I think my own mother is demonic and I’m forced to live with her and my enable father. She used to beat me after I had cancer as a child and when I asked her why she said she should have beat me until I bled. She said this twice to me. She beat me because I didn’t change from school clothes to home clothes fast enough. That’s just 1 incident, I’m 29 now and was abused all my life, had cancer, developed multiple tumors from the cancer, got hit by a car twice, and abused by every boyfriend physically and am trying my best to move out but it’s hard. What can I do to battle the demons I live with spiritually? Seems like every other day her or my father says or does something extremely disturbing and I have no choice but to bite my tongue and let it poison me for a roof over my head. I’ve been homeless before too and begged to stay in shelters for months and they were always maximum capacity. Please help.
>>39253682I have a few short visualization exercises that may help you. Prep work for both: Lay down, relax, focus on taking long slow breaths from your stomach/diaphragm not your chest. Breathe in for 4 seconds, hold for 4 seconds, breath out for 4 seconds. Repeat until fully relaxed.1. Visualize your self and your mother/father connected by a heavy chain. Pour all of the negative emotions and experienced into this chain and feel it become heavier and heavier. Let this chain become a representation of all the karma of the relationship if you will. Now visualize yourself breaking this chain, watching it dissolve etc. Let yourself become lighter, feeling a freeing joy and weightlessness.2. Visualize a strong white or golden bubble around yourself. Within this bubble nothing can touch you, and there exists only peace. Strengthen the visualization until this bubble becomes incredibly strong like concrete or metal. Now know that this shield is with you always throughout your day, and that you can call upon it whenever you wish.
>>39253682You need to leave. It will never get better. There is no amount of prayer or reading or wishful thinking that will get them to stop. It will never change, trust me. Work yourself into a position where you can leave.If you cannot, then you need to defend yourself. I don't know what would be right, but I think choosing to become a kicking bag accrues a lot of psychological harm. Don't kill yourself. Speak out against it, whatever they're doing, and if they choose to become physical you defend yourself by any means necessary. It needs to stop.
Focus on getting a job, becoming financially self sufficient and leaving. You can do whatever fancy meditation you like it wont change the fact that she's in your presence.Go far away and restarting if you need to
OP. I don't know if this is good advice, so take it with a grain of salt.just leave.go, now. take any possessions and money you can get your hands on, and just go. anywhere.the more you prep the better, but the more you delay the more damage comes to you.
Contact a social worker. You need real results, not spiritual BS. You need to get the fuck away from them.
As another anon who has been stuck with a demon-possessed malfunctioning robot mother for years due to illness after trying homelessness a few times in an failed effort to get away and has tried all sorts of spiritual approaches to overcome the situation—I have no clue. I want to believe that spirituality is real but it doesn't seem to help.So I agree with the other anons that true malignant narcissists can't be expected to improve and that the clearest solution lies in the direction of worrying about yourself, focusing on practical matters, minimizing your exposure to them, and getting as far away as possible. I think I'd also strongly advise against isolating yourself, since that's what I've been doing lately and it leads to a sense of powerlessness and stagnation, while whenever I've had the opportunity to immerse myself in environments where I can socialize with a lot of relatively normal people I tend to become more energetic and confident in my ability to handle things.
>>39254409And I mean socializing in the real world with real people, not one-on-one like with a partner, and not online. Idk maybe that's not an issue for you but I think lack of that has been one of the biggest issues for me and having it (when I have had it) has been one of the most beneficial ways to counteract my parent's influence.
Just gtfo, Anon. Do you have a car? A job? If so, then leave. You can always sleep in your car.
>>39253682my heart goes out to you. you've probably also had spine bind (via 2story staircase or 2nd story window fall). shit sucks, stay strong.ugh i just got off the phone with a friend... biggest person on my side in this fake & gay BULLSHIT ass "life"... has no idea that things like spine bind, being FUCKING TWISTED are real things that take a ton of hard work to manually undo.there's a whole list of people who deserve fucking beatdowns with metal hammers, and people who deserve a few punches to the face for not understanding.thankfully our time is coming. stay strong. God is coming to wreak havoc upon the earth.the "spoopy scary" end of world shit terrifies hylics, because true souls know what's up, and monkeys can't comprehend. when monkeys see their own kind being mutilated left and right and infrastructure crumbling, they think "god bad". no. God good. God just. God right. our time is now.down with monkeys. down with reptos.
>>39253726PROTIP: none of this fucking works on people with spine bind.spine bind utterly disables a person and shuts them down entirely.people with spine bind can't fucking function at all period.
>>39253682>She used to beat me after I had cancer as a child and when I asked her why she said she should have beat me until I bled.Go to the gym and take her punches while laughing maniacally then try to leave. Preferably just the latter.
>>39253682Hope things get better for you. I would say narcissists whether they realize it or they don't are energy vampires of the most foul sort, so meditating will raise the energy of your aura so that you're not on her wavelength and she can't steal your energy. The more you practice meditation the more the alchemical principle of seperation will enact itself and seperate you from those who are harmful and instead gravitate towards those who bring positivity into your life.
>>39255290How do you know OP has spine bind? Was there anything overtly that indicated this?
>>39253682Only way to deal with a narcissist vampire is to starve them with your absence. If you stick around hoping they'll change you're just validating their bad behavior and giving tacit consent to them over your personal sovereignty. Don't throw a fit, don't try to get a "win" with a witty jab, don't even expect closure, just pick up your things and leave physically and energetically. Also let go of the resentment, as a psychically parasitic entity they truly know not what they do any more than a dog with rabies knows what it does. They live in a Hell of their own mind and try to drag anyone else they can in with them. https://youtu.be/Wrg95mlnTlUVid related helped me break free from the grip my narcissistic father had on me years after his death.
>>39253682Lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram. Algol talismans. Red coral. For me an Algol talisman completely subdued my crazy mother like I have a bubble around me.
>>39253726I'll try this but it feels like some ridiculous interaction with them is always bound to happen sooner or later that just throws me out of whack again and fills me with anger and the chain is gonna reappear....but I will try this! Thank you for the suggestion. I've done mental cord cutting before---but for some reason, when I did this once, the person showed up in my life the very next day, it was beyond strange.>>39254192Yeah, it never will change, you're right, I'm working on leaving, I just want to know what to do to counter all the negative energy while I'm still here. And I've spoke out against them, I've talked to them a million different ways about it...nothing changes, and they flip it on me. I have a little sister too, she understands they're insane...she's doing better than me since they never beat her, but she's on 3 different psychiatric medications that I don't have health insurance right now to get myself. >>39254226You're right, there's no other way at all. Just thought there was something I can do for the mean time that I am here. My thoughts and energy goes very dark because the mental assault is near constant and I hate it and my lack of control over myself. >>39254393I don't have anywhere to go or that much money lol. I would have left already if that was the case. I just need some sort of spiritual protection/solution for the time being that I come up with something. >>39254399I don't know what a social worker can do for me. I've contacted them before because I was a domestic violence victim...but do what? Ask about section 8? I think getting a job and saving up money would be the only solution and getting a roommate... I've been looking for work for months, I got hit by a car last year so been recovering from that, and I got denied disability. >>39254409Yeah, having a group of people that's like my "tribe" is one of my greatest desires. Hope I get a job soon and can surround myself around people more and find a roommate.
>>39254456I wouldn't make this thread if I could just leave.>>39255271I do have a fracture in my spine and a hip tear and it does hurt from time to time. I take no medication for it. Makes things harder and I get no understanding or sympathy for it from my family. >>39255399I did start going to the gym. They now tell me only retards go to the gym and that I'm making myself grotesque and ugly and nobody will ever want me or love me or want to marry me because I'll look so manly and grotesque (LOL). >>39255454They're incredible energy vampires....and the funny thing is my mom has stupid little rituals like putting pins on clothing (she's slavic) to protect her children from energy vampires...or use the evil eye imagery...I mind my business and do everything perfect and she'll come up with some trivial problem out of nowhere and I just immediately think about physically harming her but poker face through it, it is so unhealthy. Messes with my energy so badly. I'll look into what you're saying because I am all discombobulated but know that I can be so much more.....I try to get closer to her thinking she'll change.....never does....just messes me up more. I hate being related, lol. Thanks for the suggestion on that principle.>>39255885Thank you very much for your link. It is so hard because I have dealt with a lot of narcissists & deeply fell in love with them even though they actually committed multiple crimes toward me and got away with it.. it felt like my soul was being torn apart and split in half dealing with them....stole years of my life. changed me fundamentally. completely shot my nervous system to the point of considering suicide constantly because of loss of control over the physical body---despite happy thoughts or no thoughts at all... I really need to get it through my thick skull to give no energy to it, I need more self-control. I feel such fury sometimes and it consumes me.
>>39256248Of course I've been through a similar situation with a narcissistic mother so I know how it is, wish the best for you anon! In addition to meditation if you have crystals or use a Tibetan singing bowl to purify the energy of your living space this will draw you away from your mother because you will be living on a higher plane of consciousness than her.
>>39255925Any possible links for this stuff? I have never done any rituals of any sort, and fear any contact from demons or anything like that... I don't wanna get God mad...also want to avoid any monkey paw situations....I've had that happen before. But thank you very much for the suggestion, I'll look into everything you mentioned and try to figure it out. This the kinda stuff I am looking for right now to deal with my family. I just did a silly drinking some water charged by the full moon to get a better job to leave this place ritual. Thanks again.
>>39256267Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram can be easily googled and there are video tutorials. You can look up authentic red coral to wear as a pendant or to keep in an area at home, Paracelsus states that it wards off melancholy and scares away spirits. Algol is an extremely powerful star/spirit and reflects any spiritual attacks back on the attacker. It basically works like the head of Medusa in myth. It will obliterate your enemies. Christopher Warnock sells some, although there are other astrological mages who sell them too, which can be found with some research.https://www.renaissanceastrology.com/algoltalisman.html
>>39256248>I really need to get it through my thick skull to give no energy to it, I need more self-control.Empathic people who haven't developed their teeth yet are prime targets for exploitation and abuse because they project their way of conceiving the world on to others and expect things like gratitude and shame guide their behavior and for the vast majority of people they do NOT. Larger scale, think if the Christcucks who make a show of washing the feet of fighting age third worlders who will return the favor by stabbing their sons and raping their daughters... Point being, believe people when they show you who they are and realize it's far better to be alone than surrounded by people who would punish you for living out your true self. After a spiritual spark ignited, I've been more or less in Hermit mode for about 4 years now and don't know any meaningful way to reintegrate but probably that's for the best because it's clear the cult of modernity is heading right over a cliff. Typically, it's only through overcoming trauma that one gains the capacity for free will, being a pampered normie is a curse. https://youtu.be/oO65Q5cuR8w
>>39256284You are an angel, thank you so much, greatly appreciate this.>>39256301Brooding and thinking of homicide and suicide is just very self soothing sometimes then I feel really bad after and ask God for forgiveness and realize I'm just shooting myself in the foot the entire time...and probably this gives them more energy and drains me...which shoots me in the foot again. I just thought maybe thinking violence would make violence befall them...you know how you hear about chicks getting mad at their exes and then the guy gets into a car accident the next day....shizz like that...but I did have an ex die....he committed crimes against me, and I went to his funeral because the mom asked me to and he was my only friend at the time and I was overcome with incredible guilt and cried more than anyone there. But an ex that hurt me and committed the most crimes against me....still lives...despite me having years of negative thoughts toward him...so I don't know how that works. But, I agree with you completely, I would like to be a hermit too...I am a hermit, I only got 1 online friend, I'm trying to get a job to mingle with more people.....I am also in a very vulnerable position....I've been robbed and assaulted before trying to have friends while being in such a position....I'm a woman too, don't know what to do, I want a family of my own eventually but it is so incredibly hard to connect with anyone and I attract predators so much...and yeah...in the very end, I wouldn't want to be anyone else, no matter how hard it is to be me. Thank you for the links. Thanks for letting me vent too.
>>39256420>You are an angel, thank you so much, greatly appreciate this.You are welcome, and here is some cosmology that may be of use for understanding how these things actually operate:>Another somewhat more popular modern approach is to see the mechanism of astrology, magic and alchemy, as a sort of energy, field or magnetism, and to approach the Hermetic arts as simply another form of technology. Certainly the operation of interconnection and Cosmic sympathy has been seen in terms of rays and light, in Al-Kindi's Stellar Rays, for example, but this energy is spiritual and does not obey the laws governing matter and energy. The fact that spiritual energy acts at a distance, moves infinitely far instantaneously breaking the 186,000 miles per second limit of the speed of light and can be approach as either an impersonal force or a personality, means that it cannot be understood in the Modern World View.
>>39256284>>39256442dang I clicked that link and its 325 dollars o_owell.... I mean yeah, it would totally be worth it though, must save up for find alternatives and get the red coral stat. And the way you described everything I agree with completely, must study more. I get bogged down in the physical and reality of my situation and lose touch and lose sense.
>>39256509I got that talisman and a much more expensive one from another astrologer (Krasi Attasio), as well as red coral. Astrological talismans are extremely difficult to make (the talisman has to assume its form in a 45 minute window) and an appropriate election to create them can take years to appear. You can make them yourself if you are experienced enough. If they are not made properly they can cause ruin.
>>39256420You might consider Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, it helps break negative thought cycles that leave you consistently self programming negative patterns through mantra. I don't mean this as an insult, but it's clear a great deal of your psychic energy is being channeled into this which is going to sabotage all other aspects of life as well. Just don't trust any quack that tries to treat you with pills, my worst mental health episodes have all been on SSRIs, they're like trying to treat a house fire with blindfolds.
>>39256571I'll think about it, last time I tried to see a therapist they told me to go see a specialist then the specialist told me to go see a specialist :D I've been through 10+ therapists and 10+ pills. I try to distract myself and it's harder now because I'm stuck at home with no car or job (working on it)....so I succumb to it...and my wounds are just always fresh....and the people that did commit crimes against me contact me every 6 months even if I ignore them, I went to the police again this year to make them stop. The other has assault charges against them good for 6 years and I didn't press them because I was homeless and couldn't be dragged through the legal process and eventually left the state. I told him off too... he contacted me 4 times this year and I finally answered back for him to fuck off. It's just that the wounds are always fresh...I think I'm in control of my thoughts and over everything then something happens again. If I can just get out of here it would all stop. I just need to protect myself until then.
i understand it may seem like you can't leave right now but you HAVE to. literally go anywhere. cut off contact with them entirely and don't look back. get whatever money you can and just go. i was in the same situation as you with an abusive family and it saved my life. i was homeless and in and outside of hostels/shelters for a bit. also was the greatest adventure. if you are forced to find a solution to your problems you will find them one way or another. nothing is worse than living with demons. at least in the elements outside you are away from their influence and you can heal spiritually. leave now.
>>39253682Yugioh card :^D
>>39256767have nowhere and no $$$ and a fractured spine. but I understand what you're saying and that I am in quick sand and the situation and energy of it permeates and corrupts every single thing about myself and my reality and my future and my health.... I'm trying. I'm open to miracles. every guy that I escaped to from my situation went horribly wrong...i only got myself to get out of this...theres no way i can just live on the streets again. i just gotta save up money. but thank you for relaying the urgency to me....sometimes I get used to things until they sour again...humans can get used to anything...not a good thing. im trying.
You need to get a job and leave them. There's really no other way.
Or find a guy with money, lol. That worked for my cousin.
>>39256649Try not to get so stuck in your head and throw processing it to your subconscious with conscious intention to stabilize your mind and relationships. Binaural beats and solfeggio frequencies like these while sleeping may help, use headphones for full effect.https://youtu.be/-vtd67_rzIshttps://youtu.be/beEIUG_yMVQ
>>39253682Damn youre tough as nails, any lesser man would have died 27 times from all these things youve endured and weatherd.My question is, why do you want to stay in this shitty place and situation you are in right now? Obviously god has blessed you with insane grit.Maybe it is time to put your talents to use like the servants of the owner of the vineyard and not bury them in a heap of dung that you call your home (metaphorically speaking)I dont know you personally, maybe becoming a catholic monk and turning the world into a better place along your brethren is your calling?Take care friend, and stay safe.
>>39253682I live with my abusive parents too and I am also desperately trying to escape anyway I can. Getting a new home and gaining financial independence is the ultimate goal, but it takes skills and resources that can't be gained overnight. Especially when dealing with illness and overwhelming stress.One resource that takes minutes to learn and gives instant results is the Wim Hof breathing technique. You can find the guided tutorial for beginners on YouTube. I've done it hundreds of times and the only negative effect I've experienced is getting a brief headache sometimes when do it lying on my back, but I just sit up and lean back against a cushion. Poof, no headache.
>>39253682Get a voodoo doll, tell it to represent the target, do the needful.
>>39256879I mean I want that fairy tale for myself but I'm just the perfect prey right now with my current circumstances. The power dynamics are just completely skewed right now. I don't get a long with a lot of people, not that I'm crazy or a bad person, I just have completely different interests and experiences from everyone else. I ran away to two guys before after high school and just last year...one gave me a black eye the other put his hands on me right after I had surgery after being hit by a car so I called the cops and they took me to a shelter that was completely full. A random chick offered me to live with her but she ended up jacking me for all I got. >>39256966Yeah, I try to listen to affirmations, subliminals and such. I got monkey pawed scripting things though...the 2nd car to hit me, I scripted I'm going to receive a financial miracle and got hit a week later...my lawsuit is still on going and I haven't gotten any money yet and feel like I'll get gypped and only going to get 1/5 of what I'm owed honestly. Oh well. I should start listening to more affirmations again. I do put on frequencies for PTSD sometimes. Thanks for reminding me.>>39256872fasho>>39257067im a chick. I don't want to stay here, I just don't have a job, car, or money, been looking for a job for months, and just recovered from getting hit by a car as a pedestrian...the military rejected me too. I dropped out of college 3 times because it is impossible with my domestic situation and I had the tumors acting up during that time in college. Interesting thought about becoming a monk...but I want my own family that doesn't suck, I want to have what I never had, I want to enjoy childhood with my kids. I want to feel genuine love. I don't want to live in the woods praying for the world, not when I'm drowning in the world myself at least. >>39257345Hmmm interesting. TY. Yeah the army wouldn't take me, too old for job corp. Don't know what resources to look for. Section 8 maybe?
>>39257465>Advanced voodooTell the doll to represent the people that do some specific evil act, without mentioning anyone specific.
>>39257465I'm scared that is going to backfire in some sort of way, or since I still live here, they might become 1000x more evil because their health declines and then their mental declines....I feel like that is a ..... volatile solution right now. Plus I'd be overwhelmed with guilt, unfortunately, it is my blood, I just feel pity that they can't help but be so evil and stupid and lacking any awareness.
>>39257520>BackfireOnly happens when targeting innocents, trust me, narcs DESERVE it.>Might become more evilNot with a broken arm or leg they won't
>>39257527Additional notes on backfire:The reason for telling the doll to represent the people that do a specific evil act is that you aren't actually "naming" a target, you are punishing an action. For example:"This doll represents all the people who commit sexual assault"
Staying positive in such a challenging situation can be difficult but is essential for your mental and emotional health. Here are some practical strategies:1. Focus on Emotional Resilience Daily Gratitude Practice: Write down three things you're grateful for each day, even small ones, to shift focus to positivity. Affirmations: Repeat affirmations like "I am strong, I am healing, and I deserve peace." Write them where you can see them daily. Journaling: Use journaling to vent frustrations and clarify your feelings. It can help you process emotions without confrontation. 2. Establish Personal Boundaries Mental Boundaries: Remind yourself that their words/actions are not a reflection of your worth. Physical Space: Create a “sacred space” in your room, even if it’s small—a corner with comforting objects like photos, crystals, or a candle. 3. Build Your Spiritual Practices Meditation/Prayer: Spend 5–10 minutes daily in quiet reflection or prayer to ground yourself. Focus on peace and protection. Protective Rituals: Light a white candle and visualize yourself surrounded by a shield of light, reflecting negativity away. Cleansing Practices: Burn sage, palo santo, or use salt (if accessible) to cleanse your space and energy. 4. Strengthen Your Support Network Reach Out to Trusted People: Stay connected with supportive friends, online communities, or helplines. Seek Therapy or Counseling: Many organizations offer low-cost or free therapy for abuse survivors. Check local resources or online services. Explore Safe Online Communities: Look for groups that focus on healing from abuse
5. Take Small Steps Toward Independence Set Incremental Goals: Focus on one small step at a time toward financial independence or housing security. Resource Search: Contact local nonprofits, churches, or social services for housing and financial aid. Develop Skills: If possible, learn new skills that could improve your job prospects or boost your confidence.6. Prioritize Self-Care Physical Health: Stay hydrated, eat nutritious meals when possible, and try gentle exercise (like stretching or walking). Rest: Sleep is crucial. Use earplugs or a sleep mask to block out stressors. Creative Outlets: Express yourself through art, music, or writing to channel your emotions constructively.Final EncouragementYou’ve survived immense adversity, which shows incredible strength. Use this as a reminder that you have the power to endure and eventually escape this situation. Each small step you take toward healing and independence brings you closer to a better future. If you need specific resources, let me know, and I’ll help you find them.
>>39253682Spiritual means occult, humoring that is also what renders you vulnerable to occultists and demons. Occultists and groups of them are highly predatory.Look seriously into any and all housing options and don't dismiss them, and comb through them with a social worker.>>39257345This is in the right direction.You don't need all this technique or erudite words anon, you just need to go through the logistics of obtaining a new place to live.
>>39257582>>39257585AI predator showed up right in time lolAnother word of advice, you're alerting predators with OP posts like the one you made. Try for smaller, more innocuous ways of asking for advice and help.
>>39257587>Occultists and groups of them are highly predatory.Which is why you have to... dispose of them. There are spirits who specialize in these kinds of things.
>>39257600i will kidnap little girls on this board and you cannott stop me
>>39257606If the means are wholesome I certainly won't object.>>39257608Not MY job, thankfully.
>>39257725>If the means are wholesomeIt's not about some small details, but about the whole picture, you see. You still seem to have your "innocence" in tact, but let me tell you, when you are dealing with torturous demons, it doesn't pay to be nice.
>>39257758Should not be left to get that bad.Wholesome means don't make bad worse.(But sure... "nice" has become a synonym of "resentful sly cuck" in 2024.)
>>39257788That's exactly the type of passive aggressive bullshit that is going to backfire on you, be warned.
I working strategy I have found to free myself from the world is to pray read the Bible. It allows me to speak my mind to myself. I notice that everytime I smoke weed, the sound of other people having fun and laughing is crazy mind bending. I think you should speak out loud more so you can hear you validate your own thoughts which are not always going to be bad. Eventually we realize that the environment has other people and we all have our free will to take part in the sound of modern life in the civilizations of humanity. Try to make peace with your parents and help out around the house so that way when you eventually leave the home you grew up in, you will have a sense of accomplishment and a place to go back to should you ever need it. The best way to free yourself with spiritual practice is to pray read the Bible everyday and develop a relationship with God so close that He cannot abandon you at a time of need.
>>39257865Yeah, I'm really hurt by how they are and our family dynamics. I'm listening to happy family subliminals and affirmations now, hoping maybe I can bend reality that way, it is painful to see your own blood be so tortured. My little sister's birthday is today, my parents were screaming at each other saying very hurtful things yesteday and then I got hurt later by them... it is so painful for the soul to endure and be aware of such things. Am listening on YouTube as well of a girl's testimony of God and Christ when she was homeless and left for dead and how she persevered. Weed makes me feel normal too and less like a survival mode lizard...attracts good things because my frequency changes into a more positive one...but been sober for a while now while I look for a job. I always try to be kind and generous to my family because it is who I am....and being cruel....just feels like I'm stabbing myself in the heart. Thanks for the suggestion to center myself more on the bible and the positive in life to gain more control over things. The way they act is because of mental illness and severe anxiety and existential dread and such... so they project constantly on me their existence of living in complete terror with the world being hell and suffering...it is so sad. My mom's health has deteriorated because of the hell she lives in....it is really painful to watch. She has a good life, but her mind is in hell... I wish my parents were the strong ones I can rely on, but it was never that way and I guess I just have to embrace my position as being the one to try to penetrate the energy of hell instead of succumbing to it and feeding into it. It is hard....but really, there is no choice...I either keep shooting myself in the foot or I get stronger....crazy.
>>39254226I can't man I've tried everything I just can't it's impossible. Everything I try fails I'm literally at my breaking point. I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't u can't I can't uts over for me bro
>>39255271Thank you... I know the end is coming I can feel it I'm not really scared though, I guess I feel a sense of liberation. You're right in the sense all this apocalypse talk brings fear to those who have something to lose from this shitty materialistic system.Ofcourse this could be just another coping mechanism the so called devil society has trained me to hate. But at this point I don't care anymore. I just can't be around this person anymore, I just hope what ever happens irmts quick and painless
>>39255885I CANTTTTTTTTTTTTTT LEAVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE PHYSICALLLLYYYYYYYY NOWHERW FOR ME TO GIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
>>39253682Trust God. The more you turn to Him, the more He turns to you. According to Islam, every second that they mistreat you and you stomach it patiently, you are rewarded massively. That manifests both in this life and the next.
>>39256785ye and i think its even ultra rare (where the text and image are stamped)>>39253682well OP, as others itt said, you need to leave. it sounds like you were the 1st born child, is that true? many parents dont really know how to guide and parent their 1st born children, the 2nd one always gets a different treatment.you ask for>Spiritual ways to dealbut what do you mean by that? do you want to get help and be in a better situation or are you feeling hatred, anger/wrath, bloodlust ect for your parents and wish to act upon that? i will not divulge any methods to power and amplify your low vibrational energies, so you harm them, out of base motives and, yourself any further.what you describe, that sounds to me like direct karma. your parents are shitters and as a lesson for them, you get to experience certain illness.seriously, i would read some prepper shit, pack my bags of 7 things and crash at some friends place and camp outside. ofc this doesnt really work now when its winter or you dont have any friends.remarkable is that you endured all of that for so long. most people with shitty parents leave them when they are 18 (like me), 19 or 20, not when they re 29.what you need is a break, a pause, a vacation. get some distance to them, excperience peace, relaxation, tranquility and peace of mind. sort your mind and maybe body, regen health and then, i would start to work on my own path. healthy mind = healthy bodyand not the path of even more darkness i.e. spiritual ways to "deal" with em.you always can open the Bible with your left thumb (while holding a question in your mind) and read the lines where your thumb is for a quick answer and pray to God and Jesus Christ and ask them to maybe send Michael to make workings of justice and help in general. But are you ready for that? You need to rid yourself from attachments to them, if there are any and invite the change.best of wishes, luck and health anon
>>39256248>They now tell me only retards go to the gym and that I'm making myself grotesque and ugly and nobody will ever want me or love me or want to marry me because I'll look so manly and grotesque (LOL).Honestly the most beautiful people are those that shaped themselves with wills, sorrows and inner power more than those with charms and shit. You shape you and someone will love you for the effort and the mind. If you feel right in your body all the negativity just bounces off. Just imagine doing a handstand pushups while enduring their negative remarks. Youll jest them sideways. The best way I dealt with my abusive father was not by fighting him but just being better, independent and impervious. At some point that change forced him to change as well because nothing he could do had a grip on me anymore.I had only a brief comment, but you really have to protect your energy, mental, physical and emotional. Situations like youre in can break parts in you but are also tremendous "gifts" if youre witty enough to turn them all into conditioning and mental toughness training and growth. And believe me that inner strength will never die out in life. That mentality is something physical strength doesnt bring per se. I used to be a super insecure kid and a pushover, but when some group of fags tried to intimidate/mug me and started a 5:1 verbal assault, simply nothing affected me. That's the zone you want to steer yourself towards with every encounter. Every conflict you enter from day to day, keep that in mind. Learn to control your breathing consciously always. While walking, working, reading. Notice when it stops and hastens and bring it under conscious control. If every negative encounter with them gets more seen as a sort of resillience training, your emotional system will also detach more, you value their meaningless input less and just process things rationally. Doesnt mean you cant bite every now and then, but it stops the energy bleed.Stay the course
>>39256248>I do have a fracture in my spine and a hip tear and it does hurt from time to time. I take no medication for it. Makes things harder and I get no understanding or sympathy for it from my family.Please do consult with a physical therapist about the motions and movement and load you can put on your body. You can certainly strengthen your bones with static and dynamic loads, but they should be planned and executed with great care. Ligament supplements can sometimes help a bit (glucosamine and chondroitin) but it wont be a magic bullet. Lastly education, trades or wit. Education is your biggest ticket out of shitholes. I dont just mean purely traditionsl forms of education because their are definitely traps that put you in debt while not havjng a sound return of investment.You need people skills, be able to talk, present and express. If you can make use of your voice and writing to make information accessible, convey it, teach or communicate effectively or bring insight it is always invaluable. You need to know basic finances. Familairize yourself with your tax system, expenses, saving and very simple calculations using spreadsheets about your income and expenses. The more overview you give your brain the easier it gets to afford things you need.People always need something. Whether a product, a service or predence or assistance. What do you want to become? What would pay well? What would you find extremely soul sucking? Where is your natural interest? Which subjects you suck at could you transmute into strong points such that they would support a better level of consciousness? If youre f.e. bad with numbers, you can definitely change that and it might add something to your spirit that it was previously unfamiliar with (a lesser great work) while also giving you a basis for better job chances.
>>39253682Didn't read all that, but my answer is corrective beatings and rape.
>>39256248>It is so hard because I have dealt with a lot of narcissists & deeply fell in love with them even though they actuallyRead up on attachment styles. You can shape some of those somewhat. You cant control feelings and emotions put a part of development is also that some of that behaviour is learned (can be unlearned), biological (hormones amplify feelings) and also the result of unhealthy attachments or ill treatment. If you think about who you would want to do the dance of life with, what do you seek? Rationally, emotionally, spiritually? At first you have to steer yourself towards that and put a pincushion through the bubbles of limerence, lovey feelings and other stuff. If from a cold and cranky moment you can really see someone's spirit at work and see what they pour into the world...that's when such things really hit you. It's not a feeling anymore but it just "clicks". Maybe that perspective can help you to reshape that part of yourself. It might be akin to moving the energy from the root and sacral area up to the mind in a sense. It's a good exercise to see if you can find in the coming 1-3 years an individual who you find yourself attracted to by your own will rather than the randomness of your current subconscious. You gotts get out of the woods to know what parts you wanna keep and whats weight from shit life stuff thats gotta go.Also read up on the psychology of bonding, the effects of hormones and physiology on your mind, the various forms of attachment trauma/troubles and compassion fatigue. The better your understand how your mind and body work the easier it gets to shape it too. Some of these studies snd integrations will take time and focus, so dont spread your attention too thin. Some things take 3 months of practice. There will be setbacks. You might need to plan things for the day, week, month and quarter. You might do fine reading and integrating as you go. It depends on how your mind works and how you best function.
>>39257796No aggression intended.
>>39257587>You don't need all this technique>just go through the logistics
>>39256284>Algol is an extremely powerful star/spirit
>>39266302https://youtu.be/zMkRWwYyWd0
>>39253682Remove yourself from the situation. It's that simple. You'll reject this because you secretly love the abuse.Find out why.
>>39267457>person is confronted with a situation where every available response is associated with significant difficulty and undesirability.>person chooses what they perceive as the least undesirable/most manageable of the available options at a given moment>"Clearly you must secretly enjoy this thing otherwise you wouldn't have chosen it."This kind of thinking betrays a level of denial of reality in favor of the preservation of one's own sense of mental comfort that should in every case be called out as obscene in how self-serving it is.
>>39253682Leave "Ouch this fire hurts" There's no spiritual way to deal with abuse. Just like a a holy clergic or enlightened monk is still burnt by fire.
>>39253682I'm in a similar situation, my mom is demonic but the nice type of narcissist, but my dad is the asshole type who physically and mental abuses you (calls you stupid), and he's a moron. Yeah your parents aren't going to let you escape, just letting you know. This is why the system want to make living as unaffordable as possible, so that the children cannot ever escape the parents. You see when (most) people get older, they become more and more demonic, and you want to escape before they go into lala land, at which point they are asleep at the wheel completely and cannot see past their noses at all, and they are completely insufferable to be around since they are extremely toxic Scrooges. By that time they will smother you and even want to dress you as if you're 7 years old. So this is what The System wants, for the children to be slaves to the state and the parents. No individual freedom and groupthink = socialism.
In the name of Jesus Christ the One true living God, I declare every curse over everyone's bloodline of narcissism in this thread ends with us. May we prevail over evil, and may we never repeat the cycle of hurt and evil that has been done to us, as we know how painful it is and would never want to wish the same for others and others like us. May our hearts be healed in the name of Jesus Christ so that we may love and raise our children with the love that has been preserved deep in our hearts and spirits. Heavenly Father thank you for keeping me safe, thank you for keeping my inner child safe all these years, Thank you for not letting my soul erode into the hands of the World. For the world will try to do anything but to have me rely on you but You my Father have never let me go in the hands of the Evil one for I have and always will belong to you. Please Father heal my sister's spirit and undo every evil spell, curse, form of witchcraft that has been conspired into her life as a baby so that she may live the rest of her years free and happy physically, emotionally, spiritually. In Jesus name, Amen.
>>39267374>you would remove all mortals to cleanse a corruption?>yes>why can't you just cleanse the corruption>ligma balls mortal
>>39267637>Person describes a scenario where the common denominator is another person and their actions>Person asks for a way to relieve their suffering>The solution is to remove the person from their life>They refuse to do this and continue to sufferYou're literally never going to change the person that your mother is. Trying to do this will just cause you to suffer indefinitely. You can find peace if you stop actively associating with suffering but you refuse to do this and I knew you would. FIND OUT WHY YOU LOVE SUFFERING. And this isn't even just me making shit up. Your mother has been abusive your entire life and now you associate abuse with maternal care and it literally kills you to leave that behind. https://link.springer.com/referenceworkentry/10.1007/978-3-319-89999-2_152Understand this this isn't healthy or normal and that you need to distance yourself from it. It's going to bleed into literally every single relationship you have in life. You'll date a woman that's just as abusive and bipolar as your mother because that's what feels like home. Tell me I'm wrong but you know I'm right which is why you hate the answer so much.
>>39267735>Can't escapeAre roommates illegal in your town?
>>39267735>cannot see past their noses at alltruly the curse of having such a long nose
Listen to this daily until it is incorporated into your energy field. It’s only a minute. https://youtube.com/watch?v=ID_Tgrud684&pp=ygUUVmFtcGlyZSBtZWQgZHluYW1pY3M%3D
>>39268230I see you're a woman. Replace bipolar abusive woman with a narcissistic abusive man. Same difference. You're going to get beaten in your relationships if you don't learn to set boundaries and walk away from people that will never change. It's not your job to fix the world.
>>392536821.orgone blast2. pray over Archangel Michaels Sigil for protection every single day. print it out and keep it with you3. repeat Om Kus Mande PatayeNamaha with arms raised4. find 'how to grow spiritually' by sanaya roman, it tells you how to escape situations like yours, and is a basic book for spiritualists
>>39268230The person you're responding to (me) is not OP. But OP mentioned having physical health issues, not having a job at the moment, being homeless before and not able to find room at a shelter, and living with partners who turned abusive. So you acting like they've just never had the idea to leave before and therefore they must only still be there because they enjoy it is just stupid. Sometimes getting out of a situation isn't as simple as deciding that you don't want to be there any more. That's an important first step, but I imagine based on their posts that OP has already taken that step, and they're aware of the general outline of everything that needs to be done beyond that, so now they're looking for supplementary things they can do.
>>39269106There's no other supplements. I imagine their parents are fully formed adults set in their ways that had no issues abusing a literal cancer ridden child and so they wouldn't think twice to abuse a sick adult. There are still services that will help and wishing that the parents would change is pointless. Get out by any means possible.https://www.thehotline.org/
its your life script. sometimes good meaning children are born into evil or demonically possessed families. the abuse produces loosh. entertains masters of this world. if your life is really that bad just wage and move out. or mentally shut out your abusers if its just emotional and doesn't cause any real harm.
