>ppl say I pass good enough>starts girlmoding>doesn't pass>redoes entire look, voice trains more and hyperfocuses on mannerisms>doesn't pass>dates clocky twinkhon>she passes but I don't>look in the mirror and genuinely think I look good>doesn't make me pass betteratp i'm gonna try to stop hyperfocusing on passing idk what unrealistic beauty standards i have to adhere to for me to pass after already feeling good in my body, it's only gonna make me lose my sanity
>>42328776If you voice pass they'll just think you're an unfortunate girl, i assume basic effort into wardrobe and exercise occur but it is your voice
>>42328744post voice>peoplewho, your peers? people who dont want you to be trans?
guarantee you are doing "tranny voice" instead of passing voice
>>42328776>I call adam's appletrach shave existsWith that said, the great news is that you're feeling good in your body. That matters a lot more.
>>42328744Am I banned
is it genuinely over for me? So much of my body has been messed up during my early life. Before I even had the chance to process it all and knew about DIY, T and DHT wrecked so many parts of my body. I feel like a cursed abomination with so many flaws and yet somehow my boyfriend still loves me and accepts exactly as I am rn. Don't get me wrong, he would like some things to change too (SRS mostly), but he always reassures me that my appearance, my voice etc. are all fine and normal and that he likes them, thinks they are cute or pretty etc. Yet I've heard different views about those things coming from people online and my own inner critic. It all messes with my head, I don’t know what to think anymore. Maybe I have to go through some kind of ego death to process all of this and be more kind to myself. I don’t know, yknow?
>>42327967The board is infested with chasers so no shit
>>42327999I guess so
>>42327351hiiii
>>42327351When you start self-criticizing, acknowledge you are doing so and stop. You're making yourself sad for seemingly no gain?What more will satisfy you? Will you finally feel content when your bf" relents" and agrees with you and tells you how gross you are? What is the end point of this train of thought? Why are you doing this? Is it making you strive to be better or are you putting on your own shackles?
>>42328719Well in my opinion, a certain amount of self-criticism is important and healthy. I often criticize myself because I know I can and want to do better. When I keep bugging my boyfriend, it is often because my brain thinks one thing and he says the other. Of course I don’t want him to see me as disgusting like I do, but I don’t understand how he can see something different and so I ask "How can you say/see X?" What I should stop doing is self-flagellation, criticizing and insulting myself to an unfair degree. Why do I do that? Because I have internalized that I am ugly and gross. I always have been. My genetics and the influence of testosterone did horrible things to my body. Almost nobody ever called me pretty until I was a couple years into transition. I simply internalized that there are people who are naturally pretty and those who are not. I can only put in effort to attempt to be pretty through effort and it is exactly when I feel like those efforts are not enough and I will never be pretty, while others are just naturally pretty, that I break down crying and spiral.Thank you if you read all that
thread for telling people which one their artstyle isi go first
>>42328289which one are you
>>42328308the demon>>42311145
>>42328543well, i judge based on my inner feelings so it's hard to articulate but i'll try. it might be because your art combines anime and western styles and doesn't really commit to either of them. >>42327958 also mentions line quality which might've played some role as well.if you want to make it more malebrained imo you should try committing to one of the styles heavier. some hyperbole might do you good, i'd say your art seems... reserved? in that regard. you shouldn't throw all your habits away though, it would be harmful to your artistic development and also the ultimate fembrain. at the end of the day, if you're an average guy irl no one will judge you based on your art and you wouldn't give a fuck about it as well. this is a good drawing at the end of the dayalso drawing a pussy instead of obscuring in with a fur would also make it more malebrained
>>42328543I said your art was neutral. Still have no clue.
>>42328615>>42328622i'm cis les, i just wondered why it looked feminine
>QOTT: What's your breakfast beverage?I'm now strictly black coffee in the morning. I don't eat breakfast until late morning so I can intermittent fast. Hopefully I'll either lose weight so I feel less disgusted by myself or be in better shape for when I inevitably troon out as a disgusting lateshit.Previous thread: >>42285773
Honestly I'm doing great. Glad I detrooned. I'm glad I don't have to be a weird faggot and can be normal.
>>42328665>can be normalThat's the funniest joke.
>>42325107why can t you just be a feminine man tho? have you tried it?
is trooning really becoming a scourge why are there so many now anyway
>>42328832politics don't dictate trooning as much as normies and some reppers think.HRT availability has a bigger impact. Since DiY became a thing, trooning just kept on growing and continues to grow until it hits the natural plateau. We just don't know what the natural plateau is. Could be 2% of the populace, or 5%, who knows? But we will find out in a decade or so.
Any other trannies who can't function alone? Self-development, hobbies, self-care, all flies out the window without someone else
>>42328315genuinely this is me
>>42328608I did this one single time and we dated for 3 years. After breaking up I had no idea who I was anymore and had to find myself. It was quite terrifying. Now when I am in a relationship I cherish and protect my individuality at all costs
>>42328626well i mean how do you know you're gonna be functioning in a relationship if you haven't had one?personally i'm a mega c-ptsd superloser who thought i had no utility to anyone or anything and literally couldn't walk to a mailbox alone without crying (yes really and for years)... BUT THEN!!! my bff moved in and now we've been living together for like 12 years and she has a decent job and we both are living better than any other point in our lives and make art and music and stuff together and it's great most of the time.
>>42328668>it's great most of the time.how/when is it not great
>>42328728more of a complex question than you might imagine and something i think summing up might undermine the truth of by nature of raising more questions than it answers. there are really simple things like having to work a 9 to 5 never being ideal for anyone or health problems causing issues (i am partially disabled), and then there are more complicated things stemming from nuances of our dynamic that can result in arguments or worrying about failing ourselves or one another.the friction needed for a healthy relationship that helps promote the growth of both individuals isn't always plainly and obviously fun, though is frequently necessary for growth and provoking more meaningful interactions. some of the 'bad' parts are integral to the 'good' parts, so what i might complain about could also develop into a story about an important learning/bonding moment. neither of us are what the other wanted, romantically speaking - but what we thought we wanted out of a romantic relationship was driven by desire that had not been examined enough to realize our expectations and desires never equated to what another person actually is or offers. it's kind of like when you produce a track - no one actually imagines a full song and just goes about instrumenting it into reality, it's born from a lot of experimentation and experiences, and often the product of many happy accidents that maybe weren't immediately happy. we make better music together even though it is sometimes painful and confusing and we step on each others' toes or egos. i mean i feel like for emotional realization and general "quality of life," what's "not great" may actually be integral for developing and realizing what is 'ideal', which grows and changes every day. it's at its worst obviously when there is a lack of harmony following the friction - often when she has been depressive for too long a streak and i've become too high strung trying to help untangle it or motivate myself
>have AGP since a young age since before even knowing what it was>crossdress since young age>knew I was different so never told friends>rep hard>date girls>awkward around them, unable to initiate anything>have a few girlfriends over the years but AGP thoughts always come back and dominate>can now only get hard to the idea of being a tranny bottoming for my friend>crossdress more as adult>get make up done>go out and get fucked by guy for first time>omg felt amazing>no pnc after I came with him still inside mewhat does this mean? is this just a fetish? these thoughts/desires always come back. a lot of times purely sexual but sometimes I think it would be so cool to be a goth looking tranny guitarist in a shoegaze band or you know just being taken care of by a man
>>42327870I mean I think if I knew it would go well for me I would definitely do it
>>42326710Anon you are probably trans and your horny teen brain in puberty linked women to sexuality so you got aroused. Don't fall for the trap of calling yourself AGP instead of just transitioning like you should. Have some self-respect and do it right
>>42328625>if I knew it would go well for meThere are no guarantees in life, nona.But you miss 100% of the chances you don't take.You're setting yourself up for failure by avoiding anything that isn't fully guaranteed.
>>42327792then they probably have other talents
>>42326710>no pnc after I came with him still inside meSounds like my regular sex life.>t. tranny with live-in bf
Why does my boyfriend constantly tell me I look like a girl and get mad when I tell him I'm a man, when I so obviously look like a dude and don't pass at all? He always bitches at me when I call myself ugly and I'm at the point now where I just wanna call him a liar.t. boymoder
>>42326922Your hair looks heavily fried and it would be in your best interests to try and revive what's currently there, because fried hair leads to fragile broken and split ends and split ends make growing hair out hard.Olaplex isn't cheap so skip that if you have to but CER-100 is like $6 or something. You should at least do a protein treatment like it. Don't overdo it since too much protein makes hair brittle too but it needs some help unless you want to just shave it off and start over.Your roots are also yellow compared to the ends and purple shampoo isn't going to be as effective there, but I guess just keep it up with the purple shampoo. Purple shampoo can be a little drying sometimes so don't overdo that either.
>>42326734thought the same thing lole
>>42326972Ok, I'll look into it, but it'll be a week or more before I can get this stuff.
>>42326972>split ends make growing hair out hard.wait what, why?
>>42328793Damaged ends split apart, and if you don't maintain those splits they threaten to damage the hair above it too by splitting apartThe best solution is to regularly trim off dead ends. If you can't or if there's too much damage then semi-regular haircuts and trying to preserve the hairs strength is the second best option
MTFG: Make a thread you lazy troons editionQOTT: What are you doing for this weekend? January blues setting in?
>>42328167>Why not boymode?Really worried about boob growth making it too obvious and hard to hide>it may be illegal to not hire someone just bc they're transOn paper yes but businesses still dont care and can come up with a plethora of bullshit claims as to why they chose to not hire you. Ideally I dont want a wagie job, they suck and its extremely hard to live comfortably with one
>>42328197True ig. Ginecomastia happens a ton for nontranny reasons. I'd just lie about an unspecified endoctrinal issue desu.If you end up in a highly specialized field they wont care about gender or transness. Thats why so many mtfs are in compsci(partially)
Siiigh. Wish i wasn't ugly and literally looked 1:1 like the chudwojak meme so that i could troon out and become cute.It is what it is.
i smell like blood
qott: good morning, monday morning, do you have a case of the mondays? q4c where would you bring your tranner for a date on a monday afternoon? q4t do you have a case on the mondays?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4B0pLDqYqIhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XASNM1XEQPs
>>42325969Has anybody seen frisson?
I do not have a case of the Mondays because I have an extended weekend this weekDays in the cage now gave me a lil bit of a rash down there, looks like I'll have to get some baby powder if I want to be perma-caged...
How do I fix my relationship with my brother? Growing up he and I HATED each other, but we're 27 (me) and 32 respectively. And we added each other on Discord, decade or so ago. And we don't even live together anymore, he still lives with our parents in Kentucky, meanwhile I live in Seattle on my own. But I noticed he was playing Cyberpunk 2077 and I messaged him asking what lifepath he chose, and how he's liking it. 3 days. No response. I know he saw it because he's in online status.
>>42325969I have my twitter privated, how did you even find it?
ill never pass and life has only been seeming less and less worth it. even going from homelessness to having an apartment the gov practically hands me ive just felt like life is more and more pointless and it'd save a lot of trouble for others and me if i just ended it
>>42328548i already beat the bdd allegations
And yet you're still here. I wonder how much longer you'll bitxh and moan into the void.It's a fun performance dont get me weong though!
>>42328569Im just interested in what you look like
>>42328574im glad you enjoy it anon
>>42328771I just think it interesting that in some way you have a uniquely formated story of your life and interactions with others through message board archives. Funnily, hilariously, someone like you will be the things historians of the future will look at. 100 years from now, teenagers will look at the old banned internet (insert future hell here) and they'll read shit like this, you bemoaning your life and doing drugs and talking to strangers around the world.
You know the format.Include your tag.This thread is for making friends, and is not a general discussion thread.
>>42328301And a bureaucrats favourite place to be is in his office. Most people on the other hand would rather shoot themselves than live such a life.
>>42328093breh just take a chance and add me plz what if im not weird type shitlike idk what your personal definition of weird is but hey why not right?
>>42327688Wat soll dat denn jetzt heißen, junges Fräulein?
>>42328571it kinda reads like someone posting someone elses tag do you promiseee its u
>>42317190Guys I'm a twinkhon just to set expectations
If homo/transphobia didn't exist how would the world be different
>>42328523Freedom from foreign influence thwarting their own expansionist plans, while supporting totalitarianism domestically. Meanwhile Ukrainians just want a democracy within their internationally recognized borders and haven't bothered anyone.
>>42326746charlie kirk would be alive
>>42328535They donate money and such, of course they're not going to actually risk dying in war >>42328567Ok I don't know much about politics so idk>>42328568Possibly
>>42326746>he/them>she/them
>>42328788Well yeah the original was "you're about to hear the worst opinion"
Anybody on this board whose gender dysphoria had a late onset, i.e. starting post puberty or in one's 20s? Personally, I've only started being explicitly dysphoric after a random dream I had where I simply was a woman. Realizing that I was simply a woman inside that dream made me feel like the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders and I could properly breathe for the first time in my life. It was the first time I ever felt serene inner peace, and not constantly restless and melancholic. I wonder if anyone experienced something similar
Had dysphoria as a child. Lived old enough to become a man. Almost killed myself. Then decided to begin transitioning. One day I realized it’s too late for me. I’ve decided to give up and keep taking estrogen. Be a Boymoder. Maybe one day I’ll have enough money for ffs
>>42317769Men enjoy being rough
had agp since childhood did weird shit growing up like never wanting to have facial hair and borderline feminine fashion but i always look at through the lens of obsessive fetishistic rumination which has matured into seeking relief from feminine presentation
>>42327264Agp since childhood is as trutrans is you can get
>>42328558fuck am i supposed to do with that is there a reward
I'm a cis guy and can admit that my homophobic tendencies towards lesbians is entirely the cause of sexual frustration (I want to have sex with them)
>>42328752a lot of them have male interests. due to having been a man for most of their lives
>>42328752Somebody else will probably explain it to you in a more mean manner but transbians are looked down upon because a lot of older transitioners attach themselves to that label and act in such ways that you could call bad optics for trans people in general thus a lot of younger transitioners hate transbians as a whole
>>42328606Do you talk about your interests when you're having sex with women..?
>>42328752cis lesbians aren't interested in these things aside from reading
>>42328779Well cuddling afterwards is like the best part anon
I suffer a decent amount as a tranny in Australia.QOTT: Have you showered today?
>>42328683>>42328698I'm not in the business of housing the disabled.Back to your pathetic servers where you all think of and talk about me constantly.
y does she post about karter when no one else is even talking abt that lil mf but doesnt think shes the one w an obsession problem
>>42328493Nah we are fine.If you're having a bad time then you gotta fix yourself man
>>42328745worst part is you can tell shes talking to her self here
>>42328274You're doing great. Make sure you remember there still be some bad days, but youre on the path to a happy life
