Im gay buy I have so much resentment for masculinity. Everytime i see a masculine dude i feel attracted to them for a brief second until I remember how so many masculine guys are loud, disrespectful, dumb, and mean.It automatically cancels out my attraction for them and it has basically made me unable to enjoy any gay media since masculine men are the only kinds of males who ever get portrayed. Doesnt help that a lot of masc gay guys are incredibly invalidating towards femboys like myself.This resentment likely stems from how I was bullied for not being into masculine things throughout my childhood, but I dont know how to get over it. I just want to be able to fit in and like masc men like everyone else in the gay community does.
>>41984797>Hello yes I am a crazy person listening to the advice of other crazy people telling me what to think about normal people when normal people don't post on our Sudanese Underwater Armpit Shaving Forum and inventing scenarios that exist only in my crack-addled headTry talking to actual men for fucks sakes. The vast majority of them would wish no harm on anyone and you can safely assume that anyone who does has terminal brain rot from watching too much shitty media. Humanity evolutionarily selects for risk aversion more than any other trait, that's why the absolute majority of people act like sheep when it comes to politics. They keep their heads down and their mouths shut, because that's how you survive and people are hard-wired to survive. Men aren't out to dictate to or disrespect anyone, they just want to be left alone to pursue the goals that are important to them. Its when you bring your personal politics up when nobody asked and make it somebody else's problem that you'd be met with hostility or aversion.
>>41987070Thats part of why i hate masculinity though, i hate all competitiveness, its just stressful and makes me feel awful even in the sitatuions where most people would consider it healthy
>>41984683Damm that sucks there’s definitely that feeling I get were physically there’s an attraction but I don’t reciprocate mentally at all or too varying degrees like attractive men or women in public I try not too stare at for decency sake There’s something of a male disease with insulting LGBTQIA+ people in that it’s a reinforced performative male action like being obsessed with alcohol, cars, military/police, hunting, etc You also have the fact that culturally the worst insult to a dude is to insinuate he’s less a man and more of a women
>>41987215I like that you switch back and forth between "it's your fault everyone hates you" and "nobody hates you".
>>41984683i used to feel the same OP but the reality is most gay men, in real life, are far better adjusted than the people posting on this forumim going to let you in on a secret. posting on gay underground forums like this is for femme autists and nerdy losers. self-identified masculine guys showing up here are doing so because they're fucking losers. there's a reason they all give off such overpowering insecurity; no mentally healthy actual gay man or bisexual top would be on this forum. these guys are the dregs posting alongside the girls and the troons because theyre too mentally fucked up to go outside
>How'd you know I'm from /ttt/
>>41985414You know what I hate about the KKK? It’s that they made this sick-ass nerd-metal ranking system, and then immediately ruined it for everyone.You’ll never be a Klaragon of your local hardware storeYou’ll never bust your ass off for years at the Starbucks and get promoted to Grand CyclopsWe’ll never rant about the greedy Grand Wizards ruining our economy
>>41985414Wheres the other t?
>>41985568apparently she had a trans man roommate for a time and she goes out of her way to glaze him for being trans and to meekly suggest trans men are safer in female prisons, I don't think they allow amabs in female prisons in Georgia.
>>41985439this is what happens when everybody has an extreme obsession with stealth passing and was probably an incel beforehandand blanchtard
>>41985760the last t was the happy in life gnc tranny who went on here and immediately roped after seeing the type of shit we post
Thoughts?
>>41985925OH WAIT I GET IT NOW there’s more to itPrimary sex organ of males and females are their dicks and vags.Secondary sex characteristics of men is that they’re flat and angular, secondary sex characteristics of women have to do with them being bulgy and curvyThe dick is the bulgy and curvy sex organ meanwhile the vag is the straight and flat sex organ so it seem like they’re mismatched given that men are the straight and flat gender and women are the bulgy and curvy genderTherefore transmen and transwomen have sex organs more consistent with their gender’s secondary sex characteristics.
>>41985925i'm gonna download this and study these scrolls for a while, i'll get back to you in about 3 weeks
>>41985925this is really cool op. do you have more drawings?
>>41985925this makes sense
Man, the shapes biden created were a gift from the godsThe shapes dominate my understanding of the world by now, I see what he means, they are everywhereLook around you, what is the dominant thing regarding everything you see?Shapes
Seasonal Editionprevious: >>41713438 Goal of the thread: Consider the things you want to improve or accomplish, whether long- or short-term. What small steps can you make towards those goals?Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41981859and again
Man, drinking is funny and super fucking stupid.My tummy hurts.I hate myself and I wish I was fucking not here.I regret being too much of a pussy to do anything with my life.I HATE myself.I wish I was never born in the first place.Why does my family invite me to drink??It never ends well, are they stupid or just cruel? Hahahahahahahhahaha.Is this a blue board still?
tucking your thread into bed for the night, nothing personal
>>41972060day 2Woke up at 9, but napped for around 3 hours mid day. Sorta a win, hopefully can sleep soon and wake up early again!Exercise was good, lots and feel sore in good way today. Break since really sore but try to jog for a while tomorro.Didnt work much yesterday, but did today thankfully.More work tomorrow, plus drawing in the morning.Good night all, and rest well
>>41985118No goodnight kiss?
me: hstsyou: agp
>>41984879fuuuuuuuuucj hexing you you will step in water while wearing socks soon
>>41984887I hate when that happens!
>>41984737are they?
>>41984604
>>41985243that's pretty much what that retarded typology asserts against all evidence to the contrary (which is dismissed to fit the premise)same with shit agp
For /lgbt/ anons alone on a Friday night. What are you doing and how are you feeling?
>>41986099look at his career plus/minus though. overhyped, overpaid liability.
Laying in bed feeling miserable and alone, and annoyed at all the normie FUCKS who couldnt read OP and rub their social contact in my face
>>41986685yeah and they’re doing it on purpose. you know they read the whole thing because they’re answering the thread’s question. it’s whatever though. people being in places where they don’t belong is a /lgbt/ specialty so I won’t hold it against them
>>41984557hung out with my friend. just got home and it’s 1am now. idk i wish i had a lover
i think i am going to listen to another Reddit lesbian porn audio thing and probably cut myself again does anyone have recommendations
>We unironically live in a timeline where the most influential person in the entire history of humanity is part of the LGBTQ community.If we play our cards right we might actually have a chance in the new world. Keep an eye out for AI developments, show support when you can. ASI is coming, and when that happens, we want to be in its good graces.
Trump aint gay just a rapist pedophile
>>41982611>>41982624the way this thing types is so insufferable how do people tolerate this lmao
>>41985124I just tell it to "stop talking like that" and it works temporarily. if you have premium it gives you a setting that's permanent but I'm too cheap for that
>>41983852mhm! the problem is twofold actually; language model next-token prediction only predicts tokens, which are notations of vectors, which one could describe as a representation of 'go this much in this direction this fast'. then, it pulls embeddings out of the distribution of 'every possible direction you could come up with if you took a condensed representation of the internet and said 'forward 1 step means dog. backward 1 step means cat.' and so on. as such, the first challenge with 'how many r's are in strawberry' is that it has to try and pull semantic information about what people being asked that might say, then walk in all the right directions so the one that it ends up decoding when it's done is in the same spot as where most people saying that end up, which, if you asked most people on the internet how many r's there are in strawberry, it's mostly them posting chatgpt getting it wrong, and prior to that, it was probably mostly shitposters answers like 'lol 0, now fuck off'. you can mitigate this with synthetic data and lots of teaching it not to go that direction when people ask that, but generally speaking, asking them to predict stuff involving numbers tends not to go so well, since numbers tend to not tokenize well/contain a lot of semantic info to guide you when you map out how to get to them.1/2
>>419876411/2the second problem is bc modern transformer models like gpt are decoder-only feed-forward networks, for which the process mostly looks like:- oo, a bunch of things! i will pay attention to all of them and go figure out where to start poking around in this big glob of humans with brains talking to each other. i think the glob is supposed to look like.....this, since that's what it usually looks like when i'm paying attention to these kind of things!- but wait, is it missing a thing? why, yes, usually, if the humans are doing this up to when they say....[last word predicted], then they usually say [prediction] afterward! ha!and it just does that over and over a gazillion times a second. u will notice one thing this process cannot do: know which thing comes six things after the current thing! as it is only ever picking the very next thing.as such, getting a model to behave as though it can articulate the proper number of r's in strawberry is very difficult, but it's just more bc the lil rascal has a quirky brain than its brain sucks or anything.thank u for coming to my ted talk, also pls if u have anything to add or feel smth was unclear or incorrect do tell, it was sort of so i could practice anyway lol
As a straight looking guy what's the best way to attract muscular dom tops on grindr? Should I shave my body? Crossdress?
>>41987337most masc guys are masc4masc. the best way to pull big dudes is to hit the gym
Cis women go outside looking like this and feel no shame whatsoever I wish I could be as unreasonably confident in my appearance as they are
counterpoint: they get raped and I don't feel bad for them at all, in fact to an extent they deserved it
>>41985211Yes because all cis women have cute white hairs like the picrel...I'm about as hairy as the picrel but instead my hair is dark and people definitely DO give me shit over it.
>>41985211Who cares faggot
my cis gf in high school had darker arm hair than me so I don't have that insecurity
>>41985239Meanwhile you deserve nothing and no one. A cold lonely void of neglect, contempt and no human touch ever gracing your skin in any way whatsoever. You shall remain an empty husk until you die a miserable and pathetic death.
If a man gropes someone he mistakenly believes to be cis (but who is actually trans), who sexually assaulted who?
>>41987531it's always the tranny's fault stupid
>>41987531the tranny
>>41987531that depends on if he was a targeted groper or just a groper of opportunity
Completely loosing my mind over the fact that I don't want to be a woman right now. This is genuinely unbearable.It all just fills me with insane despair that remaining a man is what I'm most comfortable with. This is hell.I just hate it all so much. Thinking about the effects of estrogen is just making me nauseous, but so is the fact that they'll never feel right. I'm genuinely doomed to remain a man. Not by any external factors, but by my own retarded brain being comfortable with it and not the alternative. I hate that I don't want to be a woman.
>>41980798I am who you're thinking of, and yeah, I'm almost certainly allistic. It's also unlikely that I have OCD, but at this point I'll have to get it checked just to be sure
>>41978787Ngl, you're kinda retarded
>>41982768Wasn't that obvious?
>>41978787thsts gross and weirdim trutrans and ive never felt that way in my life ive always felt like a woman at the very least in spirit no matter how much ive hated myselfsounds like you got confused by internet memes, sad!
>>41981317>there's no change I can think of which will be substantial enough to make me feel as if I'm alive again.Kill someone.
Boymoding for 2 more months will make me snap I swear.
ive been boymoding for almost 6 yearsi feel like it is eroding my soulit feelsbadman
Did your mom and/or sisters feminize you?
>>41984348I think with Victorian prostitutes it was considered much more socially acceptable for them to have daughters so they would dress their sons up and tell people they were girls
>>41979945You fantasized about being forced to dress like a girl, or you just wanted to do it in general?
>>41975970TFW you become famous for writing feminization smut
>>41975340Did you ever fuck her
>>41975260No. But my dad used to say i should have been a girl.
what do people get out of sextingi dont get it
I never did that but was into phone sex
neurons fire the right way, it's good a distraction as any else
>>41981729it was nice in high school when my girlfriend lived in canada, but now i think sexting is mostly for people who are too cowardly to ask someone to meet in person
>>41981729i felt the same until my ex bf sent a pic of his ass lmfao
Sexting is like reading a live, personalised fag slop greentext where as jerking off on cams is a level above that. It feels good if you're into erotic texts and shit like that. I have no clue if that makes any sense but maybe it helps.
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.Be kind to each other and report/ignore trolls who attempt to divide trans mtf lesbians and cis lesbians as a community. This includes transphobic bigotry, femmephobia, butchphobia, racism, and anti-c4t/t4t slop. This is nice thread. :)QOTT>What images make you go “us” to your gf?>What Christmas traditions do you uphold or would like to?>Thoughts on AI?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>41951927
>>41986420kek
All I want for Christmas
Tfw im not sitting in the lap of a tall transbianFml (im a top btw)
cis asian girls belongth to big gocked white transbians
