Why not? Edition.To my love,It is not a sin to love another. It is not a sin to yearn for what could be. How many times must you go through this before you finally realize it's more than just temptation? That what you feel is real? These feelings will not just go away. Maybe you feel you deserve to suffer? Maybe you are just scared? Realistically it must be a lot of things. I wish I could take all the pain away. It only hurts me to see you going through this.. What I do know is you will never truly be happy where you are at. Nor your partner. The two of you will continue to spiral, and maybe that is appealing to the both of you? A penance to show just how devoted you are. Depression can make people feel they deserve the awful conditions, and duress they go through. Insanity is doing the same thing over, and over expecting different results. I think it's time for me to realize the truth to this, and understand it's simply not the right time.Faith can be expressed in many ways. What I do know is living in such a way will not provide the means to ever get out of such a condition. Things will not improve. For anyone involved. I weep, and pray for you. I forgive you. I love you. Always, and forever. I wish I could make you see. But, it is beyond my control. I will continue my readings, and my efforts. I will always keep you in my heart. Thinking of you fondly. Only with love. Praying someday you realize things don't have to be the way they are. Whether that involves me or not. I hope what you choose is what you truly desire. So you can find a small comfort in that. All I ever wanted was for you to be healthy, happy, and strengthen your relation to God. If my presence stands in the way of that then it's a no-brainer for me. I hope you find what you are looking for. I am sorry too.
>>84246142SYou really were trash and I regret ever meeting you
>>84246142Tldr: i fucked Chad because pussytingles but it shouldn't matter mmkay? Keep giving me shekels, moid slave.
>>84246142MY BABY ACTS COOL BUT THEY ALL KNOW SOMETHING AIN'T RIGHT, AIN'T RIGHT
my sin is not that i love you, it is that i am an adulterer. i don't deny that what i feel is real, but it's wrong for me to nurture and cultivate those feelings. i can learn to be happy enough where i am. things can get better if im hard working and have patience. i won't simply sit by and allow things to stagnate. i know that you and i genuinely love one another. i also know that we fight and have different values and want different things in life. there is a fundamental lack of stability and mutual understanding between us. i need to be able to have that to feel secure in a relationship. i do have that in my current relationship, in spite of its flaws. i love you. im sorry. i never wanted to hurt you
That's why I say next time have it be from a position where it's not a sin. If there is a next time. Letting those feelings mix with what you feel about me will never produce something good. I don't think you will be truly happy. You'll get by, but it's not just you either. It's not like you can just go back to how things were. I know you'll work hard. I just hope it doesn't prolong undue suffering for everyone involved. I don't think we want different things in life. I also feel we share the same values, or close enough. The fighting from my perspective has always came from the negative feelings I mentioned above. The situation itself. That was just not going to work out. I think that's a big proponent of what fuels those temptations for you. The idea it could work given the right circumstances. There could be stability if the situation was different. There was just nothing stable about how it came about. You say you have stability now, but I don't see that at all. I see two people who should have parted ways a long time ago. Their death-grip sunk cost fallacy of a relationship will not last. The writing has been on the wall for a long time. It is self-evident given what has happened.It's okay. It was always worth it to me. You are forgiven, and I am sorry too. I just wish we could of had an actual chance. Maybe we will some day. I don't know. We've gone back, and forth so many times. I just want the next time to be from a place free from sin. You owe me, and yourself that much if, or when the time comes. For me there really is no other choice. Another no-brainer. If there is nothing else I can do then I will pray for you. Just as I did before. Working hard just like you. Take care of yourself, and know I will always love you. You are my everything. I'm sorry for all of the pain, and struggles I've created for you. I would never want someone I love to be "happy enough". I hope you're so happy that you're smiling, and squealing, and kicking your feet..
>>84246424i will pray for you, too. thank you for every moment we shared. i will always love you
>>84246494I will cherish all of our moments together. I hope we have many more some day.. I will always love you too. More than anything. Please take care of yourself.
Grace,One time you got jealous because I thought a girl was really cute. Do you remember how we had a turbulent relationship because of me. Now this girl does to me what I was doing to you.
>>84246786Sucks, doesn't it? Enjoy!
>>84246814This is my penance. My purgatory for the pain i inflicted on another.
Mods and janitorsYour work hasn't gone unnoticed. There are still plenty of spammers to deal with and we, the people of r9k, will keep pointing them out to you. But so far there has been clear improvement. And we're gratefulThank your9k
She did a 4 hour stream this Saturday but something seemed off this time. She got mad at the chat for complaining about her choice of games (first one didn't work with streaming, second one gave some people eye cancer) and she started to "punish" her audience by playing a really boring, "safe" streaming game that was probably another one of her hidden jabs. Someone should try giving her a hug or something as she got really morose at times. I hope she knows that she has brought light into the lives of many people who would really miss her when she's gone. I'm thinking about plugging out of the international news for a while as it's too depressing seeing some of these powerful morons bringing the world to the brink of a war that could be our last one.
>>84247340>thanking the janniesEither the doxxing got these faggots to actually get off their asses and actually moderate and regulate this board or this place has seriously gone downhill since I left....
>>84247763I feel a tiny bit bad about saying this but his incessant spamming was a bit much and I'm glad he's gone. Finally, some peace.
>on 4chin >style: futaba>tfw no yandere gf
The mods finally got ride of Mike? Or did he finally give up on the teenager he sent inappropriate chats to for a few weeks 6 years ago?
>>84246151Don't think we ever met but like, aight.
>>84248589If Mike were here we'd be 80 posts deep in his wild fanfiction about himself by now.Hopefully with him gone people will start to use these threads again, he chased away basically everyone.
>>84248589I'm pretty sure it was just an AI agent that got switched off, finally.
>>84248669Hopefully. Keep the thread at the top. I will keep posting about the bpd woman who was obsessed with me and her sister and also posting about the woman I am currently having bpd meltdowns over.
Writing a single letter is not spam MariaI said my prayers. I remember the way you were with me. The way you smiled when you looked at me, your eyes had this look of love, innocence, desire. The way your ears slightly stick out from your hair. The way you would say something under your breath and look away. Then look back up at me and tell me what it was quietly. The way we completed each other sentences, our thoughts. How it feels to be home with you. Safe, understood, complete, and fully honest. No games, no timing, Just pure honesty. I'd have difficulty falling asleep on the phone with you because I just wanted to kiss you. Thinking about what it would be like as you ran into my arms at the airport picking you up and kissing you for that first time. The way you'd be next to me in the car and I put my hand on your inner thigh. I've lived that night over and over with you. What happens when we open the front door. The way your eyes light up. The way your voice shakes when you look at me. You start crying because you're so happy. There's all these little moments that I live in with you all the time. I go there whenever I look at where you're missing because it feels good to spend that time with you there. Everyday for what, 5 years now. I truly do love you. My heart's broken and I still love you. And I know you're it for me. There is no other. So everyday I go forward and I put our energy into us at the house here, all these ways in which you don't see, and so much I do hear to protect us. And there's a fear that I'll see that line crossed and then that's it. That's incredibly sad. Because I know I won't continue without you. I'm just not able to do that. So until then my heart's ripped open, bleeding, and I dwell in our little moments where you're home.With all my heartMike
>>84248591It'd be funny if it actually was you but lol there's no way. I just wanted to be treated like a person instead of being mocked with your friends and thrown away
>>84249314But I have no friends and you just reminded me of this fact v.v
The lies made up about me and negative narrative harassment is the real spam I wrote one post You wrote 4>>84247763>>84248490>>84248589>>84248669
>>84246142I want to kick you in the teeth until your gums are just right for sucking my dick
I hope they stop drilling you into the ground despite our place not operating, and you're not being a stationary little boss girl. I always worry about your health since the bronchitis almost killed you. Last time I heard such nasty coughs, a fat lady died from them. You're a cute little elf that deserves to be comfortable. You claim you're old, yet you're young enough to get away with things. You're in a high place, and you're cute. Ok, the last thing you said kinda pissed me off, but I get it, you're still being used and abused like a mannequin, and you have no way to decompress.I thank you for some snacks, your attention to me, and generally just you being my little salaried manager. Sometimes I wonder what happens if we ever did go farther, you trying to hug me the first moment you stepped through the door makes me think you want more than what I got.I was burned last time I dated a coworker, and almost got blackballed. You're mature, you're sophisticated and worldly, and you're naturally beautiful, yet you're half my size and I always think about carrying you around with me like an orc to a little goblin. You're older and you complain about your achiness, but I see a limber little lemur of a woman that's just stopped by paperwork.I won't bother you until you want to be bothered.I'm glad you're never reading this because I'd shit myself if you ever figured me out.
Hey so you got an eye infection, you wouldn't imagine how ironic that is. I still hate you to this day, and meeting you was such a mistake during the time that I was losing my mind.
I shouldn't be seeing a married man, but I'm not going to stop just yet. I'm comfortable around him, and it's easy to expect nothing out of our relationship. I have no hatred towards you, and I don't care about anything that happened before. I think I can admit now that I was comparing you to Johnny Bravo. You're a lot like him lol. dude why'd you block me? jk I get it. I might get a house or condo of sorts this year. I was looking at places and saw a super cheap place that'd be good for you if you wanted to move out of your shithole. I wish I could send it. I imagine your place must be better now, though.
I'll do it this way for 30 days and then you'll see there was not a difference. Then I'll continue the way it should of been without your harassment and projections.
I often wish that I was born slavic. I don't know why. Something about it has always appealed to me.I feel drawn to Russia, to Eastern Europe in general. I've always loved the atmosphere.I know that I kind of sound like a weeaboo talking about Japan here, but that shitty kind of life just appeals to me.I didn't grow up rich or anything, I was actually fairly poor here in the United States, but the US has a bunch of rich assholes and a dying sense of community.It would've been nice to grow up in some slavic country where we're all poor and a sense of local community still exists.Maybe I would have felt like less of an outcast. I also like how slavs appear to be stuck in the late 2000s technology wise.
>>84252167You need to stop spamming. Mike was fine with his letter and right that you faggots are spamming the thread crying like little bitches. At this point you are who pisses me off and if his post goes down I'll repost it for him
>>84249370Then you aren't the same person
>>84252335I'm not Mike and you are spamming the thread with your whiny ass bitch fit. Tired of seeing you piss yourself every day over Mikes letters. Get a life dude
Fortunate mods can see I'm not Mike via IP and an just sick of you spamming the thread whining about Mike when he wrote a single letter today. If anything you are the reason letter thread has been shit. All your spamming. Hopefully mods can get rid of your spamming ass
>>84252449Mods can see I'm not him and that you are just attacking other anons and spamming the thread. Hopefully the are awake and can clean you off the board so we can actually have a decent thread.
>>84252473R, Today was rough but I got through it. I got the article written and feel a lot better now that I'm done. I sent it to you. Let me know how you like it. J
But the trips back on so I can filter you, fag
>>84252483You should seek psychiatric care of you seriously think I type like Mike. I bet you accuse every post that "bothers" you him. Plus you're choice of language is enough to show your character. Hoping mods remove you for spam/flooding.
>>84252499Bro, I am not Mike. Take your meds and stop spamming the thread.
>>84252509Defending, I mean
Mods if you could deal with the spammer. Mikes gone for 30 days and it would be nice not to have to see the thread spammed by this anon who accused everyone of being him. >>84252335>>84252458>>84252483>>84252499>>84252509
>>84252541Bro, I'm not Mike. I'm not ban evading and you are clearly being a spamming abusive person attacking me just because you have mental issues. Please follow the board rule and don't spam or do hate speech.
>>84252527Did you read this to make sure it makes sense?
Hopefully mods remove you or give you a warning so we don't have to listen to you spam the thread accusing everyone that they are Mike for the next 30 days. Best case they put you in a 30 day ban and we can actually have a letter thread.
>>84252483I second this post. Those post reek of poorly disguised mental illness.
>>84252580And you know mods will see if you are same fagging and that legitimizes a ban for spamming the thread.
I am literally the only one who has written a letter in the past hour and then had to deal with replying to a spamming retard after being accused and berrated with hate speech. Please mods, I beg you, do something about the spammer.
>>84252617You are the one sperging out accusing me of being Mike. Please mods remove the hate speech harassing spammer. Clearly against board rules and not in topic with the thread. I'd like to have a decent letter thread this month and it's tough to do that when being harassed and accused just because this spammer has mental fixation on Mike and won't stop bitching about him here
>>84252617Listen BUDDY I don't know who you think I am but I am not that Jewish faggot
I just edited the data in this thread to say Lifetime Cuckery Winner and let that information carry on to other sciences, because anyone with that problem probably already has 26 or more children, and that would cost a lot more than 76 years of rent
Even Mike is preferred more than your spam. Your spamming and harrassment if others are the reason these threads are shit now. Plus I see you just doxed with a pic so that is very against board rulesSo please mods. If not the spam please do something about doxing
>>84252674Is this doxxing? It's just my favourite kirky
>>84252679Yes,You posted a pic of Mike here>>84252642That is doxing
>>84252698Nah why does he look like this nigga
>>84252698how did you find that pic?
>>84252737Probably a stalker with how he's been going on about Mike this thread or he catfished like Mike was talking about before
>>84252698This is the faggot that's been shitting up these threads for years?Wasn't he supposed to be strong and masculine?Now his constant whining over Maria makes sense.
>>84252825Mike is attractive and has a thick beard. Sounds like you are jealous kek
At least mike writes letters unlike mikes stalker fanboy spamming the thread at random anons because he is desperate for mikes attention.
>>84252834Calm down, Mike, I'm judging your painted nails and weak physique, not your beard.Pick up the weights like half the other guys dealing with a broken heart, you'd get better results than you ever saw with your constant whining.
>>84252850I'm not Mike faggot. Stop spamming the thread.
>>84252861I've made 2 posts in this thread, Mike, 3 of we count the one you're currently reading.Most of the people who used to visit these threads detest you, it's why these threads died out, it's why there are multiple people shitting on you in this very thread.You are insufferable, truly, and I pray you someday have a moment of clarity.
I played Lot Lizard versus McDonald's Rabbit with a stud-spiked toy grenade that had a reflective antenna form inside of it to simulate improvised attacks a month before the incident in Butler. I took advantage of the surveillance required for the TLC because I was also a secret service informant when someone told me that's what they wanted to do. It was a requirement for winning the lottery 6 times.
I knew one dude who literally was a McDonalds parking lot
>>84248490He effectively killed the letter threads for two years.It was the most cancerous thing that has ever happened to r9k.
>>84246142I hope this isn't Mike. This letter was good to read. Did he finally get banned?
>>84250202Just got antibiotics and stop having sex with tinder/hinge/bumble etc sluts
Hello there, the angel from my nightmares
>>84253405Nope, not Mike. I very rarely make a letter thread. I think he is getting banned? Not sure. I know he deletes his posts once in awhile. So it's hard to tell if he is ban evading then getting caught or not. My feelings towards Mike are mostly indifferent. On one hand I don't like that he lashes out responding to any, and all with inane, confrontational ramblings. Accusing people of being narcissists for just making posts about their someone. Then going full schizo implying people are putting secret messages in their letters and such.While it can also be kind of funny when people fuck with him due to his tendencies. I think the site, and board itself are just slowly dying out. So you see less, and less people posting in general. Let alone in a letter thread. Just the way things go I suppose. This will be my first, and last post about Mike. Hopefully we can just have a decent thread.
It is right that you should be left with a feeling of having something irreplaceable taken from you. Welcome to club. Literally. Pay those dues or I'll come to collect with interest.
>the tripfag is banned>ctrl f tripfag>29 resultsThe thread should just be nuked or sent to >>>/trash/ .. r9k doesn't deserve this shit
>>84252871I'm not Mike. Like I said. Stop spamming
Mods. Thank you so much for dealing with the spammer going off at me last night! >>84252871>>84253388You are the cancer, not mikeI'm not mike and looking at posts the insufferable ones are all the hate posts and complaining about mike when he only made 3 posts. That's is what ruined letter thread. Not Mike. >>84253758Mike is correct about the larp letters and he is not schizo. The people who harass him say shit like that. It's tiresome to see all the trolling from them at Mike ruin the thread
>I'm not Mike>Repeatedly shits up the thread>Goes "WAOW MY SPAMMERS ARE BANNED! I FEEL SO ELATED"Ok bro.
It's just annoying to see all the hate and harassment when all Mike wants to do is write to Maria and if everyone left him alone to do that the thread would be fine. He does react at others but if you actually look at what is said it's justified. The person larping and harassing him about Maria had admitted to doing so. I hope Mike and Maria find each other again and she sees him who he really is because the larping person here who impersonated Mike to cause her to percieve him differently and the larper manipulated her with his larps. Anyways enough about mike.Let's have a good thread
i wish you did not leave i never had emotions for another person in this degree it was mindblowing for me
>>84255212It's obviously him samefagging, disappointing that the mod banned the wrong person.We got active moderation but we still need someone competent.
>>84255999Bro, I am not Mike. I am the only one who has written a letter since 3 am. What it looks like to me is you are the same person from last night who was accusing me of being Mike and harrassing me with hate speach and then doxxed mike then were banned. .. Which means you are ban evading. Mods please remove the ban evader who accused others of being Mike, spams Mike hate posts, and harasses everyone here. Thank you!!!
The mod did the right thing banning the spamming hate speech and attacking anons accusing them of being Mike, then doxxing Mike. Clearly harrassment, spamming, hate speech , doxing which are all against 4chan board rules. Mod please keep up and ban the ban evader who keep making the mike hate posts.
>>84246296Willoughbee Tucker wasn't abused. In fact Momma bee took good care of him after his meth(eglin) lab exploded
The tactic is>"Who else types like HER but [all the bots in 10 years]" btw
Isn't that that comic's dead son who floated away into the sky while holding too many balloons? Too soon
