November 5th is Tuesday.

Whenever I observe something I do through a filter all I can do is notice issues. Like with painting or drawing, the second I take a picture and look at it I notice a million issues I hadn't seen before and it destroys my ego / demoralizes me. Same thing with playing music recently. If I record something, I'll notice everywhere I broke tempo, had a bad intonation, etc. These mistakes feel like useful info but it's frustrating I don't notice them well initially and the amount of mistakes I make demotivates me from practicing further.

My life's been marked by constant bullying, mistreatment, high expectations, toxic relationships, lack of friends and a lot of loneliness
I don't think I'll ever recover

I don't wanna get a shitty minimum wage job so I can make my video game. The hiring process is fucking obnoxious

"Okay, gotta make sure my resume says these exact words so some unfeeling computer algorithm can go beep boop stupid idiot can get a job and then I gotta pray to God himself that I get a call back or I have to walk 40 MINUTES to the place I wanna work at, suck up to the manager and hand in the exact same piece of paper to an actual HUMAN instead, still pray that they get back to me and when I do, I have to pass some pointless interview to do a job where everyone who can breathe can do while making SURE that I'm being myself while also saying the EXACT things they wanna hear so I can get 40 dollars per week".

I was doing a faux interview with my therapist to help ease my anxiety but she keep telling me to be honest while going "For the "if two managers tell you do different jobs" question, you should say it like this..." and it's like, which one is it?! Should I be honest? I would be like fuck no, unless I'm getting paid more, I'm not gonna do tasks that is outside of my work expectations. Clearly I won't be hired if I said that so I gotta lie and it makes me feel ill.

Everyone keeps talking about having a job is like a punishment. Saying stuff like "well it's not what I want to do but it gets by" and it's like great, I'm gonna be wickedly unhappy and angry that I'm doing some shitty 14 dollar per hour work where they expect way above my paygrade when I wanna do my actual passion full time.

I don't wanna go in, pretend that I'm super excited to work at a stupid dead-end grocery store and why it means so much to me. The manager knows why I'm here, I know why I'm here, everyone knows why I'm there. I don't want to do a 20 mile sprint worth of effort to get a stupid job.

>>32243914
Straight up I would be fine working in the god damn COAL MINES if I don't have to put in the effort to get hired. At least I feel there's an understanding of it being shitty and there's minimal effort involved to get hired.

Let me work and do my dues so I can fuck off.

I'm sick of being a fucking simp.
Going no contact online was easy but at work it's impossible.
I can ignore her texts but it's impossible when she asks something of me in person.

>>32243914
>>32243922
Literally this lol if I didnt have to go through some fake social process of how happy I am to work somewhere and how glad I am to be around my colleagues you could literally have me working the fucking sewers

>>32243949
Just answer nonchalantly. Be neutral, don't ignore her. Find flaws in her that you'd dislike. That's what I've done in the past when I had crush

>>32243911
Me too. Fight anon fight!

>>32243517
I struggle with things that come so easily to others. Living in a first world country is not supposed to be this excruciating. I accept my place in the world. No amount of effort will make me anything other than what I am. I am incapable and inept at life

I will never get a job. I will never be independent. I will never have a family. I will die before I am 20

>>32244299
Survival of the fittest!

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>>32244312
Survival of the fittest!

What does it mean if my therapist (cute, my age, I'm also attractive) constantly plays and fixes her hair, throws it over her shoulders, puts it back, collects it with her hands then lets it fall, etc
Do girls do this when they try to look prettier, subconsciously? I don't think she's interested, but it is kind of distracting, and it make me think about her looks, so is there a subconscious reason behind this?

>>32244532
she is not flirting with you, if that's what you're asking. that would be incredibly unprofessional and could get her fired...

I’m pretty sure the church I grew up going to (and the one my parents still go to) is a cult. Does anyone else know this feel?

>>32244549
>I don't think she's interested
That is not what I'm asking.
I'm asking what prompts the impulse. Maybe, for a microsecond, she finds me attractive, and then shifts focus back to her work? I'm just genuinely curious. I'm confident she has a boyfriend and we're both too old to speak in signals. I won't pursue my therapist and I hope she doesn't pursue her clients. There are trillions of girls in the world, and I'm only curious if I trigger something subconsciously in her

There's nothing redeeming about life.

Endometriosis is a good sign that God hates women and therefore I must fight God

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All I want is pizza

>save up and buy decent user after a decade of driving shitboxes
>not even a month later some 14 year old breaks in and totals it in a joyride because of a tiktok challenge
>under the gun because I have to drive every day for my wagecuck job, buy a slightly better version of my old shitbox from a used car dealer
>a few weeks later check engine light comes on, turns out it needs a new catalytic converter
Fuck you ahhhhhhhhhh

A female friend just confessed to having slept with a 14 year old girl (she's 20). That thought turns me on and I feel like a complete piece of shit because of it. I have some

trauma because of abuse (not to me but loved ones), and I feel disgusted with myself.

>>32244897
>gays rape kids

what a shocker

>>32243517
I realized the fetishist hypersexual person in our friend group who constantly jokes about guys sleeping together was, in fact, not joking and they are just *that* obsessed with sex.

Funny how long it took me to work that out, I'll admit.

>>32244930
By guys sleeping together, I mean any two guys with any sort of connection closer than firm handshake friendship. Fictional or real.

She thinks pirates were all just gay men trying to get away from society.

>guy at work gave me a hug after I had a panic attack
>can't stop thinking about him
>too autistic to ask him out

I'm at my fucking limit with this waiting shit

>>32243517
Sugar crash

Noticed that my cell phone stopped taking a charge today due to excess gunk in the charging port. Also noticed that the door on my rv was locked however also left open this morning and I always adamantly make sure to have it fully latched close. As I explained this to “mom” she interrupts to inform me “it was windy last night” and I explain that it’s suspicious and concerning that she always has some kind of excuse for every strange thing that happens to me rather than her expressing concern in return or trying to understand what I’m going thru. Her response of course is that she was in bed all night and it wasn’t her. It’s difficult to feel any sense of safety any day of my life. Once again I must throw all of the food I have in the garbage and live in constant concern. Since someone apparently broke into my tent as I was sleeping and stole two keys from my key ring (another concern my “dad” immediately tried do dismiss as my own responsibility and mistake) I suppose it could be anyone who broke into my rv last night.

My shoulders hurt every time I wake up.

It goes without saying that good people suffer, but are the sympathies and the reverence conferred onto good people worth the trouble? Is the damage done to one's soul when they commit an immoral act permanent even if one sincerely atones?

People who are obsessed with dogs/cats or pets in general should honestly kill themselves.

So people are just going to mess with me and tell me it isn’t happening until I take my life so they can point their fingers at my sinister and scheming parents for messing up while they point their fingers at the directors for being manipulative and malicious. And of course the directors won’t end up punished because they are probably federal government and yeah. This is preventing me from having a life whatsoever. I might as well just go fucking die if everyone is going to use me and put everything I have including my sanity at risk just to prove a point to someone else. Everyone is being a selfish piece of shit at my expense. Why?

My heart's broken and so is my mind now
After years of working on myself I regressed completely because of one person
I only have one question: why?

>>32244601
>Maybe, for a microsecond, she finds me attractive, and then shifts focus back to her work?
No, you fucking idiot. Women fidget with their shit all the time, that doesn't mean they're sending signals to dudes out there. Wake the fuck up.

My life is way more fucked up than it should be.

I can't wait to switch ISPs this month, I'm so excited for internet that doesn't feel like it's being produced by rubbing two sticks together.

>>32245166
Sounds like a temporary problem. Both your parents and your directors aren't people you necessarily have to deal with forever. Please don't kill yourself over this, even if it's bad now.

I guess I just shut up and play

>>32245280
Dude nobody wants to hire me because every fucking stranger in society already knows who I am and they want nothing to do with me. There’s no way I’ll ever be able to sleep anywhere safe again. Parents don’t give a shit what’s happening or if I’m scared for my safety. If I put a screw into the door to keep it locked shut they just remove it and take my drill away that I paid for and belongs to me. There’s already a hole in this rv they paid like two or three grand for but they will just say “I don’t want u damaging our shit”. I already know it. They’re fucking insane.

>>32245293
Like no one cares dude

If someone wants to leave your life...you fucking let them.

I will never ever chase someone who wants to leave. Never again.

If you want back in my life. The bare minimum is that you come back yourself

Just finished 40pills of cephalexin a few days ago, followed up by three cycles of amoxicillin and one cycle of clindamycin I’ve had since August and now I just pressed out some oozing white shit from my tooth again. Makes me wonder if someone is infecting me each time I heal like clockwork.

I give up on love. I'm so fucking gross. every time I meet a girl who shows me even the slightest bit of affection I fall for her and they never like me. it's pointless. I'm gonna have to settle for a woman I have no real love for, gonna force myself to live a life I never wanted to. fuck.

god damn it I'm crying. I barely ever cry. fuck.

If no one likes me I could always just double down I don't know why I have to be sad about it

I legit believe that if I don’t kill myself then I will just die of infection that may or not be my fault. I’m done smoking tho I did have like four or five cigarettes during my most recent antibiotic cycle. Idk what to think anymore.

Seriously if you could just stay at a job for a long time you will change your life.

I dont care if it's fucking fast food. Just.stay.at.the.fucking.job.and work.

Google says it might not be infection so hopefully my face doesn’t get completely swollen again. Maybe if I keep consuming massive amounts of turmeric every day I won’t have an inflamed face and lungs.

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I'm sorry but I've already lost and nutted.

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Does this look like a booger or a parasite?

K I'll shut up and take what's been offered

>>32245530
Every time u watch someone break and enter into my domain via satellite this is the risk I dealing with. Everyone involved is either incompetent or malicious.

Are people going to leave me the fuck alone while I’m sleeping now or do I just need to eat a bottle of sleeping pills and wander off in the snow somewhere? I’m tired of this shit.

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>slept around for a while enjoyed some rebound throwaway dick
>meet bf and go faithful a like 5 months ago
>recently some old fwbs hit me up, don't have their numbers saved, had to ask who they were
>ignored them and deleted their messages when they said who they were
>the one messages me "here" "oh sorry wrong person" tonight being as subtle as a heart attack clearly butthurt I ignored him
>go "who are you? i have a bf please delete my number" and block him
So pathetic. O-oh yeah lady you're g-gonna ignore me see how I meet up with l-ladies that aren't you bet you're missing me!!!
Bro I legit do not remember your name

Ladies and gentlemen: women.

I even consulted my fuck document where I save men's info and he wasn't even important enough to where I logged his number in the first place and never saved it so the penis was prob mid

>>32245530
Fuck off you disgusting schizo

Thank you for hiding your big brain energy, I could tell you were suffering.

I'm sorry, everyone, but no matter how normal or charming I seem, I'm fucked up. Nothing's ever gonna work for me: I'm depressed, lonely and scared of life. It doesn't matter that I'm smart and maybe have high empathy for others when I can't put any of it to use for myself. I don't want help though, but thanks for caring. I deserve to die. Soon, hopefully.

I think I'm going to be a fucking dickhead first though

>>32245715
Hopefully.

I'm 33, she's 18. We're so compatible, and she gave me her virginity, but she is too naive to understand just how bad it is that I only make $40k/yr at my age in a dead-end job.
She follows me like a puppy, completely obsessed as she updates me 20 times a day for these past few months as she's achieving things and socializing. She's clearly madly in love as I sit here in my filthy apartment, leaving only to go to the gym and work my dead-end job.

I lift, and I know I'm charming and handsome, but when I get home something in my brain goes rotten and I sit in front of my computer doing nothing productive. I feel so productive at work, telling myself today will be the day I get a more respectable job... but then I clock out, go home, and rot.

I've never had a relationship last longer than a few months once women see how I live day to day. They can only tolerate it for a little while before they realize there is something terribly wrong with me and bail.

I finally broke my streak of only attracting men. Now I'm attracting girls with boyfriends which is better but still not ideal.

I hope the hair transplants work out. I don't want to be unlovable anymore.

>>32246021
How did that streak even start and how did you get out of it?

>>32245388
Anon, if u are trying to teach me some kind of lesson or program me then u are seriously misguided and confused regarding my life and any possible situation that u may believe is at hand.

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>>32245666
Nice trips

PETER BENCHLEY'S BOOKS ARE SO HARD TO GET A HOLD OF, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO BUY ANY OF HIS BOOKS? FUUUUUUUUCK!

Lazy piece of shit. Learn how to clean up your fucking mess, you’re a fucking slob. You irresponsible fucking bitch get a fucking job, almost 30 and you’re dumbass has never worked a full time job. still asking your mom for gas money? Get your shit straight you ungrateful whiny bitch.

>>32243517
13 is a lucky number
I’ll do better today

I like seeing women experience gastrointestinal distress (nothing to do with scat though)

>>32246085
No fucking clue how it started, dudes have always been into me since I went to college and afterwards
I had girls interested in me for a while, then it stopped and it was only dudes for a some years, and now I've started to get my mojo back
I don't know how I lost it such that I was attracting only men. I got it back a week ago through sheer will after realizing that I've been a loser for the past few years and I could've been kissing hot girls but wasn't.

>>32246251
Yes, I beat the captcha. Posted at 12:13
God is on my side

If God makes me decent looking again I will never be be ungrateful another day in my life

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blocked him so i can find true peace

>>32246254
>I got it back a week ago through sheer will
That's based, all power to you anon

>>32246300
Now you can add me!

maybe my mom sees i feel down. she gave me a pair of socks and a candle yesterday. that was nice of her.

>>32246311
Thank you.
Turns out that you can in fact change your vibe through being angry enough

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i'm only halfway through episode 3 if they don't kiss at least once i'm going to internally chimp out

>>32246300
My ex blocked me on PSN after 5 years without contact. I'd understand unfriending, but a full on block is puzzling.

>>32246345
who art thou nonnie
>>32246460
eh my ex randomly blocked me after a few years too. this guy tho blocked me twice everywhere and then unblocked me. later on after him ignoring me for a week i just let it go instead of gnawing away at my mind, I unfriended for a few days everywhere and went to futher block. don't think he misses me.

>30 f, at store with 32 year old bf
>we buy some stuff and also alcohol at self checkout
>zoomer looking wagie (not attractive to me but well groomed) ids us
>is surprised at our ages and says we look like we're in highschool
>laugh and thank him
Why would he say that to us we look 100% our ages my bf even looks a little too aged kinda mid

i'm still better than you at art

>>32246687
Who cares? Take the ego strokes in stride and move on.

>>32243517
Hey, listen [redacted], I really like you a lot. No joke, meeting you is one of the greatest things that ever happened to me, and I cherish the time we've spent together. To tell you the truth, you're kinda my dream girl, and if it wasn't obvious, I've been crushing on you since the beginning.
However, I can see the writing on the wall. No matter how much we hang out, no matter how close we get, no matter how much you enjoy my company, I'll never be your dream guy. Even as one of your closest best friends, we'll never be more than that, just friends.
And ya know, that's cool, I get that, but coming to this realization has really made me realize something. I don't know if I can really find it in me to keep hanging out with you. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoyed our time together and I still think you're a great person, but the more time I spend with you the more sad I get when I realize it'll never be. And now that I've finally had this epiphany, I have the courage to say, I don't think you'll be seeing much of me anymore. We're completely different personalities and lifestyles anyway, and my motivations for hanging out were probably far different from yours. It's honestly better for both of us if we went out separate ways. You can chase your own crushes, and I'll work on myself. I still love you and am grateful for all you've taught me about life, but for now, it's over

Farewell, [redacted]

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Psychiatry ruined my life. I wish I never went to see a shrink as a weak moment. You become a genetic waste once you get a schizo diagnosis. International telepathical mindfucking via quantum entanglement of atoms and photons of brains happens because psychotic jews started this tradition of shitting their pants in fear while thinking about god.

FUCK THAT ENDING!!!!!!!!!!!

in the end i was still a joke to you.

if i cry another tear then i'll be turned to dust

Why are women so retarded when it comes to finances ffs?

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I went to see a dentist for a toothcheck and now he(dentist) threatens to telepathically killme/hurt me if I book an another toothcheck because I used the word faggot in facebook that angered another homosexual who threatened to kill that homosexual dentist telepathically if he didn't left my teeth in decay while lying that those are okay. This is what happens in Finland. Stay away from this shithole.

>Go to book store the other day.
>Bring book up to the counter.
>They ask me if I'm a member.
>I say I don't think so.
>They say OK and sell me the book.
>I leave the store.
>After walking for about 5 minutes I remember I am a member and just missed out on points.
I'm retarded to the highest degree. Also, this could've been avoided if they had done what they're meant to do and offered me a membership which then would've shown in the system that I'm already a member with them. Whatever, I buy most of my books from Amazon anyway, it's cheaper that way.

boop boop bedoop
our love's on loop

There is just no way that this is going to last but like I did it I done did that

>>32246934
fuckin inexplicable

>>32246942
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kahoWJOsjoc

Got this sexy maidens number while i was out and about and I'm taking my time hitting her up (internet says should take 1-5 days tops to contact her) am I fuckin pimp? Basically.

I'm going to chat with her a little then just ask what her schedual looks like next weekend...I have some places in mind we could go if she's interested, places I've been wanting to check out.

you drift through the years
and life seems tame
til one dreams appears
and love is its name

yeah no way in hell that this lasts

my wrists are appearing even thinner and i've been waking up very dizzy each morning. i should stop abusing my adderall i will run out before my refill and have to suffer through the wait.

https://youtu.be/BP7tGQ_u5U8?si=y-OV76AJSnFDXkPk

a love that was never meant to be be

Drinking alcohol again haha

>>32247031
It sounds like u think that u understand destiny better than nature, I’m guessing that u are a woman.

You pray to god...your praying to your self really lol

>>32247041
Can I fuck you in the pussy vagina pussy vagina?

>>32247049
Can I smack the shit out of you first?

>>32247041
If u modify a piece of someone’s book and make it your own are u an author? Difference between a creator and a God is like the difference between an author and an editor, as far as I can see.

>>32247050
No.

If anything existed before u I find u arrogant and naive to consider yourself to even be Godlike. That’s a massive point of the concept we created in affiliation to “God” although God is meant to be more than our comprehension.

Why are there so many religious schizos on 4chan these days? Is it a larp, or are they genuinely that deluded?

>>32247059
If u want to perceive reality at such a low scale I can accept that, just keep your claims regarding me out of it because u are simply incorrect and lack a sense of respect that I don’t think u can manage to comprehend.

>>32247064
From the hands of someone who thinks that God doesn’t exist outside of religion likely.

Why does smoking look so cool?

I deleted those posts like they never even existed. Like a dream you thought you had. A dream in which you were told the truth and set free, but alas...I lock you back your cage. Lol.

We, yourself included exist because of God and the the concept of God still exists with the most prominent reason being to humble us and yet we arrogantly claim to be God completely destroying the value we could try to imagine. People are funny.

>>32247039
yes, i am. what do you mean by
>It sounds like u think that u understand destiny better than nature
?

>>32247079
U have the nerve to claim what is “meant to be” and it’s funny

>>32247067
I just mean the prevalence of them. For the record, I don't mean all religious people, either. Just the zealous nutjobs. They were always on here, but they're everywhere these days.

Imagine thinking that there is nothing at all above u. That’s what God is meant to be and people actually walk around calling themselves God’s or their peers God’s. Seems like crowd pleasing behavior.

>>32247085
What is a “zealous nut job”? Do u know what u believe?

>>32247083
the nerve?

when i was at the peak of mental illness one time i jacked it to drawn glover porn
get help when you need it guys dont let yourselves become strange with illness

>>32247091
>What is a “zealous nut job”?
Do you really need it illustrated? If you don't know what I'm talking about, I suspect you might be one of them. Just the generic, extremist shit that seems to be more common on here these days. Blaming all of society's problems on people from backgrounds outside theirs, calling for the persecution of various groups, that type of stuff. Used to be a fringe activity on here 15-20 years ago, now it's all over the place.
>Do u know what u believe?
Yes. But why is that pertinent to the conversation?

I just want to be talked to.
Not to talk to.
It's just that simple. Why do I bother contacting you again? Why did I have to feel bad? It's not a concern of mine. It's sad what happened to you. But I'll go through it soon as well. Everyone does. You won't give two shits when it happens. When that day comes, you won't even remember my name.

>>32247108
>get help when you need it guys dont let yourselves become strange with illness
Too late, I've already jerked off to a video of a chick crying and a video of a chick electricuting herself.

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>>32247093

>>32243517
I'm madly in love with the Canadian actress Sarah Gadon

>>32247138
why is it funny?

>>32247115
Recognizing racial and religious influence has nothing to do with any religion. 4chan has recognized these influences longer than I have been here.

>>32247115
> But why is that pertinent to the conversation?
Because Jesus Christ said “they know not what they do” upon his last breathe.

>>32247149
I find stupidity and arrogance funny

>>32247167
well... we aren't together so... okay

>>32247149
>>32247167
Comedy is difficult to explain and gain an understanding of sometimes. Personally I laugh at what is pitiful. Can’t explain it. Maybe it’s the confusion? Idk

>>32247159
Okay, and?

>>32247169
See as a woman that’s how u should think. Serve a man worth respect and don’t worry about what men say who u aren’t “together” with. If u respect a man who disagrees with me then u are barely worth my respect. (:

>>32247177
response to pain.

>>32247180
Because belief is correlated to understanding of one’s self?…

>>32247183
And frustration and “pity” as I already elaborated on.

>>32247186
I agree with that. I'm just wondering why you brought it up.

>>32243911
You and me both pal

>>32247183
It’s painful when people are pitiful sometimes.

>>32247108
Whats glover?

>>32247189
Because u had to post shit, woman.

https://youtu.be/EuK4XurA6r8?si=Fkbbw_8e4eRE2_GP

>>32247201
Awww, no need to get pissy. I didn't post shit and I'm not a woman. But anyway. Can't we just have a reasonable discussion?

>>32244766
And that one missing rib in men is a good sign that God hates men, therefore i must fight God

>>32245059
Do you work with my uncle? He tends to do that alot, he has a gf btw bitch back off

>>32243517
I am getting dementia. I am only 37 and probably have 10 years max before I am full on drooling in a cup staring at wall. Can't remember my childhood.

>>32245860
She's 18 and that makes her an adult im not gonna say that she's a child, however you are 15 years older than her i don't think that's a good look anon, and also what do you two even talk about

>>32247206
>reasonable discussion
That’s exactly what this would be if u didn’t want to pretend I’m “pissy” hahahha

>>32247231
So you go on the attack, but you're not pissy. Okay. If you don't want to have a discussion you can just say so. It's fine.

>>32247230
Sex obviously...

>>32247223
I am terribly sorry anon. Try to enjoy the time you have left and be responsible. Unironically maybe Elon's brain chip or something can save you. Also China is now cranking out most of the world's important research so who knows what they'll come out with. Godspeed. If it makes you feel better I have about 30-40 years left to live which is not much more in the grand scheme of things.

>>32247071
Because it is cool anon, get with the program.

>>32247239
I didn’t attack u. U just love talking to me because u find me as something valuable to control and sway with manipulation.

>>32247243
Eh, it is what it is...I won't miss anyone.

>>32247248
Brat meetS dom and they fuck it out.
You two are adorable.

>>32247251
In an ideal world

It's always the fat people getting video game and Pokemon tattoos and honestly, it disgusts me.

>doesn’t know what to say

>>32245860
find someone thats just as much of a slob as you

i dont even know what their is to life anymore. im so bored all the fucking time. i go to a class, but i get overwhelmed easily and have meltdowns which makes doing stuff hard. i just spend most of my time on reddit or 4chan.

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I'm so tired of my friends.

I'm not interested in them. They're not interested in me. Maybe this is just getting older?

Maybe I've matured. Maybe I'll regret this in the future. I just don't care if anyone is in my life or not anymore. People are a lot of trouble. Relationships take a lot of effort and I just don't feel like it's worth it anymore.

True happiness feels like it was a long time ago. I just wish for peace and solitude.

Maybe not pro-trans but trans-supportive

>>32247290
explain how they differ?

>>32247293
i don't care if they go extinct. I don't want to advertise them. I'm not entirely sure I even agree on their concept of gender philosophically.

>>32247297
so how are you trans supportive? you support our right to exist or something?

>>32247307
Yeah. I don't want to censor you either. The faster we get past this the faster you can be mentioned as often as you statistically exist. I think there is something to this whole changing your body thing and some of your philosophy is interesting.

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Enlightened Redpillism, the hero's choice.

Maybe I try to get it right for a little bit.

Jesus had ages 12-30 missing from the bible to avoid his cringe. You have to be 35 to be president. Give yourself a break anon.

>>32247324
I feel very good about that.

Everything might be ok

>>32247354
It won't.

>>32247356
Maybe it will? What do you know?

>>32247357
>What do you know?
Not a lot.

>>32247358
Me neither.

She apologised multiple times for being so distant and despite it being her going away party, she still went outside for 15 minutes to call me and when I asked why she called me instead of just hanging out with her friends, she said "Because I wanted to call you". I think she really does want to be my friend, bros and sisters, I think I was just allowing my trust issues and insecurities to get in the way.

I like girls with bushy eyebrows, mmm, they make me giggle and blush like a schoolboy.

i am having trouble forgetting all of the blood i had to clean up after trying to save you.

>>32247455
Ugh

so much blood... and hidden razors...

We have conquered the tower of babel and assimilate those what ascend to the top

I ordered food at home and a black woman delivered it. Can you believe it? A black woman. She was very black, African black. This is the best day of my life.

I have absolutely no fucking clue how to confirm the things I thought I heard. I've been punching ghosts this whole fucking week. I have just a gigantic massive fucking problem. My head is stupid fucked. I am really fucking this up. I thought I wasn't quite the type to hallucinate that bad and it's incredibly fucking unsettling. Holy shit.

I think this is just like the most mega fucked it's ever been

I am fucking busted.

Like that is really really really really really really fucking terrifying.

Just fucking ironing my brain lobes

>>32247688
me too

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>>32247678
I'll say goodbye to love
No one ever cared if I should live or die
Time and time again the chance for love has passed me by
And all I know of love
Is how to live without it
I just can't seem to find it

So I've made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it's not the easy way
I guess I've always known
I'd say goodbye to love

There are no tomorrows for this heart of mine
Surely time will lose these bitter memories
And I'll find that there is someone to believe in
And to live for something I could live for

All the years of useless search
Have finally reached an end
Loneliness and empty days will be my only friend
From this day love is forgotten
I'll go on as best I can

What lies in the future
Is a mystery to us all
No one can predict the wheel of fortune as it falls
There may come a time when I will see that I've been wrong
But for now this is my song

And it's goodbye to love
I'll say goodbye to love

I don't know what to say like that is so fucked and I'm sorry.

if i have cancer i wish it worked quicker

I wish I wasn't like this but I am.

really really really really really really bad scary dark awful place

I need to change my life now.

Vote early. Vote often. Hate the game.
>>32247938
Stfu.

>>32247958
I don't think I will. I get it, but I don't have much other than this.

>>32247958
I get that it's frustrating. I know you don't care. I'm really wrestling against my nature and not winning.

>>32246784
bro. i feel that. i wasnt wise enough to walk away at the time and i really fucked a lot of things up. walking away is the best thing you can do unfortunately. youll find yours dude. bet.

>>32246995
Just take her were you went before when you were there. Remember to wash your penis right and wipe yourself well.

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I used the word faggot in a facebook post and now my former employer telepathically turns faggots against me after over 6 months because that boychildraping oversensitive retard got mad when I used that word. Now I don't get proper dental care if my dentist is a homosexual and one left caries in my teeth as a revenge. And that visit cost me about 300 $.

Faggots ruin my life. How tf should've I know that they're so retarded they get angry from the use of faggot word.

i loved you.

admitting that i was in love for the first time in my 25+ years of life was hard. i opened myself up for you, i tried giving you everything i had to please you. you probably don't care and don't understand how hard it was to deal with your constant bursts, mood swings and ghosting.

i gave up on so many things for you, even my dignity. i didn't mind being a doormat for you, i didn't mind having to drop everything for you at the very moment you messaged me. i didn't mind, as long as i could squeeze a drop of love out of our interactions. a drop that would keep me alive and going for another month, deluding myself of receiving real affection.

even with all these things, leaving you hurt so much. blocking you wasn't a thing i do to keep you away from me, it is because i must keep myself away from you. if i followed my heart you'd be unblocked right now, and i would try to talk to you again, thing i did so many times in the past. but i need to let my brain do the talking this time. you never loved me, you would never love me and you will never love me.

you always mentioned me being so irrational despite being so smart. i hope you realize that being irrational was what kept me at your side.

i don't doubt you will find a person better than me, that's for sure. i was never a great man anyway. i am aware i was never anything remotely close to a perfect person, but neither are you. i have a lot of work to do, but you need to realize that you will invariably drive people away, were you to keep being this way. you know it, i know it, your family knows it.

goodbye. it was not a good year, but you have taught me that i need to respect myself and that i am not as bad as i thought. you have not destroyed my confidence, you have rebuilt it. if i don't appreciate myself then nobody will. i won't end up like those people you probably drove to suicide yourself.

being dumb is kind of lame its like why even try when literally anybody can walk by and destroy you with logic and rational thinking doesnt matter how hard i work or how much i try its just another one of those things i cant change ive tried learning but i inevitably end up forgetting and wasting that time and effort its such an unfortunate box to be in as it seemingly makes anything and everything you could project into the world invalid

>>32248085
why do you think you are dumb, anon?

I've dropped out of healthcare and society after I became a whoremongerer. How tf would I predict that?

Faggot anon deleted the post where they said they were a woman just to make me look gay by saying they aren’t a woman later. God damn y’all are petty and weird as fuck.

>>32247039
>>32247079
>>32247206
Oh nvm. They say things like “pissy” and the “deluded” gives me an idea of who it is however.

>>32248052
Damn

I do not care to be as embarrassed as I should be, that does not matter. I am having a really rough time of it. I'm really in the deep end and I'm just trying to float. I get it. Sad. Fat. Ugly. Reprehensible. There's nothing I can do here. I want to get out of it.

>>32248034
>I know you don't care.
Wrong Faggot.

>>32248167
Why do you care then?

>>32248169
How do you know that I did not omit the comma intentionally?

>>32248175
With who?

>>32248175
Anon is a faggot. Just not the correct faggot is what they seem to be implying.

>>32248181
What makes you second guess yourself?
>>32248202
Man, you guys are awfully assumptuous.

>>32248167
>>32248175
>>32248224
I’m just referring to what u stated. If I stated that there is therapy for your condition would u label that as assumption as well? Do u understand how assumptions work, anon?

There's not any one single thing that could make me feel more ashamed then I already do. Really doesn't matter.

>>32248224
Sorry too dumb, what do you mean by that?

Why is this thread alone more schizophrenic than the whole /x/ board? Most of the posts ITT look like they're made from the same person

>>32247455
Yeah foreal they can be really sexy

Gonna long stroke in a bit see how long can last

>>32248264
3? 4? Years now? Something like that. Always like this.

>>32248264
Sometimes the schizos get all worked up and keep posting over and over again

they don't usually do it too much

Way too late. Doesn't matter.

>>32248105
i cant win an argument to save my life. any time i try to have a discussion with somebody they just tell me im stupid with zero explaination and insult me. im not good at making sense of social issues and tend to fencesit on most things because i never feel like i have enough reliable information to form a strong opinion and dont like justifying violence against groups just because i dont agree with them. i used to have this friend that would literally just stop talking to me and reply "...." whenever i said something dumb but theyd never explain why. i just dont seem to get most things that other people do so easily. i overthink things ineffectually making up these schizo theories that people instigating certain behaviors are conspiring towards greater ends and it frustrates me because life is difficult enough when youre stupid without somebody smart trying to pull the strings for their own entertainment. i cant even decide how much energy i even want to invest in confronting people because its not like my greatest aspiration in life is winning arguments online its ultimately a waste of time and i have nothing to show for it in the end but the fact that i cant ultimately frustrates me and stands out as a weakness in my ability to logically defuse these attacks. it seems like so many comments are intentionally crafted in such a way as to require a greater degree of effort to refute than the poster invested and i just cant be assed to consistently care that much but its demoralizing. i could ignore it but i might also be passing up an opportunity to grow and be better and what then if one day i find that somebody i actually care about is the victim of such attacks? its all just too stressful. if i wasnt dumb i wouldnt have to think about this stuff so much and what should be done would just be obvious.

>>32243517
Don't really think a post should be made on lgbt but I kind of miss a bottom I would hook up with one and off for a few months out of a few years. I had been seeing them since I was 18 and stopped seeing them around 21/22. I kind of fooled around on them, hitting them up every once in a blue moon and then sort of ghosting them and leaving them on read like a dick. I want to see them, it was always hot, but i would probably do the same thing again and that is why they stopped hitting back. We were never official, they were much older than me, not like I minded but I thought the agreement was that it was just casual sex. That big fat booty was so beautiful and amazing, but I kind of pushed them away by being a dickhead. I am a dickhead. I also only think about myself. Hope they're doing good but I know they are.

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>>32243517
So you know how it ends.

>>32248237
Now you are getting all analogous on me. Anal stuff is gay.
>>32248238
You don’t know what stfu means? I bully because I care.

>>32248314
winning or losing arguments do not make you smarter or dumber. you can be the most stupidest dumbest person ever, but if you know grass is green then you can beat a person in an argument about grass. arguments are more about knowledge than intelligence.
if your friend just replied with "..." then it means he didn't try to understand your perspective at all, anon.
this is just my opinion, but you shouldn't try arguing or having discussions with people, they're often a waste of time because rarely any side will change their point of view. so, don't beat yourself up for it, it's really not worth the effort. focus on learning, being understanding, empathetic, common sense. those values will not lead you to win arguments or discussions, but they will help you understand and be compassionate.
be strong, anon. you are right about a lot of things you mentioned. a simple example of people making things complicated is math. teachers / professors dont even try to hide it anymore, they just love making it complicated so people fear them.

>>32248264
>Most of the posts ITT look like they're made from the same person
U likely only posted to promote this narrative. How does it benefit u, anon?

Really disappointed in myself. Should've just gone. Oh well.

>>32248418
Take your meds schizo, also go to the dentist, that puss isn't healthy

>>32248427
How will a dentist help with my pussy?

>>32248427
I literally went two days ago. Might just be residue from a wisdom tooth extraction from about a month or two ago. I likely had parasites in my nasal cavity and sinuses as well which would certainly be an influential factor. It’s being treated in a more intelligent manner than schizophrenic medication. U should take “meds” yourself next time u stub your toe because I know u will be thinking of me. It suits your logic.

>>32248427
It doesn’t even matter if u are trolling because there are actually people who think like u do. Several.

>>32248427
Or are u another anon who thinks they are genius compared to everyone because u have been refusing vaccinations ever since covid19 yet unironically believes that psyche meds are anything except hazardous?

>>32248489
I won't be thinking of (You) but you'll be thinking of me

>>32248520
Who?

i might have made a very bad autistic mistake

i hope things are better for you. seems like you've found your girl all along, if you pull the trigger with her and it works out. sorry we wasted eachother's time. still hurt me though.

I did it, I flushed the pills, that's all I care about. Nothing else matters.

wow i really feel worthless being compared to her. you scarred my heart.

>>32248592
Her tits are bigger, aren't they?

>>32248409
i dont know. it was hard with that friend because they were somebody that i really respected and looked up to. when i met them i was pretty disillusioned with the people around me and how inconsiderate they were of one another and they really opened my eyes to a lot of things. i loved them in every sense of the word so it always cut a bit deeper. thats my own fault. as i alluded to the reason i do get into these things is because i want to learn and understand other peoples perspectives. i never assume i know everything. it just makes me feel like its my fault that they can rarely ever be productive and when i cant even be sure that the person was arguing in good faith to begin with. ive been trying to stay off the internet more in general since its so much more prevalent here.

anyway thanks for responding to my yap

>>32248599
that, whiter, and more well off in general.

I am a rotten nasty slobish dick head manchild and I do not care. Get those fucking pills away from me

No one knows how it feels so fuck it

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>>32248704
He’s literally me

o.o

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:D

the cashier at the dispensary was so cute and nice, I wanted to ask her out but I know that's almost always a bad idea

damn these people are living rent-free in my mind. where do they get off criticizing me? why can't they respect my boundaries?

>>32248798
why didn’t you do it? If it didn’t go well, oh fuck that sucked. But if it did…that could’ve been the woman you’d be with for the rest of your life! Go for it man!

>>32248806
if it didn't go well I could never show my face there again
asking women out is a humiliation ritual

>>32248798
>cashier at the dispensary was so cute and nice
And brown

Brown girl from the weed store was actually the only person I had seen who seemed to have a genuine smile in a recent era of my deep psychosis. That was helpful. Might tell them someday.

>>32243517
Ever since becoming a namefag, I have developed a full fledged addiction to all of this site. I wish I could erase myself from the archives. I’ve made a mess, and now I can't help but stick my foot in it. I am painfully aware of the fact I’ve said many stupid things here. I keep stressing over my mistakes, and then I come here to post more. I know it's the opposite of what I should be doing, but I can't walk away; I can’t leave things be. I’ve always been terrible at disengaging after I have made a mistake. Sometimes when you start ruining something, you don’t want to recognize what you’ve done, so you continue to destroy what you were destroying as a distraction to soothe you from your unpleasant feelings. I want to keep busy with the destruction, so I can avoid staring at the mess. For the same reason, when I start yelling in public, I will work myself up for hours. I will just keep screaming to avoid hearing the silence and seeing the mess I’ve made. It’s not done until it’s done, this can be dragged on forever, and be made worse, or I can try to move on from it. It’s just that, I get embarrassed very easily. I am a very embarrassing person, and I do not cope well with that

Also, I poured so much energy into the friendship I had with L. I was writing for hours about him everyday, but now, I feel like a restless smoker without a cigarette in their hand. It’s like now I have all this energy that I could actually be channeling into something very productive, but I keep feeding sickness

>>32248865
>>32248873
Both of you schizo namefags need to get the fuck out of these threads forever.

>>32248873
I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore
I can’t even sleep, because I need constant distraction or I’ll get suicidal
I’ll often walk downstairs just to look at the medicine cabinet at night

My mother says that by acknowledging suicidal thoughts, I am entertaining suicide as an outcome
When I mention suicide, she tells me to “focus on what’s real”, or “why do you need to bring that up”
She’ll walk out the door and refuse to engage whenever I mention it, she’s even done this right after I lost a loved one
She tried to focus on solutions, and she doesn’t want to hear anything that she can’t fix
She thinks that if anyone comes to her with their problems, that they expect her to fix them

It’s not like I’m always mentioning suicide, I rarely speak to her

never the prettiest girl
always cast aside
never loved

>>32248905
I’ve been lurking these threads for four years now. I’m lonely and addicted.

>>32248947
I'll be your bf

Life is so unfair bros.. Everyone is gaslit into believing false things. Everything important in your life is determined by things you can't control - your genes and your family. And yet you're encouraged to feel a sense of accomplishment for things.
It's all so silly and pointless.

>>32248969
no you won't

>>32248979
sure I will
as long as you're not fat, or over 30

>>32248979
If he won't I will.

>>32248939
i can relate to you. i need to give my constant attention to someone else, otherwise i can't really drive my suicidal thoughts away.
everyone i've told about my suicidal thoughts has told me "you must be kidding, right? you look so happy" so i have given up on that too.
even the person i talked to, that i believed loved me, told me to "suck it up".
i can't tell you not to kill yourself, that would be hypocritical. but before doing so, give yourself the time to forgive and understand yourself. you can do it!

>>32248947
there will be always someone prettier than you, anon, and not only prettier but better than you at everything.
what you need to do is become a unique, irreplaceable person for those you love.

>>32248993
>i need to give my constant attention to someone else, otherwise i can't really drive my suicidal thoughts away.
that's what hobbies are for
get a real one, browsing the internet is not a hobby

>>32249001
oh... man, how could i have forgotten about this unique piece of advice i have never received before.

i get closer each day

Guys, last week the girl in my uni class I have a massive crush on and get along well with asked me to go get a drink with her after uni ended. We sat there for 5 hours while the lights of the city below the bar we were in started lighting up, talking about our lives, our dreams etc It was absolutely beautiful.The more I got to know her and her story, the more I liked her. I wish I could draw just to picture this moment of her looking out over the city lights forever.

She has a boyfriend though. This destroyed me when she told me. I have no idea what is going on anymore. Do you think she might like me? I started to push her away the other day just because I already know that my constant daydreaming about the future is ruining me. I'm so lost. It is eating me up. I don't know what to do.

There is so much other stuff going on in my life right now, I can't concentrate on anything at all and I desperately should. Every single day for years I tried so hard to get over the extreme social anxiety and build a life for myself but the higher I climb the lower I fall. I'm sorry for the self pity and complaining in this post.

>>32249014
then just kill yourself, you're not gonna do anything with your life anyway

>>32248993
Sorry to hear you also received a cold shoulder. I think I’ll be fine once I get a ride to the city, just need to get a drive from the YMCA staff
>>32249001
You could tell that to a drug addict. Point is, obsession is a coping mechanism, and I think anon is cognizant of that. It’s likely not due to a lack of trying

>>32249036
>We sat there for 5 hours while the lights of the city below the bar we were in started lighting up, talking about our lives, our dreams etc It was absolutely beautiful
>She has a boyfriend though
>I don’t know what to do
The wise thing to do would be replacing her boyfriend so she can go on dates with guys who aren’t u

>>32243517

The only thing that will help civilization grow as a whole is war.

>>32249000
i don't think i can become that.

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one of my friends has a grandma with dementia and she is crazy, really fucking up the family
hate to see my friend like this, not being able to get away from it

can anything legal be done?
i've suggested just stop giving her pills, try and speed up the process but his mother won't hear of it

>>32249049
thank you, its nice to hear you got something to look forward to
also thanks for replying to the troll for me but i dont think he understands or wants to understand anything, because spitting out random stuff is way easier

>>32249083
what or who convinced you of that? it's hard to get out of that mindset, i've been there. in the end, i accepted being a midwit at everything i do and well... most people end up being midwits anyway. it doesn't mean one can't be loved (and it doesn't mean one WILL be loved)

I am a brown man and I'm enjoying it. I had a coffee and talked to an acquaintance. I watched some anime. I learned something new. Life is good. The best part is, life is going to get even better.

>>32249114
people "interested" in me said parts of me were ugly or just straight up ugly, compared me to other women in how i should act, look, cheated on me, abused me, and then some. i'm quite good at art but it doesn't mean anything

You give a lazy man solutions and he'll just make more excuses

i am an ugly talentless burden. i have no friends and the few acquaintances i have online unironically want me to commit suicide.

>>32249138
i'm sorry, those are awful things to hear. you know, the people that said those things about you sound like awful people. nobody that truly appreciates you is going to tell you to change (unless it is something related to your health, for example).
i have talked to a lot of people on different boards that believed themselves ugly because an abusive person had convinced them of such things. the last person i talked to tried to convince me of being an asshole. am i a good person? probably not, but am i an asshole? i don't think so either. you seem to be, at the very least, on a similar boat. i know for sure i can't convince you of the opposite, i am just random words in a screen. i just want you to think about it, the way you see yourself, and not the way evil people tried to make you look in order to manipulate and abuse you.
what kind of art do you do?

i still remember when my mom told me i am hard to love. and another time when she said my appearance is why i have no friends.

>>32249180
i've been too depressed to make any art or finish my commission. they were also mean about me working on my skills and being better than then. makes me feel worthless and broke my heart for art.

Fight the future!

Keep forgetting they blocked me haha

>>32249193
Your mom sounds like an insensitive bitch

>>32249223
awww, i was hoping you could post something. i kinda wanted to see it :(

>>32243517
Wish I could get rid of the feeling that everything is meaningless

time to go into the unknown

>>32249289
it's nothing special, just technical.

Fucking lifelong parasites! And you will probably always stay that way and nothing else.

all of this rejection has me welcoming suicide more each day

>>32249357
it might be technical but it's better than what i could ever do

>>32243517
I overcome suicidality, realize I don’t know where to go from there, and become suicidal again

My success is never sustainable
I have been very devoted to my betterment
But everything eventually eventually falls apart, and I always return to square one
It’s hard knowing that all my effort was in vain, like I could have been better off not trying
But that’s life!

>>32249453
i remember the first time i saw your trip on some other board and i didnt know what limerence was
it described my situation perfectly

why did he keep comparing me to her

>>32249495
because most men are cunts who feed off of the validation of making you feel like shit. they want to keep you in line by hurting you emotionally.

>32249453
All talk no action
I don’t know where to go after the first steps, so I’ll ruin my success, and keep climbing up and down those steps
Each time I make a loop on those steps, the feeling of failure intensifies, and the feeling of success dampens
I could cure my internet addiction, and read books, but then I’d still be unemployable and agoraphobic
My OCD is debilitating, and nothing has worked
Everything is overwhelming
The idea of suicide has always been there as a cop out
I actually just don’t know what to do
I just want to be independent

>>32249486
I just didn’t want to use the term yandere

Just keeps getting worse. I actually have nothing to look forward to. I dread waking up every day. There is nothing.

100% hell. And i was right with everything.

>>32249633
Prove me wrong.

they say it gets better every day but it really hasn't
i really wish you hadn't left me like this or did this to me
i know you didn't mean to do it but you could've spared me
now you're happy with someone else and i'm left feeling inadequate
i can't even have fun without sad thoughts popping in my head
i really wish karma existed

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>feel like shit
>left a party because I feel like shit
>get frustrated that neither friends or family ask me what's wrong
I am so pathetic

why did you lie to me? i loved you so much
i loved you so so so much you can't even imagine

And by saying that i meant now

i wish i could be enough for someone.

>>32243517
I’ll love you forever, L

i was at my lowest point ever, and you came into my life to just kick me down again.
i just wanted to be loved.

Hello IT department, please unblock the bull I don't know how to do it

>>32243517
I have no substance or grit
I feel like, if I don’t have it now, I’ll never have it

>>32243517
Life is too short to worry about public perception. As a rule, everyone hates you anyway. It’s actually very freeing to let yourself go completely.

>>32249985
Well.. maybe that’s not true

>>32249992
But you hate me and that is freeing
Everything deteriorated so fast
There’s no going back from that
I wish everything went well
I still care about you
Sorry I turned out to be a disappointment
I wish you the best

>>32250001
Making friends just makes me feel bad about myself, because I realize everyone is better than I am. I‘m actually kind of happier being alone, because then I don’t have to think about that

i take more just to feel something, anything. i'm burning through my script.

>fall for a girl
>she never really tells me what she thinks of me even after I confess
>just kind of stuck in a limbo
>flirts with me a lot
>comes out as lesbian

anger and frustration

>>32250033
I don’t believe lesbians exist. There’s always a man who can change their mind.

I also think that with most women there’s always a man who they will be a little bi for and usually they like it.

>>32250008
having friends that are better than you reduces the possibility of being used, and if they're caring they can help you out with your problems

>>32250068
>>32250079
well it's not me apparently, so... eh. I just hope she finds someone she's happy with. I've lost all interest in her upon learning this : /

I don't see it...and i'm not waiting, why should i

>>32250124
U have a really good attitude anon. If I were u I would call them out for flirting with u and ask them how that adds up because while u have lost interest your face makes me think your feelings are still invested. If she has a response other than flat out telling u that she doesn’t see u that way she might be trying to find some proof of your feelings or some kind of shit test. They have all kinds of them. I recommend that u move gracefully as u are and exhibit all the nerve u have, civilly of course.

>>32250124
However if she isn’t into u anymore she may have lied about being lesbian because she wants u to know it’s a lie because she doesn’t even want friendship anymore.

>>32250187
>>32250210

I mean, either way she's just not into me. we're talking now, just as friends, but I don't think I'll ever be as comfy with her as I used to be. if she had just let me know from the beginning I wouldn't have cared at all, but eh. I did ask her why she flirted with me and humored me for so long, but she just didn't seem to understand what I meant? I quite literally told her three different times that I liked her, and she never gave me a direct no. just... brushed them off.

but whatever. doesn't help that I like women who are stereotypically "butch", maybe it was obvious and I just never caught it? she seemed to be quite homophobic at times but ehhhh...

idk, hurts but what can a guy do. no point worrying about it.

it's time to watch my show and I'm not gonna go to church tomorrow haha I'm sleeping in

>>32250124
I’ve also witnessed a girl tell my friend “I think I’m going to go lesbian” after a breakup and then have a 2f 1m sexual engagement not long after. Not sure if she felt ashamed of investing themselves for them and wanted to take it back or if she just really wanted to fuck him up. Probably both. She look more innocent with the threesome however because it makes it look like they may have wanted to be lesbian for themselves rather than convincing someone that they ruined men for them. Also wonder if women set things like this into place all depending on how the guy may react after the breakup, strengthening their outcome dependency.

I'm the only one who doesn't know. I just want to feel safe.

>>32250267
Or I should say supporting their tactics used to sway an outcome due to their lack of dependency.

I'm sorry

>>32250279
Are you really? Are you really though?

Look S, I was just telling your sister not to eat dairy for a week.

Yeah, so you know how Milton fucked up your trip to Orlando and then you fired him from the team for egregious misconduct sometime afterwards? He used the thousands of dollars he saved to buy a car instead. In the end, he very much won; his world is all fine and dandy.

No one on this worthless ass planet thinks that forgiveness exists. I'd rather fuck every single kid to it's death.

It's weird that logical thinking was not necessary for a lot of people on planet earth. The most basic of basics. How fucking more retarded can people even get? I will kill every single dumbass i ever see, they all deserve to die immediately. Fucking waste.

Foul play, all day every day.
Fucking entirely worthless.

I think the act of changing your last name because you got married is weird, I would ask my wife to not take my last name.

>>32250463
Forgiveness is overrated. I think the parents who stand up in court and forgive their child's killers are pathetic.

I can't with strangers bothering me anymore, we're not an "big family" or "friends" in this world, we're fucking strangers wtf you disgusting fucks get away from me

>>32250571
>we're not an "big family" or "friends" in this world
I've never heard anyone refer to the people of earth as a big family or friends in this world, where are you hearing these things?

>>32250585
From schizos, too many schizophrenics who live in their make believe world and not real life

>>32250589
Sounds like your issue is with schizos and not regular strangers.

how the fuck do i find straight edge friends (i do not drink or use any substances)

>>32250594
Find religious friends.

>>32249698
>be me
>always pick up on how others feel, am proactive and try to be kind and ask what's wrong
>also be me
>be in a bad mood, just wish one person would notice
>no one does
I know your pain, anon.

Fucking kill yourself i swear to god

This new girl is perfect for me, way better than you ever were. See ya never, ya dumb cunt!

>>32243911
>>32249229
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>>32244766
Fight!
>>32247208
Men do not have missing ribs. They are the same as women. Fight!

BMI says I'm right on the cusp of being overweight (25) but I sure don't feel fat and don't think I am fat. I have a little extra fat around my abdomen, but it's not even that much and the whole picture of my body does NOT give "fat person" vibes. What gives?

>>32250740
I'm the exact same way, 185cm 88kg.

Let's try this then: thank you

>>32243517
I know I am extremely pathetic

I just can’t stand thinking you hate me. I hate that I’ve let someone’s perception of me dictate how I feel about myself to this extent

>>32243517
I feel like you connected with me on such a meaningful level, and now I don’t know that I’ll ever know you. I’ll always wonder about you

Why should i not kill? /adv/?
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