I wish I had more of a neighborhood/family community as a kid. I spent most of my childhood in vidya and didn't develop socially at all, now I'm on neetbux and can barely say hello to people.

Look, Moon.

Whether or not you're an ass, I've been repeatedly successfully identifying psychotic thinking in my brain patterns and would like to apologize for the stress I'm sure that other fuck in my head caused.

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I wanna invite friends over for my birthday, all I'd want to do is drink beer and watch Jaws 1 and Jaws II, the only problem is that I haven't gone to any of their birthdays this year so it would feel wrong to invite them over. Dunno, maybe I'll just get my brother to buy me beer and we can watch the Jaws movies together.

I wish I had a girlfriend like my best friend's girlfriend. She treats him so well and is such a good and supportive gf. She gets along really well with our small friend group and isn't a bitch to the rest of us unlike quite a few women people have dated among my friends. She's exactly his type physically too. I just wish I'd meet someone like her who's a really sweet person who's also exactly my type

The vote is on Tuesday.

Should I uninstall Avast?

Hurry up and fuck off you shitty cold so I can do my 8~10km ROON asap

I saw a really cool jacket in a movie barely anyone saw but I can't find it on google so I want to contact the costume designer who worked on the movie but the only way I can contact them is on Linkedin but that would require me to get Linkedin premium. Fuck, I just want this cool obscure jacket from 2003.

>>32251884
Make a thread.

>>32251897
What would I even make it about? You really think a thread where I ask anons that have Linkedin premium to contact this chick would work?

>>32251777
I'll get pissed and watch Jaws with you. Where are you, bro?

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>>32251921
>Where are you, bro?
Adelaide, South Australia...

I LOVE YOU ANTHONY

I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH ANTHONY

>>32251932
Shit. I'm on the east coast of NSW. Quite a drive.

i think i finally reached the tolerance threshold for the bullshit i allowed to happen in my life and i can't take this shit anymore. there's too much regret and i don't know how to make things better again. i feel like my ending is imminent.

>>32251953
I wouldn't ask you to come anyway, this state is so shit, I fucking hate it here. To rub salt into the wound, they banned MMA and boxing (only non-title fights for some reason) the other week so I can't even have that anymore. I emailed Peter Malinauskas today but I doubt anything will come of it.

ANTHONY IS LOVE
ANTHONY IS LIFE
ANTHONY IS THE PERFECT BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND MATERIAL

>>32251963
You can't even get them online?

>>32251945
>>32251949
>>32251969
Total yandere material

>>32251971
Nope, they banned them completely. I'm just so confused as to why they still allow you to bet on title fights but nothing else. Methinks that the legislators enjoy betting on the title fights but have no idea who the regular fighters are so they have no issue banning that. They also banned shit like betting on E-sports and betting on LIV golf. I don't get it, they actively promote betting on horse and greyhound racing but will ban combat sport gambling, my mind is truly fucking boggled.

>>32251975
I KNOW BETTER THAN TO EVER HURT ANYONE. I HAVE MY FANTASIES AND THAT’S ALL I NEED. BUT THEY ARE VERY INTENSE.

I LOVE ANTHONY SO MUCH IT’S UNREAL

I AM FANTASIZING INTENSIVELY ABOUT ANTHONY BEING MY HUSBAND LITERALLY RIGHT NOW AS I TYPE THIS

LITERALLY. THE LOVE I FEEL FOR ANTHONY. IS RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

Most /x/ thread of /adv/. Everyone ritualposting.

if i stop ever posting 4chud, very likely from the ever aggressive anti-spam measures, i'd finally at long last be driven to the brink enough to force myself to actively find someone to complain about everything to unreservedly.
lainchud, wizchud, uboachud, dvachud, and 8chud all seem tempting but they can never replace 4chud for what it is.
fuck this gay earth for this. fuck global mods for the shitty measures since captcha change in January. fuck /lit/niggermods for new rules trashing /wwoym/. fuck /adv/ for actually having /gyoic/ to take refuge in. fuck myself for giving in to lethargy this entire year not doing anything but laze around after the finally explicit break-up. fuck my gay ass for not doing anything worth living for all this time.
but i'm glad that something will finally push me out of something i can't get out of by myself.

also, fuck this anthonyfag niggotry too. go yannigging somewhere else.

I'm sick of finding beautiful places with affordable real estate in countries I can't live in, it bums me out so much.

I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH ANTHONY. IF NO ONE ELSE LOVES YOU, THEN I DO.

>>32251969
>ANTHONY IS THE PERFECT BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND MATERIAL
Are you for him? If you are, convince him of that without forcing it. If he is not convinced maybe you saw everything wrong. Move on and learn that maybe he had almost everything in your list but he was not the exact person you were looking for and was part of the path for the other person.

I WANT TO CUDDLE ANTHONY

>>32252031
Yo, what's up, mama?

>>32251976
Sounds like a misguided attempt at pandering to somebody.

>>32252036
I love your emo haircut and I like you’re funny

>>32252047
I don't know who they'd be pandering to though.

>>32252049
And I like the thought of how warm you'd keep me at night.

>>32252050
Fuckwits.

>>32252049
I meant I think you’re funny, FUCK

>>32252061
Must be some powerful fuckwits.

Video games are a totally acceptable waste of time as much as anything else and I've made a handful of IRL friends as a result of them.

I just wanna go to Alaska, man.

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Homeless men should be given negative compassion and treated like bugs, showing them kindness just enables their lifestyle and makes them worse human being. Same with mentally disabled vagrants. I hate pickme mother theresa types like picrel up on their high horse taking food out of their baby's mouths for street trash that wouldn't piss on them if they were on fire. Faking injuries or otherwise asking for help is one of the #1 strat men use to prey on women because most women are so servant-trained and brainwashed it works like a charm they just yelp "help!!" and the pickmes run like rats to the pied piper. Honestly bet she is a terrible mother. I'll never help a scrote much less a disabled piece of shit scrote that 100% forsake friends and family to end up where he is and he probably loves it. Fucking other homeless men up the ass all day and getting blotto daily. All homeless men should die in piss

I joined the military to stop being a NEET-turned wagie and make something of myself. Biggest mistake of my life, i want to blow my fucking brains out.

>>32252090
Also I bet she is the type that would support a jobless man in her house and let him molest her kid. Probably has issues bonding with her children due to breeding with a druggie who left her so her nurturing instincts go to fucking bums instead of them

>Have bad card in my deck.
>Get to a shop.
>Pay to remove the card.
>Next room is a ? room.
>It's a free card removal room.
>I couldn't help but laugh.

I just sent that boy two thousand, he ain't never post my album (go)
He ain't never shot his gun for me for free, I'm bein' a thousand (go)
You did what you did, I left you 'round my kids, I gave you power (go)
I told bro, "Go hit your main opps, " knowin' damn well they ain't ours (yeah, yeah, man, what?)
I just swapped some Glocks from two, three of them blocks, ain't let a round off (gimme that)
And them niggas heard they mans scream, they gotta turn the sound off (gimme that)
Fuck what it seem, I'm goin' off what I seen, bitch, get a pound off (pussy)
One opp nineteen, he bring up my brother in school, they knocked his gown off
I called Mack OG, I got lil' bro a lawyer, hundred thousand (thou')
Look at Fyndee Boyy, he touch on little boys, he pedophilin' (nasty)
Up my gun on one of the opp bloggers, them boys gon' televise it (yeah)
I can't name the shit I'm behind, but I can make my mama prouder (on Pluto grave)
I seen lil' bro knock one nigga outside his socks, he brag about it
Why you bring your cousin around? You know he a rat, let's talk about it (cheese, haha)
See, the biggest hoes, they be the biggest hoes, let's talk about it (let's talk)
And the city know I know too many moles, go kill about it

>>32252057
One of my favorite parts of Anthony fantasies is the one where I wrap him in blankets and pet his soft hair as he sleeps ^^

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This weekend (of three days) was supposed to study. Out of those three days I already wasted 2 in the most pathetic way possible, talking to chatbots and watching videos on youtube until 1am.
Last night seeing that I hadn't studied shit and having two exams next week, with only one day left, I said to myself ''what the fuck is wrong with me. What the fuck am I doing. Why am I like this? I'm not in high school, if I fail I'm out on the streets, I'm going to waste a semester because I'm a fucking lazy imbecile who can't study 4 hours a day'' And then I broke down and started crying.
I think I'm generally unmotivated and frustrated because I didn't want to go to college anyway. I wanted to draw, but I decided too late and eventually had to quit because I just wasn't good enough. Since I have other commitments I don't have time to draw anymore, and to be honest, if I didn't have other commitments I would just waste my time. People like me are not made for great things.

Sometimes i want a girlfriend but man oh man do I enjoy being free of any attachments

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I don't know what happened but anal became a lot more enjoyable in the past week. And with that, the number of women who would be compatible with me has dramatically fallen. You'd think I'd be mad but honestly the anal feels so good now that it offsets any potential angst I'd have. I'll try my best to adjust to this and find a caring fujoshi gf who's into pegging.

>>32252155
I feel that so hard.

>Want to watch anime.
>If I turn on some anime it'll make me feel relaxed and I'll fall asleep.
I just can't win.

This thread is so much less active than /wwoym/, I fucking hate the mods.

I used to love video essays but now I can't stand them anymore and I can't figure out what happened

>>32252210
I liked them when I was a teenager but I'm easily driven away by things if the fanbase for said things is bad and there isn't a single sufferable person who watches video essays.

I told you what you probably didn't want to hear / never heard from anybody but my own mouth, and I was more than satisfied with myself. I am the only one person in the history of this universe who told you that. Life is too short, F it

My misanthropy emboldens by the day.

If people genuinely think that I'm flirting with them all of the time then they should really start reevaluing their opinions on themselves

I just do shit so that I can have stories. I'm a really boring person so I've gotta take what I can get.

I will kill you no issue, never has been

>>32252224
That you're gay and you are manipulative

I believe my mother lightly hitting me when I was very small and middle school bullying made me fear rejection and fear that I might not be liked. These fears prevented me from making moves on girls and believing no high value girl will ever want me. Adding the madonna-whore complex, it made things worse. This lead me to live a lonely life. I'm 29 and had sex with 5 hookers in SEA. I've dated normal girls but they were not my type every time. I'm still lonely, but at least now I can ask a pretty girl out. Sadly I don't meet them due to my lifestyle. Should've studied psychology instead of physics haha.

>>32252353
I think my mother constantly lying about leaving forever only to come back the next day probably has something to do with my attachment issues.

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Don't get involved in human trafficking. You'll ruin your life. Which means don't pay from sex if prostitutes are forced. You'll become a reject of society, you don't probably understand in what danger you're. If you have made a mistake of fucking hookers(who are in that biz against their will), delete all messages, images, contacts. PS. If you fuck without a condom that's better in the view of collective subconscious but you might get STDs.

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Am I a pussy if I take non-prescription painkillers for dental pain? I am getting my teeth done and the pain is not super intense but very nagging. I am taking lower than allowed dosages.
It had been mostly surprisingly comfy last few weeks with my appointments but my last temporary fillings are killing me. I can't eat shit on the right side of my mouth.

>>32251742
LISTEN YOU GUYS KEEP SPAMMING ME. YOU'RE HARASSING ME. I GOT EVIDENCE OF THAT

pretty women....
fascinating...
sipping coffee...dacing..
Pretty women are a wonder.

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My only warmth at night is a heated blanket wrapped around a body pillow and carefully slid into the pillowcase. I've already failed nnn, erping with a chatbot. And to top it off, my well-meaning but kinda tactless dad sends me facebook links now and then that go to clips of how hard modern dating is. I appreciate the sentiment and concern, but I am the last of the siblings who needs to be shown this because I am currently living it.

even when they leave you and vanish...
they somehow can still remain there with you

Twice since yesterday I come back to the rv locked. This morning I’m certain I didn’t lock it and the only thing “Dad” feels inclined to say is “wasn’t me” after I tell him someone is breaking into my domain. It’s like now he just really wants to prove to the crowd that he wasn’t poisoning me when in reality someone likely was. He doesn’t give a shit how much of my mental health is sacrificed so he can serve himself. The only way I can feel safe is if I keep the back door bolted shut and the front door unlocked. I would lock the front door if I could have the key but they won’t give me a key because “I’m a liability”. They don’t give a shit if I feel safe even after my safety has been massively compromised.

The way he just kept taking steps forward and silently staring at me in a dominance asserting way after I told him to stop stepping towards me. Repeated this at least five times. Fuckin terrorist. Doesn’t even seem like a human being to be anymore idk what the fuck they are.

I wish my “dad” would shoot me in the head and then shoot himself in the head. Then mom can pretend to cry and care about it and receive all the sympathy she has ever wanted.

Being raised and occupied by people who direct accountability towards anyone except themselves is a hazard that not only consumes u but snuffs any opportunity of separating from them and developing somewhere better. It’s like they not only psychologically infected me but they want to infect anyone else around me too. It’s everyone’s fault except theirs that they have to implement the suffering that they do upon me. It’s my fault they have to make me suffer. It’s my trespassers fault they have to make me suffer. They must make me suffer more for the integrity of the image they want to display of themselves.

They fuck with my head to the point I end up in the hospital because of it and then enjoy how good they get to look when they free me from the place. Somehow they ended up with power of attorney the first time I went, not sure how.

They bent my finger while I was sleeping to the point I had pain for a month. I woke up with massive breathing trouble. Woke up on my back when I never sleep on my back. Had an awful taste in my throat for 24 hours. They tell me I’m paranoid and a danger to them.

Nobody fucking cares

They get mad that you’re difficult to control so they abuse u and then when u speak out about abuse they try to convince u and everyone watching that u are crazy and try to get u to act up so u can be locked up and nobody will believe u. U speak on the abuse so instead of being decent they just abuse u differently.

It’s been more challenging to belong at previous places of employment when “mom” intervenes and annoys my bosses. Having nobody in the world to share details about my life is much safer than informing my “parents”. I don’t think I can even get hired anymore anyway. Not because I’m a felon but because people just sit in the corner of my therapy sessions.

The only time they will pretend to acknowledge feedback and act like they had an epiphany is when a crowd puts pressure on them. Everything I say just hurts their ego if I’m right and they hate when I’m right because that means I’m no longer beneath them.

I don’t know if my water bottle was contaminated with sewage or not a couple months ago and I don’t know why I used to wake up from a dream, gnashing my teeth unable to open my eyes.

I think all they’ve ever wanted was for me to feel defeated because they’re mad that they lose so many arguments because they’re wrong. That’s why they don’t want me to feel safe or validated in any concern I have. That’s why they lock the door and lie about it so I have to depend on them for a key.

And maybe someday they will say “well we tortured u for content so u can have all this money” well fuck. What about my ability to connect with other people? That’s more important right? “Mom’s” way of connecting with me was always frantically panicking about finances when I was young, overreacting about everything. So in their manipulation they can convince me easier that money is fucking everything. Fucking losers.

oh my god she did fake it
she wasn't lesbian
I trusted her. a not interested would have sufficed.
I told her some deep shit about myself in return and
oh my god I don't know what to do now

never trust a woman
period

>>32253696
People who trust anyone have shit for brains.

How do I recover from rejection as a Cluster B retard? I've lost 95% of my personality, and I can't stop obsessing over the person. I need their validation so bad, but I know I shouldn't need it. I don't act on my impulses, but right now, I'm crying for the first time in 10 years, and I don't know why. I just feel fucking depressed and constantly feeling sorry for myself. Normally, I don't think about myself at all. What do I need to do to get over this?

There’s no value in giving trust, it leaves u vulnerable and weak. People have everything to gain from receiving trust. Told someone this and their response was “u gotta trust in people, u won’t be happy if u don’t” no u out risk into people if u think they are worth it and then maybe u can be happy. Trust is for people who haven’t been fucked over enough to know better.

>>32253753
*put risk
My autofill changes the words a type. No I didn’t fat finger it I just have hackers who fuck with me endlessly.

Need to decide tomorrow if I follow thru with a sleeping pill prescription. I want life to not be fucked up but I don’t see that happening. I want to be able to end my life on my own terms when I choose but if I have that prescription then someone else can murder me and write it off as an overdose. I’m at the cusp of giving up.

>wife tells me it doesn't matter what I look like
>okay I won't shave for a year
>wife stops wanting sex
>can't figure out why
>try everything
>she is completely cold
>have a shave
>she suddenly won't stop flirting with me
Women.

>>32251742
I wish I had the capacity to work on my studies all day long without boredom kicking in.

I have a stack of textbooks I know I could have sorted in a year with both a better attention span, and a couple extra IQ points.

Summer of 2023 I was fine, driving for Amazon and fully aware that hackers were watching me and broadcasting my life before I had approved of it and then “mom” suddenly feels the need to speak in code again triggering a massive anxiety that left me feeling too worthless to belong in society again so I left the job like a dumbass. Then when I try to obtain a job there again the person hiring has it out for me asking if I’m serious about the job because I didn’t understand the way she was asking for my ssn card. Then she acts like a psycho mom towards me because I said dude and she got offended and I snapped under pressure told them fuck off with the job basically. Now the whole warehouse is scared of me.

They don’t even piss on my head and tell me it’s raining. They piss on my head and tell me I’m dry.

any anon willing to read my blogpost and help me not kill myself?

>>32253708

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Don't get into fucking prostitutes. If you do completely anonymous street hookups then you might get away from it but don't do that either. If you can't get laid otherwise then improve your inner game. Don't message them don't leave their messages and contacts. Don't get into human trafficking, bitter prostitutes destroy your life subconsciously.

If prostitutes real will is to be a prostitute then it's ok.

Tell “parents” I don’t think this food is safe because of everything I have told u about what I go thru, if u want it u can have it. They gladly take the food and feel like it’s safe to eat. Why is that?

Except just some weeks ago “mom” says “I’m not poisoning u but I think u might be poisoning me”. Ok…

They want to drag me to Hell by any means.

>>32253852
I’ll wait till the movie comes out.

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>>32253973

Delete all data considering them. Throw away clothes that you used when you meet them.

Stop fuckin locking my door after I walk away from my car. Quit randomly rolling my window down and fucking with the volume knob too. Glowie faggot.

Why are u so persistent on operating like a bitch? We’ve already determined that flickering my lights on and off in my cab won’t send me to the hospital like u want. Why are u too scared to address me face to face?

No one feels sorry for me because everyone already expects me to kill myself inevitably and just think I'm a burden and I can't even feel sorry for myself because others have it worse. I could be a prisoner of war and everybody would find a way to make my suffering about how much I'm a burden to them and not how hard it is for me to go through these things. I don't give a fuck, because if they don't give a fuck I could just stop telling them about myself right? But no, if I don't open up I'm a bad friend who's pushing people away or treating my loved ones as untrustworthy and unreliable and they'll freak out then too. Fuck all of you

>>32251742
Identify yourself

Yeah man I am still in love with that streamer girl lol. I know she basically confessed she hates people like me and doesn't know I exist but I kinda still just love her lol. She is beautiful probably the only girl I could love. It's been like 5 years too haha

>>32254711
Can't you give another girl a chance? Haha

having the final endorsement of your fake campaign be an aging pop star who was just outed as being part of a child sex drug orgy ring is such a DNC move lmao

Earlier this year, I thought it was more or a coincidence. After you stopped talking to me I felt hopeless and guilty of... wishing you to be happy. So what you've done at that date I thought to be just like I was told. Not a big deal.
But there's no way. We're closer to the end of the year and it makes less and less sense why you'd post just that once at that precise moment. This... fuck off, you had to do it on purpose. You remembered and I don't know if it was mockery or you wanted something from me. It's way too late now. I had a chance and I let it go because some people told me there was no such thing.

I don't like when Luke from The Outdoor Boys does videos with his family, I only like his solo stuff, kids are annoying and they get in the way.

>>32254720
I'll give YOU a chance pookie :*
;)

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I WILL get good at drawing and I WILL make a mind-blowing Visual Novel all by myself

>>32255192
We all start somewhere. All of your favourite artists' art was exactly like yours when they first started out, don't give up.

I was holding off an heroing because I didn't want it to make the local paper, but I can't do it anymore.

I haven't had friends in a decade.

>>32255192
Cute design, I like the lipstick

Just saw an inchworm outside, I got super hype.

I forget, did I shower yesterday or not?

i basically introduced an acquaintance to a girl and they started dating now he barely talks to me because he spends all of his time with her. i have an old friend i reconnected with and started talking to again but he doesn't really care for what i have to say and half-joked that he doesn't really want to talk to me. the only other person i really know is busy with his real life. i know it's all selfish, i miss working so i didn't have to sit with my thoughts. i started two new minecraft worlds today, in both i died and lost everything after hours of progress due to negligence. it felt very pointless, much like everything i do in the real world.

i wish i had never met you. i thought my life couldn't get any worse, but you managed to do it.
and, even like that, i still love you.

>>32255361
>i started two new minecraft worlds today, in both i died and lost everything after hours of progress due to negligence. it felt very pointless
I've always found vanilla Minecraft very pointless and boring, I think the game is only fun with mods.

Made a socially retarded friend, hear him out and encourage him to speak his mind more.
Don't want him to feel like he'd have big consequences for self advocating.
He had a habit of being passive aggressive, silently seething while pretending it was fine.
I felt a connection with this friend. We spent hours gaming and confiding in each other, and he showed empathy and appreciation that made the friendship feel genuine.
He disappeared for over 12 days without a word, last convo being a bit foreboding, I had sent msgs expressing concern, in summary "hope you're alright", some memes, "If something has happened, you're not alone. If you want to be, your space is respected but some confirmation that you're at the very least alive"
We were talking for months. This was concerning, especially because of how often he'd expressed loneliness, suicidal mentality.
Found out, 2 hours after that msg he posted his discord for other people to send him msgs.
Relieved he was okay, but I was upset and made it known.
When I said I hope his other friends were understanding, he said they were celebrating the recent release and sent a sc confirming he was ignoring.
He could've said "I should've said something to let you know I'd be gone a while. I didn't mean to worry you."
Instead, he was cold, called me stupid for being concerned.
I'm so pissed off because all it'd take for him to get whatever it is he wanted without issue was to say "can't be friends anymore" or "gonna be busy for a while."
He whined when people weren't empathetic towards him.
This friendship has reminded me that not everyone is willing or capable of real connection, no matter how much empathy or support you offer them.
I'll only invest in people who show they’re genuinely invested in themselves too, but currently I have little faith or ability to trust in people because of how wrong I got this person.
Part of me thinks he's actually enjoying it, laughing at me, and I'm even more of a fool for caring.

>>32255403
i used mods a lot as a kid. i guess i should go look at downloading some. i wonder what's changed. i used to use a lot of biome and mob mods, i liked additional creatures in the game.

>>32255412
Just have a sus at some modpacks and download whichever one seems best for you.

>>32255402
You're not alone, anon.

>>32255402
I used to be kind of in the same boat. I never even met her, I just came across her Instagram account and proceeded to get crippled by oneitis for nearly two months. I still think she's very attractive and I even tried hitting her up twice but it's clear she has no interest in me.

Just asked my mum if she's upset at the fact that me and her fiance just peacefully coexist instead of being a lot closer. She said no and that as long as we don't hate each other, she doesn't care. Interesting, that's not what I thought she'd say.

gonna kill myself methinks

my threads asking people about themselves get virtually no replies but porn threads get what feels like a million. i hate people so much.

>>32251742
I wish I had let all my exgirlfriends die.
I saved each of their lives at least once.
HUGE mistake.

>>32255767
>give detailed recap of my history and relevant information and a genuine ask for help
>get told to fuck myself
>2 replies
>just make a doomer thread
>way more replies including heartfelt effortpost
I don't even get it at this point man.

>>32255727
Is there any way I can help to prevent that, anon?

>>32255727
Me too. Soon, we will get to rest.

the only time i feel anything now is when i'm shaking off of amphetamines

>>32255767
do you wanna talk in this thread, anon? i think i missed it, i like talking to people in comfy threads

No I didn’t overdose on the fenbendazole I’m just bad at math.

>>32255727
I'm not one of those people who think stopping the game early is some horrible thing.

With that in mind, I will say that if you're under 30 it might be worth it to see how the first act of your story is going to go. Life is genuinely full of surprises, and you do only get one shot.

I don't know better

I love my girlfriend. She's very truly one a billion and I doubt I'd ever meet anyone who accepts me for who I am the way she has. She's kind, caring, is always in my corner and genuinely wants the best for me. As I do for her. And we're both in our 40s, so it's stunning that she came without any real baggage like kids.

But my sexual attraction towards her is minimal, she isn't really my body or face type. I assumed this stuff would just sort itself out just because she's so great to be around and in the past I've come around on people I wasn't attracted initially to but it hasn't really in our year of dating.

And it breaks my heart because I have to choose between being in a relationship with abundant love but little physical intrigue - or doing the right thing and letting her go, and realistically never finding a better situation.

My girlfriend only shows me the most vulnerable and intimate side of herself when I am roleplaying as a fictional character she fantasizes about. Last night I spoke with her as that man, changing my voice and behaviors to match his, and she behaved like a totally different person. Totally at ease, totally aroused, totally mine. But I am not him. She confessed her deepest love. She even told me that when she has sex with "me" that she waits for it to be over, but when she has sex with me (the character) she enjoys it, and feels horribly guilty for it.

Feels kind of terrible.

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I'm sorry for everything. I never knew things would get this fucking bad.
At the end of the day... this is all still my fault. I would give everything to beat up past me.

I wish I never started working out, now I have extreme body dysmorphia and I feel like I look like a retarded hulk

I don't get it

>>32253382
>I wish my “dad” would shoot me in the head and then shoot himself in the head.
No I don’t I just want people to stop breaking and entering. Don’t want to wonder if people are poisoning me or what with. Need a job.

>>32255883
I'm trying to quit amphetamines. The amount I use, it's only a matter of time before I get arrested or something.

at 29
I've wasted my entire 20's;

or at least not done enough given what I was given.

That has to redact all of That

>>32255914
i'm very sorry i didn't see this sooner. are you still around?

>>32256144
You should leave her.

It's true that I killed my soul, yet, I am not its murderer.

>>32256662
Who is?

>>32256537
no redacting allowed

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>>32256670
There are infinite answers to this question. God, parents, peers, the world.

>>32256694
Resurrect it then.

>>32256726
Make me.

>>32256730
Then stay a zombie I guess.

>>32256740
Thank you.

>>32256740
>>32256746
That's the most honest exchange I've ever seen on here.

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>like to watch game playthroughs
>male streamers
>"oh shit dude bro"
>nothing but 12-year-old humor, fart and dick jokes
>try too hard to be funny
>incapable of taking anything emotional/dramatic seriously
>female streamers
>can't stop preening in their camera
>can't stay off their phone
>can't pay attention
>incapable of taking anything emotional/dramatic seriously
I've found so few that I like. Most are insufferable.

Inside I'm feeling very manic but outside I act very cranky. My thoughts are a jumbled mess and so are my emotions. Am I going crazy?

>>32251742
I met my first love this year. I'm 35 years old. She has what they call BPD and just left one day to be with another guy the moment I tried to have a real conversation about working through our issues. Ghosted and blocked me for a few months. Then, she came back and tried to cheat on her new boyfriend with me. Ghosted again after that.

Most painful experience of my life. I was so good to her when we were together, and it didn't matter. I'm so mad I was and am incredibly attracted to such a destructive person. Nothing heals the pain - directly sharing my thoughts and feelings (prior to the ghosting), going no contact, doing other things. It takes a long long time to really work these things out of the system and I'm too old for this shit.

Of the 20 or so friends and family I've discussed this person with in detail, not a single person has told me to accept this person back if they come back, with the exception of my mother who is slightly more open-minded. But I'm afraid because I know I'd take her back and give it one more chance, and I'd get hurt again, because despite everything...I want to believe.

>>32257174
Stuff like this is why I don't no longer advocate for men. How can you help people who are hellbent on destroying themselves?

>>32257174
>because despite everything...I want to believe.
No, you're just desperate. The girl is trash, and the fact that you would still want to be with her after she tried to cheat on someone else is insane.
>20 people told me wash my hands of her but my mom said it's okay so maybe
You're never going to get what you want out of her. Nothing you do for her will ever be enough. Move on and find someone else.

>>32257174
>with the exception of my mother who is slightly more open-minded
That's all it took, huh? Disregarding everyone else's advice in favor of the one who just told you what you wanted to hear.

>>32257180
You are right to point out that it is my responsibility to not be self destructive in this situation. In the end one must advocate for themselves in the arena of love.
>>32257183
I don't think I'm desperate, nor do I think the girl is trash, but I agree with the rest.
>>32257198
I accept advice but make allowance for my own thoughts and feelings. And I'm well aware of the pitfalls here and the rational, healthy response in this case.

I've done and am doing all of the things. I've taken up exercise, improved my diet, started dating others, travelled, went no contact and removed reminders of this person from my life. I keep busy trying to better myself. But in the twilight hours, because the brain is a messy thing, sometimes this person will pop up from time to time in my consciousness, and I wanted to honor the memory of someone I did love, knowing they were damaged and imperfect, but not really understanding the depth of that damage until it was too late.

its hard to cope with the fact that ill never find the kind of love in this world that i yearn for. its a concept that only exists fictionally and it has ruined me for reality. not that love should be what im worrying about when i havent so much has had a friend the last 15 years. living in the real world would be a lot easier if i has anything to ground me to it.

Having a small dick is so demoralizing but I'm a loser khv anyway so it doesn't matter that much.

https://vocaroo.com/11hZyrg2Lq79

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how the hell do you move on/don't let it bother you from stupid shit you said when you were a teen/young adult?

i'll die before i go on any of the dating apps. maybe if i keep getting out i'll meet someone

>Chatting up a Japanese chick.
>I only look good with a beard.
>Asian chicks notoriously don't like beards, especially Japanese chicks.
>What to do?

I know I troll and larp about fetishes but the truth is I'm actually extremely "boring" as the normies say and want to see the reactions I get from people after baiting them. :(

>>32257693
the only reason I still play lol is to flame based on server - if I'm on US, it'll be some political candidate name with right/left shitflinging, if I'm on EUNE its always a safe bet to shit on poles, if I'm on EUW it's gonna be something like "nill kiggers"

I enjoy the reactions

I'm starting to look at dating apps like tinder, but they feel like shit and don't give me anything. It's so superficial. Is that normal or am i making that up?

im a bad christian

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Get the hog troff hog slop in the hog troff

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U get the rito yogurt and burrito

>>32257843
Why u think that?

>>32257843
What is a good Christian?

i think we will win against BOX COLLIN
898899899889999998999
THAT
you have now seen test for any of this it is
THAT
the baby queen slime centipede will get to record the grape sound album. the baby tarantula will get to record the shrub sound album.

this site is full of people decades older than me but that are worse off than me
it's kinda fucked

That has to redact any Fake Music News articles.

>>32258162
How old are you?

>>32258237
20

I should have recognized the BPD red flags from the get go

Flattery feels good, but if its too good to be true...it probably is

>>32257693
Why do you do that? Why not just be yourself?

Don't fuck prostitutes. If you don't pay them then ok. Don't fund sex trafficking. That's not good that's a very cruel industry. Prostitutes who are forced to do sex work do their jobs only because they fear for their lives + their families lives. If they walked out of their jobs they'd be killed.

Piece of shit neighbors don't pick up their dogs shits

"Bawww being an immigrant is so hard please be respectful I have emotions too!"
Well it was already hard living before you and your constant nagging for attention came along!

It's so frustrating when I awaken to some mental concept and can't figure out if I'm ahead of the game or late to the party

I once prayed to god to give me an anime girlfriend

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life treats me well and yet I can't get through that feeling it sucks. nothing can satisfy me or motivate me.

I'm not afraid of doing things I already do, I'm afraid of changing things. I'm afraid of shaking things up.

>>32258510

If I could just get to that circuit in my brain that fires when I think about doing something different , it'd be like taking the parking brake off your car

I hate that when people say "Don't care what other people think about you." they mean about things like preferring Burger King to McDondalds and not "I think women should be have no rights and be completely subjugated to men"

>>32258508

You should try drugs, I'm on painkillers right now and holy shit, life is beautiful

>>32258534
They do mean the latter. Nice sarcasm captain obvious

Today I thought of something and got sad. Jesus Christ, am i actually healing?

5'6 for a man is not classed as a "manlet". I can't stress this enough. I am masculine.

>>32258696
It is a manlet anon

>>32258696
as long as you're taller than the chick you're flirting with your height is fine. they act like brats if you're the same height as them

Apparently if u have any medical documentation of depression your doctor will refuse to prescribe sleeping pills and push antidepressants in alternative. Their system is like “we want u to feel like u can talk about depression if u need to but if u do we will take away every preferred suicide method away from u, so u better not talk about it”. Brilliant.

Does pissing on the floor, reaching for a security guard’s gun during a suicidal episode and repeatedly demanding not to be resuscitated qualify someone for psychosis? Other than that I have no idea why i received that diagnosis at the first hospital. I was lying about my name during the caravanbecause I thought I was supposed to because I thought I was part of a cia recruitment program but they didn’t know that. When David gave me the picture of an owl I thought I was supposed to switch my middle name to owl because it sounds like owl. Idk dude. They gave me absolutely no evaluation whatsoever before diagnosing me with psychosis. Then I get fucked with for months on end after I left the hospital and thought if I told Dr. Vaznev the truth about internal dialogue then I could receive clarity and everything would go back to normal. That just caused me to end up being diagnosed with schizophrenia, something I always avoided talking about because I wanted the right to own a firearm but I was backed into a corner and fucked until I tried everything I could just to stop receiving lies from people. Nothing has changed. I just get fucked.

Or did I receive a diagnosis of psychosis for drawing crayon on the wall? Or was it after I ran for the exit door unclothed in the middle of the night just to be tackled by four+ security guards and wheeled back to the psyche room? Told them I didn’t feel safe in there. Why would I? First day there the nurse told me I should go in the neighbor’s room because “there’s a pretty girl in there” I didn’t bother checking but it happened to be a tall, killer looking man instead. Gee I wonder why they did that. Then the voodoo lady who wheeled me to the alternative room right before I tried to escape had a really scary vibe. Thought they were going to castrate me.

They diagnosed me with psychosis before I even received an evaluation, before anyone interviewed with me or anything.

When escorts say that they're independent in their ads they're often forced to say that they're independent. Don't fund sex trafficking that's a cruel business. Basically those women sell sex only because pimp's gun is forced to their head and they're afraid to death. Genuinely independent prostitutes are a rarity. Don't pay for sex to escorts.

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You need me way more than I need you.

People who pay for sex are the worst. Don't fund sex trafficking. Those sex paying lowlife cockroaches.

>>32259006
based anon

I shaved my head outside. Wiped all the hair off me, shook it off. Spent a whole day in the rv fully aware that there was no hair on the floor, as there wouldn’t be because I knew I removed it all from myself anyway before entering. Go to the gas station at line 2 or 3am and come back to a clump of my hair on the floor. Someone else certainly left it there, obviously for some kind of voodoo shit to assert dominance and scare me. Ring the door bell fifty times and nobody answers. They say they didn’t hear the door bell the next day. “Mom” insists more than once in separate occasions that I must have made a mistake and dragged it in the rv. No i fucking didn’t. Same ahit with the pink shower scrubby that just suddenly appeared. Same with how I asked her how many times she put estrogen in the food and she gave me a wicked look and threw up a triple sic hand gesture. She’s fucking crazy dude.

My “parents” are both relentlessly complicit in my mental deterioration and I don’t know why this type of evil is authorized to have freedom.

They took advantage of my weakness any time they had the opportunity.

>>32259136
>>32259141
>>32259150
You come off as mentally unwell to the point where I don't believe your parents could possibly have caused all of it. Seek professional help.

>>32258969
Is that the point of it? For leverage?

maybe so but i could need you like air and still refuse to breathe its the choice we all got bro

>>32259172
Well professional help would be more like Feds doing their fucking job, I’m clearly targeted. All I want is for people to stop breaking into my domain and playing head games with me. Seems apparent as well that everything I do on my phone is shared to everyone in my community so people take advantage of that too. Strangers know more about me than they should. When I go to the hospital they shouldn’t lie to me about not having hydrogen peroxide or denying me water or telling me they don’t have alcohol wipes around them or make me wait hours on end for ointment. Security and nurses shouldn’t be detaining me against my will while police have no obligation to enforce such. They shouldn’t be lying to me about “I don’t know if we have your possessions anymore, u weren’t supposed to escape” type of shit. They shouldn’t draw blood and leave the needle stuck in my arm and then take away my antibiotics and then refuse to give them back. Tell me they can’t treat me because I didn’t sign paperwork and then put their hands on me to keep me there. Paramedics put me in an ambulance and then refuse to drive me somewhere because I refuse to sign paperwork and then drop me off a few random blocks away. Paramedics who also apparently don’t have alcohol wipes. All kinds of dumb shit. Letting some asshole bounce their ball off the hospital wall all night and then gaslight me into believing I imagined it and never happened.

I think that I would agree that hurting yourself for attention is not great content. Like maybe if you just want that life experience then that's interesting but if it's about numbers then that's just sad

I don't like pain or seeing people in pain or content of people getting hurt and some people just like that and it boggles me. Puffer fish carrot really bothers me

Told the nurses to stop abusing a patient, they were being forceful with her for no good reason I could determine and I casually told them to chill. Nurse tells me to get back in my room so I pointed the no no finger at them. That led to several security in my room forcing another antipsychotic shot. All they care about is u being quiet and taking their shit. I don’t need psyche meds, they are toxic.

>>32259263
I was completely calm too. Barely disruptive.

>>32259263
Actually I think I simply asked why they were doing that to her. Then the finger after they told me to go in my room. All I did.

The only person I've felt like I could moderately trust these last years is in prison and he was a rather forward person so obviously he scared me a little because I'm a sensitive baby man

i don't eat at all and i feel bad from the drugs. i just want it to kill me already.

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i should be getting off of risperidone within the next month. i hate to act like a girl in a discord vent channel but i hate that i was so naive and didnt realize that jewdrug has made me want to kill myself every day for like 2 1/2 years.

it's an antipsychotic, one of the most powerful ones, and they prescribed it to me for "irritability associated with autism". im not denying that i got angry sometimes, but i finally did some research and asked some friends and they told me it's complete fucking poison. i dont have schizophrenia, im not bipolar, yet those fuckers put me on it when i was fucking 16 just because id get angry sometimes. i hate psychiatry jews so much, i hate mental health grifter niggers, i hate myself for not wanting to do even the slightest of research into what that shit was. oh and i have to take another antipsychotic just to keep my fucking prolactin down. yeah prolactin, the shit that controls fucking breast milk production. feel free to laugh because it's genuinely hilarious, i cant believe we're at this fucking point. oh and this shit takes years off of your life expectancy too.

god i cant believe im saying this but this is the first time i've ever wanted to actually load up a 10mm and kill myself. i have no plans on doing it but still.

>>32259172
What anon is probably saying is they want me to live 5150

>>32259324
They put me on that and it basically just took away all of my emotions and left me with a burst of energy. I was pacing all around the house trying to feel something and was unable to. It also causes young boys to develop boobs.
https://youtu.be/omj3D2_8r3s?si=e0qGkXwWsNWlAH83

Only time I used psyche meds outside of the hospital was hydroxyzine and lithium for a few months, only consumed a portion of the initial prescriptions. The resperidone lasted for a few hours after I left the hospital one time. I couldn’t sleep while taking it even with sleeping pills on top of it. Haldol just leaves u feeling like there’s a wet towel on the top of your brain and makes basic functioning and thinking feel more difficult.

Before my episode where I was convinced that I was being targeted with coded language January 2023 I was considering antidepressants for a few weeks and I feel like an idiot for it because I hate the way they make me feel.

>>32259359
thats exactly how i feel, completely empty. i even started stealing my sister's ritalin just so i could be happy for like an hour or two every once in a while. i haven't felt naturally in a good mood in years, it's either "meh" or im pissed/sad/whatever
i feel like im retarded now too. in 7th grade i was invited to take the SAT for some gifted program, but when i graduated high school i didn't even take precal because it was too hard. every day i also just feel restless and like i need to do something but dont know what it is.
>>32259407
the funny thing is that my father was on haldol when he was a kid in the 80s (not sure if it was related to his tourettes or not) and it made him want to kill himself too. i dont know why he let them put me on these pills, im not angry at him just really disappointed. sorry if this is all incoherent
i hate these fucking pills so much

They want to monetize and censor your thoughts that u keep to yourself. They try harder when your thoughts become words that u share and it interfere’s with crooked interests and agendas. World is fucked.

I hate me, now you hate me too.
Is this what I wanted?

I’m quite familiar with psychiatric treatment and it’s even worse than I always anticipated.

>>32251742
I’m getting a drive to Hali on Wednesday!! (:

After seeing that photograph of supposed Freemasons posing around a castrated individual and all of the speculation surrounding them, nobody should be surprised that I thought I might be castrated for talking about them. I don’t worry about secret societies or “brotherhoods” anymore but I’m not the only one concerned about that type of stuff. It’s not paranoia, it’s called being legitimately concerned.

Re:Zero is overrated and any time Rem or Ram or Emilia is not on screen is a waste of screentime.

>>32259458
You can still fix things.

>>32259491
I’m happy for u limerencegirlfriend. Sometimes I come here to read people’s misfortune and it makes me feel better about my life and how it could be worse and some people seem to be really upset and spiteful about that but I also like reading posts like this. Hope u have a good time.

>I'll never be a navy seal

I should just kill my self wtf I'm just a pussy godamnit

>>32259512
I pray that you're right. I'll do everything I can.

People at treatment really did treat me well even if they knew what was up and I didn't trust them. Probably helped that there was a common enemy who was just actually a way fucking worse person than me.

>>32259494
My rural community was founded by Jesuits in the 1830's, no joke. It's even on the wiki page.

>>32259518
a real navy seal would write a book about it

>>32251906
No. That’s why you need a thread. So your own ideas don’t happen.

>>32259508
It's pretty bad yeah I watched all of it before any of this new season stuff and it's just very odd waifu wars beetlegeuse VA is goated tho

>>32259536
Hot cat boy I guess

>>32259524
What are you going to do first?

>>32259517
Thanks (:
I hope all goes well for you too

>>32259526
Patients at treatment put me on trial and tried to trigger reactions out of me. Staff likely knew but didn’t care. They also just made shit up. Pat came to me with “u said u don’t like black people” when all I said was “I’m scared of black people” because I wanted a room with someone else. The black guy ended up being one of the only cool ones there and the guy I switched for told me I saved myself in a threatening manner when I tried to make it seem like it was just simple “hackers” and not something else. Andy threatened to beat me to death with a steel toe boot (which he shouldn’t have even possessed) because I didn’t flush the toilet and then they refused to put me into a different room after I explained me concern. I had to return a day later and explain that I think there were rats in the wall and it could be a hazard. One patient tried to convince me that I was part of a government sexploitation scheme. Another said “fool me three times, no shame” after talking about spirit cooking. After one of the patients busted out of the room and punched me in the head the other patient was doing hand signals pointing at the door of that same patient who they just locked inside. That was weird.

>>32259540
It has some things going for it but every time the library girl is on screen I just wanna watch something else.
>"...I suppose."
Motherfucker what? What is this shit?
I never thought I'd hate hearing 2B's VA so much but god damn this shit annoys the hell out of me.
If that char was deleted the series would be better. Same can be said with all the kids delete all the chars that aren't over 4' tall and the show might get good.

>>32259588
A lie I told to be swapped into a safer room. Wasn’t lying when I told them I flushed something because I thought I was supposed to. I thought I wasn’t supposed to leave dna or fingerprints so I went to the cafeteria every day with sick mittens and wiped off the utensils before returning them. Also why I drew crayon on the wall, I was putting my location down mixed in with nonsense.

>>32259599
I'm a degenerate fuckhead so it speaks to me. It's why I watch a lot of shit even if I think it's garbage. Harem shit and the like.

>>32251742
I will be homeless again, because that’s what feels most natural. Housing feels like an extra layer of skin that I can’t breathe through.

>>32259588
I'm sorry your experience wasnt so stellar. I kept to myself mostly and had few problems. Basically the only thing really wrong was everyone being assholes to each other outside of my periphery and lots of farting.

>>32259659
Lotta instability, got latched on to a little but by a guy who I immediately knew was no good and basically like every one friend I've ever had who latches on to me and treats me like shit.

>>32259666
I play the part. I say whatever they want to hear. I don't invest anything into it.

>>32259653
It seems freedom of movement exists, until it’s actually practiced. Social services tried to have me under government custody for wanting this unconventional way of life, but funnily enough it was the social services who later kicked me out of my house, so I had no choice but to become homeless. Funny how that works

>>32259588
He was doing hand signals towards the nurses and then put his hands down and looked startled when he noticed me looking at him. Went back into his room, he was barely poking outside of it and then went back inside. They also gave me a crossword book with a $100,000 life insurance check that I tore up and flushed.

>>32259673
Some people see that I'm a conflict averse person and know how to take advantage of it. So even if theyre being a fuckhead and I don't like it I just say whatever I need to get out of it. He didn't make it through treatment which probably meant harsher sentencing. All in all ends well. K**** hope you're okay

>>32259677
There is a restlessness in my heart, and when I stay in the same place, my energy stagnates and rots. My energy becomes corrosive, and sticks to me like rust.

I think that when you don’t give your energy an outlet, it will escape through the cracks. I’m at the point where I’ve suppressed my energy for so long, that it’s almost spilling over, and that is very dangerous. If you don’t burn off your energy, it will burn you later. I tried to channel my energy in a constructive way today. I went outside to do 3 reps of jumping jacks, and cleaned part of my room, but then I just ended up smashing stuff. When you use your energy for the first time in awhile, it can be very hard to control

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>>32251742
I'm a people pleaser and I can't break up
As you have read I can't put and end to my relationship
It's not because my partner is blackmailing me or anything, but rather because whenever I talked about it we would discuss, and she would cry really badly, and I would feel so miserable, anxious and desperate for it to be over that I actually give into her pleads

I actually love and care for her, but I learned more about myself this year and I found out I want to have my free time to myself and live the youth I was depriving myself from for so long
It breaks my heart to want this, but it's my life, and I cannot bear to deceive myself for others anymore

>>32259712
I’m so full of energy that I’m just being driven by it

I was very close to stabbing myself in the stomach, but I didn’t because I diffused it.

Christ.

I don't even really like her. She's average in bed, childish, holds grudges and has incompatible life goals.

Why am I even bothering with this? The sex sucks. I don't find her that interesting. Man.

Never should have mistreated May. Or let her mistreat me. Why do women bring so much chaos into my life?

>>32259745
Pls don’t stab yourself, silly. U are not a piñata.

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Getting tired of seeing this bitch.

>>32259745
I’ve accepted that my days here are numbered, and I’d rather walk away on good terms. I don’t know how to control myself, and that is a problem. I just want to avoid going to jail.

>>32259746
you deserve what you tolerate i guess if you want more stop selling yourself for less

Kade was just a dickhead.

Counselor asked me if the trees were talking to me. It's one of those breeches of the filter that remind me that no one is on my side despite appearances.

>>32259759
I’m not planning on it
Hopefully not
It’s more likely I’ll go feral

my bf has an interview tomorrow morning at 10am near me for a new job so he can move in eventually but he keeps doing interviews for jobs that are just sales positions and shit instead of jobs relevant to his current experience and I think he's being stupid about it, he shouldn't even consider anything that doesn't basically give him a raise from his current position where he was already promoted. Myself I'm a neet and don't even want to move him in until I have a job of my own. And he's all go go go go go about applying and shit but again not smartly. And the last job interview I had a month and a half ago went nowhere and I'm being slow about it. I just told him my concerns and he's like I’ll stop looking for a job then and not even go to the interview tomorrow. and I'm like honestly that might be a good idea. Then he had to go back to work. We've only been together 5 months and this is just moving way too fucking fast for me. I honestly would love just a weekend to myself where I could watch anime and not have to entertain him and I am sick of wiping his hairs off my bathroom floor. I just don't have the zest for life that's required in a gf right now I basically just want to drink beer and call people faggots on 4chan I don't want to work and play house

>>32259713
If you don't enjoy your time with the woman, dump her or discuss ways to make your time together more enjoyable.
If you wanna create a gooncave and jerk off on anime figures every day of the week let her know and if she's not okay with it let that be an issue. If she is okay with it, she'll either let you have your goon cave or she'll help you clean your figures up and gobble your knob when you're done, and you can fuck her normally on the weekends.

Stop being retarded.
Make it work or don't.
Don't just leave things in limbo.

>>32259815
Were they talking to you?

I don't know what to do

>>32251742
I AM SUICIDE. I AM THE UNLORD

>>32259853
No they were not. Just lookin at trees.

>>32259867
Round the lake. Near the graveyard. Surrounded by meth addicts.

>>32251742
“Our existence seems to be looking forward. Yet we only fall behind. We save the world just to save ourselves. False sincerity dies with time. The type of life we all wish to lead is lacking morals by design. I'm looking for a future. I dream of hope. I'll take whatever I can find. What will become of the human race? Do we see this world burning(feel it burn). What makes it so seductive to lead a life that's self destructive? Burning. We act so ashamed, yet we don't change. We only feed the flame. What will become of the human race? Do we see this world burning(feel it burn). We retreat to avoid the madness. The madness we've constructed. We ignited the fires, now we feed the flames of a planet we've abducted. In too deep now we race with time and we try to be productive, but we won't sacrifice how we live our lives. So we are only self destructive”

https://youtu.be/FaaOT7LH7oM?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/3LoZlbZfzb0?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/eMd9EebtMdU?feature=shared

>>32259884
Many of witch were fathers and you know damn well I have to right to judge but I just think it's not really quite right to be both a father and whacked out on meth all the time and the one guy we all did not like was the very pinnacle of that idea. My hopes to every other one of them

>>32259853
Honestly, at night sometimes they ask me "Who?" but I don't know what they're talking about. I try to ignore it but I can't help but wonder why they're asking me that question.

>>32259892
Even the guy who was no good and latched on to me, if anything for the sake of his kids

>Think to myself "Oooh, I'll buy and fix up one of those abandoned houses in Japan and live there.
>Buy house.
>Fix it up.
>Every other white person had the same idea so now I'm living amongst white people instead of Japanese people.
>I may as well have stayed at home.
Now, this didn't happen to me, but that's exactly how it would go.

>>32259890
https://youtu.be/Vi-YWiidmTE?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/DnaJOGFWoVA?feature=shared

“I will not be a product of this society, I will see my dreams and visions standing right in front of me,
And I’ll never let them go, ‘cause they’ll lead me to my Lord. Vision into action, To live your life like anger into passion, All of my life, Vision into action, To live your life like anger into passion, Don’t throw it all away”

https://youtu.be/GhWujQj0L5w?feature=shared

I would make such a laughably horrible mother, I can barely restrain my rage at my dogs. If I had a baby I would 100% beat the shit out of it and murder it and throw it in the great lakes. Every time I get my period I praise God. Can't wait for menopause

>>32259949
https://youtu.be/TTnjiYIc7wU?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/HqEGTb9aO88?feature=shared

I suppose you'll just keep endlessly trying to harm me. If you want me dead, just say that.

>>32259978
Those are the good kind tho.

>>32259989
I don’t want anything bad to happen to you

>>32259992
You keep taunting me and telling me to harm myself. How come? I understand you're angry with me but we are both adults now, you can always find a way to talk to me directly.

>>32259990
My mom is exactly like me and her wild mood swings made my child and teen and now adulthood hell. at 60 she is now also super childish and regressed into party girl ways. While raising me she pretended to be fucking amish and prudish and screamed at me for wearing anything tighter than a sack

>>32260013
I’ve never told you to harm yourself, I would never want you to do that

It's not my problem you chose to lose your virginity to a bpd alcoholic maybe don't be such a man slut. You were just one among many for me

>>32260023
It's fine if that is what you truly want, I know I have no purpose in the world and I never did. I tried to leave to rid you and others of the burden that is me but if you really want me to take the next step, I think I will soon.

How the fuck do I make friends as an adult without seeming creepy or whatever? I’m 5ft 1 female

>>32260047
I don’t think I’m the person that you’re talking about but don’t kill yourself, whoever you are

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>>32260057
>5'1 female
I like how you think this is more relevant than age

>>32260057
Why? Just stop it. Why do you hate me so much?

>>32260075
I don’t hate you

>>32260069
I’m 22 years old? What the fuck else do you need my location too/j.

>>32251742
On November 6th, I'm gone, mission over. idc what what happens to anyone here or there or anywhere. Die for all I care. Only a few of you were good to me. I will always be loyal to those, the rest you will get exactly what you deserve! I hope it burns for eternity, I hope you suffer immensely for what you've done.

>>32260078
I didn't do anything to you, never with ill intent.

>>32260089
You aren’t the person I’m thinking of

>>32260085
Honestly still not enough info, are you in school? City or country? You social or more reserved?

>>32260099
who are you thinking of? initials please

>>32260137
I can’t give his initials

>>32260142
why? what if it's me

>>32260107
City, very reserved. I have a better time speaking through text than in person

>>32260145
You aren’t him he doesn’t use all lower case like that

>>32260153
it's me, honey
believe to me, you can't lie about my typing habits

yes i am also big bug

>>32260161
FUCK YEAH

>>32251742
If you vote for Trump, then I believe that you're a bad person. Oh, you may act nice enough on the outside, but deep down you have to hold views I consider abhorrent in order to vote for that man. Your values are alien to me, and frankly disturbing. I will be as polite as necessary but we will never be friends.

Unlike these women who receive caustic shit from scummy loony fucking idiots all of the time, I'm not above anything anyone might say to me

I wonder who I schizoposted with three years ago.

Finally had that pizza. The orange juice was better somehow though

>>32259840
>Don't just leave things in limbo.
Thanks, I need that.

i always feel like a failure. just the other day, i decided to be proactive and buy the supplies needed to do an oil change on my car rather than waiting to get the stuff on a weekend. i wound up getting the wrong type of oil and felt like such a fool.

i'm trying to look at the bright side by emphasizing that i took the initiative and didn't wait around to get the stuff but i still made a stupid mistake which took time to correct.

i dunno... it just feels like i'm not really ever good at anything at times.

you are hallucinating and the most inundated with getting asked to not decline regarding anything and are actually sitting through a hallucination that has a name of
c ' ' Faggot Armageddon ' '
you would start doing that again and saying That is wrong over and over again you literally are that far from a starting point of that you are actually literally in a hallucination that has a name of
c ' ' Faggot Armageddon ' '

>>32260157
>believe to me
wtf does this even mean? you aren’t him

THAT HOLE LIKE IN WHISKEYTOWN LAKE WITH CEMENT LITERALLY IS NOT ACTUALLY THERE LITERALLY YOU ARE HALLUCINATING LITERALLY YOU ARE HALLUCINATING IT MEANS SOMETHING ELSE

>>32260192
it's me

>>32260200
You. Are. Not. Him. He doesn’t use all lowercase like that

>>32260187
The part in Armageddon where he says "He's got space dementia" is really very funny it really is a very absurd movie just very cheesy and a good laugh

>>32260203
don't lie to me

>>32259978
I wonder if this is directed at me..

If I compromised on my future, I wouldn’t have one. The only way forward, is forward. I don’t believe my anger issues are a death sentence. I think that I am capable of change, and healing. Also, I don’t see myself as being at risk of harming my future children.

>>32260169
Cuckhold

>>32260215
You aren’t him, I’m not lying to you about anything. Stop fucking responding to me. He does not type like you.

>>32260219
The word is cuckold, and I'm not. But even if I was that wouldn't be a bad thing. This is what I'm talking about. You're incapable of "live and let live."

ya like literally i ' m not making this up i understand you think that hole there like in whiskeytown lake with cement is funnu because you don't like
\ Wave Runners
\ Better Oblivion Community Center
ya like literally i guess like for a reason that like you like make jokes of cement deceasing That and like literally so like that hole like in whiskeytown lake that like with cement is literally you HALLUCINATING ya that means That like whatever you hear means something else and like literally you are nor currently warping That in cement there over and over again though i would let you know that literally that like hole in whiskeytown lake like where it was like perfect cement is a hallucination ya

>>32260229
>But even if I was that wouldn't be a bad thing

>>32260226
don't.
lie.
to.
me.!!!!

>>32260169

> but deep down you have to hold views I consider abhorrent in order to vote for that man.

You think MUCH too much of yourself, like all lefties. You are low IQ and don't know anything about politics or history. Typical of the left.

>>32260238
None of this is coherent and that's the point probably

>>32260218
Also, the notion I would beat or kill my children, is utterly abhorrent. I don’t have dogs either, and for the record, I don’t hurt my cat

I just feel like this post might be mocking me, and if that’s not the case, I’m sorry for responding to it. I have been taunted here before.

If you are a cuckhold, then I believe that you're a bad person. Oh, you may act nice enough on the outside, but deep down you have to hold views I consider abhorrent in order to let other men fuck your wife. Your values are alien to me, and frankly disturbing. I will be as polite as necessary but you will never be a woman

>>32260256
As is typical of conservatards, you are accusing me of things (ignorance and arrogance) that you yourself are actually guilty of.

>>32260271
You have the Chaplin disease

>>32260253
I’m not lying to you you fucking annoying schizo. Stop replying to my posts and leave me the fuck alone.

>>32260265
I have a lot to change, sure, but recovery is not impossible. If the time comes to have children, and I‘m not healed, I won’t have them. But there’s still have time

>>32260282
Please kys tonight. Don't want you surviving to election day tomorrow.

>>32260283
why are you hate me so much? :-(

Well done. Now send me some love songs like in the old days when I thought you were someone else

>>32260267
No one cares, bot.

literally i ' m not making that up literally there is a medical team and literally you weren't actually doing something and literally there is a medical team WOW THAT KNOWS HOW YOU TALK THEN LITERALLY I GUESS THAT KNOWS HOW YOU TALK THEN ABOUT BOX COLLIN THEN AND WHATEVER VOICE YOU KEPT USING ABOUT BOX COLLIN WOW LITERALLY YES LITERALLY THAT VOICE YOU JUST DID IS LITERALLY HOW YOU KEPT MAKING FUN OF BOX COLLIN LITERALLY SOMEONE IS HELPING YOU. LITERALLY I AM NOT MAKING THIS UP THERE IS A MEDICAL TEAM THANK YOU .

>>32260295
You are a slimy cuck lefty jew queer
Leftists are evil incarnate

>>32260295
Typical leftie, I bet you're a pervert too.

>>32260303
uhhh....
To the town of Agua Fria rode a stranger one fine day
Hardly spoke to folks around him, didn't have too much to say
No one dared to ask his business, no one dared to make a slip
For the stranger there among them had a big iron on his hip
....?

>>32260303
Who did you think I was?

>>32260298
stop responding to me, you irritating ESL schizo

>>32260267
This is very funny to me. It is very funny to take such a strong stance against cuckholding.

>>32260323
My internet crush but I was delusional

>>32260329
it's my first language fucker!!! i'm just dyslexic

>>32260333
Would you trust a cuckhold around your children?

There are a lot of well-known politicians flirting with me.

yes so what would happen is someone would ask you to explain how all of that cement is in a lake and like a skyscraper

>>32260320
Perfect.

>>32260087
bye kamala

>>32260355
thank you, thank you! i'm here all day

>>32260341
Dude I am never fucking ever having children and that's a good thing that I like. I am not ever bringing anyone into this fucking mess.

yes i love phoebe lucille bridgers schumacher :)
and just what it was is that phoebe lucille bridgers isn't actually a celebrity or famous. and literally what it was is that literally that music has never actually gotten non commercially introduced yet or commercially introduced yet. i just understand that hreev species exists and that hrij species exists and that literally big bugs exist and that what it is Jwhat is that yes i am human and also a big bug. i literally have a name of kiji and leshe and wiji and griji!

>>32260334
Oh okay. I won't post anymore songs, except this (not for you, I'm sure, just flirting back with someone):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61-RycNKdJk

>>32260376
Austin how are you doing. Are you safe.

>>32260359
Let's hope she is gone. Nice try though.

yes australia exists that means you austin schumacher have a wife.

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>>32260367
What mess? You mean the lefty mess?

>>32260303
I thought I was someone else too
I’m really really sick right now

I know I never sent you love songs per-say, and you never liked me that way, but everything is amplified in my mind, so I feel like there is a chance this could be addressed to me. Sometimes I think you liked me too, before I disappointed you

>>32260378
Amazing

>>32260399
What happened?How did you disappointed them?

>>32260396
When you juxtapose it like this it really makes you wonder why anybody would support leftism