Hear me out. I’ve not taken any vaccine, and this feels like a hell loop. Or is it just life?I am not sure, but lately I have been reliving or just basically looping each fucking day of my life. I do not need any proof, I do know I am looping.HELP PLEASE
>>39264329The vaxxies have been turned into literal hive mind slaves. If you do not force and utilize your Will to control your own perspective ie. your World, then you will be dragged along into their hive mind system. That, and that you’ve been traumatized as a result of what has occurred. Have you considered Trauma Release Exercises? Strengthening your Soul as well is vital, otherwise you will be susceptible to the hive mind force.
>>39264353I have not, I will give it a try. That’s why I love the blue side of 4channel. Thanks anon
>>39264329Where does the compulsive masturbation part come in to play? Are you saying your days solely consist of laying around, jerking off?
>>39264382No worries. However, you really should consider controlling your own actions, like jacking off constantly. That shit basically hijacks your CNS and Brain to build a life around said activities, which would harm and incorporate you into a hostile hivemind even further than before. Fight back with your Will. >>39264386That’s literally what he’s saying, nigga.
>>39264401It feels as if something else besides me was doing it. I do not know how to explain it, but more than a will trouble it feels as if it was a sort of possession. I have not eyaculated but it feels as if my body or something was desperately looking for that. I just threw the phone away, and I could control myself at the point where I did stop.
>>39264518It really felt as if something was taking control over myself through it. I can’t blame it on the phone completely. But we all do know some dark things if we are in this board. Anyways, thanks anons for the support and the help.
>>39264518I was holding the whole month of November until I saw how a demon directly attacked me, and made eyaculate while dreaming. I do know it’s a like because it’s almost always under the same circumstances. When I have stopped impulsively masturbating, eyaculating, watching porn or whatever, it comes to hunt me. No fucking joke.
>>39264518Consider how literal DAEMON systems exist and are interfaced with tech, ie the ‘porn demon on my computer screen’ screencap that you can find on /pol/ and /x/ archives, and how constant cooming can basically grow, form and feed stuff in the psychic realms. Be very careful of what you’re jacking off to, as it can cause psychosomatic and malnutrition-caused problems that can contribute to that unknown possibility as well. Make sure you’re eating high quality animal meats, eggs, organs, milk, kefir etc to replenish the body; and to willingly choose not to partake in it. So what if something, whatever it might be is literally attacking you? Fight back, and spiritually dominate. >>39264603Wet dreams can actively be stopped. I’ve had one during a 9-month retention phase, and around two days after I had another dream with the same loosh demon thing, but with me laughing and standing on its chest and neck whilst crossing my arms. Be willing to take action, and don’t feel as if you can’t actively control a situation like that. The best thing is to laugh at it, the idea of it, and even the image of it. Loosh bait can never affect you if you are aware and vigilant as well.
>>39264672Nice tactics, I just feel confused at the fact that I never thought these things were so real. You’re right about it, I really feel as if they have control over me in those moments. I will not deny it, but I feel myself an slave of this strange world. Not that I don’t want to fight, I just feel tired men for real. It’s getting to the point where each single thing in existence became a horrible fight that I did not even ask to be part of.
>>39264672Quick question, is my phone connected to me in a physical level other than just the device itself? I read about DAEMON, it will make sense if we had a Neuralink installed in our brains. The could easily send a task to force the brain to end up doing the whole thing around.
>>39264712I do know as well about how radio frequencies could actively affects us, plus how music does act towards us. I guess I’m answering things by myself. Big F
Bro, this is just a hell dimension where shit occasionally occurs. Survival is based on predation, which manifests at all levels. Happiness and comfort exist to enhance pain and long-term suffering. I don't mean hell in any dogmatic sense, but a general term for a realm obviously based on misery, predation and never-ending consumption
>>39264712Well, yeah. However, it can only go so far, considering that you thankfully chose to refuse the vax. What matters most is your Will to Power. Never put yourself into a negative state of mind. Be strong, bro.
>constantly ignores all the great things about life>dude am i looping?you could easily go outside, look at pretty girls, play unique and fun video games, listen to some good music, watch a rad movie?? OP if you are convinced that you are in a time loop, why don't you use that time to read a book or watch a movie?like wouldn't you disprove the loop shit if you watch a good movie you never saw every day? you could do other stuff but thats one of the easist ways to prove it and then you'd have the file on your computer with the date too
>>39264723I kind of consider myself worth enough to be put in this fucked trial just so that people can play with things against me. I live in a 3rd world country, dominated by drug lords, and multiple mafias in almost each side of the country. Politically speaking, things are changing but it would not surprise me that I could have been used as part of a project to test device capabilities. I was exposed to pornography at the age of 7 years old, currently 25. Once I searched for it, I can vividly remember that I found a brazzers website in a computer, and I did all of this by myself at the age of 7 years old, F, I can even remember I did masturbate, but I did not have a clue about what masturbation was, how to do it, but everything happened as I had been masturbating myself for years back then.
>>39264741Thanks, I have. I mean that it feels like a loop where I can not escape this part. For real, I fucked the Matrix so hard that now I forced the matrix in a 3rd world country to pay my studies out of my physical suffering. I just feel that it is kinda forcing me to masturbate as a retention method to what I’m doing. I’m getting better at old games I used to love, making things like erasing piracy from my existences. I cried for help because this fucked up matrix it’s attacking me at a level where even neighbors are starting to harass me, and my family men. Shit is getting horrible plus this shit of the masturbation, but anyways, you are right. I shall try some real new stuff.
>>39264726You are incredibly right. I do know that everything in life has a price to be paid. I am paying my part, but I can assure you that after what I have seen, what I am thru, what I have done, and what I do, the other part is taking more than it is allowed to. I do not consider myself a knight in armor, but I have done some fucked up things in order to make myself accountable at each point of existence, and yet it feels as if it was never enough. I am cool about it, I don’t mind the fact that people lie all of the time, that most of them live in a fucking rat race, that they rather making others suffer instead of trying to change life, trust me, I’m done with that part of life. It’s the fucking chains that keep me in this fucking jail. Where it doesn’t matter how much I try, how much I’ve tried, it is never enough. I can see that it is enough for me, but this fucked up reality place people, parents, family, everything, as retention methods of my real living being. I know I am in a fucking war, I just never asked for it.
what do you just finish the day then go back to the same one? Or is it just you doing the same thing every day. If you got any money try staying at a hotel for one night and see if it breaks it back.
>>39264329Anyways, if any of you anons have a PS3 we could play some old CoD Zombies. Here’s my nickname: prattt007Love you all for real. I know how hard it is to keep with some people in this board, but I feel that finding others that do know about reality like I do know about it, gave me a little peace for now.
You know, I've gotta ask. To everyone in this thread, have you ever encountered a case where a female is saying this sort of thing? It seems like a male-exclusive experience. Is there a reason for this?
>>39264329I’m pretty sure I’ve been stuck in a loop or a dream since 2019. Reality hadn’t felt real since then. Granted, I used to smoke weed everyday back then and trip on acid a few times a year back then and the previous decade. I’ve since given all that up but nothing has felt real since quitting all that and since covid. I can’t explain it but I think I’m stuck in a time loop reliving the same day over and over but the days are certainly different but I’ve felt the same everyday for the past 4 or 5 years like nothing has changed within me. It’s weird.
>>39264815good luck broi dont have cod zombies on ps3 but i brought a copy of 3d dot hero but never booted it up. maybe i should pop that sucker in. the ps tripple has so many good titles. alsoi dont wanna say this but maybe you are feeling like a loop because you are playing loop based video games?cod zombies is basically fix the barricade, shoot zombies, get points for your favorite gun. repeat.games like league of legends are also sorta like this. many popular zoomer games are like this and it sickens me. i was in the shower the other day and i was thinking about the concept of dailys in world of warcraft and i was thinking about how grinding the same quests day after day is very conducive to schizophrenia actually. could we actually be giving ourselves this disease?
>>39264814I tried to escape once, I ended up 300km away from my current place. In the end, I did not have any other idea than just coming back here. I did not have any money in that moment. I was basically homeless. So I am in the same situation, at least, I am studying but even that’s fucking with my studies, and I just feel myself in front of a sword and my back to a wall. I just really want to stick that sword and end this whole thing, but when I did. It just brought me back here. I currently live at no cash at all, I literally live in my parents house while I have to travel around 40 km or more Monday to Friday to study. And I’m fine with that part. That’s actually the good part, the fucked up part it is when I see myself trapped in this room forced by I don’t know what to masturbate myself. I began playing basketball fully, like every other day I was going out to play, but I was as well lying to get money and smoke weed. What I’ve realized is that in this life, not sure if just mine, but there’s always something in between you and that thing that you want to get.
>>39264855Yeah, I thought that. The only thing, it was the fucking CoD Zombies that showed me the biggest rabbit whole in my entire freaking life. I might even do a post about it. Trust me anon, there’s some sick thing hiding behind CoD Zombies, especially Tranzit. I cannot explain right now, but I have proof of it.
>>39264837Wait anon, DONT LEAVE NOW. YOU ARE DESCRIBING WHAT IT HAPPEN TO ME
>>39264837Literally in 2019, I overdosed in LSD. That was my breaktru, so was I an addict to weed. And this year I started quitting all of that. But it feels exactly the same
>>39264822I guess it’s not that common, it happened to me once, but the person who did was textually saying to me "mansplanner”.I don’t think it’s just a male stuff, I’ve found some crazy girls that I bet they destroyed themselves in acid.
>>39264329meditate and do semen retention
>>39264837You know, it scares the hell out of me. As if you had a part of my personal information. Look, April 27th 2019, I overdosed on LSD at a leaven where I lost my body. Since then, the fucking Matrix has been doing everything possible against me. I will not say just bad, but it feels as if it was a prison for my juman acts. I am no saint, but I am sure that I was to be sent to a prison for my crimes. At least, I deserved to know I was going to be imprisoned. I even accept the guilty of it all, because in that case the pain will be over some day, but for as I can see. The people causing the pain, love it. Because if not, I’d be already aware that I was in a prison.
>>39264925I do pray when I feel in need. Now I’m in the middle of everything with you all and God.
>>392648842019 was the last year I did LSD and mushrooms. 2022 I quit smoking weed and last year I quit drinking. Not because I wanted to quit. All that just quit being fun and it just lost its appeal but I’m telling you I’m stuck in some kinda of mental time loop since going accidental straight edge and the last 4 or 5 years seems almost dream like and my thoughts are exactly the same as back in 2019. Maybe I stuck in some kinda a trip I took back in 2019 or 2018 and nothings has been real since because the past few years never actually happened. Idk man shits weird. Maybe I’m just totally sober now and have been and this is just how sober people feel but I just feel stuck as if nothing has changed. So either this is the new normal for me and I’m fine with that or I’m stuck in some sort of trip dream combination from years back and I don’t realize it. Like I said shits weird and either way I’m not too alarmed by it but I’d like to know the truth.
>>39264856this is the real world and this life is yours heres proofi just wrote this in ms paint >>39264884>>39264837haha same dropped some cid when bitcoin was at like 20k i dont see what the big deal is so what? we are in a loop and multiple anos are having groundhog day and some anons choose to goon their whole life away?one thing that got me to stop jerking it is that the notion of knowing that your body can only produce a certain amount of jizz for your whole lifespan i mean if you quantify this number lets say the average male lives to 60 x 365 days = 21900 / divided by average refractory period of 3 days = 7300. you basically only have 7000 cum shots so you MUST only orgasm in your wife.. no exceptions.
>>39264329yeah my life has stagnated severely since covid. I work from home and have been in the same apartment. nothing has changed.
>>39264946>>39264925I was in your shoes just a few years anon, everyday I thought what was the point of continouing do I really need to do the same thing everyday for the rest of my life and just had a general low energy about things and no hope.Meditation changed everything for me. Start with 5 minutes in the morning. It will start making sense
>>39264925For real, what a fucked up world where they did not teach us about semen retention properly. Not even a fucking time in this stupid educational system. That’s a fucking most for any kid that’s growing. It’s the root of all the problems a male will encounter in his life.
>>39264959well you have the knowledge now so what will you do with it?
>>39264959>>39264961Yes just like anon said , you know what to do, now you must apply that knowledge. There is nothing wrong with you anon, you just believe there is something wrong and then the problems come.
>>39264952Be life in yourself. Love you anon… You do not have an idea of how much I love you _____…
>>39264952Btw, you’re right. Funny part, I DO NOT HAVE A WIFE.
>>39264938Sometimes it feels like a prison but to me too. Since I’ve quit everything things and totally sober it’s like part of me has changed yet I feel stuck as if other parts of me hasn’t changed in years. I’m 41 and looking back I can clearly differentiate between the years of my life. All that stop around 2019 or 2020. Like I just quit developing in some way. I feel stuck in that loop I described. Maybe it’s because I quit everything and I’m just totally sober for the first few years since my late teens. I feel better actually but feel emotionally and spiritually stuck and reality just feels different now almost dreamlike. It weird, I’m not complaining I just want to know what going on with me. Is this all in my head or am I actually stuck and do I even want to get unstuck? Is it even possible to do so? Am I better off not knowing?
>>39264956Man trust me, if you’re still in that stage. FUCKTHESYSTEMUPNOW YOU CAN CONTROL REALITY INSIDE YOUR HOUSE, JUST GO OUT AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.HEAR ME OUT FOR ONCE, GO RIGHT NOW AND BUY YOURSELF A NICE CHEESEBURGER, BUT I WANT YOU OUT MF. OR I'LL ASK BIG GOD TO TAKE YOU OUT RIGHT NOW. NO FUCKING UBER EATS, NO HOME SERVICE. I WANT YOU, TO GO AND BUY THAT FUCKING CHEESEBURGER
>>39264992you cannot attract a woman because they can sense your cum levels. im like on a 20 day streak and my hair grew back i was fucking balding bro im the biggest incel there is and i tell you i got fucking game if i retain and if i cum? no girls like me and just straight up walk away. and the craziest part about this is that girls CAN SENSE THIS OVER THE INTERNET! they KNEW if i jizzed even on online games with just simple chat boxes...
>>39264958Praying but actually connecting to God was the answer. I understand if you do not believe. I took a fucked ride in order to believe, but I can say that God explain itself to me at a level it was so unique, so straight to the point where I understood that all of the religions out there, are wrong. God is… that’s all I can say about it.
>>39264952Oh and along with quitting all substances, a desire that came out of nowhere, I quit watching all porn a coupe years ago and jack off only a couple times a month now. I feel so much better but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m stuck in a loop and reality isn’t real.
>>39264961I asked the previous anon to get a fucking cheeseburger <3I mean, I study to be a chef so as of the fact that time and space are so fucked up, I might end up preparing him or her that cheeseburger.
>>39264952I am saving this. It belongs to me from my beloved anon
>>39265025Yes when you connect to GOD or source, there are a lot of different names people or religions like to use for that placeholder but it all comes to your own divine connection to yourself. Once that connection is realized you dont need anything outside of yourself
>>39265044yeah i made it just for u :)i picked weird colors specifically so you can be certain that you never ever saw that picture until today >>39265033if your studying to be a chef maybe take some primo pictures and start posting it on instagram or reddit or any social media really. women love that type of shit and it could help you get a GF eventually if you stay true and honest and actually ignore women (unironically)
>>39264997Listen to Abracadavre by Elena Siegman. She is the best men. She will help you just by her song. And man, you’re my dad’s age. I feel you, I know we both are lost, you’re past my current stage. I just hope you know, it’s the same for me. Once I got sober, I started realizing all of the things I did while high, and what I lost while I was high. I just hope that you find your way like I did. I can not tell you what exactly might be wrong but here you have us.I am a crazy bastard willing to tell you that the system is fighting against those who really want to change.I realized that while I was consuming weed every day, almost every 3 to 4 hours per doze. Life was ok, without it a fucking hell, and I understand that’s part of the addiction. I just never thought there would be more than just that.I might recommend you something. Piracy has a powerful and a horrible impact in this digital life. Once I eliminated the usage of it, any pirated software I had the chance to start fighting back.
>>39265078>>39264997So you guys arent stuck in time loops you guys just stopped developing in all ways and it feels like a loop of sorts. Yeah im basically stuck aswell ive been the same way for about a decade now, but i chose to be this way in a way, i stopped caring about things and wanted my life to just be simple. Society sucks i also dont have a college degree or any good skills.
>>39265019Yeah, crazy shit. No joke, but I guess there’s more to it. I am not sure if it’s real or not, but I started mentally fucking them instead of just watching porn, and I could even see how I got to physically synch with girls thru online cams. Crazy thing 4real. I don’t even look for any girl being honest, I just want to be like I child. Like when I was at the kindergarten and I could be friends with the cute blonde chick I was friend with. Or the times where I could get drunk af without thinking about girls or pussy, I don’t mean it’s bad. I just don’t want to see things in that way anymore. And for the crazy bastard who thinks that’s me, my deeply, f yourselves up <3
>>39265026Man, I am trying to quit porn as much as I can but that shit is horrible.I can assure you we are at a Matrix, I will not lie to you. But I’d like to ask the creator, why? Because God itself it’s awesome men, best buddy I’ve ever had, but the asshole who puts all in this fucked up simulation it’s not even a creative person. Just a retarded one obsessed with pornography. Can’t we all agree?
>>39265066Man, why do we as males feel the need for a girl? Do not misunderstand me, I love girls. Best creation of the universe in my opinion. But I feel that’s limitating us as living beings. I do not want a girlfriend or a wife, I guess the fact that people could behave like people is enough.
>>39265066But, thanks for the idea about posting about things about the kitchen. That’s why I hate masturbating and everything that revolves it, I cannot see or think about anything else.As if it was a mechanism designs to stop me from evolving and doing other stuff
>>39265102Maybe you should seek for one. Studying this career helped me be a better and stronger man. Even with this fucked up addiction, I feel that being busy and studying, and really mentally or spiritually growing alike helps you more than I could have ever imagined. For real, I can see myself as my best version. Even when I’m in this distress.But I can only see that, or feel that because I’m in the pursuit of that thing that I want. I know it’s hard to study or develop in any way, I left my musical studies. But I know by far now that studying and fighting for my dreams was the answer to continue growing.
>>39265163I could probably use it, the issue is i dont even know what id want is the thing. I dont really have a passion in life id want to do, or something that wouldnt make me that much money to even survive. Any job you want to actually help people doesnt pay jack shit.
>>39265138i read an interesting theory about this saying that the human brain is "incomplete" and is only complete when you are inside of a woman. both pieces are needed to make the complete human brain. >>39265108aye i feel like i want to be a big child all the time ah.. just to play banjo kazooie and drink juice. shits so fucking rad. you should stop mentally fucking people it might be sorta "rapey" and it could be poisoning your mind. i personally have been reconnecting with music i like as a kid because the law of what you thought was cool when you were 13 is true.>>39265142your welcome, truly the modern passage of rite for the modern male is quitting all the porn. that tribe in brasil or whatever who sticks their hands in those stinging ant gloves have absolutely NOTHING on how addicting and life ruining unlimited HD xxx content is
>>39265138If I ever find a girl or not, it’s cool. I had wonderful women in my life that defined me what a woman was, and the power they carried. And now, I don’t want to make any living being feel stuck towards me. At all, I loved a couple of girls and they were the best parts of my life. I just fear for the fact that life will always turn that into another infernal loop, so I guess I just rather going through life without living the sexual part anymore.Hell men, if I could take my brain and place it in a better body I would. Or if I could really take the sexual desires away I would. I know it’s eliminating my human side, but I’d rather doing that until I could find someone who’s really worth the try, not just for me, but for that person as well.
>>39265066Thanks for the pic 4 real, you’re besides an awesome artist, a bright peace of heaven in my life. Thanks anon<3
>>39265210you can place your brain in a better body. start lifting weights >>39265220thanks it means a lot to me with the power of SR i can feel myself being as famous as prince or bowie were all gonna make it brah..
>>39265182Pretty much, that’s why I chose cooking. At least I can cook some crazy things over there.But most important part, I guess it’s about developing what you really want. This is just to me a tool to reach what I’d like to do in the future. I really think that as higher as you think, as strong as the fall is going to be. So keep in mind that. Try to fly high with what you really want from life, and take it. I know for a fact it can be taken, but it takes this kinds of things for as I can see.
>>39265191You are right, I don’t mean really just in the way of fucking them, and that’s it.I really felt in some cases the person's touch. A connection a couldn’t say it’s just my brain. I can say I could imagined it, but there’s too much just to say it was product of my mental creation. Bc yeah, I have masturbated at pictures. Fuckkng disaster from my end, and I personally I am really mentally damaged in some perspectives, but it doesn’t change what I felt. I can also tell you that in dreams I’ve felt people hitting me as if they did in real life. I’ve felt the smell of food.I know many of these things can be suggested but my guts say there’s more to it. When I said about the cameras, I meant this kinds of girls webcams like chaturbate. Before that attempt I had a chance where I had like a wet dream, but I wasn’t sleeping. Like a connection with that person, at points where I cannot accept the fact that it is just my mind. I know, I might be crazy. But if you’ve had sex with a woman what you said about the connection is true. You get unify your being at a chemical plus a composition level where you can feel what the other person does. I have ever considered that maybe even we mixed our bodies at some sort of level.I cannot explain at all about those things, but I am sure there’s a legit connection. Maybe the ones in sites like chaturbate or that sort of webcam sites, could connect at those levels with people alike.I’ve got some proofs of it, but it would be in some different cases.I am just almost sure there’s some kind of heavy mental connection that transcends to a physical level that could erase even physical boundaries
>>39265245Yeah, we will. I was lifting.Actually, I’ve never been better. It was just this shit of masturbating and porn that it is literally killing me.
>>39265191It’s like mentally communicating with that person at those kinds of levels.Whales and dolphins do have a gland in the brains that vibrates to communicate km of distance away from others. And they can recognize who’s the one try to communicate with them. I really think that we as humans are capable as well, but I guess that for that to be developed you need a person whose brain capabilities are enhanced too. I will not lie to you, I know that when I took the acid, I practically cheated. But I know what it did in my brain, whether for good or bad it has helped in a lot different ways. I just guess that once I realize about the fact that maybe that was the key to a prison as well, it was a heavy thing to swallow.
>>39264329Don't exactly have advice, but wanted to say I hope for the best for you, and others as well. I hope you find the help you seek. That goes for others too.
>>39264329Goddamn bros, we made hell of a post right here. Thanks to everyone that helped, thanks to everyone who shared. If anyone would like to know more about me, there’s my insta. I’d be glad to talk to anyone about this topics, or about anything else. Same for all of the anons that shared their thoughts, feelings, and ideas. I really appreciate you all. It was of great help to me.
>>39265019This happens to me too, or used to. I don't know if my hair is growimg back now but I can almost sense women again. It is taking a bit for the coom brain to detach but this NNN is shaping up to be a life saver.
>>39265329Yeah, I guess that in life, there’s not an actual advice or a guide. Just try to talk to God and others, and the answers will eventually come up to you.
>>392653474real. I think the point is more about trying to avoid it completely. Or finding a proper way to detach from it.I cannot say that I can sense women again, bc I have a fucked up karma.I know for a fact that’s the worse part of it. It really makes your connection towards females a real difficult thing.But besides the fact of finding a gf or a sexual partner, I feel it’s more the part of comprehending the real importance of females in our existence.Man, my guts say that once I had the chance to stopped masturbating and semen retaining, I gain the capability to telepathically communicate with others.
>>39265370For real men, I really really mean it.Of course, I might have over railed myself at the point of telepathically fuck them, but I know that’s the trouble of the current state of my brain. In other states, I had the chance to wake some one from a dream.I don’t have the proof of it, but that’s my faith.
>>39265347In other cases, I had the chance to communicate with animals. Just alike, telepathically speaking.I know, I know, a glowie can hit me any time with an schizo bomb, but that’s my faith.
>>39265370I can half do that. Well, I say I, maybe that isn't how it works but I have sensed them from a distance. Especially just before going to sleep.Now the coom-brain is detaching and I have drunk no alcohol this month there is just coffee left as a psychological barrier.It is amazing how women sense these things. Any mastaubation and they sort of walk round you in disgust.
>>39265438I think there’s multiple reasons to it. I do know that pornography has a really, really negative karma. I do understand that. I thing as well that by developing these telepathical capabilities, I can assure others did as well. I do not think it’s bad that we play around mentally with others but I comprehend the feelings, I don’t share them at all, but I get them.I feel that part of those things get to be reflected as well on how we behave towards the world. If our mind eye, or how we see the world isn’t clean, in this case the perspective of women isn’t clean towards us, of course they will feel that too. I just know for a fact that I do not like to really watch pornography but that shit it’s a drug that it seems that now that we have an almost infinite access to internet we will need to find a way to defeat it. I don’t know the answer on how to eliminate it, but I’m sure there must be a way.I can tell that by speaking here and asking for help in this website where I do know many others struggle and go throughout many similar things, helped me out a lot. It’s difficult in any case because right now I had the urges coming back but I really hope God may protect me. I know my body, and myself aren’t capable of doing it, so I keep my trust in the source. Anyways anon, I really think that if you’re ever thru this. Try to contact God, not just by simple praying or meditating. Try to really comprehend what God is. I do not want to assume what you believe or not, but if you do have your doubts about God. Just ask it, and it will answer to you right away
>>39265438I really do not think that drugs are wrong. I feel that what’s wrong it’s the reasoning on why we do consume drugs. Personally, I smoke a lot of weed. I know it’s not damaging a lot of myself, and it has helped me out in many situations. But in some others, it became a complete hell to me under a wrong usage.The thing is that drugs are medicines. We should be wise on how and when to use them, I will not lie to you. I am an addict to marihuana, but I do know that addiction took me to a right place while I was trying my best. But deeply I knew, it wasn’t my best. In this 3rd country world, it’s illegal. So you already have an idea on the complexity of getting it. That took me into another loop. I have tried to fix things out, and make things better. But, it’s really complicated. Personally, I’d recommend you to as well comprehend that everything in this world is good an allowed to us. You just need to understand that the barriers can only be hold by yourself.When I felt myself fine or ok while smoking weed, I knew deeply in the end it was wrong. I should have tried harder in other ways, but those were tiny lessons that helped me out in the road that took me here with you.
>>39265960Pot grows that stuff in its leaves to mess with predators. Any rumimant or insect is going to be more vulnerable to predators after eating them. They are wind pollonators so from the point of view of the cannabis plant all animals should die.This is something to pay attention to when you consume it. It mat be pleasant but that plant wants to kill you and is giving it a good go. That is why people end up open to demons, as they are our predators.The thing that really sets off destructive rounds of mastaubation for me is drinling. Anything really, but the worse the hangover the worse and longer the spell until I'm completely without sexual interest at all. So I have made sure to drink nothing alcoholic this month
>>39264822What the fuck are you talking about? I'm asking if there are females who think their life is legitimately out of their own control because they get off all fucking day. It's gangstalking, it's demons, it's COVID somehow. It's never about you being so criminally immature that you have developed a genuine addiction and dopamine deficiency instead of learning how to manage your emotions. Reflect on anything else in your life. Have you taken responsibility for anything? I guarantee that reflection will give you a hell of a lot more help than asking people here to help you stop touching yourself in the most mentally retarded way possible.
>>39266895Meant to respond to >>39264902>>39265019And no, women can't tell whennyou last ejaculated. Fucking nasty. What women sense is desperation and a lack of giving a fuck about anything but your own carnal desires.
>>39265960>Personally, I smoke a lot of weed. I know it’s not damaging a lot of myself, and it has helped me out in many situations. But in some others, it became a complete hell to me under a wrong usage.The thing is that drugs are medicines....Drugs are pharmakia and sorcery. If you live in a 3rs world your weed may be legit. In the US, they hybridized everything so you can even find a pure strain. Shit messes with you more than you realize. Cause you're high, and packed your body fully of cannabinoids, you can even see how it's negativity impacted . If you're addicted to anything, stop. If your left hand causes you to sin its better to cut it off
>>39264952AVERAGE REFRACTORY period of 3 days?! lmao. see a doctor
>>39266895Reflection and accountability took me here. Realizing I did fucked my own self thru multiple actions brought me here. The fun part, why do you attack so much? Personally I’m already fucked, why adding more to the toll? I understand your frustration, but trying to make me feel worse than I already feel will not change anything when I do already know about everything that’s happening.If you wish to live a life where everything and every single action is your fault, well, good for you. I do know the things I have messed and done wrong. I took accountability and responsibility about it.That’s why I reach this kinds of spaces. We do know what’s happening in the world, and you acting alike, proofs my point of view.
>>39266895Do not misunderstand, you’re right. There’s a lot of bullshit flying around.I do know that’s my fault too. I did bring those things on me, but sharing did help me in a way I did not have an idea it would.
>>39266901Sure not, but we humans always behave in patterns. After eyaculating we really start behaving differently plus the fact that our entire being starts to resonate in a different way.
>>39266949You’re completely right. In that part we don’t get too many strains but we get really cheap (old, badly processed, contaminated), or the most common, literally crack weed. Something that’s almost like crack but it’s just green.For real, I do know the answer. I shall grow my own fucking weed. I’ve been just so stubborn and stupid towards that. Listen, I do know I am wrong. But legitimately, I do know there’s so much more than just me being my own destruction.I do know I am, but there are reasons on why that happens. Not just to me, but to others, and the previous anons who commented had a great part on explain it.At least, I am happy that there’s people who understand and those who judge as well. Both of you are really helpful indeed
>>39268121JAJAJAJA, I did not pay attention to the maths
>>39266895Besides, I did not ask for help on how to stop touching me, read more about what’s in the multiple posts, and you will see a clearer view. Yet, you’re free to judge and I will not blame you.I do know I am a horrible person for consuming pornography plus my addiction to masturbating.I just know personally, those things are not just a matter of me, or just my fault.Human conception and the construction of ourselves have a complete weight in others while we grow. And I can assure that if you’ve had read the entire post, you’d have read about the part where this is happening since I was around 7 years old.What kind of accountability can you ask a 7 year old kid with free access to the internet and no clue of why I did easily reach a porn site like brazzers and started masturbating as if I already knew what masturbating was?
>>39266895I don’t blame you for thinking I’m a piece of shit and I deserve the hell I am thru. For real, I actually feel sorry for you bc you’ll never be capable to really reach an state of connection with other living beings who are so broken by the world we live in, and in the end you’ll just judge them.I don’t blame you for that either. It’s not like you need to live criminals or anything. But keep in mind that any criminal existing, it’s the actual reflection of a poor educational system, and a human construction that lead to that.And if you really, really think that all of the things we saw in /X are just schizo stuff, it’s ok.I don’t blame by not believing. I just know personally that you’re not willing to see the whole picture, and the whole situation. I do know that towards your eyes, I am just a fucked up idiot who can’t stop touching his dick. Besides, lacking human compassion and comprehension, you demonstrate not to care about what others go thru and their personal perspective of the world. I am sure I could get into a real point of conversation with you if you’d like to, but you’re here just to cause pain and try to make me feel miserable for the horrible situation this world place me in. I will not eliminate my part to blame, bc 4real I do know I ain’t no saint. I do know I am a fucked up person, but if you really cared. There’s my insta, you can hit my up and we could straight talk to each other, in order to explain you what’s really happening.It’s not the fact that I am just a compulssive masturbator, I do know for a fact that once I get out of the phone. I never get to even feel the urge nor the necessity to masturbate. But I do assure you that you read that in the previous posts, don’t you?
>>39266895Besides, I never said I wasn’t a criminal.Look kid, sir, whomever you are.If you really want to judge, at least read a bit of what we are talking about. Bc if any of those things were not real, I’d be in a mental facility.Which will not surprise me bc we already talked about that stuff in a previous post within this thread.So please bro, if you’re happy by criminalizing me, amen brother.I do accept full guilty bc after that I will not be controlled anymore by this very boring faggot system.
>>39266895This kinds of glowies are the very reason why people come to this boards for truthful and genuine helped and they get to believe always the same script.For real, in each post that we do, we normally evolve the consciousness, but haven’t you all seen that there’s always this bro doing his job at throwing the same script to practically each single thread?I don’t blame you man for real, I’d be so sad of trying to misguide and hurt others that I understand why you’re so frustrated now that you cannot do it anymore.
>>39266895Anyways my friendly glowie, keep with your job. I truly thank you for trying to make me feel accountable when I already am.I truly thank you for trying to misguide me.I truly thank you for always being the destructive part, and never the one that builds.I truly thank you for seeing other building sand castles, and you the childish "adult" coming to do what exactly? Oh, yeah, make me responsible and accountable. Come on glowie bro, even from here I can see you glowing.We all now are after people like you, bc by their fruits you’ll know them.
>>39268780And trust me, my pilgrimage has begun. You will not stop it.Because look, here’s my cheek. And here’s my other ch33k.
All to all of the others who helped, to all of the others who read about the things happening and shared with me.Thank you for real.I appreciate you anons for understanding and opening your minds, for truly being what we human beings are, progress and union!
>>39268822Btw, this thread must be on fire from the glowies sight bc the nightmare I received yesterday was really pointing towards something.
>>39266895Hear me out, if your points are so meaningful and you are so right. Hit me up in my Instagram: xscarymisfitx and my name's Dixon Prado. I’d be glad to talk with you. But as of the fact that I do know how you do operate. I can assure you that I can see the future, and you will not do it bc it’s not your job to care for others suffering, nor to help others in difficult situations. ;)
