Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporteaster is coming edition >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Here's a bunch of helpful links for u >a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Hello everyone, I hope you're all doing well today. I mostly just slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.>>84264812>i need to actually have a calendar where i can mark off the daysI've considered getting one of those big dementia clocks that my grandma had. It's pretty handy even if you don't have it...>most people are way less functional then they seem or like to put onDefinitely. A few months back I could barely get out of bed but I still had to put on a happy face for everyone. I'm not sure how I managed. I'm sure I wasn't alone in that.>modern life really pushes young people into the cities unfortunatelyI looked into it and the apartments were quite a bit cheaper than I expected, but I think my work commute would be over an hour if I lived there and that's just way too much. Plus I'd have to spend $15 on the ferry every day... That's just not practical for most people.>>84264989>not worth paying for if not needed I supposeI was getting this for free, thankfully. I'm not sure how regular Joes pay for therapy based off my one time paying for it.>Except Pattaya in Thailand which I swear feel like old white dude is majority of the populationMy knowledge of Thailand is limited to that one Louis Theroux documentary at a mail-order bride place. How is it? I imagine Pattaya is like those parts of Spain where it's all English retirees.>I'm crazy for fish and chips tooIs it easy to get in Burgerland?To be honest I think the best I've eaten has been here. The cod tastes way better for some reason.>Think I've eaten at a Burger King in every country I've ever been in weirdly enoughKind of based, desu.
>>84270490heyo I'm okay just working on a little map>slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.aw that's nice which one? is there multiplayer in animal crossing?
>>84270268>>How are you doing today?Pretty tired. I started a new retail job and they've been having me throw mulch non stop. I think I'm slimming down though.>>Any plans for today?My car got totaled. I got it back today, but the insurance company is still taking their sweat time to pay me.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Most of the above. Rejection emails from real career paths. The heat.>good stuffi watched baki, jojo's, and plurbus recently. >>84270490hi anon> I mostly just slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.Sounds fun.
Also my friend wants to watch the Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?>>84270752>heyo I'm okayGood to hear. Are you doing better than you were a few days ago?>just working on a little mapLooks very comfy!>which one? is there multiplayer in animal crossing?I think they've had multiplayer since the one on the DS. We played the Switch version, which recently added a mode where you can build stuff together. It's good fun.>tfw we can never go back to when anons were hosting sessions nonstop>>84270762>they've been having me throw mulch non stopAre you a greenskeeper?>the insurance company is still taking their sweat time to pay meI asked my friend who works in insurance if there were any secret tips for this, and the best thing you can do is send all the evidence over in one go. But I assume you've done that already. Alternatively email them something along the lines of "send my fucking money or i'll blow your fucking brains out".>My car got totaledI'm sorry to hear that. Were you in it when that happened?
I'm tormented by the urge to burn myself with cigarettes, lighters, candles, etc. But the problem is I'm a grown ass 30 year old man who somehow managed to fail upwards into a respectable job which involves, among other things, undressing in front of colleagues daily to put on uniforms/PPE. So I can't afford to be covered in injuries. Last year I relapsed and they made such a big deal out of it that I had to lie over and over to get them off my back. Thanks for reading my blog.
>>84270762hello>having me throw mulch non stopdoes sound tiring >My car got totaledwha!? what happened?>Rejection emails from real career pathswhat would you consider a real career path?>watchednice :]is jojo long?I always hear people talking about it and it feels like it's gotta be some long running series >>84271002>Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?idk I've heard it's good to do that but the movie is fun even without it>Are you doing betterhmm a little >Looks very comfy!it's based on one of the environments in the game I posted a while ago >can build stuff together. It's good fun.sounds like fun what have you built?>>84271274hey anondon't burn yourself, burns heal a lot and might get infected >respectable joblucky you>relapsed and they made such a big deal out of itwhat? why do they care?
>>84271002>greenskeepernot really, I'm just managing the front end of a store.>Were you in it when that happened?oh, i got rear ended. it's just an old car so it was never gonna be worth fixing on a balance sheet.>send my fucking money or i'll blow your fucking brains out"yeah, maybe I'll do that tomorrow.>>84271853hi cat>wha!? what happened?see above>what would you consider a real career path?Anything that pays for a house or has a decent title.>is jojo long?not really, but I guess it depends on what you mean. Each part has it's own set of protagonist and isolated story line in a shared universe. The anime is currently on part 7. I think the longest part was part 3 because of it's monster of the week formula. I could see some people coming in to part one and being disappointed that this isn't what they expected because it is a completely different story then future parts. So that might drag for some people.Personally, I think part 5 has been the best so far.
Down horrendous edish this one
>How are you doing today?Okay>>Any plans for today?Not really>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Last week>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Just some dumb anxiety stuff but I'm mostly fine>>>84256714how much younger is he? Do you think he would need that much support?He will sadly he's 15 and still can't talk>84255462>That's a great idea and probably puts you ahead of 90% of the class. Best of luck with your educational journey, anon!Thank you anon>>84271002>Also my friend wants to watch the Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?Yeah you do kinda. It's a direct sequel to the show.
>>84271853>I've heard it's good to do that but the movie is fun even without itI see. Maybe I should read the cliff notes.She said I could watch it because I'm like one of the characters in it but I forgot who.>hmm a littleGlad to hear that!>sounds like funIt is. It reminded me a bit of Garry's Mod.>what have you built?She immediately went into the basement and made a cage for me to live in. We also put together a bedroom.>>84272357>I'm just managing the front end of a store.Ah, I see.>oh, i got rear endedThat sucks. I hope you didn't get whiplash from that but you can get a good payout if you did...>yeah, maybe I'll do that tomorrow.You'd be surprised how often that works.>>84273329>Just some dumb anxiety stuff but I'm mostly fineGlad to hear you're doing better, Satanianon>Yeah you do kinda. It's a direct sequel to the show.I see. I could try to marathon it before Monday maybe...
i hit a big vein and filled a cup w my bloodso i can blleed out like this it might take hours but i basically decided on my suicide method
>How are you doing today?Tired. Sad.>Any plans for today?Psych appointment then playing DND. I don't know what else after. I should put clothes away. But I don't think I will. I may just bedrot.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Today. Well, yesterday.>Why did you hurt yourself?I'm a freak. And a fraud. I'm a fat pig.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I'm unfixable. It hurts.
So far so good with everything. Won't be around much till at least another day>>84271002>Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?It's both self contained, yet also a continuation. The story of the movie is easy to follow, but background info would be missing basically. Still easy to tell who is definitive best girl>>84273329>still can't talkthat's unfortunate. Is he getting any help to try to get him further along? Sounds like it would need to very involved so kinda get it's difficult
hey everynyanI'm gonna go out today and work on the map a little laterbeen making rain animation ls and it's a little bit of a pain D:how are you?
>>84274723Sorry to hear that, anon. I hope your appointment goes okay and you have fun playing your tabletop game.>>84274784>The story of the movie is easy to follow, but background info would be missing basicallyI see. I should be able to manage that.>spoilerI know what you're getting at but going purely off the designs I like the blonde girl.>>84275557>I'm gonna go out today and work on the map a little laterWill you take some pictures for us?>how are you?I'm a little sleepy but I got some figures in the mail today so I'm pretty happy about that.I got my also feedback and it seems quite reasonable. I think I just need to redo the proposal which is only a few thousand words long, so I'm pretty confident that I won't lose my job in three months.
>>84274282>Glad to hear you're doing better, SatanianonThanks :)>I see. I could try to marathon it before Monday maybe...Yeah it's only 12 episodes. It's pretty short>>84274784>that's unfortunate. Is he getting any help to try to get him further along? Some yeah but he's 15 so I don't think much can help him. He IS better than most others like him and can talk a tiny bit and even form a few basic sentences but mostly he can't>>84275557Good luck on your rain anomation!>>84275820>I like the blonde girl.If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are based
bump on da buss
m back >>84275820>you take some pictures for usoh noo I haven't taken any sorry :<but there wasn't anything pretty ro make pictures of anyway >figures in the mail today so I'm pretty happy about that.yay \o/>only a few thousand words long, so I'm only!!?>pretty confident that I won't lose my job in three months.very glad to hear that>>84275917>Good luck on your rain anomation!thanks !!>>84274784best of luck!>>84274282>a cage for me to live in.wgat the heckfreaky >>84273329hello o/>>84272887it's just a easter bunny >>84272357glad the crash did send you to a hospital
>>84274784hi office anon>till easy to tell who is definitive best girlexactly. the russian one. Speaking of which, how are you recovering from the part two ending?>>84274282>I hope you didn't get whiplash from that but you can get a good payout if you didyeah, now that i think about it, it was nasty crash.>Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?nah. you can catch on pretty quick. the arch is fairly isolated. You might be confused about the world's logic as a whole, but so am I desu. >>84277075welcome back cat>glad the crash did send you to a hospitalyeah I'm fine
>>84277268heyo how are you today?>yeah I'm finegreat now what will you do with the car situation?
worked a bit more on the rain and map now also has music and overall I'd say I'm almost finished
>ex sent me long message saying my actions lead to her cutting herself>just self harmed due to the guilt for the first time in a decadeyee hawpussy shit compared to most, when i was younger i'd take a dull blade and slice at my arm or thighs. never got too deep, just deep enough to scratch it up a shitton and draw enough blood to look at and cause pain. hers are probably worse. maybe i should go cut deeper.
>>84275820> I should be able to manage that.not a particularly long series either way. Anime leading up to is 12 episodes and they're normal length 20ish minutes episode. I like the series a lot, but know now everyone does>I know what you're getting at but going> I like the blonde girl.I'm very alone in this thread > purely off the designsfair, but Makima is the most likable character from a plot and personality perspective trust me>>84275917>he's 15 so I don't think much can help him. Right... Not sure what I was thinking. Thing is there's so much variation on severity, but now I understand your concern>If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are basedterribly alone>>84277075hey cat, how was your day?>best of luck!I now need the luck to recover. Very tired>>84277268>exactly. the russian one.completely alone> how are you recovering from the part two ending?will answer in spoiler text because others in the thread. No one else who didn't finish the manga look at this.Honestly, I thought it was bad, but so bad it's easy to just say throw out part 2 at this point and pretend doesn't exist. Part 2 had some good parts. I liked Asa/Yoru until they both started getting sidelined more for Denji, but when things started going bad as things dragged on in the wrong ways it felt like everyone was just collectively hoping Fujiomoto would salvage it. I feel like there was time I was dismissively saying I felt like he didn't want to do part 2 or stopped caring, but the ending really made me feel like that actually was the case. And I'm still seething Makima wasn't back
>>84278739Hopping in on CSM discussion.Fujimoto had something special with Asa/Yoru and it really feels like either he gave up around the time the apartment got burned down or the editors told him people want Denji focus. It's frustrating how relatable and strong of a protagonist Asa was until the manga focused Denji.
>>84278783I agree with you. I enjoyed the arc with yuko especially and thought the story could have progressed nicely even if Denji kept playing house with Nayuta in the background. think there is a strong consensus the church arc is the tipping point. There's discussion on the church arc being a meta discussion on what fans/the publisher wanted, which is for Denji not to have a peaceful life since they want to see him suffer as Chainsaw Man. The fact Asa loses her status as protagonist the same arc things clearly become worse is too significant to be a coincidence. Fujimoto can do some weird, questionable things, but I don't think he would get bored and sloppy with his own story unless he was put in that situation by the publisher. If there was pressure of any kind, combine that with the rushed schedule and no assistants, it's easy to see why things turned out how they did.
>>84278714hugsnot your fault fren>maybe i should go cut deeper.don't your friend wouldn't want that >>84278739heyo I'm good, I worked a bit on the map today and hung out with fren work was tiring??>>84278879so much [REDACTED] :0
why do you guys do it? this seems incredibly retarded. I tried cutting a lil slit on my wrist once just to see what the deal was about this but it really was just a unpleasant experience.
>>84279039there's a lot of aspects to it and people have different reasons why they do itbut I'm sure you had an experience where you were so angry you had to punch something, it's sorta like that, you're frustrated and want to see blood or feel pain or do something drastic to let your emotions out
>>84279020> bit on the map todaythis one here: >>84278650 ?I like it. Very creepy atmosphere. And I like trains a lot so just all around nice> hung out with frenhope you had a good time>work was tiring??a lot to take in. Starting a new job is a bit nerve wrecking because you want to make a good impression, but also you don't know everything yet so it takes time. That combined I've slept crappy because of weather changes have done a number on me>so much [REDACTED] looking like a certain set of justice department files
>>84279020i guess?she directly said my messages overwhelmed her emotionally and caused her to cut and then have a suicide attemptit feels like it's my fault and honestly i feel like a monster. like i should die.
>>84279039guilt
man it doesn't even fix the numbness
>>84278739> Thing is there's so much variation on severity, but now I understand your concernYeah it is a problem. I love him but I want to live my life too.....>terribly aloneI'm sorry but Power is best girl>>84278783>>84278879Adding my thoughts to this I did like the part 2 ending despite not liking Part 2 overall. I do think this is the ending Fujimoto wanted but I feel like he rushed or wanted to end it early. Part 2 was amazing at the start up until around the church arc. I agree with both of you that Asa should've stayed the protagonist and Denji as a side character. Don't get me started on Nayuta it's a shame, she had so much potential but existed just to get fridged which is shame>>84277075Hello Cat!
how do you actually go through with it?sometimes I hit my head with stuff so hard so many times I get a days-long concussioni bash it against wallsbut even when frustrated or numb to my limits, i can never bring myself to push the blade ini think im just too scared of the painall i can do is small cuts that arent even visible in a weekam i just a fucking pussy?how do you guys get rid of the brakes?
Bedtime bump
my stomach is hurting but if i lay on my back i'll get sleep paralysis
hey guys hellojust wok up>>84279742>many times I get a days-long concussiondon't do that anon it could really really mess you up>am i just a fucking pussy?noI couldn't never bash my head that hard, people are just different ig How deep do you want to o cut?>>84281620I think laying on the left side can help with stomach achesalso you guys sleep paralysis so easily?
Hello everyone. Hope you're all doing well.Today my friend visited with a plan to work together but we just napped instead.>>84275917>Yeah it's only 12 episodes. It's pretty shortI could probably get that done in a day if I put my mind to it.>If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are basedYeah, I think that's her name.>>84277075>but there wasn't anything pretty ro make pictures of anywayThat's fair enough. Do take some if you go somewhere cool!>only!!?A few thousand over three months isn't too bad.>freakyPar for the course, honestly. The less said, the better...>>84277268>yeah, now that i think about it, it was nasty crash.Might be worth finding a personal injury lawyer who works on contingency...>you can catch on pretty quick. the arch is fairly isolatedGood to know. I was getting stressed about being confused if I watched it.>>84278739>Makima is the most likable character from a plot and personality perspectiveI will report back once I've watched it.>>84281620What do you think is causing it? Food poisoning?
>>84279714> I love him but I want to live my life tooAnd I think it's fair for you to think that way. I'm sure your presence helps him a lot and it's commendable for you to think this way, but you only have one life as well>I'm sorry but Power is best girlit's fair>spoilerMy biggest problem I guess is assessing how much Fujimoto changed after shifting focus. Was the ending the original plan? He does like movies and the Big Lebowski thing was something he said, but does this ending make sense if we would have kept Asa as protagonist? I don't know if it would and this was him just salvaging after changing story. The worst part imo is there is no character development this route. None of the things Denji learns happens would mean this isn't even true to his idea of making it a big Lebowski type ending, since there really isn't character development that took place (we don't know I guess it happens to fast to tell) which I think is the biggest problem is the thought all character development from the good and bad part of the series effectively would be undone, which almost runs contrary to the "bad movies being important to appreciate the good" theme at part 1. >>84282195heya cat, have a good day.>>84283078>I could probably get that done in a day if I put my mind to it.I'd say at least try the first episode or two if you can get to it. Don't force yourself if you don't like it. Thing with CSM is plot is easy to follow, but it is built around character interactions and the developments of those relationships more than the fights. It's not a battle anime by any means which can seem misleading at first glance>I will report back once I've watched it.great someone needs to agree with me at some point Regardless, I think her characterization as the series progresses was one of my favorite things about CSM
>>84278195hi cat>now what will you do with the car situation?don't know. won't contact me.> overall I'd say I'm almost finishedcongrats>>84278739>completely aloneI can fix her>Chainsaw man spoilerI unironically dreamed a different ending after reading it. I dreamed a version where the ending we got was the result of another devil's power like the aging devil.Personally, I think so many ideas where individually great that they should have been separated into there own archs. Like if asa had the entire first part of part two to her self and we just saw Denji through her eyes, then we'd still switch prospectives but Asa would get her arch completed. From there we could go down the line of hourseman while learning about the endtimes.>seethingshe gone bro. and we're better for it. she's better for it.
Haven't cut in over two months, got lots of healthy foods at the store today as well. Today is gonna be a good day bros I can feel it!
>>84283855>spoiler imageUnironically my favorite thing about the ending is this meme taking off>I can fix herwho said anything about "fixing">spoilersI think if the ending was a hallucination of Denji being inside some Devil would be the more true ending based on how Fujimoto has been in the past. I think the fact there was no resolution to so much was the worst of it all. After how long and actually kinda cool the Yoru fight was(even if I felt she was too derivative of Makima at this point), I expected much more when they got to hell and just suddenly ended the whole conflict how they did with literally nothing after that. No mention of other horseman other Control(not even sure this counts as Nayuta or a new version entirely?). As much as I want to give the benefit of the doubt, it seemed like a worse fan fiction ending than what most fans were suggesting the week before it released.>>she gone broNot in my head or on my shelf of figures she's not.
hi! haven't been here for some time. (^-^;) how's everyone doing?
>>84284355hi anon>Haven't cut in over two monthsHooray! You got this!>>84284513> think if the ending was a hallucination of Denji being inside some Devil would be the more true ending I want this to be the start of part 3 so bad. My brain is coping so hard.I miss little d and her love of pizza.>>84284871hi yu, how you been?
>>84279086>I like it.thanks!>you had a good timeyep it was pretty good though it tired me out for some reason >Starting a new jobbest of luckk!! and hopefully the work isn't that tiring >justice department filesand you can uncensor them just as well ^^ >>84279112>directly saidbut you weren't like deliberately looking for her to send her those messages You weren't trying to make her feel bad>>84283078heya>friend visited with a plan to work together but we just napped instead.aw that's nice wish to have a fren like that one day>The less said, the better...@^@>>84283855heyowazzup?>>84284355hey anongood work!you got any fun stuff planned for today?>>84284871ello :D how are you?idk if you know but officeanon has a new job
>>84284355>Haven't cut in over two months, got lots of healthy foods at the store today as well. let's gooo! :D what did you get?>Today is gonna be a good day bros I can feel it!that's the spirit. do tell how it went.>>84284963hey cynic! o/>how you been?not that well, i think. it's not that i feel particularly bad about anything, i'm just so drained and have a hard time engaging with anything and anyone. guess i'm slowly drifting back into depression. what about you?>>84285016hi catbro! :]>how are you?wrote about it in my reply to cynic. cleaned up a bit, but apart from that i'm feeling quite lethargic. let's see how it develops. how are you?>idk if you know but officeanon has a new jobhe told me already. glad that it worked out. i think it's good he's finally out of that company.
>>84285076>feeling quite lethargic. let's see how it develops. sorry to hear that maybe you could play that little game I reccomeneded >how are you?pretty okay just spent today sitting and working on the map a bit also I thought about watching dark knight movie but I forgot maybe I'll watch it tomorrow >think it's good he's finally out of that company.same
>>84285352>sorry to hear thatit's ok. i've dealt with it before, but it is tiresome that it always shows up again.>maybe you could play that little game I reccomenededi just did. :> it's cute and i like the atmosphere it creates. it remonded me a bit of signalis. i should play that game again.>just spent today sitting and working on the map a bitchill day. how did it go? added any cool features? i actually planned on painting a bit, but it didn't happen. :/>I thought about watching dark knight movie but I forgot maybe I'll watch it tomorrowgood movie. i've have seen it quite a lot, but not recently. i wonder if it was the first movie i got on blu ray.
>>84285016>wazzup?>>84285076>guess i'm slowly drifting back into depression.sorry to hear that>what about you?kind of the same, but I'm feeling ok today.
>>84285016>wazzup?not much just watching dexter i guess
