Day 13. Urges were really bad over the weekend; I spent most of my time in bed staring at my ceiling. I cannot remember the last time I had this unproductive a weekend. Low motivation, feelings of depression. I knew that if I wanked one out I'd feel better, too. It's hard.

>>42149364
Once I rationalized that the Mystical Church of Jesus is my Wife and fapping is cheating on her and also physically hurts her because humanity part of the Church.

It kind crushes any desire to fap.

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Day 4
I feel fine. After the roller coaster of fail, 2 day streak, fail I feel great actually.

farthest I got was a month cause I was in drug rehab. At home I’ve made it to 15 days but had a dream I was fucking the biggest broad and came so much in my sleep

Day 142. Even after a 100 days I didn’t feel any kind of increased attraction from the opposite sex which is fine because that’s not why I started retention in the first place. But this weekend I had some very noticeable snd unexpected positive encounters with women, one in particular being a stand out where I got into a flirty conversation with a cute girl in the tram after she sat down next to me. I have been doing other things to improve my “vibe” but I'm sure SR played a significant role in this.

32 days, still no super powers, no increased productivity, no extra energy in the gym, penis still small

fellas I'm losing motivation

Day 33.

I'll admit I peeked at some stuff due to feeling such a hard flatline last week. My testicles and stomach ached like never before - I took a walk, then a cold shower, then a short nap to get the pain to subside, which it did by the following morning. Very interesting to be chaste for so long and to feel the unresolved sexual energy double back within me in such an unpleasant way.

I've felt hornier since then, including in my thoughts, only serving as a reminder that you MUST NOT ENGAGE WITH THE LUST IN ANY MENTAL OR PHYSICAL WAY. This is not the longest streak I've hit, but the most serious/strict for sure. Quit THC, cleared my mind (outside the slip last week), added in new supplements, and clamped down on the diet heavily. Sleep has felt much better, dreams are returning.

I usually take magnesium and theanine or taurine as a bedtime stack, but after going out all day I skipped them because I just wanted to lay in bed. I had second thoughts about skipping, but wanted to try and see if I would notice their absence. I feel fine today, and fell asleep real quick. I dreamt this morning, but it was scattered and unmemorable. An old girlfriend has been in so many the past few days and I don't mind it - if any of the past women in my life are good and virtuous, it would be her above the others, so at least it's not a total succubus.

Thanks for reading my gay 4chan diary. Off to the sauna.

>>42149753
Called a flat line, bro.

This will be the third week, I broke my streak in January and February, but before that I had successfull 8 months streak. It is always something like that.

i don't count the days otherwise you might relapse

Instead of wasting my sexual energy, I'm transmuting it into guitar practice. Haven't played in over a year, but just a few days back into the grind I'm better than I've ever been. Crazy how this works. I've never played faster and cleaner than last night. After an insane scale run, I just smiled, proud of myself. Anons, you need something to put your energy into. If you do nothing in your free time but just sit and browse youtube or some shit, you WILL relapse. Working out is great, but you can't work out with every second of your free time. You need something else. For me, it's music. No, video games don't count. Find something productive in the real world to work towards.

>>42150312
I tried that I still relapsed.

>>42150463
Which scales are you practicing? For me it's harmonic minor, diminished, Locrian currently.

>>42150647
Not really practising scales themselves. Don't know much beyond basic theory. I just play songs I like and learn with guitar pro, but I was shredding the major scale descending lick in technical difficulties by racer x pretty damn well last night. 10 more bpm and I'm up to speed. Another week or two of dedicated practice and I should hit my goal. Also, I've noticed that when I'm playing guitar, my confidence skyrockets. Hoping that with that confidence I can succeed in this SR journey which will give me even more confidence, and it will be an everlasting snowball effect.

>>42149753
32 days is a great achievement, but in the grand scheme its still very early on. I encourage you to keep going and let go of any expectations. Try it for a few more months and see where it takes you.

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>>42150251
how did you feel after 8 months

>>42150463
eventually you don't need to transmute anything, your nervous system gets used to the energy and works on transforming your inner state with it instead... keyword though if you let it transform you. that's the only scary part about sr and doing it properly, seeing your former self be torn away in real time

>>42151325
but getting hit with a big trigger though is just an inch behind it though in terms of scary shit. actually that's the worst for me is taking a big hit due to being out in public and hoping you make it through the night properly. that's probably the scariest. seeing the transformation happening is right behind it though

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>>42149320
I'm on day 21. I've gone from basically invisible to women (didn't used to be that way when I was younger) - to having women check me out in public who would have never looked twice at me. I lost about 50 lbs since October, but still was surprised nobody was looking at me. I've done SR and a lot of visualization as well, so I think my energy is better sorted than it's been in years after various types of trauma. I've been edging, and still can't see myself giving that up any time soon but SR is legit, gives you a real primal level advantage over most modern men that's completely under the radar, and anyone telling you otherwise has no idea what they're talking about.

I'd honestly say if you can do anything for your own well being right now, it's to stop spilling your seed however that needs to happen, and just pay attention to the new types of reactions you'll receive from strangers, and how you feel in every day situations as well.

>>42151379
you're brave for edging on sr. too risky for me. i end up spilling one way or the other

>>42151389
I've got pretty good subtle muscle control that I honestly thing comes over through singing desu. I just apply the same ideas for hitting notes to stopping contractions. I've been close to the edge. I think the key has been once I feel like the 'tank is full' or whatever, I just shut everything down and stop completely until maybe later that day.

Masturbating has been a habit I've had since like 8 years old when I first found porn online. One thing that concerns me about SR with no edging is that I'll encounter a woman I want to form a sexual relationship with from the effects and then my dick game will be weak and I'll immediately bust or just have a weak erection from never exercising any of it.

I'm also better at implementing new habits if I do it in stages. I've gone 30 days before, but this was the first time I was doing it for deliberate energy work with heavy visualization.

But yeah I can see in this community there tends to be a couple camps - one where it's all about complete purity, and one where it's ok to edge.

Having gone 4 months, and mostly gotten zero attention from girls, is pretty demoralizing.
It's not why I've been doing this, I'm in it for the duration, but given how low my self-esteem has been after a break-up, it would be nice to get a few glances, some girls making excuses to talk to me. I guess my presence as a man is just totally unfelt.

>>42151436
definitely is a couple camps here. i acknowledge all camps if sr is intact. i used to dabble in the edge camp but found like i said i just can't for subtle variables that are too boring to get into so i just walk the purity path. i don't at all think i'm better for it, just better suited for my mind. one thing i can agree on though is that public situations are just higher stakes on the purity path in general, like triggers. on the edge path you just don't get hit like that, you can obviously but you know what i mean. it's like getting hit with a pillow versus a fucking cactus being thrown at you. either way, but that's why there's so many ways to do things, everyone is different and they find what works best for them. good post on your end there

>>42151439
How much time do you spend meditating and visualizing yourself as the ultimately successful and attractive version of yourself and living in the emotional state of what that version of yourself would experience?

You need to start believing you've already received that upgrade, that's who you are, and your frequency is going to shift into it through completely unexpected mechanisms and synchronicities in your life.

Like imagine your life in the state where your ex is basically a forgotten memory and you're blocking her number on your phone because she realizes she fucked up and is blowing up your phone, but you're about to lay down with some baddie you met earlier in the week. You'd probably feel awesome and can imagine how good that would feel? Hold onto that feeling and start trying to summon that in your every day life while imagining scenes like that and the emotions they'd generate. You've gotta kill the negative energy you're dwelling on and replace it with the dimension you're about to step into.

>>42151463
Yeah, I think anything you can do to operate on a higher energetic and spiritual level and the personal path you need to walk to get there gives you a major leg up on most people in this world, so totally agreed.

>>42151476
I haven't done this at all, but now would like to try it. Is there anything else I should know?

>>42151525
plump tight sack = big load

>>42151525
Terms you'll find for this are 'manifestation' 'law of attraction' etc. There's a lot of techniques and things you can do to build on this, but I'd say where you should start -- get a physical notebook and pen. Start writing out your ideal life in statements like "I am thankful for the beautiful wife and kids I have and the home we've built together" or "I am thankful that women are so attracted to me and that sexual relationships with women come so easy to me" - things like that. Just go nuts and start writing out your ideal future, what your bank account looks like. Do this daily or whenever you get a free moment. Instead of wishing for stuff, live in the assumption that it's already yours and just loading.

Once you've got a clear idea of your ideal life, start meditating on that image in your head. The smells, the emotions, the feeling of the door knob on your lambo or house, etc. Get as 'delusional' as you want and start trying to align your internal energy with who you know that future version of you is, how they'd act, how they'd feel, how they'd react to women not being interested etc. Don't tell people what you're doing or give them a chance to shit on your inner life you've built. Telling people is legitimately the worst thing you can do. Just let the results come and let them start seeing you for what you're shifting to instead of trying to explain it to them in words. People will sense the energy shift.

You can also imagine things in public like your energy field surrounding you, emanating golden light. Or a golden auric halo around your head, curing your anxiety or overthinking or whatever. Basically, you're in the driver's seat of your own reality to a degree. You turn your internal energetic sails to where you know you're headed and the wind is going to blow you in all kinds of directions, but you'll start to see things shift into place and it's going to be a mindfuck

>>42151525
>but given how low my self-esteem has been
>I guess my presence as a man is just totally unfelt.

I couldn't add it on to that last comment because too long, but you've got to completely eradicate this kind of thing from your self talk and inner world because it bleeds into the external and it's a form of self sabotage.

>>42150220
ah yes, the mythical flatline that lasts for years on end... yes... yesss.... please tell me more, enlightened one

>>42151616
>32 days = years
interesting

>>42151616
It's been 1 month gosh damn you baby.

>>42151664
Seriously. It's like someone setting out to lose 100 lbs and they're mad it didn't happen in a month. Takes time to carve new neural pathways and reset your biological reward system.

>>42151570
>>42151577
Thank you anon. Whether it's irrational or not, I'd just like you to know that these posts have given me a sense of hope. I wish you all the best.

>>42151726
I'd give it an experiment, man. If you do what you've always done, you'll never get new results. Sometimes the biggest changes in your life can come from unconventional wisdom or things that sound completely irrational to the average person or conventional thought. The thing to keep in mind is that this existence and 'reality' itself is completely irrational. Just think of it as 'playing pretend' but allow yourself to sink into it like you would when you were a kid playing games with friends. Find that place in yourself.

Write your past self letters and your future self letters - even modern physicists are coming around to ideas like the future affecting the past. Write letters to yourself now as if you were your future self giving words of encouragement over how awesome things got.

Beyond the potentially mystical aspects (that I believe are absolutely real), your brain doesn't really know the difference between pretend and reality on a subconscious level. So if you assume the end state of your success on all levels, your subconscious will slowly shift you into that person on a purely physical level. If you listen to the most successful people to ever exist, from athletes, to actors, to musicians etc, they'll tell you about the insane visualization they'd dive into that helped them accomplish their personal dreams. Until one day they woke up and realized everything they wrote down came to pass, almost exactly as they'd envisioned it.

There's a version of this in basically every mystical practice. It's what the people who run the world tap into while the people who never climb the ladder brush it off as irrational. Seriously, with what I'm telling you, you could change the entire direction of your lineage. All of your ancestors are screaming at you to succeed and be the pinnacle of your lineage, brother.

Mark 11:24
24 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

reminder that women absolutely know when you're carrying a massive ton of semen in your body. remember their biology calls for semen. they know who's carrying a shit ton and who's not. is it impossible to see through their lens as a man? yes but it doesn't mean it's not how they are. they know instantly within the first millisecond they look too. it's fucking stupid in a lot of ways but it only benefits you if you're carrying a big full bag of voltage. if you're around them for a very brief amount of time so that they integrate your presence they will start fantasizing about the semen itself and will eventually make very obvious moves to try to get it out of you. any long term srers know this is all super true

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>>42151874
>Me when I've got a full tank of high voltage semen and they're all trying to extract it from me at the same time.

>>42151789
What if you don’t know exactly what you want in life? Like I have a general idea for career and relationships, but I still have doubts about whether those things would fulfill me in the end. Do I just focus on what seems right in the moment? What do I do with uncertainty in terms of life ambitions?

>>42151789
Any more detailed info on this? I remember their was another thread for this on /x/ a few years ago but it seems to have disappeared off the board.

>>42151926
You can be as specific or unspecific as you like and let the vision develop as you go.
>I still have doubts about whether those things would fulfill me in the end
The point is to imagine yourself in a position with things, position, people, etc that *would* make you feel fulfilled. Fulfillment is an internal experience, not really something that can come from external circumstances. The point is to find fulfillment and contentment right now and then magnetize yourself toward a life that fits that energy. Tough to conceptualize at first, but a lot of it is shutting off your reptile brain and negative self talk and letting the good feelings take over until you find it's effortless.

If you've got no idea of what would make you feel fulfilled at all, I'd start there and start really fleshing out why that might be, and take stock of the things that you value on a fundamental level. Like if it's wanting your loved ones to be happy and healthy, or for you to have the ideal physique you're capable of, or the freedom to set your own work hours, travel, etc. Also, take stock of what you're currently grateful for that you can feel positive about in your life. Taking stock of your current blessings is step one IMO.

>>42151944
You can find threads in the archive. Guys like Neville Goddard are good to listen to. Lots of sources on youtube, etc. There's a lot of different ways to approach all this and 'flavors' of these ideas out there, so find one you vibe with and listen to their ideas. Joe Dispenza is another good one. Some of them might sound too hoakey and take you out of it, so if you encounter that, feel free to move on and find one you like. But the important thing is also suspending disbelief and just giving it a chance to happen vs letting skepticism take the wheel.

>>42090337

reminder that other men know there's something different about you when you're carrying a massive load. they feel the difference but they may never be able to pinpoint what. however when you're the one carrying the massive load you view all men as equal and can't discern any differences because you're outside of the hierarchy entirely (or at the top of it if you really wish)

>>42149320
is semen retention even possible if you're married? i don't jerk off, or watch porn, and the only time i coom is in my wife, but we go at it at least 5 times a week minimum.

>>42150463
Going to piggyback off of this, and want to add that video games do work, but they have to be goal oriented. Had some pretty good streaks while playing New World and grinding towards an something. Could be a game you are trying to grind to a rank for. This is probably one step above scrolling on the boredom matrix though.

What you getting at falls more in line with ability and purpose. When David in the bible fell, he was sitting on his couch in the middle of the day instead of on the battlefield. He was bored and he knew where he could see naked women. It all started to spiral out of boredom and curiousity and it just ramps up from there.

For me lately I haven't been working on my business so im on day 0. If I spend more time on that, I will have an objective and theres less idle time to "be on the rooftop" Im sure if I partitioned my day into chunks of time spent on worthwhile pursuits there would be less time to be tempted. Overall though I think the best thing you can do is if you are a Christian is to stay in the word, don't become too idle, and recognize your triggers and have a way to flee before the temptation spirals.

>>42152109
hell yeah dude

>>42152109
i wouldn't worry about it; the union between a man and his woman is it's own mystery.
You are basically using what you have for the intended purpose and there is nothing healthier than that.
In my Church we do have periods like lent where couples are encouraged to refrain if they both agree to it, but even then it's secondary to the needs of the spouse.

>>42152109
A lot of couples have sexless marriages. Don't necessarily need to go that far. If you tell your wife you want to do SR for personal benefit and refuse to cum, she’s likely going to be more attracted to you and try to extract it from you more frequently. There’s also nothing stopping you from pleasing her without ejaculating yourself. Using numbing condoms or whatever you need to do. Or just getting her in in the edging thing. The longer you do it, the more you and her will notice the effects.

>>42152175
so is this more of a "stop jerking off for no reason all the time and be productive" thing? looking at the benefits of semen retention seems to pretty much be in line with having a good spouse, as the "i should look at porn now" feeling is non-existent. i posted in another thread about this, but my wife is from the mohawk tribe, she's traditional to an extent, so something like sex is spiritual. she's not into quickies, she wants us to explore each other, which is very much in line with me main sexual interest being pleasuring my partner. porn and masturbation would just steal passion from the bedroom. in the absence of a partner, porn and masturbating would still steal passion from other parts of your life, i think.

>>42152109
yea bullshit retard. your wife isn't fucking you five times a week minimum. she fucks the 9/10 at her office and then comes home and tells you she's too tired. don't larp retard

>>42152206
The point is that not ejaculating, retaining your semen, and recirculating that spiritual and physical energy will change how you’re able to navigate reality and social experiences and people will treat you more positively in subconscious ways they’re not aware of or even in control of. There’s both biological and spiritually energetic levels to this. On a primal level, everyone will react differently to you and generally defer to you. There's other subtle energies at play, and levels to this as well, but if you couple this with visualization and build your physique at the gym, all of this compounds together.

But SR is a really strong immediate way to get the ball rolling. Demonstrating self control over your monkey mind is also incredibly powerful.

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>>42152210
>she fucks the 9/10 at her office
you're right. she works from home, and i'm the 9/10 in her office.

>>42152210
Why the seethe?

>>42152224
interesting. what's a good goal to try and hit as a first attempt? i feel i could try 3 days without nutting, but it would make sex a challenge, especially since it's engrained in my wife's culture. i could try just not finishing, but i'd let her know up front my plan.

>>42152245
>wife's culture
lmfao, your wife isn't white. so she doesn't even count. go figure she always wants to fuck you, she can't get anyone else

>>42152270
i hope things work out for you anon.

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hey lads, just started semen rention a day ago for the very first time. any advice, tips?

>>42152297
If you are serious then first thing is to delete all the goon files you have. Avoid social media. Pray regularly everyday morning and evening. Hesychasm/Jesus prayer repetition. Going to Church. Confession. Exercise. Use content filters on literally everything.
Obviously like half or more of this is specifically Christian in nature, and the other half assumes you are trying to make a permanent change. This is how I quit but i'm sure a non religious anon would have other advice. one more thing is staying humble because pride will destroy your gains.

>>42152355
nah, bookmarks are great for when you relapse and you wanna really blast the dopamine. nothing like going a month or something on perfect sr and then opening an old redgifs chrome bookmark on a new tab and seeing some perfectly spread anus

>>42152355
move all your porn to a secondary computer, like a cheap office computer, or mini pc. this means you can keep your porn, but also you have to manually turn the computer on to coom. once you hit this step you'll think
>man, do i really wan to load this up just to nut in a minute?

>>42150693
Cool, keep it up. What's your guitar?

>>42152593
thank you, a pintello 34

Oh yeah

>>42152593
Thanks anon. I'll get there. I have a 2007 Gibson Les Paul that I mainly play, along with a few other ones. You?
>>42152690
Nobody asked you.

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>>42152690
>pintello 34

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so how much nofap till I unlock random levitation?

I edged too hard and had an orgasm but nothing came out even after 3 weeks of abstaining. Does that mean my retention streak technically isn't broken?

>>42152791
i guess but you'll probably feel off

>>42152740
I used to play a Jackson Dinky with an unusable FR for a few years, then stopped, then I got back into it three years ago on a 7 string Schecter. My main focus currently is extreme metal and learning a bunch of things simultaneously, with the long term plan to go professional. Learning an instrument is really a life-long thing. I could play in a band but I think I need to practice and learn more, need a better foundation, if I just get stuck learning and playing songs as rhythm or whatever it would be a waste. Although nothing beats performing for a crowd I don't think I can handle being a touring musician, a studio session guitarist would be better. That, or a monk.

>>42152802
It's strange though, just gripping my dick really hard made nothing come out. Not even several minutes afterwards.

>>42149320
Didn't belive all of these "woman are more receptive" till it happened to me, maybe it would have happened anyway but the way I handled it was greatly different from the normal.
Removing sex from my brain allowed me to not give importance that would lead to fear in the small things, like conversation or body language.
Feeling great, now I have energy during the day.
28 days in, looked at some porn here and there but honestly now just the idea of if it disgusts me
Keep going brothers

>>42149320
What do you guys think about this? https://files.catbox.moe/7c5s3s.pdf
It was posted by an anon back in January, basically if you want to transmute sexual energy and get the female magnetism you:

>Clench your pc muscles
>breath deeply into your belly
>imagine the sexual energy rising up your spine into your chest and head

However this is Protocol 1, in Protocol 2 he also recommends masturbating to activate the sexual energy to get 100x the benefits.

I did this but I didn't masturbate because I've had negative experiences practicing Mantak Chia's teachings and instead made myself have a dry orgasm/NEO (non-ejaculatory orgasm) using just my imagination (first time ever) and kept my pc muscles as relaxed as possible. Here's the weird part, I felt very energized for the next 2 days to the point I could barely fall asleep I had that much energy but also any time I looked at or imagined sexy women I barely got horny if at all, I just didn't care about sex afterwards.

I'm not sure if I successfully transmuted the energy and I was just overwhelmed by it or if I just gave myself the refractory period (dopamine plummets/prolactin spikes) just without wasting my semen. I think I might have overdone it.

I can understand deliberately activating your sexual energy and moving it around your body (like deliberately boiling water so steam can rise up) but you definitely shouldn't be trying to have an dry orgasm as you get the same effects of the refractory period as if you had a regular wet orgasm (before you ask I didn't have a retrograde ejaculation). I can't comment of female attraction because I don't socialize XD.

Anyway the reason I practiced this is because I tried to be a pure as possible for the last 2.5 years on SR (no looking at porn, no horny thoughts etc) but it hasn't done me any good. I might try this again but to keep my arousal rate much much lower and focus on deep breathing.

Day 9. So far, so good! I started SR whilst doing a 3 day water fast, as recommended to me by a friend, and following the guidance of Matthew 17:21, I can safely say that almost killed any desire to watch porn/fornicate etc. This has been the longest I've ever gone since starting this awful addiction. Mentally I feel great, but overall I don't feel super different; I do feel better, so that's something. For one my mind feels a lot clearer, I can react to things faster and understand things better. My energy feels normalized, not crazy, but how I should be feeling. I did notice at day 7 I had a spike in sexual desire, which let to me peeking. Which was a little disappointing but it made me realize I don't really need it at all. I think this is finally it bros. NEVER GOON!

>>42153861
>Anyway the reason I practiced this is because I tried to be a pure as possible for the last 2.5 years on SR (no looking at porn, no horny thoughts etc) but it hasn't done me any good.
So what was your goal with SR? To have female magnetism? I'll be completely blunt - based on my personal anecdotal experiences. Whether you abstain, be pure, fap, or no fap, edge or no edge, the effects are simply negligible. The two biggest important things that women are attracted to are looks and 'real' confidence. The fact that you even care about female attraction actually repels them. Become so truly confident in yourself that you don't need them or their approval, then that's when the magnetism happens naturally. I've tried it all, and it boils down to this. Best of luck

>>42154333
wrong as proved earlier itt they can detect that you are carrying massive loads

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Rest in Power

>>42154382
I guess you could say...
...He got finished prematurely.

>>42154382
Look at the Nose!

>>42154354
The trips don't lie. Most people here before they start the SR journey and even after year long streaks don't have much different going on in their lives. This is because they'll do anything, including years long streaks of no porn, no lust, no fap, anything but take the initiative to flirt with women, and get better at it. Once you reach that point, none of this matters

>>42149320
The next full moon is April 1st.

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>>42154382
Another dead jew

>>42154476
trips dont even count on slow boards

>>42154476
And that comes easy when you obtain the focus necessary through retention

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Why are there people like the red magic guy, other anons who claim the only way for women to genuinely be attracted to you is SR, and then others who claim it doesn't matter at all? How can the views be so different and both sides swearing by it?

>>42154566
isnt this every thread on this board? the people who swear they can astral project and the people who swear it is complete bullshit. the flatearthers and the spaceredditors. people who are sure their theory of charlie kirk is true, and everyone else is an idiot for like 5 different charlie kirk theories.

the whole world has become a world of deception and nobody knows what to believe

>>42154566
>and then others who claim it doesn't matter at all?
People that say this are depleted gooner fucks who can't make it past 1 week.

Quitting caffeine is such a game changer.

>>42152860
Nice. Good luck anon, I hope your dreams come true.

>>42151283
No, idea, but whenever I break the streak I can definitely feel this feeling that is telling me to continue, despite feeling really dirty. That is why I am trying to go on for as long as possible.

>>42154733
I just smoked a joint and made a cup of coffee but i know i need to quit both. On a 5 day dirty streak right now.

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>>42154566
I don't think that you should do SR for the purpose of attracting women. But to answer your question, it doesn't matter if you fap or nofap, women don't care. And I know some of you will come and say that I'm a kike shill but my best record is a little more than two months I think and women didn't cared about me at all. I think that those who retain and can attract women is certainly due to a change in their behavior, but not because sperm in your balls has a scent that women craves.

But SR has many many benefits, much more important than that, and they are true (muscle, confidence, creativity, much more energy etc...)

I have a question now for energy transmutation, can we practice Mantak Chia exercises even if we have some semen loose ? I really want to start going into the subject and not just retain like that.

jerking off to facebook pictures of co worker right now

>>42154830
Epic fail.

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I have a question for some of my fellow retainers here. What differentiates a streak between "clean" and "dirty". I'm 10 days in ejaculation free. However, I did edge for about an hour last Saturday. Other than that, my streak has been "clean" as far as no porn or edging. Does that one event make my streak dirty? Do we have to be as chaste as nuns in order for a streak to be considered clean?

>>42154862
No such thing as a """""dirty""""" streak, there's only a streak or a relapse
And you, being the cumbrained subhuman that you are, relapsed last Saturday

>>42154906
putting 'dirty' in quotation makes it look like you think that it isn't 'dirty' instead of you thinking it's not a real streak

>>42154822
If you don't discover the beauty of a grain of sand and marvel at the beauty of the stars in the sky and ponder how you could praise all of them, you are probably not really doing SR.

>>42154920
Fair enough, but only to the cumbrained subhumans whose eyes melt after reading more than two words in a sentence

Starting fresh after a period of relapse, going to put all my focus into my spiritual practice and avoid over stimulation of any kind, including alcohol. Also going to make a daily schedule so I'm not bored without anything to do. Best wishes to anyone else starting again

>>42154382
His karma must have been horrific

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I haven't masturbated in three months. It wasn't even that hard.
No changes whatsoever.
When do I become Superman?

>>42154822
I don't undestand your comments. I do make (or try to do) SR, but sometimes you know you fail. It could be one month in or three week, not counting nocturne loss.

But I want to improve, that's why I asked the question.

>>42154686
>People that say this are depleted gooner fucks who can't make it past 1 week.
Actually it's the opposite. The ones who've only done it for a week are the ones saying: "OMG this girl kept eyefucking me on the bus. SR works for sure!" It's the ones who've been on it for a year or more that are more realistic.

>>42154822
>I don't think that you should do SR for the purpose of attracting women. But to answer your question, it doesn't matter if you fap or nofap, women don't care.
This. They really don't. Retain for yourself

>>42155153
meant for
>>42154922

>>42154333
So just looksmaxx and be chatgpt levels of delusional cocky?

>>42155479
Add humor to that mix and you've basically got the winning formula.

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If SR doesn't make you more attractive to women then its probably overrated. One of the biggest claims is that SR makes you healthier, which should translate to automatically being more attractive since we are attracted to people who are healthy.

>>42155636
SR will only push you over the edge if you are already blessed in looks or charisma. This is like most things in life.

>>42155636
Guess you should just go back to gooning then.

I used to only do edging.
When I started SR I started cumming :/

but why not just have a healthy relationship with jacking off? why is it always one extreme or the other? like can you guys not just jack off 1-2 times a week and be okay?

>>42156096
Because we seek the kingdom of heaven on earth, you wouldn't get it. Not everyone is meant to understand. Orgasm keeps you stuck in the material earthly plane and we retainers seek higher spiritual realities.

Girl at the store heard me complaining in uncharitable fashion to my brother that a mechanic is keeping my car way longer than they should. A minute later she said "um, excuse me" to get me to move to the side in the self-checkout, like she didn't think much of me.
I think this is a step up from invisible.

>>42156172
hell ya player

>>42156096
there is no "healthy" relationship with jacking off. any amount is an unnatural twisting of purpose for the sake of pleasure. it only results in death.

I think there is a huge misunderstanding between people who retain/quit masturbating and those who can't possibly dream of doing so.
People who abstain may still feel attraction and the urges to look at titties, but the act of masturbating or cooming becomes repulsive and disgusting when you reach the point of clear headedness.
it's like a factory reset to childhood. This is the joy we are trying to share.

>>42154862
nigga thinks retention is like keto o algo lmao

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I relapsed. Didn't coom, but started edging to my ex's online pics. I don't want her back, just turned me on super bad

>>42149320
Anyone else binge hard when they relapse? Any tips for better controlling binging when it occurs?

>>42149320
day 83. Have definitely noticed increased looks from women.

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>>42156707
I've noticed this too. And it's just another thing you have to be aware off. When there's a tiny escalation towards relapse, it's never limited to that tiny thing. It's not even limited to a relapse but a full binge and all the associated negative things. It isn't even limited to putting you back to square one, but backwards worse than you were before. Being aware of this massive cost does seem to help. And after a big relapse and binge, hopefully it encourages better self awareness in general, and REALLY have the power to see and acknowledge where slip ups happen and escalate on the way. Because catching things early is always easier in the long run.

>>42156707
Binging when you relapse is commonly a sign of psychological repression. You made the conscious decision to quit porn and porn has become something hateful to you. That's a good belief to have. The problem is you didn't deal with your internal desires yet. You consciously hate porn, yet you still desire porn. Since you hate that part of yourself and hating something means seeing it as separate, different from you, it becomes repressed and goes into your unconscious.

You have rational, logical reasons for hating porn. But the unconscious is a place of impulse, instinct, and emotion. It's easy enough to resist eating a burger because that's a conscious desire and you can use your logic and reason. But when a repressed desire starts coming out, it feels unstoppable, because all logic and ration goes out the window.

So you see that you have to address the fact that you still desire porn. Look into your unconscious and realize that the porn-loving part of you is still there, hiding. And it is you. You have to take responsibility for your last binge and admit YOU chose to do it. This is psychologically hard to do. But admitting this will bring that part of you out of your unconscious mind, and you will be able to deal with it better and eventually heal it. But if it stays repressed then any relapse will be a full binge, as you have noticed.

>>42156903
Thank you Bashar. Unconditional love

>>42156954
Bashar?

>>42156903
I acknowledge I want to, but that doesn't make the desire go away. If anything thinking about it makes it flare up.

>>42157016
The problem is, not thinking about it also won't make it go away. It'll still be there, just below the surface of your conscious mind. But thinking about it doesn't mean fantasizing or letting those thoughts run wild. Do it in a structured way.

When those thoughts come up, you have to "play" with them a bit, for lack of a better term. Try engaging in a dialogue the next time an urge comes up. Let the urge "speak" instead of repressing it right away. It will say come on, it will feel pretty good, it'll spike your dopamine. In response you can say yeah sure, but then my dopamine will crash, my testosterone will crash, fuck up my brain, my sexuality, etc. Allow yourself to consciously weigh the "pros" and cons. Then you can rationally say no to it. If you refuse to engage with it and shove it back into the dark side of your mine, it'll just come back stronger. But you have nothing to fear. Just engage with it. It is you after all.

>>42154862
The troon is back

I can feel the urges approaching, you're not getting me this time NIGGERS

>>42157031
I think I understand what you mean, but when I weigh the pros and cons like that, I find that I start to fall into a despair. One question leads to another, and I don't have the answers. Why do I need to take care of myself, to what end, that kind of thing. 'To obtain enlightenment' feels so distant and utilitarian. 'To avoid pain' makes me feel like an animal. I don't think I can stick to it if my mind comes into it at all.

Gog

Or

Magog

Q

>>42149320
I’m in need of some western literature that talks about semen retention. Stuff written by wise men not internet randos. Anyone have suggestions for me?

>>42157178
>I’m in need of some western literature that talks about semen retention. Stuff written by wise men not internet randos. Anyone have suggestions for me?
Non-Christian stuff would be interesting too.

>>42157220
in the last thread someone mentioned the coiled serpent and i been looking through that

>>42156707
>Why do I eat alot of food when I am starving
Do you seriously not get it? Incel.

>>42157107
but they probably will unless you've developed a particular inner state

I'm entering week #4 of no orgasm.
In the past week and a half I've had three near wet dreams. I have the orgasm dream (nightmare, really), feel the rush and all that shit, but when I wake up my balls are still full. Nothing actually happened.

I guess this proves my hypothesis about stuffing my dick behind my thighs at bedtime. The evil subconscious mind can't make sense of my dick being in such a weird position and it short circuits or something when trying to trigger an orgasm.

>>42157124
you don't think every single addict here and in the rest of the world doesn't consider everything that you just said? the most meaningful part about recovery is taking hits/urges/surprise triggers and not going into a full relapse as a result. it's taking the hits and not relapsing is what changes the mind body system. staying clean for x time doesn't mean fucking shit, it's about being exposed to triggers and not folding

>>42149320
Is it semen retention if I swallow back my own cum?

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Today is the Feast of the Annunciation.
The demons will be ravenous for souls.

>>42157616
Staying clean for X time matters because it purifies the body making it more resilient. Suffering through and overcoming them tempers and hardens the resolve to resist.

Failure helps to a degree as long as you are learning from it and resisting the full backslide.

>>42157705
what do you think? just use simple logic: if you swallow it your stomach acid destroys it. if you don't cum to begin with the cum remains alive and intact in your system

>>42157705
Don't follow Chris Chan's example

>>42157705
tried it several times, there is no short cuts.

>>42157746
lol so you thought that if you swallowed your cum you'd somehow rejuvenate your body back to how it was pre ejaculation? how the fuck would that work?

>>42157781
im not a doctor / nutrionistist

>>42157970
you think swallowing the semen would just somehow return it back to where it is originally stored in the body?

>>42158046
isnt eating how the body gets energy

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I coomed this morning because I am hungover and chose to coom. My life is kinda alcoholic

>>42158076
daniel plainview never cummed his whole life

>>42157781
no but it does recycle the zinc and other nutrients. But it barely makes a difference.

>>42158084
You don't regain the energy expended to coom or the water and salt.

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I'VE ABANDONED MY SEMEN!
I'VE ABANDONED MY SEMEN!
I'VE ABANDONED MY NUT!

>>42158124
i slurped my semen
i slurped it up

>>42157124
You got this anon. You decided to quit in the first place didn't you? That was done by weighing the pros and cons. So just think about what made you decide to quit in the first place, how much suffering you;ve experienced because of this addiction.

If you quit porn another benefit is respecting women more.

>>42158181
haven't noticed that effect yet but i'll keep going

sex dreams took a break last night, instead I had a dream that I prayed. I don't actually pray, it's difficult to get over the barrier. Even in the dream I remember thinking "wow it's actually happening, I'm about to pray" so I should take it as a sign

>>42158181
>respecting women
top kek

>>42158181
I respect them less now. Most of them seem whores and massive narcissists. I am no longer bedazzled by them now that I'm not seeing them as objects.

i was just weak and peaked at some suggestive photos for the first time in months. rip.

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I'm going to start waking up at midnight to read and meditate like a medieval person. Two sleeps. In bed by 8-9pm, alarm at 12am, stay awake for 1-3 hours (no tech), then have my second sleep until dawn. This is the proper way for a European man to sleep.

>>42158664
>This is the proper way for a European man to sleep.
Nigga this is what Muslims do

>>42149320
I'm glad you've stopped with those 4-5 copypasta'd garbage posts in every new /srg thread

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>>42158930
I didn't stop I just said if the Baler is to lazy to bake then don't expect me to put in the effort to save those worthless posts no one reads.

https://youtu.be/tlikL-oij_8

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Guys, what’s your experience with fantasizing about sex with someone while not edging, not watching porn, not even looking at more revealing pics?

>>42157708
Blessed Feast bro

>>42158181
How is this a benefit? Lol.

>>42158181
Based women respecter. This is the final white pill. You can't do SR and harbor hatred in your heart.

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>>42154822
I’ve got a theory about why some women are affected by sr and others aren’t. It might be because a large portion of western women are on birth control, which we know makes them more attracted to gooner beta bitches. It’s possible that women who aren’t on BC notice that a guy isn’t a gooner and women who are on BC don’t.

>>42159770
Then wouldn't most women be attracted to incels then?

>>42159147
Well yes you did in fact stop, but ok whatever floats ya boat

You'd be better off just posting fresh highlights from the previous thread (if there were any). There are always new nuggets of wisdom posted in here by very wise blokes, in amongst all the chaff.

Probably the only post that was worth preserving was the 'why is SRG discussed in /x and not in /fit' one

>>42159763

>>42158076

>>42157178
I mentioned it last week make sure you guys keep up with the “coiled serpent” look it up on archive.org

>>42160229
I need to get back into that foreal man.

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>>42159838
I'm just gonna make the thread if the lazy old baker won't and I will.do no more then that.

7 days until the full moon, don't let your guard down. Don't get cocky.

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>>42157178
I linked the cover of the book They Flew. It's about Christian priests and monks who were spontaneously levitating sometimes right in front of dozens and dozens of witnesses. The whole premise seems to be that the author originally wanted to write about the abstract, metaphysical meanings behind these psychic powers in church members... but then he realised that, hold up, these sources aren't meant to be read metaphorically. These mofuckers were actually levitating and shit. I haven't read the book yet but I'm gonna look up some retention related keywords now

>>42160262
I’ve made it to about page 37 and then I lose time and get busy on certain projects with work. But it’s going to be read at least 5-6 times before I really grasp what it’s saying . Congrats though brethren.

Social media addiction now recognised as a real thing, but they won't say porn addiction is a real thing.

>>42159763
>You can't do SR and harbor hatred in your heart.
Yes you can because my hatred for jews and niggers skyrocketed being on SR

I'm feeling very weak at the moment bros. I'd say I'm currently 80% of the way toward a relapse. I could go over all the reasons it's a terrible idea with myself, but I'm too tired to even do it. I'm too tired to exercise, I'm too tired to eat, I'm too tired to do anything. I obviously need sleep... but what keeps that from being the obvious answer is the thought of waking up to yet another day of intense discipline with no reward tomorrow. It's just becoming too much.

>>42160787
nah yu're not gonna relapse

>>42160787
Don’t be a faggot

>>42160787
Me too. Seems like around day 8 my brain starts trying to convince me to relapse. "Why even bother doing this?" I've always wanted to make it to at least 2 weeks but I can just never do it. I was pretty far gone gooning in VR and such, but I have to remember that it just wasn't fucking worth it in the end. I'm gonna keep on keeping on though.

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>The same means, castration and extirpation, are instinctively chosen for waging war against a passion, by those who are too weak of will, too degenerate, to impose some sort of moderation upon it; by those natures who, to speak in metaphor (—and without metaphor), need la Trappe, or some kind of ultimatum of war, a gulf set between themselves and a passion. Only degenerates find radical methods indispensable: weakness of will, or more strictly speaking, the inability not to react to a stimulus, is in itself simply another form of degeneracy. Radical and mortal hostility to sensuality, remains a suspicious symptom: it justifies one in being suspicious of the general state of one who goes to such extremes. Moreover, that hostility and hatred reach their height only when such natures no longer possess enough strength of character to adopt the radical remedy, to renounce their inner “Satan.” Look at the whole history of the priests, the philosophers, and the artists as well: the most poisonous diatribes against the senses have not been said by the impotent, nor by the ascetics; but by those impossible ascetics, by those who found it necessary to be ascetics.

How do you cope?

>>42160819
I don't care and neither should you.

>>42160831
nofap won't save you, it's a symptom of something else far more degenerate

>>42160839
Ok.

>>42160819
>moderation
Neetche gooned so much Wagner was worried he'll go blind and warned his doctor about it. Look it up if you don't believe me.

>>42160819
look up how he ended his life and then read that slop again. Or really any aspect of his personal life. You people pick the worst idols to emulate.
there is no moderation in masturbation, because to do it at all is a disgusting and purely wasteful act.
Shills will post in here relentlessly because they fear our existence. Because we are the denial of their whole way of life. We remind them of the first time they violated their Nous, of the deep shame and regret they once felt. They *must* destroy us to keep their feigned normalcy. The last thing they want is to have to confront what enslaves them. Like we do.

>>42160819
i don't listen to retards who are so weak that they have a feminine mental breakdown at the age of forty fucking four

>>42160583
yup. i'm still waiting for it to happen but i have a feeling that it will never be a real thing even though you know, 4k porn where your dick gets big and your brain is flooded with chemical cocktails is just a click away

I havent masturbated in months, maybe years, I don't really remember. You guys are fucking retarded, this doesn't change anything.

>>42161440
meanwhile you wet dream once a week like an incel. of course you don't see any changes, retard. get the fuck outta here

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>>42161440
I keep reading shit like this, people doing 3-4 months and it not being difficult at all, not masturbating in months/years and not noticing a difference etc.
If this is not a larp i unironically think you need to go check with the doctor if you are not fat/have obvious health problems.
If you are a healthy male, this isn't something you do accidentally, even 1 week in it should require willpower cause your mind keeps trying to make you think about sex, it's literally the strongest instinct we have in order for our species to continue.
Again maybe all these posts are larp but some seem genuine and i really dont get it.

>>42161467
>even 1 week in it should require willpower cause your mind keeps trying to make you think about sex,
normal people aren't burdened with hypersexed negroid genes like yourself

believe it or not but for us a week, a month, a year is nothing

>>42161476
how much do you weigh? Be honest.

>>42161467
>your mind keeps trying to make you think about sex, it's literally the strongest instinct we have in order for our species to continue.
Yeah when you're in an intimate situation with a woman, not literally all the time

>>42161481
179lbs, including a lot of leg muscle from years of sports and pressing weights

I know what you're thinking but someone doesn't gotta be fat and full of estrogen to have a libido that's not out of control

Every time I go on streaks I feel less desire and attraction towards wife. I start feeling attraction towards random women and they aren't even conventionally attractive but rather full of life. I know I long for that type of connection so maybe that is where the heart is going. My wife is kind of type a, works a lot, barely any physical desire etc. Kind of feels low vibrational

My marriage/relationship was better somehow when I watched some porn. I've been doing this for a few years off and on and it has been a constant struggle in this marriage. The reciprocating energy just isn't there.

Feels like I need to make a choice soon

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For some outlandish reason older women seem to be gravitating towards me and want to strike up conversations with me. Maybe they just don't care being subtle about it idk. Had one who tried to set me up with her daughter.

I also want to know more about eye contact. Because there seems to be something about the eye contact from women who can throw you off your game if you are not careful. I think eye contact can bypass conscious communication and you sort of get direct access to a person's thoughts and feelings. Some love it. Others are disturbed if they sense you know more than you ought to.

Day 11. I don't feel incredible, but I feel better. I'm quite excited at the prospect of hitting one month of nofap. I've already experienced the benefits such as increased/stabilized energy and more mental clarity. I still peek at porn due to boredom, and I think that this is doing much more harm then I realize, since it's spiking my dopamine and is ultimately a waste of time. What do you guys think about that? I don't really get much sexual desire from it, I guess I like to read the plot and imagine it's me sometimes.

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>>42162023
Only you know yourself best and what the answer to that is. Personally, I wouldn't. But I'm still new to semen retention. I had my longest ever streak the other week at 11 days. However, it was a dirty streak. And I edged and ultimately lost control and had to reset. I'm at day 1 now. Keep going! I regret having to restart, but it was only my second and longest ever streak. The important thing to me is getting back on the horse if I fall off. Trying to keep it completely clean this time.

Two instances recently of women being assholes to me for next to nothing. It's curious. I'm going to rape someone, in the property sense of the word.

>>42162062
>I'm going to rape someone
That is demonic and will send you to hell. Don't say or think this.

>>42161820
sheit man, I'm sorry, that sucks. i'm sure you will work it out.

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>Day 7
>Had a stream about fapping... just fapping to nothing
>Wake up annoyed I fapped
>but I didn't
>Low Level horny all morning
>Do some things
>Doing well since Baseball season
>step on a landmine searching for THAT image
>delete the rest of the lewds I didn't even remember having
>getting it under control but annoying not even horny just anxious

>>42162000
Women have pray visions, Men have predator vision.

>>42162213
Could you elaborate?

The video is too long for /wsg/ so I'll just link it here.
https://x.com/THEORTHOCHAT/status/2036873057361412244

>>42162201
Had these dreams all the time at first. They are literally demons trying to make you fall off the wagon. They’ll probably get even more deceptive before they get better, unless you can get some protection in the spiritual sense.
Dreams are similar to trips in that they leave you stripped of defenses against the unseen world, because in a way dreams are an in between. This is why the prescribed prayers for Christians ask for God’s protection from the devil during sleep. It’s also why dream interpretation is generally frowned upon.

>>42162541
It's not frowned upon as much as it is you need to be VERY careful and not read too much into it.

Remember you might not be horny you just might be hungry or tired.

>>42162573
or frustrated

>>42162577
Yep but check the first two before the 3rd those are easier to handle and might be causing the irritation.

>>42162630
true

>>42162151
Our actions do not send us to Hell if we trust Christ. To say otherwise is pride.

>>42149320
Is interval abstention a good idea?

Like staying clean, doing it
staying clean longer, doing it
and so on
like slowly getting rid of it

>>42162670
sounds good but i never tried it. it seems like you are just setting up to fail because your relapse is built into your plan. but maybe its a good way to start

>>42162706
I know that there is a way by lying to yourself that you will always do it tomorrow
I just don't know if could resist forever for now.

There goes great danger with this plan, like alcoholics can relapse with a single drop.
Like I have to be careful not breaking the dam.

>>42161467
I noticed when I was on carnivore I was significantly less horny

>>42162670
Gonna get a lot of flack for this but no. You're gonna go down an endless path of back and forth. What you should do is give yourself permission to do it without guilt for as long as possible. After a while you'll see how pointless and endless the path of lust is - that you get nothing at all out of it, and you'll feel regret wasting your time and energy on it. Then you'll go back to pursuing your goals to the fullest because now you truly learned your lesson. Or you could skip that painful lesson altogether and go clean right here right now, but you'd have never learned your lesson. It's like telling someone they shouldn't binge on eating candy for breakfast and them finding out it gives them a tummy ache with nothing to show

Back in the fall I had made it to over 100 days. I can't remember the exact number.
I had never felt so good in my life. Everything just worked out. Everything.
And then I ran into my ex...
We ended up sleeping together and then my life instantly went to shit. Everything nosedived.
Coincidence?? I don't think so. And I'm still trying to pick up the pieces and get back to how I was.

>>42162753
So you mean doing it one time until the absolute radical limit? And then realising it makes no sense.

I don't think it will work for there is always more.

But hell life is still long let's find out what will happen

I'm curious SRG
https://strawpoll.com/Dwyo3Me7eyA
Please vote

>>42162783
Where are you now? You can get back to 100 days again

>>42162827
I started SR back in late August and made it to over 100 days until I started hooking up with my ex. We're still hooking up but I need to stop doing that because she's a terrible person and she only brings me down lol.
However, I haven't jerked off in all that time since last August for what it's worth. I also haven't looked at any pornography since then. So that's something, right?
I know I can get back to where I was; I just need to bite the bullet and cut her off

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Anons, I managed 2 months without porn of any kind up until today. Today I failed again, and I failed big time, fapped like 5 times, with 2k screen et al.

Mind you, in those 2 months I occasionally fucked a girl and fapped without porn (but very occasionally, like every 2,5 weeks). How fucked am I? I intend to return to the path of no porn and no fapping, but I feel so fucking bad... Any words Id be grateful

At least I managed 2 months, which is the longest time I managed since a couple of years.

>it doesn't have any effects, women still not attracted to me
>im still edging, still peaking at porn, just no orgasm

i wonder how many times those 2 things go together
for me the magnetism is undeniable by week 2

its literally ridiculous what happens when i break that 2 week mark

>>42163116
>in those 2 months I occasionally fucked a girl and fapped without porn
Then you're not doing semen retention, retard.

>>42161467
>I havent masturbated in months, maybe years, I don't really remember.

He's obviously lying. How would someone not know if they haven't masturbated in months or years unless you're a tard

not doing good bros
a few weeks in, having lots of up and downs, mostly self-destructive thoughts
I FEEL better...but my mind just cant lock in to one thing, no motivation to improve
really no interest in anything at all besides staring at the ceiling

I try reading or listening to something and invasive thoughts push in

>Day 7
>also day 0
They got me.

>>42163352
who's they?

>>42163230
you can't seriously tell me that fucking a real girl and then fapping to the memories of it is on the same spiritual level as looking at straight up porn

I can refrain from masturbation alltogether, deal. But every time I see this girl Im gonna shag her (we live a couple thousand km away). Should I practice retro ejaculation?

this nibba helps me a lot in the darkest darkest days

https://youtu.be/GJHUc6UWJLM

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>>42163800
>That That's literally like Gohan base level trying to go against Goku Ultra Instinct. Like, yeah, okay, you can you can still do some shit. You can still, you know, maybe even get to Super Saiyan level, but you can't reach Ultra Instinct, mother fucker... don't even try. You know, how many times have has Vegeta gotten his ass whooped by Goku? Cuz Goku's just retaining longer while Vegeta's just putting his fuckin head in Bulma's ass cheeks. There's no way that he's going to be able to fuckin compete. Goku doesn't even know what sex is. That's how pure this mother fucker is. He doesn't He doesn't even think about sex at all

>>42163800
Rin is based and is definitely an elite retainer. I watched the discussion he and Bogdan had recently and i recommend it.

>>42163357
Japanese girls.

>>42149320
This might be interesting >>42163816
My story

>>42163800
he's right about the thought of the nut after so much time being frightening. like I can't imagine going back.

>>42151570
Interesting. Thanks for that post.

>>42150638
Thank you

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>i just need to have a big enough load in my ballsack and women will swarm me

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>>42163800
This dude is awesome. When he was talking about positive and negative consequences of sr he was directly referring to this idea from CS Lewis.

negative consequences of (failing) sr*

I guess I should finally watch DBZ, might do me good.

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Stupid question does sex eliminate the benefit of SR? I ask because I am on a vicious battle against PMO and truly I have it on the rout, I just want a couple more chillenz.
what helped me was the resonant energy balloon from the Hemisync tapes, focus 10, journalling it and this fellow here: https://youtu.be/__kwAmuT1zk
infact I can highly recommend his other channel and books.

Is there any place on this godforsaken website where I can discuss TRE?

>>42165610
this is a website for children that watch anime

>>42165610
>TRE
trauma release exercises?

>>42149320
day bajillion
women no longer register
they are literally invisible
approaching nirvana

>>42165820
Yeah

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>>42165465
>It is generally easier to avoid masturbation one day after, versus, seven days because, by day seven, the body experiences a significant spike in testosterone—up to 145.7% of the baseline—leading to increased libido. Conversely, day one has low physical urges, while day seven triggers intense psychological urges to release pent-up energy, making cravings much stronger.

Reminder there is a reason you keep failing day 6, 7 and 8.

>>42165980
here's me discussing it: do them

had a terrible thought today
>I miss my porn collection

>>42166471
somes i miss the nudes i saved from catfishing tinder roasties with my chadfishing account. but it was a bad deed, im glad i deleted my fap folder.

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>>42157178

I couldn't resist the urge, I felt like I got possessed and could only think about jerking it all day until I finally did. My 36 day streak is over.

Felt amazing tho and have had a afterglow of euphoria for several hours.. but I know not to chase that feeling so I start again tomorrow.

>>42166374
for me it's around week 3

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Day 40 something
I feel great, I'm not horny all the time anymore
I still have to avoid tiktok, twitter and 4chan for the most part, because everything is so sexualized. But not feeling horny all the time is awesome.
I have more time and energy to do other stuff ( jerking off sometimes means wasting an hour watching porn, and then clean, and then feel a little tired for a couple of hourse)
Now I can read more, and learn new stuff. I also started running, getting fit

And this is going to sound gay but now I find most women disgusting, e-girls I mean, most of them are actually ugly, and the makeup they use is so fucking disgusting, they're weak, dumb and sometimes evil

I don't believe in magic th, I'm still just a regular guy, I don't think most people notice I'm doing no fap

>>42156096
why even bother trying to be reasonable lol

weird dream again.....i was having a nap and I woke up, everything looked kinda as if I was in an etch a sketch drawing, but I was able to see the outlines of my room clearly, it was just dimmer and gray. then i realized i was in a dream probably and i cant remember the rest.
this aint the first time

>>42149320
Do you guys just just delete all the stuff you've saved or nah?

>>42167259
dream analysis time

>>42167282
Yes. You’ll never succeed otherwise. The end state is being disgusted by that stuff anyway. I combed over my normal folders too. Couldn’t believe some of the trash I saved.

>>42163800
He is right about nutting after 150+ streak, it's suicide inducing.

>>42167484
That's why, as an incel who's gone 130+ days, I will absolutely not fold unless it's because I got with an actual woman. For those with gfs or wives, or they just get girls indiscriminately, they should just never relapse.

Over the last three days, I've been talking to a girl on Discord. First time I've really talked to any women since my girlfriend left about 5 months ago. We did the face reveal thing, and she's quite simply not attractive to me. Now I have to try to let her down as easy as possible.
As cold as it sounds, I can't help but feel a tiny bit good despite the fact that this won't work out, because for the first time in many many many years, I'm not the one getting rejected but the one doing the rejecting. I will not dwell on this feeling any longer, as I know it's cold and ruthless, but it's the truth and I have to acknowledge it.

>>42168360
Yeah but you don't have to be rude you know. And why do you think in terms of romantic relation shit? how about just be nice and friendzone her

>>42168382
Because the whole thing was built explicitly on the foundation of both of us looking for a romantic relationship. I don't plan to be rude in any way whatsoever.

>>42168489
Damn... if you reject her now she will know why

>>42168518
>>42168489

yeah you gotta pull the schizo card and pretend you did some shrooms and the shrooms say you have to go on an adventure, she must know you dont like her.
how does she look like btw?

>>42168518
Nah I'll figure it out
>>42168531
She's just not attractive to me. A little chubby I guess. Some average dude out there would be fine with her.

>>42168360
thats a succubus

>>42168837
succuchub

>>42168360
Brutal lookspill. This is how everyone thinks. you can do retention 100 years if you're a chud it's over

>>42169954
is this true chat?

>>42170243
no

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>>42165461
what a cool way of looking at it. and i notice this too. simply seeing myself do a small thing the first time means that the small thing is now in my reality, an evidence of "things i can do / things i do." from there, you keep going and stacking until one day, you have untold courage

>Day 1
I got smoked the last two days. Got 7 days in and then had a 2 day fap binge. On the flip side learning about testosterone spikes seems valuable and I tend to learn a strategy right before catastrophic failure.

started keto /w 2 meals a day and 16h intermittent fasting. lower cal intake, less urges