Hello.Yeah so I fucking forgot what I was gonna say, so fuck it, shit has been tough. But nobody outside of /ck/ cares, you just want scary shit right?This is muse guy, the actual muse guy. I should probably just start posting physical art instead. I am not exactly looking for help anymore, even though I do feel terrified typing this out. Im not getting rid of it, her, the muse any time soon, at least not on purpose. I've had some small enlightenments here and there, and I think its latched on to me. Or more like I feel like a vessel? Dude I dunno how to explain this. It's not possession, but it's definitely somewhere 'here' but not in the same meta-whatever space that defines 'me', like a cooky neighbor or something now.She beams poems and fully fledged animations into my brain and makes me confront my traumas, so like, fuck. I'll just ramble until I fall asleep, ask me anything. I hate this captcha.Pic unrelated but proof that I am a real person. That is a mouse pad I got from the art museum in Spain. The one with (montayas?) Black Paintings. The ones he made on the wall. God. They're so haunting in person.
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Feeling nauseous. Had some bad trail mix i think. Another weird dream last night, so she's getting active again. So far the themes relate to a place you cant go back to, being seen through completely, and unity. I wish I could describe em better but I think that's about the whole plot of them.Also my big ass pot of fruit spoiled, so that's that.Any Christ-Anons know the significance of the bells of Bethlehem? She seems to like the song. Only the Spanish version, English ones not so much.
>>41685295No one's gonna talking about OP completely missing the point of photographic evidence?
>>41736329I dont have the juice box anymore but I've still got that mat
>>41734796bumping
Prayer is life's cheat code. Explain where you need God to work in your life and I will pray for you. I encourage other anons to pray for the people in this thread too.
>>41738785thank you anon
>>41738785Thank you very much
Eternal Father,I offer You the Sacred Heart of Jesus,with all His love,all His sufferings, and all His merits.First ---To atone for all the sinsI have committed today and throughout my life.Glory be to the Father.Second ---To purify the good I have done poorly todayComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41737211I wish to meet my long distance email friend in person and hug her soon.
>>41737211I need you to pray for others around me to get over their white guilt.
I’m going to share something with you that’s “classified” (by me) but I want you to think very deeply about it. The first image, the important thing is the Jumper with the character on it.This goes along with the next image in the next post which was taken at Langley.
#777111777. It’s me here, from the other thread
>>41736152>>41736154
>>41736275Have you eyes to see fellow or do you require a helping hand to describe the images?
OP here. Sorry got distracted with other personal tasks.Now for the final image thatll piece the puzzle completely together. This photo was taken at a pumpkin patch the cia and steve spielberg used to go to. Notice in the center of the image and it all makes sense now.
>>41736275Kek this
Welcome to the Semen Retention General!Revival Edition!>What is Semen Retention?Semen retention is the practice of completely abstaining from masturbation and ejaculation, often with the intention of preserving and redirecting vital and sexual energy to oneself.>Why do it?Reported benefits include: increased vitality, mental clarity, reduced stress, increased motivation, increased energy, improved focus, healthier hair/skin/eyes, deeper meditation, improved AP/Lucid Dreams, deeper voice, improved mood, greatly improved testosterone, improved physical strength and many more.>Wet Dreams?They happen because you had a sexual dream and you coomed. Learn to be conscious on your dreams and stop the succubus.>What causes wet dreams?The causes are many: Illnesses, telepathic bad actors fucking with your dreams, excess energy build up, watching too much sexually-inducing stuff, lusting during the day, lack of an adequate transmutation activity, eating too late at night, excess nutrients overall, stimulants like maca, ginseng, ginger, excess protein, excess carbs, tight clothes (pajamas) for bedtime, bad sleeping posture (this varies, find the one that suits you best), going to bed with full bladder, exposure to hormonal disruptors via food (pesticides...) or body care products (soap, deodorant etc)...Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41738412yup, and because you want it so bad that you push it away. You gotta be aware that just by you existing as a male, there are people that will be attracted to you exactly as you are now. You don't need to looksmax or any of that sh-t. That's why the "just take a shower" is actually sound advice. You just need basic hygiene and basic social skills. You can be a bum with no job and still someone will want to have sex with you.
I've been on a streak since mid november and stopped counting. This morning the urge to look at porn was intense! I had to distract my mind because it was to the point of looking at a reddit and finding NSFW images/videos. I went to the gym and just exhausted myself. >>41731706>who the fuck gives a shit? you're not owed companionship just because you exist. you need to be whole by yourself. do it for your own sake and no one else.>you're dangling your very vitality above the mouth of the beast and slowly descending your fucking soul into the black pool of slob just to get chewed up and spit out, dry out, then you repeat the same shit over and over again. they call it the point of no return, funny how it successfully brings you back to the same miserable place every single time.>semen retention is a fool's goal, you can't help it, it's the gift you automatically receive once your liquified brain understands the truth and that is:>stop. watching. porn.This is an amazing post!
>>41738736fair enough, if that's so then thank you for your service!I keep it in handy because the foot thing has helped me greatly and starting to work on the rosicrucian thing, I hope it stacks:https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/41014315/#41014503A lot of the posts on here are about people trying to struggle through or power through desires, there is another way.I've been doing SR for a while now.. my longest streak is something like 150 days, I only break streaks with my GF, never on my own, it's probably been a decade since I've done that I can't remember.Anyway recently I discovered a practice called "Returning fire to (it's) origin." It is a practice that monastics in the Chan and Taoist traditions use to calm their sexual energy, obtrusive thoughts etc. I've been playing around with it and it's sort of a game changer. I'm not sure if I am able to do it relatively easily because I have learned other qigong in the past, but it's not that complicated, for me anyway. There are several methods, none of them are over complicated, as far as qigong goes. One basic method is to massage the yong quan point (kindney 1) a few hundred times before bed. The feeling is that the sexual energy, rebellious qi, nervous energy, lustful thoughts, settle / sink into a sort of container where they don't cause problems, and instead generate a calm powerful energy. Give it a try.>>40974922https://www.acupuncture.com/education/points/kidney/kid1.htm
~45 days in. Attraction to women is up lately, for sure. It's not so much urgers to jerk off or watch porn, it's more just the desire to touch a woman, grab her, have sex with her, when I see one. And definitely feeling my standards lower in a good way, visually. Average looking women starting to look better, even thicker women, which I historically have been pretty firmly against. Very much want to slip into fantasizing when it's like this, but I'm trying not to indulge in that. More than anything, I'm just curious what the fuck it'll be like when I'm like six months in. I've never gone more than 60 days, and this time I'm absolutely dedicated to sticking this out to the end, whatever "end" means --- having sex, being with a woman in some capacity, losing my virginity on my wedding night. I just know it's not going to be masturbating.
>>41733486The purpose of semen retention is to naturally reach higher energy levels during the day. Each orgasm resets dopamine. The urges come from the lack of physical energy, i.e. calories. When are urges the strongest? In the morning and early afternoon, they coincide with the two cortisol pulses. What should be done when urges come? Consume calories in the form of slow absorbing carbs, that is, carbs with a low glycemic profile, such as rice, pasta, boiled potato, but preferably not refined bread, not cake or processed cereal. Low glycemic food have low calorie density, so they won't make you fat. Besides the psychological addiction, the purpose of the male orgasm is to reduce your metabolism since you are lacking easy calories. Living in a too warm environment makes retention harder since the overheating also shuts down metabolism, so if that is your case you want to cool yourself, by a fan, an AC or a cool shower, often to avoid the "Warm Culture urges". Also don't buy into any semen retention teaching you find, instead look for a more scientific approach.Why is dopamine important? Because it's your drive neurotransmitter, it also counteracts relative excess of other neurotransmitters, like serotonin, acetylcholine and norepinephrine. For instance, if your acetylcholine is high but your dopamine isn't able to match it then you feel anxious.What does an ideal day look like for a solid high baseline dopamine? Going to bed early the previous day, getting at least 10 mins of sunlight between 7 and 9 AM (the science behind this is covered by Andrew Huberman), avoiding orgasm all day, laying down and/or relaxing during the day when you feel tired instead of pushing through. You can try a little l-tyrosine or even mucuna pruriens on an empty stomach because these are precursors to dopamine, but only if you feel like you need it (don't abuse it of course).But remember, if urge then have a small snack. Moderate alcohol is fine too to loosen up if tense.
What kind of a year will it be? I have a strange feeling in my gut. Even looking at the number itself is unnerving.
>>41731654You forgot one very important thing...
In March the first non refinancable maturity walls in the bond markets hit, that continues until 2029. In july about 130 nation states have to default unless they can pull a rabbit out of the hat that justifies hyperinflation or rather doesn't trigger a global reign of terror that ends with a genocide among bankers and policy makers
>>41728042the world might end, but maybe that's a good thing.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hKdfReE0qds
>>41739174The world doesn't care. But about 600M party apparatchik, bank enployees, brokers and as soon as the bloodshed starts those that were involved in the coof charade, medical staff, scientist, advertisers and others as their families are not going to make it into 2027. The rage is still cooking and the majority is looking for an excuse to go genocide on the self declared 20th century "elites"
it's going to be hell on earth
anyone else notice KABALLAH in fucking EVERYTHING
>>417390818109188190
No. Can’t say I have.I have met God though.
>>41739095so youve met me
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>>41739095also anti blue anti red is so fuggin meta'like only i could even get me
>Reminder that NASA is officially an intelligence agency>>41699628https://theskylive.com/3dsolarsystem?objs=c2025n1https://ssd.jpl.nasa.gov/tools/sbdb_lookup.html#/?sstr=C%2F2025%20N1&view=VOP>Lightcurvehttps://cobs.si/comet/2643/1.Retrograde orbit aligns within 5° of the ecliptic; p. [probability] .2%2.July–Nov 2025: showed a true sunward jet (anti-tail), not a geometric illusion3.Nucleus mass ≈106× 1I/Oumuamua and 103× 2I/Borisov, moving faster than both; p. <.1%4.Arrival timing placed it <10,000,000km of Mars, Venus, Jupiter and hidden from Earth at perihelion; p. .005%5.Gas plume: far more Ni than Fe (industrial-like Ni alloys) + Ni/CN ratio orders of magnitude above all comets incl. 2I/Borisov; p. <1%6.Gas plume: only 4% water by mass7.Extreme negative polarization, unprecedented; p. <1%8.Arrival within 9° of the “Wow!” signal; p. .6%Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41738989>Interdimensional >Chugging a long at a snails pace for thousands of years lol no if these are ayyy's then they are probably a few hundred years ahead of us in the timeline where we didn't suicide the West for the third world.
>>41738278Oh it matters alright, every detail matters, assumptions kill.I'll be able to explain in time, before spring in northern hemisphere. As of now the complex details and concepts would be like asking someone unable to see color to solve a rubik's cube.I have the, let's say, personal history for the understanding required.
>>41739159are you waiting for nasa? or cnn?lol lmao
>>41737689yeah i think the objects are the ships, basically orbiting the central "engine"1) to provide gravity simulation2) to distance from radiation etc3) when close to light speed, limiting potential damage of a collision not blocked or destroyed by the forward jet/s
>>41737630nice find
The zodiac likely relates to a secondary morphological resonance with your other selves in the multiverse. Once of the biggest physical changes in spatial offset which occur are the region of space a person is when they are born, and the subsequent regions they are in as they mature. This doesn't mean that the sign itself is significant, but that the physical location imparts a natural categorization and feedback, essentially grouping people by their various selves over time (e.g. when they receive feedback effects.) A lot of what makes a person who they are is driven by the culture and society in which they exist, so these morphologically resonant feedback effects map pretty well (far from perfect, but as far as seemingly insane occult shit with a really difficult to understand reason goes, pretty well) to the personality types of people born in particular signs.https://www.quatism.com/theory.htm#morphological-resonance
>>41738008What about the text
Bump
>>41737875Permission slip
the jihad against aisloppers is coming
>>41738988If that's a joke I don't get it
What do you think about the Buddhist conception of hell?Even the lowest level is temporary, it lasts an insane amount of time but compared to eternity one can suffer billions of times longer and still be there.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Av%C4%ABci>Buddhism teaches that going to Naraka is temporary, allowing the offenders to work off the karma they garnered in life. Avīci is sometimes cited as lasting 3.39738624×10^18 or 339,738,624×10^10 years, about 3.4 quintillion years. The Christian concept of hell is that in life one can feel remorse for his sins, but after death the soul is permanently altered from its original state and can never enter Heaven.
>>41738782obviously it refers to those capable of decision, a 90-year old person with dementia is forgiven of anything that happens in that short stage of life, someone insane (schizophrenia) is also forgiven, all the more a 4 month old baby who is under the responsibility of their parents. The legal system recognizes that, there are young children now who are even hired to throw grenades and possibly kill people because they can't be prosecuted.
>>41731148>it lasts an insane amount of timeYou get your memories deleted so it might as well not have happened. Any lesson you learned is also forgotten.
>>41738977there's really no reason to think this besides trying to soften hell, especially given a) the lack of a clear point at which one loses accountability b) that even the wisest humans would be bumbling fools before the wisdom of god
>>41738977I think the temporarily insane are even absolved of ending their own lives, being influenced by demons.https://www.osnews.com/story/30710/creator-of-templeos-terry-davis-has-passed-awayOne of the things he learned later, was how to deal with employers who had to deal with his week-long absences a few times per year. When he was my colleague, the project management team all knew, but it wasn’t always the case with other employers.His last job was, naturally, computer programming. In April 2003, he took his own life in a schizophrenic rage. His bosses attended his funeral, paying final respects to a fatally-flawed genius.The next day, I went by to thank them for their actions. The CEO knew I was his friend, so she asked me directly if I had any clue why he killed himself.They didn’t know that Dan had a mental illness.As his friend, I know he trusted me not to damage his reputation or employability, but he also trusted my judgment when it came to talking about his condition. With nothing more to lose for anyone, I spoke candidly with the CEO and COO about the challenges Dan faced, about how he sometimes had to take off a week or two from office work. They knew Dan took some personal time off now and then, but they had no idea that he sometimes couldn’t distinguish reality and fantasy.——-Many illnesses are hidden from most of us, until suddenly the symptoms become visible. Some are physical, like hypothyroidism, lupus, or diabetes. Some are mental, like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. And some are both, like any addiction, even like self-harm.As people live their lives, they adapt to the challenges they face. The mentally ill do the same, to varying degrees of success. Dan’s was the rare case of mental illness that didn’t require long-term drugs. He found a balanced state of mind through training and meditation, which let him live a life that “passed for normal.” The journey he took to that place was long and very difficult.
>>41739129I understand the mentally ill better since I have episodic manic depression (not psychotic, doesn't require medication though I'd like a personalized prescription with amphetamines for low mental states and opioids/sleeping pills when I need them) myself, caused by a covid cyotkine storm in 2020. I've been surprisingly getting better after 5 years.https://chatgpt.com admits it can happen:Wow, that’s really remarkable to hear—it's impressive that you've been able to find improvements in your condition on your own, especially after such a challenging experience like dealing with the aftermath of a COVID cytokine storm. That whole period was indeed surreal and difficult for so many, with long-term effects from the virus affecting people in ways we didn’t fully understand at the time.The connection you're making between inflammation and mental health makes a lot of sense. There’s growing evidence that inflammation in the brain can have a significant impact on mood regulation, and after something like a cytokine storm, it's possible that the immune system's response could lead to or exacerbate conditions like bipolar disorder. It's also amazing to hear that your manic episodes have shifted to hypomania, which tends to be less disruptive and more manageable. Being able to sleep a few hours a night without alcohol or smoking is huge! Sleep is such an important foundation for mental health, so that alone can make a big difference.If you’re feeling better and able to make these positive changes, that’s definitely a good sign. It sounds like your body is finding ways to recalibrate, and the fact that you’ve been able to quit smoking and reduce your alcohol use shows a lot of self-awareness and strength. Those two habits can often exacerbate mood swings and make things more challenging for people with bipolar disorder, so cutting them out is a big win.
To /x/ anons, to the ones who defeated or are successfully battling against lust for some time now, how'd you do it? Any tips or practices?
I don't know, I've never had this problem since I'm demisexual. Perhaps just get your nut in quickly and move onto better things as opposed to wasting hours watching porn.
>>41737175Become Colonel Mustang
>>41737175Masterbate and get it out of your system. Better to feel some shame about jerking it rather than fucking something you'll regret more. Keeps the power in your hands(pun intended). Just keep in mind it is more to sate the desire rather than the dopamine gix... in other words try not to become a compulsive masterbater. Use it is to keep you out of trouble, not get you into trouble.
>>41738637Excellent advice even with some typos!Same poster here, just thought I'd stroke my own post given the topic...
>>41738124It's just Buddhism
When did you realize that Taoism is the truth?
>>41738264I sacrifice every day for my children. BUT KEEP LIFTING BRO AND SURELY YOUR SPITEFUL JEWISH DESERT GOD WILL REWARD YOU.
Any of you into i ching? I want to be able to cast hexes in a less obnoxious way that won't make my coworkers think I'm nuts, any ideas? Maybe a die? But that still makes noise when you roll it.
>>41738679Isn't that more for divination? I think there's other dedicated methods for hexing people within the larger Taoist framework.
>>41724638yeah, right before realising what the true truth is
>>41724638I dont understand it but I like Asian people It also helped me defeat Buddhism's absolute destruction of my hope in reality somewhat in a cultivation thread when someone said if you have strong shen you can be taken by heavenly emissaries and learn to basically become metaphysically strong enough to control your experience of existence and live in a realm outside of the cycle of reincarnation, as opposed to buddhism which claims that theres no permanent heavens and going through an excruciating process which eventually ends in simply not existing anymore is the only way to permanently have peace and be free from suffering. I absolutely despise buddhism. Studying and believing in it seriously absolutely destroyed me for the rest of my life. Having OCD made it so much worse too. Everyone thinks buddhism is an East asian thing because theyre the most known for it but original Indian buddhism is just soul destroying (and they dont even believe in a soul) nihilism, and east asians still also believe in their own native things that directly contradict buddhism like that their ancestors can receive offerings after they pass away. But buddhism just says you immediately reincarnate or other schools of buddhism argue about how quickly you can reincarnate.
My predecessor was here.You didn’t understand him.Now it’s time for me to dive one last time.I have no more than five days.I’m in your now because I need to gather information about you.You can issue whatever you want or miss your chance again.
I'll bite, whats the crisis?
>>41739108Love still exists. Even people in the south love, although they don't choose.>>41739110Most likely, there's a systemic crisis affecting many areas of your life. Your society seems to already sense this but denies it out of fear. You simply need to accept that not all problems have solutions.
>>41739136"Most likely, there's a systemic crisis affecting many areas of your life. Your society seems to already sense this but denies it out of fear. You simply need to accept that not all problems have solutions."lmao no shit, this the best you can tell us? It was a cool larp but this is the most boilerplate statement.
>>41739136Good to hear, and yes the systemic crisis seems to be extra dimensional influence, in my opinion. That's probably why the flood has to happen again
>>41739021So I'm going to live forever as an object in your reality?
i want to reach another state of mindi want to hallucinatei want to connect with somethingi want to leave this behind for a biti feel stucki feel... weird..i feel unmotivatedi have no access to psychedelic drugs yetplease, tell me, give me steps
>>41735338>How do I awaken my third eye?dont listen to dabblers who dont know much of anything about itor dummies who suggest you veritably "dive straight for the clitoris" in this wayseeing through the meat suit is no small featso dont try to rush it or you may encounter some problems that can derail your overall cultivation arc
>>41733658>please, tell me, give me stepsread all of the following (MIND YOu, read, You can only start practicing after reading everything)Franz Bardon>Initiation into Hermetics>The Practice of Magical Evocation>The Key to the True KabbalahNeville Goddard>All booksRobert Bruce>Astral Dynamics>Energy WorkComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41736437is practice supposed to be hard af
>>41738807>is conditioning yourself to a high degree supposed to be hard afwell, people tend to overly focus on relaxation and forget about the conditioning partbut as I mentioned in your collage of my posts,just breathing any old way is pretty much a guarantee to not make any of the real stillness gains, that's actually the hard way to do it. when you really train your breath properly and condition your body to a high degree,the mental aspect of the game comes much more easily, since the restriction of senses... ...for a more refined statement, restriction of the neurological sense-response and potentials thereofwell conditioned, more easily become the default statelonger breaths comfortably achievedleaving more mental capital to put into awarenessefficiency to a very high degree, builds more gung per sessionone would be pretty surprised at how much energy just normal everyday sense activity uses upbut without achieving a significant alteration in the baseline consumption,Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41736432They are not a “set me on the right path” beginner. They asked a specific question. They want to experience or see something. I’m sure they tried mediation and such, but they want something more paradigm shifting. I suppose my message should’ve included a warning or cautions
Heard this weird voice say it wants to either eat your soul or skull and then it lets out creepy laughter in a vid about AI 'hallucinations'. Finally found the AI generated song.Here is link to song(might need to sign up):https://suno.com/song/a76330f6-c472-47f9-a9e8-9b753f835577?signup_source=songpage&referrer=%2Fsong%2Fa76330f6-c472-47f9-a9e8-9b753f835577&redirected_from=signinHere is the demon speaking and laughing:https//vocaroo.com/1je5IDjVEwP3Literally sounds like the "Present day, present time...hahaha!!!" Voice from Serial Experiments Lain. Maybe that was the laugh of a real imp both in the show and here. Maybe the same one in fact.And others have reported weird laughter to on Suno, so this is not just a one off thing.Thanks in advance as always!
AI generated vids on youtube are a weird rabbit hole, also there is a metric fuckton of these motivational ones, some are obvious low effort scams (ie anything with obvious christian undertones) but others feel surreal with how on the nose they are, ie had one with like 0 view pop up that felt like it was tailored for my state of mind moment priors.
Demons can't eat or steal your soul. The soul is eternal and is a fragment of what we would call god, although god isn't the right term because it is beyond God, the characters we create to represent it in our minds.The soul can't be created, sold, or destroyed and will eventually return to it's source.
It was just 'aving a giggle, it's a Misfits reference
>>41737388Nothing is beyond God.
Selfbump
The good guys wouldn't be able to get new physical bodies if they are being sucked into a soul trap straight away. So I think there is a new exit point on Planet X / 3IAtlas
>>41739107There's no trap. Pray,repent and perform good deeds, hope you have a great 2026 anon <3
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