I'm autistic, with ADHD. I can't focus on trying to get better at all or even come up with anything to draw without just giving up and going back to looking at my phone and doing something else.I've legitimately never been able to commit myself to any serious hobby and have gotten lazy over the years with my only actual one which is writing and the only reason I'm good at writing is because I wanted people to be able to understand what the fuck I was saying and I wanted to write good stories because I thought I'd never be able to make them in a visual medium, but that's it. I've never been able to commit to a serious routine, schedule, or anything. I just sit in my room online doing basically nothing.Everything I try doing looks so daunting and impossible. I tried learning Source Filmmaker as a teen and I gave up immediately because it looked too complicated. I tried learning how to make my own games in game maker, gave up immediately and never touched it. Even something like drawing just looks so complex and impossible. This is what it's like for everything I try doing.
>>1500381Give up your phone.Your attention span will increase considerably in a week.
>>1500396How do I give it up? I can't go anywhere without it.
aren't you supposed to have killed yourself by now?
>>1500381>Everything I try doing looks so daunting and impossibleI have the same problem, and I know the solution: Don't make a plan. Don't think about the future at all. Don't try to be efficient. Perform the obvious next tiny step, accepting that it will be for nothing.Sometimes I want to learn about a subject, but it's too daunting so I never do anything. Then I remember I can download a book without actually reading it. Then a month later I think about it again, but now I already have that book. I can open it and look at the contents. I can read the first paragraph of chapter 6 and forget about it again.I do this with hundreds of things. It's just how my autistic/adhd brain works. I download a program but don't install it. Or I install it but never use it. I bookmark a page. I open an envelope from the government but not read its contents. Later I read it but it turned out to be irrelevant. Eventually things do add up.If you tell people you work like this, they say:>hah, that's not how you get anything done!>stop being lazy, be disciplined!>make a plan, put in the hoursI've tried that for 20 years but it just doesn't result in any progress. It just wastes energy trying to force myself.All the progress I have made is by doing tiny things that take 1 minute when I feel like it.(And then the occasional 12 hour bursts when I get into a thing.)tl;dr give up trying to be normal, listen to your A(utistic)DHD brain
>>1500381HOWIE THREADHe's been spamming this same text for over a year. Ignore and move on.DO NOT ENGAGE
>>1500401Then don't go anywhere, Jesus fucking Christ
>>1500381You were supposed to kill yourself last month, get on to it>inb4 "but how"
