Accidently got really drunk and high and told literally every single friend (both IRL best friends and online friends) in a big group chat that I'm trans or non binary and want to go by they/them. Then told a few friends in private I'm trans.I'm too scared to open up my messages now, I saw a few previews and my friend said she's happy no matter what I do and that we should go shopping, a few other people seemed maybe supportive. A lot of my friends messaged me asking if I was okay or needed to talk but I just ignored them mostly.I feel like I fucked everything up and I honestly just want to crawl in to a hole and disappear forever, for reference I'm a detransitioner/repressor for like 4.5 years now (prev 5ish years on hrt)i also wrote a big letter to myself begging myself to transition even if I don't feel like it in the morning
>>42329104>>42329157You sound lovable and nice, just miserable because of your current state
>>42329210Or just any other kind of dissociative disorder. Really common for trannies because growing up dysphoric often leads to dissociation simply to survive.
>>42329180im autistic you ODD shitbag. DO THE WORK
>>42329246sorry :(, probably therapy didn't stick because I'd usually avoid the gender issues and so I spent every therapy session playing it close>>42329225thanks anon, I think I used to be but the last few years I've turned in to a pretty bitter, self obsessed person that uses others. Hopefully I can improve that.>>42329235>>42329210I do have a lot of issues with dissociation but not DiD as far as i knowanyway so im not just using this as a way to talk about my favourite topic (how miserable and cool i definitely am like a tranny dostoevsky character)does anybody have any advice on discussing this stuff with people close to you? I was really fucked up when I sent my messages and I barely remember what they say and I'm terrified to even look but I imagine my friends will have a lot of questions (though its been a running joke forever that i'm trans so desu it might not actually be that shocking)
>>42329050You need to do damage control and say that you aren't actually trans and just were really drunk and said things that just came to mind, but aren't actually trans. You fucked up
>be a cis woman>society largely accepts that you face unique problems as a result of your sex>sexism, periods, pregnancy etc are all recognized as unique burdens that you must bear in any respectable community irl or online>abundance of places irl or online where you can talk about your unique problems and receive affirmation that they are indeed problems worth discussing>purposely come to the tranny board on 4chan dot org to whinge about your female anatomy and how the dirty nasty troons are so sexist for not wanting to hear about it and how your desire to be included is more important than their feelings of dysphoria and they are sexist dirty male freaks for not accepting you with open arms>meanwhile trannies are getting stabbed in public, banned from shelters, terrorized out of mens and womens public restrooms, and having their hrt taken away and surgeries made unobtainableDo we seriously not even get to have one single space, even one as garbage as this one, where we can discuss our problems without being told to shut up because real women have it worse?
>>42328983>didn't they do a study the famous study that isn't verifiable in anyway and lumps theyfabs with binary trans men lmao. Maybe ftms should man up, can't let the twitter transbians keep being the man of trans people come on
>>42329368You're retarded if you think total rates is more important in this statistic than per capita rates.
>>42328983I think it was found that FtMs face more sexual violence but less other forms of violence. Also the high school bathroom study that found that when bathroom restrictions are in place, MtFs face higher sexual assault rates (38% of MtFs sexually assaulted per year vs FtMs 34% or so) while without restroom restrictions, the MtF rate falls to just slightly above cis women (19% vs 17%) while FtM rates are still slightly elevated (24%).
>>42329433she was just hoping to lump in proportional stats with the raw numbers and hoping u wouldn't notice
>>42329368>just shows how much of a self centered victim you think you areshe says as she comes to the tranny board to complain about her issues not being taken seriously enough
Is it manly for them to get plapped?
>>42329046are vagbros even a thing or is it a board psyop/mtf detroon reppers/ftms larping
>>42329521Alright, but you're gonna have to teach me how to play again, lol.
>>42329580I don't know how to play lol I just think it looks really cool!
>>42329046i am a detrans mtf due to the bad political situation now and it's kind of embarrassing i still have a fwb that plaps me from time to time (he thinks he'll boyremove me or something lol)
>>42329588Oh, haha. I've never played it before either. Just looked at the steam page and it looks crazy.
For the last month all I could think about was the fact that I'm trans and to be honest sometimes I still think these are just some confusions but alas I somehow managed to repress it for 23 years and not realize despite being in a very queer friend group. I thought the depression I had randomly developed when I was 13 was genetics or bad luck or whatever but it makes so much sense. The intense hate and disgust I felt about my own body, the shame in the locker room, the uncomfortable feeling when I was in a cis male group. Heck I suddenly remembered how I pretended to be a girl online and tried on my mom's clothes when I was a kid.There are so many more things that were terrible in my life that are now explained but I thought that would at least give me some calm now that I have answers but nope. I'm so scared. Scared about what this means for my life, my relationships, my jobs, my degree etc. and worst of all: That hate I felt against my body, the fact that I found myself repulsive turned from sometimes crying in front of the mirror to thinking about it 24/7. When I walk past a mirror I actively avoid looking away as to not make me feel even worse. I never thought I had dysphoria but now it couldn't be any clearer. I hate this feeling, I hate this flesh prison and I hate how depressed I become even though I should be focusing on my exams right now.Luckily I have a therapist appointment soon but even if I get to convince him to get me started ASAP it will probably take up to a year before I can even get my hands on HRT. I have such an intense feeling of urgency suddenly. I feel like I'm watching my body change for the worse every day. I'm scared I'm already late but if I have to wait another year idk how I will cope. I will never be pretty or able to pass. I'll never be happy with myself. I know it's never late to transition and that's the mantra but that doesn't change the fact that I will always remain oddly shaped, clocky or just unhappy in my own body.
>>42329481Luckily i have several ear piercings already and I take very good care of my hair since baldness runs in the family and I can't afford losing anything
>>42329519Im sorry to say that taking care of your hair will not prevent mpb, but if you can diy order some dutasteride or finasteride it should save you temporarily if you start losing hairq
>>42329535ah ik i'm on minox already trying desperately to convince my derm to let me have fin. An anti androgen before being able to start HRT? Yes please immediately. He's telling me nah you might develop breast tissue like that's sth bad
>>42329513it's under $200/yr for crying out loud
get on DIY right the fuck now, it's dirt cheap
New Year's Editionprevious: >>42044782 >>42079478 (died prematurely)Goal of the thread: Consider the things you want to improve or accomplish, whether long- or short-term. What small steps can you make towards those goals?Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42328196Did a lawyer confirm to you that it's hopeless?
>>42328252There's no way to prove any of it even happened.
>>42328196>>42328374You might as well pop another hundred of bucks for a quick consultation with a lawyer then. Don't be an idiot
>>42328706>hundred of buckshundred bucks
Coming to the painful conclusion that my BF will never be as authentic to me as I wish he were. I know I don't have the right to know everything. I am speaking up about being curious about his person in an entirety, anything and everything, and am never judgemental. He is what I consider the best partner I could possibly imagine. And I am radically communicative about my activities and thoughts with him myself, which he does appreciate a lot. Catching him doing things as small as they may be and him never mentioning it, even upon inquiry? Makes me feel like he is hiding more than I will ever know. I assume I need to let it go and accept the sadness this arises and concentrate on something more worthwhile than what might just be romantic fantasies.
I suffer a decent amount as a tranny in Australia.QOTT: Have you showered today?
y does she post about karter when no one else is even talking abt that lil mf but doesnt think shes the one w an obsession problem
>>42328493Nah we are fine.If you're having a bad time then you gotta fix yourself man
>>42328745worst part is you can tell shes talking to her self here
>>42328274You're doing great. Make sure you remember there still be some bad days, but youre on the path to a happy life
>>42327263I'm on that hustle grind. No time for showers, babes.
I walked up a castle with my bf today what did you do with your bf today
>>42329560Very cool after we walked up a castle we got food and drank now we are at home resting
>>42329546Had a quickie this morning, then each went to work.I got home earlier and now I'm cooking dinner.
>>42329546Nothing as I'm single and don't have a bf because I'm not gay
>>42329546peasantcoded bevahior
>>42329615How
Trans men had female privilege pre transition. That isn't their fault however it is their responsibility. If they want to be men they must be subjected to a 15 minute tickle torture session as reparations
Why women love this fagslop?
>>42327616nonethe world is a homophobic placeit's all psyop anti-gay content I can't even find gay vanlifers who do adventure stuff!
>>42327622They're totally out there (Gay vanlifers)What about books
>>42327637>They're totally out there (Gay vanlifers)ive been looking, its mostly lesbians, and mostly straight couples and a surprising amount of solo womenI found ONE gay male couple and they don't really travel they just "thrift" which is boring>What about booksname a book about a romance between two effeminate gay men
u cant spell happenis without saying ah-penis
>>42329248kys
i want to live in trans dictatorship
>>42329155I do too but only if they're all ftm and kept their tits
>tfw no trans dictatorwhy live?
where is it edition>qott: why did no-one else make a thread for so long am i the only one who is desperate
>>42328924Sent, starts with f :3
why are you horny
>>42328349the usual tranny pedophile
>>42325828god, i would fuck the shit out of it.and then cut up its thighs.
>>42328591I'm not judging you but what about this fetish gets you off? I always thought fart fetish is mostly of the "I want her to fart" type rather than "I want to fart".
>be me>AGP dysphoria>start diy hrt out of despair>euphoria hits>months later>starts lactatingi feel like i need to get euthanized after this
>>42329410Really? So they'll produce breast milk like a biological females? Never knew that either.
>>42329256Too high prolactin Lower dose otherwise trouble will arise
>>42329417Sure, takes some work and most men aren't capable of it without hormones and supplements but still. Don't really even need estrogen for it always.
>>42329417>biological femalepeople are going to get mad at me for saying this but after 3-4y HRT you are basically biologically female minus a decorative penis. skin/hair/eyes/drug tolerance/emotions etc. boobs are boobs, theres no difference between trannyboobs and regular boobs after enough time. you might need to add prog to reach tanner 5 tho
>>42329450Trannies are men for life. It's not that anyone's mad at you, it's that you're retarded for diminishing women when you supposedly want to be one.
Is fucking a pooner in the ass considered boyremoving or girlremoving?
>>42328651Who cares
>>42328679op caresnow tell him the answer or shut the fuck up
>>42328651If it’s in the asshole girlremoval
>>42328651It's based but I expect him to return the favour and fuck my ass. We need more vers ftms
been too fucking long dudesWhat do you look for in a trans woman, apart from her penis/willingness to top?
>>42328453Yes
>>42327226recipe?
>>42328453It's gay sex disguised as straight sex and that will always be funny. Grown men coping with homosexuality while pretending to be straight is funny
>>42329482bottom chasers are straight men though >:3 you're just angwy because we get to gluck on yummy gocks and you don't, loser >:(
You guys get a bad rep because of freaks on grindr that first message shit like "come fuck me while I wear my wife's clothing" just because they see a trans person
Bach mogs all your tranny music lol the little fugue in G minor is better than ALL tranny music, except of course Wendy Carlos which happens to be a tranny which produced excellent music. I guess what I'm trying to say is Bach Tops Trannies Flop.
>>42328991true&real
>>42328974I have never used ketamine and I don't make youtube videos but I do like Johann Sebastian Bach >>42328991So he TOPS while everyone else FLOPS.
>>42328775do you just like wendy carlos because of switched-on bach
>>42328817What instrument?
>>42329354no I like her other stuff too
