>5'5>130lbs>10.5 chest breadth>33in underbust>14in shoulders>6in wrist>13in neck>34in pelvis>women's 9 shoe sizemy transition failed. every single part of my body is above average for women i am a monster im going to kill myself. i should be killed in the most gruesome, messiest, bloodiest, disgusting, inhumane way possible. my corpse should be unrecognizable
>>42133486why r u even arguing lol? you push away everyone whos nice to you and get mad when ppl are mean to you.
>>42133479whats ur underbust then? >>42133486wheres the problem? a 5'9 woman wouldnt have a underbust 30 or above and would look cute not alien or deformed, its not about verticality
>>42133533>>42133493u still havent realized huh?
>>42133555realized what
>>42133581ur so dense its kinda crazymaybe figure it out?
guilt about bottom dysphoriaAm I faketrans if I don’t have much bottom dysphoria?If I think about it that hard, that I have a penis because I was born a moid, I can psyop myself into feeling gross and disgusting and a pit in my throat. because of how i have a penis and thats gross, its for moids.…but I jerk off. like a moid.i try to say im hsts, i mostly like men, only ever could imagine myself in a romantic relationship with a man, but i am attracted to women… but i kinda have internalized homophobia. i just never admit that i do like women. i tell people im straight. i feel gross for being sexually attracted to women. and i mostly masturbate to women, like a fucking moid…i feel agamp and faketransi feel insanely gross for those facts. that i use that \*thing\* down there. admitting that.
>>42130577>girls dont have prostates yet they dont have urinary incon-somethingmany do.. but the truth is girls basically have prostates it's just smaller and not called that due to what are mostly historical reasons at this point. it and the bladder muscles are so intertwined.also estrogen will shrink it and make it hard to hold your pee in anyway>>42130599yeah but girls get wet so..
>>42133089ok i guessit's still probably gonna be better than whatever i have now
>>42133195srs and having a vagina? yes it is better than having a penis
>>42130276no ur not
>>42130450/thread
are they based or cringe ? do they help you with gender affirmation ?
>>42132971Wtf game is that?
>>42132971lmao waht game
>>42133421game made by gamers, of gamers, for gamers. i dont want to shill for the dev, so you should go find it on f95zone and pirate it instead, its called USS / Ultimate Sissy Simulator and its the perfect /tttt/ vidya
>>42133489why not support the dev?
>>42133572he's a lazy faggot
>back from the holidays with family>never got misgendered bc no one referred to me
>>42133116a win is a win
I went to visit my parents with my boyfriend and asked him to refer to me correctly and no one ever referred to me at all
trans women are men playing pretend, they don't look like women, people do not assume they are women, they are not treated as women
>>42133220i go out in androgynous clothes, and people address me with female pronouns and titles (maam) (unprompted). why is that?
>>42133488poor cais girlies
>>42133488does woman like animation memes?
>>42133506they are very feminine men
I wish I was actually attracted to my tranny gf because she treats me right and is very sweet.
>>42133545if u dont have a bbc its over lil bro trannies dont fuck with u
>>42133545so break up, retard>>42133554shut up faggot
>be me>healthily depressing>go to mall with my sister>she wants to go into a clothes shop>ok>i grab some stuff to take the checkout while my sister is trying stuff on>see i twinkhon cashier>heart starts racing>chest feels like it's gonna explode>eyes become watery>i put everything on a random shelf>go outside incredibly fast>try to find a bathroom>almost collapses on the floor from the pain>my sister textes me where the fuck i wentComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42131577stop repping and troon out. i waited too long and now im sad i didnt start earlier.
>>42131603If you're having dysphoric mental breakdowns in public at 19 you're ngmi as a repper, just troon out lol
>>42131577dont chemically castrate yourself and join a cult because you want to crossdress, retard
>>42131649Wow you need to get off 4chan you're literally letting memes from here ruin your whole life.
>>42131577>healthily repressing>having spastic breakdowns at 19hahaI'm not even sure you'll survive to 25 on this course, friend.
>be me, at gynac to see if everything's ok before i start t >hear audible wincing once my pants are pulled down, wonder if it's because barcode thighs or if i'm genuinely deformed>glance at notes after physical checkup>"multiple keloidal scars on legs">ask if my vagina looks fine>"have you considered therapy">ask if my vagina looks fine>"it seems you're a special case and we're not qualified to greenlight hormones for you">ask if my vagina looks fine>"you should consider therapy">glance at notes again>it's all just speculations about my mental illnessthis is why i ended up diying
>>42130254i hate gynecologists every time i've been they've completely ignored whatever my problem was in favor of what they imagine my problem to beone called my vagina weird-shaped...
>>42130287noticing is one thing, pretty much halting my transition by refusing to focus on literally anything else is another
>>42130254So did you get therapy? SH is cringe btw he was cringing
>>42133403based doctor trying to get a BPDemon help. but he should’ve known a BPDemon would resent him for it and just did whatever the BPDemon wanted at all times, since this is what they always want
>>42133536nta you should wrap a rope around your neck
Christmas Edition II: The Reckoningprevious: >>41869583 >>42044782 (Fell off the catalog)Goal of the thread: Food and cooking is a core pillar of self care. It is self expression, sustenance, social interaction. Enjoy a homecooked meal from fresh ingredients, with others, if you can.Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I haven't socialized in more than six years and i'm about to fail to meet all of my obligations.It's not like there'd be any reward for putting in the effort since i'm never getting intimacy or love or even respect from anyone no matter what but it just adds to the pile.No rest for the wicked.
Merry Christmas, everyone!>>42089839Lemme preempt what I am about to say with some words heartfelt sympathy. I need you to understand that I do get the pointlessness you feel. The pit you are in. It is easy to be overcome with it all, to become jaded. But I need you to understand that anything I can say that could be of any use to you can feel grating/invalidating to hear. It is in the very nature of the pit you are in. Forgive me if anything I say sounds naive or inconsiderate, I am just gonna be simplistic and elaborate if desired.>None of those things exist.It depends how you look at it, and what you mean by existing, really. There is an artifice to most concepts, but cynical detachment is just a coping mechanism too, all emotions carry a dash of delusion, if you will. Pain is in no way more or less real than happiness or hope, but we are biologically hardwired to respond to these inputs in particular ways. I often say "all meaning is made" as a shorthand in times like this. What you crave is your own tools to make meaning.>There is genuinely nothing I enjoy.This is something that comes with depression and the like, and I expect you to find little joy in anything atm. Besides programming, have you ever enjoyed particular things? In school, with people? Disregarding general stances, mere concrete events and examples.>>42091968I'm happy to hear things are going well for you, Anon! We're rooting for you, don't hesitate to ask questions if you ever feel yourself ruminating, or just drop by to update us, no worries.>>42082596>>42111926That's great news! Wishing you all the best with therapy by the way, what is speech therapy like?>I trust her less and less.It is perfectly valid to look for a second opinion in those cases, Anon. I think it might even be quite important if you feel your last doc has been negligent in the med interaction department.
>>42091399Happy to hear, Navy!>my brain tells me I'm going to have it all taken away from me.If it is any consolation, that is a type of anxiety that usually naturally withdraws as you experience it not happening. Dwelling on that can help.>>42085640>>42086328The link to IQ tests is peculiar, I've never taken one in my life actually. Well, I did yesterday on behest of my love, and out of mild curiosity. It was a fun exercise but time consuming.>>42093568Thank you, I hope you had a Merry Christmas, Anon!>>42094368You're super lucky in a way you have a model that is still built with repairing in mind, what a wonderful thing that is, right?
>>42096839Cheers, Anon! I'm happy you do, and I hope you had a restful Christmas as a consequence. It's great you're taking good care of yourself like that.>>42097720I hope you are having lovely time between the years as well! I never figured out what to call you, Anon. Would you prefer if I kept calling you just that?>>42101633It is. How are you holding up, Anon?>>42103931I an always happy when people vent into the void ITT. It's part of what this thread is for, I feel. I'm glad other Anons help people like you out of their shell as well! We're all rooting for you, here.>>42104606Alrighty, so sorting by preference:>a computing center.. with few people,>an office,>Example, a workshop, We got settings, now. Each of these have a particular social climate attached, but that can be affected by regional culture and I don't have that much experience to predict those details. But with those in mind, one of the first things that come to mind is some sort of tech/IT assistant gig, secretary, or related job. There are now two parameters to consider: how available a job of that kind is and how much time you would need to be qualified. The question is then how to find out what kinda jobs are available (job listings, employment agencies..). Do you know where to look, or who to ask?
Time for a break.>>42106223Happy to hear, Anon! Anything you'd like to share with us?>>42104585>He used something against me randomly that I'm really insecure about.Chances are he didn't do it because he doesn't understand, but because he knew it would hurt. This is not to justify his actions, it's giving into a fucked up impulse that anger can sometimes get out of people. Your dad using that strategically is fucked up for it, the question that needs answering is whether it was an impulse, essentially. If that is the case, the broken trust might be best allocated to his impulse control rather than his person.What does this perspective do for you? What do you think?>>42111194Happy holidays, Anon. I don't think there is much I can say that you wouldn't hate to hear right now, but.. if nothing else, I can listen. I can tell you feel quite hopeless overall.>>42112878>>42113055Merry Christmas, Anons!
Ouran High School Host Club EditionQOTT: What do you want for Christmas?Previous: >>42032679
>>42124607I definitely want to be trans
>>42131572you can't speedrun muscle retard
>>42124986yeah that's what i said. i don't specifically "want" to be a man, i.e. that's not why i'm trans. i just am trans because my brain is fucked up. i want to be cis. man or woman. >>42130315i'm ftm
Why is there not a single FTM that actually displays AMAB psychology and all of them, no matter how well they physically pass they still; act, talk and argue (think) like a Fem?
>>42133330the answer is in your question
hi i was talking to my gf about trans surgeries and started bringing up like what if we found a sugar daddy/mommy to pay for my surgeries or what if some rich person said i reminded them of their estranged daughter and paid for my surgeries like it was all just what if imaginary scenarios and she took is as its going to happen and im going to cheat on her and how its bad to prioritize getting surgeries at any means possible like genuinely what do i do because i love her and live with her but like IF these what if situations were to happen why wouldnt i take that chance ?? why cant she see it as something more than that?? why is she taking a discussion like that so negatively?
>>42133106please reassure her that it was a bad joke and that you would never want any sugar daddy or anything like that
>>42133160i will but its hard when she has me blocked me rn lolz im seeing red n crying rn but like we used to always joke about sugar daddies together early on but now its like its bad all of a sudden idk i wouldnt ever want to do anything that hurts her thats what the discussion was meant for, to see where shes at regarding boundaries as well. all of this blows rn i just want vfs and ffs already ugh i didnt think it would be this serious
>>42133238if she blocked you then nothing you can do for nowidk if you left out something and she had a good reason or if she is just being neuroticbut you cant force yourself onto her
>>42133268i mean i dont know, i was drunk last night and brought up like hehe what if a sugar daddy paid for my surgeries and it instantly went to i think youre doing weird shit and i dont trust you and it kinda spiraled from there, im not trying to force myself onto her i just wanted to have a random discussion about what ifs im not gonna bring it up anymore obviously but i didnt think it would be this bad
damn women really are clueless even about women>>42133316nigga try to imagine your gf as a womannext, try to imagine she has a bf, say methen, imagine I start some autismo banter that also involves someone more attractive that can provide something she has no chance of providing, and how I'd just monkeybranchnow imagine you're less of a selfish bitch than you or even I am. if you can, you'd tell me I deserve to no longer be trusted, and even be dumpedstop being retarded, jesuseven I'm not this much of a solipsistic sperg when it comes to women, and I'm a man that's absolutely shit with them
I once saw a tiktok about sandy hook and one of the most liked comments had a gay trans flag in their name, but in the "tcc" it appears that at least 30% of the fans are lgbt in some way, most notably transgender. So what do queer people think about mass shootings? Are they interesting? do some queers idolise them?(I hope not)She/he in picrel's bio btw
>>42126291Mass shootings are moronic>grrr I'm so mad at society I'm gonna kill someone responsible >grrr I'm so mad at society I'm gonna kill some random people at a mall or school or who have the wrong skin color or somethingBoth of these are throwing your life away for a stupid reason but why would anyone pick the second option? Peak retardation
>>42126291Von's my fav serial killer
>>42130795Because they're evil and don't care about innocents. And they want attention too
>>42130795>I'm gonna kill some random people at a mall or school or who have the wrong skin color or somethingBecause FOX news makes trannies and people with darker skin sound like picrel. I'm sure these same people would seethe about jews owning everything or some bs, but I've never seen them target these mysterious rich jews and pedophiles, but missed every opportunity to kill any notable rich pedo.
>>42126291>Are they interesting?Some of them are yeah>"tcc" it appears that at least 30% of the fans are lgbt in some wayIt's way more than that. If you want to see what I mean go to Tumblr its basically trueTCC and its more or less what TCC twitter used to be.>do some queers idolise themyes it needs to be studied, like randy stair fans (blazers) are almost exclusively trans expectedly. lanzafags are like at minimum 65% queer because adam was so fringe sexually you basically have to be as well to find any interest in him. I think it's just because something so anti-social and antithetical to society as a concept as TCC requires some level of disenfranchisement during your youth, and that's basically true for every troon ever to an extreme degree. Vice signaling in this manner is a way to cope with it i guess?
we should wear half-skirts, since we're half-women!
you should wear capes to hide your disgusting moid body
I support this decision. Not cause of the half woman things. I just think the half skirts are awesome, everyone should wear them.
do boymoders have the christmas spirit?
>>42130325It's nothing terrible, we get along fine, I'm just a solitary weirdo, lol... I just sit there while they talk about stuff I don't care aboutAwww boymoderchan getting loved ^~^ I wanna pat her head too!Ok gotta shleep, talk to you later!~
>>42129479anon we're on tttt but you don't have to be a gay retardI just shift-click on the thread and it hides it4chanx tho
i hope you didnt get too fat on christmas......
>>42131987We must all get on the treadmill........ the boymill, if you will...
>>42132890boymill sounds like somethig else :/
i got a puppy for christmas this december! shes so so sweet and stupid. shes small and precious and all she wants to do is follow me around and lick my face. she has a collar with my name on it in case she gets lost. she has a leash and she gets so excited when i pull it out.when we're alone she loves to hump my leg and grind hopelessly against me. sometimes if she gets stoned she can do it for hours. she cums three or four times for me and then i give her her reward!her faaaavorite thing is my cock in her mouth. she just can't help herself. it's a treat she craves every day and i try to give it to her. sometimes if she's really good i kiss her on the head and pet her and tell her she's a good dog. and if she's just the best then i fuck her while i look in her eyes and remind her how good she is for me. she isn't well behaved for anyone else, just her owner.if she's bad, i punish her as i see fit. i hit her hard, i slap her face. i remind her she's a stupid mutt who doesn't know any better and i teach her how to correct her behavior. but even when she's bad--even when i have to punish her--i still love her. she knows it, too. i see it in her eyes that she loves me no matter how hard i brutalize her, and she knows that as long as she behaves she has something to look forward to.she has the prettiest eyes and the most beautiful face. her arms are tender and weak, and they always look lovely, bruised or not. her waist is to die for. her hips are lovely and her butt is one of my favorite parts about her. her legs are soft and her feet are tender and wonderfully shaped. i remind her how beautiful she is every day, whether she's battered and bruised, or she's clean and well-behaved. i hope she knows how valuable she is to me, and that i never truly mean her any harm. she's my everything. i'm so lucky to have her and i hope she's here next christmas too
>>42126772I'm sure she loves reading about you gushing about her too.These posts make me so happy.I know this is part fetish but it's also a public display of affection which is so sweet.
i want so desperately to be loved & treated like this but idk if i could ever truly humble my pride or my ego to someone else like that.
>>42130703me neither but that is part of what is so alluring about it to me i do not want to belong to myself or my ego or my pride anymore i want to belong to someone else and not even have to consider those things because all of my thinking is done for me by someone stronger and smarter and better at living
>>42130672thank you for understanding.
>>42126772ridiculously hot.thread has been pointedly sent to my gf.
