do you guys think romaniancel will ever find love even as a hikkineet?
Dear mods, please remove this romaniancel spam thread or move it to the >>>/trash/ where it belongs (3rd thread)Thank you
>>84291848whew, you move fasf
Nah only thing he's finding is rape. He's a defeatist faggot who wouldn't leave the country if he was handed a plane ticket
>>84291857they're not giving me a visa :(
>>84291862ntaI'd advise you to come over to Southeast Asia but apparently you're about the same height as an avg Indonesian? 5'4 or something right?
>>84291882yea, i'm 5'4'' and girly looking so i don't think i'd be much of a slayer in SEA
>>84291891it can still work, sortathe girls here are like 5'0 - 5'2 on avg
tl;dr lore on this romaniancel?t. fellow balkanigger
>>84291901hmn that might be my only shot at having lots of sex at this point>>84291906there is no lore unless you're a qt girl
>>84291842Wanna tag team chickn? We could both be in her bussy at the same time
>>84291917come overi'm gonna lick you like a dog if we ever meet irl
>>84291925no, i think she's very gross, both looks and personality wise>>84291946to indonesia?
>>84291842from a fellow romaniancelno, probably the only other love you will recieve is from God
>>84291961wherever in SEA, it's pretty cheap to fly around
>>84291966but i'm agnostic :(>>84291976you need to hold my hand, otherwise i'll get lost
>>84291991Dear romaniacel, why don't you get a job?Sincerely, Anon
>>84291842If you suck my dick and eat my ass you can move out of your parents house and in with me
>>84291842i hope so, romaniancel is my bestest friend! i hope he succeeds in life!
>>84291991very cute :3we'll hold hands and occasionally kiss, da?
>>84292017i worked many jobs. didn't change my life in any significant way. i still came home to a depressing, empty apartment>>84292020i don't live with my parents >>84292024denjibro was always there for me...>>84292032best i can do is give you another pic for your romaniancel folder https://files.catbox.moe/37ank4.png
not even a (you) for that one, owari da...
>>84292070>https://files.catbox.moe/37ank4.pnglower, slut
>>84292317is this low enough? https://files.catbox.moe/pqawlk.png
>>84292404perfectionchrist you've got a delicious cock...
>>84292414have this butt pic too, as a treat https://files.catbox.moe/8p15hb.png
>>84292070>>84292404>>84292617STOP BEING A GAY WHORE
>>84292741TOMO WOULD NEVER SAY THAT!!
>>84292818She wouldn't but I like sped up tomo gifs
>>84292879LET 'ER RIP!!!
>>84292617you spoil me so, my prince....
>>84293132all in a day's work!
does anyone wanna hang out on disc, i need some human interaction
>>84292404wow respectfully, you are super hot and attractive.
>>84293534you should OPhe sounds like a cool guy
>>84293692thank you so much!! respectfully!! <333>>84293698this is true, i am very cool and charismatic and you'll be better off having known me. the streets are saying this
>>84293692anonymouse? SPD girl that lives with her dad, is that you? Damn, caught thirstin for some hikkineet dick. Then again you are a hikkineet yourself if im not mistaken, so it makes sense your kind speaks to you xd
>>84293709>the streets are saying thisthe streets also mourn the fact that you're not gayi'm salivating rn thinking bout your ass...
>>84293728Yep, it's me. Caught in 8k
>>84293728there's nothing more pure in this world than hikki on hikki love >>84293745you know that thinking about a straight boy's ass won't lead to anything good, right... https://files.catbox.moe/8jb0mk.png
>>84293918stop queerbaiting me with your plump ass, ya freaking homo
>>84294079is it **really** baiting if you keep falling for it every time?
>>84294117I'm not falling for the next one, I'll bet you on that
>>84294184^ famous last words before he falls for it again https://files.catbox.moe/khn9sh.png
>>84294427>nearly 2pl8 benchMogs me>>84292932You're a gay faggot hoe now you can't do the delinquent bit anymore sorry bro
>>84294427wooooow... still respectfully...
>>84294539>nearly 2pl8 benchmy bench PR is 264lbs for 10 reps>now you can't do the delinquent bit anymore sorry broi'll always be a delinquent and hobbyani fan at heart, but it scares the hoes!! i have to ease them into it with okegomposting and once i've hooked them, the furyo indoctrination can begin>>84294650u can lick my abs if i can lick your armpits afterwards. but you gotta promise not to shower beforehand
Save this gay serial drama bullshit for /bant/
When did romaniacel turn into a faggot wtfI thought you were all about finding some old chick from western europe to financially support you n shiet
>>84294692sakuya giving cirno the fishe >>84294695i'm not having sex with any men as far as i'm aware
>>84294682>my bench PR is 264lbs for 10 repsAhhh I needa kill myself, I've been a bum ass nigga skipping days forever and only bench 105lbs for reps. 1 plate bench is the minimum I need to not feel like a conplete weakling.>hobbyaniI never thought of it but anime-based-on-toys having a genre name just makes sense, I only ever watched Beyblade growing up, the ryuga/gingka final roof showdown is still fresh in my memory.>okegomAre these games any good
>>84294795>Ahhh I needa kill myself, I've been a bum ass nigga skipping days forever and only bench 105lbs for repsif it makes you feel better i can barely squat 198lbs because i have really bad knees due to being short. you win some, you lose some!! >the ryuga/gingka final roof showdown is still fresh in my memory.stuff like this is exactly why i love hobbyani, ironically enough, the constraints of them being toy commericals gives the directors more leeway to do whatever they want. the producers basically tell them "you just need to make sure our toys are advertised in this 22 minute episode" and they don't care much aside form that. so the directors can go crazy and do whatever, and they always have such absurd episode numbers to work with, too, which gives the narratives time to breathe and build up. everything i said here also applies to tokusatsu (think stuff like Kamen Rider, Super Sentai/Power Rangers) where as long as the toys are selling, the entire production is the directors' oyster >Are these games any goodthey're really fun if you're into rpgmaker games. the chick who made them has a rape fetish and she tries to insert it in every nook and cranny of these games which is pretty funny to see too!
>>84294682You are in luck bro, this anonymouse girl, i talked to her before, and her whole thing is that she doesnt shower much, like once per 2 weeks if i remember correctly.Then again she has some weird disorder that makes her get seizures when touched which is why she is a hikkiko.SPD mouse chan if ur not sleeping, tell him. I remmeber you talked about how you dont understand why men are turned on by girls who are unwashed, well here you got one who wants to lick your unshowered armpits, see how common it is?
>>84294937>she doesnt shower much, like once per 2 weeks if i remember correctly.wowow she's my dream woman if true. i love smelly, hairy, gross, unwashed women and i'm not ashamed of saying it >Then again she has some weird disorder that makes her get seizures when touched which is why she is a hikkiko.that's okay, i'll get into one of those human sized hamster balls and she can roll me around a little bit and that'll be our version of physical affection. i think it's perfect!!
>>84294682I'm taking the next flight to Romania and I'm gonna have that ass
>>84295033if you do, you have to prepare to listen to me ramble about 90s pro wrestling, obscure video games and mecha anime for hours beforehand. that's the rules!
>>84295064deal>90s pro wrestlingbig fan of Kane
>>8429515790s Kane had a billion dollar look, he was way too cool... all the magic died for me when he dropped the mask. if i had to give you my top 5 wrasslers of all time, it'd probably be: HBK, Jeff Hardy, Raven, Brian Pillman and Mick Foley
>>84294843>if it makes you feel better i can barely squat 198lbsI need to feel better and stronger not make you feel worse!!!! Also I thought short niggas did better at squat all the powershitters who do that are 5'9 and below>Kamen RiderI'd murder to be able to watch the Showa Era shows, I loved 4 or so episodes I saw on youtube but the edits made to the beginning and end make it annoying to watch on there. He does all his own stunts!!!!!>they're really fun if you're into rpgmaker gamesI got bored of my first one in a day lol... older RPGmaker games give me nostalgia for all the browser based RPGs I came across when I was younger.
n-nani, why is romanianbro gaying out and whore posting what the hell
>>84295250>Also I thought short niggas did better at squat all the powershitters who do that are 5'9 and belowHMMM i guess it really depends on the person. i've always felt more comfortable with my upper body lifts than my lower body ones. like, with upper body it barely feels like i'm putting in any work even when i'm pushing past my limits. but with lower body exercises it's like i always need to be 100% focused and alert or else something might snap. >I'd murder to be able to watch the Showa Era showsBROTHER.... torrent them, they're all on the cat site. >He does all his own stunts!!!!!Hiroshi Fujioka is a national treasure. did you know he was the official mascot for the Sega Saturn in Japan?>I got bored of my first one in a day lolit's the opposite for me, i could play rpgmaker games forever and never get bored, even though they're all so simple and follow similar structures. but then again i also love arcade games which do the same. >>84295275shh just close your eyes, it was all a dream
>>84295293o-oh ok then romanianbro, i must still be asleep. happy easter though!
>>84295299HAPPY EASTER!! I HOPE the easter bunny will be extra nice to you this year!!
>>84291842maybe you should offer yourself as a mail order husband :3 if an interesting enough boy was offering himself up to me entirely for me to finance his move into my home as a slave via marriage, idk if i could reject that............
>>84295392i've been offering, sems-chan!! i'm up for grabs right now, free for any girl willing to take me :'D i've had friends from this board who ended up moving in together so i know it's not that far fetched of a dream
>>84295411romanianbro we should move in together! ive been meaning to move out of my parents home for a while now, but im too broke to afford my own place
>>84295293>>84295411https://voca.ro/1a5B22jEbLVh>>84295299What'd you think of the chainsaw ending denjobro
>>84295469where would you wanna live if you could go anywhere right now, denjibro? i got the funds to travel and move, but i'm just waiting for someone to be serious about living together before i pull the trigger on it. my only hard requirement is that it needs to be a place where english is the primary language for convenience's sake. >>84295514https://voca.ro/176sDQh8TYar>What'd you think of the chainsaw ending denjobroi, for one, am glad we got to see Power feral and naked with her feet out one last time...
>>84295514it was ok, i didnt mind it desu... would of liked a part 3 tho>>84295577im pretty ok with where im living rn, you should fs move to australia it would be awesome
>>84295577I'll reply in the morning>>84295827I'd need to re-read for a proper opinion, can't make anything of it. What could fujimoto even do for a part 3? I think series of one-shots with unexplored characters (namely Kishibe and Yoshida) could be cooler.
>>84295827australia absolutely seems like an awesome place to be in. i love that it's warm all the time over there. over here it's freezing cold almost year round, so it'd be a nice change of climate to go to a place where it's the opposite >>84296123>I'll reply in the morningyou better not let this awesome romaniancel thread get eaten up by the archives!!>What could fujimoto even do for a part 3?instead of Part 3 he needs to do a new original manga starring a feral rapist female mc. that's his true calling considering how much he loves Power
>>84296123yeah maybe a bunch of oneshots would be better...>>84296181yeah australia is pretty awesome, i wish it was colder but thats just me.
>>84294937Come ooon don't announce that to everyone like it's a good thing...>>84294975Haha can i ask you, why is that a dream thing for you? You are incredibly hot and your body is amazing, why do you want a girl who is smelly, hairy and unwashed? Like why is that a good thing haha. I mean yeah, i fully hit that criteria, but it's not exactly because i love being a slob or something. It has to do with what he said, i have SPD and i'm on disability because of it, it's a mental illness where i can't interact with people, i still want to, but i just can't, and can't form connections. I take some brainfixers and they brainfog me a bit, and so i often just forget that i didn't shower that day, or i just don't have the energy, or i just fall asleep dozing off without doing it. It's really not that i do it on purpose, i just... zone out and forget. Also i really hate showering, it's such a chore and unpleasant thing, and i have trouble following through on unpleasant chores. I love bathing tho, so if i had a bathtub like i had in my old house before my parents divorced, i would probably have good hygiene. I just want to say that, i don't have bad hygiene because i enjoy being smelly or having a week of sweat dried on me for some reason, it's really just the hikki lifestyle lethargy + lack of motivation + brain meds spacing me out... but i mean i suppose if i had a boyfriend who is hot like you, i wouldn't mind if he was into that at all. But the mental illness is sadly the reason why i'm basically locked out of the option to have a boyfriend, even tho i really want one.
>>84296871haha this is adorable. I remember seeing you around, you were always weirded out by the fact some guys sexualized your poor hygiene and lack of showering, and couldnt understand why someone would want a girl who is not cleanBut as soon as a hikkiko hottie who shows off his body that turns you on says he is into it, the answers change to "haha" and "i wouldnt mind if he was into it at all". Dont get me wrong im not insulting you, i just find it cute. When regular conversation, eww weird. Then a hot guy says he likes unshowered stinky bitches, and suddenly ur like >ohh haha hihi hehe well uhh i dont like showering im unwashed and musky hahaha i guess its fine if you like it
>>84296871on a physical level, i find it extremely cute and endearing. your pheromones would be like a natural testosterone booster for me. i'd have the workouts of a lifetime after spending some time sniffing you all over beforehand. if i had a girlfriend, i'd want to become addicted to her natural smell and taste until it melts my brain. i wanna be consumed by it completely. it's very romantic to me. on a psychological level, society puts a lot of pressure on women to be very tidy and "dolled up" all the time, wouldn't you say? but that feels very artificial to me. there's something very attractive to me about a woman who's able to "reject" all those conventions like you do, regardless of the circumstances behind it. i always wanted a woman who couldn't care less what the rest of the world thought of her and simply did whatever she wanted without any reservations about it. there's something primal about that. it turns me on to no end. there's nothing more desirable to me than a woman who stays true to herself no matter what. no embarrassment, no shame, no nothing. that's why having a woman like that in my life would be an absolute dream for me. >>84297256i like how you're like, her personal hypeman, going around selling people on her appeal. i would 100% date her and be patient with her and help her work through her issues in the best way i could if she wanted me to. i love the idea of dating another hikki because i feel like we'd have a lot of shared experiences already, lots of common ground. you don't really see actual hikki girls on the internet anymore. most are embarrassing larpers. but if she's got an actual condition, she's the real deal.
>>84297809personal hypeman lmaono no its nothing like that, i mean she is genuinely one of the first interesting fembots i have talked to on here. I find the way she acts and her doomer talk often very cute, especially because she basically just wants to be a trad wife but is locked out of that option by cruel twists of fateOn a real note tho, she really has been through some major suffering, and that too made her pretty memorable to me, because i talked to her in multiple threads about it, and there was quite a lot of stuff in there to explore. I dont wanna talk for her really, so either ask her, or spd-chan if you feel like it, tell him about your spd turmoils
>>84297934i totally see spd mouse-chan's appeal. there's something so adorable about her helplessness, and i don't mean that in an evil way. i'd wife her up in an instant and alleviate her suffering with my happy go lucky presence if she wanted to exchange contact
>>84296181https://voca.ro/14yQ8Pbv4mzT>it's freezing cold almost year roundRomanians don't svffer I wish it were like that here>new original manga starring a feral rapist female mcNot quite my tempo
>>84298283I forgot to attach a picture gg
every year you get older your odds go down. chop chop
>>84297809>>84298048Wow i didn't think this would still be up, i was super drowzy and foggy the whole day and slept randomly a lot. Eeeeh thank you for calling me all those nice things, really... i find you crazy attractive from the pictures, and also your voice sounds really nice, but there is a problem with all of these things.Basically, as my "hypeman" already mentioned, i have very strong neurotic SPD. Basically speaking i'm allergic to human contact and pressence, with Neurotic being the nature of triggered response overstimulation causes. I basically can't form human connections, except with 1 person, and that seat is taken. To tell you a metaphore my psychologist told me to explain my condition when i got diagnosed, imagine your mind like a Theather, and the seats there represent your social battery. Well me, i have 1 single chair in there, and that chair is occupied by my Dad. It is normal for people with my condition, to latch onto a parent or a sibling if born with this. It's basically the reason why i couldn't love my Mom, and why she left us because of me eventually, because you know, she couldn't touch her daughter, and when she spoke it sounded like airhorns in my ears. I got diagnosed very late because my Mom insisted i was just a brat, and didn't want to take me to a doctor, so i had to go all the way until second year of highschool going to normal school, so it was constant mental pain and seizures and overwhelming sensory overload daily all the way until i got finally diagnosed when i became so underweight it was critical. I'm still slightly underweight but i got above 40kg recently for the first time in years, so i'm trying to get better. My meds mess with my appetite too but not as much as just being unmedicated and constantly exposed. Apart from that, i'm sadly not a virgin, as there was a rape that occoured when i was 13, which was about the worst CIA level torture suffering i ever experienced.
>>84298619My point is, i'm a hikki because i'm on disability and can't really leave my room, i exist here 99% of the times. Couple weeks ago i went to a Billa (grocery store) and the clerk wished me a nice day and accidentally brushed my hand when he gave me back my change, and i just sunk down and screamed and had an episode... it really is bad, i can't form human contact or connections with people, so i wouldn't make for a good girlfriend.Shit part is that i still have these wants, and yeah i mean i will admit i goon like crazy sometimes because i'm lonely and touch starved, but at the same time, incapable of being touched. Like your body looks amazingly hot from the pictures, so does your dick, and your voice sounds very nice and calming from the vocaroo. If i fantasize about it, it's a nice thought. In real life however, if you got close to me, it would just end up with me freaking out because i'm a mentally ill mess, and the same for your pretty voice, in real life it would just sound like razorblades in my ears and i would seize up or have some neurotic outburst or something...I'm 21 and i'm still kinda riding the high of finally not suffering daily from overexposure and being able to be room locked in safety. The disability checks aren't much, but my Dad is an amazing person and only takes like 300 bucks a month from me, so i can live comfortably for now. So for now i'm kinda fine, but i fear how i will feel when i'm 25 or older... Anyway, i'm super flattered by all your words, and if you were into me being unwashed, then i suppose i could stop feeling bad about it and i would just embrace it, but sadly it's just a fantasy, because as the other person correctly said, i'm locked out of this path by my defect brain.
>>84291842No, either do something about it or stop bitching about it.
>>84298283https://voca.ro/187ObmGqqiRN>Romanians don't svffer I wish it were like that herei'm so sick of the cold. i still have ptsd from having to walk to school every day in freezing cold weather, barely seeing where i'm going because of the snow and fog, slipping on ice because fuckers don't care enough to salt the streets and then freezing in my seat all day because my school didn't have heating and my clothes weren't thick enough to keep me warm. >Not quite my tempoweak>>84298507why do you think i've been going ham with making threads? i'm aware that once my youth fully fades, i'll be here forever since i have nothing else going for me. the time for love and sex is naow. >>84298619thank you for giving me such an insightful answer! i'm probably going to demolish the character limit if i type out everything i want to say, so please listen to this: https://voca.ro/1cxbRQgSncMR>>84298702now i wanna keep bitching about it specifically because (you) told me not to. can't believe i've lived to see the day where r9k is run by normgroid sex havers who get aggro'd by me being a stone cold truecel. this board has lost its way. luckily for you, my dear pedestrian, i'm here to get it back.
>>84299081Sorry that i'm replying so late, i started listening to it, but my medication made me so brainfoggy, at around the 3 minute mark i started to kinda space out. I opened a window here to type out a response, and i can't even remember typing anything out, but when i kinda "came back to earth", i went back to my pc, and the reply window was 3842/2000, and all of it was gibberish. Like not stupidly written, but just not even words. I want to try to reply to everything you said.>ParentsI basically ruined my Dad's life. Lots of people here talked to me and tried to make me feel better and convince me that it's not my fault, but it's hard to not think that, when it really looks like it is.My Dad and my Mom had me pretty early, and my Mom was the kind of Mom who just wanted a daughter so bad. She wanted the kinda Mom Daughter partners in crime "mini-me" relationship like you see in the TV shows. What they got instead was me. A total mess who screamed when anyone else than Dad tried to touch me. My reaction to my Mom trying to touch me was running away, her talking to me was covering my ears, because they were ringing. For the next years, all they got out of me was trouble. I would cling to Dad, he would constantly have to excuse himself from work to come pick me up from anywhere, because i would not get into the car with my Mom, because she would always get physical. I was bullied super hard in school and constantly in trouble with teachers too because they hated me, since i couldn't be normal. Every minute of school life was me having constant sensory overload and internal pain, and thus almost nonstop outbursts or just collapsing or screaming at the top of my lungs while holding my head and spazming on the floor. Now you might ask, how is that not obvious mentally ill? cont.
>>84299622cont.My Mom insisted i was just a brat, and my Dad loved her very much so he listened to anything she "declared", i don't blame him, he was a good husband. By age 10 Mom pretty much gave up on me. She was just done. At 12 my parents divorced, with Mom leaving, because she wanted to not waste the remaining years she has. She told me to my face that i have to tell the judge Dad should get full custody, because she will not take care of me or let me inside her house. They sold their house, at a loss surely, and Dad took me and we moved here. I want to say again how lucky i'm that my Dad is such an amazing person. If it wasn't for him i would be homeless or dead, probably dead. He was an absolute wreck, depressed as shit, i remember late night phonecalls where he kept begging Mom to come back on the phone many times. But he never blamed me for anything, he actually gave me a big talk about how "not your fault, sometimes grownups just stop loving each other", but i know he never did stop loving her, she just left because she didn't want to waste her life raising a mentally ill daughter who can't stand her touch or voice or pressence. And the thing is, i don't care. Me personally, for me, i'm happy my Mom is gone. Becuase of my condition, i couldn't form that connection to her, so she is a stranger whos name i know to me, and my condition doesn't exclude her. But i hate that she left and i wanted to do anything to bring her back, and that's how i got myself raped too, but i will get into that on it's own. But yeah, i fucked up my Dad's life hard, and yet he still loves me, and that caused me to develop some pretty unhealthy bonds to him myself. I will get into that too.
>>84299653>Social situationsNow this part of your dillema, i don't get. Social situations are so alien to me, all i can really do is read or see them in videos and imagine what it would be like. But i don't know. How to talk to people, how to make friends, because i never did those things. All i ever did was run away from people, because they were a source of discomfort to me, the closer they were, the louder they were. I got bullied and beaten badly in school, because obviously it's fun to surprise hug the weird underweight girl from behind and see her start screaming in agony and fall to the ground and spazm like an Eel when you throw salt on it, and so on... just yeah, i never was social because it was never an option. I kinda never understood how people are social from listening to my classmates. Bla bla drinking and drugs.If tomorrow i magically woke up cured, i wouldn't even know how to talk to people. I wouldn't know how to go to a club and meet friends, or whatever, i don't even know how people make friends in the real world. You just randomly bump into someone and suddenly talk? I have no clue. But i suppose i could meet up with people from here, but then again, there is another side to that too, another fear.Thing is even if it was someone nice like you, who i know would try to understand, i would still be unusable goods in terms of being a friend or a girlfriend. Even if magically, i grew a second chair in my head that would let you in, you couldn't take me out on dates, we could go on walks somewhere remote, that's what i do with my Dad sometimes, hiking or something, but really, you couldn't take me anywhere, it would just be having a housepet. I still have the wants and needs, and i would really love to have a boyfriend, but i understand i would be a shit girlfriend, even if touch was doable. But even that is not. My Mom is great proof that i can't "develop tolerance" from exposure, she tried for 10 years and it stayed at 0. cont.
>>84299722>My only social situation, the rapeWhen i was 13, about a year+ after Mom left us, i heard about this one open house party. As a 13 year old, it was basically my only chance to have access to alcohol. Now the reason why i really wanted to try alcohol is because i saw it in movies and shows, and heard about it online, and it just seems to be this inhibitions destroyer. And back then, i wasn't diagnosed, i just didn't know what was wrong with me, so i thought, maybe if i get drunk, my weirdness will go away, and i can socialize, and be normal, and if i'm normal, maybe Mom will come back and Dad will be happy again. Yeah, this was all because i had him in mind, personally, i didn't care about it or Mom coming back.So i snuck out through a window, and went there, and i tried to avoid the tons of people and voices by having headphones on, and i just went for the table with alcohol. Tasted horrible, but i drank a lot, and just kept hoping something will happen. It made me hard to keep balance and move, and gave me a bitch headache, but that was about it. Some guy came up to me and started to lead me away into a room while talking to me. The drunkness made it hard to move, but the pain and discomfort were there. He pulled me into an empty room, closed the door, and he pushed some pill into my mouth and held his hand on it to make me swallow. My guess is it was Ecstasy, i never found out. Anyway, it too did nothing to numb the condition pain drowning my brain in sensory torture. Well, if i thought touch was bad until then, the unimaginable internal waterboarding suffering when he... you know, it was pure torment. After he was done he left, i crawled home somehow on foot, and i snuck back in through the window, and never told Dad that this happened. He was a mess, and this was the last thing he needed.Funny isn't it, this whole thing was my attempt to HELP my Dad. Some help, right?Anyway, that was the only experience with a social situation i ever had...
>>84299785>ConclussionWhat i basically want to say is that, i get what you mean, and i genuinely hope and wish you luck with finding someone who can help you out of that hole. Me, i'm locked out of this, because i can't be intimate with anyone, or even hold friendships really. I tried before on discord, and the inability to make those connections is just... hard to get around. I'm too broken to be anyones girlfriend for many reasons, and it sucks because i really want a boyfriend, and sex, and intimacy, and companionship, and all those things, but i can't have those. Because my brain is just defect and doesn't allow those things to be percieved.I want to say, i hope this maybe makes you feel better or is worth something, you are very very attractive. Your body from the pictures is incredibly attractive, and so is your penis. And your voice is smooth, and listening to that 10 minute recording was very enjoyable, you sound very kind, you sound like someone who would hold me and tell me a sweet story about how everything is going to be okay with that pleasant voice of yours. Problem is, if we tried that in real life, that touch would feel like acid burn, and that voice would turn into a siren shattering my ears from within. It's sad, but that's my defect me. Sadly i'm not going to be the r9k hikkiko meets hikkiko lovestory partner in crime for you, but i want to say i immensely enjoyed all the nice things you told me, and even the fact that you accept some of my horrible flaws, like my lethargy or my bad hygiene, which isn't something i do on purpose. I think if i had a boyfriend like you who would enjoy it, i could stop disliking it about myself even... Well, fantasies fantasies. Lots of people say that us girls have an easier time getting laid if we want sex, but i literally can't ever have it, only goon.But seriously, thank you for the message, and i hope some other fembot can make your dreams come true, this one is broken and the spare parts are not produced
>>84299622>>84299653>>84299722>>84299785>>84299854i'll always be cheering you on, mouse-chan!!https://voca.ro/1nj3uh6FuD9P
>>84299997Isn't this the mentally ill chick who has a crush on her dad? I remember you talking to someone in a thread like a week ago.Bro i get it you are down bad because you are autismo maximo, but you shouldn't glaze this girl here, this bitch is filthy, she doesn't shower for like weeks at a time, and she has some stupid crush on her dad or whateverYou can do better than this broPlus i bet she is like 500lbs or more, these mentally ill bitches are always whales
>>84300222>this bitch is filthy, she doesn't shower for like weeks at a time, and she has some stupid crush on her dad or whateverwhere are the negatives? she sounds like everything i've ever wanted. even her SPD plays into my desires perfectly since i want to date a girl who hates my guts and wants me to die.
>>84300455>i want to date a girl who hates my gutsBut why would you want me to hate you? The whole vibe i got from you from all the sweet vocaroos, was that you are just a nice and kind person who wants another nice and kind person to live with and share the hikkiko way of life. I never got the impression that you would want someone abusive. Well in that case, i would definitely not be everything you ever wanted. When i imagine dating a hot and kind guy like you, i imagine it being sweet and us being nice to each other, because the world is shit so we have each other to make each other feel good. That's what i imagine. I would never want to abuse you or hate you, or want you to die. That is not what i got from your messages at all, i thought you would want someone nice who loves you.>>84300222Look i know it's hard to understand, but realistically speaking, my Dad is the only man in the world who could touch me with it feeling pleasurable instead of like torture. And yes, because he has been the center of my world and my life, things develop.That being said, i know it's weird and unhealthy, and i would never act up on those feelings, all that would do is just hurt him more than he already is from having to take care of me.
>>84300498it's because i see myself as completely unlovable. i can't even imagine a girl acting all nice and romantic towards me at all. it feels fake. it makes me feel sick. at least when a girl is being mean to me it feels more sincere, like she knows i'm a mentally ill unlovable wreck but she still puts up with me for whatever reason. there's a level of earnestness in that which makes me feel really good. it's hard to properly articulate how my mind works in regards to these things, but the long and short of it is that to me there's nothing more romantic than a girl being like "yeah, you're dumbass hopeless retard... but you're **my** dumbass hopeless retard and i care about you" but it's hard to establish that kind of dynamic with someone. it takes a lot of time. a lot of girls are scared to be truly mean because they're afraid i'd get mad or something. and often times the ones that act mean make it feel very phoned in, like they're putting on an act. i dunno, i'm a weirdo.
>>84300586Well... that is somewhat understandable but still not something you should want or push for. Like for example i hate being mean, i feel very shit about myself when i'm being mean. The good thing is that because i'm a shut in who talks to no one ever except my Dad, i don't have the opportunities to be mean, except when stuff like with the cashier happens, and then i feel really bad about it.You shouldn't think that someone being nice to you feels fake if they genuinely just want to be nice to you. Of course i don't know what it is like to have a boyfriend, and yeah maybe some playful teasing like "aww you are terrible, but you are my terrible" is something i would enjoy, but i wouldn't genuinely want to be mean, because then i would be the unhappy one, having to put on a mean front and hating being in the relationship because i have to play a mean person when i hate being one. I have spent most of my life around mean people, my classmates who abused a mentally ill person for fun, my Mom who left my Dad just because she didn't feel like he was worth the problematic daughter... i don't want to be mean or to be with mean people.I mean i don't think that you are a mean person at all, if anything look how the other people react when discussing my bad hygiene or... the Dad thing... and they call me a weird bitch, and the thing is they are not wrong, i'm a mentally ill wreck, but it still hurts and doesn't feel nice to have mean interactions... I definitely wouldn't want to force those to the person who for some reason decides to like me and tolerate all my bullshit and be my boyfriend, given that in the first place my mental illness somehow allows him to even be around.
can't believe thread's still uppost more ass, OP
>>84300774i think part of why my brain ended up this way is because i also dealt with severe bullying growing up. it was almost exclusively from girls, though. the guys never had much of an issue with me. they just ignored me and moved on. but the girls? they'd say and act in the most vile ways possible towards me all day every day for the entirety of my school life. my bro science theory is that because i was going through puberty at the time and my hormones were going crazy, my brain wiring got all mangled up and i started to associate their bullying with sexual arousal. i just remember at one point the bullying stopped hurting and it started turning me on instead. i know it's fucked up to say and i wish i didn't turn out like this. maybe it was one big coping mechanism to help me deal with all the abuse i was receiving daily. either way, we're both fucked up so i have no reason to judge you or be mean to you at all. >>84300821enjoy https://files.catbox.moe/g46bdk.png
>>84300774blah blah so much foidbabble, others have talked about you being horny for your dad or you being an unwashed smelly bitch, and you got all defensive like nooo noooo im not proud of it noooo please talk about something elseBut then a hot guy with chad abs, big cock and chad voice shows off his bod, and suddenly you tell him everything on a silver plate and you go all like >oooh well if you are into me being an unwashed bitch i guess i could like myself for it hihihihiJust shows no matter if normal or mentally ill, a an abusive muscle chad is still the biggest nuke to a foids brain
>>84300906>was almost exclusively from girls, though
>>84300906>enjoyuhhhh I think you're enjoying this far more than I amdelicious looking hole desu, can't believe you shave your hole you really are gay
>>84300906Well i'm sorry that happened to you, really. I know how that kinda stuff can affect a person. I mean look at me, the only single social situation i ever was in ended up with rape. Even if i woke up today with my thingy fully gone, i would still be terrified about going places and trying to socialize. But then again my brain wiring was probably done by a turkish immigrant whos previous job was ice cream seller or something, because this shit is messed up bad.Why do you think girls targeted you so hard? Usually from what i heard, most bullying is same sex targeted, very strange that it was the girls who targeted you so hard, but the guys were chill with you. Definitely can mess up a person. But it's exactly right, we are both fucked up, so i wouldn't want to be mean to you at all too, so if you asked me to be mean to you on purpose because it's something that does it for you sexually, i would probably have huge problems with that, or i couldn't do it. But i promise i wouldn't be mean to you or bully you. Also thank you for not judging me about... the thing.Also about the picture you posted, again respectfully, you are incredibly hot and good looking. Also huge respect for the nature of that picture. I will admit, i goon to a fair share of yaoi, and the fact you as a straight guy feel comfortable to take a picture in that pose and nature, that is an incredibly attractive trait for me, because i imagine most straight guys would be like "naah that's gay shit wtf" if such a pose was requested from them.>>84300913Please stop, yes he is very good looking but he also seems nice and kind, of course him being attractive... attracts girls. It's not really rocket science. But stop making it seem like he is some asshole and i'm gushing over him while he is being a dick, i'm not some party slut or something.
>>84300926i understand Fujimoto on a carnal level. Power is a character that's like, genetically engineered to fit my tastes to a T. i don't know how he pulled it off. >>84300978>can't believe you shave your hole you really are gaylolol to be honest i'm not a very hairy guy in general. i can't grow any facial hair at nearly 25 years old and can barely grow a couple of strands of body hair. so that that point i'm like, might as well zap it all off. >>84301002>Why do you think girls targeted you so hard?it was probably because eastern european women have a very stark notion of what makes a guy, and i mindbroke them by going against all of that. i didn't look or act like a generic hypermasculine asshole guy which is what they loved, and because of that they'd target me for being different from the norm. i was the weird loner guy who didn't talk much to anyone, so they saw me as an easy target. from the moment i'd step into that classroom every morning, they'd hit me with a flurry of insults, calling me a virgin, unlovable, loser, retard etc. etc. sometimes they'd push me around or trip me up. i was a very passive kid so i didn't care much about fighting back, i'd just let it all happen to me. then once the pain turned into arousal, i'd get so horny that i'd have to lock myself in the bathroom and jerk off like 3 times in a row because their bullying would make me so horny. i never let them know that though. >that is an incredibly attractive trait for me, because i imagine most straight guys would be like "naah that's gay shit wtf" if such a pose was requested from them.i'm comfortable in my own skin and i'm not ashamed to show off if people ask me to. it's kinda fun, actually. i think fujos would love me because my lack of reservations about this stuff.
>>84300906>is an actual honest to god faggot enough to post his ass onlinewho DOES that who doesn't want to be assfucked by menyou're never getting a gf jesus fucking christ
>>84301115Well i don't know about fujos, but i know i like your lack of reservations about this stuff. I think it's an incredibly attractive trait, you have an amazing eyecandy body, and you aren't ashamed to show it in more positions than just the hyper masculine ones. That is very attractive, at least to me for sure.>Girls bullyingWell that is stupid, that is so incredibly stupid. It's actually really weird because to my knowledge, usually if you find someone a "loser" or "unlovable", you want to stay away from them, not constantly give them attention. I mean i'm slavic, not from russia or ukraine tho, thank god, but yeah i don't know, i was just trying to avoid everyone while i was at school, and it caused everyone to not leave me alone and constantly bully me because they somehow got a kick out of seeing me go into a violent seizure. Also i find it weird that this isn't like, illegal... i mean this is the same as holding down an epileptic person and flashing lights into their eyes, it's basically a murder attempt. Oh well idk i survived but i think sometimes that maybe it would be better if i didn't. Would make my Dad's life a lot easier and better...Funny enough tho, if you did tell the girls and let them know that them bullying you is getting you crazy horny and doing it for you and that you need to go goon because their bullying is making you cum in your pants, they would probably stop instantly.
>>84301188Well i can tell you as a girl, what he does is extremely attractive to me, the confidence and comfortableness, and his body itself, this is very very desirable. If i wasn't broken beyond repair and lived close to him and he asked me out, it would be an instant yes.
I've read your messages and you're an online extrovert, possibly irl extrovert just going through a phase You will definitely find a girlfriend unlike me
>>84301197send a catbox selfie to prove you're actually a woman
>>84301192>That is very attractive, at least to me for sure.i'm happy to be of service. i never liked conforming to the norms of how a guy should look, or act, or how he's allowed to pose. life would be so boring and restricting that way. i basically just do whatever i feel like whenever i feel like. i'm driven by instinct. if i feel like showing off my ass, then i'm gonna do it without a second thought. >I mean i'm slavic, not from russia or ukraine thoi could tell the second you mentioned Billa. that chain currently only exists in Austria and 3 other slavic countries. so by rule of elimination, you must be from one of those 3 countries. >Funny enough tho, if you did tell the girls and let them know that them bullying you is getting you crazy horny and doing it for you and that you need to go goon because their bullying is making you cum in your pants, they would probably stop instantly.i'm only now realizing this. the mental image of me jerking off to their bullying would've probably scarred them for life and they would've thought twice before bullying me again. or maybe it would've made them even more mad. it's fun to imagine all the different situations that would've created. >>84301203trust me, the way i act online doesn't reflect the way i act irl at all. when i'm online, it feels like i'm on my home turf and everyone else is my bitch. can't say the same about irl... the real world is sca~ry~
>>84301262You can try to locate her all you want bro, she still wont fuck you, only cock this smelly foid is going to bounce on is her dads
>>84301387it's not about that. i just enjoy stalking people online for fun. people used to joke about me being an fbi agent all the time because i'd bring up personal details they never told me about that i discovered through stalking them obsessively through little bits of info i knew about them. we all get our kicks somehow.
>>84301417What is my name?
>>84301417>we all get our kicks somehowBut that is not my kick i swear, please don't listen to this person. They just keep bringing it up because it's a turn on for the incest gooners. I'm not an incest gooner like them, it's nothing like that, it's not a kick of mine or something.I admit that i have these feelings, and yes they are because of huge isolation, him being the only person with whom i can be in any way physically close and can provide me any irl companionship, and just many other reasons, all tied to either previous trauma he helped me with, the fact i'm basically alive just thanks to him sacrificing everything for me and letting me live with him and taking care of me, or my mental illness. Yes i developed feelings that i conciously recognize and understand are unhealthy, and i will not act up on them. It's not some kind of porn brain fetish thing for me.
>>84301439you are Anonymous from 4chan, of course >>84301444you totally misread that post but that's okay. what i meant was **i** get my kicks (i.e entertainment) by stalking people online. i don't mind or care that you have feelings towards your dad. that's your business.
>>84301666You really got me there.
>>84301666Oh sorry, yeah i did. Well i mean, if the hygiene thing didn't make you think i was gross this probably did it by now... only positive thing i can say is that i genuinely never plan to act on any of those unhealthy feelings because all it would do is hurt the only person i really have in my life, if that's worth anything.
>>84301670all in a day's work >>84301683you don't need to justify yourself so much. we're on r9k not at church. nobody's gonna get mad at you. well... except all those other anons but who cares what other people think? i have people ripping me a new one every time i make a thread and at this point the insults don't even register to me anymore. it's a bunch of white noise i just sorta glance over.
>>84301729Yeah but you are really nice and i don't want you to think like "oh great i was wasting all that time and effort talking to some filthy incestoid girl" since mentally ill and unhygienic wasn't enough to push you away, that's all...
>>84301740nothing that you or other people said pushed me away at all. on the contrary, if my future gf isn't mentally ill, unhygienic and doesn't have some kind of weird paraphilia then i don't want her.
>>84301795Well you sound like a very nice boyfriend to have, but as said, sadly i can't be the one... brain too defect to have a boyfriend, or even friends. If the SPD was a little bit lees severe maybe it would go, but mine is very heavy, hence disability and everything. I don't really have a big life expectancy from my future, but one can hope or daydream.But hey, if they come up with some new surgery to surgically remove mental illness out of a brain, ill hit u up, promise.
>>84301802>But hey, if they come up with some new surgery to surgically remove mental illness out of a brain, ill hit u up, promise.you better keep that promise or else i'll come to the Czech Republic and pick you up myself
