How much trauma can the human heart and soul endure before it becomes permanently wounded?I feel like 30 years has been taken off my life by this heartache. Every day is a waking nightmare, only punctuated by the occasional reminder that I am not valued nor' am I desired or loved. I'm constantly cold and no amount of heat can help. It's been like this for what feels like years and my dreams feel more real than my waking life. Like my very soul has been wounded, and I am no longer whole. A part of me has been taken, stolen, never to return.No future lover or friend will ever be able to have as much of me as they deserve. No future work of the heart and soul will ever have as much of me as it deserves. My very heart and soul are fragmented, split and perforated with holes. I'm broken, and thusly everything I do and every bond I build will be cracked as well. I will never be human again.How fucked am I?
I feel the same. When I envision myself sitting in my room, it's actually just a splattered pile of flesh torn apart by some beast that wandered in one day.
>>39650106LOLJust hang in there lol
>>39650116Such is life. Such is death
>>39650106this instance is only as crippling as you allow it, so don't allow it within your heart, and if it's already there, eject it. you feel as bad for as much bad you allow in, and there are things that feast on and amplify those negative emotions. instead, focus on and only allow good within. enjoy the love of life, and strive to exemplify the virtues of beauty, truth, and goodness.
>>39650394This is the dream, ain't it? I do strive to exemplify the greatest virtues possible. I have a strong willpower, I take care of myself, I try to be as kind and selfless as possible, I treat people fairly, I solve problems wherever I go.But I don't feel any better, no matter how close to God I might be. I don't feel any better, just numb. Like my nerve endings have been burned off.What a travesty this all is
