I lost my job and decided I dont want to stay in this town, nor this state. I figured I hit the road and wind my way back to Philadelphia, where I am originally from.The only problem is, I am highly psychotic and long trips exacerbates the problems. Eventually, translucent females being appearing in the road. Its hard to explain because it comes in different flavors, but its like there is some kind og demon inside me that imprisons these women. Sometimes they appear and start doing a seductive dance. Sometimes they have wedding dresses on and walk ahead of the vehicles while dropping bricks behind them, as if to pave the road im driving on. Sometimes, a young child appears and its as if im driving up her hair, while an elderly witch with warts and big-nose gives her a hair cut. When it first started happening, it was surprising and shocking for me, although he women act as if theyve known me forever.The first time was about 5 years ago now and I almost forgot about the phenomenon instil in started happening again.Now what happens is totally different. The women will still begin to appear, but its like theyve become exhausted. The most beautiful, transulcent, perfect woman will appear in the road, and ill have to watch helplessly as she gets raped and murdered, ripped lib from limb.Or the one that drops the bricks will fail to keep up the pace, and instead of a woman in a white wedding dress, she gets run down and the street gets stained amber red with blood.The erath itself looks like a dead body that has been decapitated.I am trying to mentally prepare for this drive, which will take more than a fucking eternity. Im not schizophrenic, But i dont understand what i am supposed to do.I need someone to help me make this drive. I need company. I need a friend. I need a job.
>>39622569So you have been drugged with an addictive substance. When you start to leave you go through withdrawals and hallucinate. You need to go find a camping ground and stay there for a week before you make the full trip. Don't tell anyone where you are going. Try to take out of the way routes. Probably best you don't head home either and instead find somewhere else to live. If you want someone to come with you I am in a bad place right now and need to get away. I would go with you if you could pick me up, but I am a bit out of the way.
>>39622605it originally started with drugs but this will happen regardless. There is much i dont understand, they are beings from another dimension, others would probably call its, "heaven" maybe. idk. its how they procreate or something. But its like they create the path i drive and they can actually control where i physically travel to at some location in a heavenly realm. i dont much like to talk about it, especially when they are not being especially intrusive right now. >bit out of the wayI'm always out of the way. Where are you located? where do you want to go? what do you want to do?
>>39622725I live on Indian reservation in Oklahoma. The amount of evil energy here is insane. Ideally I would go somewhere warm like Texas to help recover my health a bit. I can't even get a job in this place anymore. I am treated as an outsider in the area I was raised. Generally what I want to do is start pursuing normal life stuff like starting a family, getting a job, etc. That is impossible for me where I am.
>>39622827elaborate on the evil energy there
>>39622860Constant and oppressive. You can reach out your hand and block it. The pain it causes is hard to describe. Like a bad hangover.
Talk to a psychiatrist before going on the trip.Easy to say you aren't schizophrenic but you're hallucinating women get raped and murdered.That's not normal either.
>>39622569>I'm not a schizo, I just have psychotic delusions and hallucinations Do you even hear yourself?
>>39622901I do need to talk to someone but.. Its not as easy as you think. I've lived with and become intimate with insanity for a long fucking time now. It was something I really gave everything to try to understand. Most doctors.. i mean.. they do more harm than good. I really do want to talk to someone, i cant even scratch the surface here.>Easy to say you aren't schizophrenicits not really easy to say that. I could be schizophrenic, but that would mean that I am not really here and my really body I probably locked down in a mental institution somewhere and I am just astral projecting this life.I would never have known what it truly means to be schizophrenic, its only because when I was 19, my brother came out of his room one day and said something to me that didnt make sense, the rest is history. There is a massive difference between what he has become and what has happened to me.I can still function. I can still hold a conversation. Read a book. Watch a movie. Drive a car.. Learn something new. I can still engage in the world. But the whole time, what I can hide from the rest of the world, is that I am almost constantly in a state of psychos and hallucinate just about every waking moment. Sometimes its more extreme than others. It can get real bad when Im alone for long periods of time. >>39622924yeah, i do. Dont be retarded. Itll make me angry. Stupid, ignorant shit people say, makes me angry.
>>39622877>The pain it causes is hard to describe. Like a bad hangover.i can understand this to some extent. the first time i noticed my hallucinations weren't just hallucinations, but were actually causing me physical exhaustion . It was seeing a bunch of creatures in hell, stabbing things into my feet as i walked forward, sometimes watching them suck through something like a straw. It weas happening for years before I actually put together that what I was "hallucinating" on the ground as I walked was actually real creatures sucking at my life-force. Some days, just walking across the room leaves me exhausted.
>>39622569From a practical standpoint, divide this long trip into a bunch of short, manageable trips. Use motels. Make yourself comfy. Take your time, fren.
>>39622962You're schizophrenic you fucking retard, go to a Doctor.>don't make me angryYou won't do shit, faggot.
>>39623070>divide this long trip into a bunch of short, manageable tripsthats good advice. I dont want to drive more than 4-5 hours at a time. I hate the highways and would like to find alternative routes but havnt found a good way to navigate across this massive landscape without them. Since its winter, im going to take a southern route but I am not familair with the south at all. Any tips, tricks or way-points or even events and destinations of interest for me to consider would be great. especially from the san diego to new orleans leg. Or if New Orleans is even worth it to visit. Putting that city on the list adds a fuckton of miles on this trip.I basically have infinite gas and food but I only have $1000 in hard, disposable cash and I want get the most bang for my buck when I spend it.>>39623081why is it every thread has a poster like you, a totally useless, irritating, ass-clown here to offer nothing of substance or value? do you really have nothing better to do with your life than project your trooned out, worthless, spineless, unsolicited inadequacy? are you being retarded on purpose, are you just new to the world, or what?you obviously dont know what schizophrenia is and have never met one let alone known anyone to be afflicted with it.since, for whatever reason, they interest you so much, youd be well to understand you wouldnt find a real schizophrenic on an image-board like this. for starters, theyre too interesting of a people to waste there time at a place like this.they certainly wouldnt have time to waste on a leech such as yourself.go be a useless bitch somewhere else.
>>39623070also, I have a cargo van with a bed in the back. Im going to sleep in that. So, no hotels.
