>Tricked into laughing at a Seinfeld joke...
OK it might be worth watching
>That sounds really trippy.
It is.
>>83655067
Hallo anon
>Haibane Renmei
It's quite good, I have a lot of Yotonoshi Abe's art of it saved on my computer. Hope you enjoy, real comfy show.
>it's meaningless and I hate it
Unless you want to shovel concrete or sleep in a barracks till you're 80, you've really got no choice in the matter.
>it's a waste education system here is garbage
Where's here?
>>83655715
Hallo cynic
>A lot picked up today
Sounds like it, good day.

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>>83655793
Hallo yuanon, I finished reading one room angel. Was comfy, and I really loved seeing the growth of Kouki up to the mangas end. The plot twists were also really good, especially the one where angel realizes he was never really an angel. What about it nowadays did you cringe at?
>pic
Funny.
>>83655839
Hallo che
>today fucking sucked
Whathappen?

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>>83655912
>It's quite good, I have a lot of Yotonoshi Abe's art of it saved on my computer. Hope you enjoy, real comfy show.
Sounds nice then I'll watch it
>Unless you want to shovel concrete or sleep in a barracks till you're 80,
Don't worry I'll kill myself by then yippie
>you've really got no choice in the matter.
Why is life like this I hate it
>Where's here?
My country I prefer not say if you are ok with it
I'm very sooorry :c

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>>83655610
>Haibane Renmei
had to look this up. Quite old, interesting you stumble up this to watch, but pretty neat. Hope you like it
> I love characters who look like angels
Fair, I think we all have our preferences with characters archetypes and styles
>just cheat or get a job so easily cause of family connections
I'd say that's reasonable to be annoyed about yeah. Unfortunately can't argue with that. But end of day, you have to do whatever you can to get by. Doing decent with school at least gives you more options, even if I agree it still kinda sucks
> I can't choose any of scientific shit
not sure science fields are even the best things right now anyway. I went into tech, but if I was picking again today might not go with that in current environment being what it is

>>83655715
hey cynic
>A lot picked up today
great to hear! a lot of exciting news

>>83655793
hey yuanon, how's it going?
>what are you up to?
finally completely done with work. Very tired, but wasn't as bad as yesterday
>very relatable
lol don't remember seeing this one before

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soundtrack for today : https://youtu.be/4qlCC1GOwFw?list=RD4qlCC1GOwFw


>>83655901
>what happened?
nothing really, just today is fucking trash, i'm still sick can't make myself eat and everyone is just being not how i want them to be i. music can't get loud enough. maybe i'm just having a regular crashout or something.

>>83655967
>Whathappen?
replied to it to to cat, idk i just can't think or type today.

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>>83655999
>had to look this up. Quite old
I like old stuff they are pretty neat
>I think we all have our preferences with characters archetypes and styles
Whaaaaaaaaaaat you don't like angels???
>But end of day, you have to do whatever you can to get by
Cmon there has to be something
>you more options, even if I agree it still kinda sucks
The options will still suck ass at the end of the day that's why I told you it's just a waste
>not sure science fields are even the best things right now anyway.
being a CS majro or anything scientific is 10x times better than any other field of study it grants so many options as far as I know
>but if I was picking again today might not go with that in current environment being what it is
see picrel that's so me

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>>83655839
no worries. Vent all you want.
Sorry to hear though either way. Hope things look up

>>83655901
>were you planning back then?
I mean back when I was high school I think I played a ton of Halo and Call of Duty mostly, switching mostly single player RPG's later on. I was playing on Xbox back then. When I was college age didn't do a lot of gaming except an unhealthy amount of Mount and Blade lol Didn't back to gaming much till past few years
>cute miku
have more and more where that came from

>>83655912
>Actually getting started on reading
best of luck! Always easier to keep going after the first few pages
> imagine is starting a family in future
how I feel, but I have a hard time imaging how it would go. Even with the right person, i struggle imaging myself raising kids at this point. Maybe in the past, but i have a lot of bad traits (I don't particularly show here) that might make it difficult even if everything else goes right.
> board blowing up in other online spaces
Guess it's just the nature of more and more people are spending a lot of time online and engaging with it primarily. Especially pandemic era onward. I wasn't actively using 4chan at that time so can't imagine what it was like then

>>83656001
>soundtrack for today
Same as one of those 2000s era youtube DBZ montages

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>>83655991
>Don't worry I'll kill myself by then yippie
You know it'd probably do you good to talk about killing yourself less. Less about it being a bother but more letting it occupy your mind less where you can.
>Why is life like this
It is what it is
>My country I prefer not to say
Fair enough.
>>83656001
>soundtrack
Based. I was told linkin park was "lame emo shit" years ago by some loser and took it to heart. Only got into them around 2 years ago, Hybrid Theory is a perfect album.
>>83656214
>being a CS major anything scientific is 10x times better than any other field of study
It's still a mixed bag. Grabbing a bunch of certs and going to college won't even guarantee work anymore, it's all about having a stacked portfolio and specialists now as far as I've heard. No placements without years of expertise...
>The options will still suck ass at the end of the day
Is there not any career at all you'd like?
>>83656277
>Halo
The best.
>best of luck!
Thanks thanks
>Even with the right person, i struggle imaging myself raising kids at this point ... bad traits
I dunno, might not be so set in stone that they're insurmountable. I'd probably be pretty bad at raising kids as I am now as well. Too naive, too scatterbrained.

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>>83655793
hi yu
>why?
It's a little complicated, but it was basically deemed an overcharge.
>how did you guys reconnect?
apparently she asked about me through a mutual.
>>83655901
>>83655912
>>83655999
thanks for the well wishes.

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>>83656440
>You know it'd probably do you good to talk about killing yourself less
But this is the only place I could talk about it cmon now anon :(
> but more letting it occupy your mind less where you can.
It's already occupied my mind a long time ago it's been like this for years I'm such a lazy mother fucker
>It is what it is
Whatever happens happens
>It's still a mixed bag. Grabbing a bunch of certs and going to college won't even guarantee work anymore
See that's what I'm talking about why would someone waste time going to college and getting 5 certs just end up being replaced by an indian saar or something
>Is there not any career at all you'd like?
I'm mostly into military stuff I always special forces, or any military related stuff but from what I heard everybody keeps warning me about cause it's just slavery and just not good in general even if you managed to get really good grades at the end of the day you just gonna end up as a lower rank cause all posts are filled with bunch of fuckers who had connection to get there it's almost impossible to get promoted without having connections with higher ups
As for other careers I always to do voice acting but I don't think that will work, computer science is just too hard for me I suck ass at math other than that I got nothing in mind

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>>83655839
hi chevy!

>hope your days were good
just went to work, then sat around in front of my pc, now i'm lying in bed, waiting to fall asleep so i can get up early for some more work. yay!

>might vent a bit too much here.
fire away

>>83655901
>I played some cs1.6 and hl so overall a good day
how was it? i never understood cs. the buying equipment part was too complicated for me... anyways, what are you to now?

>wbu?
eh. just worked and now i'm in bed so i can sleep and get up to work some more. fun stuff. :[

>>83655967
>oi toga! doing well?
>Was comfy, and I really loved seeing the growth of Kouki up to the mangas end.
it really is and, as weird and fantastical the premise is, how he deals with everything is really down to earth and relatable.

>where angel realizes he was never really an angel.
it's not that i cringe at it, but more that i'm not dealing to well with the subject matter in general. it was told very well, but i know the story now and i'm not sure i could reread it knowing what's going on.

>Funny
i guess you can add his reasoning to why i'm posting yua :p

>>83655999
>how's it going?
tired, but not sleepy. lying in bed, waiting for work. for now i'm just listening to some youtube vid.

>finally completely done with work. Very tired, but wasn't as bad as yesterday
let's gooo!! :D good job, dude. any plans for the rest of your day? and what was yesterday?

>>83656001
>soundtrack for today
nice one. i listened to linkin park a lot a long time ago and listening to them now alwayd brings me back.

>>83656441
>it was basically deemed an overcharge
finally the system was ob your side for once! \o/

>she asked about me through a mutual
that's nice. what will you do to catch up?

gonna try to sleep now. should stop by a bit earlier tomorrow. at least i hope so. good night.

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>tried to search biblically accurate angels
>get biblically accurate miku as first suggestion
the algorithm is learning

>>83656214
>I like old stuff they are pretty neat
that's good. Miss out on a lot of good stuff by keeping recent. I don't think new stuff is bad, but quite a differences
>you don't like angels???
I'm fine with angels aha Just normally super drawn to them
>has to be something
end of day, have to do whatever it takes to get by. Not always going to be fun sadly
>CS majro or anything scientific is 10x times better
science to go into engineering or some medical yes. Pure science is pretty useless to find work with unless you're planning on staying at schools forever


>>83656440
> No placements without years of expertise
even with that, it's not always great. It's scary how many people I went to school with are unemployed now and have been for months.
>I was told linkin park was "lame emo shit"
very common occurrence. Been hearing this for over 20 years now. Glad you went back to giving them a chance since agreed
>The best.
It was the perfect FPS for me and suppose many others. Still go back to play campaigns of the original 3 every few years.
>might not be so set in stone
I agree, just more a concern more than anything. My parents were terrible and made decisions regardless of the well being of their kids, I just don't want to be that honestly.

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idk guess i'll vent a bit. today i was just sick and couldn't do much except sleep. my gf was busy with stuff so i couldn't really talk to her either, i did talk to her a bit and she tried to comfort me a bit but it didn't help at all. relationships just fucking suck for some reason, they always have. damned if you do, damned if you don't.

https://youtu.be/C-da7_6sx_c?si=uNOLnLZNgdEDEGUh was thinking about this ig, i have the cd.

>>83656277
>Hope things look up
hopefully, we'll see. what have you been up to tho?
>those 2000s era youtube DBZ montages
yeah haha, early internet stuff

>>83656440
>Hybrid Theory is a perfect album.
yeah, sometimes i get sad that the whole style of nu-metal will never come back even tho they're trying so goddamn hard. makes me nostalgic for the 2000's, even tho i didn't really conciously experience those, linkin park n stuff was the bgm for my very earliest memories cus of my brother and dad.

>>83656579
>waiting to fall asleep so i can get up early for some more work.
hope you atleast have a nice sleep and a quiet day at work ^^

I thought I was out for a while but it was three hours...
At least I had a vivid dream with a bunch of crazy stuff in it. Or it might have been a bunch of separate dreams. Either way she showed up in them again. That was after some WWE wrestlers were going down a huge half pipe on scooters.

>>83655503
>I don't think there's really anything you could do in the end with things like this
I guess. I still feel really guilty a few years later though. I definitely could have navigated that last conversation with him much better.
>what is our modern conception of safe? That's the difference
I see. That makes sense.
>then feel suddenly like something matters as a result
It's pretty rare for me to think profound thingst after a dream.
>could be months before feeling comfortable there
I think she's settled into it already by the sound of it.

>>83655715
Hi cynic, glad things are going well for you.
>You didn't kill them. it's not your fault.
I know it was his choice at the end of the day, but he came to me in his moment of need and I failed him completely. It's really hard not to feel responsible for that.

>>83655793
Hi yuanon
>can you tell anyone about those friends of yours?
Not really. To be honest I don't talk to many people outside of this thread. They both know each other (as much as internet people can), and one knows about the other's situation. I'm not really sure if that helps.
>maybe they installed one of those devices that only younger people can hear to prevent them from loitering in certain areas?
I don't think it's that but I guess I can't rule it out.

>>83655839
Hi chev. Hopefully tomorrow will be better!

>>83655901
>I hope the part that makes them bad goes away
You and me both.
>some car's alarms make noises like that
It could be this. Like a continuous high pitched whine?

>>83655912
>By the time you've set your mind to do it most people aren't turning back.
That's true. I still think he came to me as a last chance to back out of it so that's where a lot of my guilt is.
>OK it might be worth watching
The episode is The Fusilli Jerry, if you're curious.
I should give that another watch later.

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>>83656535
>But this is the only place I could talk about it cmon now anon :(
But to what end? There's nothing to be said that hasn't already been said, it only makes you feel more down ruminating and posting about it.
>It's already occupied my mind a long time ago it's been like this for years
For the 2 years I was dealing with suicide ideation, talking about it only brought temporary relief (if any). Agonizing over my own writings and reading others response to it in hopes of feeling any better only furthered my despair after the brief reprieve granted by venting.
>I'm mostly into military stuff I always special forces, or any military related stuff
If you live in western europe or the states it's not a bad option tbdesu. Can't say anything for the rest of the world. Being able to stack up money without paying food or housing is always a plus. Canadian military kinda sucks but it's my backup for this reason. As for getting an actually good postion, military college can get you something half decent most of the time, especially if you opt for the airforce/air guard etc branches.
>As for other careers I always wanted to do voice acting
Why voice acting?
>>83656579
>oi toga! doing well?
Pretty good now, yeah. Spent the day hanging with family and doing housework. Gonna hop on tf2 and read later today as well. What about you?
>he deals with everything is really down to earth and relatable.
Yeah exactly, the entire story is really well grounded and the dialogue flows super naturally.
>it's not that i cringe at it, but more that i'm not dealing to well with the subject matter in general
Fair enough.
>i guess you can add his reasoning to why i'm posting yua
It's funny how avatars work, even if you're to see the person irl, the avatar they've got still paints your view of them. I've met people from online before, and how I see them is a cross between the physical and digital. Something something lain

>>83656658
>It's scary how many people I went to school with are unemployed now and have been for months.
I'm thankful everyday I didn't go into comp-sci, my original plan before electrical was to just do certs and hope for a placement.
>Still go back to play campaigns of the original 3 every few years.
I regularly play 1 and 2 on my laptop, 3 onwards is too intense to run. They both still have active servers which is pretty cool. I'm actually partway through a legendary run of Halo CE, all that's left is the last 2 levels.
>I just don't want to be that honestly.
I worried often for years about inheriting the worst of my dad, with this culminating in revulsion at the idea of ever being like that. You really don't want to be that, and you know what that is, so you won't be that.
>>83656680
>linkin park n stuff was the bgm for my very earliest memories cus of my brother and dad.
My earliest music memories are all nintendo game and undertale soundtracks. That, and the halo menu music.
>>83656715
>The episode is The Fusilli Jerry, if you're curious.
Might watch.

heya
it's funny how we are killing the threads instead of waking up to find it dead by itself
>>83654120
hru cat??

>>83654297
hey officeanon hru?


>>83654479
>counterstrike 1.6
are there a lot of players there? how are the servers going?

>>83654850
>With the added guilt of failing to prevent a friend's suicide
to be honest i felt a bit surprised when i read this cuz the post felt so calm.
sorry. sometimes you can't do anything, you can't change anything sometimes.
it was their choice, let's hope the other two don't do it, try your best helping them tho!
>I wonder what it is.
you found it yet?


>>83655793
hey yuanon!
how are you?

>>83655839
>so i might vent a bit too much here.
vent as much as you need mate. i hope you're doing better now

>>83650503
>For me, crying helps a lot to end them faster.
crying does help but tears won't come out sometimes
>Either way I hope you're doing better now.
thanks disanon, hope you too.

>>83650581
>but breakdowns it's best just to ride them out and focus on anything else
yeah. not every time tho i believe

>>83656579
>tired, but not sleepy.
opposite for me, i'm very sleepy but somehow not completely out of energy for what I'm doing now somehow
>t listening to some youtube vid.
music or something else?
> any plans for the rest of your day?
eh have to do some work for a website. Took a break for some gaming for a bit but back to it
>what was yesterday?
just chaotic day at work. Really too much to do with no one to do it

>>83656680
>relationships just fucking suck for some reason
looking at the other perspective, even if things aren't ideal, she did try to help, so that's good isn't it? Could be a lot of a situation suppose is all
>what have you been up to tho?
buried beneath working counting the days to the weekend again.
> whole style of nu-metal will never come back
we didn't know how good we had it till it was gone

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>>83656705
> I was out for a while but it was three hours
should try to get more rest if you haven't gone back to bed already yet
>definitely could have navigated that last conversation
thing is, no one ever really thinks the last conversation they have with someone is the last, least not normally. Maybe there's truth to that, but you never know what the best is to do until after you've seen things out. Sorry again you're dealing with this,
>profound thingst after a dream.
I randomly got my whole life on track after a random, inconsequential dream one day when I was at my lowest actually. Really crazy that's what got me on track back then

>>83657196
>thankful everyday I didn't go into comp-sci
I'd say it's not completely a dead end, but the easy jobs slight pre pandemic through pandemic days are over. Most economies kind of suck, imagine whenever market stabilizes, will probably be back to pre-pandemic with some differences.
>They both still have active servers which is pretty cool
I have a friend who plays quite a lot and made consider hopping back to multiplayer. Imagine i'm gonna be trash after years off, but tempted when I clear up space on my harddrive
> last 2 levels
The finale will be fun on legendary. Apparently people really didn't like the warthog section, but i always kinda did
>I worried often for years about inheriting the worst of my dad
kinda similar experience. I didn't want to be like him in a lot of ways. I think in many ways I've avoided that thankfully. Others not so much, but have worked to change. Other people thing for me is to not fixate so much on not being someone, that you end up becoming someone worse

>>83657485
hey rm! how's it going?
>how we are killing the threads
it did reach image limit. Though it didn't dawn on me that's why it died
>hru
overworked, but could be worse. Ready for the weekend to hurry up. Think I have Monday off next week

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youtube recommended me shit about the yugoslav wars, so falling down that rabbit hole rn, i don't know much about it except stories from ppl ik irl that served over there during, not much posititve tho.
https://youtu.be/aAKEdd_H0XY?si=tmktXRqnnNdK5X7U

>>83656705
>Hopefully tomorrow will be better!
we shall see, i hope so tho. hope you have a good day tomorrow too then.

>>83657196
>nintendo game and undertale soundtracks
those did have really good soundtracks desu. i miss the older pokemon games a lot. as for undertale i guess i just never bothered to check out deltarune so that's that.
>the halo menu music.
also fire, but i discovered that much much later due to being a playstation hardliner for most of my life for some reason, and the only reason for that was because i thought xbox controllers looked stupid.

>>83657485
>we are killing the threads
it is pretty funny, did these threads get a lot more popular or something? cus i cannot remember this happening in the past desu.

>>83657535
>she did try to help, so that's good isn't it?
I guess so, but I can't help myself but hold it against her for some reason. I'm probably jumping to conclusions way too fucking much.
>working counting the days to the weekend again.
damn, working that much huh?
>we didn't know how good we had it till it was gone
many such cases unfortunately