Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportI hope someone else doesn't post at the same time edition >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>>84346768links for those who need them>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
heyo heyo how's it going??I just got back form a bikeride and took a shower and I'm a bit tired ^~^
>>84346783I wish I had bpd instead of avpd because of shit like this. Its like almost every mental illness community is centered around bpd, and every mental health resource seems to only focus on bpd. I feel so invisible and invalid being a non-bpd cutter
I was suddenly pulled into a late night adventure and left last thread early yesterday.>>84340191>hope it doesn't go the same way as ips like pokemon do.pokemon got too big and popular. Fate isn't even as popular as it used to be. It makes good money and I think it's fairly popular in Japan still> once you have a few runs under your beltsuppose it also makes it easier to know where things are. Like playing oldschool RE is scary first time, then you know where the jumpscares are so it's not worries at that point>see something glowing in a fromsoft game it's going to get picked up.i do miss collectathon games honestly after you said this...>overcome being afraid of swimming against the stream there is akin to a superpoweras much as some of their stuff gets weird to me, I can respect them for this like you say>was it published by ea?nah, it was back when Lucas Arts still published games. Pandemic made it. Really good studio. I liked Mercenaries as well back in the day. Played a crap ton of that game>>84340217>it sold out before i made up my mind.wouldn't stop me, would just wait for the re-sales. Got some cheaper that way too. Figure going for 200 got down at 125>i don't think i'd be able to grind for that amount of time.i get really really determined about these things>can't put a pricetag on that.another case of my favorite character killing one of his favorites. Many many cases which says more about me than him>>84340842>spend money on useless stuff while the buildings were literally falling apart.good to know schools are about the same everywhere>first time a few years ago when they rereleased it in cinemas.nice. Can see that being the ideal way to experience. I for years didn't care much for going to the cinema but experience has grown on me more and more > ever growing backlog.worth it i'd say. It's not quite as good, but still pretty strong and has some pretty iconic moments later half
>>84340842 >lot of the dinos were animatronics or some other practical effect.Goes along way. The switch to heavy use of CGI was disastrous with how badly most of that's aged. I see the Star Wars prequals and am genuinely amazed how bad the first one looked.>>84346902heya cat! I'm good. Hope you're having a good weekend>got back form a bikeridehave a nice time?>'m a bit tired take it easy>>84346960most people here are going to say no and it's more discouraged. don't think it's a contest who started earliest and more importantly if you do end up losing control I think it's easy enough to avoid veins if you know where they are. Would recommend figuring out that first if you're concerned about falling into it>>84346992honestly, I don't think most people here even have BPD, most are probably closer to your experience. links were just passed around since some people found them helpful regardless.
I slacked off again today. It will be the death of me...>>84340995>i would just need good grades in the final exam and the daily quizzes to make sure i dont failThat's not too bad. Does thinking about it like that help at all?>but overall i think i'll listen to something familiar and calmingDo you think it helped at all?Let us know how you're getting on now if you feel comfortable sharing.>>84341277>i think i should clean my pc sooner rather than laterIt's a chore we all need to do day.>i wonder if there's something similar here.You might be able to find it if you go to an Asian store. The packaging will have a stick dressed like a cowboy on it.>any favorites?I usually just get pocky. Almond pocky is the best but boring, normal pocky is good too.>overall it's getting worse here as wellI wonder if there's anywhere it's getting better for... It would be easier if all the bad stuff didn't taste nice.I lost a lot of weight very quickly after I started posting here (like 10kg), but I've put it back on and then some by my awful dietary choices once things stabilised.>>84346902Did you see anything nice on the bike ride?>>84346960I wouldn't recommend it. Why do you want to start?
>>84346992Trust me, anon. You don't want to have BPD. It's horrible for the person with it and everyone they get close to. You're not any less valid because other groups get more attention.>>84347224Did you take any pictures of your adventure?>I for years didn't care much for going to the cinema but experience has grown on me more and moreA few years ago I started going to my local cinema and I got hooked after that. It helped that the under 25 tickets were quite cheap.Watching Kill Bill one a huge screen with a good sound setup last month was awesome.>>84347280>I see the Star Wars prequals and am genuinely amazed how bad the first one lookedIt really was a dark time. Bad CGI aside, the prequels can't be go any higher than 1080p because that's what they were filmed in. Bravo Lucas.On a related note, I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long over. Every film was 3D for what felt like an eternity, until it just stopped.
i'm the anon who went to urgent care yesterday. they said it is infected, and i was prescribed antibiotics and given a tetanus shot. they sent me on my way without bandaging it back up after i removed my own for examination, which was strange. but whatever. i took a bus really far out of town hoping to clear my head and stay away from my knives, but i still feel dead inside. i'm considering the ER, i don't know if i'm safe with myself right now. i just need someone to talk to that can help me figure out what i need. i don't know where else to get help on a sunday except the ER. but it feels extreme. or like they won't be able to help me much. i just feel like i'm on the verge of a break.>>84346960you shouldn't, but i know the urge is hard to fight. i didn't start cutting until my 20s either, i'm almost 30 and i still cut. you can't 'larp' being a cutter if you actually are cutting, you are just a cutter.>>84346992i can understand this. but you can cut because of a myriad of issues, not just bpd. no one 'owns' self harm.>>84347224i hope the adventure was fun.>>84347325there's always tomorrow. don't beat yourself up.
>>84346960hey anon>Should I start?nope don't startwhay are you considering it?>>84347280what adventure? :0yep it was nice ^^>>84347325>slacked offD;>anything nice on the bike ride?saw a deer from up close and a little fawn too, it was very fat>>84347473hello o/>they said it is infectedthat's not goodhope it heals soon >me on my way without bandaging it back upwhaaat?strange>don't know where else to get help on a sundayi don't know:/maybe there is some hotline you could call for instructions?
>>84346768hi officeanon! almost missed the thread since i always filter for /cut D:>>84346902hi catbro! how was your ride?>>84347224>pulled into a late night adventureexciting. what happened?>Fate isn't even as popular as it used to be.probably for the best>makes it easier to know where things arehopefully, but i have to admit that i forgot more things about these games than most people know. it's been a while.>scary first time, then you know where the jumpscares are so it's not worries at that pointsame with souls. loads of jump scares and traps in those games, too.>i do miss collectathon games honestly after you said this...they're fun if they are finite and at least paced somewhat reasonably..>Lucas Artsalways loved their adventure games.>Pandemic made it. Really good studio. I liked Mercenaries as well back in the day. Played a crap ton of that gamelooking it up, i remember the characters from ads and reviews, but i never played it.>would just wait for the re-sales.just checked and the prices for that figure, as you said, fluctuate between 130 and 200. can't say i'm very fond of the character anymore though. just makes me sad these days.>i get really really determined about these thingsthat's why you get rewarded and i get jack shit, so it checks out.>another case of my favorite character killing one of his favorites.i think i'd be mad, too. ^^>>84347280>The switch to heavy use of CGI was disastrous with how badly most of that's agedbest example for me are the ron pearlman hellboy movies. the practical effects still look great, especially in contrast to the bad cgi.
>>84347325>Did you take any pictures of your adventure?Wasn't much to take pictures of or didn't have chance when I was since driving a lot. I went to some bars, drove around a kind sketchy part of a city I've never been in my life prior, and drove through a scenic area with this huge river and bridges when I was heading back around midnight. Completely unplanned>A few years ago I started goingi literally hadn't been to one in almost a decade till I went to see the chainsaw man movie, now I've been a couple times and for weeb and non weeb films>It really was a dark timenow we move to the times it will be bad AI>Bravo LucasCraziest realization for me was growing up and realizing I think I like the Phantom Menace way more than I liked Attack of the Clones>I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long over. yesssss, i remember the stupid 3d glasses and horrible forced scene design where you know they'd set stuff up to use the 3d lol>>84347473hi anon, glad you at least got some help and sounded like it wasn't the worst experience.>i just feel like i'm on the verge of a break.do you feel like it's imminent? very least can vent here if you need to. Someone will try to help>>84347701described above in some detail. It's a long story lol but wasn't not fun
>>84347325>It's a chore we all need to do day.i'll have to read about how not to fuck up my pc while cleaning it...>You might be able to find it if you go to an Asian storedon't have one close to me, but maybe if i'm in one if the bigger cities again.>I usually just get pockyclassic for a reason. do you know these little chocolate filled koalas? wonder if they still exist...>I lost a lot of weight very quickly after I started posting hereyou were very distressed at the time, so that might have factored into that.>I've put it back on and then some by my awful dietary choices once things stabilised.maybe we should make a deal to have a bit more restraint when it comes to food. right after i checked if those koalas are still around.>>84347346>Bad CGI aside, the prequels can't be go any higher than 1080p because that's what they were filmed in. Bravo Lucas.also an issue for digital animation in general. lot's of anime from 00s onward have that problem.>I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long overit'll always rear it's ugly 3d-glasses wearing head every few decades. there's some people who really want to make it a thing. same with vr.>>84347473hey anon. hope it heals well. probably not a bad idea to head there if you're not feeling great. not the right place for that kind of thing, but maybe they can tell you were to go while patching you up.
>>84348058>almost missed the thread since i always filter for /cutDamn it!!! I messed up! I do it on cut which made me not realize (but is also sometimes a mistake as well... aha...> what happened?I think I mentioned a little on Discord, but I drove to another state to see someone and then turned into a most of the night thing>probably for the bestfine line between being popular enough they make more, not so much it attracts people who ruin it by getting changed to accommodate them.>it's been a while.I hear you. Though suppose it makes it more fun to back and replay that way>. loads of jump scares and traps in those games, too.they do have a creepy aesthetic to them at times, though i never got too far into a mainline souls game>are finite and at least paced somewhat reasonably..I was fine Banjo Tooie's over the top levels that just sprawled on forever. Same with DK64 even if it was a confusing mee >but i never played it.it was a neat series. People said 2 sucked, but I had a great time with both. Original was very hard at least for me as a kid. It was one of "do the mission anyway you want" type games and had a lot of fun with it>can't say i'm very fond of the character anymore though.what character was it anyway? probably for the best not to have bought it>i think i'd be mad,shoulda chose a better character to like
>>84346768>How are you doing today?Bad>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Today>Why did you hurt yourself?I have nowhere to park a car. I want to start my life finally and get a better job and go to college but my stupid town doesn't allow overnight streetside parking. My parents driveway doesn't have enough space and I don't know what the fuck to do. The nearest lot is a 15 min walk. My parents won't even let me ask my neighbor either. I understand my dad is going through cancer treatment and I'm worried about him and I love him. But I can't not worry about this and my mom called me an idiot and how I should've started this sooner and said a bunch of hurtful stuff to me. I want to start my life and it seems im unfairly stuck. I don't want to walk to my current job in the heat. This situation fucking sucks so much. I need to drive to start my life and I don't know what the fuck to do. This would be so much easier if they just let me ask my neighbor who's friendly with us. I'm fucking scared for my future so much. I cut myself today out of anger and briefly considered suicide but I won't do it. I'm so fucking scared though.>>84346902Hi cat!>>84346992I can understand anon. I don't know really what to say but nobody deserves a mental illness and you don't really want BPD it's not good for anyone involved
i wanna rip it open again
>>84347346I know having BPD is horrible, but having AvPD is horrible too. Atleast if i had BPD i would get the small comfort of being represented.>>84347473>i can understand this. but you can cut because of a myriad of issues, not just bpd. no one 'owns' self harm.True, I was just ranting more in general since i see BPD get far more representation, sympathy, and attention than any other disorder. It feels like bpd owns mental-illness as a whole online, not just cutting. Idk, this is probably just a me problem desu
should i make it deeper before they see iti dont want it stitched they ruin the scar but they wont let me
>>84350094jesus fucking christ HOW the fuck do you cut so deepI wouldn't be able to do this for a billion dollars
>>84350230its not deep enough
good morning everyone how's it going?>>84350094don't make it deeper anonit looks very deep as is
Larped as a sysadmin for many hours but everything seems to be on the path to working now. Proxmox is pretty cool.>>84347473Hope you're doing alright anon. I don't know if I'm reading this wrong but it sounds like you want permission to go to the ER. If you think you need to go you probably should. In the meantime you're more than welcome to post here for support.>>84347701>saw a deer from up close and a little fawn too, it was very fatThat's cool. I can't think of the last time I saw a deer. Did you take any pictures?>>84348077>Completely unplannedSounds like you had a good time. Would you do something like that again?>now I've been a couple times and for weeb and non weeb filmsI'm glad you've gotten a taste for it. It's good to support your local cinema since they're all dying now.>now we move to the times it will be bad AII've not seen anything too egregious yet, but I'll brace myself anyway.>I think I like the Phantom Menace way more than I liked Attack of the ClonesIt's been so long since I've watched the prequels that I can't remember anything about them. Just that I didn't really enjoy them. Never watched the sequels either.>i remember the stupid 3d glassesRemember when they tried to force 3D televisions? Good times...
Wrote the other half of the post and then forgot to post it for an hour...>>84348138>i'll have to read about how not to fuck up my pc while cleaning it...The most important one is holding your fans down if using a vacuum. I think if they spin too much that can damage stuff somehow.>do you know these little chocolate filled koalas?Yes, I've seen those around here.>that might have factored into thatThat and going several days without eating... Looking back I was in a terrible state then.>we should make a deal to have a bit more restraint when it comes to foodThat's a good idea. From now on I'll try to avoid ordering slop and just make pasta. It tastes nicer and is cheaper anyway.>also an issue for digital animation in generalI know some CG movies get re-rendered at a higher resolution but a lot of anime is stuck at 720p I think.>>84349163You could try asking your neighbour anyway, and maybe offer some payment for the trouble. What's the worst that could happen?>>84349905>Atleast if i had BPD i would get the small comfort of being represented.What kind of representation would you like to see?If it makes you feel any better lots of mental illnesses get shafted in that regard.
heya guys, sorry i've been very busy with stuff lately. been trying to game a bit more and try to watch anime again but a lot of life stuff has been happening also so i haven't really found much time. hope you're all doing well tho.
I have a really bad headache
>>84348058heya I enjoyed the ride but it tired me out saw some nice stuff and had fun ^^>>84348077heya how are you today?>>84349163heyo>Badsorry to hear about that :<hope you feel a bit better later>they just let me ask my neighbor who's friendlymaybe you could just go to your neighbor and ask?>>84352152>Did you take any pictures?no good ones D:>>84352642hellowhat sorta stuff is keeping you busy?>>84353421nap time?
>>84352375>>84353490They live right across from me and I don't know how my parents would react if I did it. Both of them seem to hate the idea for some reason. Even though I told them I'd move it at 7am every day.>hope you feel a bit better laterThanks anon.....I've calmed down a bit. I'm gonna try to focus on what I can control at the moment. I'll wait a little longer before I make a big deal out of this>>84353421Hope you feel better anon>>84350094It's scary anon, that's extremely deep. I don't know how you do it. Please don't torture yourself like this
.-.i couldn't deal with the exam. until i had like less than 6 hours to study. i slowly lost it when i finished other homeworks, then i decided to rest, it was a good idea, because it helped weakening my anxiety. my mood swings calmed down and i became almost mentally ready to fail the exam. until i really did almost no effort i didn't even try to study at home, i just looked at some pages for some minutes before the exam. i went to the exam hall and i really didn't know the answer of any question.it's okay though. i'm not that depressed now lol and i can still pass later.honestly i don't clearly understand what's making me sad but i think one of the reasons is that i don't want the teacher to see how horrible i did. maybe the teacher doesn't care but idk i'm easy to get triggered when it comes to this.man i'm tired. i didn't have the best night and i didn't sleep after the exam, it was a tiring day. good things happened though.
>>84354007>don't know how my parents would reactwell honestly you shouldn't careI think it's completely acceptable to nicely ask a neighborhood about something like that>anon.....I've calmed down a bitglad ro hear that>wait a little longer before I make a big deal out of thisokay o7So watcha gonna do with your day now? any fun plans?>>84354443heya ^^sorry about it frenit wasn't your fault >can still pass laterphewdo you know when?>want the teacher to see how horrible i didblehh they'll have to handle it somehow it's not their grades after all, if it makes them so sad then they should just give you a good grade instead >good things happened though.wanna say what?
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>how are you doing today?alright, I've been sick for like a week, I got tested for strep throat, tested negative for that. They said I was fine but I think it might be a sinus infection.>any plans for today?a doctors appointment for a different reason lol>when was the last time you hurt yourself? I am proud to announce it a year ago, almost to the day.>why did you hurt yourself?if I remember correctly I found an Xacto knife that I forgot to throw away and the urge took over.>anything else bothering you?no, not really, I still sometimes imagine myself bleeding. For some reason I find it soothing
I think I focused too hard and got a stress headache. I had a nap and I'm alright now except for having a slightly unsettling dream...>>84352642Good to see you again. I'm doing well. I hope you are too!>>84353490>no good ones D:You remember things better if you don't apparently. So maybe that's a good thing.>nap time?yep. I thought I slept for a really long time (saw it was the 14th now and thought I woke up at 2pm) but it was only a few hours.>>84354007>I don't know how my parents would react if I did it. Both of them seem to hate the idea for some reason.That's very odd...Honestly I'd just ask the neighbour while they're out one day. They might be fine with it, in which case you can tell your parents to pound sand, I guess.>>84354443Sorry to hear it was kind of a mess, but at least it's over now and you can make up for it later.I hope your mood swings will ease up.>>84355611Get well soon, Mr. Stocky. Being sick is no fun.Good job on being a year clean!
>>84355697>having a slightly unsettling dream...what was it about?
>>84356277I woke up alone in my dad's car in an unfamiliar place. Thinking that my family left to do something I went back to sleep. I woke up again and they still weren't back so I left the car to explore and texted everyone to ask where they were. My sister sent a picture of her surroundings but didn't know where she was either. After some exploring I found my grandma's house and asked to use the toilet there.I got a sense that my parents left me in the car to hide that they were doing something they probably shouldn't.
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Post-downtime bump
hello guyswaddsup?
>>84358356Nothing much. Just putting off work.How about you?
>>84358938for now I'm just chilling not sure what to do4chan is superr slow :0
>>84359135I've not been too sure what to do either today. I wonder if they're doing maintenance or if it's something else.
>>84346768>>How are you doing today?A little better. I got a call back for marine biologist job. I'm just not sure about the pay in a more expensive state.>>Any plans for today?Just watching star trek and dexter. I think I'm gonna buy hades two while it's on sale. Got another job information season tonight.>>84359135hi cat>4chan is superr slow :0yeah not much except new Harry Dresden memes.
