>be me>student living in russia>get accepted to study abroad in china on a student visa>stoked as hell, packing bags and making plans>a few days before i leave, notice weird messages on interpol inbox>woman tells me she "heard my prayers" or something>remember that I ran an inari discord server >she sends me real life details about myself as well as pictures of some kind of japanese garden>for the safe of it, better or not to stop replying. >day of departure>arrive moscow airport, ready to start new life>get message from user of discord server>dude knows I am going to beijing, never spoke about this once online btw>he sends screenshot of something on his phone I think? I see text, photo outside of airport with FSB>glance around and see men in suits>they see me, start walking toward me>heart drops faster than ruble after sanction>run from there, run through crowd like GTA mission>barely make it through security>plane take off, finally exhale>months later in china>life is not terrible>some guy from my server DM me out of nowhere>ask if I wish to buy, says I will need this>sends pics of sketchy homemade firearms>I say no, block him, but many more people ask me same thing, say each other is trusted associate>paranoia spikes, but brush it off>fast forward to a few days ago>police show up outta nowhere>get detained on the street, no explanation>dragged into some dingy room, interrogated for hours>they ask of my intention, nato, who I work for>literally have no idea what they’re talking about>apparently someone told them I was a spy>finally released, shaken but still alive>been feeling cursed ever since>start connecting dots in my head>FSB, the gun sellers, the spy thing>suddenly remember Tamamo-no-Mae is connected to all this event>convince myself she is behind it all, testing me
>today>I need to appease her somehow to make it stop>remember some story about her liking blood sacrifice>afraid to cut self>remember when I had nosebleed after drinking energy drinks as teenager>buy drinks, insanely expensive >chug many cans of monster back-to-back>tamamo will be pleased>nose isn't bleeding no matter what, feel very scared like someone steps over my grave>heart is racing, I feel her taking my energy like my life blood>start feeling really uneasy>chest tight, can barely breathe>manually pumping my heart for air with deep breaths as her curse is killing me right now in real time>room keeps getting colder is I type thishow do stp tamamos curse? im literaly shaking righ now and her crse is hurt my body like a cramp all over
rusbro you are retarded. this is because you've fallen into idolatry and turned your back on the church. also you may have heart palpitations from a caffeine overdose
>>39597195i was never part of any churchs or religious at all. i also did not drink a coffee since the morning (12 hours) i do not know of religious use of this but tea. i do not know what tea to drink.
enjoyable larp i guess 7/10
>>39597119Assuming this is serious...Deal with the physical first. Take a break from caffeine entirely. Drink water and eat whatever wholesome foods you would eat if you were sick for a day or two, or until you feel like you're back to normal. Maybe try dishes the locals in China use for colds. Next, the mental. Do your best to notice whenever you're having racing or obsessive thoughts, and do something to arrest the thought process like getting your breathing under control and think about nothing but your breath until the thoughts dissipate. Finally, the spiritual. I follow Christ so I would do something like recite the Lord's prayer, but if that won't calm you down maybe calling on Kazusa-no-suke and Miura-no-suke for protection would put you at ease. Be well.
>>39597119You are on the demon-web….of course you start getting demonic encounters the more power you accumulate on there, kind of like shendao in some way I guess. In reality this could just be some trolls who doxxed you and geolocated your ass and then followed some clues from your messages on the server or to other users to locate you.
>>39597301not larp>>39597359i drink water almost every day. food here is not like in russia, cannot get rasolnik. doshirak is expensive but there is other similar shit productthere is a good butter hotpot crab at local restaurant i go to always. no idea what people use, i will ask tomorrow.when youy are saying i thinkl to much, when i think to hard am i really thinking truly? all i am thinking about now is breathing, chest is heavy.i do not know if it is a good idea, to worship her killers, she is alive and they are dead. >>39597388makes no sense how they can do this. even with with a vpn, and i didnt tell anyone any of this. it is impossible.
