dont understand the meaning of my psychotic episodesmy last episode was a religious psychosis where it felt like i was possesed, i put radio on and it was talking about me and the things i did. i went outside and people looked like odd creatures and the sky was red and it felt hell likei dont remember a lot of this things that happenedand i heard someone say, it surpresses things and it comes in 1 go when you die. so i am afraid that might happene when i die? like a really bad hell like psychosis all in 1 goi dont even remember 3/4 of the stuff that happened but i was in a hell realm were anyone could read my thoughts
>>38267584i make yt vids now where i train and i smoke weed or hashhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNwWoCgG6WUnow i sleep 14-16 hrs per day my meds never been this highi try to take walks during the day and train some but the medication is cumbersome amounts2 injection in each shoulder abifly xepliondosed 200mg and 150mg9mg paliperidon per day same as xeplion thing1200mg depatine or something mood stabalizerand some abifly more in the dayim legally required to take this medication by law
i dotn understand how the speed of dopamine can change my entire reality....
>>38267615usually when you consult other humans about life, they will funnel you into their own bullshit dogmaespecially if they haven't personally experienced anything
>>38267602and i will say i am happy these medication exist otherwise i would not be able to live normallymy last psychosis happened because i was trying to quit the meds,,, bad idea
>>38267628that can be truei am glad the medication exist, but i am fearful that when i die i will experience all the psychosis i would have had in 1 go
>>38267635find where you place your faiththrough this life and beyond
>>38267660i just remember this, now that you said thatin my psychosis i would have the tattoos i have conflict, the cross and the ankh tattoo... it was very odd and sureal, i cant explain what happened
>>38267674the world is rife with confusion and those who would lead you astrayeven if they don't know they're doing suchbe careful
>>38267689i was possessed.... i was fighting a possession tooit wanted me to jump of my stairs i was suddenly standing there like i was going to jumpi dont understand how just antipsychotics keep something like that awaywhat do you believe in?
>>38267708I am Christian (lutheran)I have had many things happen in my life to where I could never deny The Lord and SaviorOnly God could have gotten me through, and shown me, what has happened in my lifeI can only imagine why you would experience a moment during psychosis with conflicting tattoos
