Indiagen is back!>qottDo you know how to swim? If not, why not?>redeemed>>42176964
>>42182083insane.so godamn hot
need sonia to wake up so we can plan her ascension diet
Dawgy would be proud, I'm soaking beans for tomorrow
>>42182129Beans and deenz for the ultimate braps
seeing other trans girls wearing cute shit and girlmoding makes me so fucking sick to my stomach with envy they all look so good and pretty meanwhile if i tried wearing that id look like a grotesque monster. it makes me so sad. its why i dont ever girlmode
heres me (the op)https://imgur.com/a/0cYJ9Z4
Why aren't there diaper threads on her that often anymore? Those threads are how I realized I was trans and met my wife and it'd be really sad imo if the link between diaper fetishism and transness became more obscure
>>42180999why
>>42180997do you pee or piss in the diapers. is it the act of just wearing them that turns you on or the fact ur descreating in them. do you fuck in them. do u wear them in public. do you poop or pee in public. do you like the smell. do you also like farts. answer all. now preferably
>>42181973Yes to everything
>>42181973poop or piss not pee or piss i meant to say
>>42181983do you fuck with pee/poop in them
I can feed myself sometimes, but my cats eat better than I do most of the time. I just lay in bed all day and browse 4chan or watch YouTube. Occasionally I'll play a videogame or switch to Law & Order SVU. I take 40 mg Prozac and 450 mg Lithium carbonate daily for depression since my suicide attempt last year. I work maybe 12-16 hours a week at my job on average, because it's deadline based and impending deadlines are the only thing that motivates me to do work. Most of the time I'm just bedrotting and billing 40 hours. I'm considered a high performer somehow.I'm basically friendless in that I have no one I talk to regularly, including family. I have no motivation to make friends or leave my apartment except to buy groceries and pick up my prescriptions. I've been in plenty of relationships though the guy I was dating broke up with me a couple months ago.I hope it doesn't sound like I'm humblebragging since I know this is living the dream unironically for some of you. I just want to hear from anons who aren't suffering because of their material conditions. Because I feel like a pathetic nepo baby who needed a parent to beat the shit out of me a few times to knock some sense into me, and since that never happened, I can't function sustainably as an adult. Is this all there is? An endless series of tasks that I have to force myself to accomplish? I'm almost 28 and I still feel like I'm fighting the same internal battle over whether or not to build an exit bag I've been fighting since 18. Being around people makes me feel worse so I avoided it like the plague, and now people avoid me, because I'm obviously a neurotic anxious mess.Weed helps but only temporarily. I know I'm wallowing in self pity. I just hope someone will read this and say the right words to snap me out of it.>t. a mostly luckshit passoid, FFS and voice trained, a bit twinkhon-y but dysphoria is manageable, well paying career where I can WFH full time. I'm 27, four years HRT.
>>42179334>can WFH full timenot good for menthol>Being around people makes me feel worsehave there been people around which you didn't feel worse at times? like some of the relationships?>jew pillsprobably needed to manage for now, hopefully if you can socialanimalmaxx with people that actually make you feel better...
>>42179334Have you considered feederism? Women of your type are the single most common demographic to get into it
>>42179334so what you're saying is you transitioned into a woman successfully yet you're still unhappy? weird
>>42179334sounds like you need to develop some delusions. have you considered schizomaxxing? it's impossible not to feel meaning in your life when in personal contact with the demiurge
Share your biggest insecurity with the council of trannies and we will decide what you should do about it.
>>42181700guessing you are babytrans. ime facial changes are very subtle. because your face stores so little fat it is one of the first things you will notice change, but you will look mostly like the same person. just more feminine.
6’2 200lb gorilla who cross dressed in private sparingly over years but had the urge come storming back with vengeance this year. Now not sure if just cross dressing agp freak, or possibly non biny trans or something. Created stories in head to fall asleep at night throughout years with a character that was transformed to female.Idk what to do it hurts wanting to be beautiful but also male brain and would be a giga hon. What do?
>>42181790And the broad shoulders ?
>>42181872ehhh......you let me know if you figure that one out please..t. >>42179806(you can get clavicle-reduction surgery i believe but i don't know how much of a difference it makes. the idea of it spooks me personally)
>>42181959I've heard it can take off a total of 2" but a lot of upper body stuff is in the upper ribs, which you can't get reduced via commercial surgery.
it feels kinda bad cus it seems like everyones got a thing that makes them get super horny and i just dont. i remeber my cis gf was into shit like bondage and cnc and id do it for her but honestly it felt really awkward. if i had to say what my biggest kinks are ig itd be someone wearing a skirt durring sex and id wanna try a bisexual orgy where im in the middle.
>>42180069lolvenial /vē′nē-əl, vēn′yəl/adjective Easily excused or forgiven; pardonable. "a venial offense." Minor, therefore warranting only temporal punishment. Capable of being forgiven; not heinous; excusable; pardonable.
>>42181342>what is scary about it?I was scared of girls for a long time. Nowadays, when i text with a girl and sex is brought up i get really nervous, but at least i manage online. IRL i am terrible at reading attraction so everything is kinda uncertain for me
>>42181630do girls frequently bring up sex when you're talking to themmaybe the fear is because you are wishing you were a girl thinking about having sex with a boy
>>42181841Only when it would be expected, not really more frequently. And yeah, that is something that i think i experience, aside from always having been quite private
>>42181949i was like that too i was scared of what would happen if i had sex like how would i know what to doinstead i became a girl and got a vagina first and then when i had sex it came much more natural to me
i want to marry an ftm and spend the rest of my life with him
>>42180027Dat jaw holee
i can't believe this is the only recent photo of his face i have. it's so horrifically unflattering lol
>>42180027Do you have a happy trail I could bury my face in and a nice tdick I could spend an hour sucking?
>>42181821Do you have a favorite photo of him
>>42181966probably this one, it really makes me wish i had at least one high quality photo of him smiling as an adult though
I had an interesting moment before showering just now. I was naked, in front of a large mirror, and lazily inspecting myself. I've been on HRT for about three months now. There was a bit more breast growth, but other than that, I looked about the same. During that process though, for just an instant, I had a fleeting change of perspective. I knew I did not pass, I knew I did not look great, I knew there were plenty of flaws in how my face and my body looked, but I, for the first time perhaps, managed to see myself not as a man playing at womanhood, not as a man crossdressing, but rather, actually, somehow, as a woman. A woman that had been disfigured and led astray in development by some malignant force or other, but a woman nonetheless. It gave me a lot of hope, even though I know I have a lot of work to do, it was one step against the mental roadblocks I have in the way of seeing myself as a woman in any form. Any similar experiences? How does that go over time? There is hope.
I am not on any hormones. Wanna maybe start. I often look in the mirror and i feel like i look just like a girl, but its fleeting. I hate my voice tho
>>42181378I've had good moments like this but I started to feel really guilty and then really monstrous.So, with that in mind, I caution you to be vigilant of brainworms. Become a woman, nona. Do it for me and those who failed.
never as soon or as diametrically as you, but>How does that go over time? There is hope.yes :) for me it took maybe three or four years to stop feeling or thinking of myself as male. i don't feel female now (over five years) or even like a woman, really, but i definitely cannot see myself as male or a man anymore, at all. it was a very gradual change and i didn't actually notice it happening at all until i had some kind of epiphanic realization that my self-concept had been wildly different from how i remembered for some time.everyone is different, but presumably you will begin to see yourself as totally a woman after some amount of time on hormones.
>>42181849>I hate my voice thoyou have control over your voice right this instant!! voice-train now!!!!!it may be difficult but you have the power to make this change today, no hormones or anything required. i believe in you nona
>>42181378you type like a girl at least
> Be JK Rowling.> Admit that you would have been binding if you were a kid in present eraHoly poonrepper.mp3> Dedicate entire life and vast wealth to lobbying policies and culture war designed to get trans women denied healthcare, harassed, assaulted, raped, murdered, and completely alienated from society.> tfw JK managed to do more in one lifetime to trannies what conservative rapemoids have been trying to do to all women for all of human history.Is Robert Galbraith the most moidbrained soulpassing poonchad on the planet? Did he not poon out because he'd be too powerful?
he hasn't pooned out since he's in too deep now. if he tried he'd lose all his terf support including from the british government and get heavily fucked over.
>>42181654I checked the alternate timeline where Robert pooned out . It isn't pretty. The land is ravaged by war, plague, pestilence and famine. This was for the best.
>>42181717thats a funny wishful thinking, in reality she'd get 10x more support, especially from "former" terf trans men, and all the mentally stunted millennials who never stopped reading harry porter would just throw "b-but the author is trans" every time anyone criticized her
>>42181717I'm giggling imagining a future where she does transition but then she turns into one of those "trans women are speaking over me on reddit" ftms and does a huge campaign against mtfs from a different angle
Being anything over 5'10 as a MtF is a death sentence to passing. As a 6'0 tranny my face and proportions still are making me delude myself into thinking ill pass. I still cabt accept ill be a repper for life because I couldnt be anything more than a gigarapehon
>>42180689Im gonna assume your mom isnt mtf, so your argument is out of the window
>>42180139height is only the 4th most sexually dismorphic feature, literally doesnt matter
>>42180139where and when did u get the notion that being taller made you less appealing as a partner?
>>42180139what if im 5'10. am i gonna make it...
>>42180139Smother your man bones in female flesh
This is a thread for:manmoding,repping, or hons who knew of their transness at a young age and did not transition and now you seethe at gigaultrayoungshita who got on puberty blockers at 12 for 6 hours a dayQOTT1: when did you know QOTT2: do you hate youngshits or luckshits more ? And why?
>>42178654>Their experience is objectively antithetical to the transgender experience as we know it. When I see youngshits I feel the same as how I imagine veterans feel when they see meal team 6 clad in stolen valor at the supermarket. It makes me homicidal even.Spittin facts. They didn't have to fight like we did
>>42178940I have been very dysillusoned since I was child, thought my entire family were robots or scientists doing experiments on me I spend most of my time awake chronically journaling I’ve been doing this for maybe 6 years. I’ve been “repping” since I was 5 years old when I became aware of my nature I also have lo key violent thoughts to murder ppl and I virulently hate nonpassing troons (my self ) also I’ve built my life to negate my father picrel is sc with my therapist sorry if I did not explain well
>>42179273All right OP. You seem to be putting it on the line. I can give it a shot too.>QOTT 1We could argue the semantics of "knowing" all day, but I can say I was asking adults what life would have been like if I'd been born a girl when I was at least in middle school, and I remember feeling happy when an older woman said my eyes were too pretty to be a boy's around the same time.>QOTT 2At the moment youngshits, meaning youngshits relative to me being too old to post on this site. That's due to this bias: I have a nephew who has been transitioning into my niece. She is more than 10 years younger than me, which makes me depressingly frustrated since those are 10 plus years I never got.That situation also means I have to be outwardly supportive with my sister while feeling inwardly jealous, and balancing not looking like I know too much about trans whatever.>t. bitter repper in his 30s
>>42180963Damn anon, it’s scary for me being the only queer person in my family but that kind of fucking sucks I would not be able to cope especially with somone who is genetically related like she represents what you could have been:(
>>42175936i got hrt at 14 and im a manmoder. no im being entirely serious, strong jaw, long midface, big brow, 18.5 bideltoid at 5'9, humongous adams apple, like bigger than 95% of cis guys, and permantently masculine face. i say this to try to make yall feel a little bit better. we're not all passoids>QOTT1: when did you know12QOTT2: do you hate youngshits or luckshits more ? And why?i hate them all. its so isolating. i feel like im welcomed in neither community, youngshits or midshits.
My tranny cousin is hot and I feel like that's a problem.
>>42181857Why does this pepe have a super faint circle in the middle? Its tripping me out oh and you should fuck your cousin OP
>>42181857First for have sex with your cousin
>>42181857pls don't be my cousin
It's actually kinda funny how fast the guys calling me a man all day lose their minds when I call them a girl.
>>42179677Gotcha. This all sucks shit though and the meds I was given don't seem to be that effective.
"You sound like an emotional woman" is one of my favorite insults. It works them into a seethe every time
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>>42180361god i wish that were me (either)
>>42180361
ugfreak.to1. Would a product containing multiple forms of testosterone (Cypionate, Enanthate, etc) be more effective than just testosterone cypionate alone?2. What are the best resources for understanding different forms of gear such as Tirzepatide, Nandrolone Decanoate, Trenbolone Acetate, etc.?3. is 100mg/mL, 200mg/mL, 300mg/mL describing the strength of a single dose?Thank you
>>42180243also,don't post website links in your post. try going to sst (a search of sst + steroids should lead you to the right place) and look through some of the offerings. there's a lot of overpriced bullshit/dumbass 'testosterone booster' scams out there.
>>42180243God can you imagine anybody being so ugly? Can imagine doesn't even have a penis.
>>42180586off topic, get fuckedelliot page is a great actor and looks kind of funny, i love him>>42180547>>42180564Thank you
>>42180547steroidswiki has been banned now that i have checked and so i will be looking for its offspring on reddit. unfortunate but there are probably youtube videos or threads on other sites out there. will just put in the effort into finding them, thank you for your honest response.
>>42180674no, i meam the wiki on thw steroids subreddit.
is it easily visible if a guy struggles with his gender?like im cis boy but i sometimes have some non cis thoughts. like nothing serious but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad. but i think i have been quit subtle about that irl.however my friend said recently that i would make a pretty girl.like it had barely anything to do with the conversation we were having!!!it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.it was awkward. but the thing that troubles me right now is that could he know something.... like i havent told anything to anyone irl about what i feel about this.
>>42181492>>42181505 is right. a good therapist is hard to find but this is a pretty bad place for self-discovery. you don't sound like you're old enough to be here, anyways...no offense......look for someone who deals with queer patients, specifically. i've been through five therapists in my life, none of whom have had any knowledge of this stuff, and it has sucked lol. it is important to have someone who knows how to help you.anyhow, this does sound like gender dysphoria, not that i'm here trying to diagnose you. just something to think about.
>>42181199I think im in a pretty similar situation as you. Ever since i started questioning my gender i have thought back at my life, trying to see if there were "signs". I complaining about people complimenting my voice (rather deep), i remember wanting to wear feminine clothing. Despite this and more, i dont feel like people see this in me. Maybe i am otherwise too repressed. It dissapoints me
>>42181741Even if you were masc growing up, there might be someone. Both of my partners in high school said it made sense for me to be trans. One of them even clocked me when we dated. But I was otherwise just an autistic, masculine boy who was frustrated with gender roles.
>>42181492yeah you need to do something about thisdo you think it's going to be better in 10 years when you're that much older? you'll just be sadder.but fortunately you can change the future and become a girl by then
>>42181199In my experience it depends who's doing the observing. Most cis folks seem to be pretty dumb when it comes to gender, they just accepted the 3rd grade sex ed lesson of penis = boy, vagina = girl at face value without ever needing to give it any more thought. But there are exceptions, and some are more perceptive than others.>but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad.That's gender dysphoria for you. It's right in the name, feeling bad about your gender.>it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.Sounds like it affected you a lot. Why is that?>>42181224First post, best post.Really, OP, you should find a healthier place than here to talk this out. It's important to know who you are.
