Thread for all the human verminThey’re so pathetic you can almost feel sad for them.. almost. They create their own hell, miserable fucks. Even their self hatred is just a platitude, because they are incapable of loving.How is everyone coping?Remember the scene in “What’s Eating Gilbert Grape” where they burn the house on fire to cover their mother’s pride and dignity, so she could be remembered before her decline? Well, it’s too late for that now hahahaDiscard this messageThrow this bottle back into the oceanRip this page from the history booksSmash all the street signsErase all the mapsForget my nameForget my faceForget my nameBecause it's gonna rainIt's gonna rainAnd it never ends
>>33526394You look insane clean your room
>>33526394Well, I know I’m not the only one
I have chosen to fall and those reaching for my hand should know better
>>33526394>How is everyone coping?I just decided to become an alcoholic like a normal person.
im pathetic and fati hate my lifei talk but nothing comes outi see but nothing is beautifuli am but i want to go onthe champion of darkness>discord: fluffyboom.dark and moodynothing gives dopaminethe internet is too nice. wait for the nice guys>>33526394
>>33526412Groomer
>How is everyone coping?By masturbating, bedrotting and talking to strangers online.
>>33526394Yep. Tranny.
>>33526394Yeah I would eat this person alive.
You look like my ex
Why do you chose to have such unfeminine hands?
>>33526488Fellow hands guy, yeah this person has ugly hands.
>>33526394You look like Salad Fingers are you ok Anon
>>33526520I have a similar problem it's cause she eats her nails probably.
>>33526528Why the fuck would you eat your nails thats disgsting
>>33526530Crunchy.
>>33526533Potato chips exist
>>33526537We should eat OP.
>>33526540Idk about that one Yzilma They look like they smell like Raid bug spray
>>33526541But they're not Asian.
>>33526401I can avoid cleaning my room if I become homeless again>>33526420I am doing the middle one. >>33526453Not a tranner, I just don’t type in lowercase>>33526520>are you ok AnonI am my own bane >>33526484I bet you have fond memories with her..>>33526410I’m already drunk on life.>>33526406Stand up! Get up. You’re no cripple.
>>33526565Yeah we should kill you and eat you.
>>33526530I cut them like a normal person>>33526541I actually just smell like rotting fruit sitting in a windowsill some kid used to make wine, or maybe diabetes urine (we did a lab once, before I dropped out)
I'm just tired of crying over my ex, it's all I do, I wish I could engage in other activities.
>>33526578We should kill her and eat her.
>>33526579I love you Yzilma
>>33526585Oh if that's the case, you will let me kill you and eat you.
>>33526591yes my lord
>>33526596>>33526585We eat them.
>>33526599good job cum on their face
>>33526578I never even dated him. He was never even my friend. I experienced so much from what should have been a small lighthearted interaction. Well, that’s what happens when you consciously weave a fantasy. “I just need to anchor myself to someone”, never again will I use someone for my own emotional stability. I have to learn to be alone, which is why I’m here, seeking validation from strangers. It’s going to take years of solitude to fix this. I was “alone” for years, but never really experienced what it was to be alone. Now I don’t know what to do with myself.. get a life?
>>33526578But if that’s not a mockery, I feel youSorry, my mind goes to that because I’m self absorbed. I’m evil, but strive for good
>>33526604You need to be put down
>>33526533Someone who gets it
>>33526605Oh god I relate to this so much.>Well, that’s what happens when you consciously weave a fantasy. “I just need to anchor myself to someone”, never again will I use someone for my own emotional stabilityLiterally went through this, she made me feel so happy, so stable, so motivated, but it was all an illusion...>I have to learn to be aloneI have always loved being alone, and now for the first time I feel lonely after she ruined me. I don't understand why she doesn't want me. She only ever complimented me and even when dumping me she said I'm lovely and perfect. Fuck my life.>I was “alone” for years, but never really experienced what it was to be alone.Yeah. Exactly. For the first time, I'm scared to be alone because I am haunted by thoughts of her.>>33526609Nope, not a mockery, I'm just whining and crying like a total bitchboy.
>>33526605Only posted my face on here 4 times, which is pretty goodI’ve been on an insomnia spiral, but I generally just write.. only it’s more like glorified thinking, and my thoughts are decreasing in quality. I feed into myself. I need Jesus probably
>>33526394Lickable eyes
>>33526604
>>33526630bro..
>>33526636I'll do it again.
>>33526637You are nothing short of psychotic
>>33526616I‘m sorry you went through that. >She only ever complimented meHumans are messy. We tend to just bleed all over each other.>Nope, not a mockery, I'm just whining and crying like a total bitchboyNot a “bitchboy”, I’m just an egomaniac, and a few days no sleep (pausing in between as I’m writing to stick my thumb up a few times for no reason, and catching myself wondering why I’m doing it. That’s probably a sign I should stop or something, but I can’t feel any sensations right now because I’m drowning everything out)
>>33526643Flattery will get you nowhere.
>>33526577>I cut them like a normal personWomen are supposed to have long and slender nails, not what you have.It's more unattractive than anything else so far.
>>33526644>I‘m sorry you went through that.Thank you. It hurts so much, compliments mixed with rejection are worse than any insult.>Humans are messy.I hate them so much and I hate that I am like them.>I’m just an egomaniacOf what kind?>few days no sleepAlso keep having sleepless nights without her, even melatonin doesn't help.
>>33526647Seek actual help
>>33526654But why not help myself and do more?! You are far too narrow minded.
>>33526656you know this shows up when people search up your name right?
>>33526659And I will not spare an ounce of regret nor remorse. It's fun. You like fun, I like fun.
>>33526660and what of your stalkers? What will they think when they find this?
>>33526665They will jot it down in the list of their findings, nothing more of it.
>>33526665As an Yzilma stalker, none of the information in this thread is new. He's already established as having a thing for cannibalism (and necrophilia), as well as self-identifying as a schizo.
>>33526671You remember the necrophilia?!
>>33526651>Of what kind?I’m pretty sure I’m a bpdemonI literally feel like I’ve lost my personhood to it, like I’m just a manifestation of the criteria. It’s robbed me of everything>Also keep having sleepless nights without her, even melatonin doesn't helpI find valerian root tea helps sometimes, but only when it’s mild. Still might be worth looking into
>>33526673You post it about it fairly regularly.
>>33526671All of you need to be put down
>>33526685I did?! Well I trust your judgement, you seem unbiased. Necrophilia is quite rare to find among people who like it, especially considering how popular other taboo fetishes are.>>33526686Rude! Rude! Rude! My stalkers are lovely.
>>33526686Yes, I agree. The fact that I stalk Yzilma is severely pathetic, it speaks to lack of strength of character.
>>33526678>I’m pretty sure I’m a bpdemonAre you aggressive/explosive?>I find valerian root tea helps sometimesMight give it a shot... I've been coasting on chamomile tea. I'm so tired of having crying fits, nervous breakdowns, anxiety and dread...
>>33526693Is it fun?!
>>33526693But to be so motivated and capable is a sign of strength! To find me among the rubble and sea of voices is so appealing!
>>33526695Sometimes, it's mostly just compulsive. I'm invested in you unfortunately and I need to be in the know of the going-ons. It would be better for me to spend time doing literally anything else.
>>33526701>I'm invested in you unfortunately. And I am invested in you as well. Mutual love, but this is not destructive mind you. I keep you company, and you keep my existence together. I would quite literally die without you. You might find this interesting, I have a feeling someone spotted me out in the wild off site and knew immediately who I was.
What the fuck is a Yzilma
>>33526710Now you ask this question? Really?
>>33526707>I have a feeling someone spotted me out in the wild off site and knew immediately who I was.Not me, but not too surprising. You've plastered your face over the Internet enough to make it less unlikely for a stranger to recognise you.
>>33526605You'll get through it, I'm also relating to that a lot. Just trying to be okay with being by myself, I had a relationship and because of deaths in their family as an excuse they cheated on me after 7 years and then kept it secret for another two while pushing me away and being horrible, but because we had a baby shortly before they cheated, I tried to make it work. I can't get over the feeling of pain and embarrassment and loss, but also knowing they did that while I was tortured over my friend having cancer and slowly dying, just to toss me aside after he was dead. I found someone new eventually, but felt rushed and just like you OP, extremely egocentric and was in so much pain and unable to keep hold of their own emotional stability and I understand the pain and I've been in that place too, but it never ever ends well and I was told to not take on any more grief. I just have to be there for my kid now and yeah humans are messy and I also just want to be alone and maybe someday I'll be with someone again and maybe not, but I don't want to hurt anybody else or be betrayed again either>>33526694I wish you all the best anon, no sleep is an awful way to live and makes it so damn difficult to cope, hoping OP's tea suggestion can help a lot and you guys aren't alone feeling the way you're feeling
>>33526715I want to put through a test, ready?
>>33526720No.
>>33526394You look attractive but depressed. You should either kill yourself or fuck me. You likely won't change without some internal reconfiguration of your self image. A shame, you have a nice face. The mortician who embalms you will at least have a good fuck.
>>33526721Just answer this question really,>What's worse? Running from a problem before it starts or leaving in the middle?
>>33526712Answer me
>>33526730A Yzilma... is a Yzilma!
>>33526726Running before it starts. It's better to not get in trouble in the first place. Some will argue that leaving in the middle is better because you can learn from your mistakes, but the point of learning from your mistakes is to have the foresight to see problems coming.
>>33526742Out of the 14 people that I asked that question to, you are the only one to answer that.
>>33526694>Are you aggressive/explosive?I used to have a lot of trouble with that. I had prety severe behavioural challenges as a kid. I haven’t really directed my anger much towards others since I was around maybe 16. Now, I hardly ever get into verbal fights, but it’s more a self-directed non-lucid anger. I have been confused as psychotic in the past because of it, but when I feel guilty of it, I try to “block it out”, with more noise. I break things, yell.. it’s more-so triggered by my OCD. I am afraid of going outside, because I’m afraid of this happening. I’m just like a social pariah>I find valerian root tea helps sometimesMight give it a shot... I've been coasting on chamomile tea. I'm so tired of having crying fits, nervous breakdowns, anxiety and dread...I feel you. It doesn’t do much for insomnia, it’s really only there to help on normal nights, but better than melatonin. I am also skeptical of melatonin, as it can mess with your hormones. I believe it will get better for you. If you’ve been through this before, I’m sure you’ll find yourself out again
>>33526743I need to go buy some groceries now. Want anything?
>>33526750Uh... Hm... Not sure. I'll take some milk!
>>33526734that’s tells me nothing you moron
>>33526760Don't be too hasty now, you have to learn what a Yzilma even is! A Yzilma is a Yzilma.
>>33526745>I used to have a lot of trouble with that. I had prety severe behavioural challenges as a kid. I haven’t really directed my anger much towards others since I was around maybe 16.It's great that you were able to put it under control. I have never been one to blow up on others myself, I just avoid them and isolate myself.>it’s more a self-directed non-lucid anger. I have been confused as psychotic in the past because of it, but when I feel guilty of it, I try to “block it out”, with more noise. I break things, yell.. it’s more-so triggered by my OCDAh that sucks so much. I hope you haven't hurt yourself or destroyed too many valuable things. Have you been treated for it and tried to find a way to channel that energy elsewhere?>I am afraid of going outside, because I’m afraid of this happening. I’m just like a social pariahCan relate, I'm autistic and struggle a lot with going outside, especially without my noise cancelling earphones. I also hate social settings as they are so overwhelming.>it’s really only there to help on normal nights, but better than melatonin. I am also skeptical of melatonin, as it can mess with your hormonesHmm, melatonin is consireded to be super safe, but likewise it has only really helped me during normal nights. When I am massively stressed out there's nothing that can put me out.>I believe it will get better for you. If you’ve been through this before, I’m sure you’ll find yourself out againThank you... I have been through the pain of a breakup before, but it has never been like this. She was just so fucking wonderful, every moment was like a dream come true and I have never ever felt so accepted, understood and wanted. I am so afraid of the crying fits never ending. I'm scared of ending up like those people stuck in a permanent state of grief. I hope you too will manage to defeat your inner demons.
No anon you, don't get it, we need to breed to bring a sense of achievement into our lives, we are smarter than other species and that's why we need to make this planet uninhabitable and collapse in middle of an attempted colonisation to escape consequences
>>33526763just tell me please
This yzilma guy is one of the most annoying and boring shitskins on this board
>>33526768>PleaseNO NO NO NO, THIS DOES NOT WORK LIKE THAT. YOU MUST PIECE IT TOGETHER. YOU MUST, YOU MUST, YOU MUST.>>33526769Why not use a filter?! Silly little tourist.
>>33526718>because we had a baby shortly before they cheated, I tried to make it work. I can't get over the feeling of pain and embarrassment and lossThat is truly awful, sorry that happened.>I was told to not take on any more grief. I just have to be there for my kid now and yeah humans are messy and I also just want to be alone and maybe someday I'll be with someone again and maybe not, but I don't want to hurt anybody else or be betrayed again eitherI wish you all the best, and peace of mind. I am sure your kid appreciates you being there for them. It’s important work, more than anything, to be there for your kid.
>>33526769annoying and boring don’t go together
>>33526767Yo that's a really cool outfit, tell me more about it please.
>>33526774Don't tell him..
>>33526778Sewn a burlap onto an FM-12 gas mask, proceeded to sew through the mask and added mirrored lenses. Inspired by Scarecrow, I suppose
>>33526787Got more pics of it? Nice job.
>>33526764Nothing much to say, my brain is so fried and I won’t make you wait for a response. Thank you for sitting here with me. God Bless you anon, I really mean it. Sometimes it’s the kindness when we need it the most that sticks with us. I will try to always remember the good, and make it last
>>33526753Sorry bro, didn't buy any. I don't drink milk, so it would have just have gone to waste had I bought a carton. Let's pretend I bought you some digital milk over the Internet.
>>33526817You don't drink milk?!
>>33526394The crazy ones are always really beautiful
>>33526394do u have tits? if u do u should post them
>>33526819Don't like the taste.
>>33526789Ty
>>33526832you should try the milk straight from the gf
>>33526832What the fuck? What kind of milk are you drinking?
>>33526838straight from the tap is always preferred
>>33526839None of them, obviously. I've disliked milk since I was a child, so I don't really remember the root cause. Just don't like it.>>33526838Sure, I'll try that if I get the opportunity.
>>33526394unironically you look like you give amazing footjobs
>>33526773Thank you, don't be too harsh to yourself. Creating a Shitty person containment zone for yourself is probably bad for your self esteem OP.
>>33526850wish i had an eye that could spot people like that
>>33526394I am forever waiting for your wordsDrowning in the vat of words to find yoursGiving myself dyslexiaI’ll leave here, but I’ll keep writing about youI will NEVER move onSome girls may be able to move onYou severely underestimate how pathetic I amI’m sorry I am so selfish, but this is the cruxThings can be good again, give it timeI will wait forever for you, to me you are worth itAnd I will not rot here idly, devouring myself and everything that we had.. if it’s not already too late
>>33526996The fantasy can live without youI can live without youBut I cannot take another step on my ownThe future is in the pastSorry I am so selfish
>>33527000I am taking steps to find youPlease tell me your future aligns with mineThis is not a passing phaseI am with you forever, whether you’re with me or notI will watch you from afarI want to see you happyBut I am happy experiencing this through you
>>33527000please just post your boobsI will love you forever I promise
>>33527009I won’t disrupt your lifeI will let you liveLive without meI will live through you
>>33527015I can’t judge youYou are beyond reproachIt is more of a “I am with you forever”It’s hereditary. It’s a part of me I won’t denyHe never hated my mother, all those years he was there and it was beautiful
>>33527020You are beyond reproach meaning you are my twin flame. We are bound by fate. Don’t you think it could be that we were meant to find eachother?
>>33526394You look so much like me/my paternal family members that I'm kind of frightened.
>>33526394You don’t have to love me, but be happyWe are soul bound, our minds are connectedYou cannot tear us apartWe were made for eachotherOnly we can understand eachother
>>33526996>>33527000>>33527009>33527015>33527022>33527039I laughed.
>>33526394SORRY I LOVE YOUMaybe I don’t “love” you, but it is the closest to love I will ever get, because it all becomes twisted at some pointMy heart was pure to start, you showed me thatI cannot describe the soul connection I feel to youIt is something supernaturalYou are somewhat spiritualOpen yourself up to the possibilityIt’s the only thing that’s made senseI had to remove myself from you because I loved youBut I will watch you from afarI will never let go of youYou made an impressionYou held me when I was dying
>>33527052Many are saying this.
>>33526394Marry me, femanon
>>33526394All of them are in heaven, you are on earthYou keep me groundedI don’t expect anythingI have already accepted the lossI will be healthy regardless, as long as you are happyI want to freeze here forever, in motionI want this moment to last forever
>>33527060Sorry you're not a good fit.
>>33526394I needed your kindnessNow it has run dryNo fault of your ownI had to remove myself from youI had too much respect for youI was meant to find your nameI was meant to find that information
>>33527071See?
>>33527071I WAS MEANT TO FIND YOUI will be the one that saves you next timeFind meOnly if you find that you need me
>>33527085Done?Done.
i was in the hills fuckin doooooods
Dear femanon, will you let this little robot mate with you? Sincerely, an r9k robot
>>33526394Please, read it. I erased it, see me now. Less deranged.Good night. If you live in my imagination, so be it! You gave me a glimmer of hope, something to look forward to, something to work towards. I know it is fantasy, and I am content with that. I cannot face reality. When I get a job, I would like to save up enough money to repay you, just as a symbolic act. I know it was never meant to be. I may move on in years to come when I am healthy enough to have a relationship, but I will never find anyone better.. because you, you are a dream to me. Well, not the real you, but your projection. I see two versions of you. I see you existing alongside my projection, the shining manifeststion of hope. I do not confuse you for my love. I see you. You are in the same frame as my projection. It is just that I cannot speak to my projection, I cannot love my projection, but you are there. You are the cloak that adorns my hope. Without the real you, my fantasy would disintegrate. When my fantasy disintegrates, you will still be there, and I will not hate you because there was never any delusion. I saw clearly, and I knew clearly, I just decided to cover my eyes. I have respect for the real you, and I think although we were not meant to be together, it was fate. I was meant to meet you, and to meet this tragic end! I do not mind being alone, I have been alone for years and have not minded it, but it is when this hope takes the form of another person that I begin to conceptualize myself as lonely..but the thing is, I will choose you over the fantasy. I want the fantasy to die
>>33527109This? I did not read it.
>>33527109And the thing is.. it did not meet it’s tragic fateThe story is ongoing
>>33527117...in an alternate dimension that does not exist.
>>33526394“I do appreciate the real you, and I do see you and like you for who you are. But the real you is a stranger, not the "you" that I am familiar with and love. The best times I've had with you haven't really happened. I see the value of not submerging myself in fantasy, because you are a real person, and I wish not to hurt you by projecting onto you.. but I will not stop living in fantasy I will not. Not ever.I just want to say I love you just once, even though it is not actually addressed to you. Because I do not love You, I love "You"I love you foreverThereAnd all that stuff about wishing all good things to come your way, was not addressed to the projection, but to you. I really do care about you, and respect you, and aspire to be like you. You may have not been able to play board games, or talk on the phone... but I respect you all the more!Not because you were not able to, but because you respect yourself”I know it’s wrong
>>33527127Proclaim the score...
>>33527127“No, I will reject the fantasy because it is like a tumour that requires you for it's survival. I have too much respect for the real you to do that. I will not use your likeness in my writing.”
>>33527131Sources>
>>33527131I want to let go, but I feel you’re the only one that can console me after this. I lit myself on fire for you to save meBut I need to stop lighting myself on fire
>>33527140No one is saying this.
>>33527139I erased what you did not fully seeNow I am derangedI wanted you to read it how it was intendedBefore my words became mixed up(you)
>>33527143I accept your concession.
>>33526394I WILL NEVER SLEEP AGAINILL NEVER EVEN FUCKING CLOSE MY EYES FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLL I just want to be free of myselfIt’s not you. I need freedom
What even is this thread
>>33527150... in my headcanon.
>>33526394I AM BURNING I AM BURNING I AM BURNING I AM BURNING A devil in heaven suffers eternal tormentMy life is to mock me
>>33527155... in a reality that yet to take shape.
>>33527155I can fix you
>>33527163Sorry she needs ME. You're clearly not dedicated.
>>33527161hey can someone give me a QRD on this guy, i feel like ive been seeing him on every thread for like the past month but i dont pay attention to tripfags usually
I'll keep you company while you have your episode because I feel like I'm going to have one too
>>33527165I'll summon my stalker, they are a HISTORIAN.
I wish I had a stalker
>>33527170https://voca.ro/1ffFNHGoF8wL
>>33526394READ MY WORDSI BURN ALIVEClose to killing myself, not because of you, not because of a lack of you, just how it is“You don't have to talk to me, maybe I would just like to write here. Words are ineffective and wasteful. We are all just talking to ourselves. That's fine. I lied to you. I lied about how many musicals I watched. I wanted something of my own, because I was insecure, and because I did not want my identity to submerge into yours. I fear losing myself a little more than I fear losing you, but I am not quite sure what I am trying to preserve. I guess I am just trying to hold onto the sense of having a self apart from others. I cling to past self-narratives for comfort, but I have no belief in what I portray; I am just holding up a mask. I fake my seperation and togetherness, it's like I have to fake being a person.I can never really escape myself, disconnection to the self is an illusion. I am just too full of my empty self. I feel soulless. lied to you about finishing your book. I lied to my bio father about finishing his book. I never finished watching his videos. I never watched his tv shows. Where is the love I thought I had for him? cannot do anything for him. I can only feel the loss, because I'm a miserable fuck. I don't even feel that anymore. I just want it to happen again to prove I can care about more than myself. Sometimes when I'm alone in my room, I think about things that should elicit empathy and force crying to feel better about myself.It's putting on a show for myself. I don't feel love, only guilt I feel guilty for being a bad person, but it's mostly through an objective lens. It makes me feel bad, mostly because I like to think of myself as a good person I don't know how I turned out to be this way.. I used to be such a sweet girl. I always had a rot in my core, it just seemed to fester”
>>33527175Brevity is a virtue.
>>33527171HOLY FUCK WHAT THE HELLYou?
this is like a shizo stageplay by now
>>33527180https://voca.ro/1ltCCDt768Jp
>>33527180Never mindDidn’t see replyI am hopeful to a faultThat’s why I won’t be like him
>>33527184You lost.
>>33527181It’s BPDI’m killing myselfI need to dieFeel so stupidMake one mistake so ruin it allWhy not share everything from my heart to strangers while I wait for you
>>33527188I cachinnate.
This yzilma tranny samefagging kek
>>33527192Could you imagine?
>>33527186WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK
>>33527198The night Max wore his wolf suit and made mischief of one kind.And another.His mother called him "WILD THING!".And Max said "I'll eat you up".So he was sent to bed without eating anything.The very night in Max's room a forest grew.And grew-And grew until his ceiling hung with vines.And the walls became the world all around.And an ocean tumbled by with a private boat for Max.And he sailed off through night and day.And in and out of weeks.And almost over a year.To where the wild things are.And when he came to the place where the wild things are.They roared their terrible roars and gnashed their terrible teeth.And rolled their terrible eyes and showed their terrible claws.Till Max said "Be Still!".And tamed them with the magic trick.Of Staring into all their yellow eyes without blinking once.And they were frightened and called him the most wild thing of all.And made him king of all wild things."And now", cried Max, "let the wild rumpus start!"."Now stop!” Max said and sent the wild things off to bed without their supper.And Max the king of all wild things was lonely and wanted to be where someone loved him best of all.Then all around from far away across the world.He smelled good things to eat.So he gave up being king of where the wild things are.But the wild things cried, "Oh please don't go- we'll eat you up - we love you so!".And Max said, "No!".They roared their terrible roars and gnashed their terrible teeth.And rolled their terrible eyes and showed their terrible claws.But Max stepped into his private boat and waved goodbye.And sailed back over a year.And in and out of weeks.And through a day.And into the night of his very own room.Where he found his supper waiting for him.And it was still hot.
>>33527198No, you’re notI know it, but in some way I’d rather it be anyoneThis isn’t about you anymoreI’ve messed up so I have to ruin everythingHave a scratch pour drain cleaner in itI do this to myselfBut you really were the one calling me a narc?
>>33527202Then I stood up and clapped.
I just cleaned my room. The pile of old fast food and beer cans is gone. Feels the same though. Actually my room feels kind of empty now like the garbage was protecting me. Literally like a foot or 2 or garbage coated a 4 foot radius around my bed, I had to hop over that shit to get to my computer. Idk! Whats the point of anything.
>>33527188Not killing myselfSorry. I thought I wouldn’t be like thisI am never like thisI was frozen, but you stirred something in my soul
>>33527206Done shitting.
>>33527211That's what nobody did.
Kek at this Chilean kike
>>33527215I am Chilean now?!
>>33527206Too relatable
>>33526394I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE THIS IS NOT HEALTHY I AM NOT GIVING MYSELF ANY HOPE. I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE I LOVE MY FUTURE. I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I RUIN EVERYTHING FOR MYSELF.IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH FEELINGS BUT IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CANT CONTROL IT
>>33527215He’s cute
>>33527219...in a world parallel to this one but no longer is there.>>33527220Faggot.
>>33527222ily
>>33526394I SHOULDNT HAVE MOVED BACK I NEED TO BE HOMELESSIT SEEMS I HAVE THE MARK OF CAINA RESTLESSNESS IN MY HEART THAT NEVER ENDSBUT YOU WERE HOME WHEN I HAD NO HOMEI WROTE ABOUT YOU EVERY DAY
>>33527226>>33527227KWAB.
>>33527226what does this mean Yzilma
>>33526394It’s all a mockery. Everything. It’s all overI only wish it was for me
tomorrow I will turn 30. feeling really suicidal and I think it's time for me to stop browsing again for a long time.
>>33527230You said it yourself dumb dumb.>>33527233I laughed loud.>>33527232No one is saying this.
>>33527233Don't think too much about it, 30 isn't exactly the halfway point anymore.
>>33527236For them, it should be the END.
>>33527239yeah I think so too
>>33527242Haha.
>>33526394WHY AM I LIKE THIS. I am going to cut my arm off with a circular saw. You can almost empathize, until you can’t. Because this isn’t rational. An adult woman having an outburst on the damn internet. You will never speak to me again. I am sorry. Know that I never hated you. I always loved you in my heart. And I continue to love you. But something bad will happen in November because it did last year. It’s building, you have not confronted me and I am very afraid. This is embarrassing. I wish I could stop doing this. Not a life I want to live. My life is over.
>>33527248Yawn.
>>33527248Sounds like you gotta try and move on
>>33527252She should try some writing classes.
>>33527254For sure
>>33527255Hmmm... you are much more intelligent than the main characters here.
>>33527256Ah, I don't know about that
>>33526394Was your previous thread not getting you enough attention? >>33521901
>>33527259You clearly are. Why are you here. We don't belong here.>>33527262Don't worry, we're here for her.
>>33527265We're all flawed in our own way
>>33527233I won’t moralize, I just hope you can be at peace.
>>33527272Yet you are exceptionally flawed. Are you content.
>>33527277I've made my peace with the way I am. I still have days where I feel like leaving this universe, though I'm to cowardly to act upon such feelings.
>>33527287>I still have days where I feel like leaving this universe, though I'm to cowardly to act upon such feelings.Yet you are not isolated, and instead you open your being to the Universe itself. You welcome all of life, and actively avoid death.I don't like you. You are very human.
>>33527287They call it the cowards way out but it still takes some guts to get it done.
>>33527292Yet you are hungry, seeking to eat more.
>>33527262I seek attention, but the suffering is genuine. I am a miserable pathetic broken fucking person. Only I am an egomaniac who thinks I am the only one in the world who is suffering>>33527272Thanks
>>33527295Who isn't?
>>33527298Those are temperate, and those who are charitable.
>>33527297It does sound like you have a lot on your mind, I hope you can find some peace and happiness soon.
>>33527305They will never be happy! They are our little Faust.
>>33527307Not with an attitude like that anyway.
>>33527287Glad to hear you have made peace with who you are. I hope that one day you will overcome it all. I hope that you will live a life that you’re proud of. Rise above it all.
>>33527311Do you know of Faust?
>>33527312Thank you. I don't expect to make much of my life though if I'm being honest, I'm more about just surviving and finding enjoyment in the moments I can.
where did you get your social engineering degree
>>33527320I am glad you took notice.
>>33527313The deal with the devil dude? who doesn't?
>>33527322People who do not clearly! But tell me more, who was Faust, what his goal in his story, why did he meet the devil, what did the devil offer him?
>>33527170I can’t help but feel this might be irony?
>>33527327You don’t mean it, but a little inside joke?Are you my L?
Stop being insane or at least make it entertaining. You are showing anons why getting a bpd gf is a bad idea.
>>33527330Look it's a Dark Souls CAC.
>>33527330 Seriously if we were in medieval times they would burn u on a stake for that. Stop being insane online.
>>33527326I mean there's many versions of the story but the one I'm familiar with is that he was a scholar who lived a accomplished and comfortable life but wanted more hence his meeting with the devil and subsequent exchanging of his soul for knowledge and entertainment.
>>33527336What did he want?
>>33527328I'd let you stalk me anyday!
>>33527337To become a god
>>33527341Stop being a simp. Or actually can you simp for me instead pls? Women have lots of simps i have none(
>>33527349No! He wanted to know the meaning of life. So he embarked a journey where he left everything and everyone behind just to find it. God and the Devil wagered on whether or not if the Devil can persuade him over to this side. The Devil approached Faust during his journey to show him the pleasures of the world in exchange for his soul.
>>33527330>Stop being insane or at least make it entertainingAll this is literally just to drown my thoughtsI don’t want to stop and realize what situation I’ve gotten myself into. I have not been able to lay my hands off the keyboard for like a week. Haven’t browsed here very much since January. Funnily enough, all of this was self-induced. “I have to stop talking to you, I like you a bit too much”.. but I it really was too much, and it just kept festering in me, the problem only continued to grow, and I kept suppressing it. 6 months of normal conversation before getting here. I am so disappointed in myself, that I didn’t just ruin the friendship but made a mockery of myself
>>33527356I did in fact laugh.
>>33527353Yeah that does make sense, it's been a while>>33527350I mean you look good but I don't swing that way, sorry.
>>33527360What was the real meaning of life?
>>33527341Not him
>>33527341be careful what you wish for
>>33527375Stalkers aren't like this at all, they are STALKERS not aggressors.
>>33527364How would one go about courting you?>>33527375Sounds all good to me>>33527361Love
>>33527384:)How did he discover that?
>>33527356 I take my words back. This was entertaining >>33521901 Post more
>>33527385His time with Marguerite I suppose.
>>33527402Hmm...
>>33527356But I filled 7 journals of poetry for youTore the pages to shreds in the most meticulous way, threw them in the woods, threw the rest in the trash binI think sometimes “well, I may be pathetic, but maybe he can appreciate it even though he has the sense to know that I’m wrong for him”. I really do wish him the best. He is beautiful and poetic, my fantasy had to have inspiration. I could never create something so beautiful, and it was beautiful. I just hope knowing someone’s thinking about him makes him feel a bit more loved, even though you just cannot take this as love, because it’s mental illness. But it was pure to start. He said something which, he expressed a sincere gratitude for me, that I hope he never takes back. I hope disappointment will not lead him to disillusionment with love. I hope my unravelling did not break his trust. That’s what I fear most. I hope he remembers the good we had, even if it may be more trivial, and amplified in my mind. Unfortunately, sometimes when I had the urge to write him, I would just erase my previous writing to make it seem like I wasn’t clingy, so he has nothing to look back on but whatever this is>>33527359If he sees this, he might be like “wtf happened”? Or maybe he loathes me, in which case I hope I become an inspiration to him. Satan is often a more powerful motivator than God. Whatever it may be, I hope he doesn’t take it to heart
>>33527418No.
>>33527418>>33527418Damn, I need a clingy gal like you
>>33527449I need to be alone for 5 yearsYou need a sane galSorry, got carried away and departed from the text. Tired.
>>33527391>Post moreThere is no filter, it comes from divine inspirationI am better now, again, I will be up all night againWonder how long I can keep this up before I become a full blown retard or have a stroke or something
>>33527515Time to leave
>>33527515You're beautiful and you seem so sweet, just really tortured. I'd love nothing more than to look after you, pamper you and try to give you a happy life. I'm a shut-in type myself so we could spend lots of time together and I'd stick with you during the bad times too, unless you wanted to be alone.
>>335275080 - 2
>>33527516Have a good sleep, if you're going to bed <3
>>33527165>>33527167Sorry, I was taking a nap. Yzilma is just a guy shitposts a lot. Used to derail /jjk/ thread when the manga was still ongoing, as well as /xivg/ threads before Dawntrail came out. Look him up hin the archives if you want to know more.
>>33527623Thank you, Yzilma-historian.
>>33527631Fuck off retard
>>33527623>tfw, on call 24/7 to provide help desk on a gay shitposter from a mongolian basket weaving forumthis so called Yzilma stalker seems a difficult position
>>33527654No.>>33527656It is.
>>33527656I don't usually interact this much, but yes, I am pathetic.
>>33527674You have more ambition than most retards on the site. Stand proud, you're strong.
>>33527681It would be better to have ambition towards something useful, like making art or socialising with people who aren't on 4chan.
>>33527688What is stopping you?
>>33527690Just fucking tired all the time, man.
>>33527697Of?
>>33527702Tired as in sleepy. And you're doing your thing.
>>33527706Well, if anything, you are more than capable. You just have to be motivated. If you can commit time to following me, I am sure there is a man or woman out there that can make better use of your time. You just have to want it, I feel like you don't.
>>33527706Still up? Really?
>>33528000Sorry. This was weird. I thought it was wrong timing.
>>33528007Time must have changed in the thread for some reason
>>33527706Stalker-san did you see the NSFW thread?
>>33526394I myself have been through homelessness and abuse; try to instead productively learn more how to grow from it and take the positive from what you can in your experiences instead of choosing to fail at life. Give yourself a second chance, remember who you are (or who you want to become), and know well that what will come of it, will come, but as long as you have done what you can to make the best of it, then the struggle wasn't in vain. Life is both kind and cruel; you've just got to discover how to find the light in your darkest of times.
>>33526394Cute femanon can you post your naked body please? :)
>>3352639424/fkik: throwwawayyyy0
I want to get OP pregnant if you know what I mean
>>33526394i get banned at all discordand i only discovered it couple of days agobecausefree rent give me free renti won't give you sexi am pathetici am future neetgive me free rent
>>33526394These past few years have just been lesson after lesson, one ignominy after another. All this shame, failure, and humiliation has just completely shattered my ego, and I remain a horrible person in spite of it. I am no longer a little uppity insolent piece of shit, but something somehow far worse. I no longer back my entitlements with justifications. I embrace who I am, and reject who you are.WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?? I cannot think any lower of myself. I have lost all my pride. I have been humbled by life. I cannot take on the guilt of a lifetime, and carry it in my heart. I am losing my ability to care. My ego is endless, blood spills in vain. I just wish for death. This purgatory is endless. I was the face, I became the burn, I am becoming the eternal fire. Why care? You just make me feel like shit about myself. It is punishment without redemption. In that case, I would rather not feel miserable. Go back to physically and mentally abusing others. If I cannot change, why should I? Why care. Make the wicked miserable in the next life. Bring me down, and take yourselves with me. Don’t deliver all my payback in this life, I cannot make heaven out of hell.
>>33530693Hey what part of canada?
>>33526394I AM THE SPIRITUAL JEWESSI wholly acknowledge my wickednessI have shaved my head before the trialI have slain myself before the executionMy power is in my disempowermentYou cannot break someone who’s brokenLeave me to dieI will hold onto the dignity that remainsJust let me destroy myselfDon’t stare into the flames
>>33530711Cringe
>>33530703I live in the maritimes, but I was born in the prairies where I am soul bound. I will hitchhike across Canada in May. I hitchhiked to NB, and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I have the mark of Cain. There is an unceasing restlessness in my heart. I do not belong in this world, so my home is nowhere
>>33530724Yes, old /b/ loreMy disempowerment is only an illusion, but there is power in it because I use it to feed your destructionThat’s what I was trying to sayMy disempowerment can be used to feed my powerI will just end up killing a creature that is only part human most likelyBut human in the eyes of God
>>33530743Not genuinely, I don’t thinkSee, I caught myself drifting againWhen I feel my words speak all by themselves
>>33530750Not really trying to say anything I don’t think, or not anything that I can be sure of
>>33530743Not illusion, I mean induced by youI mean that I transfer my destruction to others
>>33530757Just trying to live a life I can be proud ofBut I cannot be proud of myselfTime is non linearIt may be better to stop hereStop before I am moving without thinking
I laughed.
>>33530711I don’t want this outcomeThis is Satan
>>33530768I may cut my wrist off if I have toI just need the thoughts to go awayA portion of me has to dieFor me to surviveIt will be painfulBut I really have to kill myself to live
>>33530771If I can only concentrate all my destruction into my arm and channel itI just need someplace for it to goI am just drifting nowI am asleep inside myselfI am fully non sentient
>>33530776I wonder how many days it has been I am not sure what I should do todaySince I have not been keeping track of the daysI need to hold on a little longerI am completely blindI am letting myself be robbed of my lifeI have no control of myselfJust an assortment of instinctsI am letting myself be carried in every which direction to not fight against my thoughtsI am not aliveI have no soulSome people should kill themselves before it’s too lateI will give you my booksI wanted you to have them
>>33530798That is all I wanted for my lifeTo give you the booksBecause I wanted you to have themThose books are important to me
>>33530800Why cling to life?Why fear separationIt is just an illusionI am a part of lifeThat is what you tried to tell me
Hahahaa.
>>33530802Satan is really channeling through me todayI am joking.. but.. Maybe the Christians have the most senseI do not really think of myself as a ChristianJust see God as life forceAs continuation Since I can only think of myselfMy mind is separated from othersNot reallyIt just fights separationI try to be a good personNot sure that I can anymoreI will die before my dreams dieI don’t want to live to watch them die
>>33530810You feed off sufferingYou will end up emptyYou will be just like meOnly I have progressedBecause I lived when I was supposed to die
>>33530816Nah I love you.
>>33530816I will never sleep againI do not want to ever sleep againMaybe I should listen to musicBefore becoming too carried awayI am not sureEverything just seems fake to meI do not remember that I got up to go eat But I see the plates by meMy life is just out of my controlI am just willing it awayMy own thoughts have stoppedI am just becoming a different meBecause I have lost myselfNow anything can take rootNot making senseNot trying to
>>33530817You love my destructionYou feed off itIf you loved me you would want me to dieBecause you would hate the person that has seeped into my soulI cannot tell what you mean if you are really the same person from before
>>33530840I love you.
>>33530840I will share my songsWait..
>>33530857No
>>33530857Muah! I kiss.
>>33526394Everyone can feel the pain of another, because separation is an illusion, we are all one at the same time. You cannot reject truth, because it is an illusion, and there is no being something that it is not. You are just a character in a story, do not try to choose your part, do not succumb to nothingness, just reject the illusion that you have a choice, but that it is working through you, and you are not helpless to it
>>33531033It will respond to the response of your soulIt works through impulses
>>33531036It is trying to respond through you, you do not know, don’t make a choice, just accept whatever the outcome is. Do not try to control anything, you just have to lose the illusion of yourself
>>33531033Because time is weaving everything together at the same time. You just have to let it bind you, you will be moved through different paths, different modes of experience, and they can build layers and become the dust in your soul, but you can choose to free your mind and the responsibility laid upon you, and reject things tied to yourself, but you can exit this mode if you are taken by another mode, if you cannot move on from this mode you will not fight it, you just have to let another mode come to you and move you out of this mode, do not cling to life or death, or god or satan, just exist in the middle of these modes and they will take you out of this one, you just have to wait for the change to come
>>33531050you are in the middle of a battle and you might not even understand what is happening to yourself, as you are being ripped away, but you are becomming who you are meant to be in the end, it is not wrong to be good or bad, you just have to exist in the middle of these modes and let them steer you to another mode that you can maintain the illusion of separation and yourself
>>33531055You can feel your soul responding to it as it wells from inside you, only time will tell if you if you are needed in a higher realm, like in the celestial kingdom. Just wait for it to end, and you will stay here on earth or if you will be a visiter, if they will like you in this state, and if they do not need you to change, because evil is binding after death
>>33531059The celestial kingdom is not a higher realm, I meant to add that, it is only an analogy of an afterlife, I did not think it clearly
>>33531061Maybe you will continue to exist in this non-sentience all your life until it is too late and all the power has been taken from your soul, that is what Satan wants
>>33531065You are immortal, when you are alive you exist as yourself always as all the different states of yourself even states of death, but you maintain this illusion of there being modes because that is what happens when you feed into this illusion of being separation. You can choose to separate yourself from the modes you want to detach yourself from
Waste of a life
>>33531075Maybe you let these forces steer you, and when there is an emptiness of the soul, that is when Satan takes full steer of us even though we did not wish for that colour to paint the walls, it just went without being painted , and if it is not painted it will not wear the colours of the storm, because above life and death there is not the afterlife but the all encompassing that holds these realities simultaneously for us to even begin to understand them
>>33526394I do not want to understand, only fight against the thoughts and the different constructs, just deny everything, and maybe the denial is making a choice to let Satan into our hearts, I am stuck here, even if I wanted to stop, I am only half conscious, I do not want anything, either to go out of it or to fall into it, just be taken to a different state than the one that I’m in, or maybe I will just live in this state forever, but I can deny all blame because there was never a choice in any of it
>>33531099Maybe if you are stuck in yourself do not think of it, because something will happen anyway, you can only speed time, and let it happen to you, because you are choosing this, you just want to be carried out by God or Satan, hell is powerlessness, refusal, the complete lack of will, there is no such thing as a will for evil, only Satan has a will for evil, but he will try to steer your impulses and convince you otherwise, just remain as you are, nothing changes only time
>>33531110Steer the impulse inside the heart, and you have stopped thinking awhile ago, and your life reflects that
>>33531112You just never want to move out of this as long as alternative timelines exist, and you are experiencing them simultaneously on an unconscious level alongside you, you will never move out of this, you wanted to the house to burn a long time ago like it should have, but the windows are glass and it is too late to change that, so you are stuck here because you do not want to be perceived as alive, just exist as a photo, because your life has been humiliation, and you have ruined everything for yourself
>>33531117The battle is real, God and Satan exist, and they are trying to steer you out of this, but God will not save you, Jesus did not come to save you but to give you the means to save yourself, and you just don’t want to let that happen, so you sink further into yourself, and maybe you should induce a state of sleep while you are awake, because when you are asleep you are even too conscious, so you do not filter your actions, and have you ever met someone like you? Maybe you were right to call us changelings, I think we are both alike, but you lived a life before you died
>>33531117Exist as a photo, non feeling, but felt by othersLive when you are dead
>>33531137Some peoples lives are just like one scream, but they can’t even hear themselves screaming, they just see everyone running away, and they wish they could run away and hide, they wish they could filter themselves and cover themselves from shame, but they can only deny that it has happened so the scream just runs out until they have nothing left to live on
>>33531150I am robbing myself of logic, but seeing and hearing words is not enough even if I do not understand them, I just want to be completely immobilized and stop screaming, there is nothing I can do to make my situation any worse as it is, only in the future, but I am trying to kill myself at the speed that I am alive
>>33531156But you do not want to think inside your mind, so your thinking bleeds in public, and you become a spectacle, but you are removed from yourself and you do not really feel the thoughts, it is all a waste
>>33531079You need to swim in the ocean or slow time, or speed time, or anything than what you are doing now. But you may have just let yourself go completely and given up all control in which case, you may see death. But you will move to another mode of being. It will not always be like this, because it cannot always be like this. You are like me, I see that your eyes are fixed on death. The sight will burn your eyes, and you will see the sun or blind yourself, but if you are blinded, you will not feel this weariness, this dread in your soul. Destruction will not reside in you forever, because it cannot. You will see brighter days, or the end of days. Feel at peace knowing your pain will come to an end, but do not be deceived, you will never be able to experience your own restfulness in eternal sleep, or see the beauty in things after you have lost your vision
>>33531176We all lose hopes but move to the next, this is like blinking, but blindness in life is the complete absence of hope, it will mentally cripple you
>>33531160When your mind is open to the public, do not be surprised when new voices welcome themselves inside of your mind, and the line between the two fades
>>33531079You look like chad daniel larson
>>33531179Can you stop being insane please? It makes me sad( are you a forest witch ?
what do you think about mormons
>>33527335>If we were in medieval times bro you don't wanna go there with such peasant-coded facial features
>>33530726Are you the christ saves graffiti culprit downtown?
>>33526394>tfw no insane stare schizo gf but who is not a rampant whore online and only devoted herself to me
>>33531902>implying you never posted yourself on 4chins one way or another
>>33531860Hello, fellow maritimerKeep searching for the graffiti bandit>St George stLaundromat st>>33531451Tired..I’ve looked into itI’m very thankful for the help that they gave to a family memberMight be LDS in the future>>33531341>Can you stop being insane please?Yeah, I’m usually not like this, I just decided to abandon ship at home. I completely let myself go from the moment I stepped foot inside, just fully gave into sickness as a stubborn act to prove that it wouldn’t work out. I have the power to make things better for myself. I know what I have to do next at least. >are you a forest witchI hope so.. still waiting on my acceptance letter to forest witch school >>33531183I just need to sleep tonightI will really make an attempt this time>>33531079Sorry for the previous reply, it wasn’t thought out. Hang in there, keep looking forward, you have so much life to liveI’m out of here
>>33532073Goodnight anon, do wake up with the same unhinged eyes though, quite stylish
>>33532041I’m an attentionwhore, not a real whoreBut sometimes it rarely feels like much of a distinctionI need to start having more respect for myself
>>33532083You should do something creative with the attention you're getting. It's malleable. I support this thread as a way to combat the usual threads.
>>33532083internet cut out wrong timeNot sure what you were insinuating there>>33532081I will (maybe)I’ll stop posting here anywayJust have a hard time moving from one thing to the other, disengaging
>>33532073No, I will sleep at 6:30pmI’ll keep posting, but just light stuff>>33531860I just went back to share a photo of Moncton, really doesn’t do it justice, earlier there was a yellow streak in the cloudy sky, the tide was higherSome person was coasting along the tidal bores on some type of contraption
>>33532131Oh wait forgot photo
>>33532132And here you can see the tidal bores from Truro. I took these photos btw
>>33532138That is in Nova ScotiaHere is another oneDelaying sleep
>>33532132>>33532138>>33532141Nintendo DSi quality.
>>33532141I like this one I took
>>33532143Good or bad?They have a higher definition on my filesHere
this entire board is a "shitty person containment zone" :) nn for a thread
>>33532150It's less of a quality, and more of a variety.
>>33532150I actually love this oneAnd this one is by the Staples in TruroNice town
>>33532153Hmm good I guess>>33532153Not at all, a lot of people here are just isolated
>>33532169Replied to the wrong one, Salad-chan.
>>33532169I wish I followed through when I was going to go to bed, but I know I will sleep tonight. I don’t want 3 weeks to turn into 3 months. I need to get it together
>>33532181Hope is for anyone.
>>33532181If I am going to spam, I will spam the outdoorsIt reminds us to get outside
>>33532190You seem to do these alone.
>>33532186Indeed it is!I keep thinking about this quote.. profound wisdom from Jake the Dog
>>33532200It's from a song, would you like to hear it. It is indie-pop.
>>33532200Wait.. file
>>33532202Heck yes! I love indie-pop and twee
>>33532190Fun pics
>>33532205https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngTqVC_ivfs&ab_channel=EpidemicIndieHere you go love.
>>33532138Bridge troll pov...
>>33532215What's the toll?
>>33532224Living in a frontier playground province entirely reliant on various wealthy families who fund cities
>>33532208>>33532211>>33532215Very nice photos>>33532240This photo is from SeptemberYeah, and “white cab company” service drivers
>>33532260Then there’s Air Cab
>>33532274Just vocalizing my thoughts again.. Just because I remember those cabshttps://youtu.be/z35EEI1HzbY?si=7cizLSBDVWDjHy4O
I don't think anything is urgent enough to warrant a cab
>>33532299>Sièges prioritairesWhy the french?
>>33532299I have never taken the transitThe cabs were paidThe shelter pays for them sometimes
>>33532303>shelter pays for them sometimesEVEN SHELTERS ARE KIND IN CANADA
>>33532303I have more photos, I wanted to find the ones of the train tracksNova Scotia
>>33532311Yeah, one time the manager at the shelter even drove me around 2 hours in her car for something important after her shiftIt was not part of the job, she just wanted to help outI was deeply fortunate for thatYou look very tired
>>33532331Will this keep up until 6:30pm?Maybe
>>33532317Have you ever taken the rail? You need photo id for it apparently so it's on my bucket list but the path it takes looks very scenic and fun for an experience
>>33532340I swam in this lake several times this summerThere were shopping carts in it and leechesBut I was told leeches are in clean waterSome people say if there are leeches in the water you can drink from it.. yeah.. not sure about that haha
>>33532340Keep what up?
>>33532342No, I was thinking of that tooI don’t have photo id eitherI am hitchhiking to Edmonton in May
>>33532360What's in Edmonton? Are you fitbit maxxing atleast
>>33532351Eh, not much.. can't sleep lol
>>33532360>>33532368Do you walk the tracks usually or? I can't imagine that trek
>>33532367It bears significance I don’t have a fitbit, nor have I been walking much since being homeI live in a very rural area, I don’t feel I can go outside here because every social interaction is binding, there is no anonymityI have 2 neighbours and they just happen to be sitting on their lawn chairs whenever I want a walkTaking forever to erase EXIF data..Also I’d just be walking on the side of the highway
>>33532379I walk on the side of itIt’s illegal technicallyBut if you’re outside of the yard they don’t careBut in cities they would
>>33532384I think my male privilege is not being ostracized locally but never being picked up while hitch hiking. I need to go back to Ontario
>>33532390I like the mixture of nature and human development in this picture
>>33532311Lots of medical malpractice in Canada with incentives for pushed/coerced treatments or diagnoses leading to long term subscriptions to the free Healthcare pyramid scheme -- male shelters will refuse you if you're not on whatever pill/antipsychotics webmd tells them you NEED TO BE ON TO BE HUMAN etc.
>>33532398It didn’t upload>>33532397Is that in Ontario?
>>33532420Noooo I lost all my ontario memories, there's a few concrete military dams/forts that have been integrated into trails / local spots it's always fun to see
>>33532410>Lots of medical malpractice in Canada with incentives for pushed/coerced treatments or diagnoses leading to long term subscriptions to the free Healthcare pyramid scheme -- male shelters will refuse you if you're not on whatever pill/antipsychotics webmd tells them you NEED TO BE ON TO BE HUMAN etcCould not agree more
Not a fan of that bubble/tag graffiti desu ruined the picture
>>33532427That sounds nice
>>33532435I like street artI was going to do graffiti with a girl from the shelterShe took me swimming, it was the most fun I’ve had in quite awhile, but she left too soon. I liked my roommates, but the nature of these roommates is they do not lead to friendship because they leave too soon. Just little while friends. I really liked my last roommate too
>>33532444I am losing grammatical structure
>>33532436Too many people and faces in ontario>>33532444Sounds scary to have a roommate/friend
>>33532458Not much to say to that, I agree
>>33532546Time to sleep
>>33532716Kill the thread
>>33532041projecting there buddy, if i was to post myself i'd do it with a purpose to actually find someone. this thread is just a waste of space
>>33532720No.
>>33532726It’s true, but I made a post looking for a relationship, and a guy wanted me to give him relationship advice on his ex, and we had a good conversation, but I wasn’t aware of my insecurity so I developed limerence, then became homeless and the limerence got worse, then I spent 6 months anticipating a relationship that will never happen, then he just seemed to slowly fade away, as my family slowly started to fade awayThat is it in shortI never want a relationship again. It’s just the way I relate to others. L is all I have, but he can’t be with me, so I just have to get better at being alone
>>33532768But I cannot do that, I can’t stand being alone, not healthy to be with anyone, this is how it isI wasn’t sure of his intentions, that’s why I thought we could be in a relationship, and the way he talked about his ex just made me want him to love me that way, because I thought we were both alone and that we should be together, but I don’t know what happened I asked to play boardgames and talk on the phone, he was not interested, kept saying I could leave anytime, but I deceived myself into misunderstanding the nature of the friendship and what he wanted, and then just realized I come to disappoint everyone
>>33532768>>33532774You can do better.
>>33532774And it was just a silly online friendshipI just saw what I wanted it to be
>>33532780No, he was everything I wantedI don’t want anything anymore
>>33532786You can do better.
>>33532726Waste of what space? >>33532768>limerenceHave never heard of this word before thank you! you can always anhero your ex and close your soulbond to start anew btw....
>>33532768should've just dated me you could've moved in with me and been happy playing vidya with me
>>33532786I saw the love he could give through talking about his ex, but it was never anything that could happen or work out between usI’m now an insomniac retard spamming onlineI can’t have friendships or connections with anyone. It wouldn’t have worked out anyway. I am married to him forever. I just hate myself for not seeing it immediately, that he would never want me, and what difference does it make now if I’m just a pathetic embarrassment
>>33532816Retard is a bit much.
>>33532792I never want a relationship with anyoneI will try to keep to myself>>33532792I wish you luck in finding someoneIt’s 6:30, going to bed
>>33532837“Try to keep to myself” like not make a
>>33532842all these threads
>>33532846These threads are admittedly healthy.
Fan of this style thread and parasocial relationship with nongroomer namefags
>>33532837>I never want a relationship with anyonein an alternate reality you'd be happy with me and we'd play dwarf fortress together
>>33532930:)
>>33531033
>>33532974You come off as very low energy/brown
>>33532991Oh I am.
>>33526394No, I will let goNo more of this
>>33533116We're almost there.
>>33532095Well, if you ever wish to talk, my disc is heraldofcrows
>>33532083>"I should start having more respect for myself"Correct
Anyone up wonking their willy rn ?
>>33533116is this cody?
What a silly little thread of miscreants.
>>33535595>420 postsLittle thread?
>>33526394Bro looks like the male version of meep
>when a bitch hasn't been fucked in too long
Kik: Suave_ScorpionI have a soft spot for vermin.
>>33526394BRIGHT EYES BURNING LIKE FIREBright eyes, how can you close and fail?How can the light that burned so brightlySuddenly burn so pale?Bright eyes
>>33538715Another
>>33532431They also push residential care facilities on the homelessI’ll kill myself before it gets to that pointI’ve already basically given up hopeThey’ve been threatening to have me under legal guardianship since I was 16The US has conservatorships, while Canada has state guardianship. It’s just the way it is. Different approaches, but all agree that people aren’t free agents, and they can’t be running amok on the streets, regardless of whether they’re law abiding citizens. Public healthcare or not, you’d still have parents forcing medical decisions on their children. They want to use permanent, dangerous, solutions for oftentimes temporary problems. I’m just in crisis, there is not much they can doI need more sleepI’m not even sure if I see the mice coming from my attic at night, if the bite on my toe is related to it, or if sleep deprivation has really led me to this pointThey probably are.. I mean we had to seal up the cracks in the wall, because we’d hear them crawling over the ceiling like rainThey are real hahaHonestly might be worse than imagining it, because I just let the mice come and steal the food off my plates by the doorI have a closet that joins the attic, they’re bound to enter, just walking along my radiator, many of them nowWhen I had the conifer seed bugs, I’d kill them right away, because they’re fucking disgustingBut otherwise, I don’t hear or see anything around me anymoreJust going to fucking down a bunch of ion lithium batteries, mouthwash, and pills, I don’t knowFucking hate life, every year it gets worseFucking hate myself, every year I get worseThey might be interrelated I‘m just choosing to stay this wayCan’t blame myself, life is suffering
>>33538772Nice one
>>33538853Not to end on a dark noteI just got a messageFrom the filipino lady who needs me to pay for her daughter’s head injury.. yeah just stopped talking to her for months, because I couldn’t get a jobI’d like to helpM was helping herAlways tried to help people out, even when he couldn’tI just continually let people downBut I’d like to assume responsibility
>>33538853DramaticI will succeed eventuallyIn this lifeCan’t compromise on my dreamsYeah, all this has gotten a bit out of control..Don’t mind itI’ll make amends
>>33538853No, but one of my nails have dried blood under the nail, it will fall offProbably stubbed my toe and can’t rememberThen I woke up with an unidentified bite on the otherWell if I had to guess, I’d say it’s a mouse biteAnd I had my feet out by the radiatorKept hearing them come inDon’t know why it doesn’t phase meI should be upset.. meh
>>33538890I saw one at the hospital onceRun right under the bedThey’re the small miceIf it was a rat, well then yeah.. that’d be fucking disgustingIt is what it isThey’re just like fish swimming on my floorJust have to live with it
>>33538894I really should sleepStarting to sound more like a retard
>>33538897Hmm
>>33538973I bear witness to my lifeNone of this mattersI will change my nameAnd move very far away from here
>>33539023I was a child
>>33539039I was evil like a changeling
>>33539041Then I was a teenager
>>33539042But not really happy. I was a child tranny. Bullied for years
>>33539048All my pictures feel hollow and empty, like my life
>>33539050Just reminiscing I guessDoesn’t feel real
>>33539052Audrey Hale would have killed me. I was like her, she was like me
>>33539057Bullied for years, pushed here. I didn’t kill anyone
>>33539063But I don’t know why I’m like this. I will die
>>33539065I am nothing of myself
>>33539069I am nothing and I feel like nothing. I will kill myself
>>33539071Don’t feel anything. Don’t know what I’m doing. Just want to die
>>33539077Just fucking lost it. I AM THE ONLY PERSON THAT HAS BEEN BULLIED.
>>33539085City dwellers have no idea. You would die in the country. You do not know what it’s like. Kys. ONLY I AM SUICIDAL
>>33539093And I was enthusiastic but you took it away from me
>>33539107Look like M in this one
>>33539110Only faking being happy. Bullied for years
>>33539118Just want to drink drain cleaner and die. I hate you all bullied me for years, and it doesn’t matter what I do, you will still bully me
>>33539118Dying. Dead.
>>33539125Too late, I’ll be deadI’ve been dead for yearsThere is nothing left of me
>>33526394I lost everyone
>>33539146I lost everythingWhy live?M is in heaven
>>33538890My is all weird
>>33539162My toe nailI know I’m evil, you don’t have to tell me th
Makes you wonder where it went wrong.
>>33539547When I was 7, for no particular reason. I used to sit by the playground after school and eat plants for laughs, I’d roll around on the floor, make all sorts of impressions, etc. Kids would take their parents to watch the spectacle I made of myself. I was blacklisted from birthday parties, hated by the neighbourhood. My mother was pushed inside the house because I was an embarrassment. I ruined my her friendship with her cousin and countless of her friends. I dyed my friend’s dad’s clothes with green dye. I got kids to throw cups at cars at someone’s birthday party, had us all on a timeout for the night. I got in trouble for biting kids, covertly hitting kids, having wrestling matches, etc. Threw a knife at my mom when I was 7, ran away from home and punched an RCMP officer when I was 8. I was a menace. I would terrorize kids. I would terrorize my parents. I’ve just seemingly always been like this. I’m evil.
>>33539610You seem like a very vibrant and colorful person if anything. You were a monster, and you had no other monsters to talk to.
>>33539613Eh thanksI think I’ll change my name and completely start over if I don’t kill myself. Leaving this thread
>>33539633Don't.
>>33526394Amber layed on her bed located in the earth caverns. Amber laid with her eyes open, anticipating her big day, until she pretended to fall asleep to allow her parents the honours of revealing the surprise. Amber’s mother, Ruby, was the first to surprise her “It’s your big day, this is a rite of passage to every young earth elemental. You must go on and get ready before I miss you too much, and decide to keep you home.”. Amber replied with a question “Mom, what elemental type do you think I’ll receive?”. Her mother responded “Well, crystal does run in the family, but we’ll be happy regardless of whether you’re a magnet, sand, magma, or flora or fauna type. Amber, her mother and father, exchanged goodbyes, until it was time for Amber to walk out the door. Amber peered out at the dome, and noticed the moon shining particularly bright tonight. The cavern consisted of a large cylindrical dome in the earth, which contained rectangular houses on the upper edge walls, that tapered in a spiral staircase to the bottom section of booths and shops. The narrow houses and shops formed the wall of the cylinder, but mosaic tiled pathways divided the houses to form street rows that were isolated from the glass dome that covered the opening of the cylinder. There came a point where the houses ceased to be across the mosaic tiled pathways, and generally the houses situated at the ends were the most unkempt and situated in the darkest points of the cavern. As Amber started walking down the metal flower patterned rails, she met her friend Emerald, and they chatted until they were carried along the narrow cylindrical elevator that pierced through the small opening in the dome. They had never been this close to the outer world before, and as they opened the elevator, they were startled to find themselves in a small building on a magma city skyscraper. Suddenly they board a flying bus, which was filled with all sorts of earth elementals.
>>33539721Very very basic
>>33539727>>33539721I am glad you didn't.
>>33526394I’ll love you forever, L
>>33539050Only our grandparents cared about the life they brought it seems
>>33526394In the year 5097, no one was as “unfortunate” as Maisie Day. Maisie was supernaturally non-supernatural. Everything that could be done with un-supernatural abilities, had already been achieved. She could never be of use to her society, nor would she be talented in a world of unique abilities. Jobs had only become more challenging and complex since the population became supernatural, meaning that Maisie could not even manage a job as a fry cook. Maisie realized that something was different about her, when she reached the age of 300. Maisie’s “ability” was immortality and an impeccable memory, she never aged a day past 12, and remembered days just as though she had experienced them yesterday. Maisie did not consider this a gift however, the circumstances of her life may have lengthened, but she could never experience life with the intensity of powers. Maisie had one way out of this unceasing curse; to gain real powers.
>>33539786Maisie lived in the city of Metropolis, years ago the founders had divided the earth into six nations. The six nations were crafted from materials foraged from space, and remnants of the earth. Centuries ago, there was a conflict of epic proportions, so the founders were the ones who had left earth to seek the formation of a new society founded on peace. On this particular day, Maisie walked with a purpose, she was on her way to meet up with the outcasts. The outcasts were a group of people who were heavily monitored for conspiring against protocol. Protocol was the only written rule, and stated that citizens must oblige to update themselves on all ordered serums, and follow orders to integrate themself into the hive; the hive was an extension of the community oriented nature of humans, and was mainly implemented as a safety net for society, with a general assumption of the goodness of humanity. The hive performed human cohesiveness, by internally bombarding minds with data of other’s internal thoughts, and enabled humans to democratically redirect the thoughts of others. People in the hive essentially represent the thoughts of a cohesive mind, and although everyone was ensured equal input in every decision and action of another, free will was removed. Maisie finally made her way to the hideout from a neverending labyrinth of rows of buildings. The hideout lacked secrecy, because outcasts were forced to surrender privacy in pursuit of the broader society’s well being, but it remained relatively detached from society.
>>33539789The hideout was like every other building, but the inside was plastered in decorative murals, and bustling with lively discussions and vibrant music. Maisie walked past a crowd of people at the doorway, until she found her friends Holly and Jack, on a bench. Maisie welcomed them by saying “hey guys, haven’t seen you in awhile. Where’s Vanessa?”. Jack replied solemnly “That's what we’ve called you here for. The hive has deemed Vanessa as uncooperative, so they’ve brought her to central station to dispose of her.” Maisie responded with vigor “This can’t be good, my older sister Vanessa was the only family I have left. We need to save her!” Holly tried to reason with Maisie “It’s no use Maisie, the hive has reached nearly every human on earth. The members in the hideout are sparse, and many are barely surviving their own captures. Sorry Maisie, you know I would risk my life for Vanessa, but I won’t waste my life in vain.”. Maisie felt angry towards Holly, and a pause of silence swept across the group, until Maisie responded “The hive is destroying itself from the inside. Mankind will remain resentful and selfish, regardless of how interdependent humans have become..ROFL, that’s where I’ll stop. TIRED
>>33539737I really will, I will live in the shadows of your life. The more you ignore meThe closer I getYou're wasting your timeThe more you ignore meThe closer I getYou're wasting your timeI will be in the barWith my head on the barI am now a central partOf your mind's landscapeWhether you care or do notYeah, I've made up your mindThe more you ignore meThe closer I getYou're wasting your timeThe more you ignore meThe closer I getYou're wasting your timeBewareI bear more grudgesThan lonely high court judgesWhen you sleep, I will creepInto your thoughts like a bad debtThat you can't payTake the easy way and give inYeah, and let me inOh, let me inOh, let meOh, let me inIt's war, it's war, it's war, it's war, it's warWar, war, war, war, warOh, let me inAh, the closer I getAh, you're asking for itAh, the closer I getOh, the closer I-
>>33539786Because everyone has adapted supernatural mutations far more powerful, y’know?>>33539803This song is motivational.
>>33539791Because humans are just so evilImagine if we all went on the majority
>>33539814Like internally, if our thoughts were combined, and our actions were unanimously decided
Will you make another thread.
>>33539818I CAN NOT STOP
>>33539830Oh you will.
>>33539791This is where I’ll stop“GOING HOME TONIGHT, ANONS, AND I WON’T BE BACK”-Coraline
>>33539895Nope.
>194 posts from this ID
>>33539914She's lovely.
>>33539916Why are you so enamored with this woman in particular? What makes her special?
>>33539952Her ambition.
>>33539952It's ever man's secret dream to have a hot, totally insane but still somehow dedicated gf. She would drain cock like a sink hole and scream orgasmic bloody murder every time.
>>33540013I already have that in abundance, I am more interested in her cause.
Not so soon.
Fat bitch wife serially cheating on my husband. Put me out of my misery jfc
>>33543066What.
>>33543085Send me to a farm, take me out back, put me out to pasture. Something in my brain isn't clicking with the decisions I made and the impact on the people in my life. How do you deal with being terrible
>>33543113By waking up tomorrow and doing my best. Do yours.
Yzilma was right, you are interesting OP. Weird how we despite having different lives to influence us, you sound very similar to me. Save for obvious stuff like you being trans. You sound like teenage me in the sense of your religious beliefs and philosophy
>>33526394Remember this
>>33543213How despite having*
>>33543213I’m not trans, I’m a detransitioner
Die.
Death.
Delete.
>>335400131. I’ll age like milk2. I’m not sure what way you mean dedication, but I’m not even dedicated to myself! I sit here idly, fantasizing, never taking action to make myself someone L could like. My journey takes precedence, for the next 5 years I will be alone3. My mental illness does not manifest itself in my sexuality
>>33543238Huh?
>>33539914No life
>>33543252You know what it is? I just hate taking actionAll these delays, I can speak about the delaysBut that’s why my life is going nowhere
>>33543247It's a process of death.
>>33543260It gets more pathetic as time drags onI just can’t bring myself to do anythingBecause I haven’t solved the problem of suicidalityI don’t actually know how to move on, or what to do from here, because it’s just meI wish I had M, or L, maybe I could speak to L once again..
>>33543219Ah, former one then. It's good to hear you recovered
>>33543270201 posts, 101 DalmatiansThat’s where I’ll endI have to learn to stopI can’t drag this furtherI should guard my thoughts. I haven’t browsed here much since last January. It’s very easy to become addicted to the validation. I’m not sure what to do with myself anymore. Fantasy no longer brings me happiness, so I have started contemplating suicide. If you think about suicide over the loss of a friendship, it is because you are that friendship. I did not exist outside of the friendship, you made me. I want to be more, I just don’t want to move from here and notice where I am, but if I keep doing what I’m doing.. if I keep blocking out reason, filling my life with distractions, I’ll never see. Staring at myself in the mirror is keeping me from seeing who I am.
>>33543296Accepting who I am is keeping me from being who I am. It’s like living as a photo, I want to change, I want to break free. Don’t remember me this way, it’s only a frame
>>33543302Remember me as you willDo not burn the houseI have already died
>>33526394Car brakes are brokenI need someone to drive me from my rural community to Halifax, or a city further out WestDisc: el_4321
