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Took 50μg 1P-LSD an hour ago, I didn't want to trip very hard after years of not taking LSD, maybe another time I will take a large dose
>>203027050submarine
>>203027244What do you mean?
anyone have a link to the big milkers op from earlier today?
>>203026687Have you seen the Xiaomi 14T bro
>>203026687Want to throw this kike into an oven
>no tendies>streets are floodedguess i'll eat pringles
rusk gave me bibisi-sized logs
>>203028172eat shit lol
>>203028468classic rasha post
>>203027334He wants to say you are a subhuman without getting banned you confused junkie
>>203027050oofwhy did I do this to myselfI know it lasts like 10-12 hours in total
>>203029776Do sober october with us, dzanki
From this
>>203027334You are a subhuman
for bulgarians, not drinking for a month is a challenge.
To this. I need to eat all so I can grow big and beat more than 4 gypsies alone
>psychologytok corrupted my fyp
>>203030425where's shrooms though
>>203030423Burning the bridge with cigarette smoking status?
>>203026532looking great stefan
for krasnoburyatsk, not obsessing with Bulgaria for a day is an impossible task
I think I overeat a bit
>>203030609I literally haven't spoken to bulgars or about bulgarism for 2 or 3 weeks in august bro
>>203030692What is there for fun to do in krasnoblyatzki? I just check out and the city has 1 milion people living in
>>203030839>a siberian village has more people than the albaboonian capital
>>203030839the fuck do I know about having fun?
>>203030995You said you even had girlfriend years ago so you must know something
>>203030222But it's already October
dead general without kelly chimping out every 5 minutes
>>203031051interacting with womenoids is the opposite of fun
I unironically started to buy 1l beer bottle like boomers do. The sign of getting old.
Thinking about wasting 100 euro on pic related
>>203031698bumology is the only thing that's been sustaining this general for the past 4 years
>>203031761Where do you even get 1l bottles except in American movies
>>203031790Can't decide between these two layouts doe
pizza after a workout and a shower
>>203031761>1LThat's the descending curve for boomers broYoungins start with 2L, then 2x2L, then 3x, etc.Then once you're old and fat you get cirrhosis you "stop" by "only" buying 1L bottles every night
>>20303193210 dollar dell keyboard, ez
>>203032031It's like a blacksmith spending extra for a hammer he uses every single day but instead of cool things like forging it's codemaymunry
>>203031790>>203031932>no numpadgarbage
>>203032192bumpad haha
>>203032192Haven't had a numpad in 10 years Useless desk space
>>203032177what switches
once chat control™ happens you will post on bumgal chan und you vil vi happy
>>203032272>desk spaceinvest those 100 euros into a table that isn't made for children
>>203032296Either Gateron Jupiter Banana or Gateron Jupiter Brown Leaning towards Banana as I saw a reddit thread praise them higly
>>203032354Bro I don't need or use a numpad
>>203032392The poverty of your creativity is astounding.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNrVpDwW4BIThis is SOVL.
>If you prefer a different peripheral to me it means that you lack a soul
>>203032392low iq
>>203032192this>>203032272deskcel>>203031794so true, bumking
I want the greek high on lsd to post
>>203031978dominos msg is great but i make better pizza than anyone from scratch so i do this instead
>posting your preferences on balkmoon kritikar general on a kritikar website so every single fiber of your tastes can be picked apart, examined under a microscope and shat on
>>203033132it's because the average balkmun is starved for attention, even being criticized counts as attention
>>203033132I won doe as I will have a 100 euro keyboard whilst the 10 dollar dellcells seethe
>go to dinner with friends>meet up with different friends for a beer>get home to take a shower and shit before going out to drink>WHAT ? YOU SAID DOMINOS>YOU FUCKING ATTENTION STARVED INCEL>mfw
>>203033132He thinks we forgot about his humilliation with the wooden mechanical keyboards costing 600+ euros.
>>203033297I won then as well Don't remember what doe
>>203033297he didn't even buy themwhat a fakecel
>wait until 30+ to get a full beard suffering through the patchcell years>beard is so thick that it won't stay put in place and gets in my mouth more often than bumgarians have dicks in their mouth(almost all the time)Just can't win.
>>203033132thoughts on 6.5k titanium bike?
>>203033427You just look Albanian bro
>>203033427post your schizo papers
>>203033427>beard is so thick>won't stay put in placethick beards don't move around bro, just trim your mustache so it doesn't go into your mouth
mechanical keyboards are such a shitshowthe ones that are 100% and don't have rgbt cost a fortuneonce my 4 yo msi cheap ass keyboard dies off I'll just buy pic
>>203032023>Youngins start with 2L, then 2x2L, then 3x, etc.I did that at 19
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vD8w3U_6e8Y
>>203033427it's gay to have a beard outside of just being too lazy to shave, which is based
>>203033476What I meant was that it won't stay in place when I brush it. It has a mind of its own and doesn't bend.
>>203033587wet it, comb it in place, probably oil it, dry it and probably put some product on it or hair spraylong hairs need work
>>203033507Flat keys > nipple keysCan't even begin to describe how clean a flat keyboard stays
>>203033669It's so coarse I could probably cut something with it.>>203033580Only fags obsess over whether X is gay or not.
dua for bosnia chuds.
>>203033734it still gets shit up inevitably and while one is easy to clear the other isn'talso low profile kbs aren't really good for typing or gayming truth be told but it's down to personal preference I guess
>>203033756stop being cunty and just listenyou'll thank me later
Eternal Khan of Gays just CANNOT resist butting in with a comment on gayness
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=McRafnm29L8How did they turn Toshko into a chudster?
>>203034041he's so mangocoded
>>203033905login dota so i can beat your ass cheburashka
>jewtube swapped the positions of the "Accept" and "Reject" conditions buttons on their home pagecrafty little kikes
>>203034608a codemaymun was paid 300k for this
>>203034665as a jigjognito mode user, the reject button being in the middle was so convenient and intuitive to click but of course now the kikes try to trick jigjognito muscle memory rejectchads into clicking acceptthere simply is no good reason to put "reject" as a first, and "accept" as second optioniran was justified in sending all those rockets of peace
>>203034583I don't play online gaymespirating best silent hill gayme rn (the room) btw
KAJKS
>>203034858report this to the eu
>>203034877I will singlehandedly make kikejewbe pay 100 billion EUR in fines for tricking me into consent
>>203034877the eu wants to kill us and we're blocking macedonia so we can save them
Such an awesome party
I should have not taken LSD
>>203035100you're pretty dumb for a junkie brother i grew up among sophisticated drug users and have the know how to do drugs
>>203034911So altruistic! Watch fyromdonians call us evilgarians for not letting them in even though the jewnion will collapse in 5 years.
>>203035248goodgayrians allowed albaboonia in so the country will explode even morehow beneficent
>>203034041what a cute prick you are, my herald
>>203035299gay sex for ukraine coming to you asap, little queer muslim albaboonians will pop out of nowhere near you when boomers croak
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yjl2UChV5c>american fanta contains no orange juice
Saving up 30k лв for plastic surgery.Hopefully there is no major war by then.
>>203035299Fyromlar women and makeshqips will depopulate FYROM to get EU pasosh in Albania. EU implodes, Bumgaria explodes, Bumgarians start reverse-migrating into depopulated Fyromland and buying up estates "look, my dedo was Macedonian". All part of the plan.
>>203035385good thing I get my fanta exotic from smol maqedonia
>macedonian moneywtf
>>203035411North Macaudonia joins BRICS, tsink cousins of bumgars are invited to build infrastructure and implement advanced farming techniques to make North Macaudonia the breadbasket of the Bao Khans
>>203035592indeed
2016 was 17 years ago
>>203035617They will follow in mother Srbija’s footsteps.>Serbian Foreign Minister Ivica “Baba Osman” Dacic has signed on Monday a copperation treaty with the Association of Southeast Asian Nations
>>203035220it's not that it's that bad but this was probably not the right time to take it due to my depression It's a small dose anyway so I will either wait it out or take some benzos to kill the trip
>>203035100Lsd lol
>>203035957>Guy telling me to kill myself is depressedNIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE!!!
>>203035790I wish
>>203035790I don't know what I've been doing these 16 years
>>203036000When did I tell you to kys?
>>203036095Oh no, this is Kelly. Not the other guy...How many ug?
>>203036095>>203036236>50Eh you'll be fine. But if you haven't tripped in a while 50ug will be intense. 50ug with no tolerance is more effective than 500ug with 2 weeks tolerance.God I miss LSD.
>>203036274>50ug with no tolerance is more effective than 500ug with 2 weeks tolerance.Bullshit.
VVVGHHH my dedo still has this radio on his wall. He puts a piece of Easter bread on it and come the following Easter it has turned into rock.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fs7Zmv0cwJoAhh, another anti-china propaganda video.
>>203036406I'm just telling you man, 2 weeks tolerance isn't that much. I was tripping every 2 weeks for 2 years at one point and I needed 10 strips to trip how I used to before I was doing it regularly.You need nearly a month for a proper reset.
>>203036274>>203036406>general has become a fucking submarine station
>>203036562100-150mg can give you reliable trips on two consecutive days.
>>203036614Me (mangal) has experience with LSD, shrooms, DMT.I could buy a grow kit right now for 30 euros. Hmmm....
>>203036614
>>203036633Keyword is *can*. It's not reliable. When I did that befor I just felt like I was in the comedown of a previous intese trip.Not so desirable. Tolerance buildups are necessary for me. I have a 1 year one now.
>>203036716no bum allowed
I used to sell 150 ug of LSD for 10 leva. Prices were so cheap but I could not afford to keep selling and just stopped selling altogether. Sometimes people still ask from me. I got none? Why? Because 10 leva a tab doesn't feed me.
mods, they are talking about illegal substances
>>203036660You should order some liquid LSD from the glorious Netherlands, spread some on your toy Makarov and stuff it in your ass, dumb sodomite.
>>203036433british humor on tsink humor is just 2meta4me
>>203036660shouldn't you be telling this to the cooler virgins? what are you doing here?
>>203036813mods aren't real bro
>>203036962'lachian take on getting drugged out of your mind?
>>203036822Hey it takes two to tango. I can't help the fact that men who are down bad are happy to penetrate my orifices. I oblige them and enjoy myself. If you're sour about that then you can always come and put in my place, tiger.>>203036878They don't allow non heteros and they expect a bio from you and I put that I wasn't in my bio so now i'm gonna wait a bit before making a new one.Not too enthusiastic to join because no new content lately. Same old retired shit from 2018.
Ok so the party was awesome now are male modelsI have something to do and after that i am going to am afterparty
>>203036993I inject myself 4+ times a day
Hey, mangalYou should really kill yourself
>>203037110You are the depressed one kiddo. Whereas I made a transvaluation of values and chose life.
https://voca.ro/1703BbMQ5T67
https://voca.ro/16OhbD5uJfo3
>>203037035uh huh, now let's see an apology for the disrespect shown towards /balk/>>203037059evasiveit'd be crazy if you turned out to be a straight arrow in this regard
>>203037173https://voca.ro/14U1TO4VR885
AAAAAAAAA
>>203037167That's not me though, it's the low tier junkie, which is a communist, a russophile and most importantly, AlbanianGreeks don't get depression, only lower races do.
>>203037246I don't do drugs broI'm an innocent little ray of sunshineother people can do whatever they want, I couldn't care less
>>203037295https://voca.ro/134CjPJtpB4n
>>203037343So who is kelly? o.O
>>203037529Kelly is this guy>>203031978
>>203037561And who is the 6'4 blonde greek So there is 3 greeks present, and one Turk larping as a Greek!Also what would you like me to call you? :))
>>203037173>>203037237>>203037389
>he still hasn't realized we are all greeks
>>203037608The 6'4 guy who dabs on your kind (turks) is also KellyLurk a bit you newfag, jesus
>>203037687Except ikibey.
>>203037747he and mango are the turks of our general pretending to be something else
>>203037355too autistic to interact with drug dealers? good for you, I'll take what I can get
>>203037705Sorry but I don't keep track of every time someone calls themselves 6'4 chads. Especially if it's over 4Chink. It kind of goes over my head without the visual stimuli to back it up. That being said, you didn't tell me how I should call you, sweetheart. :>
Bumgal gays up the thread and everyone goes silent
>>203038141I'd say they're sleeping to work tomorrow but I just remembered tomorrow is Saturday
>>203038141I'm here bro, just pretending to be a normie who is outside partying
I didn't gay up anything. I walked in and it was already like this.
Why do faggots always insist on parading themselves around and make everyone know that their are disgusting sodomites. Why don't you leave normal people alone? Why are you even bringing up your sexuality. Gross faggots.
>>203038725>the post that solved the problem
So the after party starts at 1amI have one hour freeTommorow i will make series of stories etc which i also talked about
>>203038933Sending Dj Anka, Azhda Agush and Kalja Bilbiloska to the after-party
>>203036804Nigga 5 euros per tab if you got them wholesale for 1-1.5 euro max is 300x profit>>203036406Yeah I'm calling bullshit about the x10 effect, the intense visuals just aren't there even without tolerance
this is the level of financial literacy of the average personhe even goes online to give advice
>>203038725Because we know that being gay pisses you off and 'we' have a subconscious desire to be killed/raped by the most fit male. Maybe your rage won't transpire into pure unadulterated hate-fucking as is intended but as far as I am concerned getting beat up and choked out can be as orgasmic as having as having a large member coming in through your backdoor.The fact is, you are never so close to another human being than when you are either raping or killing them. The faggot consciously or not wants to completely surender their ego to the strength and power of their suitor. The lines between copulation and violence blur.
>>203039088>Nigga 5 euros per tab if you got them wholesale for 1-1.5 euro max is 300x profitSorry bro but moving 200 tabs of acid is not easy.
>>203039088Nevermind now I realized it's 2.5 euros so it cuts your profits significantly even though I think you coul theoretically get a sheet of 900 tabs 100μg or "200μg" for 900 euros I guess
>>203039149>you could make a profit if you give your whole monthly wage to LSD even though you already have difficulty selling to more than 20 people
>>203039140Yeah that's the problem I guess just like breaking bad's beginning You gonna have to go to Tuco's in Varna for wholesale business
he really thinks that the currency denomination of stocks mattershe actually told a guy who's lived in japan for 20 years and is planning to retire in japan to calc everything in USD as if he won't pay shit in yennies
>>203039186$$$ is on benzos from Serbia specifically the galenika ones, ksalol, bensedin, rivotril, I don't know how these mothefuckers get trucks full of them but they must be making some huge profits because they're everywhere in Europe and they reach as far as the US and Australia
>>203039100This. Just like a foid the homo provokes so it can feed off your ape masculine energy.
If i die one day, I hope it's by the hand of a Bulgarian so I die a martyr
^ a classic example of homoprovocation ^
>>203039639I don't understand the whole issue, weren't your ancestors mostly Bulgarian that got serbed due to Yugoslavia being a thing?
>>203039876>I don't understand the whole issueYou are low IQ
If I die one day, I hope it's by the hand of a Hellene so that his ancestors may curse him from the afterlife for raising his hand on his family.
these windproof garments? total disaster when sweating like a pig
>>203040029Polyesterhuman problems.
>>203040070landlockedhuman nonproblems
>>203039909Explain to me then like I'm a retard even though my IQ is fine
I'm seeing my mom for new years and she's going to end up buying me clothes and I'm gonna have to put them on while everyone is watching and i'm scared i won't be able to hide my booba.
>>203040212>107Normalfag/Midwit I bet you're the mitsotourkisbot.
>>203040212Autism status bro?
my fucking sleeves have become water reservoirs of sweat dawg, disgusting, now I'm just catching 10 different colds in the wind while this shit dries off
>>203040954bro thinks the wind will give him a coldbro is a balkanoid
>>203040954Your niggerification has come alone nicely, that's what you get for actually going outside in muttland
>>203040821I could have probably scored above 110 if I didn't fuck up one of the color cube things and one question I was asked and didn't give the right answer because I'm kind of ashamed >>203040836I'm really certain I'm either autistic and/or schizoid and have been for 1.5 year now and I've been completely nuts since that realisation of me having the 'tism became a reality because I don't really know what to think about it and I don't have anything to show in my life anyway
There is a reason why cotton/wool are KANGS when it comes to clothing. Wool is especially OP, it can keep you both warm and it evaporates your sweat easily so you don't end up with a wet body underneath your plastic clothing.
>>203041111And I won't say the question here because I'm kind of ashamed of answering it wrong*I'm probably going to private rehab soon but I don't have any hope really, I'm the most pessimistic person you could ever meet and if I was one time pessimistic before I realised I'm autistic, since then I've became ten times more pessimisticI just want a fucking toilet paper with a bunch of signatures on it saying whatever the fuck I have at this point so I can stare at it and try to comprehend it and put it in my mind
I have 130+ IQ and I am barely functional as a human being.
>>203041197Are you tested? Dude I really fucked up one of these colour cubes matching things on the WAIS-IV IQ test and I wish I could go the time back because after leaving the session I realized how easy it was in fact to get it right lmao
>>203041246Yes that was official. I will need access to records to check the actual score, it was as a child. My probably dropped to low 20s high teens.
>>203041111Seems like paranoia from all the shit you take.
After half a year of having a job and a friend I am now alone and NEET again. Have enough money for 3 months.Lets see where I'll end up.
>>203041334Do you mean you think it dropped to low 110s in your 20s or what? Is it even possible to lose IQ in a young age without a traumatic brain injury?>>203041111As an intellectual what do you think of this, would I qualify as autistic? I have all the common symptoms maybe except the stimming which I've learned to either hide or keep under control, the other explanation would be me being schizoid or both of them at this point, I'm completely going nuts without a proper diagnosis which I hope I will get soon
>>203041197I'm 140+ IQ in a country with 80IQ average people. I suffer.
>>203041420What happened mango? Did you kill him?
>>203041431I mean it dropped altogether high 110s and low 120s. IQ is variable and not every test measures it in the same way.
>>203041197>>203041435oh yeah, let's see yall's high level math grades. they suck? 110iq
>>203041504What? No. He left me.
>>203041352I might in fact be paranoid up to a point but I don't think that the government is spying on me or there are secret cameras inside my houseI'm in touch with reality but at the same time I've completely lost any interest for my surroundings, maybe because of being disappointed of other people, my expectations of others not being on point and due to my depression
>>203041538What did you do?
>>203041520I didn't show up to math.
>>203041538he went to mommy? wonder what that conversation is gonna be like
>>203041557Everyone has a youch of tism, you taking all the prescription drugs and not interracting with people obviously didnt help. It was the same for me.
>>20304158095iq
>>203041520>mathDidn't study and still aced it.
I'd be lucky to have 100 IQ after a decade of larpcoholism
>>203041520I didn't show up to math either but I can make simple calculations without a problem but just this
>>203041557Also i mainly took xanax and alcohol for a few years, now i'm only on SSRIs
this is offensive
Thoughts on Slovenia?
>>203041564I didn't reinforce his mental illness. He said that I don't care about his feelings and that I only see him as a toy soldier. I told him I don't care about anyone's feelings and only act based on logic. He told me I prioritize my emotional well-being over even physiological needs (like eating, for example: luxurious expenditure in clothing). He wanted to be a faggot whereas I enforced masculinity on him. He said it's useless to pull a masculine front because he gains nothing from it. I told him I was never interested in a relationship with him in the first place. So it's not about what I did, but the culmination of many different smaller things. I would say, in a nutshell I was no longer useful to him so he abandoned me.>>203041581>he went to mommyYep
>entire general is sub 95iqthe meme maps were right after all>>203041700angry you poor bastard
>>203041557I have a depressive episode give me ativan
>>203041609Are you diagnosed or what? I feel like my family pushed me to start taking drugs due to their bullshit and as escapism because I couldn't really bear them, then it became some kind of interest/hobby, experimenting a bit without realizing what I do which is realize now but I mean the catalyst of me even considering trying and starting doing drugs was the toxic environment and I obviously hold some pretty big grudge among my family for this particular reason even if not all of them haven't realized it yet they were the reason I started doing drugs
>>203041769The only time I've tried lorazepam was 3 months ago when I was hospitalised after a possible accidental overdose on benzos and the first time I tried heroin which is pretty ironic and stupid at the same time
>>203041625>aced the multiplication tablescongratz king
>>203041700I've been taking 150mg wellbutrin for 2 months and 300mg for 1 month but I don't see any noticeable effects yet, I'm extremely pessimistic so I don't have any hope and I know there's not any miracle drug out there/panacea
>>203041794I went to a shrink and apparently i don't have autism but i dont trust them
>>203041920And usually 5mg diazepam or a bit of bromazolam per day, I first wanted to stop it completely but now I've made a habit of it which I certainly don't like and I tried switching to lyrica to stop the benzos but I still take benzos
>/balk/ is filled with people who injest pharmajewExplains a lot.
>>203041920There is no difference for me except libido when i don't take SSRIs i feel the need to constantl;y coom and just the sight of a woman enrages me, i also sometimes start shaking in bed and have this weird sensation i can't really explain When i take sertraline i feel the same way i felt before i started taking it, the pharmajew fucked me.
>>203041969>clean as a baby, never even been drunk in my lifeexplains a lot
>>203042063Hi Angrybey, this is Mango.Darling, please don't take SSRIs. Obviously I am not a medical expert but please don't. Drugs like these are designed to sedate you and keep you docile. It's not good for you. Please consider stopping.
>>203042132The last time I stuck a needle into myself was today though.
Don't listen to this CIA recrooter tranny he wants you to go on an incel spree
mizera quit alcohol, caffeine, sugar and cooming and now he's no longer on /balk/
>>203041944To be honest with you I don't trust them either and I have any reason possible for not trusting whatever bullshit they sayOne psychiatrist I visited earlier this year told me if I want a diagnosis I should go to a auxologist/pediatricianAnother psychiatrist which I saw 3 times and gave me a little stupid autism test with 50 questions which I've literally taken years ago because it's one of the first results that come up when you search for "autism test" on greek google, anyway he "reaffirmed" my worries that he sees both autistic and schizoid symptoms/traits (after having told him what I worry I have obviously), and then this mothefucker was like "you can't get a diagnosis because you're an adult" LMFAO NIGGA YOU THINK I'M THAT STUPID AND YOU'RE THE SMARTASS WITH THE LE DEGREE WHO LIES TO ME THAT I CAN'T GET A FORMAL DIAGNOSIS BECAUSE I'M AN ADULT TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER OR FOR WHATEVER BULLSHIT REASON YOU HAVEI should have stopped the session right that moment he told me that I can't get diagnosed because I'm an adult because it was OBVIOUS to me this asshole was bullshiting me but too bad that I'm too nice with people so I let him finish with his bullshit. Imagine telling your patients they can't get diagnosed because they're adults, and when I persisted about it (not him in particular giving me a diagnosis, just someone who can give me one) he was like "I can't take a tape outside and measure it (autism)" like talking about dick sizes and possibly even making hints and joking about it like a mfSo yeah I've come to the conclusion these assholes give totally different answers and the only way to get properly evaluated and diagnosed in this shitohole is by acting crazy and drawing attention on you on purpose to get noticed
>>203042178>men are drugged and sedated by the ruling class using pharma and porn so that they never revolt
>>203042326let the other niggas revolt, leave our /balk/nigga alone
>>203042135You think i don't know? I started taking them 8 years ago when i was in a really shitty place and i was willing to take anything even if i knew on the long termit would have fucked me up. I would have ended up killing someone and then offing myself years aho, maybe that would have beenbetter
>>203042168disgusting
>>203042168haha skin needle haha
>>203042270They just diagnosed me with agoraphobia when i went, it's fucking bullshit, i know what mys ympthoms are andhow i feel when i go in society, it may be one of the sympthoms but it's so minor that its no point even mentioning it.
>>203042388There is no revolt. This is why I "trooned". The realization that no one gives a fuck and that people only chase the next pleasure. I don't believe in the mass shooting shit. By all means be a criminal, but be intelligent about it. So as to not become a self destructive nihilist.>>203042394No don't off yourself. If you need someone to talk to I am always here for you. In fact I encourage you. I love to listen.
>>203042394diagnosis? or did they stuff you up without even giving you one?
>>203042063>>203042270This asshole second psychiatrist I mentioned here also prescribed me 60mg in the afternoon while I was on 150mg wellbutrin in the morning (it was me that told him I wanted wellbutrin, otherwise he would give me an SSRI and he also told me that's what he would do but went with wellbutrin anywayLet me tell you, 60mg of this cymbalta gave me some horrible anxiety, feeling completely edgy, possibly paranoia, sweats for nearly 8-10 hours and the sweating persisted until the next day, first 60mg was too big of a dose to start me with and second I read that this shit even if works well for some people, is really a pain in the ass to quit and you can search about it yourself so you don't think I make shit upI don't know if there's a movement like SSRIs ruined my life which there must be because of the huge numbers of people getting prescribed them, buy there's a large number of people complaining about coming off cymbalta and there's probably even a subreddit about itSo yeah I tried it only once, it gave me some horrible sife effects which felt like low quality meth even though I've never tried meth so I never took that shit again especially after reading the stories of people not being able to get off it because it's an SNRI acts on both serotonin and serotonin and norepinephrine meaning it also gives a whole lot more side effects
>>203042538I likely won;t do it, i just hope that the shit life i lead will kill me in the next years, i'm just not fit for this world
>>203042536My point is that for 1.5 year now I've gone completely off the rails and obsessed over the fact of being autistic/schizoid, call me hypochondriac I don't care
>>203042619No you clearly need people in your life and preferably acquaintances to open up to and speak instead of keeping it all bottled in, away from the public eye.I will come and visit you.
>>203042536Do you think one of your parents is possibly autistic or something going on with them? Because I certainly do for one of my parents and it's pretty obvious they got something, definitely narcissistic among maybe more things
>>203042270it's supposed to be that you can't get diagnosed when you are a child. what ass backwards psychiatry is being practiced in greece?
>>203042536Do you think one of your parents is possibly autistic or something going on with them? Because I certainly do for one of my parents and it's pretty obvious they got something, definitely narcissistic among maybe more things and alcohol abuse on top of that without admitting or even realising how self destructive this poison is
>>203042831No they are normalfags
>>203043072I'm coming to Romania
>agoraphobiawhat are your symptoms, nicca
>>203042718Talking with family doesnt really help, even if they try to understand me, I do need friends i think but i have several issue with that too.
>aaaaavvvghhhh another broken bird project for me!why are yoko onos like this
>>203042817Dude I really don't know why I always stumble upon the worst doctors possible. Like tf nigga why you bullshiting me like that as I said, I paid you 70 euros three times to prescribe me a little bit of diazepam which I could have bought for dirt cheap on the streets or the dark web anyway and for a little stupid test with 50 questions which I CAN SEARCH FOR AND FIND IN THE FIRST RESULTS OF GOOGLE IN GREECE and you just tell me that yes you see autistic/schizoid traits but I can't get diagnosed since I'm an adult? How dumb do you think I am? And because in the last session I went with a family member so it wasn't only me and him at the end, he was like "I usually don't talk like that" in a way like deals with people with lower intelligence and doesn't talk about their problems in front of them and stuff like that, which might be understandable so it won't disturb them but what's the bullshit of me not being able to get a diagnosis just because I'm an adult? I already said it many times anwyay and I won't say it again but what the fuck, exactly the way you said it, some really ass backwards mentality over here which comes to no surprise in my opinion >On 10 September 1989, a Greek scandal made headlines in the British Observer newspaper; the article's title was 'Europe's Guilty Secret' and the front page depicted several naked male mental patients looking desperate, wandering around the Leros Psychiatric Hospital buildings in Lepida.https://youtu.be/fGtvB4CTDrQ?si=Z_zgKsTUo8Zr-1CHhttps://youtu.be/LKOQbDHTLNk?si=yY0K1_-5X4qy0Ak9This was the Greek state's ethics not so long ago about the mentally ill which shows the overall education of a population, there 2-3k mentally ill/disabled people from around Greece in an island with a population of like 5-6k if not a bit more living in tragic conditions until news about it became public and they got funding from the EEC for this travesty of a scandal and things finally started changing
>>203043229Family doesn't help because the jump between 2000 and 2024 might as well be 240 years instead of 24 years. No way for older people to understand that. What problems do you have with friends? Was it you who I exchanged one email with awhile ago? >>203043072I want to conduct some psychological examinations on you. c: I also need your birth chart>>203043242Hey, you'll get your turn too!
>>203043199Barely leaving my house for 10 years i guess
>>203043290And the reason I think things got a bit better on the asylum in Leros is because of international pressure over the issue and because they felt they would be humiliated abroad if they didn't improve things a bit, they didn't really care about the patiets or their lives, they just cared about theirs and the country's image abroad lmaoThis shitohole has really never taken psychology and psychiatry seriously
>>203043349No and i'm not your project you faggot, kill yourself
>>203043368I don't leave my house either, I can stay inside for weeks if not months but I've come to a state that I'm insanely bored and uninterested with anything and my computer broke down and I didn't even bother fixing it because I don't care
>>203043392You're only saying that because you're hurting from the inside. *hugs*
>>203043429I don't phonepost so i probably would have gone insane without it, unironically i have been told that this website at least kept me somewhat connected to the world in a twisted way and it would have been worse without it>>203043430I do suffer but i won't let you use me to make yourself feel better, As for the issue with friends, i only had negatove experiences with other people and it makes me feel like a pathetic piece of worthless shit depending ont hem to get out of this , i hate them but i also hate myself for basically depending on them . It's the same with women
>>203043290ok, now you're giving off strong paranoia vibes. I don't know what sort of scams go on in greece, they might have sniffed something out if you went in there looking like a fiend and being weirdly pressing about it.
>>203043368that doesn't mean you have agoraphobia unless going outside gives you extreme anxiety
>>203043596If you don't go outside for that long except once a couple weeks/months you obviously develop severe anxiety(agoraphobia is just the most extreme version of anxiety)
>>203043674that sounds like horseshit. what is your diagnosis? why are you being a shy bitch about it, you've spilled worse spaghetti here
>>203043703I told you the only official diagnosis is agoraphobia
>>203043549Same thing, this Chinese propaganda exchange site is my only connection with the outside world other than news that I usually see here anyway, the important ones at least >>203043557Trust me I don't think that paranoid, it's just this shitohole is a bankrupted failed state which God knows how it still functions the way it does, trains colliding in the only train line the whole of the country and leaving behind 60 dead people is one recent example
>>203043674that sounds like bs, all the submarine niggas would be developing agoraphobiaagoraphobia is actively avoiding places that give you anxiety, vast open spaces like a town square, or vast hollow spaces like a cinema, an auditorium or a stadium that you can't bail out of easily
>>203043703And i've been relunctant to say it because i still live with it and have a severe inferiority complex regarding it, the diagnosis is from 2016 though as i havent went to a shrink since
>>203043790I do that.
>>203043791alright you big wuss, come on now, you've said much worse things here. fucking panic attacks? did you at least do therapy first or did they jack you straight up faster than even american doctors do
>>203043557>>203043290I mean just watch a couple of minutes from the videos I posted, these is how mentally ill people were treated in this shithole until the late 80s and probably in the 90s as well
>>203043847https://youtu.be/eV77eYPMWAo?si=ZIQrztJOB4OI-7LvThe practice of the Greek state getting rid of the "unwanted ones" dates back to the anti communist era when they would exile communists in "dry islands", particularly a long island near Attica called "makronisos" which literally means long islandSo yeah it worked for the state with the Communists for a while and then they implicated the same methods with the mentally ill people from the mainland and put them in a small island in the Aegean like in some quarantine or something
>>203043786well I know that niggas in there use false diagnoses to get out of mandatory conscription and shit, so I'm wondering if psychiatrists in there are used to those games in addition to fiends looking for a high and are wary of giving them out like candy. claiming you can't get diagnosed because you're an adult is a bizarre line of thought tho
This one doesn't look that bad compared to other photos in the archive, at least it has a nice background
>>203043844Well you see apparently i was too fucked up and i couldnt be talked with if i didnt take pills first so i was jacked on pills first Everything i said was calculated, i said things that wouldnt bother me if you were to use them against me.
>>203043984mental how they're either completely oblivious or in a total "it's over" phase
>>203043987I could always tell that your beloved rhetoric of tongued nigger anuses was very compulsive and pathological, tourettesque almost. I was wondering if childhood adhd overmedicated by well meaning but oblivious parents into shut in incelhood or some shit like that. many such cases
>>203043949It's true that more and more people claim insanity reasons (I5) and don't serve in the armed forces and I think it has became a quite easy process actually in the recent years compared to 15-20 years ago, nowadays you can claim you're suicidal or act crazy and they'll give you the okay to fuck off instead of having to deal with youI've unfortunately already served in the armed forces and wasted one year of my life that I can't get backAnd yes, he literally straight forward told me "bla bla bla indeed you seem to have traits of both autism and schizoid personality disorder after the little stupid test and then you can't get diagnosed because you're an adult"Like lmao you can literally expect anything in this shitohole at this point There's a popular phrase here that's translated like "In Greece you're whatever you declare yourself", meaning that any goofball can become famous or whatever or gain popularity for being something they're not exactly because that phrase "in Greece you're whatever you declare to be"
>>203044096They seem to be almost out of touch of reality, these photos are from the late 80s I think, people with severe mental illnesses from the mainland who didn't have families to support themo or were deemed too dangerous were probably sent there and treated like animals until the 90s when things became a bit better only because of internationally notoriety of the island and the country as a whole
>>203044155>"in Greece you're whatever you declare to be"Americans appropriated your culture
>>203044096https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYwGmWWxY48>>203044155well do you want to have those traits? what solution are you ultimately looking for?
>>203044128I was a;ready 23-24 back then and white whores do that, how is it pathologgical in any way?
>>203044279Out of touch with reality* Really some manhunt vibes
>>203044343it's compulsive, repetitive, devoid of substance. you instantly get it when you see it in others. you can provably see it in kelly yourself.anyway, I hope you're getting out of the house now. even I go insane when I get locked up like that, ain't no great mystery to why.
>>203044280You might be right or we might stole it from them>>203044337Ngl the last months I look a bit like the man in the middle, since my computer broke down and I didn't bother fixing it, I'm just sitting in one couch or the other skeptical about I don't even know what, not having connection with the outside world, being able to go outside but not doing so because I don't want to. It's that if I have or if I am told to the super market for some groceries that I can't do it, it's just that I would do it and get back home as quick as possible and return in my monotone boring routine which I've become extremely bored of and I just know what the fuck is wrong with me so I guess I'm most likely going in this private rehab if it means I get a proper diagnosis and possibly combat my substance and gambling addictions
>>203044477I understand where you would see it like that, it keeps my hatred alive though, i don't know anyone so except going on random walks or to the store i can't do shit. Have been told multiple times to get a bike
>>203044557>>203044279>>203044155Never took LSD, does this shit really have that effect on peopl? He won't frombarley posting here except a few short posts to writing several paragraphs. I myself am feeling too miserable and devoid of energy for that
>>203044557getting clean would indeed be the smarted course of action, it's the source of all your symptoms too no doubt. also get a bike>>203044585>get a bikeyeah you read my mind. that was about to be my next post. you should do it tomorrow
>>203044557By saying I look like the second man I mean that I don't talk with anyone including my own family and I only speak when someone speaks to me and even then I respond with as few words as possibleI just sit in the living room all day on my phone switching sofas and laying positions with the TV sometimes on even though I rarely watch TV since it's trash, I prefer documentaries on the internet which are a abundant and you can watch whatever you want at any timeBut I usually used to watched about recent current affairs/crises of the last decade and stuff like that, also some nice older documentaries from the Golden triangle for example among othersI'm also good in geography, nothing to be proud of since most of us here probably are, just saying it as a fact, I can find all the countries in Europe, Asia, Africa and the Americas (the Americas with a bit of trying because I confuse some banana republics) and also identify obviously identify them by their flags and the country's shapeSo yeah really limited interests which seem to implicate something and it's probably exactly what I've been worrying about
>>203044693If everyone says it they might have a point, i figured you would say it too,
I've very selective agoraphobic symptoms. I'll never go to vast hollow spaces like a cinema or a stadium or town square, but if I'm in a crowd at town square, there's no problem all of a sudden. My brain doesn't like being unable to calculate the distance to faraway objects and that makes it feel unstable.
>>203044808it's an easy way to die slipping on some wet autumn leaves at 40mph and right into an oncoming truck, but maybe you'll also rediscover your love for life through it and such a thing would be a sad affair.
>>203044637I only took 50μg of 1P-LSD which is basically LSD 1:1 I guess and it's a relatively small dose but I felt it nonetheless because I've not taken any psychedelic for 1.5 year and the last time I took LSD was at least 2.5-3 years agoSome people claim that psychedelics saved them/changed their lives and stuff like that, I guess it really depends in the severity of every case, some people are beyond saving possibly including me because of my extreme pessimism but I guess if someone with mental issues takes a psychedelic like shrooms (not tried them) or LSD or 2C-B ALWAYS with a trip sitter and always with a trip killer just in case the trip goes south, it could possibly help them but it would be almost certain they would experience ego death which might be good or bad depending on the person's view about things, their surroundings and the world as a whole I would advise against taking psychedelics without a trip sitter if you're not experienced enoughAlso the MDMA therapies look very promising and should have already been a thing but things work too slowly for some reason, maybe musk likes his special k injections but is not very fond of MDMA assisted therapies
>>203044950That doesn't sound like actual agoraphobia, it's mainly about the people, not the place
>>203044585I'm exactly like that, I have completely no reason or desir to go outside unless it's to get something
>>203044957Rediscover my love for life that inever had while i ammere miliseconds away from colliding with a truck? Sounds nice, you convinced me.
>>203044950that sounds like some reverse heightsphobia shit, if not the actual thing itself
>>203045008It's interesting, the less anxious i am when outside the more filled with hatred i am. Patanoid that people look at me weirdly but i always put on a confrontational stance and i am the one studying everyone around me especially the womanoids
>>203045009get an actual road bike not some upright granny shit.
>>203045087Which one would you recommend? Also not one that costs 3k or something.
>>203044974I'm not anxious around the normies. I can be in a crowd no problem, you get lost in it and there's cushions all around you. On the other hand,being on top of a mountain with nothing but sky above will freak me out. Especially if there's structures or other hills far in the distance.
>>203045121nah just go to some used bikes shop and look for the classic shit, nothing fancy. if you end up liking it you can get better stuff later.
>>203044693Getting clean is easier said than done, I mean I'm almost or completely clean since I only take 300mg wellbutrin, 5mg diazepam/little of bromazolam which I really want to stop, might switch to mirtazapine of even better seroquel to knock myself out with 25mgAnd I recently started taking 150mg pregabalin to replace benzos with it but I still felt the need to take a benzl even with the pregabalin plus today I woke up with a weird pain in my right eye which I have until now, sometimes it went away and sometimes it's present for quite a while, it feels likes it's literally inside the eyeball, I read the leaflet of the pregabalin and it indeed states in the possible side effects "pain in the eye" in no more than 1 to 100 people, I have abused lyrica a lot in the past and was also hospitalised almost certainly from it because it gave me acute pancreatitis after a period of kinda extreme abuse (but it could have been even worse, like I was taking 3-5 days tolerance breaks), I've also experienced problems with wanting to pee all the time due to it and because of stress about it at the same time, this one was really annoying and couldn't let let me do anything because I always felt like I haven't completely emptied my bladder so I wanted to pee every 5 minutes lmao but it slowly went away after 2-3 weeks, anyway but I've never experienced the pain in the eye which has me worried and I might stop it for now to see if it goes away
>>203045075I generally always give a poker face to everyone at this point and it took me way too long to realize it, I have no facial expressions neither desire to smile or laugh which could be because of my depression, also I don't like photos and especially photos where I am with other peopleSo yeah I'm quite eccentric as the last dumb psychiatrist I visited called me and I kinda got confused by him calling me eccentric but at least he was right with this one
>>203045164He >>203045039 might actually be right with that
>>203045208https://buycycle.com/en-ro/shopLook at this shit
>>203045349>What do people with barophobia fear?>A lessening of gravity that causes people to fly up in the air and potentially into space.>A person with barophobia may also be frightened of images of outer space where gravity doesn’t exist.Bumophobia. That's the one! There's nothing in vast open spaces to "tether" you to the ground. I have nerve-related hearing & balance problems, so some kind of vestibular imbalance may be to blame (family history of it too)
>>203045375that's slop, you don't want any of that garbage. gotta do a little bit of in person shoppingsteel- preferablealuminum- ok but fatcarbon- look away instantlydisc brakes- look away instantlyentry bike should be sub 400
>>203045462Tell me, what do you feel when staring at the night sky? What about really tall bridges?
>>203045498It did seem like overpriced garbage
>>203045508Boring and peaceful. But I avoid looking at the moon. The moon freaks me out. The idea of being teleported there in the vastness to cook and freeze at the same time. Which also instantly brings another fear of being teleported close to Earth but far away enough to see its vastness.
>>203045526With these prices you get 125cc underbone motorcycles or scooters like from SYM which is a good brand lolI got one like pic related in my village which I've managed to already crash twice, once while bartarded with valium and wine which led me to the hospital with some stitches in some really bad spots in my face which I might need surgery due to them affecting my facial hair growth and another time this time sober but just fucking around with it like a goofball against strong wind, I've learned my lesson the hard way not to mess with motorcycles especially under the influence of anything
>>203045965Yeah but scooters are faggy, some bikes there were up to fucking 7k, you can get a used car with that.
>>203045995Yeah I've come to realize that small motorbikes and scooters are minda gay but they're very practical instead of using a carRight now if I wasn't a mf bartard wasting 42k won on a cadino I would have money for a proper motorcycle, nice car, lots of investments and generally whatever I wanted to do with these 42k euros instead of losing them in one one night or two
>>203046065Casino*It will take me a long time to overcome this level of stupidity I showed this period of my life which isn't that far away, it's only 4 months ago, the ironic thing is that the only thing that's going to help me get some rest until at least 2-2:30pm local time here are the benzos, the same shits that I abused and caused my to waste the money I've won like pic related while I have zero recollection whatsoever of itNow ive taken 10mg diazepam, several drops of bromazolam (I don't measure them anymore) but they're definitely at least 2mg, and some flubromazepam so I should be good for at least 1.5-2 days without any benzo possibly, maybe 2.5mg diazepam tomorrow evening late at night as of a habit but I will see until thenFlubromazepam takes forever to kick in, up to 4 hours and had a half life of 106 hours which is insane for a benzo and makes it a very good tapering benzo along norflurazepam, diazepam and librium
>>203046065Take them out already
>>203046178Nigga I won 42k euros and lost every single penny, it's goneThe fucking stupid casino would only let me withdraw 2k euros every week so it would take me 4 months to withdraw the 42k euros, but whatever since it's gone now it doesn't matter
>>203046207We told you back then to just takeout 2k a week, the casino isnt stupid though it used you knowing you wont be able to justtake the money oput and you would plau it instead
pedo troon is gonna make new if you don't
>my femboy roommate demowoah very nice, thank you steam
>>203046229I know that they manipulated me and my bartarded brain fell for it, whatever, I really can't do anything for it now, I guess the best I could do is pay a visit to the private rehab, see what's its about, ASK if they five formal diagnoses and consider having myself admitted for a month or two I guess. It would be a change of environment but when when I would return it would just be the same exact kind of bullshit Plus I'm getting around 12k euros from a source a can't mention in 3-4 months max and even though not a huge amount, I have to protect this money because its my only last hope, at least whatever I would possibly gamble should come from money and I could possibly making in real life, not using these 12k euros. I'll either buy myself a powerful gaming laptop (most likely slightly second hand) or small factor gaming desktop), a few gadgets that are not expensive, invest at least 3-5k of it in some crypto (I I have kaspa in mind) and then rest goes to a savings account
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