>G making people triggered in multiple threads
okay i believe hes a boy now

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Got a rlly cute trans guy in my dms rn, hoping things go well ~o~

>>42329129
Lol, just a bit o’ trolling

So this is where you've all been hiding.

>>42318881
The hips

>>42314036
G and Dark Empress would get it.

>>42328971
Forgot to mention, but I'd love to get in touch, if you'd be willing to chat. I really don't want to pester you with my doubts, worries, and neuroticism, so I understand if you wouldn't want to get in touch, but I'd love to ask you more about your experience transitioning.
You can add me on discord if you use it. My username is .reeddeer. (with both periods)

>>42328971
>What was the main thing which made you realize that it all was right for you?
It wasn't one thing. It was gradual. The less lonely I was, the better I felt about everything.
My old self didn't "die" by one cut. But by 100,000 cuts. There is no silver bullet.
>difficult for me to believe that my own reason is good enough for myself
You are the only person you can control. Therefore your reasons (for anything) are the only reasons that are good enough.
>realize years later that I was doing it all for nothing
Living with regret for trying is easier than living with regret for not trying.
I know that from experience. I tried gymbroing and professional european football. I got nothing out of it, theoretically. In fact I harmed my body a bit with the extra T and some injuries.
But in fact I still got something: a few acquaintances and the certitude that that was not for me. Yes it cost 2 years but I wouldn't have gotten here without it.
There's nothing wrong with exploring your identity, nona. Even getting certitude of the wrong answer is still an answer that eventually helps.
>I intend to come out to most if not all my irl friends asap
Granted, I didn't have this problem because I was a legit loner.
But I also really didn't go through the "coming out" thingy (tbdesu I find that cringe). I just allowed it to be noticed gradually and when my parents pressed as I was like "yeah, I am transitioning" and... that's it.
By doing so ironically (or maybe not?) got people to like me more because they liked me due to my personality, not because I'm a tranny.

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>>42329253
>The less lonely I was, the better I felt about everything
I've felt inhuman for so long that I completely forgot what loneliness even feels like. No matter what, I always feel alone because of how detached I am from everything, so it's really hard to even imagine what feeling like there's a genuine connection would even feel like.
>You are the only person you can control
I guess so, but I really would much rather give up any control of who I am, not because I want someone else to do so, but much rather because I can't bear my own presence most of the time. In most ways, I really don't want to be myself, both physically and psychically.
>I tried gymbroing and professional european football. I got nothing out of it
Me too actually, and while it felt good to make some arbitrary progress, I was never able to truly care for it, nor did I ever feel fulfilled by it.
>Even getting certitude of the wrong answer is still an answer that eventually helps
I'm genuinely extremely afraid of finding out that transitioning is not the right path for me, but I also can't stop feeling like that is bound to happen. I know it won't be the end of the world if I had to detransition, but it may as well be, since it's basically impossible for me to imagine being happy as a guy.
>But I also really didn't go through the "coming out" thingy (tbdesu I find that cringe)
I find it cringe as well mostly, but I feel like I have no other choice but to do it, as I'll otherwise be stuck loosing my mind from obsessing over whether I'm making a mistake or not. If I come out as a sort of "trial", only to then not want to go back to being a guy, then at least I'll know I'm moving in the right direction.

>>42328990
I stopped using Discord in 2017 and my social media presence is intentionally low or next to nonexistent. It's how I stay free from brainworms.
I don't really have time for vocal chats anyway. I created quite a busy IRL life for myself, desu. Precisely so I can avoid falling into terminally online behaviors (and thus thought patterns).
Still, you can write to me here incelnona@proton.me

>>42329858
>so it's really hard to even imagine what feeling like there's a genuine connection would even feel like
I remember this part. It sucks. I know.
But nobody can stop it for you. Only you can do that.
>but I really would much rather give up any control of who I am
Not possible. And even if it were possible, it's a really bad idea.
>I really don't want to be myself, both physically and psychically
That sounds rough. But it's also a good reason to seize control and change yourself to something you want. I know, cliche, but it fucking works. And it feels great once you get going.
Both the gains and the losses compound on each other, nona. So staying on a losing streak makes things progressively worse. Starting winning doesn't immediately improve things but a few wins in a row literally turns the ship around.

>>42329482
bottom chasers are straight men though >:3 you're just angwy because we get to gluck on yummy gocks and you don't, loser >:(

You guys get a bad rep because of freaks on grindr that first message shit like "come fuck me while I wear my wife's clothing" just because they see a trans person

>>42327861
True, bi tranny and I view bottom chasers as disposable pleasure. I want to emasculate pathetic fags and kick them to the curb once I'm done with them

>>42329531
>come fuck me while I wear my wife's clothing
what's wrong with that?

>>42330004
1. Infidelity
2. dl
3. Cross dressing
4. My profile says I exclusively bottom
5. Trying to live vicarious tranny fantasies throigh me instead of just transitioning
6. Didnt try get to know me, Im straight but if I love someone I'll top them

>>42329912
Sounds like maybe you're just obnoxious and insecure

>>42329742
i was thinking there was some hope for me :[ i hope everything goes well for u anon

>>42329963
Being tall is fine if you look like a tall woman

>>42329912
honestly it sounds like something to address in therapy, because it will ultimately come down to how you relate to your own body. by your own admission you are stealth so clearly you pass enough for cis people to pay no mind. i think this stretches into the boundaries of dysmorphia rather than just being dysphoria. i’m sorry, i know how it feels to hate your own body.

>>42329992
You're probably right i am getting a new therapist because my surgeon for srs wants me to have one, I'm sure I'll mention this at some point with her. It's frustrating desu knowing from experience I pass but still having image issues even if they're far less than before I transitioned.

>>42328196
>>42328374
You might as well pop another hundred of bucks for a quick consultation with a lawyer then. Don't be an idiot

>>42328706
>hundred of bucks
hundred bucks

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Coming to the painful conclusion that my BF will never be as authentic to me as I wish he were. I know I don't have the right to know everything. I am speaking up about being curious about his person in an entirety, anything and everything, and am never judgemental. He is what I consider the best partner I could possibly imagine. And I am radically communicative about my activities and thoughts with him myself, which he does appreciate a lot. Catching him doing things as small as they may be and him never mentioning it, even upon inquiry? Makes me feel like he is hiding more than I will ever know. I assume I need to let it go and accept the sadness this arises and concentrate on something more worthwhile than what might just be romantic fantasies.

>>42329624
It does sound like you’re looking for a level of reassurance from your boyfriend that isn’t realistic. You should not rely on a partner to regulate your emotions. A lot of interpersonal advice will have you thinking that you can control other people’s behavior by acting right, but that can give you unrealistic expectations about what you can control and make you feel responsible for other people’s behavior.

Maybe your boyfriend can’t reassure you as you want because no other person could, but maybe he’s making you worry for a reason. Either he’s just more emotionally distant than you want (very common in men) or he’s keeping something from you that he doesn’t feel like telling you because he knows it will upset you.

Experience has taught me that it’s easy to expect too much from a partner, and that can cause problems, but also the people we date can have trouble communicating in a way that can make little problems way bigger and uglier than they need to be.

I'd like to troon out but given my faceshape i'll always be pretty ugly.
I know its silly but i dont want to do it unless i have somewhat of a gurantee that i'll turn cute afterwards.

>>42324624
I’m srry to be so indecisive here but I just feel like I hit a wall ):

Who here is a Christian transwoman? and if so, how long have you been transitioning and are you attractive and blend in with society?

>>42327354
there are thousands, if not millions of Christian transwomen across the globe. OP is no different from them: they live their life with peace and joy now that they have accepted their true selves.

>>42324604
>How can that be is what I’m getting at? :/
How can god be kind if he wouldn't be accepting of our own desires and free will?

>>42322549
>god isn't real bud
Does it matter if he is real or not? I'm an atheist and I understand God more clearly than most faithful do. I just don't agree with it. I don't need to have any crisis of faith over what God would want of me, which is utmost fealty and submission. It's pretty clear in that book he apocryphically wrote.

>>42328626
well i mean how do you know you're gonna be functioning in a relationship if you haven't had one?

personally i'm a mega c-ptsd superloser who thought i had no utility to anyone or anything and literally couldn't walk to a mailbox alone without crying (yes really and for years)... BUT THEN!!! my bff moved in and now we've been living together for like 12 years and she has a decent job and we both are living better than any other point in our lives and make art and music and stuff together and it's great most of the time.

>>42328668
>it's great most of the time.
how/when is it not great

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>>42328728
more of a complex question than you might imagine and something i think summing up might undermine the truth of by nature of raising more questions than it answers. there are really simple things like having to work a 9 to 5 never being ideal for anyone or health problems causing issues (i am partially disabled), and then there are more complicated things stemming from nuances of our dynamic that can result in arguments or worrying about failing ourselves or one another.

the friction needed for a healthy relationship that helps promote the growth of both individuals isn't always plainly and obviously fun, though is frequently necessary for growth and provoking more meaningful interactions. some of the 'bad' parts are integral to the 'good' parts, so what i might complain about could also develop into a story about an important learning/bonding moment.

neither of us are what the other wanted, romantically speaking - but what we thought we wanted out of a romantic relationship was driven by desire that had not been examined enough to realize our expectations and desires never equated to what another person actually is or offers. it's kind of like when you produce a track - no one actually imagines a full song and just goes about instrumenting it into reality, it's born from a lot of experimentation and experiences, and often the product of many happy accidents that maybe weren't immediately happy. we make better music together even though it is sometimes painful and confusing and we step on each others' toes or egos.

i mean i feel like for emotional realization and general "quality of life," what's "not great" may actually be integral for developing and realizing what is 'ideal', which grows and changes every day. it's at its worst obviously when there is a lack of harmony following the friction - often when she has been depressive for too long a streak and i've become too high strung trying to help untangle it or motivate myself

>>42328631
duh thats why u spam the board even tho everyone hates you

>>42328315
this is me but im also too nervous and ashamed of myself to be in a relationship or even have friends a lot of the time so i just kind of do nothing by myself most of the time and wait to die

>>42328185
ROK is too far away, m8

>>42328152
>and did you get a bf after that?
yes. But a few years in, not immediately.
I love the results (and lowkey resent not having started earlier) but the process wasn't quite smooth, though smoother than the horror stories I sometimes read on this board.

>>42328152
go after post op ones idk

>>42328185
are you actually a korean tranny

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>>42328095
do i look female enough for you?

>>42325797
they were clearly asking op, are you retarded or trolling?

>>42325708
He wants to put something in your butt.

>>42325708
I tell girls they look so pretty when i look them in the eyes with my dick in their mouth, same concept probably

>>42325757
op is probably actually ugly so she is confused

>>42329835
Theres nothing confusing about it. Men will fuck anything no matter how ugly it is

>>42330116
youre welcome then :)

>>42330159
i don’t have a best friend

>>42330186
Do you prefer dogs or cats?

>>42330186
if you ever want to climb trees and wrestle in the park and not talk about life hmu

>>42330186
i'll be your friend if you let me fuck you

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>>42326676
this server makes me forget my troubles

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Girl penis has got to go

>>42327985
>creative
oh so there's no point in joining

>>42328540
Yeah, community is nice. Its just ruined by Karter and his emotionally charged authoritarianism

>>42328700
omg yes fuck karter i can't believe he's been paying to host this server for so long what a jerk!! he totally ruined this server by umm.. uhhh... using creative mode to build train tracks?

I really miss someone on i met from soc who I talked to every day for months. Ended on new years. I hope he is safe and has a roof over his head.

>>42325968
A girl i met on here

>>42325968
My ex from years ago
My friend who stopped talking to me for a big part
This girl I just started talking to because she's at uni rn and I want to talk to her

I miss spice
I loved her

I miss a little twink lesbian

what's going on here? when did my son become my daughter? when did this become normal?

>>42328876
Is that terence tao? I like his analysis textbook a lot!

noooOOOOoooOOoooOOOOO the heckin geeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssss
you need to breed! ur dad is the math man on twitter!! wtf the west is falling noooooooooooooo

>>42328876
tranny genes are smart genes, whatever reasoning that has

>>42329151
Are you retarded? He is not "math man" on Twitter, he is one of the smartest people alive today and it would be a shame if her elite human capital spermies weren't saved

>>42326530
youre projecting.
i love my mom, and her dementia bums me out.

>>42328670
>>42328722
How isolating

Isnt chuddery a kind of debt the present pays to the past? It always manifests as a fixed attachment to ancestry. Good or bad doesn't matter as much as the bond of kinship does. Strong fillial loyalty is the ground upon which chuds grow. And a weak bond allows the seeds of rebellion to flourish as the child must accept responsibility for his own creation and sever the umbilical cord himself, thus inverting the primary power relation, thus setting in motion a series of inversions in the course of a life of which the transsexual one is only a single possibility/moment.

>>42329441
chuddery is "anyone who doesnt care about [current thing] and doesnt conform to whatever corporate retardism people divide themselves over"

>>42329441
I just hated because I was bored and had no friends and the only place I found community was /pol/