Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporthappy nyaturday :33 hello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
links:> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
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>>84474223>than trying something new.already got into indian light clubs and macebells recently. hope that counts as something new.>slip into habits rather than trying something new.true, but rn i'm not even sure what that habit would be. guess being tired and doing nothing is one as well.>I think you just kind of have to force yourself to do something elsemaybe not the best thing to think about when i'm tired and had an annoying day. i'll leave that for tomorrow.>It was mostly high-end designer stores and weirdly emptyi suppose most people aren't into unnecessary spending atm, so not much reason to go there?>I kind of regret not getting the Madoka one we saw.you can always go back and get it, don't you?>>84474652>that looks amazing and is exactly the type of thing I had in mind when saying thisit's a good recipe. my advice: make sure to get good quality dried chilis. avoid them if they're dried out and crumbly. those will make the sauce extremely bitter. got my hands on some good ones after i used some i had lying around for a long time and the difference is night and day.>were simple and didn't need a whole lot of ingredientsthe one i posted is pretty simple, too. you might need to get out of your way for some stuff, but if i can get my hands on those, it shouldn't be an issue for you.>real life is doing enough of thatagreed. that said, i do like harder games, but there's a fine line between challenging and frustrating. i'm definitely done with the latter. not gonna let those waste my time anymore.>never even played the game but some well aware of thishard to avoid on a site like this.>I'm cursing the developers while i continue to play their gamethere's a difference with being emotionally invested in a story-twist that got to you and being mad at the devs for telling a shit story, i think.>this is the most japanese thing I've ever seen lolit's definitely up there. but man, does nu-nge actually look like that...
>>84481465Hello !hope you have a nice night I just remembered I had a dream recently I was walking around like an one ig mansion with wooden panel interiors and such exploring various rooms and they had cats in them and I'd pet them also I found like a fancy wooden indoor balcony over like a big hole idk how to explain it maybe I'll make a map based on it some day
>>84474652>now I'm convinced you have seen the whole series, but i know what you meanthanks for confirming my suspicion. i really need to find an anime news site or channel. :/>That was the coomer jokeah, now i get it. i think i'm too tired when i post lately...>>84479835hi catbro! happy caturday! :>>>84480934hi w! thanks for the bump>>84481490>hope you have a nice nightit's ok. just very tired. that cross-thread post took me ages to write... (~.~)>they had cats in them and I'd pet them10/10 dream. would dream again.>I found like a fancy wooden indoor balcony over like a big holesounds spooky. cosmic horror style spooky. i like it. could be a cool map.
>>84481540>cross-thread post took me ages to write... (~.~)makes sense hope you get some good sleep >would dream again.there was also some crazy lady thaw I had to hide from and like a staircase but the steps were very long>could be a cool mapyep I'll think about it
>>84481560>hope you get some good sleepwill do>there was also some crazy lady thaw I had to hide from and like a staircase but the steps were very longguess i have deduct some point for crazy lady... you've watched too much resident evil, didn't you?>I'll think about itnew catbro map incoming! \o/
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>>84480984heya cat, how's it hanging?>>84481465>get good quality dried chilisfor sure. It's one thing I want to emphasize when I do my next chili is getting some good peppers to make it a step up from what i've been making.>you might need to get out of your way for some stuffthis is mostly what I meant. The good quality peppers especially I can get easily I think, but I know for sure I can make my normal chili with stuff I already have in my fridge.>fine line between challenging and frustrating.me hard dropping super mario sunshine over the challenge levels>hard to avoid on a site like this.I forget we're all talking on 4chan sometimes> difference with being emotionally invested in a story-twist that got to you and being mad at the devs for telling a shit storyafter playing several more hours, I can say which one this is. I wouldn't say this is super deep, but it's very good for a gacha and know how to do a story with the audience in mind. it's interesting because gacha inherently depends upon people getting attached to waifus and all that, which they use to up the suspense from the story a bit. Like I had a moment I thought was going to be very upsetting again, but didn't turn out to be the case this time at least
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>>84479835Hallo /cat/, what's up?>How are you doing today?Kinda ass>Any plans for today?Watching more kamen rider and doing housework.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?A couple months ago? Not by my hand it's been so long, theres just aren't any good knives avaliable and my box cutter is rusted.>Why did you hurt yourself?Probably something relating to motivating myself.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I've been bumming around since my graduation in December, I should be working right now but over a hundred applications later I'm still locked out of minwage postions. My life's at a standstill...>>84481465Hallo yuanon>fine line between challenging and frustratingWhere do you draw it? I feel like that's less about difficulty itself and more about tedium, I don't mind difficult moreso I hate having to spend a million years tongues get back to that difficult part of a game. Bad checkpoints and RNG cross that line into frustrating for me.>>84481900Hallo officeanon
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>>84479835hiya guys. havent cut in a few days which is good :). been so so sad and tired lately, i mean i always am but ive been non stop sleeping my head hurts from being asleep but i dont wanna do anything else. aughhhhhhhhghhh. ive been trying to get therapy and meds, had a doctors appointment a few days ago but they couldnt do anything because the whole systems a mess :/. got told to 'stay stable' like thanks. its really sad i could tell the doctor, and every other professional ive seen cares a lot but they cant do much. i just wanna get better but it seems kinda impossible when i cant get help. and im so sick of those generic counselling services, im sick of just telling someone my problems and then being told basic advice like 'go on a walk'. but i am going to practice my dbt skills today. i will!!!!
I mistyped my name last time since my name field isn't saving right anymore for some reason >>84483483Hi togata! Good to see you again. Don't think I got to mention to you, but I did finish Fire Punch a while back. Really hype highs, but for sure very strange at times lol> Bad checkpoints and RNGthese things can ruin even games that aren't that difficult. I hate games not letting you save reasonably, since even outside of dying and replaying, for people who have busy schedules it's a pain in the ass when you get to the point you really have to stop and your choice is either leave the game open in the background or lose progress>My life's at a standstill..sorry to hear this. Had hoped you were off doing better things, but I think as we've been through this is what basically anyone looking for work is going through now. One of the shittiest times to be looking for work in decades>>84485174hi anon, glad you're doing kinda all right, but sorry you're stuck in that bad situation as well.were you anon talking about it being hard to get this sort of thing in you country prior posts?> being told basic advice like 'go on a walk'it seems rather insensitive and unhelpful, but is usually good intentioned. I don't know what your specific situation is overall, but a lot of mental health other than meds is honed on self realization. Of course, if you need meds... Kinda hard to get around that.
>>84479835>>How are you doing today?tired, I was up late a friend's bday party.>>Any plans for today?I gotta work in a few hours. not sure if I should bother. >>Is there anything bothering you right now?Just trying to remember what I was supost to do this moring. >>84481465hi yu>>84474197>are there more endings or dose the game change the more you play?Both sort of.There's one ending in the story, but the story is indepentant of gameplay. The actual game play is an ever changing dungeon run that takes about half an hour to and hour. There are two routes, up or down, where you gather different materials for weapons and the plot. The plot is progressed through repeated victories in both runs. Every death and victory sends you back to the starting point where you do a meet and greet with a handful of characters and talk about the plot.>>84481490hi cat>idk how to explain it maybe I'll make a map based on it some dayyeah dreams are hard to explain. I find I half to write them down in the morning and review later. Usually their dumb, but there are some bangers in there. >>84485174hi anon>havent cut in a few days which is good :). congrats!>i just wanna get better but it seems kinda impossible when i cant get help. and im so sick of those generic counselling services, im sick of just telling someone my problems and then being told basic advice like 'go on a walk'Yeah, sometimes people don't know what to say so they try to stay safe with safe advise. I hope you get better though.
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i have so much id like to do today but my body is hurting so bad and i feel knocked out after standing up for too long. should probably get that checked out x). maybe im just malnourished though who knows>>84485524hi officeanon>were you anon talking about it being hard to get this sort of thing in you country prior posts?yeah that was probably me. i keep talking about that one thing its been bothering me so bad. i keep seeing doctors and they want to do something and they look at me all sad saying they just cant do anything>it seems rather insensitive and unhelpful, but is usually good intentionedyeah true, and i recognise a lot of it is genuinely helpful but it sucks when they know you have complex issues/need specialist care/are very severe in some way and its just that. it sucks being told to call the same hotlines youve called a thousand times over and over again>>84485852thanks!
i am so so full of hate and anger but i cant direct it at anyone who actually earned it. i cant wait to move out i hate my family, i mean things are better know but im not sure if i can ever forgive them or move past how they used to treat me. i dont think theyve gotten better as people really. ugh i hate them i hate how they used to hospitalize me over stupid shit but then tried taking me out of medical care when i actually needed it. i hate how violent and angry they used to be/are. i am scared shitless of them and they act like nothing happened at all. i can hardly trust my memory im so scared im making it all up. i wish people saw my family for what it was, i wished someone actually tried to protect me as a child. why didnt they? i am so so so angry and all i can do is act it out on myself
>>84485852hey cynic! good luck with work in a little bit>>84486108>so much id like to do today but my body is hurting so badyou me and both. I powered through all the chores I need to get done and go a workout in, but it was rough>just malnourished though who knowsyou think you don't eat well enough? Easy to fall into that when feeling depressed so could be.> know you have complex issues/need I agree, but even seeing someone long time can be tricky to deal with long term complex stuff for that reason. Do you think you know when stuff began or where the complexity of your situation comes from? Know it's hard to figure it out on your own, but if you even have some ideas it can help make the conversations you have with counseling services and doctors a little more impactful than going in without thinking through the info. May have already tried, but just a thought I had.I had more success with talking to people after deep diving myself before doing so>>84486213hi anon. As someone who has a troubled past with family, really sorry to hear that you feel that way and didn't have any help with it.Sadly most people don't even seem to register the ideas family's could be harmful to their kids unless the experienced it themselves. It's just such a fucked up thing, I think a lot of people don't even want to acknowledge when there's signs
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went on a small bikeride today :3 gonna chill out for a bit nowgonna reply on a whilehow are you guys doin?
Hello friends. I didn't have some kind of immigration-related snafu, I've just been very busy and tired.I went to a Touhou convention yesterday. It was very fun, everyone there was very friendly and I even heard a "damn we even got a foreigner" (at least I think that's what he said). Getting there and back was incredibly stressful though.>I may be one of the few people alive who can finish those main dishesIt wasn't massive but I think here there's a cultural expectation that you share your food with each other.>i refuse to do characters that are too much of a stretchSame here. There aren't enough sticks for me to cosplay as. At least from series I've watched.>how long till you do that anyway?Late July, so I've got a while>it's not going away and it's already making people dumberWhy spend effort looking something up when you can just get an answer immediately?>>84481465>indian light clubs and macebellsNew enough for me not to know what either of those things are.>i suppose most people aren't into unnecessary spending atmTrue, but I have to wonder how many people were shopping there even in times of abundance.>maybe not the best thing to think about when i'm tired and had an annoying day.That's fair enough. Habits are hard to form when you're stressed.>you can always go back and get it, don't you?Probably. Although it's a pop-up thing, It seems like it'll be there for a while.>>84483483Good to see you again. It's been a while.Sorry to hear about the job search. I was unemployed for a few years after graduating before I got onto a master's degree. It really sucks so I wish you all the luck I can.>>84485174Best of luck with getting help. I guess it depends on the country but a lot of places are massively oversubscribed and there's only so much GPs can do. At least that's how it was for me trying to get that sort of thing in the UK.>>84486213Best of luck with moving out. That sounds awful.
I played way more Nikke than I care to admit>>84487458heya cat, how was the bikeride?>>84487495>kind of immigration-related snafuI misread this wrong at first and almost asked what happened but glad things went okay >Getting there and back was incredibly stressful though.can imagine>cultural expectation that you share your food with each other.I know what you're talking about. Whole Asian thing you order the dishes and everyone picks at. Well acquainted with and I know it's confusing for people coming to ameriica>There aren't enough sticks for me to cosplay asI'm pushing it with a few I have planned, but keep getting ideas for ones I want to do lol>so I've got a whileabout same for me>Why spend effort looking something up really issue is that you can get answers much faster than you can looking up sometimes and it is good in that regard, but it is leading to people accepting what's handed to them without thinking and really looking at what they get. And it's putting too much trust in a small handful of companies
>>84479835>How are you doing today?im okay for the most part>Any plans for today?Maybeee do a little schoolwork before bed or just game>When was the last time you hurt yourself?today>Why did you hurt yourself?angry at myselfHiii cat :DAnd hii everyonesrry for not answering yesterday i fell asleep, I didn't do much at Stockholm just wandered around then went to sleep. Im back home now. I did take a bunch of cool photos and videos
>>84483483hey frenit's nice to see you !!I'm alright, been going on bikerides ^^ the weather's nice >Kinda asssorry to hear about that>hundred applications later I'm still locked out yeah, that's life now ot seems and companies will still complain there isn't enough workers, because they're not hiring!!>>84485174hello o/>havent cut in a few daysgood job !!! :D>but they couldnt do anything because the whole systems a mess :/damnsorry to hear thatin your state I don't really know what else other than meds could help>practice my dbt skills today.what's dbt??>>84485852>was up late a friend's bday party.hope at least it was fun>dayyeah dreams are hard to explainI never look for explanation in themI think they're very simple, you have dreams about whatever you're thinking about in the moment while sleeping If you're stressed about something and think about it a lot you're likely to dream about it I don't think there's any sort of deeper meaning to dreams >>84486108why is everything hurting anon??>maybe im just malnourishedwhat's your bmi? you should check that>>84487859hey nyaster>Maybeee do a little schoolwork before bed or just gamehave a fun time watcha playing?>angry at myselfwnna say why?>Im back home now. I did take a bunch of cool photos and videossounds fun and send some pics !!
>>84488206>hey nyasterhiyaa cat!! :3>watcha playing?decided to watch anime instead>wnna say why?body dysmorphia>sounds fun and send some pics !!I willlllll, just let me differentiate all the private info first
>>84487495>went to a Touhou conventionglad or hear :D got any pics?>Getting there and back was incredibly stressful though.why?>>84487696helloit was alright, just rolled around the city looking at stuff how was your day?>>84488354>watch anime insteadthat's a good choice I'd saywhich one?>body dysmorphiaow :<>>84488354>just let me differentiate all the private info firstokay ! ^^
>>84481900>getting some good peppers to make it a step up from what i've been making.looking forward to what you have to say about it.>I know for sure I can make my normal chili with stuff I already have in my fridge.always worth a lot if you have something enjoyable to fall back on.>the challenge levelsi find that those often focus on the wrong things. like the dlc for hollow knight was exclusively gauntlets and the combat was alright, but not what i liked about the game the most.>I forget we're all talking on 4chan sometimeswe do be very considerate in the grand scheme of things and i guess we all hide a bit of our powerlevel for the sake of the thread.>Like I had a moment I thought was going to be very upsetting again, but didn't turn out to be the case this time at leastphew. crisis and crash out avoided. what was at stake?>>84482154hey anon. how did you end up there?>>84483483hey! it's togata! :D welcome back, buddy! how have you been?>Watching more kamen rider and doing housework.chill day?>that's less about difficulty itself and more about tediumi completely agree with that. took me 7 hours to beat one of the elden ring bosses and had no issue with that, but when i have to parkour my way back for no reason before i can even attempt it again, that's where my mood starts to shift. there also was this moment in silksong where i got to a resting point after a very annoying area and as soon as you sit down the floor gives and you fall back to the start of the area. the game was full of little design micro-aggressions and that's where i just closed the game and haven't picked it up since then. there was no reason for it other than to piss me off. congrats. it did. >:[
>>84488446>which one?caved and switched again to youtube, Vanossgaming>ow :<it's alr, I think it'll dissapear once I look better>okay ! ^^I'll send it to you on dcHow are you cat? Like in all ways, you okay too?Also how was ur day, do anything cool?istg it gave me upload failed 5 times and mistyped captcha 32542 times
>>84488730hey yuanon!how are ya?>>84488742>caved and switched again to youtubewas the amime not interesting enough?>dissapear once I look betteridk it might be never ending you might always feel you don't look good enough you should set some goals so you define what "looking better" means>send it to you on dcalright can't wait and when it comes to pictures I got a little camera few days ago :3
>>84485174hey, anon!>been so so sad and tired lately, i mean i always am but ive been non stop sleepingsounds like a bad depression. as stupid as it seems, try to get some sunlight, if you can. being inside all the time makes it worse. speaking from experience.>>84485524>I mistyped my name last time since my name field isn't saving right anymore for some reasonand here i thought you might have an ai-version post here instead. ^^>>84485852>half an hour to and hour.good pace. sts-runs can get a bit too long, i feel. i think the closest game i played to what you describe is enter the gungeon, but the story is way more barebones in comparison.>>84487495>I didn't have some kind of immigration-related snafulet's gooo! \o/>New enough for me not to know what either of those things are.just some very old ways of exercising, but they're fun and have some benefits regarding mobility over modern ways of training.>I have to wonder how many people were shopping there even in times of abundance.sometimes it's just a pet or prestige project of the city or some politician. nobody actually needs or wants it, but here it is.>Habits are hard to form when you're stressed.and also hard to drop at the same time. stupid brain. :/>Although it's a pop-up thing, It seems like it'll be there for a while.ah, i see. never been to one of those, i think. fuck fomo. :p>>84487859hi meowster. hope it was a good sleep. will be sleeping in a minute as well. (^-^)>>84488787hi catbro!>how are ya?i'm alright, but i have to try to sleep now. this week will be pretty bad and i'll have to wake up fairly early as well... anyways, hope you had a nice weekend. talk to you soon!good night!
>>84487696>glad things went okayMostly thanks to having my friend with me. Immigration would have been a nightmare without her, especially as my passport photo is nearing 10 years old.>can imagineThe metro was a complete shitshow since you had to use a QR code at the gate and it never worked for me. I felt like such an asshole holding everyone up...>you can get answers much faster than you can looking up sometimes and it is good in that regardI feel bad for admitting this, but I've replaced stack exchange with it for troubleshooting stuff and the answers are orders of magnitude more useful.but at the same time>without thinking and really looking at what they getis observably true. There's at least one paper that suggests people don't even remember the answer they got after a few hours pass vs doing a google search.>>84487859Did you see anything neat on your travels?>>84488446>got any pics?I can probably share this without revealing too much about where I am.>why?Crossing an international border and the city generally being a madhouse with a seemingly infinite number of people everywhere. Just complete chaos.Made me really appreciate where I am now.>>84488838>they're fun and have some benefits regarding mobility over modern ways of trainingI see, I see. Hopefully they're fun enough to keep doing.>sometimes it's just a pet or prestige project of the city or some politicianI wouldn't be surprised if it's that. Although I guess they only need one or two millionaires to drop in and buy some things and that's the rent covered.>never been to one of those, i think. fuck fomo. :pFomo is no fun, but at least you get a bit of variety. Although I have no idea how to find out which exist at a given time.
>>84488787>was the anime not interesting enough?Just felt like watching smth i love a lot :p>idk it might be never ending, you might always feel you don't look good enough, you should set some goals so you define what "looking better" meansMaybe, i just wanna look in the mirror and be happy, or atleast fine with it without lying to myself>when it comes to pictures I got a little camera few days ago :3Ooo really? Snap any cool pics?? ^^>>84488838>hi meowster. hope it was a good sleep. Will be sleeping in a minute as well. (^-^)Goodnight!! I will aswell. And i slept okay last night, i dont wanna go to school tmrw tho TwT
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>>84488938>Did you see anything neat on your travels?Beautiful southern countryside ig. And I did see Denmark from Sweden since i was down there for a little bit.Was also stopped and questioned by the police whilst walking :P They thought I was going to some illegal car meet
>>84488446>just rolled around the city looking at stuffsee anything interesting?>how was your day?it's okay! two days to Miku now, exciting stuff>>84488730>looking forward to what you have to say about it.Will try to give it a go soon since it's been a while since I cooked something I feel like> like the dlc for hollow knight was exclusively gauntlets and the combat was alright,Mario Sunshine thing I talked about was bad since you had to do those parts to progress the game and they were comically hard compared to rest of the game and honestly not very fun either. One thing to a dlc, another to gate you from the rest of the game>i guess we all hide a bit of our powerlevel for the sake of the thread.mine has been seeping through more and more but not to a ridiculous degree at least >what was at stake?the threat of losing second best girl in the story after they already took best girl. I can't take these stakes
>>84488938>Immigration would have been a nightmare i can imagine. Even traveling in Europe on a US passport I got jumpy going through that>passport photo is nearing 10 years old.reminds me i need a new one soon...>felt like such an asshole holding everyone up...not your fault though. first time encountering public transport somewhere new is a bit overwhelming>the answers are orders of magnitude more useful.honestly pulls from some of those places which is why some of those sites try to block AI access after all>one paper that suggests people don't even remember the answer they got after a few hours passI could believe it. I don't think it's bad to use still, but you have to have the right mindset and actually think about what it gives you rather than just using it to go fast without thinking
I'm heading to bed, gn everyone and anyone still around
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